#okay I’m gone again

[belle-keys]

less than two months until we find out clary’s descended from matthew and cordelia’s line yall omg I can’t wait

#i logged back on just to annoy people about this #okay i’m gone again #i’m not ready for chot even though i absolutely am #holy shit #chain of thorns #chot #cassandra clare #tlh #the last hours #jordelia #fairstairs

[hummingbird-games]

Is not here is not here is not—I AM NOT PRESENT IN THIS SPACE

Ahem, poking my head in to tell the Okechukwu (and Keegan) appreciators that I am thinking of y’all. I’m always thinking of y’all lol

It’s ace week and I’m thinking of—slightly older—Oke. College Oke who rooms with Jacob, is still close with Corey and Florence and Keegan. College Oke who’s gonna experience heartache that’s self-inflicted and society inflicted.

It’s ace awareness week and the first year where I’m not an outside spectator.

It’s ace week and I’m thinking about all the ways you can be ace and how you don’t have to “check boxes” and how i’m the biggest reader I know (sorry Corey) and GAMES are how I finally saw *me*.

It’s ace week, and I’m thinking about Oke and his story (and Keegan’s obvi) and I’m knee deep in outlining another project like mad but I HOPE sometime to share Oke’s story. Because I’m sure someone out there is gonna need it.

#OKAY I’M GONE AGAIN #gamedev rambles #to all the aspec developers who create #thank you #to all the game developers who created stories involving aspec experiences and characters #thank. YOU. 💛

[prettyvixenavenue]

coldastati (2022), photographed by Devon Coleman

#so….🫣👉🏾👈🏾 i know I have been MIA for a very long time but I am okay 🤍 #I literally was not planning to be gone this long from any of my socials but I’m planning to come soon and consistently post again #I miss sm but I miss my blog the most #Im about to start back posting a little each day not really a lot until I feel ready to fully come back #& thanks to everyone that checked up on me 🥹🫶🏾 #looks #myaesthetic #fashion #2000s #myuploads #details #90s #hairstyles

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[killa-trav]

where were you when sebastian vettel posted on instagram for the first time

#i’ll go first i was working and my phone kept buzzing #n i’m like tf is going on #n the chat is all where am i #n i’m okay #n i’m like huh what why n i see the am post first #n watched the seb post on my lunch break #n tried so hard not to cry #which i succeeded #n then my brother messaged me lol vettel gone he’s washed verstappen clear #n i’m like cheers bro #ACTUALLY #i was in the middle of serving a customer go upstairs to get stuff for them #and could only quickly glance at the am post n saw all the notifs from chat #honestly it wasn’t nice at all #don’t want to do that again

[ducktracy]

yet another reprise of the same post i’ve made dozens and dozens of times before but GEEZ! i am so incredibly lucky to be doing what i’m doing! to think i spend hours and hours and days and weeks and months and years and hopefully DECADES pouring over animation history, lauding the masters and studying their work so intently and absorbing it and feeling and identifying with it, and the fact that i get to walk the same turf they did. that i get to be a part of this business that they established. that i get to carry the torch and that, some day, no matter how small or insignificant, my own work and contributions will be regarded as “animation history” because i work in animation and all history is history. i just can’t believe that i’m privileged enough to indulge in some of the same practices that The Greats did, that i get to study their work and, if i’m so lucky, channel and make homages to it where possible.

this isn’t to say “i’m just like Tex Avery because i work in animation TOO!!!!”, but, rather, an expression of my sheer GRATITUDE and amazement that i get to do what i do at all. i’ve met so many nice people. blossomed so much as an artist and cartoonist. get inspired each day by the talent i am constantly surrounded by. and to think that i get to be a part of it!!!!! that i get to carry the torch! i know this sounds so conceited and pompous and i really don’t mean it that way at all because i don’t WANT to be known as someone who people are only interested in because i work in cartoons. i just wanna be known for me! what “me” is i guess is for you to decide! but, regardless, i’m just feeling extra thankful tonight that i’m able to indulge in my passions and SPREAD my passions and have said passions fostered. that i’m lucky enough to tread the same ground as some of the greatest creatives that gave me this ground to tread on. there will never be enough words to properly articulate just how deeply and passionately my gratitude extends.

