#man is thinking this through so deep

[kadextra]

Okay q!Bad is expanding so much on his plan for if he becomes president. I’ll break it down for y’all because it’s big brain

Basically, he would want to prevent having supreme power as an individual, bc it could lead to tyrant or dictatorship rule -> absolute power corrupts absolutely.

If q!Bad became president, he’d try to immediately dissolve his sole responsibility and enact a coalition government to maintain the server unity. Each language-group would send a representative to this coalition who will vote for decisions on the mods to add, mods to remove, and yes- the person to add to the server.

q!Bad said he’s even willing to give up adding Skeppy, because as a president he wouldn’t want to make any self-centered decisions and risk being corrupted by the power. all it would take is one. Plus, he realizes everyone wants a chance to add their friends. Leaving important decisions to a vote is really sweet actually

TLDR q!Bad as president would immediately try to unite the server, opposing the Federation’s likely intention to divide it. Would they allow that in their experiment? Would they try to control him? Who knows, but if he’s actually able to make this happen, that means the communication SMP would strike again >:D

#qsmp #badboyhalo #bbh my president #man is thinking this through so deep #the federation is gonna control him 100% though #but i believe in my streamer to try and fight back

[arthursfuckinghat]

There needs to be a scientific study done on how Rockstar Games' Arthur Morgan is able to provoke the most earth shattering emotions I didn't even know I had in me

#you guys get me right #like you feel it deep in your chest #the joy the anguish the grief #it feels like words aren't enough #and I don't mean it as in “sad moment in video game makes you sad” #I mean it as in “a deep and well written moment that has been slowly building is fleshed out in a video game and I think about for weeks” #when I say I lose sleep over this game I really mean it #I spend hours just laying in bed thinking about everything that happens in arthur morgan's life #it eats at me #I'm not ashamed of how much I have cried over this game #it fucking gets to me #playing rdr2 is the best form of escapism until the story hits you like a stab in the chest but the blade just pushes in further and further #until you're left with a gaping wound #“wow michael I didn't know you were so emotional over pixels on a screen” #except those pixels were acted out and performed by real people and voiced by real people and designed to look like real people #the game's main target was historic realism emphasis on REALISM #to provoke emotions through amazing storytelling #it's okay to feel strongly about things!! #this game man #this game #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #mick thinks #arthur morgan #red dead redemption 2 spoilers

[doctor-octiddius]

Rewatching "Our Man Bashir" and completely forgot about this. WHO DID THIS AND WHY.

#i don't think i've ever mentioned that i've been going insane over ds9 for the past month or so #and i'm still not finished with it. dodging spoilers for a show that ended decades ago is a skill #but #i need him in ways i cannot put into words #maurice's monthly gay breakdown #tw gun #maybe ? #i'm not sure. anyways. #i do NOT have a thing for guns but man. #i am going THROUGH IT tonight babes #deep space 9 #ds9 #star trek ds9 #our man bashir #julian bashir #my gifs yeehaw

[bruhstation]

of fucking course the best, most harrowing, most gut-wrenching tugs character only appeared in one episode (a bit of ramble in the tags)

