#make it fucking weird and racial and uncomfortable bc it is

[eusuchia]

can't sleep so heres my hot take on londo/g'kar: it would be way more interesting if anyone (including jms) 1. really grappled with the utterly fucked power imbalance 2. let them actually hate each other with consequence instead of softening them up into old bickering married couple

#I know the reason fandom is like that is because canon is basically like that. I'm just a hater #but the whole 'two sides of a coin' read on their relationship? I'm sorry that is just. so white #they have a highly racialized dynamic. its literally textual why would you ignore it #the only 'equality' they ever have is in the b5 council... from which londo unilaterally removes g'kar. #I'm just like. vicious hatefuck or get outta here #the s4 sequence of their 'developing friendship' was what really put me off it. in some of those scenes g'kar says nothing. he's a prop. #londo jokes at/around him and g'kar makes a face and that's the scene. then they're just friends? #they go right to chummy bickering and it's so dull #is londo completely psychosexually obsessed with g'kar? yea obviously #make it fucking weird and racial and uncomfortable bc it is #b5

[abyssalpriest]

if i disappear after saying that ive been assassinated no jokes aside if i take that down its not bc i disagree with it, you can still pin it on me as a belief that i think that shit should be said and ill put my whole ass behind it, but saying shit like that has consequences lmfao. also theres a time and a place to bring that up

#ive already. dealt. with enough fucking propagandising royal family members on my fucking ASS this lifetime to last. the rest of #this universe's incarnation. sometimes its better to not get involved which i KNOW is a big part of why the propaganda is rampant #among people who work with ''demons'' but like. no. no race is more superior than other races. hot take i know sorry #ramblings // #honestly tho. im so sick of dealing with the topics of ascending and (''demon'') racial supremacy and fighting jxdaism under the guise #of ''we hate chrxstians tho and thats good!'' bc ''(JEWISH NAME FOR GOD????) is a horrible person he wiped out half his angels!!!!'' #listen i do not care how uncomfortable you are w your species' and peoples' histories you are. leave innocent fucking people and their #concept of the Creator that you dont even understand alone. whats the point in pride in your people if youre only proud of how #your people are Better than another set of people. like. bruh. are you proud of being a (demon) or are you so insecure your only source of #literally describing said propagandising family members lord almighty im gonna stop myself there. #WOW. I DSFJKHDFH. IVE NEVERRRRR SUDDENLY GOTTEN THE URGE TO TALK SHIT ABOUT WAR /AND/ SPILL THINGS PEOPLE #WANT SECRET /AND/ TALK SHIT ABOUT TWISTING KNOWLEDGE TO MAKE YOURSELF LOOK GOOD /AND/ HAD IT DEVOLVE INTO #''even tho im (practically) hindu jxdaism is too fucking important to my family for me to not have OPINIONS about shit'' BEFORE HMM #WEIRD WEIRD unincarnated selves just fucking going AT it. i mean. spilling opinions. cant say they havent gone at it in other #ways too wow no wonder Ardhanarishvara (God as half man half woman) and Shiva and Shakti are super important to me - #NO WONDER THIS CAME AFTER TALKING ABOUT CONSCIOUSNESS AND MIND WHO I SEE AS SHIVA AND SHAKTI #anyway the first post had nothing to do w jxdaism and this topic itself has nothing to do w it i just finally had it click why Certain Peop #calling the things the kings they worship did atrocities of (name) was bothering me SO much. i mean i knew why the rest of it was bothering #me - i mean the NAME bit clicked

[bixy]

So, I'm an only child, but I have this one friend and I feel like he would be the closest to what I would call like a younger brother. He's always been like someone that would just love to bother you or say something ridiculous just to get a reaction out of someone.

And his one friend has a crush on me so he'd make a group chat for the three of us, but I noticed his one friend says the n word kind of often and when I asked my one friend what was up with that he got so extremely defensive but also he is one of the types of people, that will defend his guy friends no matter what, and he only hangs out with like the same 10 people so it's kind of like an echochamber, but also if I was doing something shitty I'd want my friends to tell me or I'd tell my friends too. And then he told me I wouldn't get it because I'm not from the hood (for reference both of these guys are Mexican), and then told me it isn't even a big deal and that he says it all the time, which is not true at all bc if it was I wouldn't have been his friend for so long lmao but ever since I asked him about why his friend said that he says it excessively, and the last time I saw it kept being like "can you say the n word" to me and just wanted to make me uncomfortable lmao like how pathetic, but I think what pisses me off more than anything is that this guy truly claims to be a leftist lmao

and I've met one of my closest friends from him and I told her I'm not going to hang out with him anymore and she was like "really, thats so sad why?" and we've already talked about this in the past, and she was like maybe its just a phase he'll grow out of, but also her lack of reaction is like also upsetting to me too?? I mean she grew up in Mexico so maybe she doesn't understand the complexity and weight of that word but I cannot wrap my head around why people want to say that word so bad? And like, at one point, I considered him a friend so I tried to explain why you shouldn't, and it just felt like he brushed me off, and if anything I am just so like ? do fucking better? you're a fucking adult? but also to claim to be a leftist and support minorities and talk about what it's like to be an immigrant all the time to just mock me for the dumbest reason, just because you surround yourself by shitty people lmao

and I was at a party the other day and I invited one of my best friends there, who is a black man and my other friends met him, and the other day my friend was like "do you think your friend would care if I said it" and it was just weird?? like do you hear yourself???

anyways, this means I'm gonna cut out like uhhhh 13 people or so out of my life but I don't care, I've cut out people for less, but it makes me sad bc I really expected better from my friends and people I'd spend my free time with, like why do you want to say racial slurs so bad? I do remember watching topgun or whatever with some of those guys and one of them said something about fucking japs which is hilarious because, you know, I am half japanese, he apologized right after be I started laughing bc it was kind of wild and then he realized but it still felt weird lmao but whatever but yeah a few days ago when I saw some friends and one of them kept interrogating me about that, I fully knew that it was gonna be the last time I ever see him lmao

#personal #but anyways I need to focus on school anyways #so that I can move out at some point

[tsunflowers]

a couple weeks ago stu from the flop house recommended a comic called "habitat" and when I looked it up and saw it was about a generation ship that went wrong and they were eating each other I was like "I gotta get in here!"

