#remember when live music was a thing

[uncanny-tranny]

There's something so insane to me about being able to create and recreate vintage or even ancient music, clothes, fabrics, building architecture, anything, really.

I watched this video about a lady who knit a WWII-era vest, and it was really unique, because the cable work would eat up yarn, when there were shortages of fibers. This pattern would have likely been used by people to send overseas to soldiers, and now it's being created in a time where this war has been over for generations. What were the people making this pattern thinking of? What about the people making the vest? Could they fathom a world where world wars didn't happen back to back? Could they imagine what peace felt like, or did it fade like a distant memory, a faint friend? All we have now are the remnants of their efforts, a "simple" vest that would warm the bodies of countless people the knitter would never have imagined were here on earth with them.

We're reaching across time to learn about other people - we're reaching our hands out just to grasp anything tangible. And when we've take hold of something, all we can do is say I love you I love you I love you

#positivity #art #i also come across this absolutely stunning woman who collects vintage pieces from the '50s and it's just. it's mind boggling #or how we've found ancient sheet music and have recreated its contents #do you ever think about how we're time travelers #do you ever think about what might be recreated of us in the future #this isn't about nostalgia baiting but about how we learn and process the ways that people in the past lived #you don't have to feel nostalgic for WWII to be intrigued by this (it would be very concerning if one WAS nostalgic for WWII) #i just. i die a little inside because i know i will never know everything... #...i will never know every lottle thing about people in the past especially... #...and i am never completely satisfied because only a very selective amount of things are preserved and remembered... #...i wonder then what 'forgotten' people thought and felt and how they lived... #...especially as individuals or as a small clan of family and friends. i want to know them intomately - as if i myself have become emeshed.. #...does this make sense. i don't just want to know about nobles and kings and the wealthy... #...i want to know what the lacemaker for a king felt making lace for the royals... #...i want to know what the rice field worker thought about when the fields were flooded and they swatted a bug away from their skin... #...i want to know what a mother of a small child thought when churning butter - her baby cooing and making a mess... #...and it sucks sometimes to know that we're time travelers but in a very narrow sense. but i still love what we have got... #...don't get me wrong i love it. but i still grieve that we have lost a lot of history - a lot of people... #...or maybe we have only lost them in the sense that we just haven't located and found them *yet* #anyway i've watched that video multiple times now and i just go absolutely animalistic thinking about it #all of this is complex and i have Plenty of thoughts about that. but at least to me this is what i've seen a lot - a lot of love #and isn't studying this - recreating it and analyzing it - isn't that a form of love? #am i... a nosy person..........

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

is it weird that i find jason segel's dracula puppet musical love anthem the most beautiful romantic ballad i've ever heard, or is it just a sign of (i like to think) magnificent taste??? 🧛💓✨😭🙌

#i used to watch/listen to this CONSTANTLY and then i forgot it existed for like 10 years #and then i randomly remembered it yesterday and now it's all i care about again #the banger of all time!!!!!! #usually i'm not a dracula-as-a-romantic-figure person but i want this lil' earnest puppet dracula to live happily ever after with his love #(also let's not even talk about how 'ed loves stede'-coded this is to me. let's just not go there.) #(jk let's go there i love it. it's perfect. someone tell djenks!) #dollsome's deep thoughts #good things #puppet dracula the musical #AND WHEN I SPEAK YOUR NAME I COULD SWEAR I JUST SAID SOMETHING SACRED #WHILE SAINTS PRAY FOR HEAVEN I THANK GOD I'M ALREADY THERE

[fishing-lesbian-catgirl]

I keep trying to find video game soundtracks I can listen to while I work but the problem is that I form such an emotional attachment to the music based on how I felt when I played the games so it just sends me on a nostalgia trip. I just wanted to listen to some jams but now this splatoon music is bringing back memories of when I was 15 that I really didn’t need to deal with right now

#when I play the funny squid music and now my mind is remembering things #haha this song reminds me of when my parents gave my room to my sister and made me live in the basement behind a makeshift burlap curtain #for a few months #oh this one reminds me of when I wanted to kms bc of dysphoria but didn’t know what that was yet :) #oh this one’s a classic. reminds me of when my best online friend was threatening to kill themself :) #it’s literally just silly music and now I want to cry thinking about being a teen again… man I got work to do

