#nyx rambles.☽༊˚

[turtledovenycx]

Idk why I’m saying this here but one time I cried bc of how beautiful Chan was, it was a very humbling and universal moment for me. That’s it, thank you.

Hi anonnie 🤍

I'm happy you said it here. I'm sure many of us on Stayblr can relate to this emotion. I've had celebrity crushes the infatuation stays for a week or two, and then it fades.

But Bahng Chan... How I feel for him is a different emotion in itself. I know reality, I know he will never be mine but it still doesn't change the way I feel. I would choose him again and again in every universe in every circumstance.

Anonnie, I understand how you feel the most... I'm an emotional person and I react deeply. I've cried so many times too. I cried when I saw his face the first time he won the award. I've cried when I saw how hard Chan worked to become who he is today, I've cried during Chan's room and cried so much when it had to be shut down, and I've cried when I think about how beautiful he is inside and out. I've cried because I am so proud and happy to be able to live, breathe, and admire him. I am overwhelmed with what I feel for him but at the same time, it calms me.

How can he be this beautiful? Like how? He is so handsome. Even if he believes differently. If I could, I would cherish him every day, and give him so much affection till he believes it himself. Channie is so handsome. He is the dream of many out there, he is mine I know that. His eyes- they crinkle when he smiles, his big nose that I've grown fond of- his nose is one of his insecurity but to me, it is the cutest thing I've seen, his plush lips, his cheeks, his smile lines, his dimples, his hair, body, arms, fingers, legs, everything!! god, I love this man so much. I love his smile and laugh... I'd die

However, Channie is more than handsome. His beauty is not limited to his physical features. I could say a million things about his features and millions more about his character and personality. Trust. The trust the team has in him, the trust the boys have in their hyung, he is their boulder you can't tell me otherwise. I picture him being there for the most mundane things without complaint. The way he cared for each one of them in the way they needed. He calms Jisung when he is anxious, and defends Changbin. Channie makes Seungmin believe that his voice is of an angel and that Minnie's smile is the best, he literally raised Jeongin. Chan is Minho's only hyung, He is Felix's best friend and Hyunjin's comfort. Us stays don't have to worry about whether the boys are taken care of. I know they are well taken care of and loved by their leader.

His soul. I have cried so much thinking about his soul. Chan has the kindest most beautiful soul I just know it. He has endured and he is wise. He is humble reminding us that to be perceived and respected you have to be down to earth. I've seen men at their best and their worst. I've experienced the worst most of my life but Chan made me believe that there were good and bad people, I was just stuck among the bad ones. He made me feel appreciated even though he was speaking generally, he made me feel valid, and he made me feel seen.

Some people can't understand that and I don't blame you, But if you have been through what I have been through, if you were in the darkness like me I think you would understand why I fell in love with a man who doesn't know me. I cry when he is sad, I cry when I'm proud of him and I cry because I love him. I hope he will learn to love himself soon.....

So love, I want you to know that when you feel the most humbling and universal moment, many are there with you. I am there with you. He truly is one of the best humans out there. I love him and I will continue to do so. He saved me, he saved a lot of us.

I kind of got carried away but I'm not really sorry. I love him, words are not enough, sentences are not enough, and pages won't be able to cover it.

_nyx.☽༊˚

#stray kids #skz #✮⋆˙sweet anonnies 🩶 #nyx replies🤍 #nyx rambles.☽༊˚ #bang chan #bang chan fluff #bang chan thoughts #oh how I love this man #chan skz #skz fluff #Channie #christopher bahng

[nyxiens-art]

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I will ignore/delete your asks for money regarding health issues. I am not a doctor and I do not have money to just hand out because people ask for it. I do sympathise with the situation you're in but do not come to me for funding. I'm not comfortable about you disclosing your personal needs in-depth, let alone to me- someone who is an absolute stranger you only just met on the internet and know so little about.

I can only provide comfort and you may (anonymously) vent to me about your FEELINGS about the situation, but talking to me about needing funds for medical care is a no-no and even I will tell you to talk to an actual doctor who may, or can, help you.

Please, for the love of god, do NOT advertise in my asks either.

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Hello and welcome to my main blog! My name is Nyxien but feel free to call me "Nyx" too. I am a 19-year-old Digital Artist who adores designing & drawing human-animal hybrids. I do not often draw furries and I won't take any furry trades/commissions, I apologise.

(keep reading has more info!)

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I am a huge Genshin Impact fan and will post Genshin Impact content, such as gaining characters from wishes & screenshots of characters in some places that are pretty. I like only a few characters out of the entire collection, which are Il Dottore, Arlecchino, Wriothesley, Neuvillette, and Kaeya.

