#oh my fuckin god that is so long

[moodindigov]

hey guys nerd moment about the title of the fic (this is long im sorry)

mood indigo was actually a jazz song released in the 1930’s by duke ellington, barney bigard with lyrics by irving mills, except bigard said that its real credit is derived from his clarinet teacher, Lorenzo Tio’s, melodies. so that clarinet part like biagrd’s solo? yea that was Lorenzo tio’s melodies that weren’t full developed and when bigard did finish them and show them so ellington, he liked it and it was included. and like its almost impossible to tell where ellington’s collaborators part begin bcs apparently he’s js that good at blending that stuff idk (dont take that last part as a fact thats purely from what i remember.) anyways, mood indigo is about a little boy and little girl who are eight. girl loves boy and while they never acknowledge the feelings, the girl waits at her window bcs the boy visits her. and the song basically describes the feeling the girl had when the boy didnt visit her. so you may be asking, duct why would u choose something like that as a title for a book about the slump in london 1930s and about criminal organizations? well, dear anon, here u r:

1. literal (?) meaning; im gonna be so honest with you i purely got this idea from brendan and neksa / jess and morgan. i couldnt stop thinking about that wonderful art i found of brendan and neksa it was of neksa as a raven or crow i dont rmb but point is that its gorgeous and stunning i love it. the idea that brendan denies his feelings of love for her purely because he half doesn’t want to acknowledge that he’s become so attached to a person in such an intimate way and half because he just cant risk his father (or anyone) finding out that he’s gone and practically betrayed his dad’s whole like symbolism in tje trading world (remember they don’t like the library. yk how contradicting it would be to have one of the biggest illegal book trader’s son dating someone from the library, especially someone who works in like the same facility as the archivist? yea its damnable like no ones gonna trust ca. brightwells or his business anymore.) anyways the literal meaning: girl is sad bcs boy didn’t visit/come back to her. brendan literally left neksa (the woman he was oh so deeply in love with) because he didn’t want to hurt her and played it off as the fact that he didn’t love her. and when jess comes back as brendan (lmaoo) i feel like you can imagine the smallest sliver of hope she had that they can be something again but its practically disappeared next to the pure anger and grief in her heart. and when neksa dies, brendan can’t visit her anymore. its literally not possible. (until he died then maybe they could be happy tgt). this is so many words words words guys i promise im not actually this much of a nerd on a daily basis this is just interesting to me. anyways, once again, girl is sad bcs boy didn’t visit her one day. umm we can go back and look into jess’ past: boy is eternally sad bcs his brother died. aka: boy is sad bcs his brother can’t visit him. like ever. sad sad sad moments💔💔

2. this is like an actual stretch but um i consider it okay so basically girl being sad is jess boy who didnt visit (or wont anymore) is a semblance of love or sanctuary. throughout the series its obvious that jess just doesn’t trust his family. im pretty sure he even says it like he does not trust them. but hey, maybe he did once. maybe he did when he was a little boy who had an older brother who he could rely on—one that taught him how to walk and that taught him the basics. someone who he could go to for advice and who could help him keep his head above water. now we don’t have a characterization, but i’m going off of @thegreatlibraryfangirl’s advice and kinda semi-making my own..so um sorry if u dont like that guys..but anyways i feel like the moment jess starts to really rely and trust the other’s is the moment that melancholy feeling, that mood indigo, goes away. it doesnt go away completely, theres always gonna be a solid chunk never satisfied but thats okay because he has people he can trust with his life that will help him get through it. not only this but the bond that jess and dario (will) share in this au represents that. they’re both young—maybe 13 max but they both lack one thing that only they can give esch other; sanctuary.