[hazardsoflove]

my favorite kind of band is one that has a consistent encore song that the crowd will scream along to so loud you can’t even hear the band. it’s such a uniting and cathartic experience and it’s moments like that when you’re like oh this is what we’re alive for

#i will never not think of when i saw the mountain goats one time and john was getting sick so the crowd sang no children for him #it will never not be my favorite thing abt music + live music #like the mountain goats with no children and tfb with twin sized mattress. its healing #fob w saturday as well #sorry im listening to twin sized mattress and remembering #r.txt

[mooremars]

Shout-out to the woman sitting next to me at a show last night who saw my Hadestown sweatshirt and innocently asked me if I had seen it and talked about knowing Reeve Carney for his whole life, not knowing that I had spent that day listening to the Spider-Man: Turn Off the Dark cast recording and a video essay about its failure.

#we got cut off because everyone was trying to leave the theater #and Hadestown is my favorite musical which is what I told her #but it is objectively funnier that she managed to get seated next to a person who wore a turn off the dark shirt to see no way home #both times i saw it in theaters #he's been a frequent white boy of the week for a whole decade at this point you picked the wrong person to talk to #she didn't i was normal but internally i was cracking up #Charlotte for ts #also reminding me of the thing i often forget which is that broadway people and the people who know them #just also live here and maybe i should remember that when i shit talk in public

[procrastinationaccount]

I'm going to lose my fucking mind

#For context: I was going to make a post complaining about how lesbians don't have enough good musical theater duets #(like we have the love songs from 'The Color Purple' which're alright but doesn't match the passion or desperation present in the book imo #'Changing My Major' which is a great love song but doesn't hit that sweet duet spot #'Dance With You' and the last verse of 'You Happened' from The Prom are sweet but the girls barely get to actually sing about each other #Honestly 'Oh Well' from Love In Hate Nation comes closest to what I want but it ends on a bittersweet note unless you see the show live #If only Elphaba and Glinda were canon... #But anyway. I can't believe that there's an adaptation of The Color Purple coming in the year of our lord 2023 and this is #how they're talking about Shug Avery. Her *role model*. Lock up your *husbands*. Ick. Pfaff. #I mean they're going to be gay. You can't get around that. But Shug is the love of her life. Can we please talk about that in the character #Don't mind me I'm just over here overreacting #From what I've read one of the biggest adaptational changes in the musical is her reaction to Shug's affair. #Like in the book Shug is the one light in her life. I sobbed myself to sleep over her nosedive in self-worth when they took a break #In the musical she's just...fine with it? I get why that's more satisfying emotionally but I still think it undermines their relationship #I don't get the curse thing either. I'm a little fuzzier on this part but in the book doesn't she just leave him and she's able to thrive? #Then when he asks her to get back together she's able to just know that the worst with Shug or alone is better than the best with him? #This book man. I hate that there isn't an adaptation as devoted to the Celie/Shug relationship as the book is. #Hate that the only recommendation I've seen calling it a sapphic book was from someone who thought that Celie's letters were to her lover #I remember watching this steamy adaptation of a Shakespeare play in soph Eng and seething because they only kiss once in the 1985 movie #Ig I can't expect too much from 1985 but...it was in the book! It was one of the most important parts! They don't even live together in it! #This was all to say I wast a lesbian 'Green Green Dress' a lesbian 'Home' a lesbian 'Natasha & Anatole' a lesbian Legally Blonde finale #The list goes on #I'm sure The Color Purple (2023) will be a good adaptation and movie. I will not pop blood vessels while watching it. #Maybe I should just avoid press releases and the movie will surprise me in a good way.

