#look i haven't written in months

[eqt-95]

untitled supercorp excerpt

It was a clever plan. It was so clever Lena was about to pat herself on the back.

Until the cursed wheelie chair whirred across the grated floor and brought the last thing she wanted to see on this or any other depraved planet back into view.

“What are you doing?” Kara asked.

“Going out,” she replied stiffly, adjusting her bag and checking that her scarf was tucked securely into her neckline. She’d only finally extracted the last grains from her last sand-ezvous, and she was not keen to revisit that experience.

“Uh, no you aren’t,” Kara said flatly. It put Lena’s teeth on edge.

“Funny,” Lena began, rounding on the blonde now towering over her by four annoying inches, “I don’t take orders from Supergirl.” “They weren’t orders,” Kara huffed, her arms crossed and stepping between Lena and freedom. Well, sort-of-freedom.

“Then get out of my way.”

“I wouldn’t expect someone so good at holding grudges to be so forgetful,” Kara replied far too smugly.

“I'm fully functioning in that department, thanks.”

“Oh, so then you didn’t forget the Goobs lurking around every corner.”

“Hardly. Now please-”

“We should wait until the next cycle. Until I can go out-”

“That’s eight days away, and in case you bothered to notice, we’ve got just enough amorphous gray goop to last two.”

“Then I’ll go" Kara said, all cheeto-puffed out chest and heroic vibrato. "Solo.”

Lena scowled. “You are incompetent and powerless.”

“Not if you radio the instructions to me.”

“How do you expect me to instruct you to do something I haven’t even seen?”

“I’ll… I can describe it to you.”

“You may have won a Pulitzer, but don’t be so misguided to think it had anything to do with your vivid imagery, Supergirl.”

Kara flinched, her chest deflated, and Lena felt emboldened.

“I’ll take my chances,” Lena said, pushing past Kara. “I’m not risking another setback.”

“Lena-”

“What?” Lena snarled, fingers gripping her sunglasses with a threatening creak.

“Let me.”

“Why?” Lena asked, swinging to face Kara.

“B-because,” Kara stammered.

“Because? That’s why?” Lena scoffed haughtily. “Because, because, because,” she continued, a mocking tone, “Ambiguity is no different than deceit, Supergirl. What is it this time, hm? Can’t trust a Luthor? Can’t risk me sabotaging your heroic return? Can’t-

A chair flying, glass shattering, and a symphony of clanging metal-on-metal interrupted her.

“What the fuck Ka-”

“Because I can’t fix you!” Kara shouted.

Lena blinked, her corporate demeanor stunned by the shards of glass glittering the floor and the seething anger coming from the powerless Kryptonian in front of her. The wheelie chair spun uselessly as a final stack of scrolls tumbled to the ground and spilled across the floor.

“Excuse me?”

“I can’t… You’re not,” Kara began, looking perplexed, disoriented - scared? It did nothing but feed the inferno of loathing Lena felt. “You’re not a gadget or some gizmo or… you’re not me. You can’t be fixed with a sun or a-a lamp. If you get hurt - you could get hurt.”

"You'd get your wish then," Lena replied icily before pushing open the door and stepping into swirling winds of dust and red haze.

#i haven't had the headspace to write much but #here is an unedited potato #and yea look so they hate each other in this one (until they don't) #which i don't think i've written before? #and this idea has been buzzing around my head for months #supercorp fic #supercorp #kara and lena

[metathemeta-art]

specifically for any other celiac dca enjoyers because. look. we gotta cope somehow!! but also this can apply to anyone who has food stuff going on. I think Moon would be super gross about it but he would also not let a single thing poison you ever. special robot sensors or something