#oh my fuckin god that is so long #im dorry i put you through reading this #i oromise im more than a nerd #tgl #the great library #the slumps tgl #mood indigo #jess brightwell #dario santiago #christopher wolfe #wolfe pack

[luck-of-the-drawings]

IM SO IN LOVE WITH VAMPIRES!! and boy do i love THE SUCKENING!! VERY excited to see the misadventures of sad wet cat, sharp angry cat, and the COOLEST cat i ever did see

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #some of these were drawn with MOUSE and others were made with my COOL NEW TABLET OOOOHYEAH!! #I JUST FINISHED EP 3 AND OOOHHH MY GGOD. OHHH MY GOOOODD IM IN LOVE WITH EACH OF THESE CHARACTERS #LIKE ARTHUR OH MMY GOOODD ARTHUR FUCKIN BENNEEETTT #SO CONFIDENT SO COOL I FUCKIN LOVE THOSE JUST. UNBREAKABLY CONSTANTLY STOIC CHARACTERS #HIS LIKE CATCH PHRASE. HIS TO-THE-FUCKING-POINT BEHAVIOR #HES LIke a hard candy with TRAGIC GOO TRAPPED INSIIDEEE he is a mollusk to me and i wanna break opEN THAT SHHHEELLL BABYYYY #AND SPEAKIN OF SHELLLSS emizel oh mmy god little guy #i KNOW hes softer than he lets on. and yet i wanna see him bite and attack more people and set things ablaze #i wanna fund his research. and by research i mean arson #AND OOHH SHILLOOO lil prince shilo hes my small baby boy whos okay with death as long as he doesnt have to see #THERES SOMETHING RRRROTTEN AT THE CORE OF THIS BEAUTIFUL APPLE PIE #AND I CANT WWWAIT TO SEE WHAT COMES OF IT #ALSO FUNFACT!! im tryin to make emizel n shilo look more similar #so if u CLOSELY LOOK u will see that their hair is similar. noses n face shapes are the same. they have Heart shapes in their bangs #also unrelated but im a lil in love with deacon keller.... i just rly like cowboys.... like i just think hes neat.... yeehaww #I ALSO LOVE KITTIEESSS ALL THE LIL KITTY SOUNDS IN THIS SHOW ARE SO CUTE... #i heard 'gray cat with round orange eyes' n immediately thought of tama from jjba. yknow the stray cat? dies and becomes magic plant?yeaaaa #cant wait for more. ill scream abt what happened in ffUUUCUKKIGNG EPSIODE 3 LATER BC OH MMY GGOOODDDD!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i've gotten several asks as to how i'm doing after the update, and uh.

well refer to This Image for your answer-

#im ILL im ILL #in a good way! but oh my god #im gonna need a few days yall- #there was so much and it was all perfect and im So Overwhelmed with new information!!!! #i need to get my brain back in working order! #theres just. i dont even know where to start... #i think i'll start with editing the livestream vid so i can post it #i won't be doing anything fancy i just want to cut out long pauses #and maybe add a clown emoji overlay when i'm being a fuckin idiot lmaooooo #absolutely unprompted #oh man after the stream i had to go sit down in the dark living room #im so happy we're finally diving into the meat of it and its KILLING ME <3 #welcome home continues to make me simultaneously better AND worse! #except x10 bc holy shit. hooollllyyyyyyy shit. whoa <3 #when the horror project has horror in it (cheering&crying.jpeg)

[can-of-slorgs]

Local owlbear, what she gonna explodee✨

#neopets #neoart #vandagyre #not technically an oc but it is an original design i guess lol #Same with the ogrin I'm starting to open my eyes to these fellas #i used to hate them but i think its just the neo designs lol #Also this technically was a practice to see if I ended up making one of my real OCs into one #but i just settled into a classic eyrie #and i wanted to finish this sketch cause i really liked the pose lmfaoo #I don't.... think I'll be using this for anything??? just wanted to draw an alquemist vanda for my scrungly soul #anyways it takes me stupidly long to finish drawings maybe i should stick to some doodles here and there #vin doods #forgot the tag woops #also stole the green colors from mneo as well cause they're easier on my eyes and the drawing LMFAOO #i want to thank all the likes and reblogs once again though!! it's so heartwarming whenever I open this site i see some notifs :D #i am working on my characters lore but oh god please take the keyboard away from me i write so fuckin much HHHH #ok too much rambling you can stop reading my thoughts now haha

[primus-why]

👀👀👀👀

So apparently Earthspark Megatron is actually an ally?????????

