#oh i feel like puking

[erwinsvow]

shea please consider a drabble on shy!reader calling rafe ‘dad’ for the first time. AH I NEED

last one before bed.. ♡

it started off as a little joke, the word coming to mind because of the way rafe always talked to you, urging you to be more careful and looking out for you.

"put that shit away, c'mon. you'll be up all night and then you won't let me sleep either," he says, when you point in the direction of the coffee shop and pull out your wallet. he drags you away, a pout taking over your pretty face.

"okay, dad," you tease, though it doesn't come out like a joke this time. it comes out sincerely, agreeing immediately, putting your wallet away even though you don't want to.

"yeah, that's right. listen to dad." you stop in your tracks, a few feet away from rafe's truck, brain starting to go haywire and fuzzy. rafe stops and turns, looking back at you stuck in place. "hm?"

"dad?" you question, repeating it, enjoying the feel of it on your tongue. rafe smiles at you, smirking and laughing, so you smile too. you don't know that you've just created a monster.

"yes?" he asks, stalking towards you and taking your face into his hands. "don't go stupid on me now, kid."

"sorry, dad. can't help it." you feel uncomfortable, wetness pooling between your legs, heart thudding fast. maybe it was wrong, maybe it was weird, but you didn't care in that moment.

"get in the truck," rafe orders, and you comply, darting back to the door and hand on the handle to open the passenger side door. "nope. the back. wanted a treat right? dad's gonna give it to ya."

#oh i feel like puking #this sent me so far into a space where i just want to call rafe dad #lord #i love u anon #you get me #you get me. #rafe cameron #rafe cameron x reader #shy reader

[daylighteclipsed]

killing mnyseld

#oh the forbidden expressions !!!! I’m gonna puke !!!! #‘riku I’m scared ! what if a shooting star hits the islands?’ #’if a shooting star comes this way I’ll knock it right back into outer space ! I’ll protect you i promise’ !!!! #kingdom hearts #soriku #sora’s expression oh my go d oh my god #weakly raising his hand a silent plea that is so loud #he has to be so fu cked up from this #this specifically but also watching all of his friends die in less than five minutes #all the people he was supposed to protect. everybody was counting on him to be their hero #and he couldn’t stop any of them from being killed. rapidly. right in front of him #he barely had time to react like oh. my god what a horrible horrible horrible feeling #andd then the last friend left - riku - dies for him. and sora can only sit there paralyzed #ohhhhh. oh. god. i know this fucked him up good

[solsticesoda]

Here's Cooper my TADC oc in @sm-baby 's Carnival AU. He is playing Roller Coaster Tycoon and you are the unfortunate guest.

#my stuff #my art #the amazing digital circus #the amazing digital carnival #carnival au #my oc #carnival!cooper #jax calls him a freak cuz coop actually enjoys being beat to hell and back #coop copes with his sentience by dissociating and going 'huh. neat.' #pomni doesn't like hanging out with him cuz he asks shit like 'why were we programmed to feel pain? sadness? is it like how the programmers #feel? can our code even try to replicate that? why were you programmed to be able to puke before the rest of your stuff?' #or he'll go 'hey wanna see how many carts i can cram in this box before they explode' and wont wait for an answer #oh btw his bug name is 'stickbug'

[lornasaurusrex]

I miss you Lorna… this is such a mess

This is an old message and I had several other similar messages, but I miss you guys and hope you’re all doing well!! I’m sorry to see nothing has improved.

I saw I was kindly mentioned by @awesomefringey and some other commenters the other day, so just wanted to log in and say hello and log back out for a few more months. 💕

Sending so so much love to all of you. Take care of yourselves and each other, please.

The video is still on YT.

