#she’s struggling but being so strong

[floofyroro]

Anyone else notice how melancholic and serious Omega was in these last two episodes? The tone and overall demeanor of her’s drastically shifted during these last two episodes

#poor bb #she’s struggling but being so strong #I wish she could just be a kid #star wars #the bad batch

[viveela]

That bowling dress is super cute

#veearts #julie joyful #welcome home puppet show #welcome home #wh fanart #eddie dear #spoilers? I think maybe idk #but I'ma talk about a hidden thingy so stop reading if u r still looking #listen. it's the way Eddie struggled delivering her bowling balls in that one audio #and she has a bowling dress Like....she probably does this often #ik it's a stretch but I'd like to imagine her being absurdly strong w ease #let me dream lol #fan art

[peachfruitcake]

did you hear about what Martin said about Susan and Linda on the Twitter space he hosted on the 27th? i thought of you instantly when he started talking about them and have been waiting for you to post your thoughts! :-)

HEHE YES IM THE ONE WHO’S QUESTION LED TO THAT!!!!!

Now for those who didn’t listen to that space, Martin said that Linda called her to say goodbye but never specified how it went of course. Besides “hey Susan I’m leaving sorry this is really impacting my mental health” “gaaaaaaaaaaey”/j

This is all a personal headcanon but I like to think that their friendship grew incredibly distant ever since Linda married Felix, Susan probably stopped talking to her altogether for a while and it would leave Linda very confused and upset. They might’ve started talking to eachother again a little bit as the series of events began to approach but only very brief small talk, maybe Linda complaining a little and giving Susan a few life updates and them both talking about stuff they’ve been noticing with others lately (especially Felix’s drinking), but nothing deeper than that.

I see Susan being extremely emotionally closed off to most people except maybe a select few that she knows very closely, so if you were to ask her what’s going on in her life she’d give you a very vaguely watered down version and not what’s actually going on or how she’s really managing herself emotionally.

So basically she used to be more open with Linda, but during that period she sort of just started treating her like a stranger.

So when Linda called her first to tell her that she’s finally leaving, Susan acted how she usually would, keeping it calm, understanding and respectful and wishing her luck, but she won’t really show any more than that. Or that she cried later and felt pretty bad that they couldn’t be so close anymore and that she’ll probably never be able to make up for herself acting so distant for the past many years again.

Of course this all comes from how I view Susan as a character myself though and also the fact that I refuse to pass up the idea that she has feelings for Linda. I like to think that she introduced her to Felix cuz Linda was getting more desperate to find a relationship and Susan was getting weird thoughts so in a panic she shoved her off to him so she could avoid the urges. They’ve been boiling within her since highschool and she always was able to push them aside or excuse them as “she’s just my very close friend I don’t have many close friends so she feels extra special” and as the years went by they began distracting her a lot from her work and were growing stronger and more unavoidable aaand they were really beginning to affect how she’d interact with Linda and you see Susan hates feeling like another has any control over her and Linda just wouldn’t shut up about hooooow badly she wants a relationship and hoooow many dates keep failing and Susan was at the point to where she was starting to get the kind of dreams that make you stare up at the ceiling in horror when you open your eyes in the morning so one day when she overheard Felix speaking about being single and wanting to start looking around, she decided to introduce her to him. Susan allegedly never finds a problem she can’t fix in some way so that was her solution.

They hit it off, Susan’s solution isn’t working for some reason cuz she doesn’t feel any relief at all and in fact feels worse but just sucks it up and just focuses on her work and looks the other way. Linda and Felix get married, Susan feels like throwing up the entire day and now feels somehow even more worse by now and suddenly whenever Linda wants to chat she’s suddenly always “busy” every time. Susan’s often busy anyways but you know yourself when there’s a difference between “shit I’m busy that day, let’s do Sunday instead” and “Sorry I can’t, I’m busy”, “I don’t know when I’ll be available.”

