#reality so subtle

[yashley]

i literally live for the fact that anyone goes “he wasn’t that bad!!” and matt immediately pipes in with “he wasn’t GREAT”. the fact matt always is the first to be like no well he still SUCKED.

#critical role #cr lb #matt weaving in understandable motivation and still being like NOPE he SUCKED is why i love him tbh it’s sooo subtle so understated so 2 me #to say THIS is why he’s like that sure but 100% doesn’t condone treating his love ones that poorly. #there’s a lot of emotional ambiguity one can feel rationalizing the Damage that only hurts the receiving end and it’s like #sure it’s Good to reach out and humanize someone hurtful but also you can Do that while not surrending the reality that some people suck #do i understand ? why people fail each other sure but with love being all there is do better or stay sucking that’s it #relvin literally doesn’t exist why waste breath fervently rationalizing how bad he could’ve been who CARES put him in the bin

[jahiera]

I’ll grab my screencaps when I’m home but one of my favorite conversations just as a player is party post-goblin camp where you talk to Astarion and you tell him that he “saved lives,” to which he replies that (paraphrased) the scale of lives didn’t change, they just killed goblins for tieflings. It’s fairly offhanded and unaddressed beyond that, but it’s one of those little moments that reconciles with the violence the player did in such a minute way that I think about it all the time. Because leading up to destroying the goblin camp, and even after, we are fairly secure in our positions and our choices, we aren’t really given many causes to doubt ourselves in game as players. Killing the goblins feels like the better answer—and of course, arguably, it still is—but in the goblin camp you can do a lot of fairly shitty things without much blowback, because you’re doing them to people your companions don’t like or respect or see as valuable, as real lives in comparison to others.

And again, within the frame of everything, the goblin camp is as a whole fairly horrible, their plans and their behavior was horrible, but does it justify you thus reducing yourself to their level if you use your tadpole powers to degrade and belittle and destroy them? debatable! people still died! and it was, if you’re of the mind, necessary to save the more “innocent” tieflings. but it’s not like there werent children in the goblin camp too—children that you can kill, outright, and just breeze right past that with no doubts or questions or eyebrows raised. there’s an…. inconsistency of thought there in lots of the choices you can take and still feel good about (because of who you’re doing it to) that fascinates me because most of the actions in there feel fairly justified in the moment. they’re done to goblins, who are framed in such a way that it’s easy to decide they’re all evil and irredeemable. And the only person to really point that out—in such a manner and way that it’s clear this whole thing means nothing to him either way, he doesn’t care either, and maybe that makes it even more interesting, because Gale/Wyll/Shadowheart all feel pretty justified in what happened there—is Astarion. you just traded lives for lives. is there really glory in righteousness here for you. it feels like one tiny moment that really drives home what BG3 as a whole is going for in terms of subverting the expectations of your choices and being a “good guy” in fantasy rpgs and what your heroism actually is, if anything. because you won’t get out of this fully right no matter how much we can ends justify the means it. to save the tieflings it was necessary but maybe there isn’t a right answer, or at least not a perfect one.

#Like I love it so much!! it’s such a good fucking moment #This isn’t passing judgement by the way I’m genuinely just obsessed with the implications of it all #it’s that subtle little reminder that Player Justification is subdued. in the tiniest way. #You can continue to go on feeling good about this and arguably there are reasons to feel good #but! there’s that slight moment. where the reality of things is laid bare #you traded a life for a life — you didn’t preserve it. you decided who deserved to live and you took that choice #which is just … so interesting #there is no peaceful solution there’s only what you Chose to do #bg3 meta #🐌.txt

[pastafossa]

so i've asked briefcasejuice about this already but i'd also like your take too - since you're part of the daredevil tumblr fandom council and all ...

I'm writing this scene and one of my ocs asks matt if he can handle spicy food and i wanted him to explain this whole thing about pain receptors in his mouth being "sensitive"... and how he hated pineapple because of the bromelain...(the substance that breaks up the protein in your mouth, that's why it's tingly)

and then my oc asks about like regular "body" pain since touch is after all one of the senses of his that have been heightened, and he explains something along the lines of even if the feeling of pain is heightened -- his body isn't actually weaker or more sensitive - so while he gets injured like anyone else he feels the pain of those injuries differently (more). over time he has gotten used to it but its still something he's working on as he hurts himself worse with every fight.

