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#i suppose it's nice that other people are feeling validated by this post but literally it is one of the most upsetting and infuriating takes

I sent 1 gift in 2022

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

wake up babe new pain scale just dropped

Discernible

Distracting

Distressing

Disabling

(Wish I Were) Dead

16 notes - Posted February 13, 2022

#4

he is wearing BOOT SOLES as PAULDRONS, this KID

(@kedreeva, mkp's znation liveblog, take 2)

19 notes - Posted May 17, 2022

#3

Was trawling back through my AO3 history and I started deleting deleted fics, which reduced the page count by like, 20 before I’d even gotten a 200 pages back from the oldest entries, so this is your reminder to check out and regularly use @nianeyna‘s ao3 downloader!!

(all gods bless you for sharing that, for serious, especially the pinboard functionality as apparently I AM a fandom dinosaur which is hilarious and somewhat inspirational at the same time)

(I am having some difficulties now finding and downloading the stuff I missed because it isn’t bookmarked on Pinboard from the AO3, only from LJ or whatever, which is why I started trawling my history in the first place and huh it looks like for the first few years I only left kudos when my head had been practically blown off, unlike my current categorizing system of ‘seen - tried, didn’t like’, ‘kudosed - read, liked’, ‘pinned to pinboard - read, liked enough to re-read’, ‘bookmarked on ao3 - read and holy shit i need a quick link to this fucker so i can read it again immediately on demand, and/or oh hey! series!’)

(I’m trying to make use of some other Python utilities I found for scraping my personal AO3 reading history but uh. I keep running into problems. u_u)

24 notes - Posted March 16, 2022

#2

D&D as Disability Metaphor

N.B. Most of the ideas herein about spell slots/cantrips and mana/health points were sourced from various tumblr posts; please reblog with links if you have them! Also reblog with additional links to those tumblr posts about forks and knives!

In this metaphor, YOU are a D&D/RPG character!

Your CHARACTER BUILD reflects your strengths and weaknesses. 

First: you have your basic STATS – INT, CON, WIS, DEX, STR, CHA – these are primarily determined by your baseline nature and your early nurture. (e.g., you may be born with a certain facility for learning, a natural sense of balance, perfect pitch, etc., or you may have spent much of your life playing sports and building strength and dexterity, or have been forced by circumstance to become Very Good at identifying people’s true motives and/or playing the part you need to play in any given situation, etc.)

Secondly: You have your basic ADVANTAGES and DISADVANTAGES. These are primarily determined by your baseline nature but can be affected by nurture and change over time just as you do! 

For example, you may be vision impaired – any task requiring good vision will have you at a natural disadvantage that can be mitigated by the use of an accessory or tool. So long as you have your accommodation, your natural disadvantage is entirely or partially nullified – instead of a negative 3 to skill checks involving vision, you might have a modifier of only negative 1 or even zero!

Another example: 

You might be autistic or have other sensory processing issues that mean certain textures are ILLEGAL – any time you’re required to interact with that texture, you have to roll a WIS save to see how it impacts you. 

On a bad day (in the metaphor, you roll a 1), you might be completely incapacitated for a time. On a good day, you might be able to use a positive modifier from a learned skill like DISTRESS TOLERANCE or DISENAGE to overcome the badness and only be partially incapacitated, or maybe not even incapacitated at all, just inflicted with a DEBUFF of some kind for a period of time. (This gives you a negative modifier for future skill checks and saving throws until the debuff expires or you take a LONG REST.)

On any given day, your disability (physical, mental, developmental, etc.) may give you a GENERAL DEBUFF that affects your skill checks and saving throws. 

For example, if you have bipolar disorder and are in a depressive episode, you might have a negative 1 modifier to any social interaction, even if ‘normally’ you have a plus 3. 

Or you might have chronic migraines and be having a debilitating headache that actually precludes the use of some skills/spells/actions at all – you might be incapable of leaving a dark room or of using your computer/phone.

Thirdly: In general, you can think of your overall capability to COPE as mana points, stamina points, spell slots, or anything similar. SPELL SLOTS is the easiest metaphor, just because of how the magic system is structured.

You have a given number of SPELL SLOTS on any single day, although a DEBUFF might reduce your baseline of slots for the day or a BUFF might actually give you an extra one! These spell slots correspond to the energy needed to perform various activities/tasks. The more difficult the task, the higher level of spell slot is required. BUT! If you’ve already used your third level spell slot for the day and need to “cast” another third level spell (another difficult activity), you can sacrifice multiple lower level spell slots in order to do so, with the disadvantage of having fewer slots left until your next LONG REST.

Some activities don’t drain you at all and can be done at any time (in this metaphor, they can be considered CANTRIPS). Some might even return used spell slots! (Think of this as taking a SHORT REST.) CANTRIPS are typically less effort or are of such benefit that they cancel out the level of effort required. They vary wildly based on the individual. An example for one person might be listening to an audiobook or taking a hot shower, while a different person might consider both of those first level spells.

Finally: The final part of this metaphor switches genres a little bit, so bear with me. This doesn’t tend to happen in the most well-known tabletop RPGs, but you’ve probably seen it in other popular media. Sometimes, you’re completely out of spell slots / mana / stamina, but you’ve got something you absolutely HAVE to do – either because it’s a necessity for your survival, or because you simply care about the thing so much that you’re willing to borrow against your future self.

In this kind of situation, you can ‘borrow’ spell slots from your future self (meaning you use it now, and therefore don’t have it available to use the next day), or you might start using your own health points in place of the missing mana. 