I was worried it would be weird about women bc stu is less sensitive to these things than I am and in the past I've followed up on his recs only to realize they won't work for me bc they couldn't be normal about women. I was pleased to see that this comic had women in major roles and they weren't excessively sexualized. however I cannot say that the comic was not weird about race. the premise of society devolving into tribal groups is already a little suspect and the optics of brown people who wear loincloths and eat each other is, hm. I think it was the artist being like "I'm going to draw a diverse comic :) *forgets the implications*" but still thats in there

but it was definitely an interesting read. it really fleshed out a whole universe in a relatively short comic. the design notes at the end showed there was really a lot of thought and effort put into the visual language of the remnants of a futuristic experiment returned to the dark ages. I loved the final page in particular. it makes me wonder if this was the first thing he drew and then he went back and wrote the context for this scene, lmao

I think it's almost a must-read for fans of the "generation ship but fucked up" genre and my fellow lovers of blame! but it's not a unilateral recommendation bc I found the racial implications a little uncomfortable and I know that other people would be even more uncomfortable

#my book review corner

[the-bren-system]

white middle class bitches will literally say "this guy has SUCH a victim complex doesn't he know he can't be a victim forever?????"

no, I literally can bc I am a racial minority actually and in my lifetime people like me will never stop being victimised, and I was quite literally subjected to non stop horrific trauma from birth to age 22 so I quite literally don’t know how to live without constantly being scared - but go on, make fun of me from the apartment your husband’s rich mother bought you bc you literally married into wealth and have no idea what its like to have been forced into a cult, physically and sexually abused, to have been in a domestically violent situation and to have had serious bouts of illness and injury, and to have literally been homeless before.

No, C, you don’t GET to accuse me of having a “victim complex” bc you don’t know what actual victimhood even is. You still think it was “extremely traumatising” to be made fun of by someone at work one time. Literally shut up and quite literally check ur fucking privilege. You’re purposely shit talking me to appease a guy who committed an ableist hate crime against me, even though you have the knowledge that he’s a serial sex criminal. But go off.

Imagine dating a 30 year old man who brags about having assaulted 16 year olds, who berates and abuses his primary partner and then talking about how “miserable and lonely” me and my girlfriend are. You’re fucking pathetic, C. Your “polycule” is just a weird bigoted sex cult that revolves around the most mediocre white man in the planet and the whole fucking city knows it. Grow up, you’re fucking 23 years old and this isn’t fucking highschool. Life isn’t a fucking Disney movie, C, you’re in a fucking white supremacist cult calling me ableist slure behind my back after you claimed to be so uncomfortable with those words.

- Trevor!

#brendiary #angry #negative #screaming punching the air and throwing a brick thru a window #vent #I'm so fucking mad sorry I'm really angry actually

[auckie]

Encanto sucked so bad that even when people make valid points about ppl being weird and racist about it I’m like man I don’t care I think we should be as bad towards it as possible just bc Lin Manuel was involved. Disney should make a Latino movie about how much we hate good food and colors and family and loooved what the spaniards did but no character in it is remotely Spanish. Like they’re all nahaus and they love it when the white characters make border jokes. And they should put Danny Trejo in charge of it and then if white people are uncomfortable watching it bc it’s like. Yknow clearly really problematic, we should get so fucking mad at them like. Like violent and start crying and being like oh so you hate Latinos is that it. Oh and every character is like huge tits cock and ass. All of them. Every character has noticeable bulge and disgusting breasts. And their names are like. Flea Bag. Tijuana Trejo (this is Danny trejos chatacter). Clay pot. Gringo (this is the white character played also by danny Trejo). Enchilado (masculine of enchilada). Terracotta nightmare. Basura. Crustache. Racial Harmony. Pinto. Mamá Poop. And they live in a house they call the Pain Room. And it was alive but now it’s dead. I recognize nothing I’m saying is a valid critique of encanto and I apologize. None of this was justified. It would have a 700 million dollar budget and bankrupt the company due to the ensuing legal issues and also no one buys any tickets, and then Latino tiktokers start blaming white fans for killing Disney and marvel. This could change things man. We gotta make this happen. I understand if you choose to ignore this post but as a uh. Checks my id. Chewish batino trans gay mentally and chronically ill person I am begging my white allies. Never mind. Looks sway and blushes. Looks back coyly.

[princess-stabbity]

corvidoe replied to your post “hghfhhf there ws this new sitcom playing in the background and i was...”

asdda omg... also "v jenji kohan" is such a simple but poignant descriptor too bc... that's literally all of their shows. you just... watch them for inordinate amounts of time and constantly question WHY but. you just. do. and then you are full of regret lmao

right??? like ive never watched weeds but its such A Signature..... kohan isn’t the showrunner for glow but i think shes executive producer and the other day i was rewatching the episode that broke me and i finally noticed that she wrote it and i was like “ohhhhhhhhhh” 