#not naming names because i feel weird bragging about them behind their back but one person who works on our show i look up to very very #highly. I MEAN I DO FOR A LOT OF PEOPLE. i am literally surrounded by some of the best in the business. but one person i particularly revere #said they were a ‘big fan of my work’ and when i was told that i legitimately went lightheaded for a few seconds #or again Ruth Clampett commenting that her dad would ‘love to see this cartoon live on’ on my art and making me bawl like an absolute baby #IT’S JUST SO CRAZY #i just. man #it’s really beyond words #and so many other kind words from bosses coworkers friends mutuals acquaintances total strangers #i don’t take any of your kindness or even just. awareness for granted #i know i’m not often vreat at responding but i do read every single tag every ask every DM! please know i never take it for granted #thank you for keeping me company and deciding i’m worth the company to keep #okay i think i have officially gone into word salad territory so it’s time to retreat #i’ve gotten much less candid for fear of maintaining some semblance of professionality but sometimes you just need to speak from the heart #(and i’ve gotten much less neurotic about that in recent months thankfully. Tumblr is my little safe haven) #so thank you for making it a safe haven at all

[lesbianfakir]

Princess tutu tulpa save me save me save me princess tutu tulpa

#feeling sooooooo shit about my artistic ability today #it’s like why even bother making things #but princess tutu would be like no! #you love to make art #why should you value what you do any less because of how others perceive it #isn’t it enough that YOU love to make it? #and I’m like but princess tutu the friends I would share the experience with are gone now #and she’d be like that’s sad and it’s okay to mourn that but there’s nothing you can do now #one day there will be people you can share the experience of creating art with again #but today you just have to keep going and hold on to what you love #why do you look to others to assign meaning to your creations #and I’d be like damn i guess you’re right princess tutu thank you #anyways thank u to everyone for tuning in to me attempting to give myself therapy via fictional character 👍 #lea talks

[skillzissuez]

Depression is all fun and games until your skipping school even though you’re weeks behind because you quite literally can’t get out of bed

#god I hate it here #not to mention you mother and father #SEEING this #simply decides to ignore you like your Alr dead #like damn okay 💀💀 fuck you too ig 💀💀 #I don’t know how to fix this #I’m literally gonna be held back or taken to court bc I’ve missed so many days #but oh well the sillies r keeping me alive #Also I told myself I wouldn’t vent online anymore but I honestly don’t care anymore 😭 #it’s so bad though #I tried to do some of my homework last night and ended up throwing up from the stress #and it’s not like my friends just forgot about me they are GOOD friends I’ve just been pushing them away; telling them I’m just sick etc. #it’s my fault so I’m not mad at them for not knowing what to do. The closest ones try to call me #sometimes I answer and we talk. sometimes I don’t and they leave me a message abt how their a good listener and they KNOW something’s wrong. #Truly I love my friends but at this point I just need to be medicated or in a mental institution ong #but again; it’s not like my parents actually care. they canceled my therapy that was court appointed to me #My support system otherwise is gone; my older siblings have moved out and I’m supposed to protect my younger ones from my parents #but deadass my entire family is well aware that I’m useless in that department #I shake scream and sob everytime my parents yell at us so I’m no help; really #I mean recently I’ve been able to keep my emotions under control but the only reason why is because I’m dead inside 💪 #As I’m typing this out I’m realizing that I should be telling the world this especially not in my mental state but like. I dunno 🤷‍♂️ #I know most of you don’t care or if you do your just concerned or feel bad bc you know what it’s like and I thank you. #seriously; I thank you for being human and reminding me the world can be kind #if anything im just distracting myself from whatever this is. whether it be playing a silly game or drawing about said silly game it helps #but it also makes me feel guilty bc I RLLY should be focused on trying to pass this year. but I’m pretty sure it’s too late now. #anyways; that’s why I’ve been inactive lately so I apologize #it’s funny bc I’m typing this out but I rlly don’t feel anything while explaining this to you guys #I’ll tag this properly; I don’t know why I’m posting this and I might delete it later I dunno #tw vent #tw mention of abuse

[crowrelli]

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#vent tw #death mention tw #okay I need to post this bc I’m. going to explode into a million shattered parts if I don’t #my grandmother on my moms side who lived with us my whole teen years. who I helped care for. passed last night before I could go visit her #and instead of IDK FUCKING CALLING ME TO TELL ME my estranged idiot sister just texts me basically ‘Oop she died 🤪’ #what the actual fuck #I deserve to hear from our mom? I deserve to hear like the rest of the fucking family? #my cousin did it right and said ‘call your mom’ but you just fucking take it on yourself?? how inconsiderate and conceited to take that away #how little do you see of me to not show basic fucking compassion?? #I will never not hold this with me every time I think of my grandmothers passing #I’m a fucking adult. I’ve lived on my own for 3 god damn years. and yet you can’t extend me the BASIC FUCKING RESPECT of letting me find out #the RIGHT WAY #I broke my no contact out of respect for my grandma. I promised to walk into a house I was fucking prisoner in half my life. #I looked past my pain and my trauma out of basic fucking human decency and she couldn’t wait a few hours to let the news reach me properly #and before I can even say my goodbyes she’s gone and this is how you tell me?? #she KNEW I was in contact with our mom again #she KNEW #I lived with grandma I HELPED TAKE CARE OF HER #I picked her off the floor when she fell I made her food when she was hungry I READ HER BOOKS WHEN HER HANDS SHOOKTOO BAD #I knew they were monsters but are you fucking kidding me?? this is so so low I’m in fucking shock #I thank my partner and their family every fucking day for teaching me what real love is #because after you live your whole life trying to love people who are only playing roles for the sake of appearance you can never go back to #the cold lifeless greyscale power plays they call unconditional love #god I just #I’m just so fucking tired