Think about in fantasy media, when the magic user runs out of magic in the FINAL BATTLE and starts sacrificing their own life force to continue powering the spell. In some circumstances, they might drain themselves so completely that they can never use magic again, or it takes them years to recover. Similarly, a person with CFS who pushes themselves too hard one day might end up bedbound for days, weeks, or even months following. 

Another example: 

Someone with a torn ACL who stresses it during the healing process might find that it never heals completely/properly, permanently affecting their athletic ability.

TL;DR – D&D is actually a great extended metaphor for both short-term and long-term disabilities and how they impact a person’s life! 

But it does. Uh. Require some background in RPG terms and tropes in order to fully understand it. If the person you’re trying to explain the concepts to is completely unfamiliar with RPGs, you may be better off with sticking with something more basic like Spoon* Theory (or the Unified Cutlery** Theory).

Citations etc. under the cut.

*See Christine Miserandino's spoon article here: https://butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/. Learn more @thespoontheory

**Unified Cutlery Theory, very overly simplified: Spoons = Energy, Forks = Things That Make Your Spoons Worth Less, Knives = Something You Need Help Addressing Or It’ll Make Things Worse

See @jenrosess' original post here: https://www.tumblr.com/jenroses/635100154258735104 and the update including knives here: https://www.tumblr.com/jenroses/635100154258735104/sheepscot-cipheramnesia-jenroses-have-i

(Apparently there are two competing Fork Theories? The one I'm used to is the one referenced above.)

***Mana and spell slots metaphors are really hard to source, y'all, so if you have links please add them in your reblogs!

71 notes - Posted December 5, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

testing something

525 notes - Posted October 22, 2022

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[playing-god-with-mkp]

The Big Damn List of Mer-CC

because I bought Island Living a week ago since it was on sale and have since been making mermaids and scouring the internet for moar mermaid cc nonstop.

note: this is not comprehensive; these are the CC I have personally downloaded.

Last Updated: July 21 2021

Tails & Scales (Sets)

TrudieOpp

Mermaid blue scale set (Island living) - TrudieOpp (TSR)

Pearly mermaid set (Island living) - TrudieOpp (TSR)

Mermaid tail (Island living) - TrudieOpp (TSR)

NEMO Mermaid tail and scales pack - MattPL (TSR)

Jaru Sims

Mermaid 7 - SET - Island Living needed! - Jaru Sims (TSR)

Mermaid 6 - SET - Island Living needed! - Jaru Sims (TSR)

Mermaid 5 - SET - Island Living needed - Jaru Sims (TSR)  

Mermaid 4 - SET - Island Living needed - Jaru Sims (TSR)  

Mermaid 3 - SET - Island Living needed - Jaru Sims (TSR)  

Mermaid 2 - SET - Island Living needed - Jaru Sims (TSR)

Mermaid 1 - SET - Island Living needed - Jaru Sims (TSR)

Mermaid Gradient Tails Scales And Seashells - tashamaria (TSR)

AleNikSimmer

Top 14 - EP07 Needed &  Bottom 14 - EP07 Needed - AleNikSimmer (TSR)

Top 11 & Top 12 & Top 13 - EP07 Needed - AleNikSimmer (TSR)

Bottom 15 - EP07 Needed  - AleNikSimmer (TSR)

Iulia Mermaid Tail + Top - Sagittariah (TSR)

Redheadsims (@redheadsims-cc)

SIREN MERMAN (tail, “top” with fin-like skin details and webbed fingers) - @redheadsims-cc 

SIREN MERMAID (two variations of tail, “top” with spinefin and webbed fingers, sharp teeth, custom skin) - @redheadsims-cc

Island Living - Male/Female custom recolor - linkster123 (MTS)

Goppolsme (@goppolsme)

Mermaid Skin G2 / Tail G1 - @goppolsme

Mermaid Tail G2 (Tail & Bra) - @goppolsme

Mermaid Skin G1 (Accessories - Lip Ring (Right)) - @goppolsme​

Koi Tail & Koi Top - simmingwithboba (TSR)

Koi Mermaid Tails/Scales - Nenschan (MTS)

Goldfish Mermaid Tails/Scales - Teknikah (MTS)

Tails

Fish Tails - New Mermaid Fins - ZentacularSims (TSR)

[Raxys] Mermaid Tails v1 & v2 - AfaGotica (TSR)

mermaid tail retexture - Urielbeaupre (TSR)

Pisces Tail - hoanglap (TSR)

20 new mermaid tails - Beeyuzu (TSR)

DanSimsFantasy (@dansimsfantasy​)

DSF Merman Tails (Aequor, Phalaenopsis, Triton) - @dansimsfantasy

DSF Mermaid Tails (Occeanum, Catatumbo, Phalaenopsis, Opalo, Beta) - @dansimsfantasy

Zaneida (@zaneida-and-sims4)

Web Mermaid Tail - @zaneida-and-sims4

Butterfly Fish Mermaid Tail - @zaneida-and-sims4

Luminous Water Mermaid Tail - @zaneida-and-sims4

Alien Grid Mermaid Tail - @zaneida-and-sims4

Galaxy Mermaid Tail - Nenschan (MTS)

Skintones

RemusSirion (@remussims)

Female Fantasy Skin 2 + Cleavage detail - RemusSirion (TSR)

Female Fantasy Skin - RemusSirion (TSR)

Male Fantasy Skin - RemusSirion (TSR)

Rainbow Skin - SweetCranberry (TSR)

Rainbow Skintone Set - Ms Blue (TSR)

Skinton for female sim mermaids Siren - yugoza (TSR)

41 Maxis Skins with Occult Tags - DizZyDiceS (MTS)

Ears, Scales, Fins, Gills, etc.