#living vicariously through all the y/ns who are written to just be able to eat things #god I wish that were me #disability pride month might be over but dont worry moon will still taste test your snacks #not used to tumblr formatting sorry if this post is super long #ANYWAY tags time #art #artists on tumblr #fnaf #fnaf fanart #moon fnaf #moon x reader #moon x y/n #moon x oc #I really don't know which of these this fits into #let me live I am so sorry #daycare attendant fnaf #also if you're wondering why the drawings look like they're out of practice it is because I haven't drawn properly in ages #sick with the secret third thing (don't know what it is) #anyway time to stop writing an essay goodnight everyone

[mattodore]

found out while putting together matthias's oc page that his name has the exact same etymology and meaning as theo's name...

i’m sure this is information matthias is very normal about…

#theo is in fact a gift from god so jot that down ! #river dipping #i've been throwing myself into oc stuff bc i'm not doing hot mentally which is... tbh when i do my best writing 😭 #none of this is new tho i wrote the bios and 'at a glance' intros months and months ago when i first made an oc page #which is why i do plan on rewriting them but for now i'm leaving them like this... so i guess the echthroi page is done? #obviously echthroi has more characters than this but i haven't taken new screenshots of everyone yet... #i put the gray cas bg back in my game a few days ago only to completely forget i wanted to take new headshots for the oc page 😭 #like these are just placeholders... i want the backgrounds to match the oc page. oh... or maybe i could just do transparent pics? #i think i remember vyx made a post abt how to do that... will look into that when i open the game again. rn i'm at my keyboard 🧑‍💻 #like i am writing new things! started a google doc for theo yesterday and have been writing on it here and there since then #i've already cried in there... lmaooo. i like oc pages for sure but i think a huge google doc is what i really need to keep track of things #i drop so much lore in tags on here and it's like! river write that down somewhere else or you'll lose it 😭 #like i fr have never actually written down any of the info i've shared on here. i've just had all this oc knowledge stored in my brain. #so i went through and copied over a tonnn of tags and posts i've made into google docs but i just know i'm missing things i've probably #said in the tags of their core tagged posts... 🧍 if my blog didn't have so many posts i'd have an easier time going through it but 🤷 #and on top of that i've been making a bunch of posts about theo and matthias on my main acc. which is like 🧍 well great now there's more #i'm gonna lose track of...... i fr have gottt to get into the habit of actually putting things down in theo's google doc!!! #i'm just trying to figure out the best way to format it all but i've downloaded a few templates that i've been messing with. #...anyway. if it isn't obvious i'm trying to get back to posting on here. i'm opening my inbox now with the intent to just. #sit here in my inbox until i can get myself to reply. lads... avpd is actually so torturous i'm not kidding. #i feel like i'm dying trying to get myself to interact with people sometimes even despite how badly i want!!!! to interact!!! #theo and me and our avoidant trauma responses holding hands and skipping around together

[tenspontaneite]

A robot can have evil little electricity eating tentacles in their wrists. As a treat.

(This is pretty much just a Seven Red Suns Hand/Harvester ref for Assembly)

#seven red suns #rw seven red suns #rw srs #assembly #anyway so these havent shown up in story yet but i have written their first appearance #the harvester tendrils are based on inspector arms #the funny extra filaments aren't part of the harvester they're just there for 👁️ misc sensory purposes #the grey bits that look like rubber on my srs design are in fact all organic and very weird muscular structures #they can move and seal and unseal and rearrange at will #i am working on some applications of this #anyway as my longer term followers know #if i spend more than a month in a fandom and haven't done something fucked up to someone's hands yet #i will simply drop dead on the spot #my art

[throttlegainwell]

Hey now that I can finally drink again, turns out it's conducive to getting a little writing done!

(I don't know if it's good, obviously. But something on the page is preferable to nothing.)

