#passively working on whatever the fuck this is

[xfand0mfr34kx]

some exe centered multiverse AU doodles

#sonic.exe #NU sark #NU exetior #xenophanes #fleetway super sonic #tails doll #sink.exe #sunky.mpeg #I'm not even hyperfixiating on sonic exe #it's just half the characters that I yeeted into this mixing pot were exes #its a multifandom multiverse au it was gonna be wild anyway #passively working on whatever the fuck this is #I swear to shit if I forgot a tag I Will Explode

[mxwhore]

mutuals. i am getting caught in my own bitterness again...

#ill vent because this is basically my bedroom #my younger older brother is caught up in that phase of romantic love when nothing else matter but girlfriend #thats fine i guess it happens #the thing is he forgot about my birthday and i was sad. then he remembered that he forgot and called and said #heyyy lemme make it up to you. lets go grab dinner this weekend (last weekend) #he forgot he even said me and went wine tasting with his gf. so now im double sad AND pissed because #i said no to my friends who actually wanted to see me because i was under the assumption that we were going out #so i sent him a passive aggressive message like heyy dinner was great thx for that xd and he was like what dinner?? #long story short he realized he fucked up again and invited me to dinner for realsies this time #but like. he isnt really inviting me? he and my niece were going to a kiddy place he promised he would take her and said i could tag along #i told him i realize now he just invited that to save face and to forget about it #but now im even sadder cuz i love my niece and she is always happy to see me... i just feel like im stupid or something #theyre going tomorrow and im debating on whether i should swallow my pride and go for her #i probably wont #im still not over it #anyway whatever i got work to do

[widevibratobitch]

i hate my uni sm lol i dont want to be heeeeere let me out let me out

#motherfucking dance classes. we have the exam in two weeks and the choreography's not ready. #we gotta meet up in our own free time without the professor and practise on our own and try out if something works or doesnt. on. our. own. #bitch like what are you getting paid for lol #i hate it here so much i didnt come here to dance #and i leave every rehearsal on the verge of a panic attack and with red welts down my arms from scratching myself to calm tf down lol #(ask me again why i became obsessed with the white haired beautiful princess with a disorder in record time lol I GET HIM) #its fucking mental torture to me lol #anyway now im getting passive aggressive comments in the groupchat because they suddenly decided that we need to meet #for another rehearsal. today in two hours. like bitch????? sorry that i have earlier plans?????? #i gently suggested that we should try to set the rehearsal plans earlier #and i even put a sad emoji at the end to show that im not trying to be a bitch lol #and now a girl im like actually friends with goes all 'thank you for your input jagoda im waiting for you to suggest something better' like #girl?????????? lol #but like it's whatever. apologised immediately ofc like why bother #anyway BASTA

[medicinemane]

And maybe you'll be like "but if you don't trust businesses, how can you trust welfare?"

I fucking don't. My mom trying to get on food stamps fucked me up because a lady I never met without my permission got my SSN from my mom and started editing my files. My heart still races to this very second whenever I think about it, it kinda messed me up bad and I'll never ever ever see any kind of recourse

And I'm terrified that I'm gonna lose my medicaid just cause I inherited some money from my grandpa

And I've never even applied for disability cause it kinda doesn't matter finding out if I'd qualify or not cause of my depression, when the rules are so restrictive I don't know if I've even be allowed to keep my house

I do not fucking trust these things on a personal level. I feel like out of a lot of people I have the most to fear from them cause I'm on the edge of having things work, and that gets you punished

...but I need medicaid in order to have insurance (and when you strip out the finance side of medicaid, I love medicaid... they're honestly incredible insurance... I just... I just... dental is like 90% of why medicaid is so important to me, ever since I found out this state pays for it I've actually been able to do cleanings which is important to me cause I can't always get myself to brush)

And I think things like disability and food stamps are pretty damn important on a personal level, and honestly are also good for the economy cause they get people spending... it's practically a free cash infusion into the economy, cause these are people who need to buy stuff

There's just so much important stuff welfare does that it's worth dealing with government

No, what I want is more accountability so if someone gets my SSN from a 3rd party like my mom they're held to HIPPA styles standards where that's not ok to access my files without my permission (She changed my fucking address and tried to get medicaid to investigate me for fraud! Never even met me)