Zaneida (@zaneida-and-sims4)

Mermaid fins for arms and back - @zaneida-and-sims4

EFT mermaid freckle scales - elfreakingtoro (TSR)

Body Scales aka Gloves 1 - AleNikSimmer (TSR)

Mermaid scale tops unlocked-NOW WITH TATTOO VERSION - Bl00dstain3d (MTS)  

Leg scales for mermaids + chest scales - Karine78 (MTS)

Mermaid Scales as Accessory for.. - Maars (MTS)

Pyxiidis (@pyxiidis)

SIREN - MERMAID ACCESSORIES (Ears & Gills) - @pyxiidis

INTERGALACTIC - SUPERNATURAL OVERLAYS - @pyxiidis

INTERSTELLAR - A BUTT-TON OF ALIEN STUFF - @pyxiidis

GUN SHOW - FANGS  - @pyxiidis

MONSTER - POINTED TEETH - @pyxiidis

ALOHA! ADD-ON - EYES AND OVERLAYS - @pyxiidis

UNDER YOUR SPELL - AN EYESET - @pyxiidis

Jennisims (@jennisims)

EyeShadow Undine The Mermaid (face scales!) - @jennisims

Gloves Splash Of Color (scale tops as gloves) - @jennisims

Mermaid ears 'Swept' CAS preset - CmarNYC (MTS)

Zaneida (@zaneida-and-sims4)

Mermaid head flippers (with luminous ends)

Ears of Mermaid (with luminous ends)

Makeup

Suzue

[Suzue] Mermaid Lipstick N13 - Suzue (TSR)

[Suzue] Shadow Eyes

Jennisims

EyeShadow Disco Diva 80's (20 Swatches ) - @jennisims​

EyeShadow Disco Diva Fantasy Eyeshadow Male/Female (Alien/Humans) - @jennisims​

Taty (@taty86) [note: I am linking to Taty’s tumblr and TSR page and have some specific links below but predominately am just listing the ones I particularly like for merpeople, because they have so much fantasy cc)

Blushes: (Mermaid) | (Mermaid B) | (Mermaid 01) | (Fantasy 01) | (Fantasy 03) | (Fantasy 08) | (Fantasy 09)

Body Blushes: (female) (female B) | (male) (male B) | (kid)

Eyes: (Monster) | (Mermaid) | (Dreams) | (Dolly 06) | Sirenic) | (Dolly 16) | (Dolly 17)

Eyeliners: (Circle) | (18)

Eyeshadows: (22) | (42) | (46)

Lipsticks: (106) | (109) | (123) | (142) | (146) | (153) | (162) | (208) | (210) | (212) | (213) | (231) 

Other: (Fantasy Freckle) | (Fantasy Tattoo 05) | (Face Overlay 02) | (Face Overlay 03)

Reevaly (@reevaly)

Dot Blush V1

Fantasy Blush V2 

Alien Facepaint v5 | v4

Seleng

Eyeshadow N23 (TSR)

RemusSirion

Monster teeth Lip Detail (TSR)

Cortex Eyeshadow (TSR)

Ubiquitin Lipstick | Proteomics | Neon

EvilQuinzel

Banshee Lipstick (TSR)

Immortal Eyes (TSR)

sugar_owl

the hunger lipstick (TSR)

JUL_HAOS

lipstick 124

blush 9 | blush 10

ANGISSI

lipgloss - grim girl (TSR)

Accessories

[Ts4]Taty_Earrings_SeaShell - @taty86​

DSF Mermaid Accessories - @dansimsfantasy​

Suzue

[Suzue] Magie Headdress

[Suzue] Namida Earrings 

Blahberry-Pancake (@blahberry-pancake)

Aurora Crowns (v1, v2) / Earrings / Necklaces (v1, v2)

Treasure Earrings & Necklaces

Natalis

NataliS_Mother of pearl layered... 

NataliS_Mother of pearl beads...

NataliS_Double sea glasses necklace 

Seashell double necklace

Seashell drop earrings

Shell layered necklace

sugar_owl

Starfish earrings (adult) | (kid)

Starfish bracelet (adult) | (kid)

Starfish rings (adult) | (kid)

Starfish hair acc (adult)

Feyona

Seashell Pendant Necklace (kid)

Kid & Toddler Remixes

AleNikSimmer

Toddler “Tail” aka Bottom 11 plus Invisible Feet - AleNikSimmer (TSR)

Kid “Tail” aka Bottom 10 plus Invisible Feet and Nude Top - AleNikSimmer (TSR)

Zaneida (@zaneida-and-sims4)

Mermaid head flippers for children and toddlers (with luminous ends) - @zaneida-and-sims4​

Mermaid ears for children and toddlers (requires ‘no ears’ mod) - @zaneida-and-sims4

Nymph ears for children and toddlers (requires ‘no ears’ mod) - @zaneida-and-sims4

Poses

Mermaid Poses Part1 (In game) - Seiji

Atlantica Pose Pack - Beto

Atlantis Pose Pack - Beto

Love of the Sea Pose Pack - Beto

Miss Atlantis Pose Pack - Couquett

Mermaid Pose Pack - CazMari @cazmari-mods

Mer Poses - guycuk

Mermaid Poses - Yani

Mermaid Poses - HoneySims4 @honeyssims4

Mermaid Pose - RayGun @rayw05771

Underwater Beauty Pose Pack - @sciophobis

Game Mods

Expanded Mermaids - SpinningPlumbobs (MTS)

Sims 4: Three Mermaid Aspirations - marlynsims (MTS) *requires Seasons

Stand Still in CAS (Shimrod101 & Shooksims) - MizoreYukii (MTS)

No Ears Mod

Swim Around in Pools - Teknikah (MTS)

Other

Part Time Mermaid Top - PureSim (TSR)

Mermaid Tail Skirt - Cocobuzz (TSR)

