#obviously thats. not easy

[q-kanbas]

how invasive of a surgery can i opt into: questions for my gynecologist in 2022

#me walking into the clinic: heeeeeyyyy kim can you just like. do me a solid? #can you just rip this fucking thing out of my body #i think she'd maybe be open to it #maybe #shes one of the few healthcare providers who took my asexuality at face value and doesn't blink when i get older and older and still havent #had sex like every other person in healthcare i've had to mention it to #maybe if i begin medically transitioning #obviously thats. not easy #but at least it would get this thing that nearly drove me to suicide at fucking 15 out of my body #before i loose the right to medicate it into oblivion #text #i don't even know if this is somehow offensive #this is my own blog and i've been having heart palpitations for days now from stress over the *thought* of having to deal with it again #i nearly had a breakdown when i forgot my pills at home when at college #it fucking hurts #it made me so weak i couldn't walk up the stairs in my house or stand for longer periods of time #even now i still get twinges of pain and my back hurts in a cycle #my ibs flareups are rooted in how severe the hormonal fluctuations are *on hormonal medication* #i'm an adult now #i wouldn't be able to survive #and i don't think i would want to at that point #anyway welcome to anxiety #theoretically i could get an endometrial ablation but that wouldn't fix the hormones #i turned into another person

[darcyolsson]

panic at the discos three viciously different songwriting formations have accidentally created this really interesting thing in their discography where if youre familiar enough w the band you can easily tell who wrote which songs within the first 30 seconds

#if it's covered in layers upon layers of cynical metaphors and has a general air of humility it's ryan #if it's lyrically fairly straight to the point and about (delusions of) grandeur and/or very obviously written on a piano it's brendon #and dallon is like. idk how (ha ha) to put it into words sometimes its as simple as 'brendon urie does NOT know the word libertine' #but generally it's more like 'the melody on the 3rd line of the prechorus feels distinctly dallon weekes' and then it is him #he has a very specific writing style thats very easy to recognise but only if ur insane enough & have digged through his entire discography #by downloading shady mp3s and listening to youtube lyric videos uploaded in 2008 #personal #p!atd

[socksandbuttons]

I AM STARING AT KC. WHILE WATCHING THIS LAES EPIOSDE.

Yall really threw away something there for this kinda plot BUT SURE.

#'if i cant do it the easy way ill do it the hard way' IMMEDIATE FLASHBACKS TO THE FACT THE CREATOR CAN JUST... #SAY THE CODE OR WHATEVER AND FORCE THINGS. yknow like what eclipse did to lunar! BEEN A HOT MINUTE SINCE THATS BROUGHT UP #also apparently never told sun OR moon about that LORDY BUDDY. the things they totally couldve used kc for in regards with earth #IT TRULY COULDVE GREAT AND EXPLORED A BIT MORE ON EARTH SITUATION. I get sun and moon know first hand obviously #but also we had diect example of the creator doing exactly what hes done with kc before #AND KC WAS FIGHTIN THAT #Earth wasnt aware enough to do that. #anyway wheres MY COMIC #lunar and earth show spoilers #a good episode BUT ALSO JUST Ill rewrite canon here dont u worry #we're doing it anyway

[samarecharm]

Endlessly tickled by the idea of Akira being a good shot but a shit gamer. I like to think its cause hes got incredible hand eye coordination and super steady ‘surgeon’ hands; hes very good with precise movements, but panics when he has to do brain melting inputs. His brain can keep up but its hard to make his hands follow suit. Its why u can have him be dogshit at arcade cabinets; panicking with the little joystick and button mashing like mad, while having him be a beast at things like darts and billiards.

The only arcade games he can play is house of the dead-esque shooting games (hes literally at the top of the leaderboards for MILES and he draws crowds whenever he plays) and DDR cabinets (hes just very light on his feet)(NOT to be confused with stepmania; he would die if he had to do arrow inputs with his HAND). Its kinda fun to watch him fumble with the other silly gimmick cabinets, but its more entertaining to watch him do what hes good at. If u take him to play darts, and if the darts are super cheap, he will absolutely try his best to split them down the middle each time. Doesnt always work, but its insane to know that he lands the bullseye literally 100% of the time.