WHAT I'M GETTING AT is that i came to @briefcasejuice about this because they're very knowledgeable about matt stuff and comic matt especially, and they told me it did sound pretty accurate - so now i guess i just want to know -

how do you interpret or view matt's sensibility when it comes to pain - and if it came up in TRT (which maybe it did and i forgot oops?) how would you write it out?

and btw - congrats on the mango thing!! what's next on the fruit discovery journey 🤨 (what else can i be shocked that you didn't try)

Ok first of I love the idea of a Daredevil tumblr fandom council, because now I've got the image of all of us gathered solemnly to talk about DD fandom topics and headcanons like

Second off, ooooh this is a good question. I can't remember if I've ever gotten deep into it in TRT, although it'll probably come up eventually. But I absolutely agree with @briefcasejuice, and with your take on it. This seems right, for a couple reasons, including my own experience with pain.

So a lot of this is based on my own issues (and one of the reasons I relate really strongly to Matt's sense of touch, touch starvation, and pain, and when writing generally include him being comforted and going near comatose beneath gentle touch). Without getting too specific, due to chronic pain and health problems, I experience something called allodynia - "pain due to a stimulus that does not normally provoke pain." Basically, my nerves are all spun up to 11 and even light sensation often reads as pain, regardless of whether I'm actually hurt - Matt's comment about 'cotton feels like sandpaper on my skin'? I get that, cause rough fabric's painful to me (another ex: put icy hot on my skin once, just about clawed it off my arm because I was convinced something had gone wrong and it was burning me). And on bad days, even very soft fabrics or, hell, a breeze, any sensation anywhere I have nerves feel like bits of glass grinding into a burn. Best explanation I have for a really bad day. And we know Matt's sense of touch is heightened. So I often think he feels a lot like me, and how you described it feels right.

Everything hurts more, even if you're not being hurt more, and even if your body's strong enough physically to take whatever's being done. Physically, there's no reason his body can't handle cotton sheets, or a food with acid, and God knows the man can take a punch. Functionally, his body is fine. But his nerves don't act that way. They send way more signals than they need to, and sure, this helps if he's trying to use them to his own advantage, but it also means he's left wide open to a far higher degree of pain from stimuli that most of us would consider more minor (pineapple, in this case) along with the pain we all regularly avoid.

Does he mostly block it out? Yes. Especially on a day to day, to the point where he may actually miss smaller injuries because he's focused on tuning out other, larger pains. I know I do - your brain eventually just goes 'oh new baseline and I still need to live so Imma put everything below it into the background so it doesn't stop us doing what we need to'. I hug people, I touch things that are rough, I use hot water with the dishes, and if I focus on it, I remember that it hurts a bit, but I've learned to tune that out for the most part. Much like me, Matt's dealt with this for years, so while he does what he can (soft sheets, avoiding certain foods, wearing certain types of clothes), he's gotten used to a lot of the day to day stuff he can't avoid, though like you said, as the injuries pile up, it just gets worse and worse as that pain stacks. Some of it might be tempered by surges of adrenaline and endorphins (why I theorize he can fight even when injured - tune it out thanks to all the practice, PLUS fighting so ferociously that his body pumps him up until he can ignore it, at least until he crashes afterwards, and crashes hard), but he's definitely feeling it far, far worse.

So I basically think it's likely, especially when pain is stacking, that he's just made a bunch of calculations for his everyday life on what's worth the pain and what isn't - certain foods? No point. Cotton sheets? No point. There is no benefit, and so he comfortably avoids it, whereas going out to fight he generally always sees as worth it since there's a tangible benefit. Those calculations at least are something we all do every day - we decide the pain of a tattoo or working out or that sour candy is worth it cause it gives us something we like. Matt just takes it up to 11. I can absolutely see him taking something like, say, pineapple - tingly and acidic - and not only feeling pain when eating it but also just literally running the mental math and going, 'yeah not worth it' because he's in enough pain day to day thanks to injuries and other things he can't avoid.

In summary: you're right and I headcanon Matt operates much like someone who's been dealing with allodynia for a while, which means he'd feel more pain from stimuli even if it's not hurting him, so he chooses things in his day-to-day to avoid and then just throws himself into the pain on big things and hopes the endorphins and adrenaline will help him tune it out.

