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kikis-writing-world · 3 years

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hii congratulations on hitting your milestone! can i have an oscar character for the ships, please? i’m an entp 7w6 and i really like the enemies to lovers trope a lot but you can do whichever you think fits me the best! im a chinese girl, 5’2, and im kind of like shaped like a real proportional human person but squashed a little? like someone took my image, put it on a google doc and like the words were too much so they just made the picture shorter and now the pictures like not proportionate 😂 but like i tend to be really friendly, i think im a cheerful person and i try to be nice to people i meet. people have told me their first impressions of me are either that im quiet and academic or extraverted and sexual. i think i tend to be colder and introspective more naturally though and i kind of isolate myself sometimes. when i start talking though, its hard to get me to stop. especially if its about like sci fi or crime or philosophy or like psychology. some of my worse qualities are that i dont think im very hard working. i think i try to do the bare minimum most days and that gets me in trouble. i try harder socially more than i do, academically. this past year, ive been trying really hard to understand people and be more openminded because that doesnt come very easily to me. thats another thing- although im getting better, i have a hard time dealing with other people’s emotions and even my own. i kinda take a while to open up to people and mask insecurities by like... oversharing? like i pretend to be confident by sharing too much about myself, particularly sexually. i also tend to get into arguments without realizing im arguing with someone until im too deep into the discussion already 😂 i like arguing over petty ass shit when its fun and ironic (and when the other persons being chill too 🥰) but im always afraid i offend people because i also do that on accident sometimes. with a romantic partner, im very affectionate and i like to give a lot of praises and 👀 can i include the fact that i think im service sub? i just want to spoil my partner with love and do whatever they ask of me (within reason). i really like older music, just cause. i dont try to find obscure music but i get happy if someone shows me a song most people dont know because it feels like a ✨lil sekret✨ hobbies i like include singing and playing guitar and i love writing too. i also, since im in my own mind a lot of the time, i developed a lot of darker fantasies (cnc) and like i kind of hope my partner will be openminded enough to try it out but also kind and thoughtful enough to be cautious as we try it. i also really like sucking dicci so do with that what you want 😂 thank you so much and congrats again!

Thank you so much! I know you sent a second msg saying sorry for the long ask, but really it just gave me more to work with to pair you... and I pair you with Blue Jones. In the brothel version of the movie, I can imagine you working there. You say you’re open sexually and consider yourself subby, but don’t get emotions. I can see you being perfect to work there - and if you ever get a client that was looking to cuddle and talk, you’re just like “are you for real?” lol - You’d work for Blue, but you’d be his favorite girl. Slowly he’d start pulling you from other clients to spend time with him. It doesn’t take much to realize he wants to keep you for himself, so you adjust to that and start “serving” him, in more ways than one! He’d definitely be responsive to your darker side, too.

This movie is already like 3 AUs in one so where do I go with this? lol Let’s take it to a Crime Family/Mafia AU. You’re in the family. I would think your father was the Don when you were younger and maybe now your brother has stepped up for the job. You don’t really deal with the crime, don’t get your hands dirty. You’re just the family and you’re taken care of.

Blue works for your family. He’s some kind of underboss that runs the streets and does the dirty work. He’s high enough on the ladder that he comes by the family house often enough, is invited to the big dinners etc. The two of you tease each other a lot, but you kinda tease all the boys a lot. You can’t deny that he’s your favorite, but you know how complicated that would be.

I can see the two of you sleeping together, maybe it was after a drink or two (still sober, but just less inhibitions) and that’s what breaks the dam. Now you two are in it, and you can’t stop. You try to, but you both keep going back for more. I think one time, to avoid suspicion, he probably shows up with a woman to some event and it just makes you see red. You’re slapping and punching him when he explains she’s no one and it’s a cover. He finally gets you to calm down.

When the family finds out, oh fuck. You seriously think they’re gonna shoot him! You stand in front of him, begging your brother not to kill him. Blue wouldn’t be worried about himself, only you. He’d tell you to get out of the way so you don’t get hurt, and let whatever happen, but you refuse. With some pleading and crying, and you adamantly threatening your brother that you’ll kill him if he shoots Blue, they decide to let him live - after a bit of strong discussions that he’s with you because he wants to be and not to try to gain more status in the family. He gets a very stern warning though that if he ever mistreats you, they’ll make him dig his own grave.

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hey-hamlet · 5 years

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BNHA AU Ideas: Child of Fate (Parts 1 and 2)

Also on AO3!

TL;DR:

Chosen by the Fates for his many monumental futures, Izuku is gifted a 'quirk' at the age of 5. The ability to see and influence the strings of fate.

He will become a Hero.

