#my life has always been pretty shit

[vvitchering]

I’m replaying act 1 (for the fifth time) and when Gale is explaining his condition to you he mentions he’s “never told another living soul” about it, except for Tara. You’re telling me this man shut himself up in his tower for an entire year and didn’t tell anyone why and no one ever bothered to find out? He has so few people who care about him in his life that he fell into a depression and disappeared for a year and NO ONE thought to go and check on him and find out what was wrong? He’s had no one but Tara providing help and support until he meets Tav???????

#I’m just #this is my Astarion run but holy shit GALE #like no wonder he’s a little bit insane #how isolated has he been his whole life that he has no one but his cat who cares enough to take care of him #the way he speaks about his mother I thought they’d be pretty close but even she never found out about the orb?? #either she shrugged off her brilliant son turning into a depressed recluse or she never bothered to check on him at all #and tbh Gale might not even realize that’s Not Ideal #maybe he’s always been held at a distance by his family #I have hcs about this actually #anyway that fucked me up this time #the way he begs tav for help finding items to feed the orb like he’s fully expecting to be shot down and left behind #ughhhhhhh I am Upset about the wizard again friends #bg3 #baldur’s gate 3 #gale of waterdeep #I didn’t even go into how Mystra also abandoned him at the same time #so he was going through a break up and a crisis of faith and being a human bomb all at once #🥲

[chinateacup]

The reason you’ll only see me write the ishimondus and not Phoenix/Edgeworth or Zoro/Sanji is very simply . I’m afraid of change

#i have been that ishimondo bitch for years #I could write them in my sleep #I’d like to think I have their characterisation pretty much nailed (ofc there’s always room for improvement but compared to where I started #I’ve rly improved) #whereas while I know Phoenix and Edgeworth even BETTER bc they’ve been my best friends for 10 years #I am so so afraid. #the bar is high with AA fanfiction #I’ve read some shit that has changed my life #same with zosan except they’ve been my worsties for like six months #point is . I don’t think I can contribute much

[foolishnpd]

good lord I'm remembering Swimming Lessons 💀

I think I went when I was somewhere around 7-9 years old. and I already knew how to swim but I needed to get my diploma. so they put me in a class with kids <5, the water was up to their chests and at my hips -_-

and I remember spending every single lesson seething with rage and superiority over everyone else in the class. I'd get unbelievably pissed for the entire day whenever a teacher dared to correct me on something because "who are YOU to tell me I'm swimming wrong. you're telling me I'm swimming worse than these literal babies??? I know how to swim, idiot. go help the babies who actually need help, not me, because I'm doing everything PERFECTLY"

I think I'd rather be shot point blank than have to be criticized while a literal toddler is getting praised for doing worse right next to me again

they went easy on them because they were babies, and they just fucking hated me I guess. I know how to swim I didn't even need to be there, I deserved to be put in a class that was my actual age group with water that was suitably high enough to swim in easily

and in the end I quit the class out of sheer built up rage before I got my diploma 😔😔

and the saddest part is that I still think and act exactly the same. I suppress my actions a little more nowadays but I'm still having the same mental processes as I did at age seven 💀💀 they should rename narcissism to Never Grows Up Disorder fr

#lilyroaring #npd safe #considering how I acted as a kid #and how I still basically haven't changed (outside of heavily suppressing outwards emotions and behaviors) #I wonder if it's actually npd #or I just happen to have always acted in a narcissistic way #without all the trauma that actually causes it to become a disorder #like I did not become this way #I just always was this way and never grew out of thinking like this #I mean maybe this was a bad example because I was pretty righteous about being pissed in that situation #but that superiority Don't Criticize Me I'm Perfect attitude shows up everywhere in my life at all ages #like maybe I don't have a disorder and my personality has just always been shit 😭

[mqonlighting]

real talk in the tags for a second because i have a crush on a girl and i. a hehe. ahehehe.