#Anywayyyyy #The fandom added a whole lot more C to my C-PTSD #So a nice random message every few months instead of a freshly posted death wish is LOVELY. #Don’t fret. On meds and therapied but fresh tf out of money from it so @ L and H… lornasaurusrexx at g*ail is the PayPal if ur bored 🙃 #I hate to be like this but protect your hearts. They’ll never be able to look out for you guys and they feed these trolls ammo for snacks #and it seems to have only gotten worse. Gotta keep them hets hetbaited for their money whilst actively encouraging them to bully yall? Why? #STILL!? At this point it feels like they’ve both chosen that path deliberately now and I find it quite gross. but I’m also very far removed #So don’t worry about my opinions. Keep trusting your own intuition!!! You all see it. I love you guys and your beautiful hearts and empathy #But I hope they can sleep at night knowing the absolute fucking genuine WRECKAGE they left across the Big Gay War generation/era of Larries #Don’t worry guys I’m just as dramatic as ever. None of this has anything to do with them coming out or anything. Just how we were treated. #But trust I fuckin mean that shit from the deepest darkest pit of my Demon Larrie™️ heart. They encouraged this. 🤷🏼‍♀️ #Anyone who cares about my actual life updates: I’m a school nurse now and will be working at a bougie summer camp over break #Had a surgery I needed. Got new tattoos and piercings. In a happy and healthy relationship with the best dude for almost a year now. #OH and I went to New Zealand last year with Prettytruthsandlies!!!! We made a pact back in our Big Gay War/college days to go. And we DID!! #I got overstimulated and overfed and puked in Hobbiton. 🤣 (It was the best time of my LIFE GENUINELY🥰🥰🥰🥰🥹🥹🥹) #Okay BYE LOVE YOU GUYS #There are better and more humane ways to maintain a closet ..like literally STFU entirely. Ignoring it and not exploiting a kid is FREE #🇵🇸

[soldier-poet-king]

Woke up >:( and it's like. Oh I need to LEAVE. I need to ESCAPE. Not even just The Parents now but bro1 is making this house actively hostile to life with the way everyone has to tiptoe around his maybe breakup and moodiness and like sure he's not actively aggressive but why are all my routines and habits having to be altered so he can mope and be angry and moody and sad and become an alcoholic and possibly give himself an ED because we can't just sit him down and have a normal human conversation nooo bc he's the favourite child and therefore we just have to wait and deal until he's *ready* on his own. Which has not happened in his entire 23 yrs of life. But y'know. I can keep waiting ig.

Like yes yes pot and kettle when it comes to moodiness. But I See Doctors. I take Meds. I take Responsibility for My Actions and develop Coping Skills and Apologize and Don't Take It Out on other people. I actually CARE abt people other than myself and how my actions impact them, even if they're ppl I don't like or who have hurt me before.

#also when My morning routines are altered. brain scream #but no i can just cope with active mental distress from diagnoses brain disease #so the bitchy little baby can mope and stay out all night drinking vome home and puke and then be a bitch #when he has to go to work at 6am #like ues i feel bad i liked his gf hes sad #but also. like. not to be like well hes apathetic and selfish and callous but ... #he also made a joke abt abortion at dinner yesterday bc our 16yr old cousin is expecting #and it was so awful??? she WANTS this kid??? #ugh ugh ugh ugh #i have a horrible strained relationship with each of my brothers #but each one is a different flavour of bad or dysfunctional #and this one. this one. i cant even get into it. #i love my brother. i need a shovel to love my brother #my parents both complain abt their adult child younger siblings #and then like. trear bro 1 like this which will make him become an adult manchild #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #truly. i need to fuckin move out. i need it #ill lose free food and rent monies and free laundry and utilities and ooen backyard garden space #but oh my god the emotional toll this is taking on constantly tiptoeing peacekeeping #IM FORCED INTO LYING BY OMISSION. I HATE LYING. IT MAKES ME WANT TO DIE. #franposting #we're supposed to share a car all summer and commute together sans our father #i might just take the bus. even tho i have to leave almost an hour earlier #i don't trust him. or his moods. esp when mildly hungover at 6am. and without our father there to moderate? #this sounds horrible but im a little afraid. (plus i cant be late everyday all summer bc of him) #like. once again. fuck me. i am the ONLY responsible child and i get so much shit

[hjemne]

