#out on the pavement on that day

[icewindandboringhorror]

Recent-ish life pictures and etc.

#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that -- #1. bright very poofy cloud sky #2. saw these weird bugs on a sidewalk that were clustered in a pile and some of them were sitting butt to butt or something.. I wonder if #that's how they mate?? or maybe just some sortof strange bug fight or something.. interesting little creature party happening #out on the pavement on that day #3. Its kind of hard to see but on the inside of this watermelon there is a slightly lighter formation that sort of looks like a heart shape #4. special breakfast of scrambled eggs. soy sausages. and jarred artichoke heart. with some black coffee and whipped cream + a strawberry #5. ARBY.. fish ...traditional summer treat available only until like september maybe for like a month. but I love them because theyre cheap #lol.. the next closest/cheapest fried fish sort of option that is easily acessible to me is a more upscale fast food place where you can ge #three tiny little chunks of fish maybe the palm of your hand sized for about $17 lol... so 4 arby fried fish chunks for like $5 is good #6. & 7 - very cool sunset colored sort of pink/yellow/orange flower I found growing wild in someone's yard #8. got as a gift from someone who got it for christmas but didn't really want it and asked if I did since everyone knows Im like The Person #Who's Obsessed With Cats out of any group of people.. but I still havent done it lol.. it just sits there gathering dust until I have #the time on top of my 600 other projects. I think it's cool that it's gray so it does look like noodle (my cat) #9. Noodle (the aforementioned gray cat) with fancy lighting behind him #photo diary

[gifti3]

well...

congrats to lucifer's overwhelming "win"!

#it was a luci sweep #listen i thought it would be more even cause “two most popular” u know? #(and i was gonna do malleus vs lucifer originally but knew hed get smeared across the pavement and switched to mammon to be more fair) #but i underestimated how much people love mams #so lucifer got demolished in a day #so are yall impressed by my gif making skills. #...okay its not my strongest suit! #obey me #obey me nightbringer #obey me lucifer #om lucifer #obey me mc #death note #i wanted to doodle asmo as misa misa and satan as L but didnt have the time #maybe in the future if i remember #okay ive run out of poll questions so imma slow down on all the drawing before i tire myself out lol #lucifer: do you have any favorites? #mc: of course not! i love everyone equally #mc once lucifer is out of earshot: *grabs mammon* it's you and by A LOT #my art

[tenojan-in-tevinter]

Whew ok chalk art achieved!!!

All of my muscles hurt but it was so worth it look at him!! First time I have ever drawn Gale and I think he turned out really well!

At least ten people walking past called him Jesus it was beautiful. One guy came up to it, shouted "GALE!!!!" And then got embarrassed and ran away.

#gale dekarios #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 gale #gale of waterdeep #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 fanart #bg3 fanart #baldur's gate 3 #thé festival was yesterday it was a lot of fun! #i was so tired when I got home I couldn't even post this yet lol #chalk art is so fun yet so painful the next day #im happy with the colors even though they're not exact #the blue was particularly spectacular in person #i loved blending them into the pavement I got covered in pigment #we had fresh pizza for lunch and gelato and doughnuts #the chalk art festival is literally the best there's always so many people who come to do art #anyways anyways anyways #im super glad he turned out good I was worried cause I've never drawn him before #but soon enough the chalk entranced me and all worries melted away as I got into the zone #look at him look at him!!!! #baldurs gate gale #baldurs gate fanart #baldurs gate 3 gale #my art

[dnangelic]

The call comes a little past 10 PM. "Daisuke?" A little laugh, more of a hiccup than anything else. She sniffs. "Haha, I know I usually don't try talking this late. Guess I just wanted to shake it up a bit!" And it's true. She's formed a habit of sending good night texts, complete with a string of emojis, by 8 PM on the dot. But neither that or any warning text leading up to the sudden call had come through that night. There's a sharp intake of breath. "My aunt and uncle are out tonight, and I don't think my brother's coming home 'cause- actually, never mind. It's just- it's just-" Another sniffle, and her voice drops down as if she's not sure she wants to be heard. "It's awful quiet. And I don't..." she trails off. After a few moments of silence, she gasps, "Oh no, did I wake you up!? I'll never forgive myself if I interrupted your beauty sleep!"

