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January Drama Wrap Up

January was a month of ups and downs (and some very big let downs) but over all I enjoyed what I watched. I tried out a new country's dramas and discovered some classics at the same time and I've built myself a pretty solid Currently Watching List to take me into February.

📊 The Stats

Total Dramas: 12

Currently Watching: 3

Completed: 4

Dropped: 2

On Hold: 3

My To Watch List: 60

🎭 The Dramas

🤼💰 Like Flowers in the Sand - Currently Watching

Like Flowers in the Sand is going to be another one of those k-dramas I am never going to be able to explain to my non k-drama watching friends without sounding like I've lost the plot a little.

"It's a small town drama about a minor league ssireum team and a wrestler who's been in a years long slump. There's also an investigation into a murder linked to match-fixing but that's kind of a side plot and it's linked to the wrestler's childhood friend who's reappeared incognito after disappearing mysteriously many years ago ... I promise it's good!"

It's probably not the drama for everyone but as someone who has historically loved sports centered k-dramas and who loved When Camilla Blooms this drama ticks so many of my boxes. I'm very excited to watch the complex relationships and politics of small town life be put under a microscope and dissected and I can already tell I'm going to love how morally grey all the characters are.

It also doesn't hurt that the ML is the biggest himbo to ever ever himbo and I love him and his empty brain to bits.

Prediction: I become a ssireum fan.

🕹️💌 Love For Love's Sake - Currently Watching

I've been staying away from K-BL these past few months because I've been struggling with their short run time but Love for Love' Sake lured me back in like a moth to the flame and I have no regrets.

Is Love For Love's Sake Perfect? No, there are definitely some pacing issues that are leaving me feeling very temporally confused about how quickly or slowly events are unfolding and the lower than average k-drama budget does show at certain points but, do you what?

I don't care.

I wholeheartedly love this drama and it's going to have to mess up its last 2 episodes Last Twilight style to change that.

The relationship between the main couple? Adorable. The openly gay leader of the school delinquents? We stan. The oddball friendship group forming because they're all slightly crushing on the ML? Sign me up! The addition of a glitch in the game that's starting to mess everything up? Horrifying and I love it.

Prediction: A new favourite K-BL is born and it's all thanks to this mf

🩺😭 Doctor Slump - Currently Watching

I'm watching this because it's on my Plan To Watch list and Netflix started playing the trailer after I'd finished watching an episode of The Way of the Househusband.

I won't lie, this is definitely the drama, out of all the dramas I'm currently watching, that I'm least certain I'll finish but, at the same time, I was pleasantly surprised by the first two episodes. Yes, it does do that typical comedy k-drama thing of mixing ridiculous over the top laughs with some incredibly difficult topics (because who doesn't want to be laughing hysterically one minute and then doing some deep self-reflection the next?) but so far the balance and the boundaries between the two moods has been relatively well struck and only time will tell if it manages to stay that way.

I appreciate tackling the topic of burn out and depression in a country that still champions overwork and mental fortitude above all else and I'm interested to see where it goes with that part of its arc. The "being framed for murder" I am a little less certain about, but it has definitely added a layer of intrigue to a story that would otherwise be relatively mundane and by the books.

As I said, time will tell if I continue to enjoy Doctor Slump but I'd say my only quibble with the drama so far is that I'm not sure "accused of (and potentially framed for) murder" and "suffering from depression due to burn out and work place abuse" quite fit what is normally meant by the word slump.

Prediction: Maybe I won't drop this half way through like I thought I would.

👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨🎥 BL Drama no Shuen ni Narimashita - Completed

My first Japanese BL ever and it was a good one. Yes, it was 3 episodes long, but it used its runtime perfectly. All of the main characters felt properly fleshed out (and the side characters were caricature enough that you only really needed one scene to know who they were and what they stood for), the pacing was great (it couldn't afford to drag but it didn't speed through scenes either), and it found the right balance between BL shenanigans and forrays into deeper messages. This was exactly what I needed at the time and, for someone who doesn't normally like mini-dramas that much, I enjoyed myself immensely.

Verdict: 8/10, I also want a life-size cardboard cutout of Aoyanagi to cuddle and hide behind when I open the door.

✒️💕 Cherry Magic, Japan - Completed

I'm planning to buy the manga.

I plan to watch the film next month (I never watch films).

I may have even checked out the fanfic scene in a bout of withdrawal.

Anyway, what I mean to say is that I get the hype, I really really do. This drama is fantastic.

