#negative delusion

[lazypanda137]

No, game, noooo! Why this is even in a negative delusion, damn it!?

#chaos;child #c;c #miyashiro takuru #itou shinji #negative delusion

[ceilidho]

thinking of this price today…….

I saw a preview of a show awhile back where the premise is that this woman is keeping her former kidnapper locked up in her basement and using him to help her solve crimes, and in one scene he tells her he’ll only give her information if she tells him that she loves him. ……I don’t need to know anything more about this show, that made me GASP

#if you’ve seen it and you have negative things to say about the two main characters I’m NOT interested #I’m not gonna watch the show I just think that premise is so hot #I live in my delusions I don’t giiiiveeee a shit about what the show is actually like

[mondaymelon]

me n who ?!?!?!? ME N WHO GUYS ...

picrews: 1 2 3 4

mking silly girlfailure picrews are the only thing saving my sanity which took quite a number of blows today ( its hanging on by the measliest thread but i think its better to consider it go n e )

anyways i wanna make a silly tag game so we are going to make a silly tag game because in the wise words of martin luther king i think wait it was probably gandhi "be the change you wish to see in the world" arent i so cool guys im taking like the first step forward and :stareyes: ahahah

(no pressure) tags !! 🏷️ : @cienxpidity, @ilyuu, @anonbinaryweirdo, @suntoru, @tuesdayberries, @lume-nosity, @mrcrazyvillainvillainn, @ceneid, @amalythea, @xianyoon, @aeon-yao, @ryuryuryuyurboat, @auroratumbles, @snobwaffles, @the-white-void + everyone i probably forgot to tag (SPS IM SORRY) n anyone else whod like to join !!

#💬 ⌗ 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐜𝐭'𝐬 𝐫𝐚𝐦𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 . . . ✧ #i was in a very silly mood ( mental breakdown ish ) i cried like 16 times in the past hour and that's probably not a good thing but HEY #its fine #im so fine #im so #im so... #*perishes* #begone negativity #its time for me and my delusions #speaking of delusions i actually had the WILDEST Dream last night #and its so crazy because its like the first dream I've had in the past year that's not about a fictional character #yes im pathtetic #carrying on #and i was like escaping from t h e. m a. n i n t he. h a l l w a y #and i was like runnning away yk and then shrek comes over and helps me out by defenestrating me and so i land in some bushes and then start #like putting candy into a bag??? and im like HURRY UP SHREK HES GONNA COME AFTER US #and then i got to this like cult area #where it splits into two paths and i remember it so vividly because there was this gate security and i had to type in my student id to get #and so it opens up to this room and there's two pathways #the one to the right has this giant ass shrine golden statue surrounded by a bunch of children #and the one i go to has little cube spaces caved into the walls for like little decorations and a stair for like a lower other half of the #room #and theres a bunch of children and my irls #and so we break outta there yk #we escape #we get out #and we run into like osme shopping place #and my friend is planning to abandon me with her other friend and they're running away to china #but they refuse to take me with them (ultimate betrayal) #HELP edit but the tags didnt show up cause there were too many...

[letoscrawls]

Jean and Scott are getting married AGAIN?&&??&?&?&&?&??&

#hilarious #logan spreading negative energy and he's not even hiding it i love him #ROGUE CAUGHT THE BOUQUET SHUT UP #this is everything to me #also like i've read it's madness in the 97 show oh well i will just stay here in my delusions #x men the animated series

[transprince]

The amporas could be delusional. As a treat. For me.

#ftr im delusional #eridan with paranoia and alllll of them have delusions of grandeur... #i.e cronus thinking he was a fated wizard yk yk #IF ANYONE RESPONDS NEGATIVELY TO THIS POST. JUST BECAUSE ITS ABOUT THE AMPORAS. KILLING YOU WITH HAMMERS #im delusional and BASICALLY and ampora so. i know best.

