#nobody can handle it and nobody should

[ivan-fyodorovich-k]

I hate the medical profession and medical professionals so much

God I hate them

The entire rotten industry from the lowest insurance clerk to the most accomplished physician, fuck all of them

#same as any profession in which you have the power of life and death #you do not deserve it and you cannot handle it #politicians priests the police doctors educators #nobody can handle it and nobody should #why did God even create life #is this all just punishment

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Peeped the horrors

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #a-qing #xue yang #A-qing went 'there are horrors he is committing and I am going to peep them' and then faced horrors that she could not fathom #The fact she sees the evidence first hand but it genuinely is too much to handle is a lovely tragedy that betrays her youth #It is interesting that she clearly does have more knowledge than the lay person about cultivators and night hunts (possibly from xxc?) #she does mentally call out xue yang for using the right terminology (betraying his 'no one important' façade) #but corpse poisoning is...well....probably not something she could have known about #so instead she has to encounter this horrible and suspicious event and justify it to keep herself sane #Ah....that's not going into the really interesting ambiguity of xue yangs targets #the people he kills specifically slandered *all three of them* #Was it just for himself? Was there a sense of protectiveness over his two blind companions? #I don't want an answer. I love that it is ambiguous #And oh man. having the noble XXC do the killing is so deviously evil. What a loaded chekov's gun. #you know xxc is gonna have a breakdown over it *when* he finds out. Its all a matter of timing #ok ok funny tag time #I think little apple and xy should meet up so they can swap arson tips. Truly the power team nobody wants. Not even them. #they would fight to the death and little apple would *win* #EDIT: HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUE YANG

[a-local-idiots-shitpost]

I think the worst (best) thing Twst could have ever made is making Malleus just a little Lizard dude, like what do you mean the once silly looking little guy is destroying everything he can so his dad doesn't leave him??? you think I can take him serious??? the little guy who still throws a tantrum like he's an egg??? you want me to take this man serious???

#twst spoilers #spoilers #maybe spoilers #local shouldn't be allowed to think #like what do you mean I should take Malleus serious as a threat #like I know he's lashing out because nobody bothered to teach him emotional maturatiy #and is terrified on being all alone again because his Dad will leave him and his only friend that doesn't have anything to do with his #family or Briar valley leaves him #and he's scared of being alone again and nothing more than a glorified trophy #but like they also showed him as a silly little baby and I can't take him serious anymore because now all I can think about is him just #acting like a child #and I should stop because funny just goes back into sad territory because Malleus was never taught how to properly handle his feelings

[scalproie]

*shaking and crying* where is Urizen

#“monsterfucker website” they cant even handle the 20ft tall grotesque demonic half of a cambion #lowkey blame VoV for that. like I love that manga to death but god did the last chapter did not help the whole- #“V is his own person/is *the other half* of vergil (and not like. one half)” interpretation. bc then wtf was urizen for. #and tbh the game itself doesnt make it easy bc *obviously* we spend more time with V than with urizen. and then there's vergil's World of V. #and I guess its obvious both game and fans would focus more on the pretty goth bait and The Literal Best Character On All Time- #rather than mr. 1 dimentional boss fight demon but FUCK MAN now im pissed off that he is treated as unimportant- #and/or straight up forgotten that he even existed. like fuck he IS vergil's power. gone wild and without goal but he IS part of vergil #just like V is. and if V couldve “gotten his own character” during the time he was separated then why the fuck couldnt urizen? #<- sidenote I do not like the whole “V is/got his own character” thing. like no thats still vergil to me. #and yeah the last chapter of VoV fuck that up for me but im mainly of the opinion that- #if vergil exists. neither V nor urizen can. and vice-versa. #which imo SHOULD be the logical way but I guess nobody but me like urizen for what he is or represent. so its all about vergil and V #(who is STILL. FUCKING. VERGIL. TO ME. HNHNHNGNHN) #anyway whatever. #justice for urizen #tagging later

[maryse127]

Violently loving a piece of media despite its flaws is simultaneously the best and worst thing you can do because on the one hand I get to derive joy (and lasting emotional damage) from something other people hate on but on the other hand by loving it so much I am also extra upset about the wasted potential. Burdened with the "It would have been so fucking good if"

