#naming characters is hard ok

[theworstofallpossibleworlds]

In this week's episode, A.J. made fun of the way Brian names characters in his scripts. It is the official position of The Worst of all Possible Worlds that these names are normal actually and the only reason Brian's plays have never been produced is because maybe they'd sell too many tickets and make people too jealous if they missed seeing them.

#plays #playwriting #theater/re #naming characters is hard ok #my name is alan wake #i'm a writer

[bluastro-yellow]

Kurvitz stresses that Kim doesn't actually have a character sheet hidden in Disco Elysium's code. Imagining that Lieutenant Kitsuragi has only one natural attribute point in Motorics helps the ZA/UM team to understand the depth of his character beyond what's referenced in the game's dialogue. "We just came up with this stuff for coherency," says Kurvitz. "And because we're nerds."

"I like to think Kim has a Thought Cabinet project called Revolutionary Aerostatic Brigades that he's worked on since he was a teenager," Kurvitz says. "This raises the learning caps for his Reaction Speed and Interfacing."

Kim's high Volition skill makes him impervious to prying, Kurvitz says, as the detective can find out on occasions being met with Kim's brick-wall resolve. Kim often chastises these whims of the detective's, but will occasionally play along. The Lieutenant finds his new partner funny, says Kurvitz.

Kim is naturally shit at Motorics and thinks Harry is funny source

#THE GUY WHO SO MANY THOUGHT WAS THE MISSING MOTORICS BUILD IS BAD AT THEM #and thinks cop types are stupid <3 #the bajillion points in authority make even more sense. he probably has a lot of natural points in the purple skills? #(addition: so empathy too T_T !!!) #so this means he had to put a lot of points in composture on purpose. and had to learn how to sew and repair motorcarriages the hard way? #the interfacing learning cap is higher but he still had to put points in it to have more than 1 #his perception is abysmal and it stayed so #his hand/eye coordination is also bad. his shooting posture is horrible. I wonder how he got to 7/10 #I want to poke this nerd with a stick #disco elysium #release the kim character sheet now. what the hell is volta do mar I need to know #he must have volta do mar. h/e coordination. kinetic dressage #(and something related to authority) #first and last are red but it's a different shade than harry's red-pink physical skills #so they must have a different name. but h/e is yellow #maybe everyone has the 4 colors psy/phis/mot/int categories but they have different shades and names #<-all of this is from the official jacket they sell. it's in the description #ok no the color shades are just the website's fault. sad noise

[snailfen]

(me watching toh for the first time) hehehe hunter..... like hunter rain worldd..... :)

so, hunters! hunter(rw) prolly thinks hunter(toh) has overcome some incredible beasts (she isnt wrong,)

#first time drawing an owlhouse character (<- guy who hasnt drawn humanoids or humanoid facial features for months) #(<- guy who decided to experiment with how they draw humanoids and their facial features after not drawing them for months) #thankfully hunter made this weirdly easy ?? i was actually kinda worried cus im really shit with human noses and im not good- #-with different nose shapes but it actually wasnt that hard. thanks hunter :) #ok now what last name do i use for his character tag. fuck #hunter wittebane #hunter toh #hunter clawthorne #hunter noceda #hunter rw #the hunter #the owl house #toh #rain world #rain world downpour #my art

[pelagaye]

that distant shore

fandom: honkai star rail pairing: gepard landau x reader summary: oceans don't exist on jarilo-vi anymore and there’s really nothing for gepard to change that. but the way how you speak fondly of that distant shore none of you have truly seen influences the affections he holds for you to do something about it. notes: it makes me unhappy that the eternal freeze on belobog might not ever disappear and this fic is just here to comfort me through that fact

there's an abundance of reading materials within qlipoth fort for anyone to delve themselves with.

you're one of the many few, along with pela, who actually takes advantage of this and bronya insists that you pay no mind about the hours that practically glues you to the pages of the novels you read, reassuring the fact that you may actually stay much longer than necessary when your responsibilities are accomplished.

it's not an issue in any way to the newly assigned supreme guardian because aside from the fact you are one of her appointed head officials, she's pretty much aware of the fact that the only thing that can make you pause from your reading is a captain of the silvermane guards who'd lean on the entrance of the door frame with all of his duties finally done to let you know it's getting darker outside.

gathering your things, gepard helps you up from your seat on the floor cushion, his hands lingering onto yours longer than intended before a phrase of gratitude parts from your lips.

it's a routine for the both you at this point. occurrences that you both are secretly thankful for to have in your lives while everything is constant.

such as the wind that caresses your cheeks during the start of your late night walk with gepard, the soft smile you offer to your favorite companion as a conversation makes an opening between yourselves, the consistent cold that envelopes belobog–

ah. the consistent cold that envelopes belobog, the eternal freeze. others would even call it the ice age. but no matter the name it holds, the infamous snowstorm will always leave a bitter taste on your mouth.

because how is that, even when it has ended thanks to a group of trailblazers that saved the planet, its ecological effects remain constant with everything else.