#this is tugs #tugs boomer #tugs sunshine #boomshine #<---- evil sinister laughter #fortezza bigg city #senjart #I think he's neat. I also think a bottle of antidepressants could help with whatever hes going through #okay I'm gonna talk for a bit about boomer (mostly about his canon counterpart rather than solely his fbc version) #boomer's character struck a deep chord within me that when rewatching jinxed while sleep deprived I got so scared #his depression? thoughts of sinking himself? claiming that he didn't want any help yet attempted to push just a bit longer when supported? #putting his worth on how useful he is as a machine first? an individual with selfism second? thus deeming himself as a lost cause? #and despite his jaded sardonic demeanor he genuinely cares about others and puts their safety before his own? #like mannnnnn come ON no wonder I couldnt stop thinking about him #his struggles as a clinically depressed person is.... so real? #he says ''I don't want any help'' but he clearly does want AND need help. he goes along with TC and sunshine's hijinks of helping him #gradually went from ''whats the point I'm gonna jinx it anyways'' to ''Ive tried so hard I really have but I cannot. I never had a chance'' #he even went ''okay but don't toot'' to TC before his final job! he's entertaining TC and sunshine's theory! he really does want help! #boomer's whole character screams “I want to live but I don't know how” #and man oh man I feel like s01e10 reached out of the screen and drove a stake through my heart #because it's so visceral. it's rang true with my personal experiences #it's so sad. it's probably because I'm sleep deprived but I want to take care of that poor orange thing so badly #boomer most likely thought his final job to tow the schooner will end badly as usual but with how he sounds way more upset when he failed- #-and how he even went ''I can't be bothered to argue anymore''. I have a feeling there's a tiny speck of hope inside him- #-that quickly died out the moment lightning struck and he got towed by the fire chief #and of course he's upset. hes tried so many times to find a way to get rid of the jinx but now? it's as if he's given false hope- #-and the thought of the jinx leaving is something akin to a fairytale. as long as he bears the name ''boomer'' and not ''captain harry''- #-he is doomed to this constant cycle of messing things up when its not his own fault and having other point their fingers at him #that is until he got refurbished into a houseboat (essay material for another day) #theyre never going to write another anthro vehicle character like this anymore . sad

[iwtvdramacd18]

I used to think that most people had more sense before I got into this fandom because the way people just completely disregard Louis' (and Claudia's) blackness in a show that is an adaptation of a book where the main character owned 2 plantations and hunted slaves for food while talking about his hatred and fear of those he enslaved is like incredible. And to not understand that the show is taking aspects of its source material to task. And to come in with such a superficial understanding of how gothic romance is depicted in Western media, to imply that Louis being put into a role that is almost always taken up by white women is something that's to just connect to a more common audience? Like do you hear yourself? And I KNOW many of yall don't engage with black gay art I KNOW you don't listen to us and often think us outside of queer experience but at some point you are going to need to contend with the fact that there might be something deliberate with the way Louis talks about his relationship with Lestat. The way Claudia interacts with him vs Lestat before and after ep 5. The words she uses to describe the two of them. The books and art put on screen. The costume design. At some point you need to realize you don't know what the fuck you talking about

#drama txt #the biggest thing that gets me is why would you put it in the tags? #but once again if you don't consider blackness as something that matters ofc you gonna look at something like amciwtv and have vapid takes #ofc you're going to see the de Lioncourts photo and go oh welp. here they are making the gays het!! #and not for a moment think about what it means for a black gay man to be PUT into that position of “housewife” #while married to a white man #IN JIM CROW DEEP SOUTH AMERICA LIKE THE SHOW IS SO OPEN ABOUT THE THEMES #it is so obvious about it and heavy handed at times but now I see its not only necessary but not enough the way people are actively dodging #and lets not even get into how few other queers will even consider a trans reading of anything louis is going through

[m-kyunie]

"The supposedly sealed memories of a miniature garden"

#dgm #d.gray-man #alma karma #kanda yuu #okay im going to word vomit my concept abt this apologies in advance #anyw ik Wisely gives the opportunity to mind-read/access memories like we see in the 3rd exorcist arc #but i think Road wldve been another interesting choice. i rlly like the concept of dream n its used a lot in that arc #we see a lot fo Kanda's original life within his dreams and illusions which is Road's specialty #just like constructing this false reality idk I've talked abt the idea of Kanda being put to sleep many times before but never properly #inspection style like idk maybe they still look like kids running in this like. perfect place that illusion of the word that Alma read abou #Allen waddling through a lake's worth of lotus with Road instead of the labs! #idk...........some parts are so deep he falls in and those r pockets of memories u know bc i still want that #and the deeper and closer he gets the water gets murky and red #u know bc im cool and love cheesy symbolism #I want Allen to bargain with Alma and Alma to just be like. sweet and charming and laugh it off until Allen gets to the root of the problem #WAIT U KNOW IN LIKE SAILOR MOON WHEN THE SCOUTS DIE (that is not a spoiler i promise) and they're wrapped in thorns? #I wanna draw that w Kanda....deep under the water #but he has to want to wake up from that dream. I'm playing off the fact that Allen had to punch him to snap him outta it #anyway....im done its okay

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

okay weird q incoming but what ways do you think speedsters can get sick? Like to my understanding, they can’t really come down with normal virus’ like the flu, right? But they could get things like chronic migraines?