Hoyoverse UIDs! (America) Genshin Impact: 672267900 Honkai Star Rail: 616468242

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I do my art via digital means and the program I use is Medibang Paint. I use a mouse to draw with a 23-25 stabiliser setting.

I am not taking trades or commissions currently. I'm focused on other things- like finding a job to do IRL to save up for college &

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There is a wolf game I am working on in Roblox titled "Rise of the Guardian Wolves." This game follows a story I have created about an island inhabited by wolves who are under dictatorship by a god. A faction, known as "Guardians", is seeking attempts to displace the god from her "throne." The story is more in-depth, but that is the general summary!

My other project is Black Tides, containing a majority of my human-animal hybrid characters in a world called "Exadia".

#◆ nyxien's howls #genshin impact #digital artist

[isalinyx]

TAGLIST!

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[turtledovenycx]

Since everyone’s going thru winter depression, have some random pics I found in my camera roll, to ease your mind 😌💍

Marry me !

Don't think I didn't notice the more number of Minho pics ... Also who decided to cut off Minho's hair I wanted more of it </3

Look at Hannielooking so .... *thinking of a perfect word) EDIBLE ?!!

and my Minnie <333

I love them sm

I needed this... my mind has been eased <333

#nyx rambles.☽༊˚ #kpop #stray kids #skz x reader #skz #skz smut #nyx writings.☽༊˚

[turtledovenycx]

What happened to hyunjinfairy omg 😩

Had to do a recheck on this </3

annonie I’m not sure what happened I’m just as confused too 😫

hopefully we hear from her soon I really love her work I’m bummed 🙁

_nyx.☽༊˚

#nyx replies🤍 #nyx rambles.☽༊˚ #kpop #skz smut #skz #kpop fanfic #stray kids #skz x reader

[turtledovenycx]

My followers number going down as I block the bots and untitled blogs out but hey! at least I have a lot of genuine people with beautiful blogs and styles following me HUHU

#stray kids #kpop #nyx rambles.☽༊˚ #skz smut #kpop fanfic #skz x reader #stray kids smut

[turtledovenycx]

I miss writing *dramatic tears* I am not feeling motivated, but with all these ideas in my head, I have to note them down!!!

What do I do? I keep getting distracted and it's a mess, I'm busy with my college application and exhausted. I missed almost all the new content from the boys I'm actually gonna cry.

I need a break I NEED TO WRITE!!!

Help me @comet-falls? @noellllslut? my other beautiful babes?

#kpop #stray kids #nyx rambles.☽༊˚ #kpop fanfic #skz x reader

[turtledovenycx]

I know its been a while and I don't know who is seeing this, but

hey *flynn rider smolder*

I know it's been a while so.

How you doin'?

Oh Me? I'm doing shit babes absolutely shit, don't have time for anything besides fucking panic attacks and depression. but I hope you are doing better.

Just wanted to drop in the few minutes I have where I am not worrying about university and moving countries.

Anyone wanna distract my inbox are open for messages.

*Whisper-crying* SOMEONE COME AND TALK TO ME!!!!

Kinda wanna rewatch Tangled. ooh and Hometown cha cha cha oh wait I wanna sketch too, and also finish some dramas.

I wanna watch Alice in borderland too......................

Was wondering why my ADHD didn't kick in there it is :)

#kpop #kpop fanfic #skz x reader #nyx rambles.☽༊˚ #stray kids #crying but writing stuff for attention #I need someone #skz

[turtledovenycx]

Announcement 📢

Hey guys!

So how have you all been? all good? I hope so. So, I am, back from the dead... well kinda. This official announcement will mark three things. namely:

✩ I am NOT officially active yet, I still have to work out a proper schedule to write and post. I just moved out of my home to another continent therefore please bear with me! I have a lot of things to tend to, my studies, travel, accommodation, taxes, expenses..... Everything. I have to start from scratch in a new city with no friends or other support except distant relatives. It's hard.

✩ This should have been first but I want to extend my love and gratitude to these lovelies @noellllslut, @comet-falls, and @hearts4i-dle. They have helped me so much through this ordeal.

Moving out and away is hard but y'all made it easier by just talking to me or always just checking up on me. I appreciate you so much mwah mwah!

I would also like to mention some of my dearies on this blog like @daughterofodine who took the effort to talk to me! Thank you for reading and sticking with me. To all my followers who didn't lose their faith and have been patient for a new update, I appreciate each and every one of you. It means so much.

✩ The main announcement. I have a few new works in progress plus my back log. I will be completing Midnight runs with the blue haired boy series. The final part is in the making along with that I have two new works and many ideas in my drafts.

Introducing :

1) Promise to love you - Bang Chan 2) For blood and love - A Kim Seungmin Series

my two new almost done works which will be posted soon.