But fate does not smile upon a hero any more than it smiles upon a worm.

basically, the 3 fates from norse myths are still kicking

w all the crazy shit that's gone on since the rise of quirks, fates are constantly getting harder and harder to predict or manipulate so they are kinda out of a job

so they say "fuck it, lets throw our hat in the ring" and decide to pick a "champion" of sorts

out of everyone, there is one child that sticks out a lot. he's plain-looking, but every future he's in is incredible. he's not always a good person, but he always brings about change of some sort, for reasons he believes are good ones

and they look at this child with his shining fate and think "this one"

bc the fates know what it's like to be jerked around by the universe, they ask him

"this is a deal we've done before, but we'll give more to you. trade us an eye and our powers will be yours to wield as your quirk, all we ask is that you live up to your fate"

they do the deal, the 4-year-old izuku gives up the sight of one of his eyes for the power of the fates

the quirk is registered as "all the odds" aka: he can see the odds of a certain thing happening

but that's not his quirk. he can see the strings of fate, follow them to see the different future outcomes, or pull at them, making some options more likely than others

the only person he tells the full details of his quirk to is Katsuki, bc the fates tell him he literally always tells Katsuki in the end, and it'll "save a lot of trouble", not that he knows that

Katsuki is very excited to know he becomes a top hero, but he makes Izuku promise that he won't change his future bc he wants to make it there alone

also, the major downside of izukus quirk? he can't see his own fate

and the futures he sees are only as complete as the information he has

ie, he could witness kamino ward, but the future wouldn't show afo or mini might beyond a vague blob

anyway izuku gets teased for his lame quirk for a bit, then stops bc everyone who teases him gets weirdly bad luck

its the fates, they love their baby champion and he said no killing people

but people who are good to him get good luck, so he's got the nickname cat, for black cat and lucky cat!

anyway, episode one kinda happens normalishhh, but he doesn't ask if he can be a hero, because he's going to be a hero, he doesn't care what anyone says, he will be

but when he sees all mights strings of fact he gets a really weird look at them, because something unnatural is holding one of them above the others. so he asks "who tried to seal your fate?" bc he has no brain to mouth filter

and all might, understandably, is confused by this tiny boy asking him a very very weird question

he doesn't even get a chance to go tiny before izuku does dead pale, and whispers "shit" allmight poofs tiny, izuku looks at him, yells "I WONT SAY ANYTHING" and running jumps off the roof. all might coughs up a lung but the kid was 'lucky' and stuck the landing

basically, w the appearance of the sludge villain, the weird fate he saw for katsuki that morning suddenly made a whole lot more sense

the fates guide him to katsuki as fast as they can, he arrives there just before allmight

anyway izuku is calling out for katsuki and lays eyes on someone in the sludge, he doesnt see who it is, he doesnt see their fate. he sees that flash of a hand reaching out for help and he's already leapt over the barrier

he grabs a bit of rubble from the ground and throws it at the villain's eyes, nails him right in the fucking eye, gets katsuki half out. but the villain is baring down again and its all izuku can do to try to keep katsuki's mouth free

allmight saves them

anyway, when izuku is walking home all might pops out of fucking nowhere and gives izuku a heart attack

"I SAID I WONT TELL ANYONE PLEASE DONT HURT ME MR ALL MIGHT SIR"

"KID NO WAIT"

does the: you are so stupidly heroic, do you want to be a hero?, izuku says: i sure fucking do

“whats ur quirk”

"oh funny that its,,, its a little weird."

"oh?"

"i can,,,, see and influence the strings of fate"

"oH THATS WHY YOU SAID THAT WEIRD THING"

"wait yoU JUST THoUghT I wAs CRAZY?"

",,,,, people say weird things around me ok"

anyway all might basically says "ur crazy, your quirk is cool, take one for all."

and izuku says "OK YEAH"

all might asks a little how izuku was going to get into the hero course and he just pauses

"you know i was wondering about that but the fates told me id be fine." they both pause, staring at each other "wait,,, did they,,," "the fates totally knew huh"

anyway he eye glow when he use the fates quirk

all might sees izuku and he's like,,,, its baby nighteye

he honestly, for a hot minute, thinks nighteye might be izukus dad

bc like; green hair, gold eyes (well, eye), smart, analytic? thats nighteye baby

all might asks lowkey like "oh you don't talk much ab ur dad huh?" and izuku explains he doesn't know the guy. all might mentally tells off nighteye for having a child and ditching the mother

todoroki’s question literally is "are you all might and nighteye's illegitimate love child"

and izuku, who has no filter, blinks and responds with

"who said i was illegitimate"

anyway, back to the training

izuku who has been training to be a hero forever is pretty damn fit for a kid, but hes not one for all fit

anyway katsuki is like "izuku why are u following an old man around is he a pedo, and izuku wheezes like "NO OH MY GOD KASTUKI NO" and he explains like,,, a little of it

"like so i might have a strength quirk now too"

"izuku what the fuck why are you so op"

"im sorry katsuki im just better than you l m a o"