NANOBOTS!!! This is one of the best pieces of canon lore ever. I did a whole post on it but TLDR: normal human metabolisms have so much shit going on that they don't even notice nanobots in their body BUT speedsters have hyper accelerated metabolisms that are the equivalent of the straight A's overachiever in school on meth. So speedster metabolisms do notice nanobots and they attack full force, triggering all of the body's defenses and responses.

But the nanobots are metal so it obviously doesn't do anything. It just leaves the speedster lethargic, feverish, vomiting, dizzy, with a headache, sore muscles and a runny nose, ect. It's basically an allergic reaction.

Now, poisoning them can work depending on what the poison is/what the dosage is. You would need a 100% fatal poison and you would need a fairly high dose. Because speedsters heal fast and they have a hyper accelerated metabolism, so any poison that is based on toxicity (alcohol poisoning for example) would be out of their system faster than it could even take effect.

But poisons that can't be cleared out/processed by the body (take cyanide for example, it binds with the chemical receptors in your body making it physically impossible to use oxygen) wouldn't really be affected by their metabolism at all. So while the speedsters could heal the damaged tissues from these poisons fairly quickly (making it seem as though they were only slightly affected) they would ultimately need time to do so, time they would not have if it kills them first. This isn't technically what you are asking because there would be no substance that 'makes them sick', there would only be 'fine', 'not fine for like a minute and then fine again' and 'dead'. (... unless they were hooked up to a steady supply of the toxin)

Likewise, (this is getting more into theoretical territory, less canon) there might be some illnesses that would affect them? Not for long but if you got something super fucking fatal like Rabies, it might make them display mild cold symptoms for a day or something.

I don't know though. They have really fucking good immune systems. And even super fatal diseases can be fought. Take my example of Rabies, while it is commonly thought to be 100% fatal once symptoms show up there actually have been cases of people surviving it. Rabies is a very stealthy and fast disease, so the main problem with treating it is that your body's immune system isn't fast enough to stop it. People have survived by being placed in medically induced comas (slowing their bodily functions and thus the disease) for long enough that the medication can eradicate it. So for a speedster? That's gone in a minute tops. You would need an insane disease that I'm not sure even exists.

There's also like... pregnancy and menstruation. Growing pains, muscle pain from running is a BIG ONE, being dehydrated/starvation, blood loss, ect. Lots of ways to fuck with a speedster in a way they can't immediately fix.

There are also speedster specific ailments. It's basically 50/50 if a natural born speedster gets a weird highly fatal aging disease. Sometimes speedsters can be born without a kinetic energy shield which makes using their powers at all incredibly fatal to them. All speedsters will have connectivity issues at some point that can be fatal. Sometimes Time Gets Bad™ (shout out to when Barry kept chronically stealing time from people/things every time he used his powers). Sometimes they have too much energy and can't maintain human form (shout out to when Wally didn't know what the speedforce was and was accidentally cosplaying Ghost Rider). Velocity 9 is a highly addictive drug that works on speedsters and makes them display typical addiction behavior (and withdrawal). V9 can also cause a speedster to 'overdose' (burst into flames/lightning/energy). They all have the constant urge to yeet themselves into the speedforce. Ect.