Off-Shoulder Little Mermaid sweater by SIms4Krampus (TSR)

Pride Month Shirts For Mermaid Sims - Simder_Talia (TSR)

Eclairium_Really Mermaid Tank Short - EtroClaire (TSR)

CAS Screens Under the Sea (6 CAS Backgrounds) - @jennisims​

Fantasy Hair Recolors (Links to modder only)

Kalewa

Taty86 (@taty86)

PinkyCustomWorld (@pinkycustomworld)

Shimydim (@shimydim)

Lisaminicatsims (@lisaminicatsims)

MahoCreations (@mahocreations)

Wasssabi (@wasssabisims)

#playing god with mkp #playing dress up with mkp #big damn list #ts4cc finds #full fathom five my mer-sims lie #ts4 merpeople #playing the sims with mkp

[jarusims]

hey! I'm the blog behind playing-god-with-mkp, and I wanted to ask about whether or not it would be OK for me to share my child/male conversions of your fairy and mermaid outfits? I can see on your TSR profile that you're fine with recolors so long as the mesh isn't included, and they wouldn't be including the original mesh.

it is ok, the meshes are game meshes :)

[miraculouskpop]

MKP Series | Ladybug and Wolf

Chapter III: This isn't a Story.

Oh Sehun was quite the interesting character for a teenager. Quiet, calculating the objectives laid before him and taking haste action. Perhaps his actions are a little too immediate for understanding, but his intelligent excuses makes up for irrational decisions. His thoughts aren't too immature, at least he thinks so himself, and new talents keeps appearing whenever he learns a new subject. He’s smart, naturally attractive (although he could improve his skin tone…) and carry silent charm that woos both students and teachers.

Yeah, he’s everything losers want to be. So what? Like he gives a shit. Girls love him, boys want to be his posers and teachers ready to place him in honors class. It’s the sweet life, right? Perhaps. He doesn't consider it as sweet, but it’s a hell lot better than dealing with this shit.

This was an incredible case of stupidity. 

Yes, he admit that he made a terrible decision. It’s burning his ass every single day whenever snobs laughs at his failures. People assume he’s some quiet moron sulking through humiliation, hah! They don't know a genius when they see one…

“We meet again tomorrow at four. In the meantime, maintain the training and we’ll overview your new diet plan.” Diet plan. Cut this, remove that, reduce this amount and add more repulsive garbage to his digestive system. Four months in and Sehun is ready to succumb to his bubble tea cravings. It's horrible having sugar withdrawals and being restricted from eating bungeoppang, it’s living hell. Wanna know what else is horrible? Everyone treating him like some stranger. 

He’s not a stranger. 

Sehun left the studio with no one to accompany him. Oddly, this pang sat within his chest for days now. This feeling of deep loneliness, although it’s something he’ll never speak of publicly. Unfortunate to say, but he missed those ugly boys fawning over him, the girls constantly annoying him with cellphone requests. Sehun had to transfer to another school in order to reach distance between the dormitory and that cursed entertainment building.

Those bastards.

But it was him alone who signed the final line. Your fault. His mind whispers, and Sehun realized that he probably deserved it. He didn't know anyone, and it seems that nobody's interested in knowing him either. Maybe they all joined for one purpose, and that’s attaining SM’s official status as celebrity. 

Sehun walked briskly into the midnight hour. He didn’t want to be bothered with anyone, let alone deal with the summer heat radiating against his skin. He knew signing the contract would lead to rigorous training and mental stability, but he vowed he could do it. He can do anything if he just believed, right? If only his current actions would reflect the hopeful notion that he’ll succeed. But it really doesn’t matter, anyway. 

The teen stood at the stop light waiting for the electric sign to flash green. Sehun preoccupied himself by scrolling naver on mobile ((slow internet due to pissy coverage)) and played some hip hop music. The moment the light flashed green, Sehun pushed past the crowd. However, what Sehun didn’t realize he legitimately pushed someone, particularly an old man, onto the ground. Sehun froze in surprise, “I’m sorry sir. Are you okay?” He felt embarrassed and somewhat guilty to for not paying attention. Sehun bend his knees to help the old man, and then notice how short the elder was. The old man simply chuckled as he carefully grabbed his cane. “I’m quite fine,” he said, “Getting rather old for these late travels... Thank you young man for helping me. What’s your name, child?”

“Uh, Sehun. Oh Sehun.” It felt strange talking to an old man in the middle of the street. “Well then, Oh Sehun, would you like to attain a gift far superior than physical needs?”

Uh… 

Sehun stared blankly at the old man. What the hell is this guy talking about? “Um, not really-“

“I understand your hurting deeply. Your depression outweighs your confidence, and sometimes it is hard concealing sorrowful emotions.” Sehun immediately lunged on defense. How dare this ignorant old goon tell him that he’s depressed! He is not depressed! In fact, he’s doing a hell lot better than normal! This ridiculous pruned nutbag. “Excuse me, but I need to leave-“

“If you had the opportunity to become a hero, would you accept?” 

“Sure, yeah, whatever. I gotta go now. Bye.” Ugh, this man is giving him the creeps. Sehun raced across the street before the light turned red. He couldn't help but to shudder at the strange circumstance. What was that all about? Talk about weird. When he finally made it to the moderately fair dormitory, Sehun could feel his insides churn in distress. After abandoning his friends for his current lifestyle, he haven't met anyone rather interesting. No one bothers to talk to him, and his previous friends are too preoccupied with school clubs and other friends. 