#corvidoe #idk if youve watched glow but its the one w the bris #which felt weirdly antisemitic ?? considering it was written by a jewish woman and the gentile lead is played by a jewish woman #maybe im reading too much into it bc of the weird Discourse abt circumcision #but the teenage boy being carried kicking and screaming rlly rubbed me the wrong way #and then there's that cringey scene where ruth's like 'what if jewish stereotypes were my wrestling persona' #altho honestly all the 'racial stereotype as wrestling persona' scenes are rough as hell to watch #like you get the sense that they know this is a thing they should be addressing and discussing but they dont seem equipped #so you get jenny going from 'im angry at sam for making me play a bunch of racist asian stereotypes' #(which is kinda more bash's fault but fair enough) #to squealing and cheering w the rest of the girls for him to get into the pool IN LESS THAN A MINUTE #like she just pings from emotion to emotion w no rhyme or reason #no explanation for why she or arthy would agree to do this when it obviously makes them uncomfortable #they SORT of talk abt it w cherry and tammé but BARELY #we get more emotional nuance and insight into fucking MARK than we do them #i HATE it but also ive watched it like three times????? #fuckin jenji kohan and her hot mess garbage shows #ive avoided watching the latest season of oitnb but this one suckered me in before i knew she was involved

[villains4hire]

aight opinions time.

MJR_Meduza’s Yordle OC on twitter is my Quickling reference using an old iteration for their oc Chelle that’s changed over the years compared to their modern version of Chelle. They’ve been credited in my rules credit listing as per protocol of being open where I get my source material. Quicklings for my rendition use a mix of pathfinder and dnd for their height, then a more eh, touch I like of having them more elf-like and a bit more cutesy. This is my faceclaim for their species and then masculine representing looks fairly similar but probably can have or be without breasts. Her species will be 4′0 to 5′1 at max with her at 4′3, fairly well chested, thick hips, body and short arms, blue skin, pointed ears and hair that goes down to her waist and then long bangs. While I have Quicklings for my homebrew race be a race that leans more toward chaotic tendencies than evil outright? She is going to be pretty evil at times, but can be reasoned with/bargained with.... depending on how you approach it.

More below.

Personality: I rp her as actual fae like my other fae but she’s probably the most feral and blatant evil one. She is a bitch, grumpy, prone to more outbursts. Eats people pretty indiscriminately, doesn’t matter who they are. If she doesn’t like them, she will probably kill them or eat their ankles and just stalk them over time to kill them. Quicklings are extremely spiteful and vengeful if spited enough. Likes to steal, likes play tricks. Likes to mess with people using her Quickling invisibility and supernatural speed. Can be sweet if you manage to gain her affections or listen to you. Hyper. Hates a lot of people depending on the usually benign reason. Slightly tsundere. Has a bit of humor in a spiteful or playful way. Stabby. Bitey. Likes to be spoiled. If she likes you, she will force herself into your lap to sit. Destructive. Doesn’t think of the consequences a lot. Can be fun. Can go too far. Reckless. Tends to self-sabotage her own relationships on accident at times with her alien perception if friends with non-fae. Can be surprisingly loyal to the point of self-destruction though this is rare with most individuals. Can be pretty cursed at times if she just wants to fuck with you or make you uncomfortable/weirded out by her. (I’ll handle her based on peoples’ comforts and such of course, but yeah)

Powers: Quickling racial abilities of course, easy to look up and I won’t be changing more than that (My actual DnD race of them is a lot more balanced than the straight quickling race, such as making abilities traits/immunities to half resistances/supernatural speed a long rest ability based on half prof bonus etc. And other DnD characters/similar fantasy will still be able to fight her despite that obvious boost, DnD mechanically as it is for balance. As I do power scaling mechanically based on the elf race and their crazy good abilities but not Aaismer levels of broken). At least two levels of barbarian because she is pretty damn reckless but not enough to warrant a subclass to make her more overpowered with bear or w/e, then Champion bc I’ve always been a sucker for class crit fighter since 3.5, using my reworked version of Champion, mostly to give her a meaningful fighting style such as dual-wielding. I’ll explain more in her bios but it’s mostly having a nemesis system and then a signature weapon fighting style for a champion that’s an enhanced fighting style for w/e mechanics. It won’t be notably different from an actual Champion. Stat wise her strength is high. Dex is moderate. Con is high. Intelligence is moderate. Wisdom average. Charisma below average. It’s unusual for her kind slightly to not be as dexterous but she’s more of a brute in nature.

How I will handle her power scaling: she can be a veteran soldier at lv 5, hero level at 10. Veteran hero at 15. Then Demigod to God at lv 20. I’ll make little tags to properly spread her out more in terms of where she’s at. Just keep in mind that varying levels can be centuries apart even if just 5. I’ll try not to be too meta about things but it’s mostly to give an idea.

Motivations: she’s mostly a mercenary, but kinda just fucks around metaphorically or literally. Just doing this for fun as a kind of thing as a chaotic evil character, as she can be with ‘good-aligned’ party members but she’s more or less the party’s bastard rather than against the party as their bastard. She has no real tragedy in her life other than her many petty grievance list of people she’s listed over the centuries and plans to either make them pay in the living world or whatever afterlife they had either through moderately harmless pranks, or extreme as death, torture or w/e is fitting for the grievance to her own twisted perception as a more evil leaning fae. Something trying to not be ridiculous in terms of edginess.

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Albedo used as a grey-scale on for faceclaim. I forgot she existed, but facially she’s what I need, she has enough expressions. I’ll probably use a few other expressions but it was the best I could find in terms of range and smallness for my mini-milf. And before I get a DM on this, yeah she’ll be a form of trans within her culture. -shrug- I really don’t care. I do what I want. Anyway, here she is, let me know what you guys like/think for concept as I get ready to icon Albedo tomorrow and make her bios.

Or even better. If you have suggestions since there’s a better idea for my evil gremlin shortstack’s faceclaim being Albedo? Let me know.