"have i ever told you about the ocean?" you inquire the blond beside you.

gepard gives you a short nod knowing you already had, at least more than a hundred times before already.

you always loved the ocean, despite haven't even seeing it.

so you tell gepard everything you've learned about it.

you’d tell him about the sand that meets with the mass of water on the other side and how its waves, described to be water that moves in rhythm as if they were dancing, would apparently wash up beautiful treasures of various kinds known as shells and possibly corals.

gepard doesn’t fail to admire you as you continue your rambling about the body of water despite the cold that’s freezing your outsides. he listens to each and every detail you continue to share. it does make him wonder if it had ever keep you up at night as you can only yearn for the ocean shore that may serve you as the lullaby you heavily desire for those sleepless nights.

"but if you really think about it, not one person in belobog knows the basics to swimming."

"and you do?"

"is my obsession not enough to convince you?

chuckles dispersed from the both of you and it is enough for gepard to relax himself that despite everything, the ocean is still a source of your happiness. what a tough rival he has before him, indeed.

"when the time comes where i no longer need the novels to tell me about that distant shore, you'll be the first to tag along with me."

the expression on gepard's face changes. nothing too extreme but with one brow rising up, he had to seek your reasons.

you're the only one gently laughing now as you turn to him. gepard feels his ears burning at how precious you appear in front of him before you speak again.

"to see if the rumors are true, of course! you'll be like my second witness, and we'll confirm information together like- like if the sea is really blue! just like the sky-"

just like your eyes.

"and how salty the ocean can be! it'll mean the world to me!"

knowing you'll also be there too.

gepard shakes his head with a smile on his face, he can't just say no to you with every endearment he has saved for the person that you are.

this brings a similar smile to your own and it stays there for awhile, that is, until the cold weather makes its presence known once again, forcing the expression on your face to turn.

"if only we would still be young enough by then to reach it," you sigh. "oh aeons, what a childish dream it actually is."

it is anything but childish, gepard thinks to himself. but you are foolish to say the least because he's more than willing to grow old with you and make that dream of yours come true.

but for now, the both of you can only find such satisfaction with only each other. and in some way or another, it was enough.

—

four days. it's exactly four days after since that night with gepard. he continues to walk you home, of course. with an exception of last night that is, saying he had to run around for some errands.

you, having no need for the blond to elaborate any further, still wonders about it. not that it bothers or anything, definitely not, but eventually the theories in your mind fades upon seeing a tiny box on your office desk.

beside the box is a note indicating it's fragility, the messy handwriting almost too familiar.

and when you do open the gift, the item inside flusters yourself, making you want to treasure the miniature sphere for life.

"oh? another letter?"

to the ocean's beloved marine admirer,

if i had all power in the galaxy, i'd drag multiple body masses of water to where we are today for the sake of your adoration for them, as my adoration for you exceeds that. to tell you the truth, these oceans you speak of makes my heart experience jealousy at times with the way you are so passionate about the idea and concepts surrounding them. still, it has not stopped me from crafting this ornament you hold now. it's called a "snow globe" according to writings but instead of snow, i got help from my sister with assembling it to resemble a sunny bright beach with the distant shore you hope for. may it be to your liking. and oh, do tell me what you think about it the moment we are to cross paths again. you see, i may have been working on it these past days so i apologize if the secrecy had made you suspect badly of me but i have done it with all of my genuine sentiments.

i look forward on taking your offer of witnessing the sun reflecting its rays on the ocean and the irresistible smile that'll loom on your face right after as the scent of the saltiness reaches our noses.

sincerely yours, g. landau

the moment the letter ends, all we may surmise now is an unsuspecting gepard who is confronted by you, his face turning red. gepard, who no longer received a thank you from your lips, instead, it's a soft impact you had on his cheeks. and you, who has fallen deeply in love with the ocean, can say this much: that your heart belongs where it has to be.

#omg is this fluff enough for you #i hope this fic makes sense #kinda just went w the flow . get it. flow like water? ok bye #just to make things clear im more of a character study kind of writer but these x reader scenarios are so hard to not make #also i just realized the title is similar to a song of a cartoon show that i will not name uueue #hsr x reader #honkai star rail x reader #gepard x reader #hsr x you #honkai star rail x you #gepard x you

[fluffyselfships]

AUGHH I LOVE BEING CRINGE /lh

#drawinf your f/o doting after you #big big serotonin😭💖💖💖 #im so sorry im constantly shoving these two in yalls faces lmaoo #i havnt fallen this hard over a character in a while #hit me like a mf truck #i love him so much dont look at me ok #i need a new f/o tag name for him i think #❤️hungry for your love🍬 #self ship #selfship #f/o #my devil guy #mod bun

[weafurry]

YAYY YIPPEE HII/silly

(Sorry I didn't get to this till now it was late when I saw the ask and I didn't wanna answer it while I was half asleep. Also apparently tumblr doesn't let you edit asks anymore?? )

Leaving this under a cut tho cuz I know this shit will get LONG

ANYWAYS. The. Big one related to that™ post came from a combination of me wondering how the FUCK Cedric got the yellow phosphor needed to rebuild proto + consequences of the revival of characters my beloved

And uh. Yea any yellow phosphor he does end up getting his hands on I. DOUBT WOULD BE ENOUGH.

So uh. Proto being rebuilt with less yellow phosphor then is probably even remotely adviseable and that causing a whole ton of issues™ . And Cedric not even knowing cuz of the whole just. Scanning the blueprints in.