While Linda and Felix were dating, Susan probably assumed that she was just jealous that she couldn’t have a little fun at her age herself. When they got married, Susan told herself that she’s probably so depressed over it cuz it’s making her feel like she’s fallen behind others her age and that maybe she feels bitter that all of these people are moving on and going through these important life stages while she remains behind. Which made no sense otherwise cuz Susan couldn’t give any less of a fuck about starting any sort of family or going out. But that’s what Susan would tell herself that she feels so she wouldn’t have to think about it any further. By the time Susan thinks she’s over whatever it was, she begins having brief talks with Linda occasionally. Not often and still a bit distant, but way better than before.

So yeah can you imagine how shitty and guilty Susan felt that whole time of her weird bitterness toward Linda being in a relationship and not being able to approach her much anymore or how Felix turned out to be such a shitty husband.

If this headcanon is aligned with twf’s canon, she’d probably be dead before she even gets to actually acknowledge and accept her feelings as they are. Such is life though. Not like she could’ve done anything about it.

#tldr Susan is emotionally stunted as fuck and has no idea how to identify her emotions and struggles a lot with strong emotions. she’s the #poor bastard type to stand there light a deer in headlights whenever someone cries around her #you ask her how she feels and she doesn’t react on the outside and is like ‘it’s cool’ but deep down she’s falling to her knees and crying #plus she’s a busy woman and got no time for gay shit like pining #idk if u wanted that whole hc ramble but take it anyways (˘◡˘) #it’s cool that you thought of me though!!! means a lot I like it when I’m the first someone thinks of when it comes to susan Woodings :^) #now if you’ll excuse me my sleep gummy is kicking in #the walten files #twf #sulinda #twf sulinda #twf susan x linda #the walten files susan x linda #linda thompson #susan Woodings #headcanons #I remember after Martin announced them being school friends and that Susan introduced her to Felix I made a post mentioning how I see her #haven done that to push Linda away so she could avoid her attraction fo her and how that blew up in her face lol #and he liked the post heehee obv I know that that doesn’t mean it’s canon but it is to me 😁😁😁😁🌼 #i stg if this is incomprehensible to read #I’m too tired to proofread and I just wanna post this lol

[martyrbat]

harley quinn (2000) #35

[ID: a sequence of three panels focusing on an abandoned cup of tea as drops of blood drip down into it. Harley Quinn's internal narration boxes reads, ‘I was a tomboy growing up. Tackle football with the local boys? You bet. Under a car hood changing a filter? Sure. Dances? No. Pedicures? Pass. Sewing? You have to be kidding.’ The panels expand, revealing Harley hunched over. She's shown in a profile view and from afar, her face hidden by shadow as her blonde hair is in a slightly overgrown pixie cut.

The blood continues to drip as her narration resumes, ‘I remember watching my mother. Sewing. Sitting in this old chair with a pile of clothes my dad or brother needed fixing. A rip, a tear, a patch. Just kept a smile on her face as that pile got higher and higher. I resented her so much. Sewing. I vowed I'd never learn.’ Her hand comes onto panel, revealing she's holding a needle as she yelps, ‘Ow!’ We finally see her bloodied face when she looks up at the suddenly ringing phone, it being revealed that she had to give herself sutures to close a large gash on her forehead. END ID]

#i think thats a cup of tea?? it looks like it with the sugar cubes? maybe. its not the point #love love love this little sequence and when her character and background is expanded on #i disagree with some of the choices (like her sleeping with & blackmailing the dean to get into a college) #but im a sucker for messy homelife and having that filled out more. her own personal resentment to her mother for doing the needlework #and being a housewife with a (forced?) smile and how it plays out to harley wanting to be so fiercely independent but how she #still struggles with it. from staying with the joker and that toxic relationship and the way its different than her mother's yet is #repeating the same cycle just with different mistakes #to her and pam and wanting and begging her to go with her. to being scared of being alone in a sense #she can manage fine. shes smart shes strong shes clever. but the abandonment issues run deep #how much is she aware of? how much does she resent herself for it? telling yourself as a little girl over and over you wont be like #your mother just to find out youre her if not worse? #again. repeating the cycle just with different mistakes. #also love when women are cringefailures and damp and pathetic looking #c: harley quinn (2000) | i: 35 #crypt's panels #harley quinn