Cherry Magic is one of those classics that you watch as a newbie and go "oh yeah I get why everyone is obsessed with this". The premise is novel and well executed, the characters are oh so easy to love, the main romance is so incredibly shippable, and the friendships are just as endearing.

I personally love the role Adachi's mind reading plays in shaping his relationship with Kurosawa and how the way it's handled means the audience feels what Adachi is feeling right alongside him. How can you not be charmed by the inner monologue of someone so sweetly and respectfully head over heels for you? But at the same time just because you're charmed, does that mean you like them back or is it just because you can see them at their most vulnerable? And what about once you're in the relationship? Do you give up the thing you know made it possible? Or do you pull back so you can't mess up once the crutch you rely on is gone?

There was so much quiet nuance to Adachi's and Kurosawa's relationship to each other and those around them and, when I one day sit down for a rewatch, I'm looking forward to unpicking them all.

Verdict: 8.5/10, Adachi and Kurosawa are going to be one of those couples that's impossible to leave behind. This is going to stick with me for a while, and once it's unstuck I'll just watch it again.

📸🌦️ Welcome to Samdal-Ri - Completed

I know some people thought the premise of Welcome to Sandal-Ri was unrealistic but, personally, I found it hard not to draw parallels between what happened to Cho Sam Dal in the drama and what happened to Kim Seon Ho in real life. Yes, the situations may differ somewhat (Sam Dal faces false accusations of work-place bullying by an employee while Seon Ho was accused of coercing his girlfriend into getting an abortion) but there were enough similarities (the media frenzy and the sheer intensity of the backlash, the scandals happening just as their careers peaked, the gradual revelation of what actually transpired) that I would be very surprised if there was no link at all.

For that alone, Welcome To Samdal-Ri had my attention from the get go. If this story were from a Western perspective, I would certainly have been much more wary of a story tackling false accusations (looking at you Euphoria) but from a Korean perspective, where celebrity culture is far more intense and volatile and in which false accusations have happened before and cancel culture can indeed end a career for even minor infractions (like dating), I wanted to see how it would be handled.

Ultimately I was satisfied, not wowed, not disappointed, satisfied. The show didn't dig that deep into the subject (personally I would have appreciated Sam Dal's case juxtaposed against another case in which the accusations turned out to be true) but it handled it deftly enough and felt "case-by-case" enough that I didn't feel as though it inadvertently gave off the message of "not believe anyone bringing accusations against celebrities".

Other than my own personal interest in the premise, Welcome to Sandal-Ri did a good job of holding my interest. In terms of overall vibe, it felt like a mix between (perhaps unsurprisingly) Hometown Cha Cha Cha (the idyllic small-town community filled with friends and loveable elders) and Our Beloved Summer (childhood lovers unfairly broken up but still pining for each other after years apart). The pacing was good, the characters loveable (I am now in love with Cho Hae In), and each episode felt like sinking into a warm bath for an hour.

Verdict: 8/10, it tackled an interesting topic while providing its audience with plenty of comfort and heart. It could have done without the love triangle though, just saying.

📃👩‍❤️‍👩 Out of Breath - Completed

I don't have too much to say about Out of Breath given it was 3 episodes long and less than an hour run time in total but I'm glad I watched it. Firstly, because it was nice to watch a (rare) Korean GL and secondly, because it managed to fit a lot into its short run time. Two break ups, a love triangle/unrequited love, cute dates, commentary on living queer in Korea, commentary on being out in Korea.... This show really had it all.

It was short, it was sweet, and it had a lot to say. I can't say I'd watch it again in a hurry, but I would definitely recommend it to anyone looking for a realistic portrayal of queer (and specifically) lesbian life in Korea.

Verdict: 7.5/10, it unpacked a lot in a short amount of time, the couple was extra cute too.

🫂💕 Cherry Magic Thailand - On Hold

I realised very early on into watching Cherry Magic Thailand that I'd probably get a lot more out of it if I watched the original first. I'm not normally someone who says watching the OG is necessary to watch the adaptation (in fact I normally rebel against that idea with a whole lot of passion) but in this case it became very clear that without watching Cherry Magic Japan first, I was missing important reference points and comparisons that were pretty key to understanding and appreciating that plot fully.

Anyway, I've now watched and loved Cherry Magic Japan so Cherry Magic Thailand is back on the menu, I just want to give myself enough time away that when I go back to it, it's with completely new eyes (and I'm excited for when that moment comes).

Verdict: On Hold until I can give it a proper fresh start.

🩺🍲 Cooking Crush - On Hold

I watched this at completely the wrong time. I struggle with rom-com dramas at the best of times but by now I should know that I absolutely should not try to watch one when I am going through a period of high stress.

