#maybe it's the autism

[apollos-forgotten-flower-bf]

I am NOT beating the autism stereotypes bc I have had hyperfixations on trains AND sharks AND teenage mutant ninja turtles, AND I've been diagnosed w/ selective mutism, AND i wear headphones. I am literally the "younger cousin w/ autism" example bs that people use. The only thing that doesn't fit is that im not a CIS man.

#maybe it's the autism #autism #actually autistic #asd #autism spectrum disorder

[lostlegendaerie]

I feel like the Chris Fleming "vibe dysphoria" bit ("you are not a little mouse getting groceries, you are a very cruel woman who happens to be small") should also include the people who avoid confrontation under the guise of "positive vibes only" like you're not spreading warmth and kindness by saying everything is fine, you're refusing to acknowledge and resolve interpersonal conflict and making the vibes worse

#maybe it's the autism #but I'm STILL MAD that a year long friendship got ended bc I asked her to stop making suicide jokes around me bc it was triggering me

[horrid-mothlegs]

Why is sexuality so much harder to pinpoint than gender?? I figured my tranny shit out in 18 hours but to this day all I can tell you about my sexuality is that I want to be someone's dog

#transgender #maybe it's the autism #it's probably the autism

[i-know-how-my-story-ends]

Lines from the "2023 Speaker of the United States House of Representatives election" Wikipedia page that made me laugh

(in an "oh god" kinda way)

This chart of the results of the first vote--

-- followed by the statement, "Lee Zeldin, whose term as a House member had ended with the close of the 117th and previous Congress, was no longer an incumbent representative."

"Representative Matt Gaetz of Florida nominated Jordan, while Jordan himself nominated and voted for McCarthy." (Second vote)

"Donalds wrote on Twitter about his decision to change his vote, stating that "the reality is Rep. Kevin McCarthy doesn't have the votes" (Third vote) (No one had enough votes that time, either. Donalds has yet to earn more than twenty.)

"Aguilar again nominated Jeffries" gets repeated-- verbatim-- six times.

#us politics #bruh #jay talks #the way wikipedia editors phrase this ridiculous shit makes it somehow very funny to me #maybe it's the autism #'wrote on Twitter'

[l3fool]

I don't if it's an autism trait or not but I argue with people a lot.. I don't mean to but I can't stop it sometimes. Usually it's when I feel a group of people aren't being treated fairly. I try to bite my tongue when someone is criticizing me personally but when it's others or someone I care about I get really heated and I can't stop. It takes a lot of my energy and sometimes I think it's not worth it but I still do it.. Idk what it is.

#Idk why I'm arguing with people all the time #some people tell I'm too defensive but I can't control it #maybe it's the autism

[actual-corpse]

Every night I go to sleep

And dream up horrors beyond human comprend

And then I wake up and realize

There's no end

Every moment is a waking nightmare

Somsomskmsksmdomdbuckstabu

I have emotions that run so deep

Makes it super hard to sleep

Zu groß Zu groß

HOW THE FUCK CAN MERE MORTAL HANDLE THESE HORRORS

IT HURTS

*screaming. Maybe tearing at my eyes or something idk*

#i wrote a little diddy at work about the horrors #i work at the Church of Capitalism #which is Walmart #i wrote it down to seem deep #bruh #idk #maybe it's the autism #but like #i have feelings #and they make my body really heavy #and it hurts my meatsuit #and my bones #I DONT UNDERSTAND DIE DER AND DAS WHY ARE THE WORDS GENDERED #WHY AREN'T THEY ALL NEUTER NOUNS? #DIE pizza #DAS SANDVITCH #screaming

[fawnshy]

if one more psychiatrist asks me if I "feel like I'm being driven by a motor" while attempting to determine the severity of my ADHD I'm going to start throwing my shit at them like a chimpanzee

#alex drabbles #maybe it's the autism #but I don't know how to answer this question and I never will #it is not a sentiment I can relate to in any capacity #just speak in literal terms. please. #I don't know what that means !