Also this is proto we're talking about here. There's no fucking way he'd tell anyone until shit got BAD.

LEMME JUST. Screenshots from when I was brainrotting over this in my first OneShot fixation

And yea. The author probably would have had yellow phosphor stored in the lab somewhere just incase. (Esp with the head canon that. Proto predicted his own death a long time ago cuz. Prophet moment. And. Told the author and the prophet but never cedric and rue cuz everytime he went to he would get another vision of them trying to intervene and things only going worse)

BUT. since I want my angst goddammit. That part of the lab collapsed first and while Cedric was abled to salvage some yellow phosphor it ends up not being enough.

BUT LIKE. YEA. the way I always imagined Cedric and Rue actually finding out is. One of those moments where a bunch of errors and shit happens . Happens when him Cedric and Rue are walking in the refuge. And this one's bad enough that he can't just metaphorically grit his teeth through it like the other times this has happened in public. Once it's over Cedric and Rue are reasonably extremely concerned and. Fuckin rush him to the lab to try and see if there something they can do to fix this.

AND UH. That segways into another little detail of this headcanon. BECAUSE. he let this go on for so long with the damage all the errors and malfunctions overtime have caused. It probably would just be better to rebuild him and reuse the yellow phosphor they already have. BUT UH. since the situation around him being rebuilt made it so stressful the first time around, he. REALLY doesn't wanna do that again. I have. Such a vivid idea of a scene in my head for that. They're like. Talking with kip. And shes like halfway through saying the word rebuild and. She doesn't even get to finish he just cuts her off.

So what they end up doing is, in the meantime, using red phosphor to prevent any further damage until they can go to the barrens to get blue phosphor so said phosphor won't have to be replaced as often.

I ACTUALLY. made a dumb little chart of how. I imagined them looking different a few days ago

I imagine that. Actually having a normal level of phosphor would. Definitely HELP. But. There would still be some issues partially because it's not one uniform type of phosphor and partially because of the damage the issues caused. And you couldnt pry this headcanon out of my cold dead hands. Consequences of the revival of characters go brrrrrrr

AND THEN UH. Don't get me started on the night terrors as a result of the whole squares thing headcanons.

that whole thing. Came from me going. "do robots still need sleep?" and ultimately deciding yes when i came up with the other headcanon that. only tamed robots dream.

When I made this headcanon I actually hadnt played solstice in a while, and for some reason I always remembered it as, him handing Niko the disk while the lower half of his body was already in the squares. which. no he actually hands it to them while the squares are directly behind him BUT. I still choose to remember it that way HSHSH. anyways uh. Important and related to this headcanon. He remembers what that feels likeeee. and hes probably the only oneee because in the solstice ending everyone only sayss they remember the squares surrounding themm not actually touching themmm and even robots who have gotten caught in them and liveed probably dont rememberrr especially since most of them arent tameddd and uhh even if he only remembers the beginning of ittt hes probably really good at filling in the gapss with the whole prophet thingg (thanks @malwarechips for that last idea/silly)

ANYWAYS UHm. so the whole. tamed robots dreaming thing right. HIM. having night terrors about the fucking squares.

I always imagined it as like. about a week after solstice, once things are starting to calm down and return to normal, one night cedric and rue wake up to proto just fuckin screaming at the top of his (metaphorical) lungs. And. they fuckin burst into his room to him tossing and turning in his sleep and then fucking jolting awake. and like.this keeps happening like. practically every other night. he's losing sleep over this shit. Which probably isn't helping all the other issues from the whole phosphor ordeal which he still hasn't told Cedric or Rue about at this point. And I mean. I doubt the nightmares would be restricted to just. in the mines. cuz dreams are weird like that esp when traumas involved AND UH. With the whole prophet thing. That. PROBABLY WOULDNT MIX WELL. (once again thanks eve for that last part/silly)

(On a lighter note I did have the thought of Cedric and Rue sleeping in his room one night and him actually finally getting a good nights sleep and thus that just. Becoming routine for them. The thing about my angsty headcanons is 99% of the time there's hurt/comfort potential in there)

I DO HAVE. some more lighthearted not angsty headcanons, but i wanna save most of those for their own posts cuz theyre small enough that i can actually draw them and finish them.

I will say one more though. this one is 100% projection but *points at proto* chronic migraines

#90% of my proto headcanons are just me torturing my son and making things 10x worse for him. this is the cost of being a blorbo #i mean it's not like i made him *that* much worse #i mean look at him. look at him and tell me he's ok. look at him and tell me that he has decent mental health. #its so fucking hard to take myself seriously writing some of this when theyre called the SQUARES. like #OOOoooOoo scaryyyy he failed geometry oooooo #autism blast /silly #all of these are so fucking self indulgent and i will not be apologizing #can you tell im writing these tags as im writing the actual post #ok im normal now (this is a lie) #prototype #prototype oneshot #proto oneshot #oneshot #oneshot game #I still dont have a tag system for this fandom besides using oneshot/just character names for personal tagging #wyrm.txt #Wea's Art

[boxwinebaddie]

BLUE HAIR RAVENSTAN IM PTERODACTYL SCREECHING

*rm!clyde autism vc* erm, actually! its pterodactylus!~

but, no, fr. he is the moment, the movement!!!!

and everyone thinks it's because he's in his cool boy, cool blue, blue rad(s)berry, bad boy era, when in reality he's in his imy ky sad boi era.

like after they fought when the call girl news came out, which, tbh, i think ended with kyle about to call ravenstan 'stan' but then he stopped himself at the last second and yelled out, "no, fuck that! you don't Deserve to have his name! my stan would NEVER do this to me!

