#my sense of time is so warped

[linoguy]

who here knows which skz talker has the clip where felix goes up to chan and starts massaging his ass

#my sense of time is so warped #i went to a vid i thought it would be but that vid was maniac time where felix cried his eyes out and hyunjin had red hair so what do i kno #god everything feels like it happened three months ago but i've been here for almost two years so that's impossible it seems

[dreamerdagn]

my tears of the kingdom experience so far

#catfishchat #totk #things really opened up for me when I realized that any time I was frustrated I could go somewhere else #edit: I do really wish I'd kept the essence of If It Sucks Hit Da Bricks #esp since my point wasn't about warping but the fact that you can leave almost any situation #you can warp you can jump you ascend you can hit da bricks #but I said warp and the pic is of him jumping so Hit Da Bricks didn't make sense #catfish post #loz

[ange1sang]

SHIT the comeback is tomorrow

#my sense of time is so warped #not like time exists in the last week of the year but you know

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

What can I say? They're my favorite.

#twdg #twdg clouis #clouis #twdg clementine #twdg louis #sometimes they creep back into my mind and i'm like 'ah yes' like a crow admiring a pretty stone they found years ago and kept #also thank you pi for the screenshots. i used to have a whole folder full of them but that was when i was doing themed nights #the source for these is me i just have a random document full of dynamics and ship things i enjoy because.....i dunno i like keeping track #and so many of them apply to clouis but there's also an overlap of with clouis and rose/alistair [my warden from origins and alistair] like #alistair's romance route is like an evolved matured and extended version of clouis sksksks gee i wonder if i have a type #look you present me with a character who deflects with humor and isn't taken seriously by the rest of the group and the longer you know the #the more you realize how high they've built a wall around themselves and how *unwell* they really are and how they're not as sunshine #as they present themselves and also they avoid leadership and responsibility until they grow closer with someone who pushes them #and they end stronger and more balanced as a person while finding the affection they've craved #and also there's the daddy issues #present me with that character as a romantic option and i'm in no questions asked okay i don't want the mean broody one that's meh to me #i want the one that has every reason to be broody but chooses not to be because they have a completely different defense mechanism #and a warped sense of themselves and self-esteem issues they leave unaddressed until forced to face them #i'm just saying i'm aware that i have a type i'm always going to gravitate toward clouis nearly checks all the boxes #also the lack of clouis these days? my crops are thirsty and i have too many ongoing projects to do anything about it other than this sksks #so until i make time to finish my long ass louis/clouis analysis this is the best i can provide for now

[r0semultiverse]

Is Ablrecht Entrati hopping through space-time to ensure he becomes The Man In The Wall?

Making sure canon events happen ever since (or even before) 1999?

#someone make an edit of him showing up to the train station with the canon event music PLZ #his ex hubby loid is like plz take this also giant void statue body & knock some sense into my Albrecht #real miguel spiderverse vibes but this guy is ACTUALLY an antagonist like full on #although without albrecht entrati messing with everything... if we take him out do we cease to exist or does eternalism save us? #because of eternalism even if we chop albrechts pod in half (assuming he's not just dust in there at this point) he would still exist right #how do we beat this guy?? hes a reality warping altering level threat that exists in presumably multiple capacities #I have SO many questions! #is this a time loop; butterfly effect type thing; or what? #mine #op #warframe spoilers #warframe #warframe 1999 #the man in the wall #albrecht entrati #whispers in the wall #warframe theory

[the--highlanders]

actually I am going to talk about jamie not being able to shoot the zombie in the age of ambition like. he's holding a gun. he's faced with something which is human-shaped but no longer a human, which is actively posing a threat to him and his friends. and he just freezes. he can't do anything.

and we never see jamie shying away from combat with non-human/non-humanoid enemies. he's happy enough to destroy the quarks, for instance. and he'll get into fights with humans/humanoid beings if it's non-lethal. but he actively turns down weapons when he gets into a fight with one of the gonds. the most we ever see him do is swordfight with trask at the end of the highlanders. and even there, he doesn't actively /kill/ - he pushes trask overboard. clearly that's not a death sentence, seeing as ben had already survived the same swim back to shore. and if trask does end up dying? jamie won't necessarily know about it. he's not directly responsible.