[laniemae]

Not gonna get into danganronpa another spoilers because this whole scene is something else that I’m still processing but I absolutely love this line. Like to bring up milgram I think this is an idea which can reflect on lots of the characters as well. The idea of basing your entire existence off of a certain thing/person/ideology and then for something to happen that completely destroys that. Your entire person has been stripped away and just what’s left? You can’t comprehend your own existence or meaning without that specific attachment and you start to question all of your actions based off that…

I can only really think of John, Kotoko, and Es here (and possibly Amane and Mikoto to an extent). And John bases his life off of Mikoto, Kotoko upholding justice, and Es being the warden.

John’s idea of his whole existence and reason for being is Mikoto. It’s the only reason he believes he exists and if he were to fulfill his role he’d “disappear” as he would be completely worthless without him. John tries to repress and ignore his humanity and reduce himself as a tool to protect Mikoto and that’s all he can see himself as. But now Mikoto’s starting to not deny his existence and feels pure hatred for everything about him. And what will happen to John, when the person he’s dedicated his entire life to and desperately wants praise from, denies his existence? What will he be but some worthless existence that is only a burden, to him.

Kotoko. An ideology of upholding justice and punishing evil that has completely overtaken her. She has pushed herself into a role of a “fang” for justice, protecting the weak and persecuting evil. But even so matter how much she tries, she knows her goals are unreachable. She denies relationships and attachments to other people based on this ideology. Kotoko admits that she does feel attachment to the prisoners, but has to deny them in order to fulfill the role as a tool. And believes that pain and violence is necessary to achieving a greater good. Trying to deny any regret because wouldn’t it be easier to believe you’re entirely in the right? She latched onto Es, believing them to be similar as the warden who carries out judgement on wether the prisoners are forgivable or not. But now, Es has denied her whole ideology, her whole existence due to the pain she’s caused. Kotoko wants to believe that what she did was right and that Es, another enforcer of justice would accept her, because that’s how it is.

And Es… they’re the warden of the prison. There’s nothing more to them than that they believe. Es has no memories of their identity or past before Milgram and immediately latched onto the identity given to them, of being the guard. Es took this role as their entire identity, an extension of the milgram system in order to interrogate and judge prisoners. I think Muu put this best.

“Warden-san, we call you "warden" because that's what you are, right? And I was assigned the role of prisoner, but that doesn't mean I'm now nothing but a prisoner at heart, too. After all, I'm still me.”

Es has an unstable sense of identity, to the point they latched on to the first thing they were given in order to give themselves a purpose and a meaning for existence. And Kotoko calling them “imperfect caused them to question their identity. But as the story progresses Es will probably begin to learn about the audiences control and the truth behind what they assumed to be their verdicts. That their will never was 100% their own. Who knows what Es’ past was, but eventually they’ll likely have to tackle it and their whole identity, the warden, the arms of milgram, is gone.

gonna think about Mikoto and Amane here as well. Mikoto, although may not seem to be as first, focuses his entire identity around other people. He’s the friendly sociable guy who’s easy to chat with. But that’s all he believes he should be, I guess. As perhaps this mindset is upheld by an inherent fear of other people rejecting him, so he focuses all his attention and identity on being a social person. He’s never truly friends with people, as perhaps that would be “too close” and open up the possibility for danger. He doesn’t completely deny his identity like the others, but he molds and shapes it in a way that is acceptable to others. He likes what everyone else likes and does what everyone else does so the fear of being rejected for being different won’t hurt him. But now he’s stopped denying John’s existence and his DID, believing himself to be crazy, and to be completely rejected from other people, his entire sense of identity to an extent. And especially with John scaring other people off with the mindset that will help Mikoto, he has now been completely distanced from everyone else and now has to come to terms with himself, but not the ideal persona he put on to be acceptable to other people.