Okay, it hurts. It’s nobody's fault but his own. Sehun released a dreary sigh before punching in the codes to the entrance. Better take a shower and go to sleep…

He made it up the stairs and unlocked the door. It’s considered a small officetel to some, and thankfully he doesn’t have to deal with crooks stealing his stuff. Darkness swallowed Sehun whole, yet he felt emptier than ever before. He trekked through the living room and into the bathroom, took a hot shower, changed into his pajamas and returned to the tiny space for a kitchen. He then ate a small bowl of whole wheat cereal and slices of an apple. Oh, how he missed sugar cereal…

Sehun walked to his bed and prepared to sleep when he found a box resting idly against his pillow. Huh? He doesn't recall a box. The teenager snatched it, opened the box and found an intricate metal watch inside. Hm, looks very nice. He pulled the watch out the box and inspected it. Tiny white paw marks trailed the edges of watch. In the center there was a symbolic white wolf with the hand formed as a silver paw. Behind the wolf was a full moon, and Sehun found it rather unusual for a watch, but nonetheless liked the design. 

Looks cool. Sehun slipped his wrist between the hooks and grinned. Wondered who would give him this? It fits his wrists perfectly…

There was a small click, and then a flash of bright light.

Sehun winced when the light began to fade. Like, what the heck just happened? The teen shook his head, and noticed something rather… Different. Different in what way? Well, there’s something floating in front of him. 

. . .

… What the absolute fuc-

“Excuse me, but if you’re planning to swear, please reconsider it.” That thing said. Holy hell, did it just spoke? What the hell is this? Sehun immediately back away in horror. He blinked, and blinked again. Hell, he even rubbed his eyes to ensure he wasn't seeing things. However, that floating thing was still there! “What the hell are you?!” Fear drowned out his senses as he continued moving away from the thing. Hair stood above Sehun’s neck when the thing flew towards him.

“Don’t hurt me!" Sehun covered himself in case the thing decided to possess him. 

Nothing. 

Sehun peeked to find the thing directly facing him. By its expression it seemed unamused, and its arms folded in a rather irritable fashion. “Cut the hogwash. You are the new miraculous holder, and I’m your guardian. The name is Apollo, by the way.” H-huh? Sehun looked at the thing in confusion. Wait. Thing isn't the correct word, but rather wolf. 

Is he, Oh Sehun, listening to a floating bobbleheaded wolf? “I must be crazy.” He whispered.

“Crazy? Hm, perhaps. But this situation is nowhere near insane. I am very much real, and your conscious is simply denying my presence, but don't worry, it’ll become accustomed very quickly.” “Apollo” said. 

No, no, this not real… It can't be! “Oh child, don't you know it’ll only make the circumstances more difficult? Just accept things as they are.”

“I… But…- you’re not real!” 

Apollo tilted its (his?) head, “Oh?” Its voice was deep for a tiny creature. “You are responding to me, so this only proves my statement. This is reality now, and your brain can easily process the situation if you only accept it.”

“What the hell are you?” Sehun sneered at the creature. Grey fur covered its entire body, leaving silver tufts by the edge of his jagged ears. Bright topaz for eyes, Apollo gazed at him, “I am a kwami. Specifically speaking, I am a seven thousand year old god inhibiting the body of a Eurasian canis lupis. Or wolf, if that would be simpler for you.”

“Why-“

“I’m assuming you're inquiring why I am here? Well, I honestly have no opinion. Fate destined us, and since I’m your new guardian I must teach you the ways of being an efficient miraculous holder. I am the god of protection, mobility and wisdom. I am the Alpha and the Omega, and I will guide you for where you need to be.”

Sehun grew confused, “What?” He didn’t understand any of this. A wolf god mention about destiny and guardian junk, none of it makes sense! “Miraculous holders are people inheriting a magical jewelry piece. We kwamis fuel the jewelry piece with our powers which gives the miraculous holders their own special abilities.” Abilities you say? A spark of interest captured Sehun. He didn’t understand the process whatsoever, but having special powers brought out the inner fantasy child within him. “So, if I accept you, then you’ll train me to become a skilled superhero?” Just imagine not only being a professional dancer, but an attractive badass superhero fighting crime with girls wetting their underwear every damn second.

… Omit the underwear part.

“Hm, exactly.”

“Okay, deal.” This is so… So freaking amazing. “So, uh, what now?” He already accepted this errm, kwami wolf, so it does it mean he already have magical powers? “If possible, may we properly discuss this over some tea?”

… Tea? “You drink tea?” Sehun asked in bewilderment.

“Oh yes, and I would gladly consume a bowl of tofu.” Tofu? When did a carnivorous mammal ever desire tea and tofu? “Okay… I don't have any tofu, but I do have tea. Is green tea fine?”

Apollo smiled, “Perfectly.”

And so, here Sehun sat at the table with a tiny wolf creature sipping away at some tea. “This watch is considered a miraculous, right?”

“Exactly. It represents the abilities of wolves, and might alter your own perception. You see, previous miraculous holders happened to release their inner “wolf” when paired with me. Not only does your physical appearance change, but your mental state as well.”

Sehun narrowed his eyes in suspicion. “What do you by mental state?” He doesn’t want to become a literal werewolf pissing and shitting all over people. Apollo held up a paw, “No need to worry, it’s nothing of what you would perceive. Your regular human senses would be heightened by the third cubed. I suggest when transforming to practice managing the senses before anything else, afterwards I'll train how to conduct yourself when fighting.”

“Do I defeat bad guys?”

“With this brewing evil I detect, you'll be battling more than akumas alone...” Apollo then lapped up some more green tea. Sehun had many questions to ask the kwami starting with these quote, “akumas”. What where they exactly? “To simplify your questions, an evil human decided to manipulate and abuse one of the kwamis. Keeping this in mind, the miraculous holder is abusing the butterfly kwami who can bestow any human being supernatural abilities. Since it’s manipulated into negative energy, these powered beings are titled akumas.” Akuma, huh? Sounds interesting to fight. “What powers do I get? Do I become awesome with badass weapons? Or like, I have psychic abilities and-“

“Relax yourself Sehun,” 

Wait.