@deiscension

the call comes a little past 10 PM --- past curfew , post-heist . the electric rush of adrenaline has already worn off ; the blood , sweat , and tears of it rinsed away by a warm bath ... leaving the niwa worn out in his bed . eyes that had slowly drawn themselves shut now open in a disturbed-sleep squint --- at first he thinks it must be risa or takeshi ringing ; didn't his friends often call him , loud , wide awake and full of eager enthusiasm even at midnight to ask if he had seen dark on tv again ? the evening hours and all of its attentions would always belong to the great phantom thief ; daisuke likewise left to produce all sorts of pitiful excuse and apology to anyone trying to reach him , but it's different this time .

it's the first time shi qingxuan had ever called him like this . daisuke has likewise been barely granted the span of enough seconds to mumble out a messy 'hello...?' as she follows the cue of the line's otherwise answered , lingering silence . there's something strange too in the other's voice that immediately pricks at the boy a little ; snaps him awake just as quickly as it did in the face of soaring goodmorning knives and electric needles . although she carries herself well , choice and sound of her words playful and lilting as ever at least in the start , it's still not the same . parts of it lacked ; other parts , the static of her every sniff , her punctured laugh --- he can't be sure , and another part of him doesn't want to think it's true , but ...

' shi qingxuan ... are you okay ? '

in an instant , he begins to worry . his hand presses against the receiving mic of his phone ; covers up his small grunt and sore , stinging hiss as he snaps himself into a seat upwards , alongside any possible dissuasion from shi qingxuan herself : if she was going to fret and tell him that she was just fine , then he wasn't going to hear it . surprises were always like this ; demanding as much immediate action as they did spontaneous improvisation , and he doesn't hesitate to start putting a fresh pair of socks on . was it too presumptuous ? was he being impulsive ? despite the dizzy buzz and renewed rush , he can still fill in every blank .

lacrimosa : ( i don't want to be all alone . )

' can --- can i visit you ?! ' he hops in place as he holds his phone up to his ear by a shoulder . what cotton pajamas he had just started to warm and get comfortable in are traded out for better outer-wear in as little as the blink of an eye . ' i mean , no , what i meant to say is , i'm already on my way --- ' would she try to stop him ? if she was the only one there , then she was the only one that could . but he hopes that she wouldn't . ' you didn't wake me up , i promise ! i was just --- o-on a walk outside ! i'm halfway to you already , ' not quite , only just now opening the window of his room and leaping right out of it before breaking into a sprint down the road , but if he hurried he could make it there in record time .

all for a friend . ( i don't only want to hear you cry . )

' i'll be right there , okay ? ' it doesn't strike him that she could possibly hear his panting ; his frantic , aching hurry . after all , despite it , his voice is still bright and kind --- the smile on his face , even unseen , still tries to reassure . ' it's alright . i promise ! even if you had woken me up , i'd be happy to talk with you . ' he laughs too , because there's nothing else to do , even as he's running himself out of breath again . ' but --- shi qingxuan , you'll ... you'll let me in , right ? ' don't fret over presentation . please , just wait for me . please , be willing to open the door . he wouldn't have intruded otherwise , even if he could have ; picked every lock , flung open every gate . even after making it all this way , if she earnestly refused him ---

' if ... it's lonely , then i want to be beside you . i want to talk to you face to face . '

... that was all .

#*･ﾟ⊰ ANSWERED. ⊱ #deiscension #CANON. #🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️ HAULING ASS #SQX STOP UR LONELY TEARS U R EVERYTHIGN U R BEAUTIFUL N WONDERFUL N u r dai's friend #therefore its bare minimum he goes flying out th window smackin pavement to fling himself #at ur porch window like a looney toon bit almost #sqx: sniffles #dai (catapulting himself facefirst pressin his face against th glass of the nearest window) SQX!!!!! SQX!!!!! ARE U OK!!!!????