Like have some accountability there and in every situation

Secondly I want less punitive focused rules. I'd frankly prefer bezos get on disability than smack down some poor sod cause they got $2000 in the bank or cause their friend lets them live with them for free

If there's gonna be a cut off on these programs, it needs to be a solid step above the poverty line, cause... by definition I assume poverty line denotes kinda the minimum expected income people can reasonably live off of, and if you take away benefits people are gonna lose a chunk of money to covering that stuff themself, so you need a buffer before you kick people off

I don't fucking trust the government for a second, I've actively been fucked by them and on a personal level I avoid everything but medicaid and only that cause everything but the money is pleasant to deal with and I kinda need it (honestly if I was rich I'm not even kidding that I'd rather give medicaid like $400 a month than some insurance company, I sincerely like them as insurance)

But I'd trust them a lot more if they were less punitive, less out to hunt me down and gut me cause someone handed me a fiver or cause I started to get on my feet, and if government employees had concrete rules they had to follow that were actually transparent and enforced

Like 90% of my problems with welfare go away if they're held accountable and there's less "catch the welfare cheats" mentality going around

I don't trust the government in the slightest, but sadly there some jobs it kinda has to do, so I'd just rather force it to be an open book where the public can keep an eye on it and if they step out of line there's consequences (sort of like I don't trust most mega corps but happen to sometimes need stuff from them... did you know literally every cell service provider has been illegally selling shit like your location data to random people like bounty hunters, and the FCC just slapped them with a fine that's 0.02% of their yearly incomes and debated even doing that? I even can offer a source on that)

...I don't trust much of any authority cause they constantly fail me and kinda screw me. Don't trust doctors either, but I still gotta go to them, you know? ...they're just... they're real bad at listening... so many systems need systemic change

(You know who I really don't trust is the cops. I could point to so many examples. My uncle doesn't trust cops either, and he's an ex Fire and SWAT paramedic, he worked with them and we still got into a long conversation where he basically tore into them far better than I can)

(I don't trust authority that's not accountable)

#anyway; if I'm a lousy cheat or whatever least they can do is give me a gun so I can solve that problem #shit makes me wish I was canadian so I could take advantage of their sick implementation of assisted suicide #what should be a system that gives people a choice about the quality of their life; and I don't think should be relegated to terminal illne #...there was... think he was dutch; had been burned by his girlfriend all over his body; was in constant pain #and he ended up using assisted suicide in the end cause he was just in constant agony... think that's his choice to make #but of course the canadian system concretely pushes people; mostly the poor and disabled; to kill themselves #not theoretically; as in literally says word for word to them 'you should really kill yourself; just sign here' #it's sick; it truly is #but for any americans that want to dunk on it; I'm telling you we're no better #we have the exact same miserable desperation and people (again; mostly poor and disabled) into despair #only difference is we don't offer assisted suicide #the underlying issues in the US and canada are so damn similar; so much of what's happening ends up being the same #you can't act smug just cause you only make people want to die instead of also offering to help #that's like saying that you're the good guy cause while you did everything you could to drive someone to the brink #get them fired; slash their tires; just cartoon level villain stuff to personally harass this person... at least you won't hand them rope #we have such similar systemic issues to canada; and I am explicitly telling you that like the people in canada that have said #'I can't take it anymore; disability doesn't cover my expenses and I can't get any help... I'm at my wits end so I'm gonna go die' #I'm telling you that I feel that same way; just without any eugenics agency I can call up #I'm really working to get things stable; but it feels like I'm teetering on the edge of falling into permanent failure #and... and I'll actually tell you the amount even though I don't like to mention money... makes me feel guilty #my gramps left me $27k; which sounds like a lot; but I got 20 windows that need redoing (house has a lot of windows) #...if they ended up being 1k each; that's most of the money gone; if they end up being more... #and I got a whole lotta other stuff I've been putting off like plumbing around here; need to replace that faucet #it's an amount of money that helps; but it's an amount of money that isn't gonna last #...that's like a year of bills; and my mom already needs me to pay like $400 to the propane bill since she got behind #I want to use it to... to try and really get my feet on the ground; but it might loose me my insurance... it makes me want to die #and not to be a selfish bastard; but if I could I'd like to try and take and invest a bit to maybe build some passive income #given that... that a job never seems to work out for me cause I fucking suck and cause like... my insomnia has me up at 5:30 am right now #mm tag so i can find things later