#megs #oh my god i love him already #and also i am gonna ship him and Optimus so fuckin hard y'all im gonna yell #at least one human playfully calls him and im SCREAMIN #tfes #tf earthspark #Megatron #honestly don't even care if it's for reals or if he's playing some kind of long game i am hooked #ciz either we're getting a megs in the same vein as mtmte OR we're getting a megs who likes to plan long term like tfa! 👀👀 #*cuz #megop

[blazingblorbos]

oh god. oh god. oh.. oh gosh. I didn't expect this so soon. I didn't expect this today, I've been busy with life related things so the HYV calendar is really unbeknownst to me, is this update really next week already?? where can I rant about this- whERe can I rant about this-

oh. I made a blog for that exact purpose ! OKAY—!

fuck. fuck me, dude holy-

FUCK.

the slightly worried look on Arle's face as Snezhevna is reaching out her hand, only for her face to seemingly revert back to cold and neutral once the camera actually focuses in on her. Her tone is cold but her words are reassuring,,,,,,,,

ALSO GOD FUCKING DAMN IT. HOW GENTLY SHE HOLDS HER HAND.

the d o o r. the DOOR. THE FUCKING DOOR, CHAT. the slow opening at first, and once you can make out that it's certainly Arle's silhouette she shoves it fully open - both doors, both hands. incredibly attractive—. the FEAR in that man's eyes.

The crossed hands. We can't see her face but you know what expression she's making (it's not really an expression. it's neutral but you can feel it). THE FUCKING F E A R ON THAT MAN'S FACE.

Oh- she literally just grabbed him by the throat. Just like that- ! There's the expression. Oh, you feel it, alright. If you go frame by frame, you'll notice her eyes narrow in the slightest right before ->

POV: you're getting chocked out by Arlecchino, and that's actually the least of your worries. (my god she is beautiful).

I did not expect him to simply be thrown down to the ground and I ... d i d not expect her to step on his FACE. [insert gay masochistic joke here. you know the one]. Did not expect her to smile (this is the ONLY scene wherein we see her smile even slightly... huh...) *And the reason I say "I did not expect her to smile", is because with the momentum we were getting I thought she was straight up going to crush his throat, or stab him (hand, weapon or otherwise). It looked like she was digging the forefoot of her shoe into the guys head and not the... .. y'know deadly fucking heel, so that.. confused me. (and the sound when she supposedly stomped his head in did NOT sound all that impactful) but ANYWAYS I digress-

I'm of course assuming more happened after the cut to black because . madam where did you get that bloodstain on you—

BLOODSTAIN ON HER FACE!?!?!? (more on this in a second)

Freminet??? Freminet feature ! (not Lyney or Lynette.. interesting). :(((( the poor boy sounds so,, desensitized. His father

holy shit quick intermission. After the mental chronological fuckfest that was "The Song Burning in the Embers" I don't think I can look at Arle and the HotH the same anymore because she's.. she's like not even 10 years older than them (?) it's insane this doesn't make any sense- ANYWAYS.

HIS FATHER comes back with what we later see to be real blood on her face. Tells him "I've acquired new funds". We know what that means... HE knows what that means!!, and the way WE - THE AUDIENCE - know that Freminet knows what it means is because the boy replies "Oh.. Okay.."

LIKE-! chat omg this is truly just routine for them,,,, Like out of the 3 siblings, Freminet always gave off the biggest child assassin vibe, but wow. To see that routine and desensitized nature of the HotH's line of work just,, splayed out in a Character Trailer is . wow. and the look in his eyes as he says it is- wow.

YEAH UHH BLOODSTAIN ON HER FACE??/ The lighting in this scene now is evidently less saturated. And it's just- oh my FUCKING GOD it does so many things:

the blood on Arle's face looks... dry. it doesn't look as fresh as you may expect which could mean many things. It could mean she spent,,, hella long in there with that guy doing what needed to be done. It could mean she took care to something else immediately after dealing with the guy (perhaps smth related to the children Snezhevna wanted to save). But regardless it means she didn't put in the effort to clean her face and hide what happened. OBVIOUSLY !!! that is so . obviously her style but to S E E IT IN MY GENSHIN IMPACT CHARACTER TRAILER it's- oh my god

it serves to highlight the really, truly, bleak nature of the scene now that we know plain and simple Arlecchino just killed a man. There's no subtext, there's no reading between the lines. The only thing that didn't happen is that we didn't see contact nor see a body. But, no sugarcoating, Arlecchino killed a man. No one is hiding it. You are not surprised. No one should be but damn.

and ofc it acts as a representation of Snezhevna dying...

because it seems like the saturation is back once the camera switches to looking at Snezhevna laying in bed.