LASTLY THANK YOU ON THE MANGO! I cannot BELIEVE I went so long without knowing how fucking delicious they were. New fruits I haven't tried that are on my list now that I realized I need to find if there are MORE DELICIOUS UNKNOWNS LIKE MANGOS: boysenberries, figs, grapefruit, guava, kumquats, passionfruit, papaya, prickly pears, and satsumas!

#daredevil #matt murdock #headcanon #allodynia #this is how i treat matt's dealing with pain anyway #i know it's not exact so i often make some adjustments #but there's just things he's said or done that resonate too much for my brain not to go 'like me??? matt is like me???' #which is strangely comforting #and so i've used a lot of personal experience to fill in the gaps on how he might operate in his day to day #and how he might function #in that he's YES more sensitive to pain even if there's not technically more pain #he just FEELS it more and his nerves TELL him it hurts more even if it's NOT hurting more #on the up (down?) side he can probably stand getting stitched up easily because he's felt way WAY more pain so it barely registers #because he's so used to tuning out even more pain so his brain's used to filing that away #BUT #when his concentration is down or he's tired that gets harder #same during injury stacking which'll only get worse as he gets older #either way he'd look at shit like pineapple and just go 'uh no that hurts I'll pass' because there's no good reason to eat it #we joke about matt's catholicism making him suffer and I joke about it too but #i think in reality he'd do these subtle little avoids for stuff like this unless he was REALLY depressed or in I Am Stick mode #or just has a good reason #and on some bad days he probably can't stand being touched tbh and would barely be able to drink room temp water (cold = pain) #at least it means the reverse it true - he'd absolutely melt beneath gentle touch or pleasant things or fleecy soft fabric #and sometimes even on bad days if you touch him *very* gently he'll tolerate the pain because he knows #that the oxytocin he gets from affectionate touch helps dull the sting just a little #(i realize this sounds bad ya'll can hug me if you see me at the con i won't turn them down i like hugs they're worth the sting)

[auntieoneandauntietwo]

You know what makes me absolutely insane. The scene in dragonquest where lessa talks to brekke right before f’nor goes to the red star. And I think it’s deeply underrated.

To recap, in this scene Lessa essentially goes to brekke and says hey so F’lar really really wants to go to the red star but if he dies the world will fall apart so I’m going to use my mind control powers to make his expendable brother go instead. Real sorry about that, especially because you’ve literally just recovered from a period of intense grief. And brekke says yep cool go for it.

Anyways I feel like this is sort of the Moment that the whole book is building to, both with plot and with characters. And satisfyingly, in a book that is disproportionately men Talking About Serious Political Things, this Moment concerns two women and entirety of Pern.

Here’s my over analysis of the characters here: Lessa has proven herself to be someone who will value her end goals over any sentimental or emotional personal concerns, and in this moment I think she truly is prioritizing F’lar’s importance to the entirety of Pern over his importance to her. However Lessa has also proven herself to be selfish and prioritizing her own needs over brekke’s (when brekke has recently endured so much) is almost definitely a factor here and Lessa is most likely ashamed of this. And Brekke, Anne McCaffery’s angel character, is aware of this and doesn’t mind at all. At least, Brekke chooses to play the hero and let Lessa do her thing for the good of the entire world. Most interesting here might be F’nor, who has spent a lot of the book up to this point moving out of his “third wheel/loyal sidekick/chill best friend” role from the previous book and away from F’lar’s shadow. And now he’s having a Big Moment and it’s… not his choice. Lessa is Jedi mind tricking him into it.

(Might edit this later with actual quotes from the text I just don’t have my book with me rn)

#this scene is weirdly subtle in text #or at least the first several times I read it when I was a kid it didn’t register #on the topic of lessa prioritizing the world over her own feelings for people #dragonquest is sorely lacking in lessa/flar conflict #both over authority/balance of power and dealing with the reality of being a couple and also being responsible for an entire planet #there’s just so much potential there #pern #dragonriders of pern #dragonquest #lessa #brekke #f’nor #f’lar #stubbornly tagging pern characters names #anne mccaffery #character analysis

[betty-bourgeoisie]

Also I like China and Iceland as metamours/ fuck buddies who are dating the same two guys, because ultimately the history of China-Iceland relations is a history of two nations just mutually going "Well Russia and America both seem to think they're important so I guess I should talk to them...." which is, at the end of the day, possibly the most realistic metamour relationship of all

#The thing is I think their personalities would actually do quite well together #Like I think Emil and Wang Yao would be an intellectual match for each other in a way that Ivan and Alfred simply could not keep up with #they both just fundamentally understand the subtle ways that power works in a way that I really don't think the other two do #but there is simply no history to base any of my headcanons on #so idk #in my heart they have weekly tea dates where they gossip about politics and discus recent philosophy publications #but once again #no basis in reality for that whatsoever #hws china #hws Iceland #rochuameice

[andthebeanstalk]

Saw a post proposing how to "fix" Wendall & Wild that involved cutting out Klax Korp because they felt the themes should be more "subtle."