I am not kind to rom-coms when I am stressed, even the ones I might otherwise enjoyed.

As it is, I initially dropped Cooking Crush because I was struggling to stay focussed enough to finish an episode and the characters were grating on me. Looking back, part of me thinks that my lack of focus and general irritability may have had less to do with the drama itself and much more to do with the fact I could barely focus on anything during that time period and that I had barely any spoons left to give people in my actual life, let alone fictional ones.

So...

Anyway, Cooking Crush has continued to come across my dash in gif, meme, and analysis form and I've realised that I actually really like what I'm seeing, enough so that I've moved it out of the "dropped" pile and into my "on hold" list so as to give it a second shot in the not so distant future (something that doesn't normally happen).

I genuinely think I might like this drama, I just need to make sure I'm in the right mindset for it first to give it a fair shot 💪

Verdict: On Hold until my next holiday.

🐍🦅 The Sign - On Hold

On paper The Sign sounds like it's right up my street, after all what's not to love about star-crossed lovers doomed by the threads of fate and history to lose each other?

But that's the thing, "on paper". In real life The Sign is well, messy and a bit too cop-heavy for my liking. Sure there are some great moments, Billy and Babe's chemistry is on fire, and it may have one of the best and most artistic sex scenes ever to grace the BL screens of the world but sexy times does not a good show make and I've found myself torn about whether or not I should keep going or just give up at this point.

To help me decide I've taken the "on paper" part of The Sign very literally and bought the book to read. If I like the book (the translation is a bit choppy but I can overlook that if the story is good) then I'll finish the show, if I don't then into the land of the dropped it goes.

Verdict: On Hold until I've actually experienced it on paper.

🌄🖕 Last Twilight - Dropped (episode 10)

I won't lie, this is the second time (the first time being Only Friends) that I've ended up being grateful my busy schedule got in the way of my drama watching because wow this show really took a tumble at the last hurdle. There was so much Last Twilight could have done, so many societal boundaries it could have crossed and reshaped and re-imagined but instead it went with... well a literal "fix it fic" ending that fixed nothing but instead broke all it had built up beyond repair.

I'm not going to go into detail about how Last Twilight let nearly every single one of its principal characters down, about how Mhok was never allowed screen time to process his own emotional trauma, about how the show briefly touched upon and then completely glossed over the very different social and financial circumstances of the both couples and the effects this would have on their experience of the world, of how there was so much ableist messaging around both the treatment of Dad's character which was always lurking under the surface but which only really came to light alongside the ending..... All I'm going to say is that, up until episode 9, Last Twilight had a choice about what messages it wanted it's audiences to come away with at the end, and it picked the wrong fucking ones.

It could have been a challenge to the ableist and classist mainstream norm so often portrayed in the media, instead it perpetuated harmful and hurtful rhetoric and stereotypes against the very people it claimed to champion.

Maybe one day I'll watch it again, but only because I want to properly break down what went so wrong.

Recommended reads by people who expressed it better than me:

This Discussion under "Last Twilight, episode 12: final reflections" by @waitmyturtles

"Last Twilight: Ep 12" by @wen-kexing-apologist

"Last Twilight Episode 12" by @lurkingshan

This post by @simplemindedmockingjay

Verdict: Dropped for betraying it's audience and those it claimed to champion.

👨‍⚕️⏳ Triage - Dropped (episode 10)

This one hurts me.

This one well and truly hurts me.

Because, the thing is, I loved so much about this show. It does so much right and up until episode 10 I was preparing to rank it among my favourite BLs of all time; the plot was fast moving and carried you from episode to episode in a whirlwind of anticipation, the romance (although minor compared to most other BLs) was highly shippable, the characters had depth and flaws and strengths that made you root for them, and the time loop plot device was doing things that were genuinely new and innovative.

I was hooked.

And then everything I loved just disappeared.

I don't know what possessed the creators of this show to completely change the universe of the drama for the last 2 episodes, maybe they thought the old one was getting stale (it wasn't).

All I can say is I absolutely hated the new turn of events.

Familiar characters with entirely new personalities and character arcs who I was apparently expected to root for (I don't know who they are anymore), time travel rules thrown out of the window because the plot demanded it be so (I'm sorry but the notebook time travels now? And a kiss will bring back memories?), the entire premise of the show just dropped and never even properly answered (why did Tin need to save Tol????? What about his heart murmur????)....

No.

Just no.

I'm out.