#here's the thing: they are made of speedforce but its not a skin deep thing. you feel me? like their CELLS are made of speedforce #so all shit still affects them #i keep saying that they don't need oxygen or food to survive and thats true but its only if they're actively compensating with speedforce #cause they can get energy from the speedforce or they can get energy from oxygen and food or both. they can't do neither #and they don't really *know* or understand that theyd be fine with JUST speedforce energy. they still think they need oxygen and food #so if they were suffocating or something they might instinctively crank up the speedforce to compensate but they're also very stupid #so they might just die. idk it really depends on who it is how much they know and how much SF they're drawing on #cause like... energy beings need energy yo #i hope this makes sense #the muscle pain one is interesting cause Wallys early runs are really big on the whole hitting the wall thing #he would hit a wall that he physically couldn't break through and it caused him a lot of pain. #some of that was not being hooked up properly cause Wally wasn't hooked up properly until he was an ADULT #because he is FUCKING INSANE and he just went 'huh i guess this is my limit and i will stay below it' liKE AN INSANE PERSON #anyway some of it was SF issues and some of it was mental but he actually got really really hurt anytime he got close to the wall #REALLY bad muscle pain. and like... it was potentially extremely fatal. 'breaking down your body into little bits' fatal #he doesn't get that anymore because hes properly hooked up now but jfc that man treated 'entering the death zone' like it was #the high score to beat at his local arcade. he took it as a fucking challenge. absolutely insane dude right there

[backpackingspace]

thinking about how for like the first two years of obi wans apprenticeship qui gon did not give a fuck what obi wan did (or even really what happened to him) before snapping out of it and realizing he was actually very much responsible for this child and course corrected into being a helicopter parent and how obi wan always read this as mistrust instead of concern and guilt.

#Star wars #qui gon jinn #obi wan kenobi #The disaster linages complicated relationship #Neglect #Trauma #Like qui gon was deeply traumatized individual #And I think he just could not deal with being responsible for another child #Like I'm pretty sure obi wan would do something and qui gon would be having literal flashbacks of xantos #Which is not an excuse for obi wan being left to fend for himself but #And that lackluster care ran deep man like obi wan regularly ended up on a completely different planet during those early missions #But to that 13 year old baby wan it felt like trust #So when qui gon started suddenly giving a shit and putting rules in place it felt like mistrust #It's a pretty common reaction to see in kids when their parents who hadn't been parenting get it together #Qui gon having so much guilt being a helicopter tired dad #Wrestling his feral padawan into one of those kid leashes #Qui gon: through gritted teeth: its the will of the force Padawan stay fucking still I mean it I swear to all the gods #Obi wan: 15 and feral and war veteran twice over embressed to the point of finding this humiliating: #Master hates me? Mater distrusts me?? He thinks I need to be held on to like I'm fucking 7 years old when will I ever be good enough for hi

[sluckythewizard]

GUH. i started writing more. ill see if i can find the time to write a lil more while im at work (i will be working for 3 grueling days straight) but in the meantime heeere HEEERE have a small small sip.

#SELF INDULKGENT AS HEEEELLL but im having fun i think #i think i enjoy this 'chasing streams of thought' style of writing. i like slithering deep through the minds of characters. #i like digging their thoughts from their minds and laying them out in organized piles. #maybe sometimes i mix up the piles on purpose. im a wild cardt. im wacky. im unpradectable. whatll i do next? i dunno #I REALLY LIKE SODA. hes simple in a way. and yet also fairly complex. or something. i think hes dumb in the same ways i am #i gotta go finish getting packed for my 3 day expedidtion into the fuckin. stupid lands. but first. while im here. #listen to me boy. i am speaking directly into your ear. into your MIND. i need you to open 'you tube dot come' and i need you to #type into that search bar i need you to type: Viagra Boys ADD #and i need you to take that song and put it into whatever Emizel playlist u have. you will do this for me #if you fail to do so youll be in big trouple young man #you will never see the light of day. #ALSO IN OTHER NEWs i love faygo so ggoooodaamn much #i KNOW all the demons are Down w the Clown man they GOTTA BE

[ruelpsen]

having a somewhat shitty evening which means it's time to think about my fave burping for me so I don't lose my gd mind