And just. Y'all. The whole movie is NOT SUBTLE ON PURPOSE.

This is not a bug, it is a feature!! And a really important one!

The prison stuff is not a "Saturday morning cartoon plot" - it is part of the thematic backbone of the film and also a thing that happens to real communities that a vast portion of Americans are unaware of!

To give just one example, this movie may be literally the only time a white American child will hear about prison reform in their entire media diet! It CANNOT AFFORD to be subtle! It HAS to be overt!

Like, Jordan Peele is a very talented man. If he had wanted subtle, he would have done that. But his work is pretty consistently VERY CLEAR in its theming, and that's part of why it always hits so fucking hard!

I have yet to see a piece of media urgently advocating for immediate widespread social change that would benefit from having a more subtle message: Les Misérables with more subtlety and no direct comment on the prison system wouldn't work because it is more than a family drama, it is a commentary on an entire broken social system. And I think think Wendall & Wild is quite similar in those respects!

Just something to keep in mind, because mega-corporations like Disney are incapable of putting out actually anti-fascist material at this point.

So many movies are littered with half-formed ideas about justice and morality that always fall short of addressing the actual root of social issues or else subtly enforce the status quo, and so this film is something very rare and precious and I have the impulse to defend it with my life.

#original #wendall and wild #wendall & wild #I am 90% sure that the thing I saw was written by a child so this is not a call out post #and even if they arent a child I still don't want to put someone on blast #what I want is to explore thematically coherent movies and their effect on our broader social landscape and vice versa #it isn't that hard to be subtle. but it is very hard to be overt and to do it well. #There isn't a moral inferiority in having bad takes on movies. but do consider how awesome the un-subtleness of the film is #the prison stuff grounds the whole movie in a relatable reality to our own #altho i do also hope there is a sequel just so i can see more interactions between the demons and kat #surprisingly little of that in the film

[wheatstar]

the thing about warrior cats that bothers me the most is that there are so many writing decisions that COULD be really interesting but i know the authors probably didnt mean it in that interesting way so instead i just get disappointed over and over again

#rot.txt #like sunbeam actually liking nightheart IS a problem for me but it could be interesting #in the way that shes grasping for companionship after blazefire and legitimately thinks he came to shadowclan for her #when in reality shes just an excuse for him a method to get away #but thats! not how its going to play out! and we know it. theyre endgame. and i hate it #there are actually a lot of things about nightheart that i think if improved on would make him actually tolerable #for one i think the pelt color thing should have been more subtle instead of his Whole Thing #also making firestar more of a mythic and revered figure so this pressure to be more like him doesnt come out of nowhere #personally i kind of think sunbeam and nightheart could be nixed entirely #just to focus on frostpaw. i think the isolation of one main character would drive home the “starless clan” thing #idk if that makes sense but it does to me #i DO really really like sunbeam though. i think shes so normal and funny. #also i have NOT read thunder yet im still getting through the slog that is shadow

[mymarifae]

about that new wxs event...

what did i say... i'm always right. i was right to the literal T holy shit

#if u dont know it's like. rui gets offered the position as a director at the biggest stage at a different amusement park #he says yes because he recognizes that like. it's what he wants. it's his dream to work with a large stage and a large cast #the guy who offered it to him immediately takes it back because of how Heartbroken rui looks as he says yes tho #because the prospect of leaving tsukasa and emu and nene and pxl was so painful to him #and at the end of the event rui decides... he wants to pursue his dreams of landing a bigger stage. but only With the rest of wxs #together they will do this thing. together they will make all their dreams become a reality at once #perhaps it is selfish to desire so much at once... but as i touched upon in ch7 of my akitoya fic. #i think what makes rui such a good character is his selfishness. that is what makes him a good person. do you undertale #i think colorful palette is copying my homework btw #because the conclusion rui comes to at the end is the exact direction i was planning to take wxs for my future of sekai au from the start #that or i'm just good at picking up on subtle foreshadowing and predicting where the characters' development will go

[85tigerphotog]

Cane River, Natchitoches Parish Louisiana.  St. Augustine Catholic Church.