so I just think. jamie, who never killed anyone in the war. jamie, who's a piper, who's a musician rather than a soldier. he's not unable to fight, because he duels trask, and he's not afraid to threaten people, because he holds two and ben and polly at knifepoint. he's not naive, because he stands at the window and watches alexander die. but he's never killed anyone himself. jamie, who's consumed with survivor's guilt, always wondering if he should have done more, if his cowardice ever condemned someone else to death - but also always knowing that he could never have done it, being sickened by the part of him that feels guilty for having no blood on his hands.

jamie, who looks into the eyes of something that's not even human anymore, and can't look away, and can't pull the trigger.

and what does that do to him, then? months, maybe a year after he's left his war behind? he stands there with a weapon in his hands and he can't bring himself to defend two of the people he loves most in the world. victoria has to grab the gun out of his hands and do it for him. this young girl who he's fiercely protective of has to shoot someone, all because he can't. there's blood on her hands, now, and none on his. he wishes he could have been the one to take that shot, to carry that burden for her, and even then he can't help but hate himself for wishing. he's trapped there forever. the feeling goes round and round in circles and it never ever goes away.

#second doctor #hi i'm so normal about him <3 #you could definitely also swing it as jamie having killed people in the war & being unable to stomach doing it again! #this is just my interpretation #i'm also aware much of this is down to. this is a family show we can't kill humanoid characters ahfjshfjd #however. have you considered i love to overthink about james robert mccrimmon <3 #anyway i genuinely think jamie has a massive influence on the doctor's morality and desire to avoid killing #throughout all their lives really #because one and two are so much more. relaxed about that ig. than later doctors. #whereas jamie is. this. #like that whole bit in the novelisation of the abominable snowmen #where he talks the monks down from killing songsen by saying there's been enough bloodshed #that's something that the doctor could have done. will do so many times over. #i just think that every time a later doctor does something like that. there's a little bit of jamie in there. #a little bit of someone very traumatised who they loved very much #& like jamie's refusal to shoot in the age of ambition. the doctor's pacifism can sometimes veer into unhelpful extremes #especially later. maybe when their memory of jamie gets more warped and distant idk. #does this even make sense idk it's 1:30am and i don't have my glasses on

[quietwingsinthesky]

obsessed with the idea of the doctor and the master standing together in opposition to gallifrey post-end of time. less in it being the reality of the situation, and more in it being what the master perceives it to be in the immediate aftermath of being. well. told he was going to be disposed of. the combination of that rejection with the doctor choosing him, the way that sets them up with a common enemy. but where that enemy for the master becomes gallifrey in the abstract with the council as the face of it, the doctor never sees it that way, never thinks of it as the two of them against their own world. the doctor, crucially, kept count of the children. when he saves gallifrey, it isn’t about the master at all, not to anyone but the master themself. because how are they supposed to take the doctor choosing gallifrey over them as anything other than a betrayal.

#the master and his stupid warped sense of importance to both the doctor’s choices and the universe as a whole #which is. well. i mean he’s not alone in that. the doctor has the same ideas about himself in relation to the master. and the universe. #only the universe obviously sometimes validates him because this is a story. about him. #but my point is. the master wanting gallifrey to burn post-end of time. setting up the hybrid prophecy as missy. makes sense to me. it does. #i just wish there was more. conflict to it. more to lash out at the doctor with because the master is choosing him so *why* isn’t he #choosing the master back. why is he trying to stop the hybrid plans. this is what they’re meant to *do*. this is what being on the same side #*means*. that there must be an opposition and that opposition must be gallifrey as a whole. because in that most crucial moment the master #got hurt. and time echoed back because of what the council did to make it so he’d been hurting his entire life. just so they could use him. #you get it? you get it. my fucked up raccoon of a man she has so many issues. #it’s just such a fascinating concept to me because that is still *gallifrey*. that’s still his home. the master is not heartless. #when he tries to connect with the doctor he does it to references to gallifrey’s physical features. this is a place he mourned you know? #in his way. so. you know. how do you look at your home and want it to burn right? how far do things have to escalate that you’d rather it be #ash than a place to go back to. and how do you deal with pushing forward with this plan. when you thought you wouldn’t have to push it alone #like for one minute there they were really truly on the same side. their own side. and then they weren’t. and no one told the master that #they weren’t anymore until she got punched in the head by that knowledge. you know? #rambling again im so sorry #doctor who #thoschei #the doctor #the master