How do this wolf know his name? He doesn't recall giving out personal information. “Yes Sehun, when I awoke from my slumber I already knew my wielder’s name. It’s the first step to creating an intimate bond.”

… Oh. 

Sehun slumped in the chair. Thousands of thoughts attacked his mind relentlessly, and it begged the question. Why him? What does he have to offer? Looks? “Why am I chosen? I mean, like, it’s not like I wanted to deliberately help people. I’m not exactly superhero material…” More likely anti-hero because it’s sound way more cooler. Apollo looked at Sehun with a sarcastic, “are you serious?” Look. “I honestly have no conclusion. But you’re selected to become a miraculous wielder. Regardless, would you like to try out your abilities for testing?”

“Hell yeah! " Sehun shouted, then he quickly resolved himself. “I mean, sure, I’ll try.” Guess he can miss a night of sleep for this. “You have to state my name, then the term, “howl shift,” and-“

“Apollo, howl shift!”

“Wait! I’m not finished-!“ Apollo couldn’t complete his sentence for he was sucked into the watch.

#ml #miraculous #miraculous ladybug #miraculous kpop #miraculers #au #fanfiction #kpop #exo #f(x) #blackpick #bts #fiction #fanart #tikki the kwami #apollo the wolf #chapter three

[illidanstr]

tchtchtchtchtch asked “Champagne”

what topic could you talk about for hours?

Starcraft still like it’s just the best thing 

like when MKP was a god on crack steroids and meth playing at 10x speed with overwhelming micro and brutalizing everyone and storming every tournament

but he couldn’t take a single series off MVP again and again 

like MKP would go in for an attack and everyone would be like “yeah MVP deaaaad” and MVP would know that the “kill or be killed” switch had clicked on and that MKP was gonna kill him or die trying and he would be flying his buildings around to block and spending all his money on bunkers and send all his civilians out to die enmass to buy a couple puny worthless seconds and everyone would be like “woaah what is going on MVP is just being dumb he will hold this easily now but have thrown away his entire economy for no reason” and then MKP would suicide up that ramp and throw every micro trick in the book and use every little bit of traction he had and make it to the very damn top 

and MVP stopped him with like, a couple dying units and a burning building left and MKP quit 

and everyone was like “oh MVP is god and always right we forgot” 

and shit like this happened like 10x and it was always MVP who won every single time even though MKP was winning against EVERY OTHER PLAYER

#starcraft #this is called having someone's number #like winning at rock paper scissors 50x

[playing-god-with-mkp]

Meet MKP’s Mermaids!

It’s late so I don’t have the cognitive functioning level to actually give credit by individual piece of CC, but shout-out to the following blogs that I know I used their cc for: @jarusims @zaneida-and-sims4 @dansimsfantasy @jennisims @sclub-privee @taty86 @pyxiidis​ @remussirion​ @tekri​

#playing god with mkp #cc in action #mkp's merpeople #full fathom five my mer-sims lie #ts4 merpeople #playing the sims with mkp

[playing-god-with-mkp]

@zaneida-and-sims4 - fantasy/sci-fi/non-human cc! (THE ONE WITH THE MERMAID FINS)

#playing dress up with mkp #playing god with mkp #playing the sims with mkp

[playing-god-with-mkp]

All Cheats - Re-enables all the cheats the guru's blocked with the season's patch.

BuildCam - Enables the TAB camera mode in BuildBuy Mode.

Always FreeBuild - Forces Freebuild mode on.

Always FullEditMode - Forces CAS into Full Edit Mode. Pairs well with AlwaysTesting.

Always MOO - Forces MoveObjects On.

Always Testing - Forces TestingCheats True.

ClubCredit - Adds a cheat that modifies your club balances easily and quickly. Command: tm.clubcredit

DayWalkers - Allows vampires to be in sunlight without burning.

FullHouse - A cheat mod that allows you to manually add more than 8 sims to a household. Command: tm.fullhouse Lifetime Skills - Lets you carry over a % of skill value to their next-age equivalents. (There is also a variant that excludes the steel bladder perk for maxed potty skill)

LiveDrag - Allows you to drag any object while in live mode. Command: tm.livedrag_all

Sell Inventory - Allows you to sell entire household inventory in one command. Command: tm.sellinventory

No Weather BuildBuy - Removes snow, rain, puddles, and drifts while in buildbuy mode.

Vehicles - Cheat mod that lets you spawn high-resolution decorative vehicles. Command: tm.vehicles Vampire Toggle - Cheat mod that lets you stop vampires spawning (will convert any vampires to human on spawn). Command: tm.togglevampires

Values Toggle - Cheat mod to toggle character values. When values are off, any value changes will result in a neutral value (zero). Command: tm.togglevalues

#playing god with mkp #playing the sims with mkp

[shamelesslymkp]

god, every time I google ‘panic attack’ it makes it sound like that can’t possibly be what I’m experiencing, so then I google ‘panic attack vs anxiety attack’ and that’s definitely not describing the feelings I am having!!