will be burying this in reblogs and never touching on it again

#so random disclaimer this girl is like a year older than me and in high school it’s like a nono for older and younger batch to like be #a thing so i know i generally have no chance but i like to live in my own insanity and the progression of my crush on her has been absolute #ly cuckoo bananas. so like it started out as ‘i wanna be your friend’ and progressed into ‘shit they’re really pretty’ to ‘wow ur so??’ to #‘fuck i like them’ and then it died down and then by all golly it came back but more of a hallway crush now which is bearable bc i’m #not really a part of their life?? like we know each other but we don’t wave and shit and we don’t like ever interact that much so i was lik #ok this is fine bc they literally never think of me so i’m just admiring from afar. and the FIRST inciting incident was i request them onig #and i expect to not get accepted because according to their friends they onyl accept close friends and i’m like k this is a bad idea probs #but the worst that could happen is i get left in their follow requests right?? RIGHT?? but then within like two hours of reqing. lord. #i got. ACCEPTED. and they requested back. and suddenly it’s +1 tangibility like ok?? maybe we’re not as strangers as i thought we were #i later discovered i was not that special for this but also?? cool?? anyways for a while it kind of laid dead and we never spoke at all eve #tho i was in their acc now (at this time they barely posted but whenever they did it was so?? funny like they would slap the randomest shit #on that acc) and it was still a hallway crush altho my friends r awful (/pos) people who would always make me pass their hallway and i #would run into them so often but at this point we only ever like exchanged glances and they would walk right past me like i wasnt even ther #but THEN the second incident happened which was basically we had to play instruments for this christmas event thing and bc they’re literall #y amazing they played for it and i was roped into it and. i was so gay the whole time. bc who wears a leather jacket to school and gets the #prettiest haircut ever right on the last day before a long break?? and the worst part is whenevr something confusing happened they would #turn to me and this one other person and we’d b laughing together. like we r friends. and they’re so fucking nice they were checking up on #us the whole time i was literally dying i kept dropping my pick and stealing looks AURURUGH and they’re so gen funny and interesting i just #and the first few days of holiday break i just couldn’t stop thinking abt them it was so bad? like that was the moment where i was genuinel #like is this more than a hallway crush… eventually it died back down until the next event we had to play together where they were being SO #SO much more comf w me? like exchanging knowing looks when smt funny happens and that stuff.. at this point i didnt even know what to like #think of my crush on them so i just let it be yk. atp they’re not even waving at me in the hallways at all still so maybe they’re just bein #nice! BUT NO. THAT IS UNTIL I AUDITIONED FOR A BAND (theyr in charge of accepting) AND THEY ACCEPTED ME WHICH COOL BUT LIKE A DAY LATER I #HEARD FROM OUR MUTUAL FRIEND THAT THEY SAID ‘yeaa im so happy i got (my name)’ AS IN IN THE BAND. LIKE. HELLO?? HI U THIUGHT ABT ME?? and #during the first band mtg where everyone’s all awk they kept making eye contact w me and asking if i was good and making sure i got to say #smt before anyone made a decision and it. murdered. me. i’m sorry maybe it’s the fanfic writer in me or this shit is literally nothing and #think they’re just nice to everyone but who cares bc it means they’re nice to ME too. and then last week happened. which was like the nail #in the coffin. INTERACTION ACTIVITY. I IMPULSIVELY ASK IF THEY WANNA B GROUPMATES AND THEY SAY YES. THEY ONLY TALK TO ME AND THEIR FRIENDS. #I ACT STUPID. THEY ALUGH AND TOUCH MY SHOULDER. I ASK ABT THEIR CAMERA AND THEY GO ON A LONG-ISH (cute) RANT ABT SMTH. THEY ASK WHY I HAVE #BIG ASS STACK OF POST ITS. WE TALK. THEY LAUGH AT MY JOKES. SUDDENLY. THEY SAY A FULL HELLO IN THE HALLS. THEY WAVE AT ME A DAY LATER. FUCK