And is it me, or does it look like Arle's allowing herself to actually display a tinge of worry in her expression this time? And also, EVER so slightly in her tone as well. You can feel it, it's gentler.

"Once I'm better I'll start my next mission.."

THIS. THIS!! IN SO MANY WAYS THIS!

OKAY. so bear with me. I haven't actually read any of the sibling's character stories yet, so there could be a LOT of info I'm missing but:

There's still a pretty thought-provoking conversation going on (in MY mind, at least) about just how intensely these children are being trailed to be soldiers for the Fatui. They're obviously in an environment that indoctrinates them into being soldiers of SOME kind, but I still don't know what kind of soldier that's supposed to be. Are they all ALWAYS extensions of the Fatui? Or are they more-so extensions of Arlecchino specifically..? Snezhevna was obviously trying to help those children she came across, and I'm assuming that happened on her latest mission, so was the mission for a charitable cause?? What was her next mission supposed to be?? Same line of work? Saving people? Or would it switch up and was she going to be sent to "take care of" (kill .) someone???

So I don't know whether to interpret that line as a hint of them being overworked and 1) feeling like they need to continue their work out of pure fear that they'll be deemed ineffective and useless... or 2) feeling like they need to continue their work out of a sense of loyalty and duty to the place that took them in and raised them. Or both..

and ofc the funeral scene. I can't say much more than what's already shown right on the screen.

and am I bugging? Or is the location of the grave....

#LONG post #first of all. I am kissing Genshin Impact's (HoYovere's entire) artstyle on the mouth. #second of all #Erin Yvette #oh my god Erin Yvette. #the 'My child...' line.. what if I literally blow up the world I'm going to explode #Arlecchino is drop dead gorgeous in this. That's a given but what kind of gay person would I be if I didn't say it anyway #it's always a given with their trailers. A l w a y s. #she's so drop dead handsome oh my god I fucking hate gender #blazingramble #holy shit new tag wtf #I try not to do these on here often but... #meh. my blog #I needed a place to write it down and I'm honestly getting self-conscious abt using my discord server #I say the kids at the HotH are desensitized 'cause like.. it's FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE that they DON'T know!!!! #they can ACT like they don't !!! sure! repression is very real and these kids are exposed to a LOT of trauma. Yes #but they are NOT FUCKING IGNORANT about it #the older ones at least; of course the younger they are the more likely they're sheltered from the Fatui's violent practices #like Lyney Lynette Freminet and other kids their age are child assassins. Now I'm PRETTY FUCKIN CONFIDENT they've killed people #like it wasn't hard to believe before but (and remember I haven't read their character stories) before it was mostly believable conjecture #I can't get over the scene where she returns to the bed #Arlecchino #genshin impact #genshin #genshin arlecchino #the knave #Genshin the knave #blazingshitpost genshin edition #blazingshitpost #Youtube

[sodaspringz]

made a set of plushies for the Lovejoy America tour! i've been working on these on and off since Valentine's day and i'm very happy to have them finished. they are having fun and playing together yippee

a few close ups under the cut because Aya specifically requires multiple angles

^ they have a posable tail and can twist around full at the waistbones lol

JimJams' ears can be bent and shaped as well, and Cappy's bottle has a little note in it! i had a lot of fun making these, even though Peebee gave me hell. i am going to miss them so very much <3

#HOPE YOU LOVE THESE THEY WERE SUCH A FUCKIN LABOUR <3<3 #i'm giving them to the band hopefully but oh my god i do not wanna let them go. they took so long and i love them. #springz.thingz!! #lovejoy #lovejoy fanart