#alcohol tw #i just haven't been in a writing mood the last couple months #i mean I've posted but those were mostly written already #not that being in a writing slump is a big deal in the scheme of things it's really not #but I'd like to finish a few more things #especially now that I'm not constantly coming uo with new wips #anyway I'm being careful and I've never been much of a drinker to begin with #but i did miss having a drink in the evening once in a while #and i have all this bourbon people gifted me #that I've just been looking at sadly for years

[jessamine-rose]

/obey me! vent/

#jessamine rambles #before i start. pls keep in mind that this is fully subjective and could just be a 'me' problem. i just want to get this off my chest #ngl i've been contemplating on whether i want to stop playing obey me. both the og game and nightbringer #idk i've been playing the game since its first month and while it's given me a lot of joy + memories + chances to befriend other ppl. i'm #pretty burned out. not to mention TIRED of my consistent disappointment with the game #the main story.....where do i start?? i actually enjoyed s1-s3 despite my qualms with the fillers and pacing but s4 disappointed me. i was #rlly looking forward to simeon's storyline and the new characters but ultimately. the devs tried to squeeze too many things into one season #not to mention that there is a notable difference in how the characters are written. i.e. beel's hunger and asmo's beauty #being watered down to running gags instead of the complexities explored in the old dg stories and chara songs #gameplay-wise. i was there when the devs raised the rewards price of the event urs and removed the demon ssrs completely #but nightbringer was the last straw for me. the amount of time it takes to grind for two games. knowing that the og app has essentially bee #abandoned by the devs?? not to mention that while the plot is interesting. i haven't touched the main story ever since the coma arc #i will give credit to the devs for improving the event stories by choosing to focus on 1-2 demons. but it has always felt like a quantity > #quality situation. esp if i were to compare it to my other fandoms #it also doesn't help that i'm currently at a point of my life where i'm questioning if i could use my time on obm for better things #seeing how the game is giving me less reasons to believe it is worth my time #idk this may also be a short-term phase since i DID get back into twst after a long hiatus and i recently got into whb #which btw has felt like a breath of fresh air despite my frustrations with the bugs and current gacha #but yeahhhh........as much as i love the obm characters and fanfics. i'm just tired #at this point i feel like the only reason why i still play the game is due to the nostalgia and so i don't waste the years of grinding #aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #this is what i get for being the type of player who only plays a few games so they can rlly dedicate their time and passion to it #that's all

[sinking-into-mist]

I got back to trying to write the Olli/Aleksi fic I mentioned last(?) week, and this is basically how it's going

me: this will be a cute fluffy sfw story

o & a: but what if we kissed... and our hands started to wander... and things got a little heated...

me: sure, a bit of that sounds great 👍 just don't get too carried away!

o & a: *kissing, groaning, neck biting, slight scratching, moaning*

me: okay that's enough! let's go back to the cute fluff and wrap up this fic

o & a: no 😊

me: i won't let you continue. go to bed boys.

o & a: okay!

me: ... wait, i meant, go to bed for some cuddles and sleeping!!

o & a: lol sure 😏 *undressing each other in between heated kisses*

me: i did not see that coming

#characters doing whatever the hell they want is both the best and worst thing about writing #also. the fic i'm writing now is so clumsy but i was like it's just because i haven't written in months and i'm rusty #but last night i took a look at some of the fics i've written earlier and maybe this is just how bad i am at writing 🙈 #anyway i still want to get back to writing more because it's lots of fun even if the quality is low #and ofc i have to do nanowrimo also this year so it'd be nice to try to write a few stories before that as warm up #i was thinking of attempting to write a drabble or something for each bc pairing #but actually i might be more tempted to just write some olliallu stories #because i'm in the mood for that and also apparently so far i've written only like 5 olliallu fics and that needs to be fixed #idk we'll see how it goes 🤷‍♀️😅 #not that i think anyone cares about my story ramblings considering i haven't even published any fics lol #just felt like rambling anyway 😂 #ALSO if someone is planning to do nanowrimo and wants to talk/rant/panic about it hmu

[greyias]

My scene skeleton/expanded outlines for this fic are starting to get a bit out of hand.