WHY THEY MIGHT BE PANIC ATTACKS:

frequently come on without warning or provocation and very suddenly, all at once

physical symptoms are way worse than the cognitive symptoms, may not even be able to connect the physical distress to an actual stressor

tends to induce derealization

physical symptoms are intense and distressing, although I don’t feel like ‘I’m about to die’ - chest gets tighter, air has less oxygen, adrenaline, lump in throat

feeling of almost unbearable dread, like I’m not quite about to break apart but like it might almost be a relief if I did

not something I can be talked out of although talking to someone can sometimes make the symptoms improve slightly, if temporarily

WHY THEY MIGHT NOT:

panic attacks according to like, everything EVERYWHERE, are short-lived and last like, 20 minutes max whereas I have to sit with this shit for hours sometimes days (trait associated with anxiety attacks)

controllable to an extent; I can usually stamp down hard enough on it that I can at the very least get out of a public situation and/or do something that absolutely needs to be done; sometimes can distract myself successfully from the distress of it even though it hasn’t gone away

can often be connected retroactively with actual stressors, even if not identifiable at the time

I said they come on suddenly and that’s true, but it’s also not, not all the time anyway, because I sometimes can feel the ghost of it and have a sense that Something Is Wrong but not what before it ramps up sharply, kind of like how I get a very brief window of ‘migraine starting’ before the full force of it hits

in fact the times it happens with no warning at all it’s because something triggered it, which. doesn’t fit with the definitions I’m reading for panic attacks, but also those definitions don’t make sense to specify ‘without cause’ because aren’t PTSD panic attacks like, a well documented thing??

idk, I’m not worried I’m going to die or that I’m going crazy, I’m not AFRAID as such, I’m just. having my body do shit like it’s fight-flight-freeze time and that’s distracting as fuck and can be very distressing but is not entirely disabling since I can force my way through it if I have to, although admittedly I’m usually fully derealized and playing MKP at that point

idek what the point of this post is except that I’m trying to decide whether or not to take another xanax, that’d be my third today and my fourth this week and I don’t like that, I try not to take it except when absolutely necessary, but also, I feel like I can’t really swallow and like there’s not enough oxygen in the air and it really really really really sucks!!!!!!

#ain't no other mkp #bad brains blogging #just talk to your therapist mkp #just talk to your doctor mkp #also APPARENTLY i have like emotional alexythmia too #which is probably a surprise to no one but myself #well and my immediate family probs #who think i'm way too tuned in on what i'm feeling #but i digress

[miraculouskpop]

MKP Series | Ladybug and Wolf

Chapter IIII: Wolf Boy Yapping 

Sehun stumbled across the room with his hands buried into his face. Or what felt like his face. Either way, he couldn't feel anything with his senses going into overdrive. A huge migraine invaded his space and amplifying every single cell inside his brain.

His senses are going insane.

Too many scents are invading his nose. Coming from different directions, different smells and it’s overwhelming him. Sehun blinked, but everywhere appeared fuzzy. It happened so suddenly- he, he's not even sure if he…- wait, did he? Sehun tripped over his own two feet and fell to the cold floor. His eardrums rattled when the dishes clanked and trinkets shuffled, and pressed a hand against his ear…- wait a second.

… W-where are his ears?!

Tufts of thick hair covered the sides of his ears, and as his fingers combed further, Sehun panicked. He couldn't feel his ears, just more hair. He’s not going crazy, is he? Oh damn, this is bad. And then, he remembered. “...A-Apollo?” He whimpered. And yet, all he can hear is the students outside the dormitory, and it sounded incredibly loud as hell. Footsteps, doors slamming, shouting, laughter, music and television playing throughout the rooms. He can hear it all. Sehun tried to stand, but the headache clamped down on his mind. Dang it! Ugh, who knew being a hero meant suffering in pain? Within that moment, Sehun regretted even acknowledging the old man. He must've been a creeper looking for young victims to seduce...

That old man had something to do with this.

"Apollo..." Sehun could hear his heart rattling against his chest, and suddenly, he blinked. Something's different. By something, Sehun meant that he's different. His midnight pajamas completely gone, replaced by what seemed like a costume. Sehun slowly, but surely stood, carefully trying to process everything. He looked down at his newly adorned grey gloves, metallic watch bound by his left wrist, white paw prints trickling from his hands to forearms. The gloves were connected to his entire suit made out of spandex, and Sehun quickly walked to the bathroom. Ignoring the headaches, Sehun desperately needed to see the truth. Or rather, the result. And honestly, Sehun didn't even need a light to witness himself in this entire getup. In the darkness, Sehun saw himself with clarity.  Eyes blazing with a passionate topaz hue, and his average black hair transformed into platinum blonde. Woah. He stood in shock, wondering if the young man in the dark gray mask was actually himself. He touched the harden mask protected around the edge of his face, observing the intricate designs of the curved mask. And then, the moment Sehun flicked on the lights- 

“Holy crap!” 

Ears. By ears, he meant seeing two animalistic, furry-ass ears perched on the top of his head. What the heck is this? Is this what Apollo meant by releasing his inner wolf? His ears twitched, and then twitched again. Dang it, why are his ears constantly twitching?! Ugh, stop it! Sehun pressed against his newly found animal ears, and felt incredibly weird feeling his hands above his head. A silver hoodie hung above him with a flowing cape flowing from behind, all attached by what seems to be a simple dog collar. Black streaks marked the sides of his waistline to his thighs, and Sehun couldn't help but to brush against the black utility belk. Entwined with the belt was a gray shawl, wrapped around his midsection and, well, supposedly the tail dangling between his legs.

"Oh my god." He whispered.

He's officially a superhero. Well, maybe not superhero, but he looks freaking awesome. "Apollo?" He called again, yet heard the tangled noises strangling his ears. 

My apologies.

A voice deep and brusque infiltrated his mind, nearly scaring the living daylights out Sehun. "Where the heck are you?" Sehun had no clue where the little furball went, and hearing voices inside his head creeped him out. 

As of current, I am apart of your conscious. 

Wait, what?!