[haemosexuality]

what if the reason why flowey said the player/frisk was chara in the genocide run was bc like. he assumed we were soulless like him bc we were killing people and was like, well i died and came back soulless so it stands to reason that if chara came back theyd be soulless too. and it A=B and B=C then A=C and this soulless human MUST be my best friend chara whom is freshly back from the dead. like it doesnt have anything to do with chara Being Evil Actually!!! or his warped perception of them hes just like damn theyre just like me fr...... + hes already susceptible to assuming this random human kid is chara so that helps too

#''he said that bc chara is evil'' and ''he said that bc his time being soulless and also insane has warped his memories of chara and their #goals'' are the two main interpretations of this ive seen #but this thought popped into my head. he was a normal kid before dying and coming back soulless so it makes sense that hed think the same #would happen to chara yk? #undertale #asriel dreemurr #im talking specifically ab the dialogue just after u kill tori in genocide #''no. youre empty inside. just like me. in fact... youre chara right?''

[hawnks]

I have a soft spot for jealous leads, mcs who aren’t charming or well liked, or even necessarily nice. I bet on losing dogs type characters. Rat girls and losers. More of that in stories, please <3

#this is where ttp is heading I think #Kellan is like…… #he has SO many issues #he literally let someone amputate all his limbs so they would like him more #and he obviously NOT well adjusted about his rejection sensitivity #outwardly he is so charming and almost docile; he’ll give anyone anything they ask for as long as they give him affection #but inside he’s a mess #Ada too #she is like full throttle chaos by the time chapter two hits #she USED to be sweet and kind and she still understands how to PRETEND to be that way #and she knows how to use her ditzy appearance to get what she wants #but she threatens to stab the man holding her boat hostage #she thinks about pushing several people overboard #she lets someone else take the fall for her petty thievery #their sense of right and wrong is so warped and it takes them meeting each other to remember how to be human #sorry I have to talk about them or I will explode <3 #they are my horrible little rat children I love them so much and they are awful #squawk tag

[mueritos]

The fact that i got accepted into boston university and new york university for graduate school kinda makes me realize i shouldve applied myself more when i was looking for undergrad but at least i dont have as many loans and i still met cool professors ^-^

#not to be an elitist but after spending time in my shitty pwi racist undergrad uni i just like #i need some prestige for once #so im glad they accepted me like thats cool #grad skool is expensive tho 🥲 #wanted to celebrate my accomplishments tho because i rarely do that #like yea i actually am good enough for nyu and bu like wtf #being at this lame ass school has warped my sense of intelligence yknow #all the courses have been fucking easy #and i couldnt tell if it was because i was too smart or if i was regressing lol #anyway #:)

[cainware]

Okay I might get devoured for this, but I'm gonna post it anyway, so please bare with me:

I feel like Bruce has this belief that Jason never understood why he can't kill right, but also I feel like Bruce also doesn't understand why Jason can. Like he looks at it as a moral failing in so many different iterations from writer to writer but like? Bruce, understanding is a two-way street.

Bruce thinks he'd never be able to come back from taking a life, but then you look down the line at Jason, and Jason can and does. He's not lesser because he kills when he thinks it's the right thing to do, he doesn't lose himself in the bloodbath like Bruce thinks he himself would. Jason doesn't go mad with power, he doesn't go around just murdering any random thug just because.