Verdict: Dropped for becoming a completely different drama in the last 2 episodes

⭐ The Awards

I fell in love with a lot of people and things this month so let's talk about them

☺️ Smile That Could Launch A Thousand Ships

Yuuichi Kurosawa (and his actor Keita Machida) is, quite frankly, a ridiculously gorgeous man in the most normal of circumstances but his smile takes it to a whole new level.

Truly a sight that could light up a room (and the whole building the room was in), this smile is filled with such genuine happiness and love that it's hard not to smile right back just as brightly, whether you be a hapless audience member beaming at your computer screen or a flustered Adachi trying desperately to hold on to your heart.

What I also love about this smile is that it only comes out when Kurosawa is properly, over the moon happy. He's got other smiles for other occasions and they're all very pretty but this one? This one sits above them all and makes them pale in comparison.

🩷 Biggest Crush

I have a type and that type is Cho Mina (and quite possibly Kang Mi Na, I clearly need to work through her filmography for... science). But seriously, this woman is STUNNING and is made all the more so by her dedication to her daughter and her refusal to let society pressure her into being ashamed of being a young single mum. She's strong, she's kind, she's independent, she's beautiful both inside and out. I don't care if she got the least screen time out of all the sisters, she stole the whole show for me and I am smitten.

📃 Line That Hit Me Like A Freight Train

"I'm used to pretending to be normal"

"pretending to be normal"

I'm going to be forever grateful to Cherry Magic for giving me positive and thoughtful Ace rep in Fujisaki, for showing her happy and confident and unbothered by society's expectations that she should one day couple up and settle down, for giving voice to the Ace experience of "pretending to be normal" in simple line that holds so much meaning and so many layers.

I know it's not canon, but in my head Fujisaki does tell Adachi out loud one day, and she gets her response of "is that so".

🛌 Plot Device That Made Me Sit Up and Go "Yes"

I may have ended up dropping Triage but credit where credit is due, it did do a lot of things right and one of those things was its ideas around time loops/ time travel. The idea that where you fall asleep at the end of the time loop directly affects how far back you travel back in time for the start of the loop?

Genius.

Why haven't I seen this done before??? It's such a clever way to provide the loop-character with the agency they need to actually make changes without breaking the established rules of the time loop and it allows for each iteration of the loop to be significantly different depending on how early or how late the changes to the timeline are made.

It literally solves almost all of my usual issues with time loop narratives.

It was genuinely intriguing watching Tin try to work out where he needed to fall asleep in order to go back as far as he needed and it was such a shame that, as the show neared its end, that aspect of the time loop experience just sort of fell away.

I want more time loop ideas like this and I want them now.

🌄 Scene That Took My Breath Away

Last Twilight may have ended by taking this scene and its significance and flushing it down the toilet but you know what, the author is dead and I killed him. I'm taking this scene back.

Day wanting his last experience with his quickly disappearing sight to be a homage to the book that helped him come to terms with his disability and see the world anew, his description of the sunset he could see in his mind's eye that is far more brilliant and beautiful than reality could ever dream to be, his clear moment of realisation that yes, he could live without his sight and not only could he live without it, he could well and truly thrive, the last thing he sees being Mhok's face as the ultimate declaration of love....

The last twilight in episode 9 could have been a truly special moment and, taken in isolation, it still is. It's just such a shame that such a beautiful depiction of growth and healing and self-love and self-acceptance was ultimately papered over with an ending that didn't fit it at all, one that erased the positive and affirming messages this scene held.

#January wrap up #like flowers in sand #love for loves sake #doctor slump #cherry magic #i became the main role of a bl drama #out of breath #welcome to samdalri #cooking crush #the sign #cherry magic th #triage #last twilight #thai bl #kdrama #j bl

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ℙ𝕚𝕔𝕜 𝕒 ℂ𝕒𝕣𝕕- 𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕟𝕖𝕖𝕕 𝕥𝕠 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕣 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕔𝕒𝕣𝕖𝕖𝕣 𝕤𝕚𝕥𝕦𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟.

Hello my fellow beautiful stars, this post will be a general reading, for people who need help with guidence with their shitty career situation, you could have a job or be jobless for this reading. Pick a pile (picture) or a number from 1 to 4, which resonates with you, close your eyes ask yourself What do I need to hear about my career, and you should have an answer. However I do warn if you’re not in a good mood I wouldn’t proceed as it may not help.