....fuck you, raven."

which...OOOOOOOOF. when stan and kyle know who each other are and don't call each other by their actual first names...its really bad. like actually, at the end of The Kyle Can't Say I Love You Fight where jersey is begging ravenstan to stay, stan gives him one last chance and is like "tell me you love me." and kyle is like "w-what?" and stan grabs kyle's hand, looks deep into his eyes, bearing his heart and is like "tell me you love me and i'll stay." n kyle tries and tries and tries

...but he Can't :(

so stan wipes his eyes, laughs a sad little laugh, drops kyle's hand, picks up his black jansport backpack and in The Voice just goes

"adios, jersey."

and SLAMS! the door behind him.

now, one of my favorite things about writing rm is a lot of stuff seems really cute and coy on the surface, but it's actually kind of insidious. or even that something as harmless/innocuous as a nickname might carry the weight of the world across a mere six letters. see, because when ravenstan called his kyle 'jersey' at the that first crimson dawn concert when he chose kyle as his victim, as we all now know, stan knew exactly who kyle was, but pretended not know, and what's more? stan gave kyle a cute little nickname...

jersey.

cute, light, bouncy. on the nose, where blush ran like red snow across that valley of freckles and melted our college student ice king into glassless puddle at the mere utterance of that word from raven's lips. not too much to think about there. seems like a simple thing, calling the boy you like a funny name, to tease him or make him feel special.

to everyone but stanley marsh in that moment, calling kyle jersey and continuing to call him jersey wasn't something he did to be cheeky, it was strategic...it was personal. because it was much easier for stanley marsh to call his precious long lost kyle broflovski jersey...

...than kyle.

it's probably not as obvious as i think it is when i'm writing it in, but if you look closely in rm, you might notice that ravenstan almost exclusively calls kyle jersey, except for a couple really tender moments, or by accident. bc he's not supposed to use kyle's name/

one, it's just too hard, because saying kyle's name invokes way too much raw emotion in him, like the raven voice drops, he starts doing the stan voice, his eyes get shiny, it's half a sob, half a prayer, there's an overwhelming urge to hold him...like it's too obvious. kyle can't say ily and stan is not supposed to say kyle's name.

so he created jersey as a buffer, a fail safe. he created the jersey nickname to create distance between himself and kyle, so that he could keep his head on his shoulders and not go off book.

which is not to say that later on they don't use raven/crow and jersey/yersey when they're being funny/feeling fond, but if kyle calls stan raven in the shrewd deadpan voice or raven calls kyle jersey in the aloof, cool boy raven voice....THEY ARE FIGHTING!!! which...ya.

anyways, speaking of ravenstan's blue hair ( the closest approximate of which i think is this picsart monstrosity i edited [ which idk who drew this but all the credit in the world to them like thats my son ], i also did a blonde one ) after the fight, i just know stan was spiraling super hard, a bottle of chase azul tequila and a bottle of blue arctic fox hair in the other, washing his face w/ his tears, scream singing to abba on vinyl ( jersey loves abba, stan gave him a lot of shit for it growin up, their first dance at sadie hawkins was also an abba song )

and just boarded the plane the very next day with blue ass hands and blue ass hair...also pls note that when stan made the seating arrangements, it was well before they had that fight, so stan put himself next to kyle ( and its a small private plane so the rows only have two seats, i think ) and its a mess like...Roll Clip!

jers: "what? wouldnt'ya ratha sit next to ya girlfirend? here, i'll mov-"

raven: "kyle, you've been mentally preparing yourself to sit in this particular seat for weeks. you begged me to show you the layout of the plane so you could practice. you're not moving. plus, she has a window seat and you hate the window seat. i made sure you were sitting in the aisle seat so you could get up, so you don't feel trapped."

jersey, trying not to be rizzed: "and yet here i am...Trapped. With. You."

jersey, scoffing: "wow. blue? really?"

raven: "thought you'd be pleased, considering it's your favorite color"

jersey: "not anymore."

ravenstan, being a little shit: "oh, yeah? what's it now. whatever it is, i'll change it. i brought color oops just in case." ;)

jersey, rolling his eyes: "y'know, i actually don't like any colors at the moment. hate 'em all! guess you'll have to shave ya head." <3

raven: "no worries. gq magazine says i have the bone structure for it."

aAAAAAASASASAAAAA!!!!! they are being so cunty like boys relax oh my goddddddd...speaking of being relaxed. kyle is not that. kyle does not like planes, reads the emergency card 100 times, makes them check all the systems like 100 times and is particularly frightened by taking off the runway/turbulence so he actually...grabs stans hand by accident, breathing really and stan just squeezes his palm reassuringly and strokes the arch of jersey's knuckles with his thumb before they break away and kyle pretends like it never happened.

stan also...falls asleep on kyle's shoulder for like 70% of the flight, like kyle is just doing something dorky like the sudoku puzzle or reading hemmingway and stan's beautiful freshly blue chai-scented head plops on kyle's shoulder, sleeping soundly. and i shit you not kyle is scared to move that entire flight, a baby looks like its gonna start crying and kyle gives it The Glare and it swallows that sound back up. he's fighting demons and the demons are wanting to gaze longingly at your sleepy ex-sbf and kiss him on the forehead aaaAAAAAAA.

but ya! i love you manic blue hair stan! my hero! my zero!