[star-mum]

Okay OP nation I have some (maybe controversial) statements about the Straw Hats and I need y’all to listEN FIRST OKAY- HEAR ME OUT

Boyfriend: Zoro and Franky

Husband: Usopp and Sanji

Girlfriend: Nami

Wife: Robin

Luffy: Aroace king

#DO YOU SEE THE VISION ???? #like I am a Certified Zoro Girlie but thats not a husband... he has Boyfriend written all over him #I cant call him husband in my head - ‘oh that’s my Husband Zoro’ - ew no - 'thats my BOYFRIEND Zoro' - yes ! #Franky is just cool and sensitive like that -> the boyfren to defeat all boyfrends -> i'd fall hard and fast -> like embarrassingly so #SANJI OH MY GOD !!! THE FIRST MAN WHO DARED TO MALEWIFE #and of course anime he has a couple red flags but I always put those on ‘annoying anime trope’ rather than accepting thats a part of him (C #(OPLA IS HERE TO PROVE THAT) shit like in canon they kinda set him up as this totally uncool Wannabe Casanova (which he is !!) #but he’s also just effortlessly charming ???? me at 7 y/o watching his intro for the very first time ??? a goner !!! -> me at 20 yo watchin #GOD !! USOPP !! THE MAN ! THE KING ! THE LEGEND -> I have ALWAYS been an Usopp girlie -> cause im always right and i love to win #y’all gonna give a pathetic cowardly little man with huge dreams and an even bigger heart who ALWAYS stands up for whats right #DESPITE BEING SCARED ???? I’m in the chapel baby lets do this 👰🏻 -> also his tiddies are always out ??? DUNGAREES WITH NO SHIRT !! WHATS NO #risking his life fighting an incredibly powerful and scary pirate for an entire village who didn’t treat him fairly and DIDNT BELIEVE HIM #him going to a place he was Not Welcomed and constantly mistreated at only to tell a DYING girl incredibly fun stories and keep her company #cause he saw his mom go through the same thing as a kid ? -> i love him yall 🥺 #NAMI !!! thats Girlfriend with a capital G -> shes pretty greedy and a little bit (very) mean -> i love her sm i want her to rule my life #RO !! BIN !! the crush I have on that woman is honestly embarrassing -> she is THE wife -> do not be mistaken #i dont really see Luffy wanting a romantic relationship but that’s not gonna stop me from reading fanfic about him ; p #i had to edit this and glue some tags together so they'd all fit -> thats why theres so many arrows -> I have Thoughts okay -> let me live #one piece #opla #one piece live action #straw hats

[calamitydaze]

long tag ramble below u have been warned

#ok i feel like i should say Something before i start being active again #but i dont want it to be a Statement which is why i’m putting it in the tags #(also bc i procrastinated doing this for weeks so i know this is a very stale topic by now #but i also haven’t been on tumblr literally at all so this is 100% my organic authentic opinion lmao) #so read if you gaf and ignore if you don’t #anyway: george def could’ve done more to ensure she was comfortable #and as someone who has also gotten in over my head with older men and regretted it #her hurt is valid and i’m deeply sorry she feels the way she does about that night #but with that said i see no reason to believe george Should have known how she really felt #or that he deliberately took advantage of either her youth/inexperience or her discomfort #and that’s the most important thing for me— he fucked up and misread a situation but that doesn’t make him an evil person #and i hope they can both move on and grow and heal #as for my future in the fandom: i honestly dunno how active i’ll be going forward #i was already becoming pretty disconnected so this might’ve just sped up the process? i’m tired of being put through the wringer #but i also don’t really have a fandom to replace this so i might just continue casually participating in the way i have been #either way rest assured i will never become a rabid anti. that shits embarrassing #i got HORRIBLE drolo rsd the other day when tommy’s mom needed clout and vagued him so like if nothing else. droloisms are forever #also as a last thing— this feels kinda silly and self centered to say but i will anyway #sorry for not opening up my blog as a forum for discussion again the way i did with the drituation #i know i helped a lot of people sort out their feelings and that was (and is) really really important to me #but it also tanked my mental health (mostly as a result of the fallout and not the act itself but still) #plus my life irl was pretty stressful at the time when everything was first going down #so i just didn’t feel up to putting myself through that again #but i’m sorry if anyone wanted to discuss w me but wasn’t able to #anyway. i think that’s all i have to say! #i don’t want to turn this into a capital D discussion but as always my askbox and dms are open #love you all tons! i hope you’re having a good day 🫂🫶 #bella talks