[corrodedcarpals]

lol quick derek sketch cause ive been learning how to draw f/urries and hes a hot f/urry

derek goffard belongs to gatobob

#derek goffard #tpof #the price of flesh #derek tpof #gatobob #styxsart #idk like hear me out. being mauled to death in the scorching hot desert by a hyena man #GOREY DESCRIPTION AHEAD #you're dehydrated as hell and on the verge of passing out from it when this cocky asshole tackles you from behind causing #you to fall into the scorching hot sands that practically burn your skin. and the second he gets a close up whiff of your sweat his teeth #sink into your shoulder and you can feel and hear the wet squelch of your tendons and muscles being torn from your body. #feeling his saliva and your blood mix ............. #🤤 idk man i got some kinda issues #some days i want to see his organs splattered out on the pavement but other days i want him to rip and shred me to pieces #the homoeroticism of being cannibalised #ill do a proper piece with derek someday i prommie

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so. #literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

[moldwood]

on the topic of that post about traditions, i was also talking with some friends about how i really like the "modern traditional" aesthetics of overwatch. you can definitely tell its the future, but there's a lot of regional building techniques in places that allow it that also abandon western aesthetics in favor of embracing the culture of the maps area. i know it's to give each map a unique aesthetic and the creators were not thinking as deeply about it as i am, but i enjoy thinking too much. big central cities obviously need metal and glass and so forth to support the infrastructure, but on maps for smaller locations, you can see that they're made with mostly local supplies. it was on the mind because i saw a video about the stigma against grass thatched houses in africa and how theyre seen as a backwards way of living, when in reality theyre actually the most environmentally friendly way to make a house in the area and theyre also energy efficient. you dont need to run heating and cooling through a house that heats and cools itself, you dont need to worry about food spoiling if its kept chilled naturally, and you dont need to worry about costly repairs to your house if the materials are readily available. its trying to build every shelter in a western style to try to show the world that a place has been "civilized" that leads to the loss of efficiency and culture and history and a million other things. anyway i think im probably the only person who cares about the sociopolitical implications of the funny monkey with a laser gun game this much

#and dont get me started on the spiritualism and scientific advancements in that world #i was never involved in the fandom for a reason. everyone was busy making hunky boys kiss. i was busy dropping out of environmental science #in my head there is a beautiful future where no history was lost and where there is a major switch that is flipped and all of a sudden #infrastructure is made listening to the people who know the land and how to build on it while sustaining it best. in my head there is a #beautiful future where real estate companies can no longer pave over wetlands so long as they 'just build another one somewhere else' #because you cannot just build another one. it is an incredibly complex filtering system that you cannot just recreate by dumping water over #some grass and adding bugs and calling it a day. in my head there are no empty houses and there are town squares and there are gardens #in my head i live in a beautiful past where my great great grandma never had to take the name america smith!! #but here we are so we must destroy pavement heatsinks and tend gardens

[thepavementsings]

People don’t romanticize testing season enough for me

#first day of school jitters. the anticipation of what the new year could bring #feeling that adrenaline for the first time in months. nothing feels the same as getting thrown around the corners at warp speed! #the familiar ache in their necks!! #the only time of year where teammates are truly teammates #just pushing to get the most out of the car together before you gear up for battle #with each other but against each other. but for now! #no one knows where they stand. there’s whispers of course. did you see the new side pods. I’ve heard things look good in the sim over there #the hope! the expectation! the way the paddock awakes from its slumber. you can feels it’s pulse thrumming through the pavement. #TESTING

[afriendofmara]

Have we as a society figured out a way to tell your friend that you cried over something their dnd character is doing without making the friend feel guilty. Have we sourced that anywhere.

#ohp its me again #gender #this after. i just spent upwards of an hour #crying on the pavement because my dnd guy wasnt gonna get to have his entire found family at his wedding #bc another player is going to be playing a different character for a bit so their current is heading out on a holy mission #but #i am upset and sad #not at her just. for my boy #he wants everyone who loves and protected him around on the happiest day of his life #is that so hard #anyway im crying again thinking about it. post finished im gonna go find some wine

[crowcryptid]

Back to work tomorrow means back to existing and being perceived and stared at and talked to and acknowledged and and and

#it was nice not seeing the sun for 4 days. I was in my cave #back out into the world tomorrow #but I am but a cave dwelling beast with useless eyes and no pigment #being unearthed only to be poked and prodded and left to dry out on the pavement #like a worm after the rain #I was not meant for activity* why do they insist on it #*human contact #your hand oils are disrupting my natural protective layer #and your pathogens are crossing the species boundary #the sun is burning..

[sunnnfish]

Approximately a week til new kagihira chapter.