-uncle nina, dyed hair idiot boy stan agenda

#jersey lore #but like actual jersey lore about the jersey nickname #like it is cute its supposed to be cute #but it really is just stans coping mechanism #tfw u have to make up a flirty tarty whorey lil nickname for ur childhood best friend bc u cant say his actual name #bc u literally say it in the gayest voice possible like hes a spring and you havent had water in 100 years #and like you need him and want him and would do anything for him with ur voice and character breaking desperate for him #SO YEAH THATS WHY STAN CALLS KYLE JERSEY #BC CALLING KYLE BY HIS NAME IS TOO HARD FOR STAN #HE GETS REALLY EMOTIONAL BC ITS HIS FAVORITE WORD INT THE WORLD AND HE WANTS TO SAY IT ALL THE TIME #but its hard to say it when u are calling ur kyle Kyle and he is calling you raven like ur a stranger and AAAAAA #but also yeah their airplane interactions are so cunty but also cute bc they held hands and stan napped on him #me when the boys are being cute and perfect and in love: yawn #me when they boys are fighting and being cunty to each other & like 3 secs away from going at it on the next available surface: SLAY #i love tension and drama like I LOVE THE OO YOU WANT ME SO BAD its my favorite thing omg #ok done jazz hands idk what this is #one thing abt me is im gonna make the boys fight and then makeout really aggressively with eachother sorry abt it #IK THE CALL GIRL THING IS CONFUSING RN JUST HOLD YOUR HORSES OKAY ILL EXPLAIN IT SOON

[nyupuun]

Won Top 4 at locals for the Age of Overlord Sneak Peek (this made me so happy I have to share it everywhere.)

Also, another person really liked the anime (specifically 5Ds) so now we're writing with one another and I don't think I've done anything harder than trying to act normal and allistic about Yugioh. Someone at Locals also said they liked how 'excited' I was about it, and I know it probably wasn't even meant in a mean way but I still felt a bit bad cause I don't even know how to be normal!!!!!

#i should make a locals tag #for when I go to locals and failflop (BUT JTS SO OK I LOVE YUGIOH) #Also i won like. all my matches EXCEPT THE LAST ONE. but its so fine and cool cause it was the person that liked the animes too #so it was really fun. also i was gonna win the second game and they said 'heart of the cards is gonna topdeck crazy' #and then they DID. (the horus spell forgot its name (fakefan)) #so i went 4-1 and im glad because it truly was my personal best so far :) #also not to rant in. tags BUT. we were talking about the anjme right? and then another person says they only like early yugioh #we talk and I say yugi is my favourite character from it (like. little yugi not yy) #and then they go 'cause hes a noob that cant do anything' #my smile dropped so hard. :( #someone should study the way yugioh players watch the anime because its not even the first time people think YUGI is bad at the game #like. ????????????????? ok #sorry small rant i love talking about yugioh and the anime and everything ruaaa #might delete later #random ramble #long tags #yugioh #sorry jm kinda embarrassing

[inanimate-sludgesanity]

Y'know what no I'm done hiding from the cringe in my silly little brain I'm setting it free, Knife x Yinyang that doubled as a color palette test, self indulgence city here I am baby

Oh yeah also because its

once again, of course

#sludge's art #inanimate insanity #ii knife #ii yinyang #kninyang #<- ship names are hard ok #anyway dont mind me adding to the infinitely long list of characters I ship with Knife #im normal i promise i promise #its yinyang wednesday #<- almost forgot this one omg #not my best work really but today was a hard one so im giving myself a pass here

[askamnesiamoonjumper]

me after editing the aau prologue for the bajillionth time

#First chapter I changed the opening bc I always thought it felt off/abrupt and wanted to have it be prince pov from the start #I wanna get in his head more ok sue me #Beyond that tho it was just some wording edits #Specifically with the internal dialogue moments I helped them flow more/feel more like thoughts #Also mj gets a bit more of their usual edge/pessimism bc the prologue they always felt a bit too “ówò sad poor smol bean” or whatever #That’s it tho chapter 4 I didn’t change bc it’s peak #Did add some teases to later things tho like snatch senses mjs soul at the end of his chap but doesn’t realize it #Or like I added the Not Now running thing in the earlier chapters bc it was more of a chapter 4 thing so I wanted 2 set it up more so boom #I think that’s all the notable edits ig like I said just description additions the only actual new thing is the opener for chap 1 👍 #Also also I got to include a hc that I have that I neglected to do before but I hc a!prince used plural internal dialogue #Because lol we love dramatic irony in this house #Grace post #this reminds me tho one of these days I should look through heart strings chapter one to look for editing things #Bc I think I did that recently but I don’t remember it much tho #Mostly just when the Hat stuff starts that was the parts I never directly rewrote I just edited them so they feel out of place in my brain #Also I’d wanna edit her dialogue bc it *was* in character (after rereading her diary’s to confirm) but I wanna have her be a bit more snark #Hat is Hard bc i Need the balance of cute little kid and also smug little shit (affectionate) like she is a pain to write man cries #This is just me rambling lol ignore it I just wanted to spam aau thoughts #In other news I made shapes redesigns but I’m on the fence on posting them bc idk if I wanna spoil or not hhhhhhhhh #Nowadays I’m more chill w spoiling things than I used to be #But there are a handful of things I’ve kept shut about (ex being princes name or mjs species stuff etc) #So I’m not sure if this thing with shapes i should keep secret or just post bc I used to spoil it but idk now #Shrugs #maybe I’ll do a poll later I dunno #Ok yapping over byeeeeee