#ooc #tbd

[finnstansonly]

What are ways you WISH people would write Hando??? I read very little SW fic but personally I would like to see people characterize Han as a silly idiot more often, I feel like he's way too suave in fanon when in canon he's actually just like. A complete dumbass. Also I would like to see more bi Lando content in general, the Solo writers did that as a gimmick so he could fuck a robot but I will NOT let them take it back!!!! I'm claiming him for the gays!!!!!

not to psychoanalyze but ppl mischaracterize lando so much. he’s not hard to get, he’s hard to keep–that much they understand bc all they want is like sexy promiscuous suductive vixen–but like it could not more clearly stem from his inability to trust ppl and it’s something that he WANTS to do but is uncomfortable with. like we’ve seen him at 3 different stages in his life and his only relationships of note are L3, his one companion at the time (also now dead), Han, who honestly is like too invested in ppl when they first meet and one of the only ppl we see him like excited to meet after long periods apart despite him being annoying, and Luke, literally the most trustworthy person he knows. Like yeah he loves thotting around but like being alone all the time is not fun.

Also Lando is really clever but that doesn’t mean he can’t be silly or anything damn. Ppl have him be mean spirited more often than is necessary and it feels very racial bc there’s like 2 black ppl in this fandom.

As far as L3 is concerned I can actually understand falling in love with your friend so it’s weird but I’m like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I guess. it’s star wars. them using a robot to say he’s pan tho was so fucking stupid like can’t stress that enough. worms for brains. anyway lando invented bisexuality.

As for Han, he is like actually stupid and his plans are bad he’s just very lucky bc the force and chewie be looking out for him. I think han (when theyre younger) is more openly sincere but as they age Han and Lando flip in that respect. also I’m gonna need ppl to stop pretending that he’s hot, esp writing from landos perspective. Sturdy, yes, but like very average overall. you can trust he won’t stab you in the middle of the night but that does not a bombshell make. he can be perceived as attractive bc he’s stupid and tall, but let’s not lie!

Agree that Han is not suave and never has been. No time hes acted like that was effective Leia was outright repulsed. even when he parroted some of Lando’s lines back at him it’s more endearing to flatter lando than like actually effective. Ppl pull that trait out of thin air bc where is the evidence? I haven’t seen it

#this is long and rambly I don’t even know if I answered the question sorry #hanlando #hando #mo the force be with us #yellowis4happy #mo answers #lando calrissian #han solo #mo thinks about writing sometimes

[gatheringbones]

hey bones I'm a femme lesbian but i feel like I'm not entirely a woman idk how to explain like i feel like a funhouse mirror version of a lady but I don't think I'm nonbinary as well bc only certain gendered terms (like queen) make me flinch from them but not others? idk what to do, do you have any recommended reading to figure this out?? i live in a v homophobic country and don't know any other lesbian irl to talk about this

I don’t necessarily want to recommend reading certain materials that would give you the definite, clear-cut, completely unambiguous example of what you’re looking for (even though Joan Nestle’s work in particular jumps out at me as having very much to say about lesbian and femme especially as their own genders) because I find myself questioning the efficacy of simply handing you a citation and saying “See? There you are in your entirety. Somebody figured it all out for you thirty years ago and it’s all in here, problem solved.” I don’t think that’s possible, frankly; I think there are still pieces of you that won’t line up exactly, especially considering the cultural differences and societal pressures you face that directly inform how you interact with gender and history and desire and presentation, and that not lining up is still going to feel lonely and uncomfortable and potentially forbidden for you.

What I would like to offer you instead, if I can scrounge the words together, is that no matter what you read, you’re going to find examples of people who had absolutely no language or theory or analysis surrounding who or what they are, and how those common those accounts are in the historical and literary record. I would point towards people from historical periods who when presented with the current definitions of what a lesbian for sure was and wasn’t, promptly said “ah, no thank you” and trailblazed into territories of gender so forbidden it barred them from taking part in wider lesbian culture as it was defined and defended at the time. People who grew up very rural, or very working class, or both, people from below the poverty line, people with different racial backgrounds; all sorts of people whose class and racial backgrounds do not remotely line up with white, upper-class, academic cis-feminism, whose language has always been inadequate at describing how much diversity of experience there is with people who choose to interact with the lesbian label. I would want to point you towards people who did it wrong, in other words, who were the thing that you feel isn’t permissible within the current language system that’s been approved for lesbianism, and who carried on being that thing despite the vocal and enthusiastic presence of a great many people who saw lesbianism as a crumbling fortress beset on all sides by tainted invaders.