#chattin #akira #i just think. having him play games like how my uncle plays games is a silly visual #hes also Tall #so hes like as tall as the fucking machine and shaking it like crazy. hes dying. help him. #but hes never like. hmm #i guess self conscious about looking silly? it doesnt even occur to him bc hes so focused on smashing inputs #so ryuji can take him to the arcade all the time and never get a sore loser for a teammate or rival #on the flipside. he is so good w knives its scary #and like. anything sharp. and anything thats a projectile tbh #if u took him to do archery i think he would love it. #but for now hes got Baseball and Darts. and hes good at Both. #i know royal has him playing darts or something w goro?? #i think its cute. also funny. goro would lose miserably and get so fucking tight. like alright. im not taking u here anymore. #akira opts to just watch bc he didnt think he was going to hang out w a sore loser #and goro HAS to challenge that. obviously. #like *clenched fist* ‘no. i insist. were here for a. good time. friendly competition is. healthy.’ #*clenches jaw so tightly u can hear it pop* ‘another round? ‘ #thinking about it; turnbased rpgs would be perfect for him. hes very bad at action games and fighting games #so playing games that dont demand that from u would be nice for him. #rhythm games would be easy too; the focus isnt on the hands but the beat #he doesnt have to THINK about hand inputs #MAYBE racing games would work too? but high speed racing games like burnout would be too much for him i think #and depending on the TYPE of shooter; fps games would be bad; third person shooters even more so

[puhpandas]

Wait what type of nose does Gregory has in his models?

heres a good pic! i try to translate this into my artstyle but i might double down on it more

#gregory just has a distinct face #very easy to make him not look like himself in art #obviously ive already crossed that line because of my design for him #ive had it for so long it wont feel like him anymore if i change it #not that i want to #but ill make little changes here and there #i just like trying to make characters look like themselves and translate their faces into my artstyle #evan was free reign but also his design is as old as my gregory design #so it could definitely look more like his sprite but like. thats evan. idc #pandas.txt #pandas talks #pandas asks #gregory #this pic is from old security breach multiplayer title screen btw

[skrunksthatwunk]

an observation:

#going on ao3 and seeing the most heartwrenching complicated bittersweet unhealthy shit for kazumaji bc that's how they are #then scooting over to the tiny ichinan corner like hi :) i think they likes each other. i think they should have a lil kiss about it mwah #it's a little jarring and ultimately makes me giggle and kick me feet n such #it's because SOMEONE around here can express his feelings. not naming names but it makes a difference #anyway i made a meme to express myself and am now sharing it on the internet. proceed accordingly as desired #rgg #ryu ga gotoku #kazumaji #ichinan #yakuza #ylad #yakuza like a dragon #and obviously theres i think they likes each other mwah content for kazumaji as well it's just #well fundamentally it's a little different because of the stalking and attacking stuff #but thats the kazumaji charm babeyy #they gotta fight out their feelings instead of talking bc theyre annoying and whatever #whereas ichiban is like NANBA. I CARE ABOUT YOU :(( and nanba cries and thats like. so easy guys cmon #cant teach an old dog new tricks ig. OR an old dragon #eyyyheheyy

[cacturne]

“Carmine is not the worst” and “kieran is not the worst” are statements that can and should co-exist

#Its always either “carmine did nothing wrong kieran is a stupid unhinged brat!” Or “kieran did nothing wrong carmine is literally abusive!!” #No. Theyre not. Neither of them are. Theyre just nd/mentally ill and cope with it badly #Its really not that hard come on #Also as an older sister with a younger brother a lot of the mean dialogue is pretty typical #Obviously that doesnt negate the fact that for kieran it hit him in his issues but he never spoke up about it and kept it to himself #And carmine is pretty dense and a bit in her own head so it makes sense that she wouldnt notice without being directly told #And with her specifically its made clear in dialogue throughout that she does care about her brother #She thinks about how in her mind things might affect him and chooses what she thinks is the option that wont hurt him. Though obviously #shes not the best judge there. But thats understandable she isnt very good at reading people #And kieran just doesnt know how to cope with his problems. When stuff gets too much he bursts and lashes out. A normal thing for a teenager #Obviously this now frightens carmine and she starts backing down distancing herself and generally just closes up around him #Because while she is abrasive she doesnt really *realize* she is. And its easy to see kierans abrasiveness as something inherently hostile #(Because even if he doesnt really mean it it still is aggressive) #Hey wait a second why am i infodumping about kieran and carmine pokemon in my tags #This is like the worst way to do it. Sorry cutting it short ty for reading if you did #ghosts howling