[perenlop]

this one's just too easy. i have had vague story ideas for my violet team for ages.

#the only tweak is palafin in place of wugtrio cause i prefer it now #grafaiai (adeleine) is the main character here and idk the general plot yet #but shes best friends with miraidon (name pending) after she finds her on the beach and they defend each other #im thinking the school setting stays #and all of these guys are classmates who are collaborating on a group project #oh wait except for tinkaton. who is not part of the school but is following us at a distance cause shes down bad for holly (meowscarada) #and is too shy to actually ask to join. she copes with this by beating rocks with her hammer #and screaming her heart out #ceruledge starts as like the snobby pretentious smart kid but it turns out shes just autistic and doesnt realize she sounds like that slkdf #basically like ''omg we're in high school yay ^^ wait is the apocalypse happening'' #anthro au #ok now that im done. can easily say the ones im most interested in are kanto kalos alola and paldea #echoed voice #i will do concept sketches maybe #actually designing em is gonna be the hard part

[shooks-stupid-stuff]

3.

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#hong meiling #紅 美鈴 #touhou 6 #touhou #touhou project #東方project #東方 #東方プロジェクト #東方紅魔郷 #eosd #touhou eosd #MEILING MY BELOVED WAHHH #i. REALLY hope the pose looks ok h- #i tried so hard on it ckhvicb #i usually draw her with pants like in the fighting games but #she doesn't have em in eosd so none it is :pensive: #also first character with a last name moment lol #ahhhh ok only... 5 more to go #...i can do this (i think-) #anyways gn lol #shook arts

[compacflt]

okay here to pick ur mind…i know you’ve alluded to it throughout WWGTTAI and debriefing but do u think bottoming is something that i’ve struggled with throughout his relationship with mav-especially if he enjoyed it-bc it may have been “more gay” in his mind and therefore harder to excuse due to the inherent misogyny wrapped up in men’s homophobia? it’s something we’ve talked abt in my gender studies classes so i just wanted to know how you think your ice may have approached that due to the repression of his sexuality so throughly and for so long!

as always with questions like this there’s a diegetic (in-universe) answer and a non-diegetic (writing theory) answer so I’ll start with the diegetic answer (not tagging this as nsfw but obv refer to the subject matter & discretion advised):

he isn’t thinking about it. I mean, he has to think about the mechanics of it, because sure there’s a lot of prep work involved, but he’s not really thinking about what it means, because no one’s telling him to. He knows it’s “wrong” —but the whole thing is “wrong,” anyway! The fact that he’s doing anything with Maverick is already wrong... I think he categorizes things as “not-fucked-up” and “yes-fucked-up” in his head, and any form of non-societally-approved contact with another man is “yes-fucked-up,” and there’s not really a sliding scale. Which is why Maverick’s weird extended hug thing right when Ice leaves TOPGUN (ch.4? I forget) is like literally the biggest deal in the world to him. I think Maverick could’ve actually groped him and he would’ve responded the same way. It’s all fucked-up, in his head. No difference between hugging/kissing/fucking/being fucked; it's all the same. There are the rules, and then there’s breaking the rules—no gray area in Ice’s mind (though note, in turn, Maverick’s analysis of Ice bending the rules—there is a gray area, just an unacknowledged one). 

So, yeah, he isn’t really thinking about the implications of the specific act. Maybe he knows that he enjoys it, and that thinking about what it means that he enjoys it would ruin it, so he doesn’t think about it. Also, he’s operating under the unspoken assumption that there’s something “wrong” with Maverick and not with him, because remember that Maverick already confessed to engaging in same-sex acts in ch. 4. There’s something fundamentally “wrong” with Maverick, so anything Ice does automatically looks better in comparison, because (he thinks) his transgressions are isolated incidents, whereas Maverick’s are a known pattern—even if Ice’s “transgressions” amount to literally being fucked by another guy. Hey, well, at least I’m not as bad as rule-breaker Maverick, who does this all the time, apparently! 