Joan Nestle’s great for this, but so is Leslie Feinberg— wordlessness and ambiguity and the freedom you can find in both runs all throughout hir work, and you can find echoes of that trickster strength in all kinds of authors— Amy Fox, Audre Lorde, Sinclair Sexsmith, Tristen Taormino, Rae Spoon, Ivan Coyote. Ivan’s also who I turn to when I want to read someone who grew up in the backcountry with no theory because that’s me; I didn’t grow up in a city with visible gay people, I grew up with no electricity or running water in a shack with crazy people who were very vocal about performing violence on anyone who so much as resembled a homosexual, and I grew into a gender and sexuality shaped by my trauma and disembodiment and the kind of searing rural loneliness that only people who lived it are going to be able to empathize with. Right now I’m thinking about the story from Bushfire I read that’s set at a secret Black lesbian house party in the south where there’s so much conversation and vernacular happening and the moments of sexuality are so bewilderingly presented that you can’t tell what anybody necessarily is only that it’s wonderfully unlikely that any of this is happening at all. I’m thinking about Larry Mitchell and The Faggots and Their Friends In Between Revolutions and how much of that book has to do with intentionally fucking with categories in order to subvert patriarchal control. (“The faggots and their friends and the women who love women can keep the men off balance for a long time by subtly, but continually, changing their identities. The men who are in charge of controlling it all find it difficult always to know how many of each kind there are, and who they are. Each group can grow and shrink as the men’s changing ferociousness demands.”) I’m also thinking about Jeanne Cordova writing in anguish about having to cut the chains off of her boots because the lesbian feminist scene she was involved with said they were “male-identified” and therefore forbidden. I’m thinking about the white woman at the Womyn’s festival in Minnie Bruce Patt’s S/he who pokes one of her companions in the chest and accuses them of having “boy energy” and that they need to leave immediately, and of Leslie Feinberg turning to them and asking her to decide right then and there what gender ze is and whether or not ze should be kicked out as well. (“You turn to the angry woman and ask quietly, “What about me? Do I have male energy? Am I a woman or a man?” She pauses, taken aback, and finally says, “I don’t want to talk about each person...” You reply, “But you do want someone to decide. You want someone to judge, and us to submit to judgement. So tell me, am I a man or a woman? Tell me how you can decide? The woman falls completely silent, all of us sit silent. She does not answer. She walks away.”) I’m thinking of ambiguousness as a defense mechanism and a weapon all in one, because people do all sorts of things when presented with ambiguousness that tell you exactly who they are, and people who can co-exist with and honor ambiguousness are incredibly rare. I think that feeling like a funhouse mirror of a woman is only dangerous in spaces where ambiguity and exploration aren’t allowed, where it isn’t safe because of the presence of people who find more meaning and comfort and safety in mapped categories than they do in the lived experience of gender outlaws. I think they’re delusional and brittle and authoritarian and that Larry had them pegged exactly right. I want to invite you, if at all possible, to see your status as both incredibly common and a gift.

Will you run across something that seems to describe you word for word and fills you with joy and certainty? It’s more than possible; lesbians are a prolific bunch and the more you keep tracking down and reading the more likely you’ll come across something exactly like that. But if you don’t? if it’s a lifelong search, or more like an ongoing conversation between you and other members of your community, throughout history and person-to-person? that’s even more likely, that seems like what we’re all doing. And if you end up being your own weird thing, to the point where some For Real Lesbian points at you and shouts that you’re undermining and betraying the very concept of lesbianism? you’ve made it baby! You’re in such good company!

#book recs tag #sorry for the tangent being confused and in a state of search is good actually #rule breaking is comforting and life sustaining

[lovesickbrat]

i been on post limit but ima say this

ima be honest the amount of ppl who stir shit just because and try and get a reaction out of ppl is so wild bc its fine yet im “mean” and “kinda ugly” like am i mean or do i just not put up w the bullshit bc theres plenty of girls who are out and out mean yet im the villain? the call is coming from inside the house

the only drama yall can bring up abt me is misplaced anger from when i was insecure and 15 years old or me calling out B for weird racial micro aggressions and general strange behavior that made me AND OTHERS uncomfortable but ur upset i didnt fall for ur uwu soft queens bullshit and was publicly upset w the way i was treated bc yall love coddling white girls instead of making sure the woc in ur community feel safe

yall go on anon and hide behind a sense of security knowing no one knows who u are to talk about how ugly someone is or how annoying someone is but i talk abt shit that affects *ME* publicly bc i have nothing to hide and im mean?

like am i mean and stuck up or am i just a confident black girl and u want me to shut up and post pretty pictures bc thats what it sounds like bc the white girls who stir shit dont get this much vitriol thrown at them i have always admitted my faults and i was the one who TOLD people abt being on drama forums back in the day on discord like it was never a secret

im confident and secure in myself and my opinions which many of u obviously aren’t bc u gotta run to drama blogs to talk shit abt me ik my personality isnt for everyone but i also do not care bc yall are softer than baby shit and cant stand things not being peachy keen. i dont bullshit like some of u do and u cant stand it when ppl dont follow the whole “omg i love you we’re ALL queens kumbaya” shit in public and politely shit talk in private white girls have this thing where they cannot take a “real talk” moment and prefer all issues to be hush hush until u get a moment to hide behind anon and bash ppl ur either jealous of or feel threatened by. like u talkin abt me bein on drama blogs when i was 15 baby what were YOU doing on them

like its very clear yall only like black girls in the community when they play into respectability shit and are demure and quiet but here comes the black bitch with an opinion and im a shit starter? fuck outta here bro yall are so full of shit like how me is calling out someone doin racist shit drama? how? explain that to me because i wanna know? or do y’all prefer to just let shit slide bc yall have created an environment where only perfomative activism and diversity is accepted but the second someone has an issue its a problem and unnecessarily mean

#coquette

[riarevenge]

Stupid question from a dumb American. In England is it a thing where white girls who have some questionably dark tans use POC emojis? I feel like I’ve seen that a lot recently from English white girls I’ve run across on Insta. (Also this is not me saying white girls in America aren’t ignorant. Just that the two groups seem to do ignorant differently)