"Why are you inside my head?" Sehun hissed. He felt incredibly embarrassed talking to himself, but he had no other choice. 

Actually, you do have choices. And I can hear majority of your thoughts, I just choose not to respond. Regardless, I am here to guide you to proper heroism and how to conduct yourself as a miraculous holder. 

Wait, so he can think to himself?

Precisely. 

Okay, this is weird. Well, whatever. So what now? I guessed I transformed into... This. Sehun still felt the headache throbbing from the back of his head as he returned to the kitchen. Everything still felt so surreal to him, turning into some wolf boy smelling different scents, mostly garbage and sweaty bodies. 

You leave the facility to experiment with your abilities. However, refrain from any unnecessary fighting. Then again, I honestly doubt you would be fighting anyone right now. 

Okay, but first he needs some medication...

Sehun walked towards the kitchen cabinet and whipped open the door. Only to find it completely empty. 

Damn.

I heard that. A hero must see the logic of the situation at all times for better improvement. Also, your headache will eventually fade as your body adjust to its amplified abilities. 

Okay, fine, whatever. Sehun snorted, walking towards the door to leave-

I wouldn't recommend that route. It's too public, and many will see you. The window will be the best exit.

... Wait.

You want him to jump out of the window?! "Are you freaking serious right now?" The least thing Sehun needs is broken bones, a ruined face, and death looming over him.

Of course! Did you honestly think I will allow yourself to be exposed? You must be stupid. 

"No way in hell I'm doing that! Apollo, you must be joking. I can't even walk two feet without a headache, and you're asking me to jump out of a window?" Don't the furball know how deep that fall is? Having the audacity to call him, Oh Sehun, a natural genius, stupid? The teenage tsked, feeling less interested in this entire idea. He might as well ditch this whole ordeal and call it quits.

Sehun, that is the first step in testing your new abilities. Risk is absolutely necessary! How can humanity prosper without curiosity and experimenting new ideas? We would still be in ancient times had it not been for risk! Well, and wars, death, devestation and other forced situations. You must place yourself in uncomfortable situations to truly understand-

Okay, he gets it. Geeze, no need for an hour long lecture. Sehun grumbled to himself, treading towards the tiny window and peered from it. Down below looked really low, and maybe a good twelve foot drop. His stomach lurched, and Sehun didn't deny the fear crawling through his skin. Should he really be doing this? After all, he might be hallucinating from diet restrictions and excessive vitamin consumption. Damn, he can feel his heart getting jittery again. Too far, too deep, and not enough reassurance. The newly transformed hero felt uncertain, eyes gazing down the possible death of the ground. "I-..." He stopped himself, afraid of speaking what he genuinely felt. Fear.

It is alright Sehun. I am here with you, and I will protect you.

Although it was a sappy statement, it was enough to push Sehun. He released a sigh, and without further notice opened the window. His heart leaped inside his chest when the fresh wind smacked his face, the midnight moon shining its light upon him. Oddly, his headache went away along with the brewing fear, and the teenager climbed over the window. His combat boots dangling from below, Sehun threatened Apollo with death if the little furry didn't rescue him.

And then, Sehun jumped.

He fell so quickly, Sehun was certain he'd die right then. The drop did horrors to the young boy, and Sehun nearly screamed.  His stomach churned and twisted, did a barrel roll and became a meme. He's going to die! But before Sehun landed to his death, something unexpected happened. Gravity shifted, the harsh wind becoming lighter and stomach softening from its cries.  It felt like soft pads beneath his feet, and without realizing it, Sehun landed carefully onto the ground with a gentle thud. 

. . . 

Still resting on his knees, Sehun stared at the ground in shock. "W-wha... What just...?" He couldn't bring himself to believe it, and everything happened so suddenly-

He fell from a window, and had survived! "Oh my god!" He's alive! And not smothered into the dirt! This... This is amazing! Apollo then told him how he needed better faith. Sehun stood tall and proud of his accomplishment, eager to explore the midnight town with his abilities. But before Sehun could dwell further on his excitement, a unique scent captured his nose by attention. No, it wasn't the intensity of the mowed grass and crisp emission of smog. The spoiling dumpster ten feet behind him and different smells of the human body all intermingled with musk, salt and grossness. At least, on this property it is...

No, it smelled incredibly... What's the word for it? Sweet. It smelled sweeter than lavender. A flowery touch to vanilla, maybe? Regardless, it really freaked Sehun out. Nowhere on this masculine, male-ridden property had feminine qualities whatsoever: no flowerbeds, no perfume, no trees, no girls, so where could this smell be coming from? Apollo inquired to follow the smell, and Sehun couldn't help but to agree. 

Run. Follow it. 

Sehun's instincts yapped at him to follow the scent. Don't allow it to fade away. He can't allow it to fade away- he must follow it! The teenager tried to control himself, but it felt incredibly difficult withholding his growing urgencies. It grew inside his gut, expanding further as Sehun stood his ground. But eventually, Sehun crumbled to his instincts and ran.

Running. Faster than Oh Sehun could ever imagine. Faster than a human being, wind fighting against his entire body as he sped through the fields into the neighborhoods. His abdomen clenching and body unaccustomed to this unusual experience. An adrenaline rush coursing through his veins as his feet pushed past normal speeds. No human being can run twenty five miles per minute, and when Sehun jumped he found himself soaring high above the post lamps. 

This feels amazing.

The inner child locked away was freed. Freedom! The chains completely broken, and for the first time in Oh Sehun's boring life, he laughed.

#ml #miraculous ladybug #miraculous #miraculous kpop #miraculous ladybug tales of ladybug and chat nior #au #kpop #exo #f(x) #fanfiction #fiction #fanart #bts #blackpink #twice #chapter four