#isle brevelle #Cane River #natchitoches #pinhole photography #pinhole #reality so subtle 6x6F #Black and White #film photography

[linonyang]

just watched barbie brb i'm gonna cry the whole night (the tags has some spoilers there ig)

#yk what i'm kinda tearing up already #idk i realized so many stuff it's so sad for me who loves being deep and sensitive #how the world is just so . fucked up to the core #how i should've embraced more abt being a woman #how barbie's image is no longer focused on the careers and capabilities the dolls could influence on us #how we just look at barbie on the surface level - the body and the face #the world was such a big influence on how we treated barbie and IT SUCKS #i wanna wear pink more :< i wanna be more girly :< i dont wanna gaf about what ppl say abt me esp as a woman #idk im kinda rambling atp #i'm happy that i'm kinda branching out on my girlier side this year #my teenage years were mostly avoiding pink bc of my subtle emo phase lol #but now i think being a girl is so fun #but so scary at the same time bc of reality #i grew so much fear of being harassed and sexualized just bc i am a woman #i hope the world will be a better place so i would be a girl without anybody judging me for simply being a girl yk #i was holding back my tears in the cinema lol #barbie's kinda hitting me hard already...... it's almost midnight LMAO #might cry myself to sleep idk #i love being a woman really #and i hope i'd still feel the same even if the world's crumbling down right in front of me #kinda wishing im in barbieland so i wouldnt deal with so much shit in life #it's so rough out there #i want to be happy and free </3 #i hope we'll be understood more as women.... as humans with feelings #r.text

[cinna-bunnie]

fictional or not, dragon lore is always so interesting.

#I'm watching a DS3 lore video on the nameless king bc i wanted to figure out wtf is the dragonslayer armor's deal #but the greater lore around the dragons is SO fucking good and now I'm thinking about dragons lol #i could watch these dark souls/elden ring lore videos by VaatiVidya all day tbh #i LOVE how deep he goes with it. these worlds and their lore already feel huge but #as someone who's only played the third dark souls it rly makes me appreciate how complex and interconnected it is as a series. #sometimes i wonder if the creators ever watch these vids and think “we didn't mean all that but that's a great idea” #or if they watch it and get super happy like YES that is exactly what our subtle storytelling meant. #either way i have So so much respect for ppl who go and put together these lore videos #going as far as to look at game dumps and early releases/cut content and ALL the dialogue and item descriptions #for any one topic the lore is so scattered about and piecing together any single thing seems like such a massive undertaking. #like lmaooo i can't even follow a single questline without pulling up the wiki #a recent rabbit hole i went down too is how there are different times/realities even just DS3 takes place in? #like how in Untended Graves you see a world without light where darkness rules - and in ringed city when ur fighting those #dragons in the base of that big tree that's supposed to be the original firelink shrine and then the shrine u use is maybe The Past? #the past relative to the other shrine from the world where the flame went out w darkness ruling. #idk how the transition works from being in that one dude's garden in ur world to just walking right into the other one but idc. #just say i got twilight zoned or somethn lol. always. very interesting stuff :^} I'm not smart enough to pick up on anything in the moment #but it's SO fun watching what other people pieced together whose whole thing is that they go thru these games thoroughly. #and in a way it makes me not want to stop playing DS/ER bc there's just so much going on here that's so rewarding?? #like. on TOP of the suuper deep lore the gameplay is also just super fun and u get HELLA weapons and special moves #and the modding scene has made some hella streamline tools that are so good these have been the first games I've ever MADE mods for! #like i can't think of any other games that are like this where I'm really encouraged it make it my own with such a helpful and #engaging community. I'm sure there r other games out there that are similarly engaging with deep lore and streamlined modtools #and mod communities but (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠) 1. where?? 2. DS/ER are very beloved to me. #it's funny how little u have to know or do to beat their respective storylines. I've played them both a ton and still know so little. #and when i walk away from these lore vids I'm always like Woah 😵‍💫 yk? anyways.. that's my lil rant :3 back to work now