[m00ngbin]

Sometimes I think of Chicken Little from the movie Chicken Little and cry bc he's just a kid and he's all alone and his dad is ashamed of him and he lost his mother and he gets bullied and harassed bc he's small and kind of strange and he's the only person in the world that knows that the sky is falling and when he tries to tell people they don't believe him

#I WOULD HAVE BELIEVED HIM #ALL THAT PRESSURE ON THAT POOR LITTLE KID #AND THEN HE HAS TO SAVE THE WHOLE TOWN FROM THE ALIENS #THE ENTIRE TOWN THAT OSTRACIZED AND BULLIED HIM BTW #EVEN THE FUCKING MAYOR #LIKE ARE YOU SHITTING ME?? #i wouldnt have done it #i would have just left them to get vaporized into the void #idk just after all that hes still so kind and he cares about everybody in that stupid town #AND THE SCENE WHERE HES LIKE BEGGING AND PLEADING WITH HIS FATHER TO JUST BELIEVE HIM #BC IF NOBODY ELSE HAS HIS BACK AT LEAST HIS DAD SHOULD #and he DIDNT #OH AND HIS DAD PURPOSELY SEPARATED HIMSELF FROM CHICKEN LITTLE BECAUSE HE WAS SO EMBARRASSED AND ASHAMED #IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY #idk chicken little makes me really sad #I KNOW THE DAD IS HAVING A HARD TIME I KNOW HES STILL GRIEVING HIS WIFE BUT OH MY GOD #YOUR SON NEEDS YOU. HE HAS NEEDED YOU AND YOU ARE JUST NOT THERE FOR HIM #i could have been a better parent #i could have done it i would have loved him the way he deserved #OH AND HE ONLY HAS LIKE THREE PEOPLE IN HIS LIFE THAT REALLY LOVE HIM COMPLETELY AND UNCONDITIONALLY #AND THEYRE ALL STRANGE AND OSTRACIZED JUST LIKE HE IS #the troupe of people that are othered finding each other. seeing their faults. and loving each other the way that they should be loved #will always EAT ME ALIVE #what was he. like 12? #if i had been in that movie i would have LOST IT if a kid that little had to go through and deal with all of the things that he had to #pretty much alone for most of the movie #i meam he had his three friends for half of it but theres a lot he had to do alone #i just watched it can you tell

[strwbrymlkshake]

Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt. #well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

[louderfade]

#i carried a printout of this around with me in my bag as a teenager bc i was a big dork #to be clear it was the pumpkins of whom i was such a fan and not billy specifically #besides being a terribly obnoxious cringelord going through a christian phase he was also terrifically up his own ass about his bad poetry #and he was always being a dick about/to people who use drugs which is a very bad look imo so i was not exactly a billy fan #so i don't know why this stupid thing was so important to me #i think i was grieving the fact that all my favorite bands broke up before i was old enough to see them live but who knows #tbh i think teenage reasoning is mostly a mystery to everyone. no one can explain their thought process from age 15. #even current 15 year olds seem to be pretty clueless and generally at the mercy of their own brains #when i think of being 15 i recall a lot of chaos and confusion and a vague but constant rage toward everything in general #but picses iscariot does rock. those songs hold up and so does gish. just sayin. #this has been a boring post about some shit i liked too much as a teenager that i bet you wish you'd just ignored at this point #follow for more boring content about my personal life likely to make you reevaluate the ways in which you spend your time #pastlife #smashing pumpkins

[rahabs]

My brain apparently picked “right before my sister’s birthday dinner” as the time to have a complete meltdown. I hate this.