"COME HERE U LITTLE S H I T E"

so a brief overview of his quirk:

he gave an eye to use it so one of his eyes is just like,,, white. the whole thing is white. bc,,, its not really a quirk lmao,,,

anyway: he can view the future as much as he wants, it just takes some time, if he wants to take a quick look he doesn't need to stop paying attention, but its two slow and branching to be used like nighteye's in a fight (think like doctor strange in infinity war)

unlike nighteye, he has a third-person view of the events in question, and has,, some sounds? not many. mostly like breaking shit or oneliners he's heard before

changing the future, however, is more difficult by a long way

viewing the future has no real cost other than the fact he's not paying total attention at the time

changing the future, however, causes pain

nerve pain proportional to the change. little things, like flipping a coin heads? to make it more likely, its like a prick of the finger. to make it a 100% chance its like badly stubbing your toe. to change something big, like to move where a blow hits, feels like your arms have been plunged into burning oil. to change something massive, like, to stop something that was almost certain to happen, can cause enough pain to not only render him unconscious but can cause nerve damage leaving him with chronic pain/numbness/lack of function

the pain is normally in his arms bc its izuku and he break he arm

anyway! bc he was fitter and caught a glimpse of gran yelling at him about something called full cowl in the future + he cleaned the beach faster, he has like 2% full cowl for the entrance exam and had the quirk 2 months beforehand

katsuki avoids izuku for the day literally bc he doesn't want izuku to know if he passed before he did. which,,, is fair. he does explain this too so there isn't any random angst, izuku is just nervous

(oh also he can see the fate of someone he's looking at, he can change the fate of an event he's already seen to a different option he's already seen)

so we get the ochako bit, plus a bit of comedy bc katsuki is in a fucking beanie and sunglasses so izuku doesnt recognise him

he totally does but he doesn't say anything bc he's trying real hard

so izuku is kicking some ass in the exam and the bAMN 0 pointer like a fucking b a s t a r d hes like "what's the chances of this thing just like,,, breaking" and unfortunately they are v e r y low

so he is like "well i guess it's punchy time"

but before he gets there he sees a piece of rubble about to hit ochako. and he sees there isn't a small chance of it crushing her leg, so he changes the odds of that and gets a lovely few seconds of burning pain for his trouble

(he’s,,, pretty used to it by now so the boy has a scary pain tolerance)

bc he doesn't want to break his poor arms he jumps up the sides of the robot and tears out some wiring in the back and they start to fall

and he's like "oh shit the chance of my getting hurt is pretty high huh i should change that too" and ochako saves him with her quirk

and then he has a bit of a horrifying realisation while he's trying not to cry from pain

because

his quirk never changed the actions of other people before. ofa made it stronger

but, as he is now understanding, that hurts like a motherfucker, and his not-eye burns too and boy that's really unpleasant

this is another au where shinsou gets in on rescue points from saving katsukis ass + using him to save someone else

katsuki is a little salty but hes like "yeah tbh i really wouldn't have saved them alone, its fine" and then forces him to meet izuku bc hes still a total quirk nerd

izuku drags them + ochako out for ramen bc hes celebrating. shinsou is like "its a little early to celebrate getting in" and izuku just turns looking a lil confused "no im celebrating surviving the exam"

ok so, first day its wild

izuku's quirk is listed as "lucky punch" aka he can see odds and he's strong and no he doesn't know why stop looking at him like that

izuku and katsuki walked to school together bc they are baby and secretly nervous

izuku doesnt really look at katsuki's future all that often bc he doesn't like it, no real deal w izukus quirk he just wants to be successful by himself. so izuku, who can't look into his own future, has no idea how this day is going to go

they rock up to class, get inside and aizawa shows up, izuku has a brief heart attack, the quirk assessment starts. this time aizawa doesnt even have like a problem w izuku he's just trying to prove a point ab them being little baby heroes and sucking ass and izuku looked nice enough not to be mad about it for the rest of the year

so aizawa erases his quirk which, fair and izuku is confused and trying to use it

both of them

but

erasure didn't touch the fate quirk

so when he turns to look at aizawa he gets a face full of the USJ incident and he goes dead pale. aizawa is a touch confused but continues his whole thing, gives izuku his quirk back. he's still shaking. he throws the ball, it goes,,, less than it could have but far enough to be impressive

izuku stands next to katsuki shaking while they wait for the test to end. shinsou and uraraka are kinda distressed and all 3 of them are angry at aizawa even if they have no idea why. izuku bolts from the field right after and throws up in the bathrooms, followed by a quick panic attack. he was so freaked he was using ofa to get there so now uraraka, katsuki and shinsou are trying to find the boy

and aizawa is faintly confused

shinsou finds him first, shaking and sick in the bathroom. he grabs shinsou by the arm and says "staffroom, now." shinsou, who really doesn't know what's going on but is 100% shook, takes him there. he basically has to half carry izuku there bc he can't support himself

