#literally the reason im alive

[junkcrows]

Hmm, If Seok-chan were to die, I fuckin hope Yeong-hu mourns like a man who just lost his beloved wife. I need him to scream. I need him to wail. I need him to cry his eyes out. I need him depressed. I need him to be a madman. I need him to kill everyone!! Also, I want Seok-chan's ghost to haunt him. (I love Yeong-hu pls)

I swear they're precious to me. I just need this trope man. I need it.

If they erase Seok-chan and Yeong-hu's relationship, I am coming for your family writer and director.

#sweet home 2 #kang seok chan #kim yeong hu #sweet home #sweet home and gay ppl #I need them alive lol #I will literally jump if they die #i swear #im going to kms #pls writer and director #OR IM GOING TO WRITE IT MYSELF #i just love them so much #pls pls let them live omg #they're the reason I continued watching season 2 so please

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

do you ever just sit there thinking about your favorite ocs while violently shaking. god. clenches fist. They're So.

#every time a song from their Joint Playlist comes on i go fucking feral #the betrayal the refusal to Let Go the haunting the persisting love the renunciation the resentment the abandonment the resignation #the overwhelming desire to do good vs the fear of admitting you were wrong vs the two people you love most tearing each other apart #AGHHHHH FUCK FUCK FUCK IM SUDDENLY DEEP IN THE ORIGINAL SAUCE #five seconds i was Normal. scribbling welcome home #then One Of The Songs Came On and now im losing my fucking marbles #perceived betrayals leading to real betrayals.... #going too far and now its too late you're Committed you cant go back #he came to you thinking he could make you understand and you could work together to make things Better #and instead you ripped his heart out and left it bleeding on the floor for everyone to see #THEY MAKE ME MORE INSANE THAN LITERALLY ANYTHING #absolutely unprompted #the oc Unwellness comes and goes in waves but its the only true constant obsession with my life #god those three... my dearest darling Trio.... how old are they turning this year? #is it year eight of having them? year nine? #one of the two is for sure how long ive had My Specialest Boy Light Of My Life The Reason I Am Still Alive #the other two came after... maybe only mere months after but he was the first and he is just. i love him so fucking much #he is so so personal to me. he has a permanent place carved out in my chest #he sleeps on my ribs <3 #the other day i was reminiscing about his development over the years. his changes his different Versions #and fuck... he's really changed with me huh?? #his past selves are echoes of my own self over the years #like he is Very different from me but at the same time. i created him with little pieces of myself sewn in #we hold the same views the same beliefs. im not him and hes not me but we're Kindred yk yk #i think i need to go listen to his playlist.... how long is it now... let me check... 15 hours 13 mins... 228 songs... #my gay 5'2 powerhouse of a guy. him <3 #maybe 'them' too he's played fast and loose with gender over the years. holy shit wait #his development echoes mine... i characterized him as 'fucks with gender norms' long before i realized my own gender fuckery #god damn. i love him even more now. i didnt think that was possible. im going to cry. hes so important to me #he has been with me through my worst years... and will be with me through all the hard times to come <3

[ghostlyleech]

me when i get a utrh angst edit on my fyp and the comments are filled with jason haters:

(i hate when people hate on jason or bruce for what happened during utrh like they both had their reasons and were both valid for them it doesn't make one more right then the other tho and definitely doesn't warrant hate for either of them)

#like im not saying that he's a saint or anything lots of the things he did was terrible and even with the whole pit rage thing #and talia's manipulating him he still did bad things #but the comments were acting like bruce was completely right like yeah it was bad that jason taunted him with dick's(supposed) death #but he was also angry and scared and grieving #they both were #they both made mistakes but it doesnt make one or the other right or wrong they both had their reasons for doing the things they did #just the comments calling jason an idiot and saying he was making it about himself like yeah?? it was literally HIS death #like yeah bruce suffered from grief for so long but like he wasn't the one who died and came back to see his murderer still alive #rant #batfam #jason todd #rant post #batman #bruce wayne #batman and robin #under the red hood

[spaciebabie]