yeah, i see it quite a bit. and really, not to rant, but i just think it’s a marker of other behaviours for most of em. people are shocked jesy nelson still has supporters but it doesn’t shock me, she got away with this for YEARS when poc were the only ones talking about it because it sparks a conversation i think many girls, especially british ones, find uncomfortable. the fact is, it feels like the majority of white girls here tan and/or get lip fillers. and that in itself isn’t an issue, but a very large portion of these girls do this to the point of looking almost racially ambiguous. and for a lot, they’re tanning very dark, to the point it’s problematic, and getting lip fillers but it doesn’t hide the fact it���s clearly a white woman. and i think these girls keep quiet during conversations about jesy nelson, or defend her, because it’s easier to do that than have to examine your own behaviours and inspect if you also are a culprit of stn like this. it’s to the point where a lot of woc are being accused of black/brownfishing themselves, like jade thirwall! because people can’t even tell who’s white half the time here. i have olive skin, (my fam calls my natural skin colour light caramel but i hate the food reference😭), but because i live in a fucking cold country, have severe anemia/vitamin deficiencies and an ED, im a lot paler than usual at the minute and yet, for the most part, people can tell i am not white by my features. these girls that overly tan, a lot of them you can tell, but some get so many fillers and work done that you can’t even discern who is under all of that work. and let me be clear, i don’t care at all about people tanning, getting surgery or cosmetic procedures done but i do care when it makes woc have to constantly explain ethnicities and backgrounds bc nobody can tell who’s white anymore! it’s frustrating because they get to look how they want to look without facing what woc have to because of looking that way. nobody is racially abusing lydia smith from edinburgh because no matter how hard she tries, she’s a white woman! she can still make herself look racially ambigous and not receive the abuse woc get. and like under all that tan, you’re still 👱🏼‍♀️ this! i don’t care if you make it the slightly tanner emoji, the older members of my fam use 👩🏽‍🦱 for all the girls in our family bc they deem it the most similar even if certain ones of us don’t use it ourselves, i have poc friends who use a shade lighter or darker depending on hair colour. but when emily from newcastle and lydia from edinburgh are using 👱🏿‍♀️ instead of 👱🏻‍♀️. that’s weird.

#i think it also just bothers me because in the recent couple of years i am unlearning a lot of things about me and what i want #my dreams and wants as a kid was to be skinny blonde small + skinny nose i wanted smaller lips (mine aren’t even massive idk what i was on) #i wanted blonde hair and i wanted it to be pin straight i wanted blue or green eyes #i stayed out of the sun bc i obvs tan DARK #i wouldn’t cut my hair short bc i knew my curls were a lot more defined that way #and all of this just culminates to show i was ashamed of every single trait that made me me #and it wasn’t until my family were angry at me for getting so skinny bc i wasn’t embracing the curves i was given or when they threw fits #over me constantly straightening my hair using CHEMICALS and whole ass products daily to make my hair straight (and damaged) that i realised #this was all lowkey a massive self hate campaign #and it’s why now i’m trying to embrace my grandads nose the beautiful CV nose it is #trying to embrace curly hair etc #i don’t think white like fully white girls with typically white traits that are hyped up in media as the beauty standard realise that #inherently woc are taught to not love themselves the way they are #like??? some woc are so shamed that they’re skin bleaching !!!!! like

[lightskinrry]

ok so this is probably offensive so feel free to delete and move on bc you don’t owe me your time (obviously).. so I’m yt. at school my black friend came to me, upset bc a classmate had called her the n word. The other 2 black girls in our friend group weren’t in school that day (which she specifically mentioned as to why she came to me)& I wasn’t sure what to say. I said “are you ok? - wtf fuck that guy - I’m so sorry that happened-let’s go report him” etc, but i got the vibe I wasn’t helping aaa. I know that there are no words but as a black person, do you think there’s anything I could do better to be more of a support system for my black friends bc I want to be someone they can always rely on to talk to about anything at all. Or is it more a thing of, you talk to certain circles based on what they relate to? Like I only complain about my shitty mother w my friend who also has a shitty mother bc I think it’ll make others uncomfortable, I find talking about being poor makes my non poor friends silent so I don’t talk about it.. anyways sorry for long ask 🤧

Hello it’s not offensive lmaodjdjd no worries I think it depends on the situations I can’t speak for the way all black ppl feel . I know that I personally don’t talk about racial trauma or abuse with my white friends (mostly bc i don’t have any😌) but it’s just a matter of never centering the conversation around you. If your friend comes to you then just be supportive the best way you can. One thing not to do is trying to relate to the way she feels like don’t start bad mouthing white ppl like you’re not one of them lmaodjdjd or try to apologize on their behalf or say you’re ashamed you’re white or weird shit like that coz that just impulses white guilt and make us feel like we have to comfort YOU . The way you reacted seem just fine to me! Now there’s no need to take it personally if your friends of color don’t talk to you about race in general ; bc usually talking about race with a white person is either venting to a wall and in the best case the wall listens to you and just show support or it’s making yourself the subject to more violence so you really don’t have to overthink it . Your friend comes and talk to you about these things listen be supportive they’re not asking you to understand or relate or feel guilty they just want a friend and if they chose not to talk about it at all with you then they have friends they will talk about it to and that’s okay bc it doesn’t concern you! I hope I made sense ❤️

[oceanmonsters]

thoughts on “tall girl”

I’m gonna make another post actually going into detail (edit: made post here) about some of the points that really bothered me (because I had a Lot of thoughts while watching this) this is just an overview & what I was thinking while actually watching the film:

movie about a straight white girl opening with Make Me Feel by Janelle Monáe playing...........

the movie is going so hard straight off the bat with the “Jodi is alienated and unaccepted by society because of her height” with the parallel being made between Jodi and the character in the book

“You think your life is hard” god I was really trying to go into this movie with an open mind but literally within the first 5 minutes they’re doing exactly what I predicted and making it seem like being tall is literally the biggest source of oppression ever. Like yes, her life is harder than it would be if she was average height but she’s still a rich cis straight white girl. That doesn’t mean she can’t have problems but there are SO MANY people with lives harder than hers. This line was so tone deaf that it’s so hard to give the rest of the movie a chance.