[vanadiumheart]

Do people actually care if a story is predictable ? Do ppl care

#I will read. On e billion romances where they are in love and happy at the end. And I will rejoice #'What Happens In The Story' is like one (1) piece of the actual overall experience and delights a tale has to offer. I don't get it #When I got the last Wayfarers book I read it straight through in 1 day and then literally immediately started reading it again #Maybe it's the autism

[polariswiss]

i get so fearful posting here What if they throw tomatoes at me and call me a fool

#maybe it's the autism #but at this point i'm sure that's pretty par for the course #as per usual on this hellsite

[juliaswritings]

on being 19 and suffering from incessant longing

you are 19. it is 10:47pm on a saturday night, and you are filled with longing for what your life will be one day. you dream about freedom from needing to work or be in school or make money or do anything much at all. even though you know that needing is more in your mind than it is anywhere else. you have dreams. you think about standing on top of a big hill during a heavy rain. you dance and dance to your favorite band alone, though it's unclear where their music is coming from. you picture yourself dancing for so long that time eventually leaves and goes home and all that is is you and the hill and the rain and the music. on that hill you understand your body and her language and she doesn't need to tell you how to dance or what to do with your arms or your legs or anything because she can move them on her own. everyone on the bottom of the hill is watching and laughing and taking pictures and you decide they are celebrating. you decide they understand, and they want to dance. soon enough everyone is on that hill, and they are all dancing. in another dream, you are in your favorite tv show and you are just like them. you are confused and lost but they are too. nobody who has ever tried to hurt you is real to them, so they don't understand why you cry. you know every room of their apartment and you move in and act like it is home and they know that you are home. you are home there. you don't wake up from these dreams. you find the hill in your car and your best friends bedroom floor and alone, somewhere. you find the apartment in corners of bookstores and foreign bathroom stalls. you remember these dreams better than you remember high school or anything before it. you write about these dreams, and you search endlessly for your hill and your apartment. you remember these dreams. 

#poetry #longing #young poets #adulthood #growing #pinegrove #himym #maybe it's the autism #maybe it's maybelline

[maverickcalf]

I feel none of those choices, in relation to the last reblog. People call me cute and I hate it, it feels bad.

#maybe it's the autism #my parents call me beautiful and that also feels bad #but i am not cute #i am not a good looking person

[oasisr]

Me crying, thinking about how I wish I could be a little kid again.

#it sucks #i feel so childish #and at times helpless #i wish I was more grown up #I'm almost 30 #maybe it's the autism #idk

[defending-harmony]

Every now and again, the spirit of a medieval peasant possesses me and I must eat salted bread. Just that... salt and bread and it is the most delicious delicacy I have ever eaten

#you'll never guess what i am eating rn #i eat like i have to ration for war #GOD #tw food #maybe it's the autism

[anxiouslyautistic34]

There are a million and one things that should’ve given it away that I was autistic, but one of the biggest ones that I can think of is when I was little and my mom tried to get me to wear jeans and I cried. Also the spinning. And the picky eating. And the meltdowns. And when I said I could hear the lightbulbs and smell the temperature. Also when my favorite pizza place closed down temporarily and I cried. Also when I tried to create a schedule for myself down to the minute. Also when my only friend in elementary school had autism.

But who could’ve known🤷‍♀️

#not to mention that my brother has autism #and definitely my dad #and probably my sister #even if she won't admit it #autism #late diagnosed autistic #also how do you tag things #I've never understood it #maybe it's the autism #lol #actually autistic

[gruemoon]

I've never really wanted to meet any celebrity, no matter how much I admire them. Meeting people in general is a concept that is fraught with anxieties and meeting someone where there is such a distinct power differential involves social customs that are, to me, unknowable and/or nonsensical.

You go up to them and say what? Ask them questions that they've answered 10000 times? Try to be different, without knowing all the ways that's been tried before? To what end? An autograph? And then you just leave? That sounds very uncomfortable. From the times I've encountered people I've admired, I know all I get from it is debilitating anxiety that causes me to want to forget the encounter ever happened, since I can't go back in time and make it so it never happened in the first place (and I've only had positive experiences!). I've had to get rid of any physical evidence of those (perfectly fine, normal) encounters because they became a source of pain. Yes, there's a lot wrong with me, why do you ask?

If meeting celebrities is a pleasant thing for you that you enjoy doing, I'm happy for you! That's fantastic!

I think I'd be able to handle meeting a celebrity I admire if the context is that they and I are working on the same project. A context where there is something to focus on and the meeting is not the point. This is very unlikely to actually occur, since I work in grocery and I haven't been able to be creative in years. But that's fine. I figured a thing out about myself, and sometimes that's enough.

But every once in a while there's a notable figure that makes me think... damn, I want to meet them. So that's where I am right now.

I think the person in question would be super cool to meet; I've no doubt that they're great at making people feel comfortable around them. Unfortunately my brain is bad at these things. Oh well

#maybe it's the autism #maybe it's the social anxiety #maybe a fun mixture of of the two #maybe it's something else i haven't figured out yet #i don't know

[prawnlegs]

compelled yesterday to make a zine about a lifetime of being a contrarian little shit sketched left-handed and inked right (ow)

#zines #no faster way to make me suspicious of a thing than to tell me it's mandatory #maybe it's autism maybe it's maybelline #comic