Amane is a more different case as she in a way has rejected that idea, but not completely. Growing up in a cult it’s very likely that she was always conditioned that she was just a servant for god. That all the good things she did were actually god blessing her and all the bad things a fault of her humanity, herself as a person. She is in a unstable relationship with the whole submitting her personhood to her religion, as she sacrificed her ideologies in order to help a cat. But at the core, that wasn’t about herself and her identity, rather a focus on the cat’s life. Amane’s murder was her will. Rejecting everything and fighting for her life in direct opposition to what she has been taught her entire life and how her identity should be, a rejection of that and a glance into “herself”. But once again, this murder wasn’t entirely self motivated. She’s still broken enough that she can’t fully grasp herself as a person besides god and religion. And a large cause of her murder was out of the death of the cat, rather than simply protecting herself. Amane still slips back into the belief that her personhood is entirely dedicated to god. As she tried to convince herself and Es that the only reason she killed is because they deserved religious punishment and she is in the right for carrying out god’s will, once again denying her personal reason for doing so. Reducing herself to “we” on behalf of her religion, that this isn’t herself anymore. Amane is in a limbo between rejecting her personhood for god, but at the same time rejecting the suffering she’s been through in order to save “herself”. Amane’s case is so interesting, as there’s no clear answer of what she believes in here, and it is truly fascinating.

#milgram #Milgram theory #milgram analysis #amane momose #mikoto kayano #john kayano #john milgram #kotoko yuzuriha #es milgram #uhhhh this was meant to be a quick analysis how did this turn into an exploration of the identities of 5 characters #And comparing it to a scene from dra which focused a lot around the loss of someone’s beliefs completely destroying their identity? #May analyse that scene directly because the whole philosophical and psychological concepts coming into play there is just soooo cool #and man I was kinda figuring out stuff as I was writing this but like I said it’s so interesting how Amane isn’t completely dedicated to go #Like the other characters I mentioned who have dedicated their whole identities to something #And Amane’s at the struggling between her true self and her perfect religious self #But perhaps she doesn’t entirely realise this conflict going on within #Which is interesting as a realisation of their identities would probably cause the other characters to lose it #But Amane it’s coming to her in a different way #She’s so strong uahhhahhajajshshshs #Tw cults #Ok now thinking about this more I’m starting to see this whole ideology apply to other dra characters as well #Man this is just so interesting #Like Kinji although having nowhere near as bad of a situation of amane was in a way forced to repress his emotions his entire life #Due to religious reasons and to devote his life to god and reject personhood #Surprisingly he’s actually not a bad person but still is very stoic and avoids other people due to being taught those values #And kinji’s a whole parallel to Tsurugi so this would be really interesting #I would talk about Tsurugi here but this is primarily a milgram post so for everything he’s like kotoko with a dedication to justice #But handles it in a very different way #His story is just way to long to analyse now #But hey this is an invitation to play (or watch bc downloading the game is hard technically) danganronpa another

[spock-smokes-weed]

Not to keep adding ideas to the ever-growing pile I have, but I do think a lot about a fic of Sanji’s siblings coming crashing back into his life once he’s settled down in the All Blue.

Like Sanji is living his dream. He’s got his restaurant, he’s got Zoro, he’s got three beautiful children, he’s got his found family in the crew and the baratie. He’s fully thriving and BAM a big ass ship shows up one day and out pops his siblings looking for him.

And he so fucking mad because he never wanted to see any of them again. He especially didn’t want his kids within 100 miles of them. But they roll up to his restaurant (or house, depending what kind of narrative tension you want to have) and say “dad’s dead. Come home for his funeral”

Aaaaand that’s all I got.  