#only a few more weeks in this godforsaken place and i'll never have to deal with these assholes again 🙏 #i'm so tired of this place man #thinking about my fave has gotten me through... maybe a concerning amount of frustrating things this year #my baseline for how often i think of him is already pretty high but he's on my mind almost constantly here #bc i am that desperately in need of something happy to help me take my mind off of stressful shit #if there's any genuine advice for me to give on this blog it's this: #when considering a college do some digging online about the culture #ESPECIALLY if you're a minority #and i mean dig deep too #if a school has money they may try their damndest to hide all the problems they have through whatever means necessary #people told me i'd fit in here which is true academically #but socially and culturally this place is full of the most toxic people and mindsets jfc #i could go on about this place and how much it sucks for hours #but anyway... my l*ndo burping 🤤🤤🤤 #thinking about drinking soda with him and him not letting me touch myself or burp 🥴🥴🥴 #sighhhhhhhhhhhh #not sfw #londarling

[corfisers]

saezuru au where everything is more or less the same but yashiro starts transitioning during the time skip which makes the visit to ryuzaki even more awkward (for ryuzaki) than it was in canon

#i'm half joking because realistically speaking A Lot would need to change for yashiro to get to that point #(it exists in the same dimension where my nanayashi stuff exists. so there are quite a few things going differently. dw about it tho) #but like. do you ever think about how ryuzaki has so many hang ups around yashiro's gender specifically #he already has to live with yashiro being completely oblivious to his feelings (it's mainly his own fault so i don't feel bad) #now imagine his already shitty to begin with excuses being completely negated. like damn you could've had something better than this #or not. there's yashiro's side to this too and yashiro doesn't care that much about ryuzaki so it's hard to tell how things could've been #whatever not gettin too deep into it. i just had the mental image of nanahara sitting there like “damn ryuzaki's going through it huh" #that's what you get man! that's what you get #saezuru tag

[tender-hearteddd]

when aot was just abt to end, there were leaks ofc as there always are lol abt eren not really achieving any of his plans. and so much of the aot fandom, who have never lived through war, were genuinely upset over this. eren literally commits global genocide, he and his plan doesn’t deserve to achieve anything. especially not anything that would benefit him.

eren wasn’t one of my favorites until season 4 because of how utterly fucked up he is. he was a tragic MC who started off as a hero and as the story progressed, became a monster. even though we know what leads to his corruption, genocide is still wrong actually and having a characters worst fear come to life due to their own actions is the sort of tragic irony isayama loves. we’ve already seen isayama do this with reiner, zeke and grisha. it’s satisfying yet devastating at the same time how harsh the story is on them.

and the story should’ve been a lot more harsher to eren instead of the positive reaffirmation he got in 139 and from most of the fandom. eren claims the rumbling was for paradis, like thst shit didn’t kill off most of paradis’ population, and than he claims that it was for his friends (like pieck, who he has never even had a conversation with) but than he admits it was for himself - and it wasn’t satisfying at all because isayama wanted us to feel bad for eren and it worked. never mind the fact that eren killed his own mom, that he manipulated his own father for taking the FT for his own gain, that he annihilated 80% of the world - he did it for his friends 😊 so it’s okay! friendship >>>> genocide 😝

aot taking a very strong stance against eren’s actions and plan, denouncing them as wrong (bc they are) and showing them that nothing good comes out of them is wayyyyyy better the woobification and the mini redemption arc we got from him in the last chapter.

this is why i hate it when aot fans talk abt aot like it’s the greatest anti-war anime ever made. i think majority of aot fans are westerners or come from developed countries. it’s easier to understand war when ur watching cartoons of it instead of actually living through it. a huge part of the fandom justifies eren’s genocide, even with characters explicitly condemning him. do you really think it’s clear with its anti-war message when all we got was a few sad faces and a huge thank you from the main cast? one of the main themes in aot is the moral grayness of the world. the warriors did what they did because they were child soldiers trying to protect their families, EMA would’ve done the same. the scouts raided liberio (and were heavily against it). and masses of innocent people died in the name of other groups interests. there were literally no winners in this at all.

but why have characters that should’ve narratively and thematically been against eren suddenly forgive and praise him?

why break all the characterization, break all those different point of views, for the warriors specifically, if not for the final woobification of eren?