they get there and izuku knocks saying "i need to speak to yagi-san, now." and he sounds so scared and the whole office jumps bc why does a kid know allmights name, and all might jumps bc what happened to his boy

so he rushes out, grabs izuku and hurries him into a private office aizawa gives shinsou a look and shinsou just glares at him lmao bc its his fault izuku is like this. even though,, he's not really sure how

anyway, through sobs, izuku explains what he saw

and all might feels sick bc his boy didn't need to see all of that horrific violence, see his teachers torn to shreds and crushed to bits while the other students watch on helplessly

nezu doesn't know the extent of izukus quirk, mostly just because they didn't think ab telling him. they tell him now

aizawa is brought in to see smallmight trying to comfort his poor shaking student, who looks up and him and flinches and aizawa is like "ok guys the fuck did i do" nezu explains and then aizawa feels like a right dick to be honest, not that it was really anyone's fault

then the horrifying implications of "villains inside UA" sinks in and he's suddenly very on edge. now, izukus quirk isn't 100%. he had such a brief look at the vision he doesn't even know how likely it is. and while he offers to take a better look, its clear he really, really doesn't want to, so they all basically say

"right. so. we should probably be pretty careful tomorrow, huh?"

so when the usj attack starts, they have all might with his full 3 hours, mic, aizawa, and 13, w other heroes on standby, they hope, hope, that this wasn't very likely

but

they were wrong.

they were basically praying that the villains wouldn't make it into the usj

they've already altered the fate izuku saw by bringing allmight from the start, and present mic

but its not enough

the villains arrive and shigiraki is angry from the beginning, two unlisted teachers are waiting for them. shigiraki is childish but he's not stupid. he looks at the only child truly rattled, already protecting his friends, and he thinks he's found the cheater

they may not know the children's quirks, but present mic? 13? they know those quirks very well. mic is warped to the ruin zone, too unstable to freely use his quirk. kurogiri sends bakugo, kirishima and jirou after him

All Might is warped right to the nomu, kurogiri and shigiraki on standby for support. 13 has been taken out, aizawa is fighting through the villains to get to the nomu, to maybe offer some support to all might. he doesn't go after mic. he has to believe mic can handle himself or he'll break down where he stands.

izuku is warped to the shipwreck zone. alone. from a quick look at the future, the fates for anyone warped with him were grizly. he is confident in his choice to stop anyone from warping with him. he's ignoring the steadily climbing number of futures where he alone meets a terrible end

he's missing so much information on the villains every future he sees is hazy at best. all he knows is that if he doesn't get off this boat, aizawa gets hurt and that's not something he can abide

he busts the fuel tanks, letting the flammable liquid float across the water. he drops a match. in the chaos, he uses as much of ofa as he dares to jump to the shore. he steadfastly ignores the smell of burning meat.

he is one the opposite shoreline to canon, approaching the fight from the side, rather than the front. aizawa is hurt, battered from various villains, bleeding sluggishly from a headwound. he looks dazed

4 of shigiraki's fingers are wrapped around his neck

all might is at a standstill. if he strikes against the nomu, shigiraki will put his thumb down. he stands there and takes blow after blow, smile long gone from his face

izuku looks at the strings of Aizawa's fate. so many end here in so many ways.

he pushes his quirk into getting shigiraki away from his teacher. without direction, he's just baring against his quirk, begging it to give him a chance.

it does.

the bright flash of an explosive blonde draws the eyes of kurogiri and shigiraki. he uses the moment of distraction to launch towards his teacher, yanking him from shigiraki's hand. he loses a large chunk of skin for his trouble

all might defeats the nomu, but hes not looking good

bakugo, a limping mic, dazed aizawa, battered all might and bleeding izuku are the last stand, all praying the other students are ok.

iida did not escape

they have no backup coming.

shigiraki is fuming, but kurogiri can see the heroes are flagging. izuku is putting his all into his quirk, trying to give them all a lucky break

for the second time, it comes through

the rest of the students run towards them, joining them shoulder to shoulder. all of them are scared, some are hurt, but none of them are going to lay down and let shigiraki win. the villains escape

izuku falls

damages:

aizawa has a concussion + post-concussion syndrome. he has chronic migraines for the next year, and trouble with his long term memory for a few months

izuku is suffering from massive quirk overuse, his hands don't feel 'right' again for weeks

all might has lost only 20 minutes, but it's time he'd rather have

mic broke an ankle, but it's quickly fixed. Still, it aches from time to time

the other students had mild cuts/bruises and were left shaken

aizawa cries that night. a mix of the head injury, his hurt students, the look of fear he saw in their eyes. he holds mic and he sobs

izuku and his mother had a real relationship breakdown when she tore down his dream, even when izuku got a 'quirk' it never recovered. they don't talk. he doesn't tell her what happened. she doesn't find out.