#final fantasy xv #there's a lot they could have handled better #but above all #i am so upset about Episode Aranea being cancelled #the whole time I was reading that section of Dawn of the Future was like #omg I want to play this why can i not play this #another downside is i get upset when i see people constantly shit on xv #like you dont have to like it (even tho you should) but at least dont constantly remind everyone you think it was bad #like when i was watching a speedrun of ffx and they asked chat about their favorite ff game and the runner said she loved how nobody said xv #you dont have to be mean like that #or even a ffxv speedrunner saying they hate the game #leave it alone

[seoafin]

NOOO TURN THEM OFF PLEASE 😭😭

#i can barely handle mao but you too niku!?!? #nobody should have my post notifs on my 4am thoughts go straight to the void #mt

[astro-b-o-y-d]

Me: Would it be in character for the Stans to not go into deep discussion about what happened with Bill during the nine months at sea? I mean, Ford probably wants to leave it behind him but he'd probably carry a lot of guilt after him not letting people in about Bill (outside of Dipper) almost cost him his brother's life. And I'm sure Stan would want him to talk about it, now that he has a chance to do so and now that they're together.

Me: But on the other hand, these men are Pines and are so emotionally stunted as a result of everything about their upbringing, and they've been separated for the majority of forty years. I can also see them just...going on an adventure at sea and punching the nearest kraken they can find as a means of getting out any bad emotions without having to actually talk about them.

#Hayley Writes Triangulum #The struggle of 'this is obviously not the right choice but they are people known for not making the right choice- #-so would it be a wrong choice they'd make?' is real #I mostly just need Ford to start relapsing into his old 'I have to handle this myself' behavior and Stan being like- #'Just LET ME HELP. That worked before!' #While also not entirely understanding the true depths of WHY Ford is doing this #Like yeah Bill is bad but Stan really has no idea just how deep that stuff runs for him #'What about the journal?' I assume those pages about Bill being his muse were ripped out; and will likely say as much in the fic #So Stan never saw them #I mean; Dipper could always tell him but look #Bill's just back out of nowhere; tensions are high; nobody is thinking as clearly as they should #The writer struggle of 'The solution to this is SO SIMPLE so how many of their bad decisions can I blame on stress/PTSD?' #Probably a lot #But there IS a limit

[jonny-b-meowborn]

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#sometimes i feel like if i died id be doing my mom a favor #because im useless #and i dont want to forever depend on her and her money but im too fucking useless to do anything about it #im desperate to move out so we can both live and breathe in peace but its not possible #i cant do it #i wouldn't survive on my own #i used to be somewhat suicidal mostly because i felt like i couldnt handle my life or like nobody cared about me #these days im becoming suicidal because i feel like i should be #i owe my mom getting out of her life one way or another #and the normal one isnt possible #like i dont want to die but i feel like i should #man i need therapy #and idk. money #i wish there existed jobs that wouldnt kill me but i dont think there are any #bee buzz

[seventeenlovesthree]

@izumikoushiroweek prompt: Assistant Tentomom

To quote this interview by Tri voice actors Mutsumi Tamura (Koushirou) and Takahiro Sakurai (Tentomon):

What was your impression of Tentomon in tri.?

Tamura: “My impression of Tentomon hasn’t particularly changed, but I felt like he was more of the ‘mama’ than ever (laughs). He was preparing food and snacks for everyone, and becoming the caretaker of the other Digimon...” Sakurai: “Somehow he ended taking the role of the ‘mama’ (laughs). But I think that part about doting on everyone probably has to do with the fact he’s with Koushirou.”

While they outright state that Tentomon has to take on the role of a mother to take care of Koushirou (as well), I still believe that this is actually (also) a (subconscious) trait he shares with his human partner - to at least some degree. He definitely must have taken after the protective, organizing - and even scolding - attitude Koushirou has been taken on towards not only the 02 kids, but basically the entire network ever since he was 13 years old... Even if one might argue that Tentomon is quite literally mothering Digimon like Koromon/Agumon all the time, while Koushirou has to be looked after in terms of self care just as much.