#one piece #vinsmoke sanji #I haven’t gotten to whole cake yet so this idea isn’t fully formed until I do #since I don’t know the fully context of sanji’s dynamic with his siblings #but as someone who HAS siblings (the same amount that sanji has actually) #I’m always compelled by fucked up sibling relationships and reflection in adulthood #and maybe being able to repair things once your parents are dead #also sanji struggling to be open and honest with his children about his family #and being so scared for them when it comes to his siblings #idk I’m just spit balling here #mari is my main zosan oc but I do have the other two #sora and ryuji #and I think it would be really interesting to do some stuff with like #mari being the oldest and being more aware of what the adults want to keep from them #and having to be the strong older sister #since she’s the oldest by like five years

[suitmana]

i like to dogshow lebkuchen yet i refuse to actually get any of her bad endings aside from that apostasy + leb route combo i mentioned a while back. i find her hypocritical insistence on being a shameless flirt with elise while refusing to acknowledge a future beyond her religious responsibilities hilarious, and i do (lovingly) think that lebkuchen really is just a little freak sometimes. i also want her to be happy and snug with her sheep plushie and elise by her side. she's ridiculous. she can be a lying gremlin. she doesn't know what she is beyond her veil. but what she does know is that she is home when she's with elise. and to think all of that budding self-actualization can just be coldly snuffed out the moment elise lets her desperation blind her to the obvious implications of what the good company is...it just hurts differently compared to the other endings i feel

#little goody two shoes #lgts #lebkuchen lgts #sugary devotee #i need to study her so bad #especially how she deals with her faith #like yes i know that in her route she admits to losing that faith and being at a crossroads bc of that #but it was also a huge part of her life for so long #and was strong enough at some point for her to want to be a nun #she may need a hug actually with how much uncertainty she's struggling with #pointedly buried under her snarky quips and constant work

[homielander]

the more i think about it the more i don’t hate this change....... aemond can still be the aemond from the book after b&c but feel like a human being and not a caricature this time, dragons exemplify “absolute power corrupts absolutely” in the most literal sense, and it parallels the scene where aemond’s eye was cut out in the saddest way -- neither attacker intended for what happened to occur but luke brought a knife to their first encounter and aemond brought the largest dragon in the world to their last. they were both set against one another because of their parents’ squabbles. (to complete the parallel, i would have liked it more if the eye incident had turned alicent against rhaenyra for good, because this one will turn rhaenyra against alicent.) and aemond’s face of absolute shock at the end is a reminder to everyone that this isn’t a game anymore, it’s war.

i think if it had been only this one “whoopsie” instigating event then everyone would have appreciated it more but unfortunately they’ve repeated this plot device of major events being accidental throughout the season and we’re all tired of it now

#also lots of people saying that dragons are supposed to listen to targaryens..... but our only frame of reference for that is daenerys #who had an unusually strong bond w her dragons no?? being their mother and everything #and even still she struggled to control them #feelsbad........ the writers made an actual good change this time imo #idk about daemon i need to rewatch to get a grasp on him but i don't know if i like that change either #i mean i don't know if it's a 'change' so much.... i think the problem is we have so little time with them actually as a couple #esp when they're adults #all we've been seeing is lovey dovery daemyra and now we get this #all the time jumps mean no one is getting the fleshing out they deserve #aemond targaryen #house of the dragon #hotd leaks #hotd spoilers

[forgetme-eternally-blissfully]

Me reading a cool new novel: hah wow this is cool it has a neat premise and a promising plot line let’s see our protagonist level up and learn how to use his new power in interesting and cool ways—

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and defeats her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and impresses her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and rescues her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and defeats her PT 2