izuku wanders the city the next day, unwilling to explain why he had no school today. he runs into mic who takes one look at this shaken student, outside and unprotected, and basically kidnaps the guy

izuku is forcibly dragged to the place mic/shinsou/aizawa share

when shinsou and aizawa find out izuku's mother basically just sent him off to school, not taking a day off work? they go full protective mode. shinsou wraps him up in the biggest blanket they own, grabs his own and forces izuku to play videogames with him on the couch. aizawa fumes in the kitchen over a cup of hot chocolate, mic fumes with him honestly

so, izukus kinda a mess, never tells his mother anything, etc, aizawa kidnapped him and he and shinsou played video games. izuku didn't go home that night, he just hopped on a train and rode it until it was time to go to UA

so when they get back everyone is just glad so see izuku alive tbh

so, sports festival! its a lot like canon

izuku doesn't use his fate quirk to change the future, but he does look at the possible futures and he sees that iida never makes it to the podium. he thinks for a second and makes a horrible realisation

the hero killer is in hosu

iida's brother is in hosu

iida’s brother is a hero

just before the event starts he finds aizawa and he's pale already

he gets out 'i need to see allmight' and aizawa gets a horrible feeling because last time this kid was worried they all almost died, so they run to find all might. seeing aizawa run around with a concerned look on his face? the stuff of nightmares at UA. everyone practically dives out of their way

izuku tells all might who swears a blue streak and pulls some strings to get extra heroes in hosu. izuku doesn't breathe a word to iida, because he just can't. not only does iida not know about the fate quirk, he can't scare him like that

bakugo knows something is wrong, but izuku won't breathe a word so he lets it lie

anyway, todoroki does his lil speech and izuku is honestly too burnt out to be intimidated, he sees his own death daily during just casual use of his quirk. boi ain't scared of much. bakugo gets pissy bc "FUCK YOU HALF AND HALF THAT'S MY RIVAL" and basically all of 1A is trying to claim izuku as their rival, either out of admiration or the desire to annoy bakugo

so izuku has to give the speech. which he's not happy ab because p e o p l e

and also because well,,, he's got no one at home to watch him

his speech basically goes along the lines of "we are here to fight fate. the odds are against us but we will win no matter what. not because it's easy, but because we have to. no matter what course we are in, we are all at this school fighting for a better future, for ourselves, our loved ones and the world. it doesn't matter if the odds aren't in your favour - the chance of any of us being here to see this moment is so small it may as well be impossible. its nothing to beat those odds again."

and everyone is like "owo how inspirational" but like anyone who knows him sees,,, layers

aizawa sees the bitterness about the USJ

all might sees izuku reducing his fight to be a hero as a quirk of fate, reducing his own involvement to 'it could have happened to anyone' when thats not true, because he is special

katsuki sees the bitterness that even though he had a good quirk, people tried to grind him into dust because he couldn't talk about it.

if inko was watching, she'd see how badly she betrayed her son

#bnha au #child of fate au #midoriya izuku #bakugou katsuki #aizawa shouta #midoriya #bnha #All Might #Toshinori Yagi #aizawa #eraserhead #Izuku #bakugo #Iida Tenya

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sunble-bee · 3 years

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Distorted perspective - sitting by pool and dumpster

#sketchbook #ink sketch #ballpoint pen #please dont talk about the hand proportions i will cry

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kiora006 · 6 years

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TAG 85 Thinggy... or something I dunno...

Tagged by @estrelarabyss

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people

LAST

•Drink - Caprisun Fruit Punch

•Phone Call – My cutest little cousin you’ll ever see

•Text message - My Creator [Mother]

•Song You Listened To – BAKUROCK

•Time You Cried – The other day thinking how beautiful Sonya from Fire Emblem is. [Jk I never cry [[ Jk I can’t remember, probably when talking about being useful]]]

EVER

•Dated Someone Twice? – Well I’m sure I’ve marked more than 2 days on my calendar. Different months. When I get called to work. [Calendar jk]

•Kissed Someone and Regretted It – It was slobbery but honestly, she kissed from the heart, she’s like that, always happy and makes her clumsy. She’s the cutest. [Dog accidentally licked my face]

•Been Cheated On – That one time... when my “partner”... was using 3DS cheats on Monster Hunter and never told me and I was FOOLISHLY DEFENDIG THEM. DESPICABLE. PLAY A GAME WITH HONOR DAMMIT, EVEN IF YOU SUCK. Suck at it with STYLE. God I hate Monster Hunter.

•Lost Someone Special - Yes... thank you for everything... Kaori Miyazono.

•Been Depressed – Absolutely.

•Gotten Drunk and Thrown Up - Hmm... maybe if I drink enough Caprisun. For that second one, Put me on a tournament or something involving what I’m passionate about, and you’ll find me kneeling over the toilet at 5AM easily.