eren could’ve had one of the most extraordinary corruption arcs in all of anime just for that to be ruined and i will forever be mad abt it

#ending defenders dni #we are not gonna argue abt this if you see this just look away 😭 #if you haven’t actually lived through war #if you haven’t actually had to see people dying due to war #if you haven’t had to go through the humiliation of being a refugee #than you have no reason to defend this atrocious piece of anti war media #anti-war media made by those from countries of imperial power are always really bad #idk i just hate when westerners talk abt war #over the past few weeks #my homeland has been routinely bombed and attacked #and while i try to ignore this deep seated feeling of anguish inside of me #i go onto tumblr #and i see bitches woobifying a fictional white man for the genocide he commits #and seeing pple praise aot as an anti-war piece of media is what prompted this post #being a refugee in this country is so funny lol #also my homeland is one of the countries that has the most child soldiers in the world #which is why i think i relate more to the warriors than anything #aot could’ve been so great if it was written by me #attack on titan critical #attack on titan meta #eren jaeger critical #eren critical #eren jeager meta #eren x reader #eren jeager x reader #aot spoilers #aot isn’t a good anti-war analysis because isayama isn’t a devoted anti imperialist #if ur naming characters after nazis and imperial japanese war ships #i don’t expect u to even be anti-war i expect u to be a bigot #i can’t believe people just swept isayama’s worrying obsession with ww2 under the ruh

[fitzrove]

Rant in the tags... I am insufferable

#i keep watching video essays that annoy me..... #largely about like idk 'girlhood' 💀 #and they never make sense or come across as relatable because smth like loneliness or relationship drama or identity for women is ALWAYS #connected to relationship history with men 💀 #and h*terosexuality is treated as an universal aspect of womanhood #this also makes many stories unrelatable to me. a man existing is not a crime but stories saying smth deep about womanhood through how women #feel about men makes it alienating when you don't see the world that way #also idk some video essays are just soo pretentious and the person talking obviously doesnt know enough abt the topic #this doesnt only go for 'girlhood' type essays btw it also goes for the stuff i watch about minecraft and ts2 etc (yeah...) 😂💀 #anyway yeah where is the essay about the universal girl experience of wanting to be crown prince rudolf (JOKING) #no but the thing is... watching dune made me realise... ppl never let a girl be a hero in blockbusters IN THE SAME WAY men get to be #st*r w*rs tried but the overall plot failed in many parts & people couldnt be normal abt it #idk i do think its because of how sex and romance are treated way differently in women's stories....... women never have those happen #just randomly on the side as things that build her up and somewhat affect the hero's journey - it often becomes About The Man #(because often it is a man) #idk #where's girl p*ul atr*ides. where's girl j*sus. where's girl crown prince rudolf #(in my fanfics.... that last one is in my fanfics...) #well just one so far unfortunately 😔

[builtintripping]

Hey! I love the concept of your forgor AU, so I was wondering...

We kind of know the reactions to the Timmy's friends. But what about Crocker and the rest of the Evil Syndicate? Would they be happy? Or weirded out? Disappointed?

ooooHHH INTERESTING QUESTION!! THANKS SO MUCH FOR ASKING!!

I already answered about Crocker's reaction, but basically he only vaguely rembers Timmy having Fairy Godparents. Da Rules affected him somehow but not as directly as on Timmy since he's still passionate about hunting fairies down whether Timmy's involved or not. Sooooo he's still salty around the kid. He just targets him less than he used to.

As for the rest, they probably don't even notice (or care) about Timmy forgoring lawl. If they did, it would be convenient for them cause that's one less ally of their nemesis should the Syndicate and the NU Gang ever engage in battle once again. Unless they actually turned into a new leaf, which could yield interesting results...