“How’s the weather up there” is literally being treated as if it’s a slur. Like yes it’s annoying but it’s really not that deep.

this school seems very racially diverse which is usually a good thing but when you’re framing the white girl as having the biggest problems and being picked on / harassed by everyone else, it’s really not...

the scene with the mom taking about her “problems” in high school for being so beautiful and popular and asking Jodi if that counts as adversity and her being like ‘what the fuck, is this what she really thinks adversity is’ is literally a metaphor for me watching this movie rn

her friend Jack is Sam from American Vandal and that’s not relevant to the plot but I keep thinking of his name as Sam now

Sam: He might not even be smart

Stig: *writes the molecular formula of the molecule drawn for which literally all you have to do is count the number of atoms of each type, and happened to recognise the molecule

Sam: oh NO what’s he DOING fuck I’m screwed he’s a genius he’s literally the PERFECT GUY

also is the movie really trying to tell me Jodi is the tallest person in her whole school? There are NO guys taller than her? Because my school was definitely smaller than most American schools and there were definitely at least 5 guys in my year taller than 6’

most of the mean girls making fun of & laughing at Jodi are WOC which really feels wrong...

why is he talking about c-sections what the fuck that was so creepy!

why is Jodi acting like just because she’s tall she somehow has some sort of claim to Stig over Kimmy... like I know Kimmy was horrible to her and now she’s dating the guy she likes which sucks but Jodi’s not entitled to Stig’s affections and he clearly likes Kimmy back but she’s acting like Stig is rightfully hers or smth

Sam is the best thing about about this movie so far, like his character is annoying but he’s actually not bland and is somewhat amusing to watch

also I literally can’t remember his character’s name, they just call him Dunkers or Dunkleman, they haven’t mentioned his first name since they first introduced him so I’m just gonna keep calling him Sam

he just kissed her even though he has a girlfriend... Jodi, run away girl

why is she enabling her sister’s extreme dieting?? This is a teen movie, they should really not be normalising this

I don’t know if it’s because of Griffin’s acting or because of how bland the other characters are so far but Sam is actually my favourite character so far even though he’s annoying and is actively trying to sabotage their relationship... like at least he has personality

also she keeps going on about how tall girls never get the guy or aren’t considered attractive or whatever but she’s had 3 GUYS be interested in her throughout the course of the movie

this kissing scene is making me very uncomfortable... like it’s sooooo zoomed in on their faces to show how they’re all looking at each other

who let Sam just come into her room while she’s sleeping???

he’s sitting on her bed and watching her hello????

he’s now weirdly touching her hair

SHE FUCKIN DECKED HIM SHKSHDKSJ and he deserved it

also this has been bothering me for a while but why does this kid wear so many rings. Who made this style choice bc it adds nothing to his character and imo just looks weird

I’ve also been noticing this for a few scenes but her house is SUPER nice, damn. Like she’s definitely rich, which makes the “You think your life is hard?” comment even more tone deaf.

okay Sam’s actually redeemed himself, if your friend wouldn’t charge at someone way bigger than them with a fucking crate for being an asshole to you are they even your friend

although DAMN if he’d actually hit him with that crate he could have seriously injured him, he was going straight for the head

why was everyone cheering so much for that bland, cheesy speech that was all about her. If I were in that crowd I’d just be like “girl get down & let us enjoy our dance, jesus.” Like realistically hardly anyone would be invested or really care about what she has to say because they literally don’t know or care about her. The movie’s acting like she’s known by everyone in the school, when in reality while people would recognise her they probably really don’t care that much.

also yes, some people in her school are assholes but I refuse to believe that the majority of her school constantly going on about her height - especially if she’s been at the school for a long time, they should be well past used to it by now. Most people in the crowd probably literally just don’t care about her at all and just want this to be over

this guy carried his shit around in a milk crate for all this time JUST IN CASE she ever wanted to kiss him?? I honestly don’t know how to feel about this because on one hand that’s a really extra level of dedication, which I somewhat respect but on the other hand... it’s just way too much

I literally feel nothing for this couple at all - I like Sam but as a couple, I wasn’t rooting for them or particularly happy or satisfied when they got together. Also, they didn’t show Jodi liking him at all up until this point. He was in love with her but there was no indication that she had any kind of feelings for him whatsoever. I guess it could be one of those situations where something happens and you see them in a whole new light and realise that you’ve been overlooking them the whole time but I feel like the timespan between her realising this and then getting together was way too short for me to actually care about them as a couple because for like 98% of the movie the attraction was completely one sided. If they’d shown her starting to have feelings for him earlier in the movie, e.g. when he started dating Liz, and shown her feeling jealous or upset or anything that indicates she actually does have underlying feelings for him but is scared to date him because of the height difference or whatever, I think I would’ve found the romance way more believable.

Also the characters of colour are so underdeveloped & sidelined in this movie - there’s Fareeda, who is literally just a walking “angry black girl”+”sassy supportive black friend” stereotype. She has no other development throughout this entire film. We literally know nothing about her other than that she’s Jodi’s best friend and always sticks up for / supports her even though she’s clearly ungrateful. Kimmy is a one dimensional caricature of a Mean Girl with apparently nothing else that matters to her but being a dick to Kimmy for no reason and being popular and being Homecoming Queen. There’s literally no reason given for why she hates Jodi so much either, because she’s never shown being awful to anyone else - she just really has it out for Jodi. And apart from Fareeda, the only named characters of colour only exist to be rejected romantic interests for the white characters and have no purpose or personality beyond this.

Overall I wouldn’t say this was the worst movie I’ve watched but I disliked it more than a lot of objectively worse movies I’ve watched - it was definitely one of the least enjoyable and most frustrating movies I’ve ever watched. I was hoping that even though the premise seemed dumb it would still be a cute, enjoyable teen movie - but they focused so much on how much supposed adversity she faced and how difficult life is for a tall girl that it’s hard to focus on anything else. Honestly I think that if they’d just cut out all of the dialogue about how hard life was for her, about adversity, about how “tall girls don’t get happy endings” or whatever, the movie could actually have been somewhat enjoyable with the rest of the plot being the same. It could’ve just been about a taller-than-average girl who feels insecure about her height trying to date a tall guy but realising her best friend is actually the right guy for her - and realising that it’s not the world that’s holding her back, it’s actually her own insecurities. My opinions on the quality of the plot and romance are obviously just my opinions and you obviously don’t have to agree with them but I don’t think you can deny how objectively tone deaf the premise is and how the characters of colours are basically sidelined and only exist to support the white character’s storylines, which is why I’m definitely putting this movie in the Never Watch Again pile.