Actual, written first drafts of the first two chapters:

Me pre-writing the next three chapters:

#greywip #so you can see #going about the same as chance encounters #halp #i want to write this faster than the ten months it took for that one to get done #i can't believe the outline for chapter 6 is longer than the actual word count of the finished first chapter #there's fifteen total beats i have written down #and so that's looking like probably at least sixteen chapters #and i've tried to shorthand and change things enough so it's shorter and still #*cries* #outlander!theron au #hilariously every time i finish one of these scene skeletons i'm like 'oh god now i want to write it' #and then i'm like 'okay then write it' #and my brain is like 'no didn't you just see how much i wrote? i'm on a break' #it's all horribly self-indulgent and so angsty dear lord #like every single one of these chapters is just either ust or something cutesty with the otp or them being little angst gremlins #and i haven't even gotten to the 'theron makes yet another incredibly stupid decision' part #someone's having fun and it's certainly not them #gif

[thiswillcostyourheart]

YOU decide what you want.

nobody else has the right to tell you what you should want or do in your personal life, now or in the future. 

whatever you choose, it should be because you want it, not out of pressure from others. you choose what you want in your life and what makes you happy.

#fairy ranmaru #uruu seiren #homuruu #asexual #asexuality #my art #sex mention - #emetophobia - #hi im throwing this in the ace tag even though it's not specifically about being ace bc it's written to be aspec-friendly #and bc i made this comic because this is the message i wanted to see many years ago and the ace tag is where i would have looked for it #anyway! long story here! i haven't been able to bring myself to post this here for 6 months bc it was so emotionally painful #when i saw this show i was like oh shit this is going to make me express the things i never wanted to express isn't it! #(through my usual method of imprinting on fictional characters; throwing my heart into the internet void and crying) #this was absolutely emotionally exhausting to make. it took a week and i was working slowly bc i kept getting sad and angry #also for some reason my brain was like 'you should do this at christmas time' so THAT happened #not the first time i did angst at christmas lmao #when i finished this i felt utterly blank and i just wanted to cut myself off from it. disconnect completely. not care at all. #this was followed by crushing loneliness as i was overwhelmed with the need/desire to be heard/validated #(which actually pushed me into accidentally hurting myself lol i had to recover for like a couple of weeks before i could draw again) #validating and empathetic/compassionate comments are VERY welcome!! #as well as any that find this message valuable and/or can relate #however PLEASE no armchair therapy; advice or character analysis type comments. thank you!! #i still can't look at this without feeling sad and angry again over how much pressure there was. i just want that pain to be heard

[nygleskas]

have i ever shared the jermstone (ish) lore where after s1 ends and gideon leaves for haiti without fully explaining to me why (the 'why' is to atone for his sins of trying to blackmail his family which he Also kept from me 😭), i dye my hair (yknow black/pink) bc yknow. normal emo persons reaction after a "break up" (not even together at that point). idk i just think that's funny. oh and after he comes back and we reconnect and i hang out w his family again, pontius seeing me w dyed hair inspires him to start bleaching his hair (100% against his parents wishes btw). and we become friends yayy.

#i wonder how weird that one part in parenthesis sounds to ppl who don't watch this show. #wait i have more scn mutuals now here's how i can convince everyone to watch the Other hbo show abt rich families but this time it's a full #comedy and also the business is a mega church. (it's the ri/ght/eou/s gem/sto/nes pleaaaase watch it it's so underrated) #OK I looked at my lore tag i Sorta said this. i just said the part w pontius. but i never said the first part lol #.txt #is this the lore ppl want . idk. i just like sharing bits n pieces that i think are funny. #istill haven't properly written down jermstone lore despite starting it months ago. .. #hmm maybe a 6th watch of t/rg will help me write it- (it won't) (well it might for like 30m and then i stop) #oki'm shutting up no more talking in tags. the tags r longer thanthe actual post #*dennis from ia.sip meme* talking to myself cus i have things to say or whatever #gideon #ok there. it counts i guess #lore tag #whatever wahtever

[kangaracha]

wouldn't expect a lot of queenmaker until ~christmas time, which is not what i would like to say but my body is just telling me to ease up after november and i'm hitting that pre-holiday slump so we're just chillin. we're playing a game for the first time in six months. we're doing a puzzle. my eyes are really blurry rn so i think i'll go to bed.