#covered in blood gnawing at the pavement etc etc #AND THEN THE MOVIE SO SOON AFTER…. #and then the English translation of the light novel is being released… #I love you February l #wait a goddamn second is the new chapter coming out on fucking Valentine’s Day. that’s so evil #who wants to celebrate #to the void #sunnfish.txt #sunnfish.kghr #sunnfish.jrnl

[steelycunt]

finished shuggie bain uhhh dear douglas stuart next time you want to hollow out my chest with a teaspoon and leave one of your fucking books in there you will have to come back with a warrant okay thanks

#what the FUCK. why the FUCK would you do that to ME. my GOD #i feel like an old sagging sofa. i feel like. a rotting leaf :-/ and i kept waiting #for things to turn why did things never turn what the FUCK… #i will say. i saw some people's criticism of young mungo was that it was essentially just. a repackaged shuggie bain and having now read #them both they were very correct like. shuggie and mungo are the same character. and i dont mind that because i fucking loved #young mungo but i think if you read young mungo and then shuggie bain you will prefer young mungo and if you read shuggie #bain and then young mungo you will prefer shuggie bain. but god still. oh god that was bleak. i feel like ive spent the last three days #sitting out on a wet pavement in the rain. i feel HEAVY. #reading tag #time for haunted houses now :-) lowkey have a feeling this one might underwhelm me i hope it doesnt but. i need a change of pace anyway xx

[pikslasrce]

hubris is thinking ill be able to properly stencil this onto a shirt for a concert that is in TWO WEEKS

#i mean sure its like a days worth of work maybe two if i get stupid with it but like this will be a BITCH to cut a stencil out for #anyways i wanted to have a depeche mode shirt for the concert and ofc whats a better way to strike up a convo w concertgoers #than making your own merch <333 anyways the vibe i was going for was like. something kinda classic but mixed with the memento mori aestheti #hence the wings. which are sourced from a pair of disembodied pigeon wings i saw on the pavement in front of the local supermarket #piksla.txt #depeche mode #my art

[harryswinks]

these new people that have moved in 2 doors down have not endeared themselves to anyone i want moose the cats owners back

#our neighbour in between us said everything she's tried to say hi to them they've just blanked her #you dont necessarily have to have a full convo but why just ignore them it takes 2 seconds to say hi?? #and they've got 4 fucking dogs that are just out in the garden all day barking #its been going on since half 6 this morning its relentless #obviously dogs are gonna bark but not all day every day?? #the kid over the road has FINALLY stopped drumming but now we've got to put up with this which is even worse because its all the time #and they're having building work done which is obviously fine no problems with that #but the builders keep parking their van ON the pavement blocking the whole thing #and sometimes if there's a car on their drive you can't get round the van you have to go in the road #have some consideration for pedestrians? for people in wheelchairs and people with prams?? #and then and i still cant believe this happened #i was walking down the road and the builders BEEPED AT ME as i walked past the house and nearly hit me with the van #because they were trying to park on the pavement #THEY BEEPED AT ME TO MOVE?? the pavement is not car park mate fuck off #stacey speaks

[immakulates]

this is a trap

i've asked my friends—i don't think my heart is supposed to slow there are eyes like lanterns in your walls that watch over me wash over me in thousands of currents and for more than a night's worth suddenly i can do without the sun. this, i know.

this is a trap and my leg is stuck between your teeth and i thank you there's a buzz like dying bees in the middle of your bed that rocks me washes over me in tens of thousands of currents so for a couple of days at least i won't for a second feel the need for slumber and this, most certainly, i know.

this is a trap and i’m bleeding out and i’ve been told to let go and yet still i stand by there it is that smell of rot coming from the inside of your chest like a fish left out in the sun that charms me washes over me in hundreds of thousands of currents and for much of the time to come i’ll be entirely forgetting to eat this, beyond all reasonable doubt, i do know.

i'm just not so sure my heart is supposed to stop

— wave machine / ymk (2023).

#poems #current #about a lover #when i showed a friend they said it made them think of the corpse of a lover laying out on the pavement with flowers in the wounds #that is literally all i ever wanna hear about my writing #also one day i'll adress why love = death imagery for me ha #poets on tumblr

[gayspock]

today stunk >_<

#Egg.txt #some dude cussed me out in the street ugh #he was riding his bike along a busy pavement and i freaked out and almost ran into the road to dodge like yeah dude #amongst other things but whatever that was just like the #come on not rn man im fucking feeling like shit #part of the day ya know