[erotomanicpixiedreamgirl]

is it really erotomania when i know deep down this Old Man and i are going to meet AND i know he would also be deeply attracted to me bc who wouldn’t but like whatever time will tell stranger things have happened in my life. also concurrently i think well then what. what will come out of that interaction. so why am i constantly ruminating on it. So annoying

#like yeah my other delusions were delusions #but even after being on meds finding good coping mechanism changing my diet for my mental health and general growth etc #this notion has still remained #but it wasnt even normal erotomania it was something like #ive seen someone refer to it as persecutory erotomania #like erotomania but in the negative where it’s not all butterflies you think this person is AFTER you and wants to violate you

[dwtdog]

they’re 23 year old minor coding quackity we’ve lost the plot

fascinating

#cq.asks #q neg #discourse #never seen this much delusion until i saw twitter qolos #what the hell is up with them

[kkujo]

something i don't see people talking about is the way hyperfixations come in like stages and cycles like it's not just "i'm obsessed with this thing" it's like. euphoria from finding something new and it brings you so much joy and then as that initial dopamine rush wears off you start to get more and more down and feel isolated as you start to realise that no one else cares about it as much as you do and you feel silly for being so into it and the thoughts become repetitive and boring so you get more and more depressed and lonely and then you inevitably lose the hyperfix which leaves you drifting feeling miserable and hopeless until you start the cycle again. idk if i explained this well or if other people will understand but it brings genuine phases of euphoria and straight up depression and this is why i get annoyed when neurotypicals use words like hyperfixation to describe like, an interest. bc it's not. just an interest it becomes who you are and when you lose it it's like losing yourself and you spend so much energy thinking about it that it interrupts your daily life and it's so fucking draining 👍

#like if i see one more nt being like hyperfixation this hyperfixation that SHUT UP!! YOU HAVE AN INTEREST #talk to me when you stay up until 6am every night bc you can't fucking sleep bc ur thinking about it. #talk to me when you can't process emotions in a normal healthy way because you can only relate it back to your hyperfix #paired w madd especially it's IMPOSSIBLE to be normal about shit i swear 2 god because the second i'm upset or lonely it's straight back to #immersing myself in another world and being someone else and not facing my emotions instead letting 'someone else' deal with them #not just negative emotions yk it's anything it's fully immersive to the point i end up not knowing exactly who i am myself bc i'm rarely #myself in my head yk #and it's so isolating #and this is why i get mad when people use these terms lightly bc they don't fucking get it #oh you're hyperfixated? oh you're delusional? you're delulu? watch this #< guy who has delusions that all of his friends secretly hate him bc he's too insane abt xyz media and who feels alone bc no one else is as #into it even though it wouldn't be reasonable to expect them to be #like i'm constantly questioning whether all my friends are secretly against me & finding me annoying anytime i talk about it but it's fine #it's so fucking isolating #i'm not losing my hyperfix yet thank god but i am in the stage of like realisation where the initial euphoria has worn off and i'm like #fuck no one else gets it. no one else is thinking about it like i am. and it's so lonely #< like not to sound like 'i'm 14 and no one gets me' or i'm not like other girls or whatever 😭 #it's not me being dramatic i genuinely. know that no one else is spending every waking moment thinking about the things i am the way i do #and it's so incredibly depressing i can't even explain it in a way that will make sense #because i want to talk about it so fucking bad and i can't. even to my friends and gf who always listen i end up feeling annoying #and then i get genuinely delusional not like tiktok girl voice delulu like i genuinely start questioning my entire reality #just if i talk about something a little too much #bc i'm convinced i'm fucking annoying and no one gets it and they're thinking bad things about me #but i know they wouldn't. but it feels like they are #idk #anyways !