And I think that damages Bruce a little bit, because he doesn't want to admit that Jason's killing isn't as much of a moral failing as he thinks it should be. I think that Bruce, somewhere in his mind, wanted to believe that if he couldn't do it without losing himself, then nobody could. And I think he can't bring himself to admit to himself that in that regard, Jason has always had a better understanding of the world and his own person than Bruce ever will.

#idk i was rereading utrh and ive been absorbing a lot of other batman related content at warp speed #and maybe this doesnt make sense but to me it feels like bruce just #doesnt want to admit that its possible to take a life for the right reasons #as a direct relation to his own personal traumas #but in that same vein feels like his views on it should be universal because its no shocker that #bruce has very black and white thinking and the concept of the grey area doesnt exist very often to him #but at the same time i feel like its either a blow to him mentally to think that someone can do something he cant #or a blow to his ego that he wouldnt be able to control himself if he slipped #and this is based entirely off the more popular and rehashed versions of bruce that dont fully understand him #but unfortunately that kind of litters a lot of batman media #like dont get me wrong my favorite versions of bruce are multidimensional and has a broader understanding #of the world and gotham and all his kids and their motivations #but the more popular versions (i dont want to say badly written because every batman has their own merits) #(except for you frank miller you know what you did) dont all have that level of growth and general acceptance #of gotham and his kids being Naturally Morally Gray #i should probably shut up or not post this but its out there now so yeah #jaybirdwhistles #shut up jay stop being annoying on the tl

[nebulouscoffee]

Me, attending the latest in a ridiculous number of funerals this year in the place of a childhood friend who couldn't be there, watching the lifeless body of an old lady who used to make me snacks in the kitchen when I was a kid be carted away forever while my friend's mother cries and tells me she's grateful I could be there because it felt like having the support of her own daughter, hugging her and talking reassuringly and not processing a single one of these emotions: ... I am going to write soooo much fanfiction about this

#''this'' being collective grief. because tbvh it's the main reason I haven't written very much this year (but will slowly start to) #I write to remind myself I am lucky. I keep telling myself this but even now when I feel awful I am so lucky #I am lucky that none of these funerals have involved very close family members or friends of mine #and I am lucky to be living in conditions with the space to write and space to grieve #and space to come together to mourn with dignity while people not that far away from me are not receiving the same privilege rn #I am lucky my dad was with me today and I spent the evening chatting with him on the terrace I am lucky he is alive I am lucky I am lucky #(apologies if this sounds like a robot malfunctioning lmao writing is just how I process things) #(and apparently I just don't seem to feel like I have the right to feel bad about any of this anywhere except my st@r trek blog hehe) #anyway. To stay on theme I shall say something about Trills :D #I imagine loss and grief must register very differently to them. very Non Linearly in the literal sense but also a highly abstract one #even I feel this massive sense of time warp between all these funerals; and this chest-crushing distance between me and my friends #how do Trills even exist #how do they wake up every day remembering all those friends and children and parents who loved them and they loved and are gone now #and still function #how does Ezri feel walking around with memories of parents that aren't hers (but were soooo much better than hers) taking care of her #does she feel comforted by them? does it feel like the people in those memories were always comforting HER specifically? #does it even matter who it belonged to originally if a memory is HERS now? #does Ezri mourn for any parents of past hosts more than she knows she will mourn for her own mother one day? #does having all this lived experience bring her reassuring amounts of perspective for a 20-something or just overwhelm her all the more? #idk; but I hope she learns to take comfort in her past hosts' memories of family eventually... #(...again. I am going to write sooooo much fan fiction about this lmao) #cw death

[rawliverandgoronspice]

also. to me, fallen ganon doesn't come from the timeline where link got somehow defeated (?? not sure why that would cause a split), but from the weird timeline that should have led to the end of ocarina of time but sort of didn't (so the place in the space-time continuum child link returns to after putting the master sword back), where I assume Link sort of disappeared from at some point --and so there wouldn't be anyone to oppose Ganon anymore, Courage could get dormant for a good while, etc etc

#thoughts #fallen timeline #link #ganondorf #sorry for having several zelda youtube theorist moments recently ;; #but to me it's kind of what makes the most sense honestly #and anything related to the space-time warping is so weird anyway that I feel like you can fit a ton of weirdness there #without really changing much to how it actually goes down #that's how I make it work in my head at least!