Me: Ah nvm it’s a harem novel god damn it

#it was cool at first but now I’m grinding my teeth like wtf #I was okay with it at first bc like. he defeats the beautiful cold hearted prodigy by a hairs breadth and we get this sad backstory for her #which could be better’d by the MC who doesn’t fear her and can teach her how to socialize and become a brighter happier person through their #developing friendship and potentially romantic relationship and it could have led to character development for both of them as they struggle #through the feeling of being cast aside as an ‘other’ by society and learning how to stumble through a relationship that involves #communication and admittance and honesty #something our MC and FL can’t get through their mentors #instead we get her genuine attempts at becoming friends being brushed off by him who assumes she’s going to eventually want a romantic #relationship by the end of it and ARGHHXHHD she’s a shy person!! she’s trying her best!!! you asshole!!!! and then the author has the #AUDACITY #to make her continue yearning after this guy who doesn’t give 2 shits about her and she’s only used as a support character for the #ensuing battle and then he promptly leaves her behind for his own adventure #and don’t even get me STARTED on the lack of compatibility with the other women in this story #they aren’t even being used as potential love interests they’re just there so the author can say he added strong female characters and then #IMMEDIATELY turns around and makes them fawn over this 19 yr guy who cAn pRoTeCt ThEM AnD HEs sO cOoL FUCK #I was holding out but now he just annoys me dude this is why I don’t like reading male lead perspectives if there’s a DROP of romance #it ruins it! romance is dead no one knows what chemistry is they only want to be fawned over by women to stroke their egos #not a reblog

[herequeerexitentialfear]

i love it when shit happens in my life that dredges up old wounds and coincidentally im re-experiencing the media i intrinsically link it to cause then i get to remember exactly why i love it and find it so meaningful all over again. there's a fucking reason ill always say Berserk [& RGU] both came into my life at a perfect fucking time and holy shit they fucking resonated with me so hard and as much as life can suck ass and lovvves kicking me in the balls when ive just recovered from last time i a least get to remember how & why i love something so much.

#thebirdspeaks #ive been trying to make a coherent post about Berserk and specifically the duality of Casca and Guts as victims post eclipse #because there are issues but also it resonates so well with me regardless #i cant word it pretty but i think its something about Casca and Guts both being victims and responding in opposite ways #and because they are so tightly linked you can almost see them as one victim experiencing the duality of victimhood #as an internal struggle made into two separate people #i flip flop between who i relate to more in relation to my own trauma #and there is plenty to criticize with the writing choices around Casca dont get me wrong #but as much as people criticize her mind breaking and turning into a shell of herself that needs constant help as something entirely negati #i sure as fuck was not given that space and care to be broken #its very nuanced but i think so few people write victims sympathetically that as much as turning into a mess can appear overdone #being cared for and given space and help and being allowed to be a burden is a powerful thing #and i find the expectation to be strong in the face of what you went though is much more common and damaging to me #anyway as many issues as i have i think Casca being allowed to be a victim as much a she was is why i love Berserk so much and while i thin #it could be better if some things were changed #but im not sure if it would have hit as hard and meant as much to me when i was wobbling between mindless rage and want for revenge #and just being broken and tired and weak and scared #reading Guts protect Casca like he did #showed me that that part of me could protect and is better off channeling the mindless rage into protecting whats important to me and what #needs it #letting me demand protection and love and sympathy for my weakest self in my darkest hours #i know im far from objective & my opinions are not universal #but the fact Casca is allowed to be a victim so fully and not just a hashtag girlboss who struggles her way out #well i wouldn't call Guts a girlboss but actually i think that's why it worked. #because between the two they cover the two ends of the common depictions of victimhood: forced to stay strong and allowed to be weak #anyway im about to hit tag limit i love you f you read this far and if you think this is horseshit then please don't say #if you think im right and sexy about it pile the love on meee<3

[usagimen]

idk where I'm going with this but this little tidbit did make me think of the unpredictably of Sayuri's punches. in professional fighting, south paws (left hand) are seen as wildcards because it comes quick, sudden, fast enough that the opposing fighter cannot tell. which makes her being ambidextrous even more lethal, no one really knows from which hand she will strike, this does not take into account her usage of kickboxing / grappling as well. thus, a great reminder, her subhuman strength was uniquely honed entirely by herself with the usage of cursed energy && throughout physical training. she does qualify as naturally talented fighter, this is without the kobayashi's influence, that only grants her a skillset uniquely trained for assassination. yes, sayuri is a special grade primarily for tsukuyomi though, her strength could have easily capitulated her into another category, along with her mental constitution which many fighters attribute to being stronger than the body.