[stained-glass-mustache]

i have been possessed by my 14 y/o self and am grinning and giggling and kicking my feet thinking about frerard

#to be clear #this is about them literally just making out on stage #i don’t read fanfic abt real people #ngl tho october 31 2019 was the greatest day of my life at that point #i fucking miss being obsessed with mcr #i was unwell but it was rather a simpler time #depends on how you look at it but i feel less well now #i remember mcr being one of the only things at that time that made me really feel #one of the only things that brought me joy #possibly the only thing i could actually get excited about #when i heard they were getting back together it became #among many other things #a shining reason to live #my mind was a very dark place and mcr provided some light and comfort #i remember feeling more understood by the music than i ever had by anything or anyone else #it’s emo kid hours #mcr #my chemical romance

[hyah-lian]

hmmmh I was trying to like. Be very online and do a big art challenge thingy but the Yearly Existential Dread/Weird Complicated Feelings are kind of grabbing me and shaking me like a floppy doll

#i dont want to commit to a hiatus bc i still want to try and things #but i did not anticipate/remember how strongly the ick feelings can be #and for the life of me i cant remember if it lasts long or if its just anticipatory dread until [redacted] #i know i am also having some Big Feels over Percieved Rejection (its not. its just needing to be patient and my adhd doesnt like that) #(and in the cases where the answer is No it is fully understandable and not a Never or a You Suck) #and just Other Things that continue to Be A Problem in the area I live in #today i am Having A Day. #i am letting the creature of my.spul create away from screens #i am eating when im hungry and trying to remember water exists #im taking a sort of caffiene break (1 caffinated drink vs the like 5 coffees etc just to avoid the caffiene headache) #im wearing clothes i find comfy and like #and im going to have some horizontal time with either music or a book maybe a movie bc last night was A Lot

[olympusrox]

no stronger bond than between two people who were online friends and then lost touch

she deleted her tumblr in 2022

i hope she knows i still think about her

#she had a different tumblr before that aswell #and she deleted it #but she made a new one a few months later and texted me #she remembered my name #she had made me a spotify playlist dedicated to me with songs that she wanted me to listen to #i was so bad with texting her because i was still socially awkward and didn't know what to say #i should have texted her more #i think about her every now and then #i just went through all of our messages and read them all #she was so sweet #i have no idea what her life is like now #i still have that spotify playlist #im listening to it right now #i could make a playlist for her and tag her in it? is that a thing? do i need to actually send it to her? #i hope i can talk to her again #i want to know about her life #i had a little crush on her for a bit #even though all i knew was her name #and a description she told me of herself of what she looked like #all we ever talked about was small talk about our lives and about music we liked #but it was somehow still so personal #back then i didn't have any other friends #i got so excited when she messaged me #but half the time i was too scared to text her back #i miss her #non fandom stuff

[songtwo]

most of the time i feel like im just an average person like i know im really lucky to be living my dreams working a job i love in the city i always wanted to live in like i know im a very lucky and privileged person bc most ppl don’t get any of that but most of the time i also forget it’s not just that like most ppl in my hometown never get out and don’t even go to college and like even in my family im still the only one to ever attend university and move to the city which is just crazy like it’s so crazy to me to think im not really average specially not where i come from which is idk so weird

#like we ran into this neighbour yesterday and he literally said he talked to his son abt how i went to college and now im living in the #city as some success story and as if that was something so extraordinary and it’s like. omg #like it was all just natural to me study a lot get into a good college get a job in the music industry move to the city #like i never gave it much thought i just did what i had to so to me it was never like this Huge thing any of it #and my mom was also telling me abt how her friends always bring me up in conversation to talk abt how ‘great’ i am while their children #just aren’t like 😭 #like idk i just don’t really think of myself #so when me and my life are brought it’s like . wow ok #like in uni moving and going to college was the norm and in the city i meet so many ppl who moved to pursue their dreams everyday so #its also become the norm to me #so when im remembered it’s not the norm at all where i come from is crazy

[lavleyart]

Redrew some old doodlesheet my teen self drew

It is 3AM I am going onto memory lane, remembering my early years of being a Vaati obsessive, what it was like to be a teenager writing poems towards him, staring at fanart until I fall asleep and doodling him in school 24/7. Even imagining him to accompagny me to school because why not lol.