[bearseungmin]

HOW TO NOT GET BLOCKED BY YOUR FAVORITE FANFIC WRITERS—A SERIOUS GUIDE

due to the current issue of fanfic writers having to take the time to assure that those consuming their work aren’t just silently reading, stealing, or sometimes even having to go the extra mile to make sure their following is actually active—there have been some changes in the following game that may or may not impact you as a reader. here’s a guide of things to do to make sure you don’t get blocked by any of your favorite fanfic writers!

PERSONALIZE YOUR BLOG

make sure you add a profile picture to your blog (one that isn’t the horrid shapes with eyes icon you get upon making a blog), a header, and something to your bio to show that you are an actual person behind the blog. the reason why this step is so important is due to the fact that many bots appear as blank blogs. and something else you might not know, many of the blank blogs that tend to follow fanfic writers are actually writers from other sites attempting to find good works to steal and repost. so, personalize your blog!

ADD YOUR AGE ON YOUR BLOG

this especially pertains to 18+/mature fanfic writers, but most of these blogs will either not follow you back or block on impact when they see you in their notifications. the mature fanfic writing community has had way too many instances of minors consuming or interacting with their content that this is the only answer to avoiding those situations, so be sure to add your age either in your bio, to your navigation, or to your about page/post! as long as it is visible when first glancing at your blog, you should be fine.

RESPECTIVELY FOLLOW WRITER’S RULES AND GUIDELINES

one of the most simple actions you can take to avoid being blocked by fanfic writers is just reading their rules and guideline posts on their blog—and most importantly, following said rules and guidelines. most writers have these posts linked in their navigation, so they aren’t difficult to find. most of the rules pertain to these same notes listed here, along with some personalized ones, and most likely their request rules. either way, respect fanfic writers rules and regulations.

REBLOG WORKS AND GIVE FEEDBACK

the largest portion of fanfic writers are literally having to beg for interactions at this point (sadly), so another one of the “how do I not get blocked?” points is literally just reblog and leave feedback on your favorite fanfic writer’s works! there are many writers that now attempt to keep track of who is only liking their works and not actually reblogging, and most certainly not leaving feedback, and this can cause you to get blocked. tumblr only works if you reblog, and although you don’t necessarily have to add tags or comments when you do, hitting a button to share the post further is quite literally the least you can do. likes are quite literally useless on this site—so, reblog and leave feedback to help support your favorite fanfic writers!

TRY TO BE ACTIVE

now if you’ve followed along with the other key points, this one won’t necessarily cause fanfic writers to block you. but, again, if you are a blog that only likes content and never reblogs or leaves feedback—hello, you are in danger. when someone opens up a blog that constantly interacts with them, they can usually find multiple posts or reblogs from recent or past times that you were active. but if they open your blog and there are literally zero posts—expect to get blocked! i’m not saying you’re literally wasting a blog but...if you know how tumblr works, went through the entire process of personalizing the blog, and also followed others—it’s quite dumb for you to not have any posts or reblogs on your blog. so, start being more active so you don’t immediately get blocked by all your favorite content creators!

everything listed here is literally how this site works, and are just the basics to tumblr. the reason why so many fanfic writers are cracking down on blocking is due to losing motivation to write because of how impactful not doing these simple tasks are. if you checked tumblr after posting multiple works and only got likes, realized they were only by default and blank blogs, and that outside of the tags your works weren’t being shared as they should be and you were basically creating into the void, would you be happy?

all of this also applies to my own blog, so if you ever end up getting blocked by me—just know one of these reasons was probably the leading cause!

© bearseungmin 2022.