#izumikoushiroweek2022 #tentomon #tentomom #tento-san #koushiro izumi #koushirou izumi #izzy izumi #they're the mom friends of the group and nobody can tell me otherwise #they just handle that role differently #which is one of the many reasons why i believe koushirou and sora should be best friends #my edit #digimon

[whump-queen]

why did the ask cut me off and send it wtf]]

I was gonna say you'll be one of those parents that has like 40 dogs on leashes so theres like four mastiffs dragging you in front while theres a goldendoodle that doesn't wanna walk in the back + two chihuahuas in baby carriers

(continued from this)

this is fucking hilarious ohmygod

you and 🦝 pulling in front

@the-wind-anon is the chihuahua in a baby carrier

@itsmeblackcat is the golden doodle in the back that doesn’t wanna walk

#🐈‍⬛straight up ready to fight whenever coherent #ok I think you should for sure go in the fight ring #you too rock I think you can handle it like #big scratch you know #baby wind is NOT going in the fight ring final say that’s that on that. #nobody will lay a FINGER on them or I will go full yandere on their ass #answered asks #akias asks #akia river wedding #tormenting my anons

[aux-array]

dammit i really miss colorguard now 😭 i do have my rifle and saber now but i miss PERFORMING on a TEAM. spinning alone in my yard is fun movement and can help get emotions out but its not the SAME

#also i cant even do that until my hands stop being so painful all the time rip #🎼.txt #also unrelated. why does nobody remember i can push thru pain and brainfog...i should be the one handling work shifts not talan... #'oh well ur a teenager' so are some of our coworkers #'ur voice is different theyd notice' oh u think the alter whose entire role was performance sports cant fucking mask (aka PERFORM?)

[biff-adventurer]

FFXIV COMMUNITY WIDE FYI

-no one expects you to be perfect at rping a non-western character

-however, when rping a non-western character, you shouldn't be doing cursory research by itself

-it is not a high standard for people expect you to take ownership for writing racist tropes by accident. accept your mistakes and move on.

-it is not offensive if someone calls out an action as racist. that person respects you enough to tell you the truth. honor their respect.

-it is not ok to tell people not to feel offended by the mistakes you might make on this journey

-people will inevitably cringe when you get things wrong. it is a part of life. it happens when you learn languages not native to you.

-grow a thick skin. be humble when people offer their corrections.

-it's on you to learn how your character thinks and breathes through the lens of their culture, and how that cultural influence affects them as a person. take care not to literalize this, though.

-ffxiv does not present great examples of cultural knowledge. don't consider it gospel, but inspiration.

-read between the lines of cultural references in regions. be gentle with your assumptions. tread carefully on subjects you write.

-try to learn the irl history, what the irl people think of their own history, and how people talk about their own culture now. watch television, read books, look at philosophies in depth.

-i promise, the real world IS always relevant to the game world. you can't actually escape reality. sorry to be the one to tell you.

-if you don't know what a word means, try to find a different way to write about the thing. 100% of the time, you will find you have avoided doing The Racisms. speaking as an ex doer of The Racisms.

-don't be afraid to ask questions. you look dumber when you assume shit. you might look like a genius if you happen on the right questions.

-have pride in the fact that you are trying. every day, you're getting a little bit better. i'm proud of you for trying your best.

-if you aren't up for the challenge of straying from your comfort zone to learn new things, consider more familiar areas of interest.

-reblog to potentially save other fans of color from future discomfort

#ffxiv #ffxiv rip #final fantasy xiv #final fantasy xiv roleplay #ooc;; #i am SO tired of racism y'all #someone had the nerve to tell me that calling something racist is offensive #like BITCH NO. CALLING A SPADE A SPADE ISN'T RACIST. #DOING THE RACISM IS OFFENSIVE! #anyway i know nobody really cares about this shit #everyone wants to live their fucking oriental fantasy #but if you can't handle my hairy brown ass then you shouldn't be here #if you don't wanna fuckin learn about stuff and wanna stay a frog croaking in a well? you shouldn't be here #telling me my feelings are nbd when i'm literally offended is arguably the whitest thing anyone could do #anyway i love everyone who is just trying to get by out there. #this time i didn't bother pulling out my master's to that person b/c they already showed they didn't give a shit about me or my values #but no i'm not naming names #we should all be living as best as we can regardless #that's what final fantasy xiv teaches us - to try our best to do good no matter what #wherever we can #and to have compassion for everyone who is struggling

[writer-at-the-table]

So it turns out that "it may be wise to [see a specialist/try a thing/whatever]" is actually Doctor Code for "I think that you should/recommend that you do [see a specialist/try a thing/whatever]"

Which is the most nonsensical allistic bs I've encountered in a while.