#––– ❛ headcanons 【 shoganai 】 #// we're cooking today guys #// about to make an entire one man feast #// imagine sparring with her during the past arc where she was nowhere near her strength now #// yet still unbelievably strong especially for a teenage girl #// anyway headcanon the first year trio were all melee sorcerers hence them being sturdy in form #// grappling is just the take down / struggle so she can pin into submission

[floorpancakes]

i refuse to let clamp off the hook for underutilising himawari's fucking fascinating character setup and traits but on a less serious level im obsessed with the concept of her as an instigator of chaos.

like she's way less airheaded than she seems and it doesn't come off like Default Airhead Girl Behaviour or even Default Girl Companion That Ships Her Friends primarily (like not as hard as some other series by comparison I mean she's very I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE by default) specifically she just seems like someone that thoroughly enjoys being a little shit in a sincere way and giggling at her dumbass friends and has a shade of high emotional intelligence about it all. like she's just girl of all time. she's i don't know where im going with this just take this low effort meme from when i watched the holic stage play on youtube this isn't a coherent thought it's like 2am ill come up with better thoughts later

#ive seen kaguya sama and i know chika is a little bit rotted as a human being but we need to think about himas agent of chaos potential #this is all my personal intepretation but in general i find her a very cool character and working with the barebones framework is still fun #shes got so many interesting character traits #like how shes totally hooked on horror and spooky stuff more than the guys #but it has a distinct contrast with her deep fucking trauma and daily struggles with her curse-but-not-cause #theres smth that feels part coping mechanism part catharsis and part just straight up gap moe abt that #like....girl of all time #also her being depicted a lot either in rly bright sunny tones OR gothic lolita and no inbetween #i mean the joy of holic is everyone is basically posable dolls dressed up in whatever outfits you want but like its still a theme #and like we are given tidbits and small bits and pieces of her personality and interests and its not enough but its rly cool to think abt #they underused her frfr but what we do learn in how she reacts to stuff and bounces off other characters is so AAA #its wild how shes kinda a main character but kinda not in such a deeply fleshed out character driven story #i know shes a key player w loads of strong emotional moments but shes overshadowed a lot and it makes me wanna write mad headcanons #i find myself wondering how she copes day to day with her situation and how itd impact her personality around other people and self image #IDK you could write entire books abt her #but mostly: shes sillay #shes a little bit of a blank slate fill in the gaps but my brain is more than happy to supplement vibes and guesses #hima does not read as het to me because queer friendship groups work on stand user logic #i have a few fic ideas where it deep dives on her life as an adult and her push and pull w social interaction #but its early days on that so any details would b not very interesting past the conceot stage lol #i rly gotta get my ass to writing more fic but brain is a fuck writing longform is haaard unless its like idk visual novel formatting #anyway this is just nothing im not aiming for interaction here i just have half baked thoughts abt himawari the girl of all time #also hima kinda goes through hell and back so doing her dumbass 3 person comedy routine w her dumbass frisnds must be of big fuckin solace #its like that post about just being a girl who wants to have fun . she wants to have fun w friends #AND THAT IS OK justice for hima idk i love her even if she got the short end of the stick for deeply long term focused character writing

[thebirdandhersong]

also am suddenly and without warning at the age where people my age (i.e. my CLASSMATES) are getting engaged. Seeing as I still feel like a baby, this is just so bizarre to me.... I thought we were all on the same page*

*same page: I found out how to make rice cakes out of rice paper a few days ago and was utterly delighted, my Elinor came back from her honeymoon and I cried when I heard because I'd missed her and was so relieved that she was back in Canada, I lay awake at night with muscle cramps last night and thought: this is the Worst I hate this......life feels like new every day and I feel like a very young child who has to constantly make sense of reality vs. my imagination. How people my age making huge life decisions like this already, I have no idea......