#took time out of my day when i should be writing to literally make a guide on common fucking sense on this site #i have literally blocked HUNDREDS of blogs over the past few months attempting to weed out default and blank blogs #but they just keep coming #i've seen so many writers have to repeatedly post the summarized version of this #and i also haven't actually spoken about this issue but it has severely warped my attitude towards writing on this site #so i hope this helps #i know i write the most generic shit when it comes to guides and advice but i mean come on can we be civil human beings #and just work together to not have fanfic writing come to a sad end #too many of my favorite writers have left fanfic writing all together or moved to other fanfic posting sites over the last few years #and they weren't just my favorites #if that isn't enough reason to maybe try to make a better effort to keep the rest of the writers here then idk what is

[levia-kun]

tbh the more i think about it, the more i just dont want to post my art on tumblr anymore. i think i might be done for real. at least on this website :/

this is so frustrating

genuinly the only reason i havent deleted is because reblogs forcibly archive ur stuff and its not even about whether i have been scraped (im sure i have) but its more so about the feeling of the expoloitation built into the fucking TOS, i have zero faith in the "opt out" option, it's probably just a cosmetic.

So to "protect" my art for the simple purpose of not getting fucking exploited by the very same website, I "must" glaze, nightshade if possible. maybe add a readable watermark with good font, so I can be found more easily and whatever.

But for what? slightly more visiblity? ppl only like, barely reblog, let alone leave comments, whether tags or replies.

If I wanted more visibility I wouldn't be drawing 200+ artworks of my niche rarepair. or mod the rarepair's server, run events.

This is all a hobby; I don't earn money, I barely made even last convention I attended and that's only when not counting my travel and food costs.

I get what people mean when they want you to keep fighting and post art. But it's so fucking frustrating for seemingly no one to realise how exhausting this is to deal with!? for virtually no payback too.

sigh

yeah i think im done with posting art on tumblr and will slowly move off this site.

#big rant time #on a sidenote #I also really hate glazing #because i spent a lot of time on those drawings and i dont like it very much to see it warped in a sense #i was already super unhappy when i glazed the new year drawing #i spent so much fuckign time on my paintings #i'd love to just post HQ versions of them instead #and glazing doodles is fairly noticeable #not super #but when ur not familiar with the original #so i end up being bothered with them too #even tho i care way less about the image quality here #:////// #not to speak of the extra steps glazing adds to the process of simply posting #this is just exhausting #like ive to wait a couple minutes for the result through webglaze #then if i dont like it enough i rerun it through but this time resetting the artstyle #etc. etc. #i ended up glazing teh LNY piece three times because i caught a mistake in the first glaze and then had to glaze twice again #because i didnt like the 2nd result #thats like #so much time added onto the already lenghty process #a step i dont even like

[ablizmal]

light yagami would eventually manipulate and convince everyone that juliette is emotionally unstable and should be put into a mental institution, and everyone on the taskforce would start to believe it because not only are they being manipulated, but also they would choke on light’s boots if they could.

he would for sure mix misogyny into his reasoning (EVEN THO I’M NOT A WOMAN??? OKAY TWINK BOY LOL) and would start it off “i didn’t want to say this, but…” even tho he LOVES the fact that he’s saying it :/

#lizzie screams #cherry cola chaos #juliette rae ambers #I AM SORRY. i am probably mischaracterizing light #but also. do you guys think that we’ve been in the fandom sphere for so long that the ‘‘correct’’ way to depict light is kind of warped and #‘​‘ooc’’ despite the fact that y’all are writing him better??? #not gonna lie— i don’t understand light’s character completely yet #BUT at the very least at this point in time my light is more of a criticism of the light we see in canon #(i say knowing full well my s/i literally criticizes light every chance they get jfksjfksjdjs) #idk i think it’s funny that my light touches upon the keystones of how he’s A) fake af and doesn’t know how to be happy therefore he pushes #his self importance through the clouds to cope with the disconnect he feels from everyone else #B) he’s gay. it’s very clear that’s he’s in the closet (even if it’s invisible to him and everyone else around him) #and C) light is an awful person. i’m dead serious he has some TERRIBLE beliefs under the surface but no one’s ever challenged him about them #or if they DID light backed down immediately to fit in (if it wouldn’t interfere with his strong sense of justice)