You'd think that when discussing something as important and high stakes as health, the experts would want to be as clear and direct as possible to avoid any misunderstandings

But it turns out that is not the case at all :(

#actually autistic #actuallyautistic #health #healthcare #i thought i was fine handling the medical stuff myself #but apparently i need an allistic translator #because nobody can just say what they actually mean #what is so hard about just saying #i recommend #or you should #it may be wise #what complete passive bullshit #why be clear when you can be opaque and mysterious? #it's only potential kidney disease #nbd #ffs

[everythingsinred]

pls just understand this: type one and type two diabetes are two entirely different illnesses (they are both called diabetes bc the disease was named before scientists fully understood the causes and illnesses properly). first, lumping them together under “diabetes” (as in the joke and also treating them like the same disease) can be very harmful! the confusion can result in misunderstandings at best (like my sister not being allowed to eat cookies at parties even tho. yes she can eat cookies.) and misdiagnoses at worst.

type 2 diabetes happens gradually and usually later in life, bc the insulin is overloaded into the bloodstream over time and the cells stop responding as much to it, which means the diabetic isnt getting energy despite eating it. it can be potentially reversible with great effort but it can still be dangerous. changing your diet and exercising more helps a lot but it can still be harmful especially early on before diagnosis. 

VS type 1 diabetes is an auto-immune disease, usually diagnosed in childhood (hence why its sometimes referred to as “juvenile diabetes,” but bc it doesnt GO AWAY once ur an adult, that name is misleading), and it makes sufferers more susceptible to other illnesses. usually undiagnosed type 1 diabetics are severely underweight. basically your body is KILLING itself trying to destroy the insulin-producing beta cells bc it has been confused into considering them as enemies. 

so associating sugar overload with diabetes is stupid bc 1. type 2 diabetes happens over a long period of time, not from one sundae or whatever! and can be actually a backhanded comment tbh and is used to shame ppl for eating sugary foods. and 2. u begin to have dangerous misconceptions about the diseases, particularly about type 1. 

even doctors dont always understand the difference! my younger sister (dearest zoe), displayed all the obvious symptoms of type 1 and was severely underweight. my parents took her to the hospital and her pediatrician told my mom to try and fatten her up! my grandpa (a retired doctor from serbia) suspected that she could be diabetic and told my mom to get her tested and her pediatrician said theyd run the tests but that she probably wasnt diabetic (bc he was thinking of type TWO!!! TYPE TWO!!! shes so skinny how could she be diabetic??). my mom was literally making batches of fudge (!!!!!) to feed six-year old skinny zoe when she received the call that zoe probably had type 1 diabetes, with her pediatrician apologizing profusely.

we were lucky that our grandpa knew what type 1 was. other kids might not get a proper diagnosis bc for some reason not even doctors know all the info about these illnesses. (even tho theyre pretty common. ugh) zoe has had many issues with knowing more abt her illness than the doctors who are supposed to be treating her.

and in the us so many ppl die from diabetes (especially type 1) bc they RELY ON INSULIN TO LIVE (non-negotiable especially with type 1, even if you go on a “diet” so shut up about that) and when they run out because they cant afford it (even tho it is very cheap to produce and the inventor of synthetic insulin wanted it to be available to everyone) they fucking DIE, in their sleep or from ketoacidosis which is an incredibly painful condition. 

so before you make a stupid fucking “DIABETES” joke try to consider all the people suffering from it and how often children are misdiagnosed. think about how my sister has literally every rando idiot telling HER how to manage HER disease when they dont know SHIT who make the same dumbass jokes you do. shut up with the diabetes jokes im gonna skin u