[here-there-were-dragons]

every time i think the "staff can do no wrong and any form of complaining or expressing literally anything other than "yaaay love it <3" with no further comments is bashing and literally evil we should never say anything that could even potentially be interpreted as mildly critical ever because ~some artist who worked hard on this is probably reading the forums and might feel bad if we ever express anything but praise~ also we must be constantly positive at all times unless we're passive-aggressively shaming someone for having an extremely polite and apologetically worded criticism and if you ask the staff for literally anything you had better be prepared to preface it with 3 paragraphs of apologizing for breathing air" attitude is bad on tumblr, i take one look at the forums, and holy fucking hell is it SO much worse on site

#i go for years at a time without ever bothering to look at fr forums #and then every time i do i remember why i stopped #it feels like a goddamned cult on there and every time i dip my toes i come out feeling slimy and sick #as if i just spent an hour being aggressively gaslit by my extremely manipulative grandmother #what the fuck is wrong with everyone #i'm glad i decided to keep this creepy fucking fandom at arm's length and mostly just lurk years ago #that place is not a healthy environment for anyone to be in #flight rising #legitimately the single worst fandom i've ever had the misfortune of being adjacent to #and in such a creepy and insidious way too #they'll call you an entitled whiny baby to your face and then convince you it's your fault and you're a horrible person for feeling offende #it feels like being neck deep in the absolute worst kind of preformative sj spaces #you know the ones where everyone interacts primarily via callout posts and there's discourse over if crossdressing is cultural appropriatio #that kind of toxic sj space type energy #but somehow combined with like this weird feeling of being in a mormon church in a deep south town #where all the “nice grandmas” will try to put poison in your food if they find out you're gay or voted blue even one time #and it's somehow gotten SO much worse since the last time i looked on there #they've got people literally apologizing for existing what the fuck how is this normal to any of you people #this is so far beyond toxic positivity it's like. crossbred with passive-aggression and shaming and metastatized into something new entirel #it's terrifying. i hope flight rising never shuts down just so that whatever the fuck this is can stay semi-contained. #pro tip: the more a fandom is universally convinced it's Wonderful and Welcoming the faster you should run the other way #actually good fandoms don't have to constantly reassure themselves and everyone that they're great and perfect and toxicity-free #nor do they react with immediate borderline violence to the slightest suggestion there might be anything wrong with the fandom culture #anything wrong other than “people like you who think there's something wrong with our perfect community” anyway #on that note also any fandom that insistently calls itself a “community” just. yeah. no. #get out while you still can. #fandoms work on corporate logic if they're trying to convince you they're your family or friend that's not just a red flag #that's a whole damn red fabric store

[arthur-r]

as usual i am up late into the night planning my future when i should be: getting a good nights sleep so that i even have a future!!

#i have work in seven and a half hours. so i should really be getting to bed #BUT i officially made my final definitive degree plan!!!! i mean not the actual classes but all the requirements i have to meet and how!! #(in order to earn: history and information science double major. with certificates in material culture and classics) #and i’m genuinely excited for every single class i have to take except for human-computer interaction #just cause i know it’s gonna get overly technical in ways that won’t quite apply to my future #anyway every single other thing i’m gonna do is very cool and exciting. so everything is good really #but i should be sleeping. and i’m not. as usual 🤧 #idk wish me luck!!!! i’m so hyped about my degree plan though #i’ll go into more detail another time. i’m very excited #ANYWAY goodnight!!!! can’t be so busy planning my future in library science that i DONT GO TO MY SHELVING JOB #kind of important to actually go to work for the library that employs me…. #and then i might go see a first-printing roget’s thesaurus!!!! or i’ll sleep. we’ll see #followed by lunch with GUY WHO IS THE WORST KILL HIM WITH HAMMERS #(there is nothing really wrong with me he just keeps kind of being mean to me and also expecting me to fall in love with him. but like #extremely passively and not manipulatively it’s just like. hey buddy you’re doing this friendship wrong….) #anyway then i have a class and after that i have an hour to rest. and then a phone call and then a lot of homework #(ten page paper draft due in a week and a half!! so it’s time to start writing the actual body of it) #and then i sleep for a LONG time and then work again on saturday. and then sleepover with somebody i have a crush on?? #and then be normal all day on sunday and do a little more paper writing. and programming homework. and whatever else #and then keep up with the slog for three weeks!!!! and all of a sudden it’s summer!!!! #projects left this year: material culture paper (entirely unstarted. but may research the thesaurus and just win!!!!) #history project (draft due the monday after next and real paper due a week after classes end) #one more programming assignment where i adapt my recipe doubler project (probably. it’s getting stupid at this point but it’s what i got!!) #and a programming test in two weeks and then the final a week after that. then no more programming #and then i just have my weekly latin tests and a latin final on may 5th. and then EVERYTHING IS DONE #ok i got this. sorry for walking through my schedule in the tags it’s how i remember what’s real #can’t believe my fucking partner just kind of walked out on me there hello???? like. we should be powering through finals together #but i’m genuinely better off without him so i guess it’s just whatever. trash took itself out or something?? #anyway. i’m so regular. and i have work in the morning. and i’m going to sleep #thank you world. goodnight