[scalproie]

*shaking and crying* where is Urizen

#“monsterfucker website” they cant even handle the 20ft tall grotesque demonic half of a cambion #lowkey blame VoV for that. like I love that manga to death but god did the last chapter did not help the whole- #“V is his own person/is *the other half* of vergil (and not like. one half)” interpretation. bc then wtf was urizen for. #and tbh the game itself doesnt make it easy bc *obviously* we spend more time with V than with urizen. and then there's vergil's World of V. #and I guess its obvious both game and fans would focus more on the pretty goth bait and The Literal Best Character On All Time- #rather than mr. 1 dimentional boss fight demon but FUCK MAN now im pissed off that he is treated as unimportant- #and/or straight up forgotten that he even existed. like fuck he IS vergil's power. gone wild and without goal but he IS part of vergil #just like V is. and if V couldve “gotten his own character” during the time he was separated then why the fuck couldnt urizen? #<- sidenote I do not like the whole “V is/got his own character” thing. like no thats still vergil to me. #and yeah the last chapter of VoV fuck that up for me but im mainly of the opinion that- #if vergil exists. neither V nor urizen can. and vice-versa. #which imo SHOULD be the logical way but I guess nobody but me like urizen for what he is or represent. so its all about vergil and V #(who is STILL. FUCKING. VERGIL. TO ME. HNHNHNGNHN) #anyway whatever. #justice for urizen #tagging later

[eebie]

people who act like liking.or dare i say sympathizing with spot as a character is a moral failing

#stop treatin fictional characters like real people You are killing your media literacy #he’s a SYMPATHETIC VILLAIN THATS THE ENTIRE POINTT #like why are you boring as fuck do you want it to be clear who’s good and who’s bad Do uou want no complexity of character #(jesse voice.)​there’s heaven and hell in all of us Bitch!!! #sorry this has been in my heart for a bit😓 #my rambles #like obviously if he was a real dude acting like how he did in th latter half of the movie he would fucking suck #but he’s not #its ok ….*talking like im calming a spooked horse* easy now Settle down #nobody is agreeing with his actions man Like killing ppl 💀💀💀 But the fact that he was originally a decent guy #driven by shit hand after shit hand to do these drastic and awful things is INTERESTING !! #an relatable in a sense Nobody is perfect and although not 2 the point where theyre causing hundreds if not thousands of deaths #but at a smaller scale like snapping at someone uou care about because u r stressed #stuff like that

[ryuuseini]

My gender is James from Team Rocket, next question

#pokemon #pokemon anime #anipoke #pokeani #james team rocket #listen. there is something about him. thats like. #you look at him and youre like 'oh! thats a dude!' and then you kinda stay around him longer #and its like. he doesnt really fall into the 'hes obviously gay bc hes so feminine' trope #like he's VERY fruity dont get me wrong. but like its this fucking vibe of #*kabedons you* oh look the secret door opened! yippee! #and like admitting hes not very strong and pretty sensitive but is also like. THE most witty one of the trio like #his shit HURTS but its so subtle. its very much the vibes of #hes very much the vibes of 'i present masculine bc its easy. but put me in a dress ill rock that fucking shit and FLAUNT it' #very much the blend of masc and femme that i want in life #like. i literally cannot describe his gender other than 'yknow. james from team rocket?' #and I fucking LOVE that for him

[simptasia]

the best reminder that LOST is a masterpiece is to watch any other drama series

#i dunk on lost and it's problems #with love AND frustration #and it can easy to forget how amazing it is if you compare it to itself #watch literally any other multi season drama with an ensemble and its like wow #yeah lost is one of Best Things In Television #and like i'm not even insulting every other drama. obviously there are ones that are good. what i mean is lost is so fucking good #also ya gotta love that 2004+ era of tv where a bunch of these shows were trying their best to have that lost flavour #suddenly a billion of dramas with 20 main characters with trauma and connections happened. twists! twists everywhere! #and suddenly flashback narratives became like 60% more popular #good stuff #i can't even think of an example because its just what television in general has become #that its easy to forget that serialized storytelling weren't always the norm #episodic was the typical way to tell stories in the 90s #thats part of why star trek deep space nine was so unpopular back then but has gotten new life in the modern world #twas a head of its time really