[clowngremlin]

basically made dinner all by myself today (older brother only seasoned our chicken breasts and i did the rest of everything)......i cooked raw meat which is something i don't do very often and was worried about, but everything turned out great!!! i also did my laundry today, took the dog for a walk and fed him and have been on top of making sure his water dish is always full, loaded the dishwasher with dirty dishes (idk how to turn it on, i'm gonna ask my dad how to do it when he gets home so i can begin to do it by myself!), did some drawing, wrote in my journal, and pulled myself out of a depressive spiral i was having earlier in the day!!!! really beating the "spencer can't take care of himself or do anything ever" allegations......

#the wretched gremlin strikes again #sometimes i'm like i don't think i was THAT unwell #and then i realize that like i was in fact that unwell #now that i'm like actually doing better #i know this probably all sounds kind of silly #because i'm almost 27 and have only just begun to do these things #but keep in mind i was dealing with unmanaged mental illness since i was like 14 #and also my dad is kind of a control freak so he never taught me how to do anything because he thought i'd do it wrong or not on par #with what he could do #like i've known how to do laundry since i was 13 BUT i also had no motivation to do anything like that due to my mental illness #sometimes i'm like i'm not doing better because i still sometimes hear faint voices or have paranoid thoughts #but like it's only been under extreme stress or like when i was really tired from not getting enough sleep #and also like i used to be like that all day every day #and i had a lot of problems with like negative symptoms and depression #like my room was a mess and i had piles of dirty laundry and garbage and even like rotting food in my room #and i was constantly being tormented by voices and seeing scary things and my delusions and paranoia and having panic attacks #and like the voices are a lot quieter and more faint now #and i don't see anything or feel bugs crawling on me anymore #and i only hear voices and have paranoid thoughts under extreme stress or tiredness like i said #ANYWAYS I'M RAMBLING SO I'LL STOP #tldr i am doing A LOT better and i am soooo proud of myself <3

[sovonight]

i was back on track to finish my soa playthrough for a while there--but then i reached xan's we-survived-bodhi celebration scene

#i knew it was coming but when xan actually said his first line i force quit the game. i'm so serious #the whiplash that comes with me writing & drawing my ace xadri delusions when meanwhile bg2 xan swans around as though he knows what i want #i know. I KNOW. that deep down he would gladly express his love differently if only he knew !!! #god just let me reach through the screen. either to have a civil conversation or to strangle him i'm not sure which #i might really have to break out the edits here i'm not sure i can survive this one as-is #'sovo it's just a massage and another implied sex scene' I KNOWWW #but it's like--*this* is how he expresses his joy/gratitude??? to radri??? who has thoughts and feelings i've built up in my head?? #and she's supposed to be into it??? when there's no way she can be??? and she would try so hard to make him happy #and she just has to. choose the negative option. 'not tonight xan'. for the MILLIONTH time #she WANTS to be with him! but just not like this! it's honestly killing me. i'm being forced into a miscommunication trope #with two people who can literally mind meld and read each other's emotions #i mean okay they can't really read each other's emotions at the moment BUT THEY STILL KNOW HOW TO TALK.

[theygender]

This has been on my mind for weeks and I talked to my therapist about it today and told my girlfriend about it too so now it's time for me to update the gay people in my phone: I may have schizotypal personality disorder

#this is like the equivalent of telling the bees to me #rambling #like ive been thinking about ever since i learned that autism shares a lot of similarities with schizophrenia and looked into that #and then learned about negative/cognitive symptoms and realized i related a lot to them #and then i learned more about schizotypal personality disorder and it was fuckin scary how much i related to it #what with the magical thinking and the severe social anxiety that doesnt go away when i get to know someone #and the ideas of reference and the eccentricity and the communication difficulties and the strange thought patterns #and then i specifically learned about avolition as a negative symptom which describes the exact thing thats ruining my life rn #and. i was scared to talk to my therapist about it bc i was worried it could be used against me somehow #but it was good to talk it out with her and get some additional perspective on whats going on in my brain #and if it means i could maybe possibly work on fixing the avolition and the social anxiety (my two biggest issues for years) #then it would be 100% worth it tbh. and its also kind of helpful to have some sort of framework to understand whats happening in my brain #funnily enough when i told my girlfriend (who was previously mis?diagnosed with schizophrenia and considering autism) #about it she related a lot too. so i guess we'll see how that goes #its. crazy how much of an overlap there is between schizospec orders and autism #i feel like i might should write up a post going into detail about different schizospec disorders to raise awareness #bc like. it is so much more than just hallucinations and delusions #in fact its not even required to have both of those for any schizospec disorder. some only require one and others dont require either #there is so much to the schizophrenic spectrum that i was unaware of and I'm sure that's probably true of other people too