Questions that I will be asking my cards for this reading will be: (1)Is this pile currently, employeed or not, overall what is this piles career situation? (2) Are there any actions being made by this pile or is there anything that needs to be done by this pile? (3) Are there any opportunities coming up for them? (4) What would make this pile feel fullfilled career-wise? (5) Can I get a dark mirror orcale card and an affrimation card for this pile?

only proceed if you feel drawn into a pile not just because you are obessive with tarot readings and want to have more given to you. Some messages aren’t appliable to everyone. So don’t get mad if you choose a pile with messages that weren’t for you. Have a blessed day or night beautiful.

Pile One

{question 1- King of Swords, The magian (reversed), and Judgement (reversed), and 6 of swords reversed}

For pile one i am getting that you are not currently employeed, or at the very least you feel incredible unfulfilled at what you are doing career wise. I am seeing just general a place of not being where you are wanting to be at. The king of swords made me believe that perhaps you want to be in charge of where you are but the surroundings around your cards only come up as delays and setbacks for you pile one.

{question 2- The star, and Page of swords (Reversed) Choices, Shine Bright Like a Candle (reversed)}

With the Star I can see that pile one has some ideas as to what to do and I do see that maybe theres a little of bit of action being made. The page of Swords brings me to believe that you, pile one, are pretty young and you’re on a journey that you’re eager for but its still not neccesarry moving forward. Pile one you are currently in your mind instead of making bold and needed marks to get to where you strive to be at. There’s a part of you that feels as though there is clear and obvious obstacles which are stopping you from any sort of opportunity. The universe/spirt/god will be putting out these possibile choices for you to go to through but you're looking at these choices and seeing nothing other than "well thats more of a dream" or "i totally would do that if I could, but I just cant." At the end of the day any obstacle can be overcome, you just have to figure it out. I don't know your situation well enough but I do know just stopping at any sort of obstacle isn't the brightest idea. I am asumming that one possible obstacle for you may be some sort of depression or mental illness that you may be struggling with. And that while you have these ambitious ideas for work or what you want to do with life, you also struggle to see the bright side of things. I know its easier to be unhappy with were you are at life because that's just what life is, its misery. But you have got to more flexiable with the way you view things, life includes misery for sure, thats part of the deal but pleasure, joy and happiness are also part of it. Life is both good and bad. Right now you may be fixated on the bad aspect and thats all you belive your world has come to be, but that's not true. Its hard to see when you're in a dark point, but make an attempt to adapt with your changes and outlook with the way you think. Lets say hypotehically you're struggling to become an artist, and your upset that you need money for art supplies but you don't have any. Well you will just give up and feel bad for not being able to achieive a simple task as achieving their dream color pencil set or wacom tablet. Whatever art medium it is that you as this hypotical depressed artist yearn for. You would just give up and give into their dark thoughts. I will note that it doesn’t have to be that way. By reflecting on your own thought patterns you can change the outcome of your situation. Going back to that artist theoretical, you could've stopped at your sorrow of not being able to afford a decent set of pencils, you could look at if they have enough for cheaper options and stick with them before you could afford the more fancy priced art supplies. Or if you cant afford anything. You’re reading this on a phone or computer or some sort of technolgy. Well good news there’s free art programs on phones, and computers. Build up your skill before selling what you can weither its on etsy or fiber, or even people you know untill you can afford what you desire. You shouldn't just give up. And while you're attempting any sort of change in thoughts, of course it'll feel cheesy but that small thinking habbits do make a difference. Whatever you strive for, be smart, make something out of where you are and don't feel bad for what you do, becuase you're best is your best, and its fucking incredible that you are here making an attempt and trying when plenty of others have stuff just handed to them or they give up. Don't be like those people, Do you're best and try. You're capable of so much.

{ question 3- Obession,The Devil, seven of cups (reversed), The Sun, The Tower (reversed), Black Flower Fragence}

As for if there's any actual opportunities coming up for you. I did pick up that an obession of yours will bring you outta this tower moment. I am getting that theres going to be this passion inside of you that will be the breaking point for you to get out of this false percepetion of darkness. With the sun card, it illunimates the brightness of the future being with you. You're gonna be brillient again. Filled with this knowing that you helped yourself and brought yourself out of the dark, and into a much more joyous place. You will learn that you know you can overachieve those dark thoughts. Perhaps this obession of yours will be learning to love and respect yourself.