✩My updates are still gonna be slow as I don't have much finished works.

I will also be writing ff on Minho - I have this idea but it's still in the making.

Also to add to that to keep you guys engaged or curious I will be posting sneak peeks of the new works.. but like I said updates still will be slow so I apologize in advance.

That's about it lovies

Enjoy your day !

I will be online till the 21 of February so feel free to come and talk to me in my inbo or on chat <3

Have a good afternoon bye !!!!

#nyx writings.☽༊˚ #nyx rambles.☽༊˚ #nyx replies🤍 #skz #kpop

[turtledovenycx]

My flight is tonight brrr......

I'm really scared but hopefully I'll be able to write something on the plane because on-air I'm motivated af hehe

that how I wrote Stay with me - Changbin

will be writing a 15 page ling journal entry too to collect my thoughts I also got a haircut and I really like it <333

#nyx rambles.☽༊˚

[turtledovenycx]

hey everyone

how are all of you? fine I hope ???

This is a small announcement sorta thingy so bear with me ....

Thank you to everyone who has stayed with me and followed my work I appreciate each and every one of my followers and I say this with gratitude from the bottom of my heart 💖

Speaking of followers, I noticed an increase in the number of untitled blogs that have been following me. Guys, it's hard to differentiate between a bot and a genuine reader who may be shy or lazy to put something on their blog. Nevertheless, I will be giving you a day or so to put at least an age indicator or something on the title just so I can ensure that you're not a bot. After this time, I will be blocking untitled blogs, no exceptions!

if you have empty blogs with a title and I think you are a genuine person I will let you follow me but I suggest interacting and filling your blog with things you like. It's really easy to reblog and say your comments to people, and it's wholesome, trust me when I first began reading on Tumblr I was shy af, I wouldn't reblog or interact much, but once I gathered enough courage and began reblogging I really started to feel like part of the community and it was wonderful.

Many wonderful creators nitpick through every work just to find a comment or reblog appreciating their hard efforts so fill your blogs make them pretty and make your favorite creator happy. I highly recommend it <333

I will be opening a tag list soon so look forward to that heh

That's pretty much it!

Thank you again to all my new genuine not-bot beautiful gorgeous hoomans😍 even if we don't speak or I may not know your names I love each one of you and I mean it.

Thanks for giving my blog a chance

my inbox and messages are always open to anyone who wants to chat 💞

_nyx.☽༊˚

#skz #stray kids #nyx rambles.☽༊˚ #kpop #skz x reader #nyx replies🤍 #skz smut #kpop fanfic #nyx writings.☽༊˚ #announcement sorta

[turtledovenycx]

hey happy new year!

do you by any chance know what happened to @/hyunjinfairy ?

happy new year darling 🩵

no I don’t know what happened to @hyunjinfairy I can’t find her blog or anything… 💔

really confused and really sad too she was a great author! maybe she is just taking a break ? Or changing her blog aesthetics I hope to hear from her soon :(

_nyx.☽༊˚

#skz smut #skz #nyx replies🤍 #stray kids #kpop #nyx rambles.☽༊˚

[turtledovenycx]

Happy New Year to all my lovely followers, my sweet annonies, my wifey moots, and everyone else on stayblr 🫶

(here is to me hoping this year won’t be a shit show like the last one. don’t disappoint me 2024!)

#4 years with skz and counting #2024 better be lucky af #nyx writings.☽༊˚ #nyx rambles.☽༊˚ #stray kids #kpop #Wish everyone has a great year

[turtledovenycx]

so...... with how inactive I've been (please don't be mad y'all) no new posts are coming out any time soon....... @noellllslut sorry honey ily

But i do have some new ideas on work in progress but right now I do not have the time or energy to write.

I'll try to restart again, but not until I have moved out from my parent's place, started classes and settled down in my new room </3

sorry guys didn't mean to dissapoint (that is if anyone ever sees this post...)

putting Quokka Boy here so the anger dissipates thank you guys I'll see you soon 💖

edit: I will be reblogging stuff if any of you are on my reading blog ...... hehe okay bye xoxo

#nyx rambles.☽༊˚

[turtledovenycx]

I'm tired.....

but it'll pass and I'll be okay.

#nyx rambles.☽༊˚

[turtledovenycx]

new I.N fic posting today (aaaaaaah)

I know I said it was gonna be Felix or Seungmin but I got distracted and can we talk about the comeback I.N can you blame me?!!!

anyway, hope you guys enjoy it <333333 please show a lot of love 🤍

#nyx rambles.☽༊˚ #nyx writings.☽༊˚ #kpop #stray kids #kpop fanfic