I posted a lot of art online in that time. I found this old doodlesheet I did in school while reciting every goddamn line he ever said ingame by heart and priding myself in having that knowledge (I don't anymore lol).

I made a gift to my teenage self and redrew her doodles in my much better skill. Im sure she would have squealed seeing my current artwork :,) my teen self deserves a headpat and a vaati plushie, seriously.

#forgive my mood its a 3 AM mood #no i cant sleep #must reminisce #i recreated the situations in which i drew vaati in 2013 #i am listening to music i assigned to him in 2013 #i am fully living in memories right now #i remember the 2013 vaati fandom #i am reading what i wrote into my diary back then #i wouldnt wanna relive 2013 ever but a lot of things were less complicated back then #i miss some of the vaati artists i looked up to in 2013 and the community from back then #back then when deviantart was still alive #when i had my vaati art senpais and i felt comfortable enough to gush about him online lollll #well at little bit at least. i prided myself in ´not being cringe´but oh the hypocrisy #cringe but free amiright? #i will maybe regret being so open online later RIP #loz vaati #vaati #vaati the wind mage #vaati fanart #legend of zelda vaati #minish cap #loz fanart #zelda fanart #the legend of zelda #minish vaati #my art

[big-red-button-official]

funny how those new-fangled smartphones dropped headphone jacks for "more battery" while at the same time getting worse lifespans and a stting that protects your battery by limiting it to 85%

#give me my music back #let me keep my goodtime to myself #and let me live in silent bliss as other's tiktok's remain listened to by one and one alone #stop getting thinner #your fragile enough without the ultra slim fall out of the hands style #and i sorely miss your buttons #remember when I could pet you and talk to you through contact? #and you could feel me back? #What happened to that #to surfaces that werent purely smooth #to devices that had heft #to us? #Things I Write 12 Minutes After I Should Already Be Asleep

[ichorblossoms]

ik grimm isn't winning any awards for most unique character design but it's always amusing when i find another grimm-adjacent character to add to the pile

they are all grimmcore. to me

#none of this is intentional btw. like i do think meis *kinda* influenced grimm but i view it more as like. convergent evolution #as for ginny i read pretty deadly after i created honeybee #and i haven't played gg i just remembered testament today #again. not difficult to find a design that's a lanky pale person with long black hair. and grimm's too solid to change #and also i don't really care. grimm's their own thing #the MOST baffling was when i was vending in. i think december and there was live music and one of the drummers looked so much like grimm #not exact but Very close. i didn't interact with him at all but i was like. i can't tell if i'm half-staring bc you look like my character #that i'm brainrotted abt or if i think you're attractive? or both?? no way in hell i'd say any of those things to a person's face ofc #i would rather be shot i think #rambles #grimm

[nakeurnes]

oououuuowowaah story of undettale

#TSUAUSUSBGGHyzhaa i HATE OUR BROTHER I HATE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH NO MATGER HOW HARD I TRY all GHE SHIT I DO TO TEY AND SYMPATHIZE WITH HIM HE #FUCKING THRNS AROUND AND IS A DICK TO ME FOR NO RESON AND !!!! YLS AT ME FOR NO REAON SOMETIEMS SHUT UL SHUT UP YOURE LITERALLY 13 STFU #i fucking hste it here i hate being fcjingg 18 and having to share the sMe room with him i have sincd he wzz BORN. #GOD. ONE FUCKING NIGHT ALONE WIYHOUY HIS ANNOYING ASS I CSNT EVEN JERK OFF OR STAY UP LATE OR LISTEN TO LOUD MUSIC #AND LIKE IM HALDWy fhinking OH! OM BEING IRRATIONAL jd spLITTING AGAIN AND I AM. BYT HE IS JST A DICK I HATE TEENAGE BOYS I HOPE HE DIES #hes SO FUCKING MEAN hes cslldd me slurs and a bitch multiple times in the most derogayory way and i hate him #he knows abg the zysfem too snd just CHOOSES TO IGNORE IT APPARENTLY DOESNG CARE WHO HES TALKING TO. #auuggh moments i regret being ghe host i hate it here. #i hate our familh theyre just fu jing mean yhis shit builxing up is whzg made me snap in the first place!!! and couldng host for a long time #andd now im upset and spiralling and i dont wang to be a bother espcially sijce spe ific ppl i wantto talk to arsnt thefe an d it makes me #very very bvery sa d i msis my friends #i cry everry day miss ing them i have beene really liking remembering things with nicki #no onee knwos wht im talking about or wjo i am #i dont want to be useless please need me i jave no other purposs #im a nuisance to ppl whow ant to front #i sit here living in the past that doesnt exist anymore and pray every day for it to come baxk knowing it wont ever come back #i miss . my friends i dont tthink they like me #im too pushy when im happy and when im upset im too cold i never make anyoke happy an d i talk too muc h and it hurts wberyone #icant even ve of goo d use to mmy actual children in headspace im an awful mother i cant stay stable enough tk help anyone or do anything #me being here has only caused problems and I remember why i left before #me when i spiral and makenmsyelf sonmu h more upset than before #vent #shelly