Hey mate, why are you attracted to the rabbit man? The green one. What is interesting about him to you? I've been curious (and slightly afraid) for a while and thought I'd ask.

alright tldr; he is a combination of all of my favorite things in media when it comes ta a character. hes a monster, hes a dilf, hes a bunny, hes got a nice voice, hes evil, hes a robot, hes interesting ta me beyond a simp level which really sells it i think (or its the bunny thing i really like bunny characters skjdgkdjgkdf). there's so much you can talk abt with him. theres so much you can do. hes an evil fucked up scientist who loves his kids so much he tries ta reverse death itself ta bring them back. he manages ta die and then bring himself back ta life through pure spite and grit and determination ta "come back". he fucking survives a fire and then assumedly rebuilds himself which under than assumption (even though scraptrap is butt ugly) that would take an incredible level of ingenuity. literally how could i not love him. hes this twisted fucking mutilation of humanity melded with metal. he willingly gave up his humanity ta become this horrible fucking thing and relishes in it. ive seen ppl talk about the trans metaphor and yeah!! that totally applies here too (i hc spring/william afton as trans cough cough). what i really like especially is how he does all these evil fucked up things and feels no remorse about any of it like!! sometimes storylines will try ta make the villain sympathetic but fuck that!! let him be unabashedly evil!! even though i think his motive for killing kids was ta save his own, its still super evil and fucked up that he took those kids from other families in the first place!! and its so cool!! hes repeatedly inflicting the same trauma on other parents he felt himself with no remorse!!!!!! talk about irony!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the story telling with him can be so good!!!

#springtrap hates being alive ouuu but he loves it #DO YOU UNDERSTAND???? #HES SO FUCKED UP #ANOTHER REASON WHY I LOVE HIM #HES JUST SOME FUCKED UP GUY WHO FACED THE CONSEQUENCES BUT ENDED UP KIND OF LIKING THE CONSEQUENCES??? #RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH #spring would use it/its pronouns #i think he would also be a demiboy and bi lol #springtraaaapppp i love you springtraaaaaaapppp #spacie splains #hes SO much fun ta analyze i literally have a whole thread in one server im in where i just dump brain thoughts sometimes #havent done it in awhile b/c uhh the simp thoughts get in the way unfortunately SKJFSKJFDSJDF

[ratskool]

I’m like Johnny Truant in the tags of every goddamn post I make or reblog on this site and I’m not apologizing. If you want me to apologize come over to my house and you can talk to the minotaur about it

#House of leaves #im literally going insane these days I should go back to journaling but I’m also afraid of how far off the deep end I’ll go #Literally I am losing it and I’m being serious #I’m so fucking tired of being lonely and being left out and not being able to make connections #Sometimes I feel as if im doing things without realizing and no one is telling me about it #Other times it feels like I must have something incredibly wrong with my face or body and no one will say anything #People make plans and don’t bother to ask me if I want to join and then when I find out there’s a group chat that all my friends are in #Except me and when I asked if I could join I was given a bunch of reasons that were frankly bullshit why I couldn’t join #Are they talking shit about me? I know everybody there it’s not like I am a stranger #Am I just a stranger in this world as I unllikeable? I try my best to be nice and charitable but what am I missing? #Do I black out and say things and do things? Am I more mentally ill than I know? #The only reason (or one of the very few) why I stay alive is because of my horses because I know they would miss me and I already feel bad #Not seeing them everyday #I’m tired of being the odd one out I’m tired of being entertaining when necessary #I don’t want my only friends to be horses because it further alienates me from the rest of society and I just want to be accepted I’m not #Looking to fit in I just want connection and friendship and I can barely seem to manage that #Maybe I’m just not worth it.