#plankton: he's basically that man i need some time to think abt this meme since i think out of everyone he's easily the most forgiveable #for not comitting genocide and because he's from the silliest and least serious show out of the four #vlad: i will die for unkie vlad au so not only will he be sad for timmy (yet be resolved that he's powerless to help) #he can't help but see that his spiritual nephew danny will get his first taste of what it's like to outlive his loved ones #even when timmy technically didn't die yet it seemed like it. vlad'll try to be there for danny even when deep down he's just as terrified #terrified of the prospect that one day he'll also outlive his friends same way danny already has (again redemption or unkie vlad au) #calamitous: im gonna be honest i know nothing about this guy RIP #but as a father himself he might understand what timmy was going through the most out of the other four syndicates #losing one's parents is just as devasatating as losing one's child (if anything it's worse for the latter) but yeah losing family and shit #i put these in the tags cause these are all hypothetical reactions in which the syndicate aren't baddies #cause let's be real i cant kind of see them actually giving a shit about their nemesis's friends 🥹 #asks #i forgor lor #nicktoons unite

[cloud-somersault]

constellations chapter 3 is SO GOOD idk what the fuck happened there, but go OFF!!!

#i know everyone's in chapter 4 land but 3 is SOO GOOD #bro the stone forest alone....HELP #ugh it was so hard writing wukong's rage form but HOLY SHIT!! reading it after is so hype #do u ever just sit in a pavilion as the rain gently falls...with your ex-husband and mentee....and it's quiet and peaceful but #there's a strong turbulence going on deep inside you :3 #the way wukong always dusts MK off and wipes his tears away and makes sure he's clean faced and ready to go #speaks to how much wukong cares about vanity #i mean he also is expressing comfort and compassion but. he also cares about appearances a lot #but anyway -- do you also ever have a conversation with your ex-husband through eye contact alone? #i think they've done that four times in this fic... #mk the entire journey: every day i get a little more homophobic #HE'S SO TIRED!!!! #MK after talking to wukong and macaque at the inn: yeah haha! i seriously wanna go home now! 🙃 #MK on the phone: DADSY /PLEASE/ COME PICK ME UP!!!! #macaque seeing Wukong's eyes for the first time and actually stopping everything that he was doing #and just looking at wukong and being like “haha...heeyyy what the fuck?? did they do to you??” chef's kiss #wukong and macaque just talking while macaque captures that random man's shadow...please #as they reminisce about how things used to be...how easily they talk to each other when they're not guided by hate #that's the thing it's how easily they fall into step with one another #that's shadowpeach. they'll be off balance or one will be running and the other walking. they'll get distracted or whatever. but #they'll always fall back into step with one another #and that's why they've got to walk with each other. step by step...so they can stop being afraid 😌

[lab-gr0wn-lambs]

Steven Universe.. hit different and I don’t really understand why? Thinking about any of my other old hypefixations, I smile. But Steven Universe just makes me a deeply uncomfortable kind of sad that latches onto my brain like a leech and doesn’t let go for many hours. And I have no idea what it did to deserve that lmao

#I guess this show was a much more massive part of my life than I realized? #it's not my favourite show but I think it's. part of me now #if I'd watched it all in one hit for the first time now I'd think ''woag that was awesome'' and proceed to be normal about it #I had a hard time being normal about things I really liked as a kid and 'cause this show went on for so long and I followed it religiously- #for the ENTIRE time it was airing- #I think it became a permanent resident in my brain along with the emotional state I was in when I started watching it #when I think of Steven Universe I'm flooded with all the ways my childhood self took it way too seriously #I think about things I just MADE UP about the show through theories and implied backstory- all the deeper things that never even happened #and it gives me this unscratchable itch. this weird sense of longing #wughfgdh anyways #my ears ache from getting weirdly choked up about this lmao #just did a shortened rewatch of the whole show through watching Scoot's reaction videos #and like #bruh #the show is y'know. REALLY GOOD. But not THAT good jesus christ #nothing is THAT good #it's kinda cool that I used to have such deep emotions about literally everything but man I'm glad I'm not 13 anymore bahah #mannnnnn I really set this show up for failure by expecting it to reach this impossible unachievable level of depth #and then being kinda bummed when it didn't #it's a CARTOON Cas. a reallly fucking good one just the way it is. calm down child #anyways might draw Greg because he's the goat #steven universe #rant #(?)