[eggmeralda]

I may have lost all hope

#it's a weird feeling? #like since late 2022 it's been kind of like. bad vibes consistently #and i tried to stay somewhat positive throughout it #but idk there's this very distinct feeling now of like. i can't describe it but it's completely gone #like I've actually got nothing to live for #nothing I've done or wanted to do since i was 14 has ever really like amounted to anything #all the friends i made i never feel like i can talk to #once again in that state of 'only alive so my family don't get sad' #like even when i wanted to just stop existing when i was 21 there was this tiny bit of hope still there a little bit #like i remember for that whole summer i kept getting quick thoughts about suicide but I'd always push them out of my mind instantly #but there was one day where i let the thought stay in my mind for a little bit and like properly considered how i would do it #and then after a bit i was like FUCK and then went and walked like an hour away from my house to try and forget it #and then after that day i slowly got better. and it was annoying bc it meant now i had to walk a whole hour back to my house #but even if those 2 months there was still this feeling of this isn't gonna last #bc i knew i was back at uni in a few months and at least i had music to listen to #and all the other times I've been in that state there was still this sort of feeling that it'll get better bc I've got things to get me #through it #but it doesn't feel like that now. like no job no friends no hyperfixation and now i can't even enjoy any music #anything i create is pointless bc only i care about it #all my friends are busy doing other stuff I'm like not even second best I'm the most forgettable person anyone might know #the only thing that would fix me is getting a random train to like some place I've never been #just to see a new thing i guess #but anyway #ramble #suicide mention

[mymarifae]

this interaction is killing me. thank you len for bringing up bad memories and making toya sad for no fucking reason like literally this was so unprompted. we love an insensitive 12 year old

#SBFKJDFJSKFKDJFKJKDHFKJSKFDJGKDJGKDJGKFBGLEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #oh yeah! i remember that one! :D #though it does kinda play into the idea i've had that like. SEKAI is built on emotions so sometimes like #the virtual singers will reflect the bad ones too. it's more likely to come from miku rin and len since they're all the youngest but like #going into your SEKAI while you feel like shit Can be counterproductive. most of the time you'll receive comfort but sometimes . #the virtual singers will (unintentionally) play off of your bad feelings and digging deeper into the wounds instead of soothing them #like len reminding toya of the time he and akito almost fell out of each other's lives and he almost went back to classical music #for NO REASON #or like. a hypothetical scenario for you: #mizuki: *in the empty sekai talking about their plans to organize a hangout with the rest of n25* #rin: why are you bothering when you're so sure they'll hate you someday. wouldn't it be less painful to cut all your ties now. #mizuki: H #and in my akitoya fic that's what miku did with akito for like 2 seconds #LIKE IT'S NOT A MALICIOUS THING they're just kind of echoing the emotions and thoughts they sense from the kids #because they Know it needs to be addressed but they don't know how to do it like. delicately. #it's why in most of the SEKAIs one of the Older virtual singers is present #as funny as miku therapy is she's still 16. she doesn't know what the hell she's doing. #left to their own devices she and rin and len would make everything 18385948595845958x worse 👍🏾