[alethiometry]

for my own peace of mind i may need to stop reading r/yellowjackets jfc. in just a single post i have seen people theorize that

javi is still alive bc he found an underground hot spring / javi found civilization and saved the girls

jackie's dream actually happened bc she wouldn't have dreamed of the dead hunter

laura lee survived the plane exploding bc we never saw a body

#yellowjackets #i am BEGGING people to have some goddamn media literacy oh my god #javi never being found is the most satisfying narrative from a tragedy perspective imo #hunter guy was in jackies dream bc hes foreboding as hell and she KNEW in her last moments that she was dying #laura lee literally exploded on screen lol #like are we stupid. are we literally stupid. #also savior javi theory is so fucking dumb. doomcoming was like month 4 or 5 out of 19 #he would have needed to find civilization so fucking quick to still be alive. doesnt make sense that it would still have taken that long #to find everyone else. esp bc if search and rescue knew the area javi was found it would have significantly narrowed down the search radius #the only reason javi MIGHT still be alive AT THE TIME OF 2x01 is bc we need to continue establishing that lotties visions are believable #but i go back and forth on whether that matters bc the important thing is that she is charismatic and compassionate and inspires hope #which are a more solid groundwork for her development into a cult leader #in any case i dont think javi is going to be rescued #if im wrong ill happily eat a rabbit or whatever

[fuzzbuns]

I usually dont feel the need to post things like this but ive seen like a billion posts saying the same thing all with like a billion notes/likes whatever so im just gonna shout into the void and say: some people seem to have only taken in what scaramouche had to say about what happened between him and ei and have completely ignored what both ei and miko had to say on the matter and its genuinely so frustrating. Ei did not see humanity as a flaw or hated him because of it or whatever wording you wanna use its literally because he shed tears that she took pity on him and did what she thought would be best for him. Miko suggested literally destroying him but ei couldnt bring herself to do it. Obviously, scaramouche took this as him being thrown out because he was weak but thats not what actually happened at all. The story between scara ei and miko is genuinely so heartbreaking because of how unintentional everything was and yet ppl would rather just label ei a hater ig and move on

#fuzzy rambles #genshin fans actually pay attention to what the female characters say challenge: FAILED #im not saying scara isnt in his right to feel how he felt but to ignore how biased his telling of events is is just so?? #people will not stop parroting this tho as if furina was not also literally cursed #the only reason scara is still alive is because ei also cared about him and his heart #if u wanna talk about a hater in this aspect dottore is right there LOL #Like. guy to literally did hate scara because of his humanity and ruined his life about it #usually this stuff would go on my twitter circle but circles are gone and i hate twitter so

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

friendly reminder that self harm is lying to you

#the worst is when it promises you'll feel better and then you simply. do not. you feel worse and then you want to harm again bc surely that #will make you feel better right? THAT WOULD BE A NO. IT DOES NOT. #anyway today i went to spotlight cause i was sad cause i got the result for my 35% assignment i really struggled with. 32.5%. failure. #and at spotlight i made the foolish error of buying without knowing price. but like who makes a book a normal softcover crochet pattern boo #$55?! anyway it's a lovely book and am excited to try a few of teh patterns but the guilt is eating me alive #and also im super stressed about the assignment i have to turn in on thursday and haven't started #anyway i was literally four and a half hours away from being seven days clean #and i am just so sad right now #and i reopened one of the scars on my wrist too while on shift this morning so that's fun #not badly but it's just gonna mean it scars even more isn't it because of course #i was feeling incredibly awful for some reason i can't even remember and i kinda clawed up my arms. and no i don't count that as #breaking my streak bc it didn't cause much damage #i just. placement is so wonderful but life is so so hard #i don't know i want a hug and the assignment done and everything bad unmade #and the scars i have to look at every day on placement gone. #i want to talk to s but i haven't responded to her last message and i don't know how to respond but i need to respond to that #:(( #honestly actually i think i want to talk to aunty. friend's mum. in person. and get a hug. i want a hug. #im just. So Sad. and i want my brother and Ransom and this is not helpinga nd i don't know what would if anything

[amugoffandoms]

every day I have to remember that the threat of a prisoner dying is looming over our heads and I am scared