{question 4- No need to fear (reversed), Never Jam Today (reversed), Impossible things (reversed), Mortality (reversed)}

When I pulled out the cards for the question what will make pile one fullfilled career wise, All the cards came out reversed and I do view reversals as inward work, so this only is jamming in that idea of you gotta love life and yourself to be able to cherish whatever outcome. Really you could be in your dream life and have all the things you want but if you're still unhappy with yourself, then that will spoil your reality and you don't deaserve that. But I am getting that you will be happy with yourself after some dedication. Im using the cards as more vizualitions of possible options for this pile, and I see animals and deserts. So possibly a chief, an animal caregiver, or even a flight attendent/pilot, maybe you will travel for your career alot or you'll have to move to somewhere to get this job or you could get this job after moving, this job might possibliy be a morning to afternoon job, Maybe even working with counseling, weither its with people or animals, so perhaps a therapist. Also this may be morbid to some but a mortician.

{question 5 for your Oracle and Affrimation card}

Atonement - Accepting pain is a way to survive the pain. Not all things burn, but some should.

Today I am Happy. Today happiness and love will fill my heart and soul all day.

Pile Two

{question 1- The Hierphant (reversed), The Chariot, Queen of Coins, Death, Eight of Coins (reversed)}

I am getting that this pile is currently working but working towards a much more stable and fullfilling career, so I don't know if you're in school right now or taking a break for work as I can see that you still are working. I am also getting a part of you feels dead from your work too, or maybe your studies too. Could even be that its a combo kill. Maybe you have some sort of project thats in the works and it's difficult for you to finish it. But overall I don't believe that this pile is unemployed.

{question 2- Queen of wands, Three of wands, Changed in the Night (reversed), Lead the way (reversed), Parasite, The temple of the body, the tower ccard, Investigate, Find the lesson}

Yes it is very clear that you are making moves and climbing up that tiring latter to achieve this dream of yours. Am I am seeing that this may be something that you are overly passionate about. You really love this journey that your own and Its a firey and love, that sometimes burns your engery but you still follow through becuase its something that you love. However you do have to be careful as you are slowly burning yourself out. Possibly you're trying to be a leader or you are a leader but you don't see the growth that you have made, or the growth that you want. I'm senseing this worry that part of you feels that you can't follow through with this passion. Their might be others that looks up to you and that scares you pile two. But I am also sensing this concerning energry where theres a leech. This could go one or two ways either you are feeling guilty from having to depend on someone else to get you to a higher poistion or theres someone or something that is leeching off of you. This person or thing is using you and making you feel frustatied and dead from what they have taken from and that is slowing your progress in your mind. So you could be very defensive and careful for others that are around you. For those who are the "leech", that’s what is stopping you from being more independent, and why you feel as though your not at the place that you need to be at. Be the person who gets you were you have to be. Don't use others for your own benefit, remember karma will come back. Karma isn't good or bad, it's karma. Yet, never forget how unpleasant it can feel. For the other people who are being leeched, I can see that others can be weighting you down, and thats the reason why you feel as though you aren't at where you need to be. I think maybe some of you feel guilty that you feel that way but understand that if someone is being too heavily dependant on you in an unhealthy toxic manner, you don't have to be their resource for growth. Someone is taking away from you, never accept that. However for some people, they are obvious to this leech. A tower moment is coming, and you will be forced to investigate and think to find the lesson in the outcome. Be careful pile two. There's a lesson thats coming for you to learn. And it may be pretty unpleasant but needed for you.

{question 3- Ace of coins, six of wands, four of wands (reversed), Strength (reverseved), The hanged man}

At the moment it may seem as thouogh there won't be many opportunities arising but hang on in their for a while and you will see your success. It'll be your inner strength that will get you this sucess. Your growth will seem long and tedious but it's still growth and you'll actually be at where you need to be. Just not anytime soon.

{question 4- Clock time, Set your own course, Never jam today, Mortality, Growing up, Nature communication, Keep your temper}

I am getting that pile two works well under pressure and that you need to be the one in charge. Not someone who follows, so a manager of some sorts, ceo, or Maybe even working someplace where your work lives on past you, so maybe a film director. A job with networking involved. I see a lot of dramatic and emotional poses which makes me think of maybe an actor. Theres also communication which makes me think that pile two is a good at achieving what they need with words. There's a lot of emotions that are involved with this pile, I sense jealously, anger, and determination. I couldn’t name specific jobs but I got moreso hints at what could be required from pile twos future job.

{question 5 for your Oracle and Affrimation card}

Calling the Storm- "Power comes not from the inside, but from connection and intergration to a greater whole."

Today I live in the present. Today I will start with a smile. I am in control of my attitude.