[glassphinix]

i've been a busy boy (spoken w the same vibe as that one garfield 9/11 comic)

#baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #bg3 #bgiii #bg3 astarion #bg3 abdirak #(oh god ive been misspelling that cunts name this whole time) #for anyone whos not familiar with this game you get the bloodless debuff if astarion drinks your blood #and you get loviatar's love by letting a sadomasochist beat the shit out of you ritualistically. no that's not a joke #but i went thru with it cause it gives you advantage on low health and my bard is the squishiest bitch on the team now #even GALE has more health than my character now bc i gave him the tough feat #i also coincidentally got astarion's first bite scene the first long rest after meeting abdirak #because ive been delaying my long rests as long as possible for fear of anything time-sensitive becoming unavailable to me #and so a bunch of other shit took priority over astarion trying to bite me #BUT. that has instead resulted in the extremely funny idea of my character volunteer to get beaten up #for NO in-universe discernable reason i might add #and astarion being like 'hm. okay he might be a big enough freak to let me feed off him without shoving a stake through my ribs' #and then trying his luck that very night ASJFKSA #anyway. i stopped playing this fuckin game like an hour ago bc i have to wake up early and yet im still awake and being a freak #internal monologue

[nnyhil]

Hazbin Hotel Sinner Johnny Concept

He's a jackalope! Here's some details:

777 is tattooed inside his right ear

His blackened eye has a + in it to reference Nailbunny

Widdle bunny tail!!!

Gloves, because the world is gross.

#OoC | “OH- MY GOD. IT'S... GOD!” | #Mun Art | “YUM! DIRT!” | #Mun Speaks | “THEY MAKE SO MUCH NOISE.” | #Self/Visage | “I'M PRETTY FUCKIN' UGLY.” | #Verse: Hazbin | “LET ME GUESS. HELL- RIGHT?” | #long post #long art more like it lol

[filthy-rat]

Open the door for Mary Goore

what if there was a fucked up guy and he looked at you (14.5 hours, Procreate)

ᴄᴏᴍᴍɪssɪᴏɴ ɪɴғᴏ

#my doodlins #mary goore #mary goore fanart #the band ghost #the band ghost fanart #repugnant #repugnant fanart #there was a sewer man #oh my god this was the most fun i've had doing art in a long ass fuckin time #i'm so tired but man #i like art sometimes

[wormdebut]

Hi Squad!

I am working on Part Three of The Boys Who Kiss Boys On Stage Series (it’s been a while, I promise they have just been making out for a minute.) I have a QUESTION.

Would you rather read a couple 6k-8k pieces in the series OR a chonky 12k-16k piece?

I’m just curious.

#wormbrain #THEY ARE COMIN #(if you know what I mean) #I was stuck in my head for a minute with them but god they are ready to play for you again #lingerie letterman and daddy kink! oh my! #steddie #just lemee know ur thots. #boys who kiss boys #boys who kiss boys on stage #obviously a bite sized BWKB piece will be out quicker but they have a habit of being long bois and I quite like them that way #however what I am writing for this one has the ability to be two parts #To Be so fucking for real I might just write to fuckin much like I always do and they will be split anyway 😂

[crimeronan]

talkin to my mom on the phone planning a trip home for the first time since i moved to oregon and she was listing all the east coast relatives i can catch up with and then was like "oh! you can meet your stepmother!!" and i accidentally made a Very Audible sound of disgusted surprise because i FORGOT I HAVE ONE OF THOSEEE & she Laughed Her Ass Off and was like yeah... um.... i'll leave you in charge of...... whatever you wanna tell your dad about when you're coming. maybe spring it on him the day before your flight,

#*my mom and i have a great relationship this was very funny #it's a long trip where i'll be spending a LOT of time with my siblings so i can't feasibly keep it from him #mom said the sibs always band together to visit him tho so we can all three brave the nonsense together then gossip the whole way home. #worth it to see all the other people i want to see. but oh my god my fuckin stepmom.... #maam u are not my mommy.