[polyamoryprincess]

My bff’s bf said something stupid and misogynistic and it’s 3am and I’m realizing I should have been angrier in the moment lmao

#It was like kind of a joke? #I know it’s dumb but what the fuck was that #While talking about how you need to worry more about what you put in your vagina he said something about sitting on your balls being worse #And I was like ?????? Hello???? #In no version of reality where having a vagina and ovaries is going to be easier or less painful #I just mentioned how those aren’t even close and how you literally have to constantly worry about yeast infections and UTI #Now I wish I’d listed more things like just yearly gyno visits and Pap smears #IM JUST REMEMBERING #WE WERE JUST TALKING ABOUT HOW PEOPLE WERE STUPID ABOUT THINGS THEY DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT #SPECIFICALLY REFERRING TO COMMENTS ON VAGINAS AND VAGINAL HEALTH #AND THATS THE CONFIDENT ASS COMMENT HE GAVE LMAO FUCK #I was so exhausted but damn i hope I have the ability to point this out if he does it again #Like I think something like this has happened before and I’m deeply concerned #Like implying something is easier because of being a woman #He’s progressive but I get such a bad feeling he’s still picked up on some subtle incel shit

[msdk-00]

i wish i could be perceived entirely gender neutrally

#idc about pronouns or name as much i just want to be seen and treated in that way #treated can be done but people are (almost?) always perceived as one or the other male or female #i wouldn't be able to escape it #it doesn't change the reality of how people interact with me #at the very least on a nuances subtle level #even by people who are trying their best #you know i always had a number of fantasies growing up and one was wishing that i could experience the world devoid of any solid form #have experiences without being experienced by others #i imagined myself as a sort of vague ball of gas and or light #but i somehow still interact with the human world #another fantasy was to have the powers of tonks from harry potter haha so i could change into anything anyone any look #and be able to experience navigating the world from any perspective #because you are obviously inherently cut off from certain experiences from your physical attributes #for example i'll never experience what it would be like to be perceived as tall or as a man #but i always found that rlly sad i wish i could experience everything

[last-flight-of-fancy]

‘sr would be bad mlm rep if they got together bc it would have come out of nowhere!’ it’s not the games fault you missed the foreshadowing.

#dafted out a bunch of responses and then decided yknow what? i dont have time for this #there were points i do think merited honest discussion #but then others (like the above) are so willfully disconnected from reality i eventually just put it aside to ignore #like that one sentance alone is quintissential 'theres a lot to unpack here but lets just throw away the whole suitcase' #baby queers do sure be quick to forget that queer rep is still a struggle to get #for a series that started in 02 being subtle is not just part of the narrative it was absolutely *necessary* to be #stop talking to yourself flight

[luckydxy]

I want to say that Ara adores & treasures the madmen/madwomen of the Isles, but I really can't phrase it that way with a clear conscience. Sure she loves them, truly & deeply, but the love itself is more similar to the love you'd feel for an animal or even a pet ; if she's feeling emotionally generous that day, that is. In her mind, they are not equal to her. She is their master & she knows what's best for them. This isn't true, but this is her mindset & it worsens over time. Her citizens become more of a collection. & she suffers a quiet need to complete this collection. Leading her to carry on where Sheogorath left off & hunt down 'unique' & very ill & or vulnerable individuals. She's convinced herself this is in their best interest, that their 'gifts' can only be cherished or put to use in the Isles, but it's an entirely self-serving matter.

#;;ooc #;;headcanon #haskill is her only equal. in fact she thinks so highly of him you may even get her to confess that he's her better. #the mazken & aureal are next. & then the courts of madness which she flip flops a bias for just like og sheo. #her disconnect w/ reality when in the isles can seem subtle - given how much she loves the place & everything / everyone in it #but in actuality her thought process & views are Mega Fucked

[sugar-plump-gal]

Honestly fucking shocked that I've never written MasterPC/reality altering shit. Like, how have I gotten this far before going 'oh what if i wrote X getting really indulgent with their horniness' or something?

#also #wait no nvm i just got completely distracted by something #when i type 'also' #why is the autofill #also fuck ayn rand #i mean agreed #but why's that the first result #anyways #this is a not so subtle hint #to send me ask abt that shit #reality altering/normality/freeuse/hypno/ect #pretty much anything of that nature tbh