#IM GONNA BE HONEST #IT CAN LITERALLY BE ANYONE #muu was shown to be suicidal in after pain #haruka threatened to kill himself #yuno asked if she was alive #fuuta said he couldnt handle it anymore #shidou is still grappling with his innocent verdict #mahiru almost died #kazui is actually okay for some reason which im scared about #amane is worrying #mikoto is also worrying #kotoko could die because of a guilty verdict #JUDT WHAT IS GOING ON *SHAKES THE BARS OF MILGRAM* WHAT SRE YOU DOINGGGG #mug talks #milgram

[thekintsugikids]

tourdust is gonna be done in less than 24 hours what the fuck am i supposed to do till october

#idk it’s been nice and fun to indulge in all the brain rotting insanity that i watched from afar as a kid (x9387482 bc tourdust is unhinged) #and to be able to just have a period of time carved out in the day to just be insane about these dudes #that ive spent my entire life practically fixated on who have brought me so much joy & happiness & are literally the reason im still alive #to be able to be unhinged without any judgement because everyone’s on the same wavelength #idk. it’s silly but ive enjoyed it a lot. it’s meant a lot to me. and im gonna miss that #or at least the consistency with which tourdust has brought to that #fall out boy forever believers never die blah blah blah in my feelings bullshit ik ik #fall out boy #patrick stump #pete wentz #joe trohman #andy hurley #fob #tourdust #so much for (tour) dust

[soldier-poet-king]

Ik the cover page illustrations aren't canon but he's wearing friendship bracelets with shikamaru and gaara so it's canon IN MY HEART

#fran reads #ANYWAY pt 2. starts off so strong #return of the KINGS. gaara. rock lee #literally weeping at gaaras growth #hes so sad and so hurt and he chooses to change his path anyway #he has suffered so and yet to do nothing would be to suffer more #and he sees naruto as his mirror. and naruto lives and loves because his friends are precious to him #so gaara voww to make the sad village precious to him. and him as their leader precious to them #not as a creature made to be a weapon. but as their leader and protector #he finally has a reason to why hes alive. why he was made. why he survives #it is love. just as his tattoo. but not a violent self love of killing to prove he exists #but self sacrificing love even if he is still feared and shunned in return #he was captured bc he chose to use the last of his chakra to save the village #im fuckin BAWLING #i am a grown adult sobbing about the silly ninja manga #also finally sakura gets to be competent and do shit THANK U #i want to be good. i want to have a purpose. i want to have and br smthn precious.

[ikosburneraccount]

SICK and TIRED of the “Peony is the name of Cinder’s firstborn daughter” takes GTFOH AS IF CINDER WOULDN’T NAME HER DAUGHTER IKO JUNIOR!!!!!! 

#the lunar chronicles #MINE #IM SO OVER PEONY!!!! ITS A COLD TAKE #BFFR WHO WOULD NAME CINDER NAME HER DAUGHTER AFTER: THE TRAGIC LOSS OF HER ADOPTED SISTER WHO ULTIMATELY WAS A CHILD #OR HER BEST FRIEND AND LITERALLY THE ONLY REASON SHE STAYED ALIVE SOME DAYS OUT OF HER SHEER LOVE FOR HER MISS IKO #WE KNOW WHO WOULD WIN #just had to get this off my chest.... #linh peony #linh cinder #iko

[rivilu]

Hey hello can i be sad on main or will the heavens unleash 7 thousand ravenous hawks upon me