#A lot has been going on guys I’m sorry #The job hunt is going like shit #My sister left her partner who has turned into an abusive shithead so now everything is a mess #I’ve been gaining weight again and so I hate my appearance and my body #And I just feel ugly and inadequate and like a Colossal Failure because that is what I am lbr. #I am nearly thirty and this is not where I thought I’d be. #I’m overqualified for the jobs I want and the only ones left are private practice family law which I might as well kms #But it doesn’t matter because no one is hiring anyway! #So I just sit and get fatter and uglier #And no matter what I do everything just gets worse. #I tried to curl my hair to look nice today for the dinner #Only for every single thing I tried to end up in failure as always. #I’ve never been able to curl my hair and I don’t know why #I tried multiple different curling wands and a straightener and tutorials and nothing. Just kinked ends as always #Which is story of my life. Every time I try to look nice I end up looking worse than if I hadn’t tried at all #Same with my bar call tbh I tried to have nice hair and now I can’t even look at my bar photos because my hair is so fucking ugly #My law grad photo was the same so I didn’t even buy them #Even my parents had to admit they were bad photos. I got hit with windstorm that ruined my hair #Again every time I try the universe just goes Haha You Thought You Could Be Pretty? #Please Remember You’re the Ugly One in the Family :) #The ugly one the failure all those degrees and nothing to show for it beyond an education that does nothing #Because I am nothing! Awesome #The only thing my law degree is good for is making my sister feel better #And I can only do so much because it’s a conflict otherwise. #Explain processes and likelihoods to her and support her as her ex fucks everything up and that’s about it #He threatened to come to the house and make things ‘ugly’ while I was the only one there (unbeknownst to him) #Then I dropped concealer on my leggings and it wouldn’t come out mmm #Just tired. Why do I try again?

[irl-ichi]

this is what love is

#no honestly like im glad that my partner has always been... 'chill' about body functions? #i dunno how to describe it but. when youre raised as A Girl you kind of end up spending most of your life learning and practicing ways #to cover up body things that ''arent pretty'' #like farts and boogers and sweat and misplaced hairs and marks on clothes and etc etc #and from day one this person has been so chill about telling ME body things because. yeah theyre just body things we all deal with #but ive never lived in this world of openness and no shame for things you cant control #like openly just being like ''alright i gotta shit'' and not hiding it for some reason (like me) #i think most guys out there still think of women as the like... 'effortlessly perfect' body images were trained to maintain #because its so ingrained in everyone socially #and thats why i heard the story of the first time my sister farted in front of her gf. a year into them dating #i cant even remember what my first time was because weve always just. existed around each other #no shame #and it leads to the kind of stuff where we can just be like 'oh you have a booger sticking out' or 'let me get your eye crusties'

[faggatini]

i cannot do another year of this shit. im so serious. i can’t do it

#fuck Latrobe fuck my booth fuck my job fuck moving #fuck it all #fuck it all man #like i don’t know. i don’t know I’m 20 years old and there’s no where to go but down #and at the end of the day i am close to no one not really #i want friends that care as much as I do about them but it takes time and I get that. friendship doesn’t happen over night #but it’s been like this my whole life. I’m always on the cusp of friend groups. I’m right on the line of being let in but i can never #I can never get all the way in. and it’s so frustrating. most days I wake up and feel like i #i genuinely wake up and feel like I am nothing. I am nobody. to anyone and nothing fuxking matters anymore. like there’s even no point in #even telling anyone about this because it’s the same shit over and over and over and i get . it gets annoying pretty quick and I’m not that #special because everyone has their own generic problems to deal with. my problems are ordinary. my life is ordinary probably even less than #ordinary because if it where extraordinary my life wouldn’t be this repetitive and fucked go on it’s own average way #anyways all is bad and I hope I explode into a tiny million piece ltonight