FAVE COLORS

•Blue

•Yellow

•Red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU...

•Made New Friends – ... IM TRYING OK.

•Fallen Out of Love - Adios Erza Scarlet.

•Laughed Until you Cried – Until it hurts on the pit of my stomach because I never cry [jk]

•Found Out Someone Was Talking About You – Apparently I have and they seem to be pleasant for someone bitter and lonely as I. Go figure.

•Met Someone Who Changed You – I’ll never forget that doctor that actually took my depression as a medical problem and talked to me about it.

•Found Out Who Your Friends Are - Haha usually it feels like only 1 remained, the others are FOR MY FB COLLECTION MUAHAHAHA- [Jk, I casually chat with a few... maybe 2.]

•Kissed Someone on Your Facebook Friends List - My Creator [mother] demands a kiss before bedtime. She so fluffy.

GENERAL

•How Many of Your Facebook Friends do You Know IRL – I try to at least meet them before accepting them. Only a few selected and choosen ones have the privilege of viewing my quality shared memes, and my work.

•Do You Have Any Pets - Musashi. My cutest pure mutt breed doggo ❤️

•Do You Want to Change Your Name - Both my creators bestowed this name upon me, so I shall carry it until the end... even if it’s too long for a signature and somehow I get it wrong...????? [I do like to simplify it with a pen name when it comes to my work though. Don’t want people finding out what I do].

•What Did You do For Your Last Birthday – Survive post hurricane apocalypse the right way... DRAWING.

•What Time Did You Wake up Today – 8AM

•What Were You Doing at Midnightlast Night – Um excuse me? Who are YOU to ask how I spend my nights- watching Overwatch content.

•What is Something You Can’t Wait For - For Hayashibara Megumi to give me a call so we can do a duet and eat food afterwards. [Jk I can’t wait for the Lion King remake to PLEASE DO JUSTICE on the hyenas or at least good representation]

•What Are You Listening to Right Now – Monochrome Rainbow by Tommy Heavenly with Untold Stories of the ER on the background.

•Have You Ever Talked to a Person Named Tom – Probably but tell me about Carlos or Luis and I can make an endless list.

•Something Thats Getting On Your Nerves – MONSTER BLOODY HUNTER AND THE HAPPINESS OF MY SO CALLED “PARTNER” [Jk don’t get this the wrong way, but they certainly are a bit of an annoyance to me]

•Most Visited Website - The cursed Trinity of FB, Tumblr and Twitter.

•Hair Colour – VERY dark Brown.

•Long or Short Hair – I wanna cut it... less hair the better.

•Do you Have a Crush on Someone – [Why is Kashima so cute...?]

•What Do You Like About Yourself – Not easily impressed. I use it to try and get people to do even better.

This is a personal one but, If I get jealous with an artist, I doesn’t fule envy, instead I use it to try to better my work. A one sided rivalry.

Oh I’m also gifted in the art of ruining romantic moods so hit me up for a wedding y’all.

•Want Any Piercings? – And be a nuisance to the airport security? Don’t think so.

•Blood Type – In a letter between A to Z

•Nicknames – Depends... I go by two names with fam and when I’m outside. I can pass by with two identities MUAHAHAHAH

•Relationship Status - This question is so stale at this point.

•Zodiac - I’ll humor you this once, Scorpio.

•Pronouns - I genuinely don’t care. Call me a dude helicopter bro if ya want.

•Fave TV Shows – The Amazing World of Gumball, Pokemon, and a few others.

•Tattoos – Nah, kinda overrated a bit. I do admire the creativity in designs though.

•Right or Left Handed - DONT CALL ME OUT LIKE THIS, THE DREAM IS TO BE AMBIDEXTROUS BUT IM STUCK WITH THE UNBRIGHTLY COMMON RIGHT HAND

•Ever Had Surgery - Hasn’t been required at least.

•Piercings – Regular. Earrings. Nothing more kiddos.

•Sport – I love em but unfortunately I’m not meant for physical activity.

•Drinking – That fruit punch caprisun and bottle of water I had were fantastic. 10/10 would drink again.

•I’m About to Watch – GEKKAN SHOJO NOZAKI KUN

•Waiting For – This questionnaire to be finally over. Oh and maybe my will to draw to come back, that’d be great.

•Want - Sleep.

•Get Married – That’s for me alone to know.

•Career – An unfortunate artistic soul with a side of part time test center administrator.

WHICH IS BETTER

•Hugs or Kisses - Neither. They’re both hard to draw.

•Lips or Eyes - Eyes. They can be fun to draw.

•Shorter or Taller - In between. Drawing proportions can be troublesome.

•Older or Younger - Around young adults. It’s the most common thing to draw.

•Nice Arms or Stomach - Is this the part I admit I admire the human body in general? It’s a very interesting art study subject.

•Hookup or Relationship - This isn’t even in my vocabulary.