[elvesofnoldor]

the vampire lestat in audiobook format is 24 hours long and i finished listening to it in a week, meanwhile merrick is only 8 hours long and it took me three weeks to chew through the whole fucking thing. it's not even very badly written, i just really hate it when anne rice turned the dial up to 11 on her Sympathy with the P*dophile bullshit

#idk how i kept misspelling merrick but anyways i finished it. i hate it. i have gotten it over with #p*dophile(s). there's two of them and i'd say they kept jerking each other off but really it's just david having a crush on louis #sometimes i think louis is just straight :\ and for lestat's sake i hope he isn't but :| #merrick forced louis to fall in love with her and he had zero problem with it #meanwhile lestat turned him a vampire when he briefly changed his mind and boom! 60 years of abuse from monsieur pointe du luc #the numbers just don't add up #mae overshares #the book is just so unsatisfying. i know this is the book where louis' superiority complex comes to die. except that...did it? #this dude would insist on looking weak and pathetic just to prove to whoever the fuck that he's superior than other vampires #he thinks he's exampt from the cycle of violation and death these motherfuckers are all trapped in but he isn't! #and when claudia's ghost showed up (plus her diary entry) reminded him of it. merrick just turned around and told him that the ghost lied #???? ik this woman has her own issues having a crush on her surrogate father 50 years senior than her but ???? #and then louis tried to use suicide bait to get lestat to get back together with him or whatever #and then it didn't work he got mad and wrote 'tell lestat i can't wait to leave him' in his pathetic little suicide note #this bitch made sure he wasn't gonna actually die. he acted shady and abusive yet again. and got. well. rewarded for it! #cause lestat showed up at last ANYWAYS and reluctantly gave 99% of his blood to this fucking guy #louis' so-called love for lestat is the most hurtful passive agressive fucked-up 'love' i've seen in fiction #do not enjoy that shit at all! maybe im just too vanilla but their relationship is literally torture #good to know they got married in the prince lestat trilogy. yeah that meant nothing. lestat would have been alone. as always #im done talking shit abt louis but god. need to blow off steam

[shrimpmandan]

I haven’t posted acecourse anything in forever bc I honestly don’t care but my new acecourse hot take is that Wikipedia explains things better than anyone on here ever has to me

#personal #I did not fucking understand what a QPR was or how aspec labels worked for my. minimum 3 years on this site #(probably longer for overall exposure to the terms) #bc people would wrap it up in like weird metaphors and shit that just sounded dumb and vague to me #and then I go to wikipedia and wikipedia's just like ''here's the difference between primary and secondary attraction'' #and ''y'know what an intimate relationship is? ok so it's like that but non-romantic'' #that clicked with me more than whatever vague passive-aggressive education bullshit goes on over here . #wikipedia made me realize I was demisexual not tumblr aces going #''oh it means being attracted to people you're close with'' #like duh everyone does that #breaking down primary and secondary attraction was the thing for me #am i just severely autistic. am i insane. maybe #but it's actually fucking incredible how much simpler it is to explain concepts when you aren't trying to be metaphorical and vague with it

[bunnyb34r]

Idk why people underestimate my stubborness/willingness to stick to my guns ab something like you're gonna find out and you will not be happy bitch. Don't play chicken with me, I'll take you out. I'll take us both out before I even THINK ab conceding.