[monty-glasses-roxy]

The Ruined pizzaplex is steeped in death and disrepair, it’s almost to the point that when the others are finally Meteor-ed, they don’t even know if they’ll survive escaping the damn place. None of them know, it’s a death trap. I don’t even think some of them expected to live for long after they escaped

But then they do, and they’re in a completely unfamiliar world that’s saturated with life and it’s unlike anything they’ve ever been exposed to before. Fazent always carried that touch of death, yknow? They never knew any different.

But then they claw their way into the light and someone is wrapping a blanket around their shoulders and giving them a bottle of water and asking if they’re ok because they must’ve just been Changed, they look so disoriented, and they don’t know what to do.

But they have each other, they’re *alive* again. The scars will never go away, but they have each other, and they desperately hope that’s enough.

YOU COME INTO MY HOUSE-

Fsdfsdf nah though you're on the right lines with this... may I offer...

The Plex is dead. It's stagnant, forever unchanging and is left to rot like all the other bodies under the floorboards. Those that remain are rotting and hurt, discarded like broken and unwanted toys and abandoned in the ruins of what is the only world, the only home they've ever known.

... But it's not dead.

How can it be? They're still there. They're still alive.

And like a phoenix rising from the ashes, they'll realise that for themselves and start laying the kindle for their fire.

#GFDSDFS #didn't know whether to leave it at a funny joke or try and like. give you something here #what I'm saying here is that my brain is making complicated metaphors for a story it hasn't actually finished cooking yet lmao #i dunno the concept of life and death is probably gonna be pretty crucial here #it's just different to them and it always has been so what makes something dead or alive is... #well I can already think of like. at least four examples off the top of my head where this would be relevant #nah the intricacies and the layers of what I want are all here for the most part so I just gotta like. weave the rest of the story together #with it's characters and their choices and the lives they are leading #I'm spinning in circles on meanings and shit cause my brain is buzzing like a hive of bees over the fucking #LAYERS of a HUGE plot thing that will be part of the major resolution at the end #it's like a god damn wedding cake or I dunno #onions?? #maybe onions given if I do it right it WILL cause some tears lmao #nah though we'll see how this plays out #I'm most likely overcomplicating and at some point I'll just grab the threads and pull the stupid brain knots out for this lmao #but nah what I'm going for IS complicated cause I've never tried an approach like this before so like #it's keeping my brain chugging for realsies #meteors au #pop rox answers

[paradoxikaa]

i fuckin hate people >:) i hate the shitty social dynamics we have inherited and disseminated throughout our cultures >:) i hate the way a lot of parents feed both provision and poison to their children from the same hand in the same bite and then wonder why the family tree stays sick and rotten i fucking hate all of this >:) i hope we all fuckin die

#misanthropy hoursssss i am so glad i've shed the need to be the fair and mature and accepting kind of person in order to feel valid #my underlying misanthropy has always been warranted has always been the voice of knowing something's fucking wrong #has always been the part of me that couldn't be gaslit into being compliant when every other part was #has always been my only armour against converting myself completely into a commodity for a shitty society that didn't deserve my devotion #i fucking hate us i fucking hate u #imagine being a child of a species wired to attach to ur caregivers at all costs for survival #and still at a young young young age developing a sense that #u as a newly shooting branch of this family would need to amputate urself from the tree to have any chance of being healthy #of getting to grow instead of being starved and stagnant and diseased for ur entire life #pretty sick and done with always trying to turn crappy things i went through and see in the world into shit to be grateful for #there are always things to appreciate but a nice view and free food doesn't make a torture centre a healthy place to be #i'm tired of never having the permission to call something crappy crappy and to be angry and to protect myself #i gave too many fucking people all the chances they didn't deserve. i get to be a distrusting misanthrope. at least for a few seasons.