#river rambles #vent post #tw for basically everything bellow just saying it now #sorry the last 8 years of not a single reason to live are getting to me <3 #i hate being alive i hate being trans I hate being autistic and not able to work like a normal person #to provide my transition to myself instead of having to rely on parents that kiind of support me? (dad) or are straight up pulling - #the 'you're making MEEE SUICIDAL!' card (mom) #i hate not being able to talk to people like a normal person #it's not even just the autism anymore i feel like i've been the worst version of me for such a long time i dont even know where to start #dysphoria is so fucking bad and getting worse every single day and any semblance of trans positivity winds up feeling toxic #like even body neutrality feels like an insult. im at a point where i want to tear myself apart just when i'm sitting still #i hate being told to wait for things to happen #the dreaded 'it'll get better' #it hasnt #it's been EIGHT. FUCKING. YEARS #nothing helps. i've exhausted every option within reach. no words of encouragement help at all #literally the only OPTION is to wait. and i've had! ENOUGH OF IT! #I've dreaded pride every year because it feels more and more like i'm living a lie being there. im not PROUD of being trans. #All i feel about it is misery. All the time. I hate my body so fucking much i cant do a single thing i want to do #most of my early years after figuring out im trans i tried to just ignore it and focus on pride about my sexuality #since i couln't transition then anyway #but as time went on and i became an adult and there's still not a single glimpse of light on the horizon. I can't focus on it anymore #because you know. those things are interconnected. So now i just feel like an unlovable piece of shit! #Like i will never be what i was meant to be. what i want to look like. #and i dont even want to try for any manner of relationship before that . because even if anyone DID like the current version of me #that's not even me #birth is a curse and existence is a prison etcetera

[ozlices]

if it's too late at night or a really sensitive day it's really dangerous for me to think abt oz vessalius bc i will just be completely inconsolable and i dont even have his plushie to hold and cope so you can imagine the crisis im having rn with it being past midnight on a very sensitive day thinking abt him so intensely

#mine #he's. my baby. he's my everything. he is my SON #he is literally my reason for being alive i would not be here without him #my primary protector was literally a fictive of him originally. that's how deeply his impact on me went. #i. hhgjhgd hgfdjkh HNNGNGFKD MY BABBBYYYYYY #I WANT HIM BACK HOW MANY GODDAMN ANIME REBOOTS DO I HAVE TO SEE HAPPENING BEFORE PH'S HAPPENS #I JUST WANNA SEE MY SON AGAIN IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK. IS THAT SO MUCH TO EXPECT #WITH HOW HE WAS BUTCHERED IN THE OG ANIME. I JUST WANT TO SEE HIS STORY GET JUSTICE #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #ok im posting too much im gonna. watch youtube videos and maybe drink and be a normal person gn. #pandora hearts #oz vessalius

[pawphin]

long ramble in tags tldr: kindness rules

#was it genocide that got them to the human world or was it her kindness and promise at the expense of her past #who was ultimately the reason the goldy pond kids were able to survive and escape #who got stabbed by a demon and was in a coma for four weeks trying to protect her newfound family #ultimately shifting his perspective on humans and hunting in general and becoming a driving force in their efforts for freedom #who became best friends with the literal ''evil blooded girl'' and was able to come up with a sound solution to demons needing human meat #in order to maintain their forms #do you think norman would be happier knowing he had to be the sacrificial lamb killing children with his bare hands and fully executing it #do you think ray would be happier if emma had simply let him die instead of giving him a firm dose of reality and helping him to #live a life full of love and support and kindness #of course she isnt perfect and i most definitely would change a lot of things if i could but this is just one of the many comments i see #when youre blinded by hatred you cant think objectively #i understand that norman went through freakish amounts of hell but to put it in my perspective: if i were a demon #i highly doubt that i would fully understand how intelligent humans truly are #you know those videos of people boiling crabs alive and saying ''it doesnt hurt them'' #there would probably be a lot of rhetoric around that nature and all i would know is eat human fingertip = go play tag #so why would my parents deserve to die? what difference is there between cattle like pigs and cows in our world to humans in theirs? #anyways. im sorry for liking stories where kindness prevails and opens doors to opportunities previously thought imaginable #i hate constantly seeing this stuff when looking up tpn and it irks me it really does

[antigonenikk]

imagine being 20 on the beaches of okinawa in 1945 witnessing horrors unimaginable and then you get a letter from your dad that your dog died. eugene is stronger than me. i would have been cooked fr. killed myself ASAP.

#the pacific #eugene sledge #why didnt they wait to tell him 😭😭😭😭😭 literally #so FOUL of his parents wtf #like ur son is in HELL sir lets let him keep at least one reason to stay alive #when hr dog dies and now all u have to live for is rami malek #im sure some of the girlies on this site can relate!