[arowrath]

isnt anyone else scared

#text #transphobia #like we've got high profile politicians & reporters saying shit likr #'transgenderism is a social contagion and needs to be wiped out. i'm not calling for a genocide you cant genocide something that doesnt #exist. transgenders arent even a legitimate category of being we need to correct their delusions' like . #isn't anyone scared . new bills are being proposed and passed daily . they're trying to kill us . isn't anyone scared . #like what the fuck are we supposed to do #neg

[starryguykai]

so much love to all psychotic people. may we all find happiness and stability, and one day wake to a world thats kinder to us

#mine #started thinking about how much my delusions have negatively impacted my life and started crying. but i kept living anyway #i cant really articulate my thougths very well so im going to go lie down 👍

[endworldbroadcast]

what's psychosis like for you?

Brief and intermittent, usually lasting only a few hours at a time, rarely longer. They don't seem to happen spontaneously, instead preceded by triggers.

My psychotic episodes involve an intensification of my 'normal' perceptions [ typically, anomalous time and space experiences and discomfort/confusion with the distinctions between people including myself ] and in some cases delusions, usually either erotomanic or about being dead.* They are also accompanied by emotional volatility and hebephrenia.

In my case I'm fairly certain my psychosis was aggravated if not directly triggered by other certain neurological issues (and not a 'progression' of my schizotypy) because I wasn't always psychotic [ though I already had positive symptoms for a while ]; I started having psychotic episodes shortly after The Things That Happened.

I'm not sure if that's truly the case and if that has any actual bearing on the duration of psychosis, but I haven't really met anybody else whose episodes happen as quickly (and end as quickly) as mine. I am certain such people exist though.

*This one in particular only cropped up after a specific event where I almost died and was convinced I actually did, because I couldn't understand how I survived. There were other reasons why this in particular remains persistent even if I 'know' it is not real but I will not describe them right now.

Full-blown psychosis is rare enough and also barely bothers me so I don't ruminate on it much, now that I think about it.

#going to start using The Things That Happened as my euphemism for the shit that caused my cognitive decline now #d #negative symptoms aee significantly more disruptive than the ocassional delusion #schizoposting #schizotypal tag

[hisunfinishedsymphony]

if vamp get another notif about people using the wrong name for william and equating that fucker with my husband from normie twitter istw bite think she ' s gonna lose it . bweh . ick .

#⤹ tw 🎸 ab !! #⤹ 🎸 posting !! #⤹ tw 🎸 !! #⤹ mcyt twt my beloathed LEAVE MY SENPAI ALONE !!! / lh #⤹ sigh . well . what can ya do #radqueer #pro rq 🌈🍓 #rq community #rq safe #rq 🌈🍓 #rqc🌈🍓 #rad inclus #delulu #paraphiles please interact #pro delusion #pro comship #pro proship #pro para #⤹ / neg !! #⤹ senpai yap !! #⤹ kitty yaps !! #pro ship

[livelaughlovepedri]

why am I feeling hopeful that these losers can perform well tonight and win…

#maybe it’s because we haven’t played in the ro16 in a long time #or bc a lot of our players have never been in the ro16 and they have that extra motivation #or bc we have Gündo god that really knows how to perform in the ucl #or bc Napoli is in shambles #or maybe it’s just the 1am delusions 🤣 #anyways when I wake up in the morning I will go back to my negative self and have zero expectations