Pile Three

{question 1- King of Coins, The Hierophant, Four of Swords (reversed), The right way, 6 of swords, The world}

Imma be honest I didn't get a straight up clear answer to weither or not pile three has any sort of employment. With the king of coins being here it dose signify that you are someone who is capable of working hard, no matter how long and slow it may take to get to where you want but the hierophant and Four of swords cards makes me believe that for whatever reason what you want to do is non traditional so you can’t afford to do what you want to do so possibly you’re gonna steer into a more "traditional" pathway, but this situation seems to be downing you. You seem to think that theres a right way for people to work, and then theres wrong ways, and that what you want to do something thats fun and lively but you can't. I don't know why I'm thinking that possibly this pile just wants to dance, be in love and be happy. I don't know, maybe some people here do have jobs but you have some sort of passion you want to turn into a career, but you think you can’t. Or maybe some of you people don't necessary want to work and you just want to be a sugar baby, and look pretty (which is pretty relatable).

{question 2- ace of cups, knight of coins, the sun, temperance, nonsense! (reveresed), Falling reversed (reversed), Gilded regret}

I'm getting that some of you guys believe you aren't making the correct choices to obtain a stable career. Maybe some of you are ignoring what has to be done. For instance partying too much or not going to any needed schools for any possible careers. No networking or no goals even being put out there for yourself. A couple of people that picked pile three need to become more calm and grounded in order to make the moves that they need. They may not want to but they need to. Want and need are not the same, if you want a future for yourself you need some sort of outcome. Not going to lie I do think of some people here are overall not realistic and rather impulsive and very idealistic instead of being grounded and stable. If these people continure perhaps they'll end up regretting how they choosed to proceed in their career life. Just be more wise with how you're handling you're own career situation. Partying everyday and not making any sort of strives will only leave you to regret your choices the future. However, that message was for only a few not all. The other people that picked pile three I can see with these cards that you are making the moves that has to be done but you are feeling this heavy pressure of regret for leaving behind what made you happy. And this has caused an interal spiral where you feel as though you're giving up on your own career fullfillment. Almost as though you are betraying your own self.

{question 3- Judgement(reversed), Three of cups (reversed) [you got this card twice btw], We're all Mad here, Becoming braver, Curiouser and curiouser (reversed), 4 of wands, 2 of wands, King of penacles}

Okay sooooo, again for the first half of the people who picked pile three, some of ya'll aren't gonna listen and you're not gonna be able to achieve anything successful career wise because you were self indulging in yourself. So some of you won't have any opportunities coming. Because some of you are constantly doing what you know you shouldn't be doing and blaming it out on the real world. Of course nobody is perfect and everyone has a different life but that dose not excuse being lazy and unambitious. For the other half, you guys may actually end up quiting your current job or quiting what you thought you should be following and retrying out that passion that has made you feel dead for giving up on. I am seeing a group situation once you do. I will say that it won't be easy or if this is the "smart" or "right" decision but at the least you'll be passionate again. Just remember to work hard and not get comfortable and always push yourself to grow. And for some of you who don't quit that job or path I do see unfillfillment in your life. That once curious mind for knowledge and life slowly disappears when you get comfortable or content in your stale career.

{question 4- Forget who you are, Choices, Believe, Clock Time, All Must have prizes, Find the Lesson, It's always Teatime}

Okay this pile seems to be difficult, I will say because I am getting three possible situations. For the lazy group, You will be busy having strange encounters ( situations that lead you to weird places from drugs and drinking) and feeling as though others are pressuring you when it's not needed, and that you will never be able to satisfy others, so you give up on others. Becuase you refuse to have any sort of "basic life." However these same people havn't tried to follow any advice, but assume they have tried as they have felt pressured by those people, when in reality they give up too easy. For situation two, I am seeing that you maybe have a grunge asethetic and that has to do with your career somehow. Maybe some of you guys are artists so possibily theres some tattoo artists, manga artists, or even authors. I did get that some of these people were very creative. And this pile has also given up on people but not because they felt pressured, but because they wanted to be happy after trying for so long. Maybe some are also tarot readers or psychics. The other part of pile three are the ones who stuck with their stale and unfulling career, their job has a lot of repition to it, they have forgotten of that person they used to be, and this career possibily feels super long, Weither that be working each day or the school needed for this career. And this person ends up feeling like a shell, to please the people in their life.

{question 5 for your oracle and affrimation card}

(oh my god this is so sad, im sorry to anyone who picked this one and it resonated not gonna lie i pulled more oracle and affrimation cards for this pile outta pity.)

Today I will Perservere. Today nothing will worry me. All my problems will pass in time.

I will be focused. Today I will be productive and feel good about doing the hard work that I need to do.

Today I am curious. Today I will open my mind an dexplore new possiblities and opportunities.