#tall girl #tall girl spoilers #movie review #kind of #it’s not really a review it’s just an outpouring of my thoughts but it’s still Reviewing the movie

[pocmuzings]

being in school to become an english teacher rn i’m really aware of how political an english language arts classroom can be in the us and how if they aren’t taught right, they can be dangerous and detrimental to Black and Brown students (is teaching grammar as Standard English and correcting AAVE as thought it’s incorrect or the fact that canonical teaching texts are whitewashed and straight and men) so a lot of the work i do is constantly unlearning certain social norms and learning to be better for my future students (knowing that i am a cis white woman). i think a lot of white people don’t realize that being anti-racist is a constant and you have to constantly learn and check yourself. your post breaks my heart bc i never want my students to feel that way about me. i know it’s not your job to teach me, and you are under no obligation to answer this, but is there anything that comes to mind that might help white people push past that barrier you keep encountering? (when i say i work at unlearning everyday i def don’t mean i’m done reformed r*cist. we live in a society built on white supremacy and it’s so ingrained that half of the time people who do not experience the oppression have to learn to how deeply it’s rooted. i come from a small town so i’m a little late to learning. and being an ally or an activist is a constant action rather than a stagnant label. i suppose i would like to know, sincerely, how to better be active rather than performative.)

i think the most obvious thing to do is . ..  just believe people of colour . if they say ‘ hey . . this person seems racist ‘ or ‘ i don’t like this vibe . . ‘ . don’t downplay it or minimise it , or LAUGH IT OFF or assure them they’re wrong . maybe it’s just me , but i honestly think sometimes i just get a Weird Feeling from someone , and no they haven’t done anything outrightly ‘ racist ‘ but they do little weird things , or treat me Slightly differently than they’ll treat their white friends . . and it’s not enough for me to say ‘ you’re a racist ‘ , but it’s enough for me to be like ‘ i kinda get a racist vibe from them . ‘ and i wish more white people believed me when i said that . suddenly every white person is a subject matter expert on racism . objectively , white people know you can’t discriminate against race . they know , for the most part , not to say racial slurs or wear other cultures clothes . they know that . but it’s the smaller more casual bits of racism that they just don’t see and will never see , and more importantly . . never believe . if i have a feeling somebody doesn’t like me because i’m brown / a woman . . 90% of the time i’m proven to be fucking correct ! our guts have TRAINED themselves our whole lives to be on the lookout for people who don’t like us and will never like us , and will treat us differently.  so , please , believe us , if we say we get a weird feeling from someone.

also . . white people listen to white people . if your friend says a racial slur constantly , don’t laugh with them . don’t stay silent. don’t just stare at them . ask them why they said that . make them uncomfortable , just like they make people of colour uncomfortable . stop lowering ur standards when it comes to friends and ppl ur with  , too ! stop letting them get away with that stuff ! it isn’t just up to people of colour to educate u , but u can educate other white ppl !

and please stop inviting me to events that are primarily white ! workplaces are white ! parties are white ! i have to Rearrange myself for every primarily white place i go to , and guess what . . that’s a lot of places !!!! i had to tell a couple of my friends very seriously , ‘ look i appreciate the invite , but everyone there is going to be white ‘ and i’m telling u 1000% right now , that isn’t EVER going to be a safe space for a person of colour . never ever ever.

please be more aware of how many white people there are in a place versus how many people of colour are there . think about it this way . . if u identify as a female , would u feel safe being in a space that’s All Men or predominantly just Men and then a lot of ‘ not like the other girls ‘ type of girls ? no . u probably wouldn’t . it’s exactly the same when ur the only poc in a room /  space . 

i’m not a teacher nor do i know anything about teaching , so i can’t give u advice on what to do in a classroom . also , i’m not ‘ all sayer ‘ on things race , by any means . and i never will be . this is just my Experience and my thoughts and my personal views . i will never claim to say this for all people of colour . 

#shutup g. #racism tw #im sure there's 5000 other things to be said but im not and i cant look at everything and think of everything #Anonymous

[princessnijireiki]

me: has Many Issues with harry potter

also me: loves period fiction & diverse worldbuilding that represents diff. class, region, and racial/ethnic experiences, fantasy in general, and political/war fiction, particularly in terms of impact on children & civilians in warzones + guerrilla revolutionaries

marauders era hp rps: always chilling out to tempt me into making Bad Decisions bc I will, inevitably, want to fight somebody over jk rowling's Bad Ideas & Bad Characters

#i've broken up friendships over less lbr #but like if it is the '80s & u have remus ''aids allegory'' lupin in yr game & we don't Talk About It guess what i'm gonna talk abt it for #ALL OF US & make everyone rly uncomfortable & will get full on ''philadelphia'' slash ''dead poets society'' abt how snape is Demonic™ #also i will fuuuuuuuuullllllllllllll on do a deathly hallows symbol = swastika Thing bc it's literally canon but jkr doesn't care so long as #she gets paid & harry et al get to ''reclaim'' swastikas for themselves… #also it's WEIRD how many of y'all cast non white death eaters when they're on a racial purity + ableist tip aka N A Z I S #(bc iirc wasn't exterminating squibs a thing?? i feel like it was) #a n y w a y #magical tensions in urban fantasy '70s-'90s uk set against a backdrop of world conflict w. a diverse cast?? #hell ya sign me up so long as harry potter isn't actually involved bc i am a revisionist contrarian FUCK 'til i fuckin' D I E . #hp