#marquilla #my moms niece has been bouncing around who's address she sends her mail to (without asking) bc she doesnt have an address #(it's voluntary homelessness. she is perfectly able to obtain an actual place to live but she gets gofundme money from scammers this way) #anwyay im firm ab her not sending it here so im sending back everything to the post office with a 'return to sender. adressee does not live #here' written on it and im going to be doing it IMMEDIATELY after getting the mail so my mom can't take it and enable her #like im not fucking joking idc if it's bills if it's w-2s or whatever i did not give consent for you to use my address. get a po box #fuck around and find out you fucking murderer. i do not enable nor associate with the people who are responsible for the death of 3 #of my closest family members. i do not reward them i do not enage with them. i dont fuck around #and i get home before mom so i have the full ability to do this too. i told her to tell her she is not allowed to do this. im following #through. #ive done this at work when FGM wanted to change my shift. when he wanted me to work another area. when he decided to fuck with me. #him and bratboy learned real quick not to mess with me. #im probably gonna delete this later im just mad #i know mom isnt happy with my plan but well if you allowed her then YOU did not ask me and I do not consent to this. #malicious compliance too bc she does NOT live at my address so im not lying. im merely stating a fact. im merely returning mail that should #not have been sent to me. #fuck around and find out bitch. ill burn us both before i even think ab helping you. get fucked #just bc im quiet and nice does not mean im passive

[sodrippy]

having chronic symptoms makes me put everything my body does on a three strike system, like oh youre hurting? ok i will give you one day rest one day stretches one day movement. oh youre STILL hurting? well unless you kill me i no longer have time for this goodbye forever 👍

#like alright dude you have lost my sympathy. its over. #<- talking to my own muscle and bone #so whatever though like girl you think you will best me? ME?? i passively ignore pains you cant even fathom 😤 #but yk i cant keep being precious about it im just gonna keep working out like normal now i gave it three days of rest and stretching #and it still fucking hurts :/

[mantisgodsdomain]

Winning a prize personally by being someone's "well, this trope isn't usually my style, but i know this author is Really Good at writing so i'll check it out anyways" author

#we speak #if you are the person we're talking about here: points at u. <3<3<3 #at some point we will post works that are slightly more fluffy #but unfortunately you will have to deal with the fact that we fucking love morally dubious idiots and we also fucking love Situations #at all times we are looking between our works where bad things happen and our works where its just a passive Emotion Swirl #and then picking Bad Things Happen bc we think its fun #eventually we will get around to fluffier stuff we're just allergic to not swirling in a few bonus emotions #we are sorry but we have tried! we cannot write straight fluff. we need smth extra to make it interesting #otherwise our brain simply Does Not latch on #we salute the brave fluff makers out there for being capable of creating straight up fluff its not generally our style and we dont know #how to make it #is it really a tender moment if u do not get there through daring ur friend to eat u while still like 50% sure u might die #perhaps with a tiny bit of the impulsive want of “if im going to risk death then its gonna be at the claws of someone i love” #we think not. also bc something something love we find the need to note our vi is Very Aro. this is due to The Aro Anxiety #us writing anything about love: but what if they think its... ROMANTIC??? oh gods the horrors the horrors #that said we do not think team snakemouths relationship fits into any relationship definition #and if we ever write a relationship chart for whatever reason their dynamic will be listed as “team snakemouth” #right next to mothiva and zasps “in love and incapable of not being weird abt it” and levi and celias “married (immigration purposes)" #they sure are team snakemouth. people look at them and go “thats team snakemouth all right”. #you could ask thirty different people and get thirty different answers as to their relationship and they would all be wrong #anyways. we've derailed somewhat. we are part of the *checks* #...77.1% of the whump community that is aspec and we like to do funky fresh pain things #alas it is one of the many things that must be tolerated about us and our writing. however if u follow us ur probably fine #we are most obnoxious on our tumblr blog where u have to choose to enter bc we are secure in the knowledge that u can leave at any time #we dont need to tone ourself down here! theres a bunch of buttons u can use to choose our volume for urself! its fucking great! #gods we love being obnoxious on the internet it is SO much fun. more people should do this #its also fun to post things abt fics that we may not finish for months at a time. we love to do that #we will get around to all of our works eventually but the wait will be Long. in the meantime u get to see us talking abt how cool we are

[sulphurofftheclock]