Just finished trigun 98 and what the FUCK how could you possibly do this to me

#im not okay #oh my god #it was 15 episodes of pure stupidity and 11 episodes of ehat thr FUCK #fjdwkkajw????? #IN A CHURCH #ON THE CROSS ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME #MILLY my number one most precious girl ever my love my dear #god they wanted families #screamung crying puking my guts out #i gotta read the manga i feel like theres so much lore around the plants and gunslingers and knife that im super missing out on #and watch the film and then finally watch the new reboot #it's 4am i was going to stop but then SOMEONE turned rhemself into a martyr and i couldn't sleep until i knew the ending #in a fucking church on a fucjing cross #but also vash screaming BRAD was pure comedy ngl #brad just is Not an angsty name #it doesn't work I'm sorry hes playing football and drinkin beer not sacrificing his life to save someone else #i really need to sleep now #trigun #rambles #trigun 98

[hauntingblue]

LUFFY!!!!!!!!! I HAVE BEEN CONVERTED!!!! LUFFY BELIEVER FULL TIME!!!!! LET US WORSHIP THE SUN!!!!

#luffy deflating like a balloon..... be serious 😭😭 #MOMO NOT BEING ABLE TO HEAR LUFFY!!! oh kaido going for the others now..... law could hear his voice too??? #NAMI BEING THE FIRST TO STEP UP!!! CHILLS!!! THIS TIME STEPPING UP TO WITNESS THE HORRORS!!! YEAH!!! #yamato really does carry the spirit of oden straight up.... motivating his son and everything... #i feel like i am going insane... I CAN HEAR THE DRUMS!!! nami telling luffy to not die and fulfill his promise WHO ELSE HAD A PROMISE???? #is this why his fruit awakened.... because nami reminded him of the promise... omg..... THE DRUMS!!! CHILLS!!!! THE SMILE!!!!! IM SO HYPE!! #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1070 #i am smiling so hard rn. contagious #also the cp0 that died for this ajdja.... suffering from success.... #THE BOUNCING SOUNDS!!!! THE DRUMS!!!! THE SMILE!!! SANJI JUST VOLTING AWAKE??? see the clouds over his shoulders remain.... as i was saying #you know this has me realising maybe shanks isn't all that bad and stole the fruit from the gov so they couldnt get hold of it #hiyori saying how oden kept hia promise but also how he wanted to keep the promise of opening wano for joyboy #THE KANJURO THING!!! HIYORI WATCH OUT!!! oh its gonna burn orichi by accident YEAAHHH!!!!!!! FUCK YEAHH!!!! #the animation is so fun.. luffy just junping around and shit while hia destruction power is MASSIVE #this is so!!!! kaido complaining about being bored and having fun thru fighting AND HERE COMES LUFFY WITH HIS LOONEY TOONS GOOFY FIGHT!!!! #they knocked this shit out of the park!!! also END CREDITS????! #episode 1071 #momo saying kaido got fat 😭 actually kaido got pregnant <3 yamato you're going to be a big brother congrats!!! #the eyes 😭😭 damn luffy flew away and exploded... 😞😞 skipping rope with kaido omg.... everyone should go outside and see this... #we are welcoming here in the luffy believers... barto is gonna enlist hundreds of new members #law is luffy believer number 1 damn the speech he is giving kid... omg kaido bonked him ajshaksjak that was so good he needed witnesses.. #nami worried abojt luffy being dead and when he appears she is just like WTF IS THAT!!!!!! HUH???!! #wait a second ooohhhh kaido is goong down too fuck yes akdjaksj momo and yamato peeking over the island jahdksk #THE DRUMS BEING HIS HEART I CANNOT GET OVER IT!!! Kaido shoukd be puking up his insides by now but alas this is so fun BOIOIOIOIOING #FIRST TIME SOMEONE ASKS LUFFY WHO HE IS AND HE DOESN'T SAY MONKEY D LUFFY FUTURE KING OF THE PIRATES. HE SAYS ITS HIM. STRAIGHT UP!!!! #NVM HE SAID IT!!!!! GOD IS THAT YOU????!!!! #episode 1072

[chaos-mybeloved]

The euphoria of asking a girl out and her agreeing has worn off and now I’m reminded that I actually have to go on the date now