•Troublemaker or Hesitant - A troublemaker that’s miss understood... it’d make for writing and interesting character. *nods *nods

HAVE YOU EVER

•Kissed a Stranger - Who in blazes is this questionare taking me for.

•Drank Hard Liquor - I think ya ran out of questions at this point.

•Lost Glasses - They are my life. I must NOT

•Turned Someone Down - Yes. I couldn’t accept that sandwich with tomatoes. I’m sorry for failing you cheff.

•Sex on First Date - I can’t express how much no is on this single question.

•Broken Someones Heart - That’s what they get for falling for someone who didn’t want anything more than friendship.

•Had Your Heart Broken - I expected so much from Princess Mononoke. Such a shame.

•Been Arrested - I got sent to my room a few times. That counts right?

•Cried When Someone Died - I never cry [.......*sobs for Kaori]

•Fallen for a Friend - Well I one time... tripped on a friend’s leg. That sure hurt as hell.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

•Yourself – They all keep telling me to do so. So I’m gonna keep making sarcastic and fake ego jokes until I sart believing it.

•Miracles - Whoah this got very personal all of a sudden

•Love at First Sight – I remember it... when I layed my eyes on her... I knew... she was the one... I WILL NEVER FORSAKE WHEN I SAW LUCINA FOR THE FIRST TIME IN THAT SSB4 TRAILER

•Santa Claus - I never believed in him.

•Kiss on a First Date - Ya first gotta find a date. Once ya got one, establish dominance. You have your space, I have mine. Don’t you dare come near me.

•Angels - Sure.

OTHER

•Best Friend’s Name - CLASIFIED

•Eye Colour – Brown

•Fave Movie - Lion King.

•Fave Actor – I dunno, Chris Pratt? Oh! And Amy Poehler, she’s pretty rad.

I was half asleep finishing up answering these so I dunno what I typed on half of these so excuse me.

I tag @jessicarocket @velvetviolence @sonansu @azumarocket

And whatever orher individual... I’m tired.

#kimtext #tag game #tag meme

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the more i worldbuild the divorce the less Lavinia’s actions feel in proportion to anything that Alexis actually did, so i feel like at some point im going to have to add a straight up Bad Decision into Alexis’ vaguely defined breakdown. other than the car thing. now Alexis wouldn’t cheat, which is ironic given that the one jazzy song in my dowburne playlist definitely implies that the other party’s been fucking around, so its not that. and a misunderstanding of such is a little trite. outright lying works depending on what its about, like. idk. if alexis says ‘ill be home straight after work’ and then ends up getting pissed with their workmates and comes home quite late. which is somewhat out of character for Alexis, but works well enough. Alexis wouldnt drink drive, esp with all that, so they were driven home, which kinda sucked because the friend pulls up out front, alexis gets out, the front door opens, and before the friend can pull away lavinia just goes ‘where the FUCK have you been’ and the friend goes ‘oh no’ and fucking zooms outta there. rough shit.

cause in that circumstance itd be a combination of the drunkedness (alexis is not much of a drinker, aside from the post grad piss up, which, i mean, post grad piss up thats just what the shit is) and the lying. and alexis probably meant it when they said it, ill be home straight after work, but then got caught up in the fact that they feel so much better at work than they do at home and the colleagues go ‘wanna go out for dinner?’ ‘sure!’ and thus, whoops!

now my issue there is whether alexis being pissed would be an issue. i mean it is an issue because they probably really should not be drinking that much(mfers be taking Medications, right) but like. does it cause anything here, specifically. does a drunken Alexis lose their fucking shit? im down for them losing their shit. they would not hit Lavinia. This is presumably after the ‘nearly whacked their own son because of nightmares and surprise’ incident, so Alexis is conscious of that kind of thing, and would catch themself. doesnt rule out almost hitting, though. doesn’t rule out a drunken argument in the living room where Alexis drops their guard for once in their goddamn marriage and doesn’t take shit, bares their goddamn soul in a way they never do in front of her, and it doesnt go down super well. theres probably even a bit where chris waddles out of his bedroom babbling about whats going on and alexis continues to be loud and angry, causing chris to cry. which IMMEDIATELY sets Lavinia off to accuse Alexis of not giving a fuck about their sons, which Alexis takes very poorly. because Alexis does care. Alexis cares a lot. Alexis doesn’t know how to express that they care (and Johnathan in particular has intuited this, Chris is too young to have). Alexis launches into some kind of rant about how everyone expresses their fucking emotions differently, how fucking dare she, she launches back with all the times alexis has chosen something else over their kids, alexis goes back with explaining why they focused on work, and at some point during this conversation Alexis absolutely says something on the lines of ‘BECAUSE BEING AT WORK WAS BETTER THAN BEING AT HOME WITH YOU!’ and Lavinia goes dead fucking silent and amidst the fog of alcohol Alexis realises o- oh no. they try to backpedal. they try to explain what they mean. they try to explain that its not what it sounds like, i swear, Lavinia its not what it sounded like, let me explain, i meant that i dont know how to act around you, i dont know how to make you happy, its easier at work, its easier, its me not you, lavinia please- but its not working, alexis can’t explain it, and they know that what they yelled at her was true.