#my sister has been told by strangers the following: #1. to just throw her insulin pump away bc she has a 'drug dependency' and wont be diabetic anymore if she does so #2. that she cant have cake/cookies/dessert like the other kids bc shes diabetic EVEN THO THATS LITERALLY NOT TRUE #she just has to take insulin and then she can eat the cookie jfc #3. been told the other day in her dining hall that she should have chosen other food bc her meal looked sugary #the guy proceeded to mansplain her own illness to her despite the fact that hes an idiot who doesnt know shit abt diabetes #4. she has been witness to TOO many diabetes jokes where she has to awkwardly explain that SHES actually diabetic and that the jokes are #stupid and inaccurate (which they are) and also like arent even funny in the first place?? #5. AND WORST OF ALL. for all the people judging her on how she handles her disease #or telling her how to manage it despite not knowing anything about it #NOBODY wants to accomodate her!!!! #nobody buy diet soda for her at parties but theyll buy vegan/diet accomodations for people who arent even ill #regular soda is a fast-acting carb #which means it can be dangerous for her to drink it even if she takes insulin (juice is also in this category) #so diet soda is best #AND YET zoe visits a friend or goes to a party and has to drink water when everyone else is drinking soda #which might seem like a small or unimportant thing but like fuck u?? why cant she have soda. buy her a small lil bottle! fuck you! #if ur gonna host a party and buy soda for everyone else why not for her too while ur at it??? if ur gonna accomodate the vegans and dieters #why not the LITERAL diabetic #no everyone would much rather tell her no than work WITH her #im very angry abt this actually my sister deserves better fuck everyone who doesnt take diabetes more seriously #ill kill u for joking abt it #im not gonna delete this i see way too many diabetes jokes on my own gd dash and maybe someone will actually read this #for zoe <3 dearest and beloved

[davidtennantpussytulpa]

somehow i have reached enlightenment where i am free of anger. all it took is for my mom to be so so mad at my dad and everyone and everything else in the world all the time to do it

#like. my moms making a HUGE cake and a bunch of cupcakes for her coworkers husbands birthday or whatever #and i usually help her with baking bc we both really enjoy it #so yesterday we made all the frosting and i made soft pretzels bc we thought it would be fun to use to make the handle on the beer mug cake #instead of using gum paste so i made like 10 or so normal pretzels and two that we could try and use for that #so we all didnt want to cook dinner and left to pick something up. and when we come back i saw my dad had eaten one of the fucking #specifially shaped ones. i was like im not even dealing with this now im fucking hungry and ate #then after we were all done my mom finally saw and was like did you fucking eat the differently shaped one #and my dad was like lol yeah 🤪 and she was like we were fucking using that for the cake #and my dad isnt even like oh im so sorry or anything he literally just. oh lol if it makes you feel better i gave half to the dog 🤪🤪😋!!! #usually i would be so fucking angry bc /I/ was the one who made all the pretzels in the first place but my body was like no girl we have to #shield ourselves from how upset your moms about to be #anyways. my dad just came in to my room be like ughhhh should i make another batch. and i was like well you dont have to bc i made two #so i guess we can go with that and hes like ughhhhh no i guess i will so your mom wont be mad at me 🙄 #im just. im just so fucking tired of my dad doing all this shit to either intentionally or unintentionally irritate me and my mom and then #acting like hes being fucking crucified bc EVERYONE IS AGAINST HIM!!!! when he refuses to apologize or even acknowledge that hes done #anything wrong. like i get nobody in this fucking family is good at talking abt anything but he just is so avoidant things have been piling #up for YEARS. #ugh. okay. done i guess i dont know im just so tired. i feel like i have to play fucking marriage therapist to these two bc he refuses to do #anything to try and make their lives not miserable

[fellasleepinbaltimore]

also I told him I cried about him and I wish I hadn't mostly bc it's cringe and also bc it literally just was like info he didn't need to know and that affects nothing except making me feel like a weirdo and like freaking him out which I know it did bc he jthyjuh just replies with funny two word things and like fhyjyjyygg why do I lose my mind over him it's so like... not it

he sent me a selfie of him and I received such a vile hit of dopamine...

#and it's like not gonna work out i feel like #and I'm just resistant to that #like there's been plenty of opportunities to just be like yeah lets let this die here #and like i literally cant? fthyjgu like idk i keep coming back to it #and i feel like im insane and alone in my insanity which is worse #and like it's nobody's fault!! thats the thing like i can be mad and resentful #but i literally walked myself up this hill??? #i think i just want more than like either of us can handle or is willing to do or can #it's so vile and ugly #and also not even important or the point or something i should be worrying about but i do from time to time #i have other shit to be doing that im not so??