In Ch. 8 I was kind of trying to harp on that fact with the use of the word “resentment” during Ice’s discussion of choice/free will—there is kind of a sense that Maverick did this to him against his will, as in, he wasn’t “yes-fucked-up” until he met Maverick/this whole FWB-situation started, and maybe there is some deep-seated resentment about the fact that he might have been “normal” if it weren’t for Maverick (he wouldn’t have been, but he doesn’t realize that). I was close to having him just say this outright in Ch. 8, but as I’ll talk about below, their relationship is already pretty toxic, and there were some lines of toxicity I didn’t want to cross explicitly.

As for the non-diegetic answer, AKA the reason I wrote it this way: I’m kind of hesitant to politicize sociosexual (esp. “hierarchical”) roles in fiction, because I feel like it’s an easy way to betray your own political biases (as a writer) towards male sexual roles—it’s just too slippery of a slope IMO. Especially once you introduce ranks and professional/financial power dynamic differences, I feel like it’s all-too easy to portray the relationship as incredibly and toxically sociopolitically unequal. Yeah, I guess it would make more sense for very-closeted Ice to top 100% of the time, but he’s already “hierarchically” above Maverick 100% of the time anyway—politically, professionally, financially, in terms of social respect, etc. I didn’t want their dynamic to be skewed all the way towards one character having all the social/external/traditionally masculine power, so I didn’t write it like that. That in and of itself is a political decision that betrays my beliefs about male sexuality, and might not make sense in-universe, with characters this repressed, but…I personally felt uncomfortable with the alternative.

I think I’ve explained this a couple times elsewhere, but I wanted Ice & Mav to be true equals in this fic, because it reflects the equality they achieve in canon— “You can be my wingman anytime” vs. “Bullshit, you can be mine.” They are canonically equals. And, yes, of course in a sexual relationship you can be “giver” or “taker” and still be “equal” with the other person, but—like, you see how it would be different, right? If you’re only ever the “giver,” in our society’s traditional understanding of gender roles, you have an insane amount of power over the other person, and I wanted Ice & Mav to be equals when they’re with each other. It’s why I was hesitant having like an actual D/S dynamic with them as well—and the lack of that dynamic is itself a plot point. Ice in ch. 8 rebels against what he thinks their dynamic is—namely, that Maverick always leads/gives the orders, and Ice always follows. He portrays himself as submissive in that moment (“I’ve never had a choice”), but in reality he has just as much control over this relationship as Maverick does—i.e. he is just as “dominant,” and wants it just as bad, he just can’t articulate that. Which is the point of his whole character arc. Their equality is the point, not the transgressiveness of the act itself.

Also related to his character arc is the passivity of the act of bottoming as well, which is maybe why it's "overrepresented" in the story (sorry coming back to add this graf after doing the tags already &then Having A Thought). Like if Ice's whole thing is following orders/not having a choice, which makes him a great naval officer but a deeply flawed and confused person, then it makes sense that his narrative focuses most on the following/passive act of "taking," not necessarily the more leading/active role of "giving." These are simplistic terms obv but hopefully you can see what I'm getting at.

#& i think honestly i rebelled so hard against the idea of ice stereoptypically ALWAYS topping/'giving' #that i maybe OVERrepresented him ‘taking’ in my writing #just bc it was like ‘oh ofc ice would top🙄’ so i wanted to do something different #which then turned into him bottoming all the time LMFAO that was NOT my goal #they are verses ok that’s what im trying to say here #bc at least with each other they need to be on an equal playing field #asks #edts notes #But thank you for the ask! most of this also stems from the fact that as a writer im just…bad at writing smut/ #characters talking about sex so i avoid it when i can & fade to black as much as possible #doesnt make me uncomfortable im just bad at it lol #especially in 3rd person (i usually write in 1st) #too many pronouns/name repetitions #and i abhor epithets & smut is the only time i use epithets to avoid overusing names #but my hatred of epithets > my desire to write smut so i don’t do it #which then leads to conundrums of clarity like this

[the-maladjustedjester]

It is a pillar of mankind to make Lucifer hot

#I shouldn’t be on tumblr while high #I’m can barely see the keyboard #im so floaty man but #loser baby is stuck in my head and I have my angel dust shirt on #and she said he’s her famvorite character #anyway I wanna fuck Lucifer what what the fuck #huh #it’s really dizzy in here #I’m trying to hard to think #uh #sleepy #I wanna be Lucifer and fuck Adam #ok well I didn’t have to say it like that #I’m so tired and dizzy #thank fuck my parents didn’t name any of my siblings anything overtly biblical #I have enough shit to deal with when William Afton has the same name as my brother #at least I don’t have a sibling or cousin named Adam #I don’t m ow anyone irl named Adam actually #holy shit I’m dizzy #I’m going back to unhhhh #Trixie and Katya save me

[cowboyvillainz]

late night scribble

#hes supposed to be like 4 inches taller but its a hard pose ok. #this is my first drawing on my new laptop yeay #alistaire #guess i need a shiv tag now #shiv #hope no one in succ fandom goes searching characters by first names and gets hit with my ocs

[boxwinebaddie]

Does parental trauma run in the CD family

hoooooooooooooooooooo you know it baby! ;)

ok before i begin the cd boys are just #traumabonded from being in CD together...its not as fun or cool as it looks i swear...ill just say that. those four boys...my sons...everything and more for them...angels <3

but in the Parental Traumalypics

ravenstan wins for...Obvious Reasons.