Lavinia gathers up a still crying Chris and takes him back to his room without a word. Alexis splutters but withdraws, knows they’ve fucked it, does not follow her in. She comes out once she’s calmed Christopher down and glares daggers at Alexis from across the hall. “if you dont want to be here, leave.” she says, and she goes to bed, and slams the door shut. Alexis grabs their medication, leaves the house, locks the door behind them, sits on the front door step and calls that friend. “listen mate i- can i crash at your place tonight? i’ll explain... im sorry.”. the friend arrives and bundles alexis into their car and they drive off quietly down the lane. Johnathan peeks through the curtain to watch them go.

Alexis spends that night with the friend, who helps calm them down and tries to assure them that they didnt mean what they said, it was anger and alcohol, when theyre sober they should go back and apologise. but alexis knows it was genuine. alexis knows that they said the truth, and that it was the wrong thing to say, and that they lack the words to explain to Lavinia what it means. ‘its not you, its me’ is too trite an idea, she won’t accept it. she didnt accept it. Alexis passes out on that friends couch, tucked gently in with a blanket.

the next day, the friend drives them back to their car, Alexis drives to the store to try and pick up something. something that will prove to Lavinia that no, they still love her. some kind of token. something to prove it. they cant figure it out. the realisation is dawning. they end up just buying a packet of muffins, reason that if nothing else, a muffin for afternoon tea can’t go be the worst thing. gets home. finds it empty. turns out lavinia had taken the boys out, to a park or a cafe or something. just leaving a note “we’ve gone out - we’ll be back soon, we promise :)”. Alexis places the set of muffins on top of the note and ends up just sitting on the edge of the bed they shared, what seems like years ago, with Lavinia. Lets the weight of their decisions settle in their chest. try to push it down by organising some of their things, rearranging their things in the closet and folding up others, subconsciously aware that its almost like theyre making things easier to pack up later - ends up sitting on the bed to cry. doesnt hear the car pull in. doesnt hear the door open. doesnt realise theyre home until Johnathan calls out from the doorway and they look up in a start. Lavinia stands behind Johnathan with the same glare of the evening before, but Alexis briefly ignores her to respond to Johnathan, asks how his day out with mummy was, offers a hug which john accepts. john quickly babbles about their day, about playing frisbee in the park. Alexis laughs, catches Lavinia’s eye again, and goes “tell you what champ, you can tell me all the details later - mummy and i need to talk. there’s a muffin in the counter - only take one!” “muffin?!” and johnathan darts off, and alexis calls “only take one!” Lavinia steps in the threshold and closes the bedroom door behind her. Alexis sits back down on the bed, puts their head in their hands. sighs. Lavinia folds her arms and waits.

Alexis eventually, eventually says “I’m sorry, I-” but their voices catches again, their words leave, they fall back into an agonising silence where their brain whirls. none of that flow from the night before, with the aid of the alcohol, comes to them now. its just stammers into silence. fragments pop up. “its not you, its me” “i didn’t mean it” “i care, i care, i-”. Lavinia sits on the bed next to them. they sit in silence for a little more. She eventually asks - asks, not says - if they want time apart, and there’s an edge of bitterness there. Alexis thinks about it, considers saying no, they want to stay, they want to stay with her and the kids, but they know... they know. the guard drops, and Alexis says yes. “for the sake of the kids, if nothing else. i’m sorry they keep having to see this. i’m sorry, lavinia.” lavinia snorts. alexis continues “I’ll find a hotel. we’ll... we’ll try a week.” a thought rises, and they smash it back down. But the eye contact with Lavinia says that she thought it too - it’s going to be more than a week. She sighs, and gets up off the bed. “I’ll help you pack.”

and so it goes. the end of their marriage comes officially a few weeks later.

#story blogging #got hella fucking caught up in that uh Big Oops! Big oops! its 2:30 i havent written my essay bits im suffering #the point is that alexis lies to lavinia a few times and then big lies and comes home drunk after the kids have been sent to bed #gets in a big argument with lavinia and almost single fucking handedly causes the legal part of the divorce by semi-accidentally #implying that they aren't in love with her anymore. alexis could have potentially salvaged it but they weren't lying so... yknow...#they dont want to lie to her anymore. so they just tell the truth. they would never go so o far as to say 'i dont love you'#but... they can imply it. it can come out in their gestures. they just want to be honest with her. and it turns out what they honestly want #to say is that their marriage is hurting them both now. they shouldnt be together. and so it goes!

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