[dawnstarranger]

Listen everyone has their own metric for what good writing is and isn’t but I’d be lying if I said it didn’t get me down a little to see one of my faves dragged through the mud by both haters and fans alike on a pretty much weekly basis

#yes this is about Salvatore #I don’t mean this to say you can’t dislike or hate his work because that’s valid too #I just mean that he’s become one of those writers where it’s okay and trendy to shit on him and he’s popular enough that it’s excused #I feel like there’s a lot of irl fans who crap on him because they inherently don’t like the over-the-top rule-of-cool style that is FR #and it’s okay to not be into that side of fantasy #but you aren’t the superior reader because you love GRRM-esque super serious grim dark content #also I haven’t personally met a long running series where I loved every single book or plot point #it’s pretty normal when you look at a 40 book series to find that some arcs/books are a bit better than others #and I feel like people jump on certain books and take it as ‘see? any talent he ever had has gone down the drain’ #like my dude it’s okay if you didn’t love a few of the books just skip and move on #add to that he’s a prolific writer in general and I’m sure some books got more time and effort from him than others #it’s fine and normal and not a sign that he’s the worse ever ffs #also there’s a part of me that doesn’t like comparing authors working in shared worlds to authors writing totally independently #because some plot points are set by the publisher before pen ever hits the paper #and again you don’t have to think Salvatore or anyone is a good writer #but I always factor it in when I see plots that seem to come out of nowhere and the like #anyways that’s my rant lmao #constructive criticism of any writer is fine and I’m not knocking that before anyone gets their knickers twisted

[caterpillarinacave]

People need to talk about Roman Torchwick more

#I’m genuinely serious Roman holiday makes him such an interesting charcater #Becuase he’s not??? Like??? Evil??? #like he’s simultaneously such a total ass and so nice #It seems like literally his entire childhood was him doing something nice and getting it thrown back into his face #Like to the point that it’s almost stupid #It takes him like 15 more years than it should have to decide to stop trusting people #It makes me wonder so much how it would have gone if the government did it’s job and didn’t leave him to die on the streets #Like if ONE singular good person or even just an okay person was like “yeah come with me you can have a place to stay and I won’t beat you” #He’d be like “well I guess the world is a good place” #If someone tossed him into beacon he’d still be a sarcastic fruity asshole but you KNOW he’d kick ass #I have so many feelings #Rwby #roman torchwick #neo #neopolitan #roman holiday #Y’all know that audio “I got some colour back. She thinks so too. I laugh like me again” #The things I would do with that id roman holiday was animated #For a raving lunatic he’s pretty well adjusted

[trashbaget]

tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, i’ll go first: today i said “get out of my way” forgot to say “i’m kidding” then immediately said “bye”

#it is awful having feelings for someone you know and have an established friendship with #but crushing on someone i barely know is knew to me and i legit feel like an idiot every time i do something stupid like this #i can’t just. talk to the guy #if i say hey and he says sup i say ‘sup indeed’ like what the fuck is that #i can barely even say hello to him #don’t get me wrong i’ve DONE it but most days i’m like #ah fuck there he is #okay you can do it just say hi #just say what’s up #and then he’s already gone #also. like. the setting we’re in is soooo not good for talking or flirting realt because um. it’s work he’s my coworker.. so um. do i fuckin #ask him for his number?? or to hang out??? but like. he’s kind of a stranger to me what do i want to hang out for 🧍 #but like. ​i dont want to do that until i have at least one successful interaction #or like. an actual conversation. #which is gonna be really hard to manage because he doesn’t talk much at all to anyone and i really only talk if someone talks to me first or #i’ll say something absolutely idiotic and ridiculous (and honestly i do that no matter what) #anyway so um. i guess i’m just gonna keep making a fool of myself until i get it right and hopefully i don’t screw it up 🥴 #i lost all my confidence in the last year and i cant do anything chill or smooth anymore (i was never that good in the first place but at #least i could PRETEND i knew what i was doing. like i could sell it. the whole weird and lost bit.) #anyway. i felt better for like 5 minutes when some guy at the gas station flirt failed with me on the way home. but that’s partly my fault #too oops. in his defense he probably could not see that i had headphones on bc upon mirror inspection they were well blended with my hair #but i was waiting to cross the street and this guy tried to like nod and smile and i did not know it was to me until i got to the other side #where the gas station was and and like. tried again and i awkward half smiled and saw his face get all mushy and confused like mine FELT 20 #mins before when i’d flopped so hard trying to flirt and by the time i’d processed WAIT i think he was FLIRTING WITH ME i was already gone 🤡 #but at least it ended better than the poor 14yo who very confidently asked for my number #who. i shit you not. SCREECHED for a solid 44.5 seconds and bolted the other direction when i said sorry im 21 #his friends were standing there like wtf too and one was like i am so sorry about him 🤦 #cheers to being fools universe

[crowskullls]

I need to draw more kings duo. I will never be normal about them ever. Love teaming with my best friend even though I Know he will betray me at some point!!! Friendship loses!! Yay!