Today I feel worthy. Today I will accept all the wonderful things in this life.

Today I make a difference. Today I will stay focused, work hard and do best at everything I do.

Sacrifice- "I have accepted my duty, and in my release I found freedom."

The Temple of My Body- " Our body is a temple. It cannot be defiled. We can take a shower, raise our chin, feel proud. It is our body. Ours!"

Pile Four

{question 1- Four of cups (reversed), The wheel of fortune, King of Pentacles(reversed), Page of cups, Ace of Swords (reversed)}

So yes I am getting that this pile is employed and is pretty new to a job right now or at the very least they have been attempting to get a job and after a few failures they finally have gotten a hold of a job.

{question 2- ace of swords (reversed), Four of coins, Eight of coins (reversed), who in the world are you?, becoming braver}

Okay so with this pile I am getting that this group may not be used to having money or come from a place where money wasn't avalble to you so you are sort of greedy and very insecure with your relationship with money. As for if pile four is making the correct moves. I am getting that they are in the process to success-fullness which always starts with failure and confusion. Pile three you are figuring things out at the moment and possibly learning some bad habbits along the way. Overall this is a fresh new begining where you are slowly finding out who you can be. And that's one thing that you pile four should be handling. Slowly becoming braver.

{question 3- Three of wands (reversed), Ten of Coins, Ace of coins, The Devil, Four of wands (reversed), four of pentacles (reversed)}

I am getting that you won't be getting much opportunities since you tend to be more so stuck to your own gains. However I do belive eventually when you get older you will settle into life more comfortably and that will result in an opportunity for you. Theres a little celebration that will come but first you must learn to not be so terrrified of what others can take from you. Life is full of lessons and beginnings, it's not all rainbows and sunshine but don't let that fact stop you from being comfortable around other people and money. Find englightment and the universe will welcome you and help.

{question 4- Its always Teatime, Shine Bright Like a Candle, Nature communicates, All the golden afternoon, A moments regret, and Falling}

I sense that some people in this pile may have a creativity in them which will lead me to belive that a fullfilling career will be one where you can design or create products or art pieces. You may have to do something here with science or engineering as well. Maybe you will work with water as well or near a body of water. Possible that this job will take place from the afternoon to the night. There's also frequent changes and random moments of growth within this job. Also I also get something that you may be in charge of something that people will regret or do as a challenge. Maybe some people here work in an asmusment park. Or you work with people that have made regrets.

{question 5 for oracle and affrimation card}

Hiding Your True Self- "Hiding is keeping things inside. Luck of trust becomes lack of hope. So there must be a limit."

Today I am glowing. Today I have huge amounts of energy and focus on any challenge.

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blacky-nikki-art · 11 months

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So probably this week is over working on my thesis (writing and animation). I waiting for the last correction and this is over...

I'm kinda in a melancholic mood right now. I know I should be happy cuz I get that degree I working for 5 years. But I feel sad.

It means I probably see no more most of my classmates. I back to my little village for the 'real adulthood' like my parents say. I worry it will be shitty like when I finished something like high school. I failed the exam after this so I had to wait a year to start my university education.

I don't like to remind myself of this etap of my life. It was pretty shitty. Probably I had depre$$ion this time and I wanted to attempt su!cide.

It terrifies me as fck it happens again. I gonna again feel alone and back to being the weird introverted and stupid member of my family who likes too many games and cartoons. It pretty sucks when at the family meetings they can only talk about their children, ppl who I don't know, shitty work and only problems. Like a damn life is only a big problem.

Idk why I even write about this.

I just don't feel good about it right now. I'm sad, even want to cry right now.

I don't feel good in any place since I remember.

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fuxx-normal · 4 months

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Io depre === fare analisi di dati al pc

In pratica potrei essere iper produttivo in un futuro lavoro tenendomi sempre in questo Mood 👍🏻

(io cercando il lato positivo delle cose)

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0m0-0m0 · 5 months

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Ope sorry omori was in an emo depres mood when I sent those. Your love and care for him is probably the only thing that's kept him from commiting oyasumi tbh

Really...? He appreciates me..........? M’only doing what I think would help........

#[OMORI became happy!]#omori ask blog #omori roleplay #omori rp #ask #anon #anon ask

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animatormentata · 1 year

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Mood depre stasera :(:

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illsadboy · 2 years

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Mi manca respirare senza avere l’ansia.

#frasi ansia #non riesco a respirare #ansia perenne #mood depre #pensieri #sad #tristezza #pezzi di vita

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officialhealthyproduct · 1 year

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