#ever feel gutted/like someone is scooping your insides out with a spoon when you look at wedding photos or photos of babies #am reminding self not to covet again but like. hnnggndlsdkljj; #desire to be wife and mother vs. desire to be marilla cuthbert (i.e. single woman with strong presence/role in community #who isn't ridiculed or dismissed for being single and who finds fulfillment in a different kind of motherhood) #also vs. desire to be writer hermit lady down the street who is there for all the church events and helps plan other people's weddings #and baby showers etc. and also has hidden depths she's content to keep to herself #this is another nonsense post i just have Thoughts and feel so disoriented that one of my CLASSMATES is engaged. like #lskdjf;lkjdlk #coveting is probably the sin i struggle with most (well actually that's debatable) and i am trying to come up with ways to deal with it #(if you have any tips in this area i'd appreciate it very deeply! in this season i am constantly seeing my own sin with new eyes too #and am trying to figure out ways to not fall into old ways of thinking) #slings and arrows of outrageous fortune in year 21

[moonlayl]

For the sake of humour, they made Jennifer Walters ridiculously incompetent, even though she’s supposed to be a good lawyer both in the MCU and in the comics.  

#it's annoying tbh #and like...I thought the first episode wasn't bad #but it's just more and more ridiculous situations and her not really learning anything? #like she comes off as obnoxious and self-centered #and not in a 'she's supposed to be a flawed character so those are her flaws' way #more in a 'she's super strong and great and this is what a girl boss look like' #looks* #where's the struggle in being a superhero outside of it affecting her dating life? #they legitimately had her more upset about going against the guy making her her dress #than about defending the man who attempted to murder her cousin #like initially when people went berserk over her angry outburst in the first episode #I didn't agree with them because idk I felt they would actually expand on that? #like okay she can perfectly control the hulk. clearly she doesn't realise how difficult it would be like #I thought the next few episodes would show us her struggling with it after her initial 'everything is fine. I'm fine.' phase #but no....she was legitimately fine. with a big change like that. wtf? #like she says something along the lines of 'I work for THEM' but she chose to do it and didn't really fight it? #and don't even get me started on her using 'she-hulk' to try and find dates #that was just weird. #15 year old Peter Parker thought about it and recognised the ridiculousness in that #and he was only wanting to impress ONE girl who he KNEW was a fan of spiderman #and he STILL immediately talked himself out of it. He's 15. #'is there anything more depressing than dating in your 30s?' #yeah...how about a terrifying transformation that gives you new powers and changes your body and impacts every aspect of your life? -_- #anti mcu #jennifer walters #she hulk #anti she hulk #marvel meta #in the tags #layl.text

[swervestrickland]

god ok ok so like my cat is having trouble breathing and we took her to the emergency and they said she’s having dental issues which are causing ulcers and they gave her pain meds and anti inflammatory but her vet needs to be the one to actually go in and take x rays and pull teeth if necessary and give her like any other shots and stuff but the vet is closed until tomorrow so like I’m begging y’all to keep my cat in your prayers or whatever y’all do, I don’t give a shit but please I just want my cat to keep breathing

#poor little thing she’s struggling #i don’t think this cat is one I’ve posted a picture of before #but she’s got a little face like she’s a human being and sad eyes and she’s so independent and strong #please just keep her in your thoughts #her name is Yoyi

[rxttenfish]

dahlia and her three tiny wives

#all the care guide says is 'biomass' #legit tho THEY ARE ALL SO SHORT #i think i go with. dahlia being 7-8ft? big woman #and even aaravi is So Teeny..... #at least miranda gets Real Big with time #but val is stuck at Maybe 4ft #maybe 3ft im trying to decide how small to make her #she little #dahlia struggles so much to kiss her wives #but thats why her arms are so strong. to pick them up.