#maybe one day when I’m not busy #best friends who hate each other who also keep trusting each other who also keep lying to each other #SO fucked that Minute will always team up with Wemmbu again and again even after all of the betrayals and lying #Minute knowing he’ll probably get betrayed still teaming with Wemmbu anyways #because it’s familiar #they’re each others safe options #and they know each other SO well #Minute’s so easy to take advance of despite his paranoia because he’s just Such a good guy #and he knows that. #and Wemmbu knows it too #I like when Wemmbu does Inevitably betray Minute #because Minute always goes batshit insane trying to get revenge on him #even though he KNEW this situation would happen #okay enough rambling you get what I’m saying #kings duo #might as well because the tag is sooo empty Sadge #ALSO WEMMBU GIVING MINUTE HIS CROWN WHEN HE LEFT??? #AND MINUTE WEARING IT THE ENTIRE TIME???????? #AND GIVING IT BACK WHEN WEMMBU RETURNED #Wemmbu was watching after him even while he was gone

[dirtbra1n]

so the bad news is that I still feel like I’m a corpse warming over but the good news is uh. uhh

#well i feel a little better than i did yesterday. so i guess that can be my good news #i’m also not going into work tomorrow. because of the illness. so that can also be good news #okay so listen in the throes of my Agonies last night i got to thinking about river stuff This is a common issue for me. #yeah i’ll just quote myself again #the hanzashiro psychological adventure is back on #<- has still—in fact!—never gone anywhere #dirtbrain photography

[akkivee]

regardless if it’s a timeskip or not i do think the new outfits signify a new chapter in their lives??? like in the case of bat:

kuukou’s still punk still monk lol but more importantly, he still has his sachihoko symbols on his haori thing. kuukou’s always changed the symbols on his coat whenever he gets a new one so it’s an important point!!! sachihoko are guardians to protect from storms so kuukou still has his protector/protection imagery

jyushi’s overcoat is still the same style but it is longer and darker and his outfit as a whole is grandiose lol like even more vkei, so i’d say this is jyushi’s final form a jyushi more true to himself and braver than ever before and ready to perform on his biggest stage yet

hitoya’s i’m not too sure actually lol but it reminds me a lot of his fit back when he helped out kuukou and jyushi. if that’s the angle then it might have him playing support for whatever he’ll be getting into as jakurai’s partner. also lends to his own knight imagery since that’s the period of time we see him as a defender

#this is vee speaking #i didn’t have the bandwidth to actively think about rosho’s glasses #but it struck me as closure for rosho and i read a thread yesterday that filled in the blanks for me lol #rosasa back at again with their self contained story lol #rio i’m kinda excited for lol he took off the uniform!!!!!!! is his war about to be over?????? #gentaro took off two elements of his outfit i think?????? like that black coat is gone and so is his turtleneck!!!!! #he’s opening up y’all 🥹🥹🥹 #what’s cracking me up about jiro’s fit is that he’s wearing that plaid button shirt UNBUTTONED #AND UNDERNEATH his usual black shirt like bruh lmao #ichiro!!!!!!! is back in black and red!!!!!!!! he’s back in his tdd era colours where he actively wanted power!!!!!! #similarly samatoki is back in leather!!!!!!! (MY LONGEST YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAH BOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII EVER) #he wore aloha shirts after the tdd timeskip and i’ve always been of the opinion he’s wearing comfort clothes since he’s been that depressed #so maybe now that nemu’s okay and thriving!!!!!! he can be a leather baby/daddy again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #juto and red has always been a Thing the brain just hasn’t ever made the connection with why red’s important to juto and i’m sad ☹️☹️☹️ #he looks good but i still don’t know what red means to him ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️ #ramuda in posse yellow ;w; his beret is rly cute too he wore a hat during the tdd era and i feel like that’s the trend with tdd #they’ve rediscovered their purpose from back then 🤔🤔🤔 #and so with sensei uhhhhhh well it’s certainly the brightest version of his clothes yet 😭😭😭 #he’s peak happy by this point maybe and i do wish that for him lol #anyone else i didn’t mention i’m still thinking on lol