The desire to self-project onto 4*town is so strong

#currently on the chopping block: a phobia #i have.... an interesting phobia LMAO #and i lowkey wanna wrote something about one of the members having it #but it's highkey niche #and yk i have another fic that i really should be working on #you know those one shot collections that will be like: imagine this character had this phobia? #never seen mine in one of those #i didn't think it was that uncommon? #but whatever ig 😭 #i'd probably give it to T for no reason other than comedy #'holy fucking shit get it away from me!' - T probably #but in all honesty i don't think it suits any of them #and tbh i don't r e a l l y like fics directly focusing on a characters phobia they're just not for me #so i'd rather a character passively have it #maybe that's for future writing endeavours #i've been thinking about writing a novel you see #i have one in progress fun fact #but this would be a different one! #two guesses what it would be about #... #......... #a plane crash LMAO #it's my favourite trope what can I say? #and there will probably (definitely) be a boy band so maybe one of them can have the phobia #which would actually be very interesting in a wilderness survival setting #ANYWAYS wow that was some rambling #4town #4 town #4*town

[apocketfullofhobbits]

i hate living with an old person actually anyone who romanticizes the intergenerational martyrdom of taking care of older people in various degrees of physical and/or mental disabilities owes me 1000$

#sometimes old people are not quirky kind weirdos #or whatever movies and books paint them as #sometimes they are stinky black holes of passive aggression sucking the energy of everyone around them #if u are stuck in situation like this and don't have the option of sending them to the old people house or whatever they are called #u have all of my sympathy #if u never been there or if u get off of being a martyr shut the fuck up then #i am so unbelievably tired #of breathing in the death fumes every single day #and being made to feel bad for not loving it #does that make an ableist? yes and i don't. give a fuck #it's hard and awful and ungrateful work taking care of someone who wasted all of their health #refused to take precautions didn't listen to the doctor's recommendations #and is now sitting there and acts like it's my fault #I'm so tired

[ryanthedemiboy]

Sometimes I remember my single worst customer service experience — by a long-shot — was with a guy at my grandma's cancer doctor, trying to schedule her chemo.

I don't care how bad of a day you're having, you're working with extremely vulnerable people, you don't take that mood into work.

#i went from frustrated but understanding to pissed in under a minute #i was using my telephone voice and being fucking nice and explaining the situation #and he kept interrupting me and being an ass #it wasn't even the misgendering #you can say ''ma'am'' all you want you're still interrupting #it's been like two months and i'll occasionally remember and get pissed all over again #not because of how i was treated but because i was fucking nice (and not the passive aggressive way or the ''i'm pissed'' nice either) #and he was shitty to me #how many vulnerable people has he been shitty to? #if it was my gma making the call she would have had a fucking meltdown #if you're going to work with vulnerable people you suck up whatever's going on with your life or you don't work there

[astranauticus]

god help me so i started playing slay the spire and like, i've only tried the first 3 characters but my favourite, with 1000% certainty, absolutely no questions asked, is the defect. really not beating the robot guy allegation huh

#asto's tales #i mean im laughing but what the hell man #first WX-84 from dont starve now this #i just really love the orbs mechanic okay #having a little dude to passively do stuff for you after you're done with your whatever is like #my favourite rpg combat experience #and after the initial what the fuck is going on the orbs are a great way of making that work #i just think theyre neat! #also a lot of the defect's cards are straight up computer science humour which #a lot of it is pretty basic but idk i find it really cute #like damn buddy you sure are recursing! #hello world is one of my favourite cards for the robot

[rubys-domain]

really trying to stay up because my mom wants me to go with her to church tomorrow. i know it's a rather childish tactic, but i really don't want to go

#⇢₊˚⊹ 🩷∥ruby∥yo，ide yo !! #tw religion #tw family #i feel like i'm 15 again jesus fucking christ #only this time it's guaranteed to work cuz i'm not a minor anymore #ergo she has significantly less power to drag me to places i don't want to go #she can't come pounding my bedroom door anymore that's for sure #at most she'll probably just be passive-aggressive towards me for a while. which like，whatever #nothing i haven't dealt with countless times before #god staying up late was way easier back then tho #i'm legit dying a little rn #also what the fuck prompted this anyway. why the sudden want to go to church #the last time we went was literally six months ago or some shit #and even then we hadn't been church regulars in years #i feel bad for avoiding her like this and not giving her what she wants #but at the same time，this is the one non-negotiable i have #i know it's not going to. but i hope that it sends the message that i'm really，truly done with the christian bullshit #and that no amount of forcing me to go to church is going to “save” me