#i did manage to sit down and do a lot of planning for queenmaker specifically though #had a good chat with zom mom about pacing and stuff #i say 'ease up' like i haven't added more projects/tasks to the list #i've just half started looking at planning and editing rather than writing like crazy #picked up daily korean practice again #added my novel back to my wip list #we're now working on the basis of 'every time i hate my job and i want a new career i write 1k of my novel' #whatever works #this is a lot of tags for someone with very blurry eyes #the game thing actually doesn't help with physical illness my tv is too small and it just makes my eyes strain really hard #one day someone is going to give me the gs i'm owed and i'll get to buy a new one #technically i saved for a new tv six months ago my savings are just tied up in an offshore account called Someone Else's Pockets #these tags have gotten way out of hand #i just wanted to talk about my life idk #been too busy to talk to my friends about life? post it in the tumblr tags #anyway i'm sure z m or keeps or someone is all the way down here #Roundup! #queenmaker has like 16 chapters plotted #none of chapter 5 written but i'm definitely. looking at starting it. #nevermore i wrote 500 words #haven't looked at it in a week #know exactly where it goes so if i'm not stuck i'm circling back within a month #pirates is ongoing most nights #however i don't know what the scene by scene play is so #very much Just Vibing i added what i will call the cake scene today because i was emotional about an uneaten piece of cake from a month ago #so that's where pirates and my mental health are at #damn this is a full life update huh #systems check #heart (the novel) is truly at 100k now #i figured out the holes in the first part of it so i can actually connect all these dots now

[aurelim]

Ooh, looks like Kai(a) won the poll! Be sure to be on the lookout for it sometime soon :)

I am itching to write parts of Chapter 2 now but I have so much work to do 😭😭😭 why do I always get inspired to write at the worst times possible???

And then when I have the free time to sit down and write I don't do it, instead choosing to procrastinate🫠

Honestly this is me when it comes to writing:

also yeah I drew this for the cursed memes

#be sure to look out for the pov though! #hopefully it won't take too long #sorry I haven't written much for atol #compared to other games I don't release as fast as them #like every three four months there's a new chapter in one game #when I haven't written a single word during that time #goals don't work on me

[thatrandombystander]

Oh bubble tea and pair of half stale donuts. You're the only thing between me and me quitting my fucking job right now.

#does this count as a meal? it's my first meal of the day then :( #HEY YO guess who almost started fucking crying at her desk and is going to be working on the weekend to get something done :( #look. my boss. i like her as a person. #but she is a BAD manager. #what the fuck do you mean you thought I was supposed to be managing the whole website redevelopment for the subsidiary company???? #when was i supposed to do that???? #i couldn't have even done anything because we have established that all the formatting for the subsidiary company is to match our company #and that's only been really done in the last TWO days by a manager who has done NOTHING but build that for two days #WITH HELP from another person in the team #meanwhile I've been doing all this other urgent shit you've been asking me for #and now you're fucking 'disappointed' that I haven't kept up with the other manager? fuck all the way off #these two websites must be built in the next WEEK #we've had this deadline for MONTHS and we didn't fucking DO any of it until last week???? #i have been WAITING for you to read through and approve the written content so i could start loading it in #AND YOU STILL HAVEN'T READ THROUGH IT #so. what? you're gonna read it later and make us re-do copying everything in? #we still don't even have images? you're making me put placeholder images #and then you're going to 'go through and decide what to use on each page' #fat chance of that #you have no idea how clunky this website system is. loading ANY image in takes TIME to process #i am going to SCREAM #i SAID this would happen. I SAID this whole thing would be mismanaged and we'd end up working overtime #im hungry. im tired. i have a headache. #to top it off I've got period cramps????? rage. #less than three months left and I'm rotating out of this team. #ramblings of a bystander