somebody call 9-1-1 shawty fire burnin on the dancefloor ooOhwoOahooh

like when i tell you that man endured Horrors and he is my baby my baby my BABY!!! i would fight dirty 4 all the ncu styles and their loved ones...but ravenstan...i would to jail for life its what he DESERVES!!! when we finally get a raven pov flashback???? HAPPY MENTAL ILLNESS DAY EVERYONE! not a dry eye in this house! WHEW!

kyle is probably second but he is not cd but thats okay because KENNY????? IN RM?????? WHOOOOOO!!! ALSO HELL!!!!!!! THEY HAVE ALSO LIVED THRU SOME SHIT!!! AND NEVER DIE!!! SO THEY JUST KEEP LIVING THROUGH IT!!!! but no kennys relationship with their parents and like specifically darling karen is dramatic and traumatic there is a lot going on there but we gotta get to it

so i will be honest i did not flesh out the other cd boys...home lives as much as i wanted to because i was so focused on stan and kyle and getting those right...so coming soon! xx

jimmy from what i am meagerly piecing together had an OK upbringing and parents that "looked after him" but i think found his disability shameful and secretly kind of felt burdened by having a child who needed so much medical care? like emotionally and financially?

i think they probably saw him more as a way to get sympathy, sort of treated him like an object/joke sometimes...and the saddest people are often the funniest so i think he sort of ran with "well if everyones laughing with you, theyre not laughing at you" :( jimmy my beloved im so...but i would say there's trauma there. FS!!!!

can't say too much abt the cd guitarist ( i also am still working on him shhhh ) but he had at least one positive guardian/parental figure. also felt like he had a lot to prove, so a lot of...pressure. but i love him sm

as for the blondies gayng....KYLE???? JERSEY KYLE???????? for the fucking gaslighting that was done to him THE LITERAL LIGHTING UP OF HIS BEST FRIEND SUPPOSEDLY??? KYLE NEEDS FINANCIAL COMPENSATION UPWARDS ONE MILLION DOLLARS FOR THE PSYCHOLOGICAL TORTURE HE ENDURED JFC!!!!

also like sheila i love you sheils but she is so crazy like she is neurotic she loves kyle and kyle loves her but she definitely made kyle anxious about everything like even before stan died sheila set him up to fail...and UH GERALD ACTUALLY SET KYLE UP TO FAIL BECAUSE HE GAVE HIM UNREASONABLE STANDARDS AND NEGLECTED AND LOOKED DOWN ON HIM FOR NOT MEETING THEM AAAA gerald was openly cruel to kyle....gerald please FUCKING die! thx!

randy x gerald x burning in hell forever <3

uhhhh bebe...bebes parents love her and think shes perfect but they....do not know shes camming or that she likes women...so thats gonna be...very interesting for her...she is also still in the works 4 me

as we know stephen and linda stotch DIE FOREVER marj literally does not have parents right now because they actually disowned her like now shes rich bc of cd ( they saved her life ) but before that all of the blondies house was working 74937493 as many shifts to cover marjs rent because they love her and her parents cut her off ily marj

dont...ask me abt creek....im sorry...u know im still gathering data

but? uh clearly tweeks home life was BAD clearly he is recovering from being secretly fed METH??????? HELLO BITCH????

and i actually think that growing up craig was on serious outs with his parents ( was it the autism?? ) but now hes actually very close with them. also, awawawww, they basically adopted tweek and call him son and everything <333 im crying tricia also loves tweek...so actually craigs trauma is mild i think...wow...amazing...nature is healing

....but he is on Stripe number....709327493274 tho...like he just replaces them and theyre always stripe...im crying...are u okay baby

but to answer your question...yes...yes it does.

ITS ALWAYS DARKEST BEFORE CRIMSON DAWN, LITERALLY BECAUSE THEIR EXISTENCES WERE BLEAK! <3 SLAY OLAY

-uncle nina, ceo of traumatizing sp characters

#sorry if this is unreadable i did my best #i am still working on a lot of the backstories #BUT ITS BC RM HAS SO MANY SIDE CHARACTERS #AND ITS HARD TO FOCUS ON THEM BC RAVENSTAN AND JERSEY KYLE NEED MY FULL ATTENTION #but dawg...raven...every part of his life...he can joke abt kwording himself all he wants he fucking earned it he did his dues #like he deserves peace and if he wants to have a raeger bomb wear his silly outfits and call kyle spanish pet names to relax he can do that #he has my permission for the horrors hes seen #kyle also can do whatever he wants bc he is in a prison of the mind and thinks hes clinically insane when hes actually the sanest person #like he is SOOOO CASSANDRA CODED like no one will listen to him everyone thinks hes a basketcase but hes RIGHt #ok kennys backstory is really interesting i cant really talk abt it but i can say its fucking sad and i cry buckets of blood for them #ok jimmys also made me sad i luv him i never thought abt it wow #NOT THOMAS AND LAURA ADOPTING TWEEK NOT CRAIG ADOPTING A NEW STRIPE EVERYTIME ONE DIES #THAT MADE ME LAUGH IM SORRY HE WONT TELL U ONE DIED EITHER U JUST SEE ONE LOOK SLIGHTLY DIFFERENT KSHLSD