#not st

[jvlianbashir]

that cat that scrunches its nose when it eats crunchy treats is a cornerstone of my mental wellness at this point

#luna....... #not st #doctor's log

[bisexualhairrington]

the whole plot of do revenge can basically be narrowed down to "i support women's rights but more importantly, i support women's wrongs"

#maya hawke #camila mendes #do revenge #not st

[buck1eys]

goncharov was THIS YEAR are you fucking w me rn

#tumblr wrapped #goncharov #genuinely i have lived a thousand lifetimes in this year #most of them mid and boring #not st

[nommedeploom]

okay actually i have another BE meme for you all, bc i sent my sister this post and went “IT’S THEM” and then she sent me this back. eat

#beyond evil #jwds #not ST

[flowercrowngods]

sometimes i wonder if i’m really mentally ill. my food doesn’t go bad, and my dishes don’t sit around longer than three days before i get to them. i change my sheets on the first of every month and do my laundry once a week. i put it in the wardrobe after at least a day. i go to the store to buy groceries every week, then i make food and eat it and separate my waste — plastics, paper, compostable organics and non-compostable “other”. i separate recycling and glass bottles. i wipe my surfaces and vacuum my room, i make my bed every morning, i air out my room and i water my plants and watch them grow, smiling at each new leaf winning the battle against all circumstances that want to keep life on the down-low around me.

sometimes i wonder if i’m really mentally ill when i see people unable to get out of bed let alone make it, when i see piles of dishes and laundry around them, when i see media portrayals of illness as nothing short of a disability. sometimes i wonder if that’s why i don’t get help. when i get grades no lower than a B, when i go to work and seem to all of society like a functioning member, like another cog in the machine flying under the radar.

sometimes i wonder if maybe i should stop doing the dishes. sometimes i wonder if i should stop washing my clothes, if i should stop getting any grades at all, if i should stop going to work and not get out of bed. sometimes i wonder if that’s what it takes for anyone to see. to see that there’s no joy to be found within these walls. no point, no reason, no purpose. no ambition, no hopes, no dreams.

sometimes i wonder what it means to be mentally ill, because obviously i am not. i’m too self-aware, too functional, not doing badly enough. the air constructing in my lungs is not bad enough, the tremor in my hands thinking about tomorrow is not bad enough, the hopelessness residing in the centre of my being is not bad enough, the pointlessness of everything not strong enough, the thoughts of dying not secret enough.

because i do my dishes. i eat my food before it goes bad. i have fresh clothes each day. i go to uni, i go to work, i water my plants and watch them grow.

i am not mentally ill. you will not find me on the screen. you will only read about me in an obituary.

— thoughts of a crazy person

#blah #actually mentally ill #cw depression #not st

[givehimthemedicine]

just had a horrifying family lore conversation with my grandmother and now I need to ask: did your family have an official barf bowl for when you were too sick to get out of bed in time?

if it was a bowl/pot from the kitchen, did it return to active use in the kitchen once washed?

#not st #vomit tw #just learned the only reason I haven't been served food out of The Bowl is because my grandma is too old to cook #she sees no issue as long as it's washed 💀💀💀 #10 votes in and I'm already aghast #do you all just not hoard old ice cream tubs etc #why does it have to be an Actual Kitchen Bowl

[cannibalismyuri]

something visceral just happened to me because of nimona's backstory and how it's Such a good trans allegory. first we have the almost obvious metaphor; “i wouldn't die die, but i sure won't be living” which is such a glaringly real feeling that so many trans people emulate, because nobody would die of not being recognized as who they are, nobody would die of not presenting as their true self, but you wouldn't be living. and really, what's worse?

it lines up so perfectly with the motif of ‘when so many people see you as a villain that's all you can be in their eyes’ because Oh My God. people see nimona as a monster, because she is different. people don't see her, they see something to make them heroes. they see something different and they see something bad. which makes the scene with ballister and nimona where he tells her he sees her even when she's overcome by the sheer hatred the people have for her being even more hard hitting but im not ready to cry so we won't talk about that.

and the scene where gloreth tells her to “go back to the shadows from where she came” is even worse because it explicitly showed us that hatred of the different isn't just always there. it's learned. gloreth was the first person who she could be with who accepted her as she was. we get to see that whatever species she shape-shifts to; nobody ever accepts her. but gloreth wanted her despite her not being fully human, inspite of her being different, maybe a little but because of it. but then we see the sword scene, which solidifies so many trans peoples' fears; that they will be shunned for their otherness. for their differences, which were so readily accepted by the innocent, untrained mind, they will be treated as an outcast. because the same innocent minds will be trained to hate them because they are different.

anyway i'm just over here crying about how painfully and explicitly real of a trans allegory nimona is, ok thx 👍

#sara says #nimona #nimona netflix #nimona 2023 #nimona film #not st

[steveshair-robinshood]

tua s3 spoilers without context :

#tua #tua s3 #luther hargreeves #five hargreeves #not st #klaus hargreeves #viktor hargreeves #allison hargreeves

[hawkinslibrary]

#progress ? #probably still a ways to go #even if the wga and amptp are closer to a deal #there’s still sag aftra #here’s hoping things go well tomorrow #not st #wga strike

[rogueddie]

#not st #sos #I have terrible decision making skills

[jvlianbashir]

"haha these alpha trad men really just have dom/sub kinks!" i know misogyny isn't real to a lot of you guys but did you know that some people just actually do genuinely think women are inferior creatures

#i dont normally make posts like this but ive seen MULTIPLE??? posts floating around that are meant as jokes saying #'haha *deeply misogynistic attitude/institution* is basically just kink! ;P' #and no one challenging it or if they do theyre seen as buzzkills or anti-sex/anti-kink #well im neither of those and i keep seeing it and its getting to me #not st #doctor's log

[bisexualhairrington]

the holy trinity of "silly little highschool girls go psycho" movies:

heathers (1988)

mean girls (2004)

do revenge (2022)

#all about two decades apart 🥰 #not st #heathers #mean girls #do revenge #maya hawke #camila mendes

[spectrum-spectre]

Sepia, cider and sky. For no reason at all im patting you on the head - ent

"you seem like you had a hard time in high school" jshdlbfjghs homie you don't even KNOW 😂

#also i don't understand why you turned on Anon but still signed the ask? #ask game #not st

[nommedeploom]

watch beyond evil.

#beyond evil #not ST #i spent an hour and a half making this meme #so now you all get to see it

[flowercrowngods]

because you, my pocket friends, liked my first try, here’s baby’s second acrylic pour 🤍

(bigger canvas this time; 30x40cm

#art #not st #acrylic pouring #i wanna do a stranger things themed one next. maybe let it dry and write on it. or draw the mind flayer and then pour below it #this is about to become and art blog for like 2 weeks of special interest i’m sorry #my roomie did a blue and rose pastel one and it looks so pretty!!! like marble!!!

[hammity-hammer]

THIS PICCREW IS REALLY CUTE AND FUN i am collecting babies in jars like pokemon (i keep forcing my friends to do them and send them to me so i can keep them)

i would love for everybody to do it and show me your babies !!! Also-- we made ourselves as babies so yeah

HERE IS BABY AJ IN A JAR!!!

#ham thoughts #baby in a jar frfr #not st