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

I have a migraine 🤪

#incoming vent sorry about it #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #life sucks and im so over all this shit #it's literally been the what like year from hell #so my mom almost died this time last year and there's been all kinds of fun ptsd like symptoms from that and then my dog died and then #everyone got covid and then i got a sinus infection because i can't do anything normal #now last week i was thinking about what i need to talk to my doctor about and I'm thinking about my symptoms and mom's like that sounds like #lupus which is what my mom has and now I've been so super stress sick and I'm just trying to chill and relax and my estranged family member #is trying to work their way back into our lives and throwing a fit cause we won't let them because they've threatened and tried to kill us #all on multiple occasions and i know the threats are going to start up again and I'm worried that this time they're serious #i know this is either going to go one of two ways and they're going to try to kill us or themselves and i just i don't know #i don't know what to do about it because we don't have any proof of these threats written down because they've all been verbal #my family doesn't really know what to do either but i know the getting a gun conversation is going to come up again #and then I'm going to have to outwardly admit that I'm not stable enough for that shit and then everyone's going to freak the fuck out and #ughhh god i just can't deal with this shit anymore it's all bad and it all fucking sucks ass #oh and I'm trying to give up for the day and go to bed so I'm looking for YouTube videos to keep my mind busy and someone i follow #is having to live post that they're trying to keep their friend from committing suicide because the friend turned it into a public thing and #the yt is trying to reassure everyone and it's just all too much #I'm too on edge I'm too triggered or whatever i don't know what the fuck to do anymore i just want to go to bed and sleep until everything #is magically better. also i have three publishers breathing down my neck for this book but i haven't been able to write in months because of #all of this shit and then i had the bright idea of starting a writing blog i have NO CONTENT for and just FUCK fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck #i just want to go be a fucking snap under the ocean im done fuck all of this being a human fucking sucks and I'm exhausted #oh and also my brother for randomly offered a job I've been trying to get for fucking years so ✌🏽😁✌🏽 that's also doing great things for #me i am super proud of him though cause he's working his fucking ass off i hope he takes it cause if not i will punt him into the sun #but anyway I've had it officially! so good night tumblr stay classy #izzy speaks but i really shouldn't

[houkagokappa]

Happy Pride Month!

I wasn’t going to celebrate or do anything specific, but then I remembered I’ve been reading tons of yuri manga, that I’ve been wanting to talk about once I reach a good spot. The only problem is that I still have a lot I want to read, so it’s very much an ongoing project for me

Maybe at some point during the month I’ll be able to sit down and go though my favourites and maybe some letdowns

#my nonsense #look forward to that #and come poke me if i still haven't written anything near the end of the month

[despairforme]

      He’s cranky.

#[ i see... ] #[ that's how it's gonna be huh? xD ] #[ YUP he's cranky bc he hasn't gotten attention ] #[ i'm sorry nnoi! ] #[ i only wrote for my starwars oc yesterday uvu ] #[ i'm really inspired for him these days... it can't be helped ] #[ i also looked into being a writer for a zine ] #[ but i don't have a good portfolio to show my works ] #[ especially bc i haven't written (finished) fanfics in years ] #[ so that's something i want to try to do ] #[ write some one-shots for my fav characters ] #[ - one piece characters that is. ] #[ i have many ideas that i never finished so xD ] #[ WELP but i'll start that stuff next month bc this month i already have TOO MANY GOALS NOT ENOUGH TIME ] #[ my 20k for nnoitra goal is what i'll work on today i think <5 ] #[ just gotta nudge him so that he stops being cranky ] #[ THIS WAS YET ANOTHER RAMBLE I'M SORRY ] #[ HOPE YOU'RE ALL DOING GOOD!! ] #despair for me. ╱ in character. #the praying mantis. ╱ canon verse.