[jinouchibhue]

I love this site I can just say nonsense and sometimes people will clap

#collecting references for a thing I'm about to draw and oh my God. that man. is so. babygirl. #this is about long-haired Christian #when it fuckin CURLSSSSS #jinouchi.txt #wrestling

[lilgynt]

it’s genuinely disgusting what an impact will graham has made on my life oh my fucking god

#personal #saw a picture of hugh as will with slightly longer but not post prison long hair #and i was like haha my hair looks like that when i put it in a pony tail like my bangs and shorter bits #then i remembered i stopped straightening then started curling my hair to look like will #then caring for my hair so the natural curls/waves would come back #and oh my fuckin god. old yeller me #graham did you forget ur name change gender change pro noun change #sexuality change and autism diagnosis? #shut the fuck up. is the answer to that #it was all partials he just helped finish a lot of those with other factors as well but oh my god the hair looking the same got me back

[kyngsnake]

"You have one hundred and seventy-three freckles on your face."

The double take Avery did at the low rumble of Danse's voice just to his right would have made him laugh if he was the one watching it. Instead, as the gears turned behind his amber eyes at the statement, his mouth remained fixed in a loose o above the rim of his coffee mug.

"Huh?"

"Your freckles." Danse repeated, smiling a little, the gentle one that had his almost permanent frown give way to something softer. "You have one hundred and seventy-three of them on your face."

Well. That was sweeter than a whole box of fancy lads and a Nuka cola to wash it all down with. And so far off left field it was from a whole other pitch, but again, sweet.

"You counted them?" Avery smiled back, regaining his mental balance a bit, and leaned in closer, bumping their shoulders together.

Danse brought them impossibly closer by curling their free arms together and tangling their fingers where they met, the bravery of love and an empty galley kitchen bringing out the side of Danse he had long kept private.

"I did." He said softly, dark eyes flicking down to Avery's curved lips then back up to meet his eyes again, a nervous tic that had become endearing. "I couldn't get to sleep, but being around you, even when you're just sleeping by me, it's soothing. You are."

That last admission was stumbled over, but just as sincere as the rest, and the little squeeze of Danse's hand around his own, thumb rubbing gently over the tattoo.

"Well, you're- I'm -Hhhmmhmmm…" Avery blushed fiercely, pursing his lips to stop something syrupy falling out. "Report to our bunk in right damn now."

~~~

((it's 5am, I can't sleep either, and this just sort of happened? Whoopse? If there are any bad spelling mistakes please ignore them))

IM?? SHAKING CRYING THROWING UP AKSNSKWSNKW; I AM STRAIGHT UP LOSING IT this is the cutest thing I’ve ever seen in my life. I will never recover. This is burned into my brain permanently.

#oh my god pleasant surprise is such an understatement #this is so cute… a little bit of surprisingly sweet danse is good for the soul… #tfw he’s not usually so openly affectionate so it just breaks ur fuckin brain #avery sitting there like *dial up noises* #catch him stopping next time he glances in a mirror to be like. hehe i have one hundred seventy three freckles #I’m gonna keep reading this it’s so cute #paladin danse #fallout #asks #avery #long post #me staring at my phone like 🥹

[dirtyoldmanhole]

> FEH gacha new heroes banner coming this weekend with bets on tellius or fates + fallen banner (my favorite seasonal regardless of entry) coming up: no fear

> realizes there's a non zero chance i'd get zihark + possessed!gunter in the same month: one fear

#god i need to draw/write em together.. both mind game kings. i don't think they'd like each other at ALL ironically lol. #zi would be lowkey suspicious of (rev)gunter b/c i think he'd get vibes there's something Malicious + Hidden and unsure of who the target i #gunter wouldn't think much of zi as a sellsword LOL. complete nonentity as long as he doesn't pose a threat to corrin or get in the way. #now if zi started poking around trying to figure out what his deal was.... oh damn that's a thought..... #meanwhile feh!me: hello eye candy kings gracious of you to grace my vision :D (i would be. insufferable.) #would be on my hands and knees praying one was a grail unit (also a high possibility) in that case to spare mah fuckin orbs #petrine + zihark showed up in the same month and absolutely obliterated me resource wise so IT HAS HAPPENED LOL...