[mieczyhale]

"they have two hands, why can't they share"

i hate this line

so.. so much

it shows up on my dash or in tags or replies on my own shit sometimes and i simply Need to Vent

because not everyone likes that?? because not everyone is comfortable with that?? because they simply don't want to?? because it's a panic trigger based on real life experiences?? because *insert reason that’s none of your business / not that deep / other here*??

it doesn't matter how "cutely" you phrase it or how easy peasy lemon squeezy it seems to you, multishipping for a character / including a character in certain ot3 combinations (and sometimes ot3's in general) can be a hard fucking No for some people. it can, in fact, be stressy depressy lemon zesty. it can even be negative lemon anything.

the 'why' isn't actually anyone's business, the reason shouldn’t matter anyway, as long as they aren't attacking you for your ships why do you care, and if you want certain content then make it.

“they have two hands-”  yep and both are in use, holding the two hands their partner also has, or perhaps squishing their cheeks because they are cute, or cupping their face gently like the softest scene in a hurt/comfort fic. leave people alone

#my ships are my comfort blankets in a way or like.. a gift someone gave me that means a lot to me and someone fucking with it upsets me #for me most (if not all) of my main ships are like stucky - they're two people who CANNOT be paired with someone else #there are ships i like that are more mix-up-able and there are some ot3's i like - some that don't panic trigger #but mostly.... #this pretty strictly applies to fictional characters only btw #like unless you're trying to get me to change or add to my own real life relationship for some reason #THAT would make me uncomfortable and panicked. it would also be weird and - depending on who you are - i'd bite you #but yeah. throwing that note onto the end of this mess before someone wants to say i have something against real people living #their lives in ways that don't affect me. #yeah okay a type of relationship is sometimes a panic trigger for me. doesn't mean i'm gonna be a jackass about it #WHEN IT APPLIES TO REAL PEOPLE #fictionally however- ship and let ship always but that's gotta go both ways #my anxiety is really high about posting this but if i don't i will explode bc this has really been pissing me off for ages and i try not to #bitch too much about shit like this bc ik its not really a big deal to most people but i am not most people. i am a new worse kind of person #maison speaks

[somedaytakethetime]

I was tagged by @cichocicho, @strawberryserpent, and @furiousflamewolf thank you my loves! 💗

Rules: post photos of 8 ppl you have a crush on/are attracted to (other ppl might notice patterns in ur attraction you don't) Here we go:

Edit to add because I forgot to tag people: @graduatedinastrocalves and @dilfincubator and @hungrigbuffel and @penguintransporter do any of you guys want to do this?

#LISTEN!!! YES MY TYPE IS EITHER DANISH OR BLONDE AND BLUE EYED! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR *SHIT* FROM ANYONE OKAY!?!? #YES THIS HAS //ALWAYS// BEEN MY TYPE STARTING AT 6 I KNOW MYSELF #this isn't to say i'm not attracted to other people that look different than this #but i've noticed a pattern in ALL of my attractions #they are usually all blonde blue or green eyed and they're tall... yes this is a thing i go for... leave me alone #i've gone for all kinds of people before but my heart is always with the blondes of the world... #🎶my one and only you🎵 #🎶 love of my life... 🎵 #Corner doesn't have a tag but he could get it <3 #Nissen doesn't have a tag but he could steal my heart (and my wallet) i'd let him <3 #Dutch Eric Dier #and his pretty girlfriend... YES I'D LIKE TO JOIN THEM BOTH LEAVE ME BE #Saoirse and Sarah have been my crushes for years... i saw Sarah in The Tudors when her hair was brown and i was literally in love back then #tag game thingy