[lesbaurinkos]

i do think that since theyre 01 babies theres virtually no way there wasn't at LEAST one halloween when they were kids that archie betty and jughead did fionna and cake. it's too easy they had to have done it at least once. pls rotate this in ur head for me bc ive been rotating it.... makes me smile :)

#literally thank u rvd chars for being the same age as me so its SO easy for me to think abt things i grew up on that u would also have. #thank u f&c finale today for making me feel like the joker also ^_^ #anyway. cant u see it... spray dyeing archies hair a shitty pink. fly high to caramel the cat who coulda been cake. alas! #jughead barely even dressed up and wearing a flannel he wears daily anyway. but thats ok #unless they painted him grey. surely as someone who MUST have also been a homestuck OBVIOUSLY jughead would know grey paint too well. hmm! #much to think about! anyhow #perfect group costume for them as kids. legiterally. u must agree with me u must #riverdale

[vogelmeister]

twas playing geoguessr and it sent me to nl and then to germany (twice)

#how avacore is that #nl is one of my easy countries tbh #especially if its like a town #for some reason this time though it was the bus stop that got me #but normally the yellow number plates and houses convince me #that and obviously the dutch language/bikes #but yellow number plates are very dutch to me and rules out a lot of europe in my eyes #but this one had .nl so i was like bruh thats boring #germany i got bc it sent me to a small town that looked identical to the one im familiar with near mainz #i was like “its giving x” lol #anyways the dutch one was near zwolle #my other easy countries are australia (but even then i do a through check bc it could be nz) singapore greece and uh... occupied palestine #(bruh) #oh i am decent at tunsia #but yeah #geoguessr

[littencloud9]

when i finally write that bsd x pokémon crossover it is so over for you all

#‘akutagawa would have a scary dark type-’ WRONG. he would have a sylveon #because the ribbons. like rashoumon. LMAO #i actually had a sylevon on my pkmn team and i named him ryuu because i could #kunikida would have a mienshao #hmm what else. chuuya with a charizard is too easy. i think chuuya should have both a big scary pkmn and a cute small one for versatility #picture chuuya with a hydreigon AND a swirlix #OH. kyouka with frosslass because thats basically demon snow #poe with a galarian linoone Obviously #GASP. LUCY WITH A GENGAR #anyway yeah. i have Lots of thoughts #bsd #pokémon

[yourcalamity]

isolation as a primary symptom of mental illness sucks so bad i really do love everyone i really do want to be around my loved ones and make a positive impact on peoples lives but i am also going through a personal experience that i am just trying to survive as best i can with what i have and at a certain point you just cant be around others you cant force them through your pain as well you cant consistently fake a smile at their genuine and kindhearted reassurances and support you just have to lock yourself away until you sink or swim but it takes so long how can you expect your loved ones to wait how can you expect people not to feel hurt by your absence theres no real way to exist in this world without harm and the weight of that knowledge could crush me

#i will stop whining on here but ik yall will get it #its like youre literally cornered theres no right decisions anymore theres no way to undo the mistake of being #and when you cant communicate people assume things and it makes it worse #like work is crazy so everyone is assuming thats what im struggling with right now but its a great way to dissociate all day and get paid #also obviously everyone goes through things in their 20s but this is also specific to me and my life experiences and i need to be treated #that way right now… there are so many gratitudes in my life but that doesnt make things easy #everyone in my family is made to be miserable and act like they arent and you just have to fight it constantly

[amatres]

the good thing about having horrible trauma with an oc is being able to wave away time inconsistencies by saying it was their mind making sense of the horror by rearranging dates to make sense of it all

#ama mumbles #layla (oc) #yes i spent so long agonizing over laylas backstory only to find out that kc is used to Make the worldwound #so theyre rather old lol #but thats okay bc it is Very easy to say her mind just latched onto the stuff happening during kingmaker to reorient itself #and then obviously it is actually true in her companion au lol #only more fuel for layla being. very horrified and going legend just to reclaim her own personhood after. All That. unfortunately.