#I’m so nervous I think I’m gonna puke #and I gave myself so much time too!! it’s not until next week why would I do this #I’m also completely second guessing myself now too because I went in with a place and then changed it last minute because she brought up #another place while we were talking and I was like oh we can go there! except no we can’t because it’s an oatmeal cafe and I don’t eat that! #so back to the original plan but I feel like that makes it seem like I didn’t have a plan but I did! I was just trying to go with the vibes! #can you tell that I’m spiralling? #personal

[widevibratobitch]

when will i fucking learn to not look into the comment section under a fat woman's photo :)

#lovely day to learn people like me are completely worthless barely even human and not only deserve to but SHOULD die <33 #i sure hope reading how bodies like mine are so disgusting they make people wanna puke #and are objectively undesirable laughable and ridiculous and anyone who says otherwise is lying #wont affect me long term and forever fuck up my brain <333 oh wait teehee #anyway. i feel like english comments are bad enough but polish men really go above and beyond. #yes yes fat people should be annihilated and mass murdered in gas chambers what a normal thing to say publicly :) #there's being fatphobic. and then there's whatever the fuck these polish boys have. #cant imagine how deeply fucking evil one must be to say something like that. #i sincerely hope something really fucking bad happens to all those fatphobes i hope their life sucks i hope they suffer forever <33 #anyway. if anyone needs me ill be hating myself in that corner over there <33 ciao

[arcaneyouth]

I NEED TO TEAR MY OCS APART WITH MY TEETH

#SSOSOSO SO FUCKGING EXCITED I LOVE MAKING STORIES OH MY GOD PLEASE. FUCKK. OH MY GOD #every single week. twice a week. i get so excited about this upcoming scene i feel like i'm going to puke #and every time i have no way to get this out so i just die

[party-gilmore]

absolutely fucking ridiculous that HUNGER makes you feel NAUSEOUS

#what fucking SENSE does that make #oh? oh you haven’t eaten enough? we need to trigger you to want to eat??? #I KNOW!!! LETS MAKE YOH FEEL LIKE YOURE GONNA PUKE!!! #THATLL GIVE YOU AN APPETITE FOR SURE!!!!

[sk3l3t0n444]

im good o-O

#who fucking let me eat againnnnnnn #tw ed #cuz imma fuckign rant #i always feel liek shit for eating anything ever #and today was one of those days where i was like oh im not hungry and i dont wanna eat but my stupid ass did anyways #fucking ate enough to make me feel sick #and i wanna purge so badly #like i am fighting every fucking urge to go puke up all this #WHY. AM. I. LIKE. THIS. #if i purge i will feel significantly better but yk purging isnt good #and if i do im just proving to everybody that i cant fucking get better #but if i dont im showing everybody that i have no self control with eating #yk i say im getting better and to a certain extent i am but im not really ever “better” #like im better than i was at the lowest point of my life...thats like the bare minimum #like congrats i havent written a suicide note in over a year! woo or whatever #like congrats me you didnt fucking cut yourself on purpose for a year and a half wowwwww thats the bare minimum: / #most people in fact NEVER cut themselves on purpose #and lately ive been having “trauma” dreams #like its not really trauma but like dreams where i see people i would rather never see again and people who i would do anything to see again #or dreams about relapsing or failing school yk shit like that #and most of the time i wake up and feels like that shit was real #oh yeah lemme add soem more tws #tw suicide #tw sh

[tortademaracuya]

You know the thesis consultation is about to go great when you get hit with like 5 different negative status effects at once and start feeling like you might faint at any second

#girl help im not making it to november #i kept joking around with classmates and professors to see if iwould stopfeeling so lightheaded lol #fortunately i got so focused while explaining and showing my progress #that i began feeling normal long enough for me to walk back home lol i was like this close to calling family to wait for me outside #just to make sure i didnt faint the second i got out of class lol #now i gotta rush all my other deadlines...i just want to sleep a few hours 😭 oh well #haunted.txt #but being totslly honest i really thought i was gonna either puke all my organs out or pass out or both for a second there 😭