#since they know its Inevitable!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

now...there are 2 ways Barnaby can react to his missing arm option 1: "WHERE [no no word] IS MY ARM??!!"

or option 2: "oh...erm...my arm's missing...ain't that....something..."

secret third option, actually!

"huh... guess i'm all right now"

#howdy promptly bursts out wheezing too hard to even make sound #while poppy and frank are mildly uncomfortable and wally is still processing that that was a Joke #granted. a joke said in a very Im Terrified/Disturbed & Trying To Hide It tone of voice... #actually huh. Huh. i just had a Thought #i mean everything ive said so far still absolutely stands #but... i think theyd move barnaby's unconscious body into the post office after julie wakes up #since they know its Inevitable! #so barnaby would wake up probably with at least poppy unless something is going on elsewhere that requires her help #maybe eddie fell in the lake again idk #or he'd wake up. poppy is elsewhere in the Very Packed office #he'd be '????' then notice the arm #he'd probably just lay back and stare at the ceiling. Processing. trying not to freak out #then later makes the joke about it #wh lights out au #rambles from the bog #hm... maybe howdy and wally are elsewhere #and then someone - eddie? frank? julie? - runs to tell them that barn is up #and Thats when they sprint like hell back to base without a care for noise <3

[jehanthepoet]

I think it's worth noting Nara isn't just "Kristen with money." Kristen is an inherently very powerful cleric. She's a chosen one, she created multiple gods, brought a god back to life, brought HERSELF back to life, etc. On that nat20 in sophomore year she was the ONLY ONE who could lift Kalina's curse. Tracker casting the same spell couldn't have done it.

Nara is Kristen with money, but she's also Kristen without that inherent talent. She's Kristen without miracles. She's someone impulsive where it's not just that she lacks follow through (like Kristen), but where that initial impulsively is also less successful.

And, most importantly, I think it's worth noting that without those inherent successes, she's someone Tracker can feel a little superior over.

#i ama kristen apologist firat and everything else secons #but like #since their first conversation its been bothering me that it seems like Tracker felt threatened by Kristen's success #and now that Kristen's hit a bumpy patch Tracker can feel safe in feeling like it was inevitable #(and maybe it was! who knows!) #but Nara was never as successful as Kristen #and so tracker gets to be the unchallenged chosen one #kristen applebees #tracker o'shaughnessey #dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy

[asliceofzosan]

bored at work pls send zosan thoughts and headcanons in my ask box so i can cry on company time

#one piece #sanji #roronoa zoro #zosan #opla #one piece live action #vinsmoke sanji #i want to share my brainrot with yall #ALSO IM NOT IN SKYPEIA YET BUT I KIND OF ALREADY KNOW SANJI'S BACKSTORY SINCE ITS INEVITABLE SO

[ganondoodle]

took painkillers agaisnt my headache, i feel better now lmao

its fine to be critical of your stuff but man do i need to learn how to say just fuck it and go do it no matter how shitty you may think it is, people will always look at me weird for being weird anyway so destroying myself with self doubt about what i do isnt doing me a favor

#ganondoodles talks #personal #i know i usually dont spam with posts like these #but sometimes depression rears its ugly head and i gotta beat it back somehow #also thanks for the people that reached out #i know its getting tiresome since i alyways inevitably fall back into this depression anxienty mess #but i dont think im gonna get cured of that anytime soon lmao #“artist self doubt? in THIS economy??”

[always-a-joyful-note]

I think the reason I like the 5 Eccentrics so much is that it's just such a good depiction of the….variety of friendship. Because it was a group literally created to be destroyed. It was, in other words, a forced union of 5 people who might have never or barely interacted. Yet even with that, even knowing that, they all chose to have a meaningful friendship with each other - they chose to be friends and remain friends even if their union was forced, even if the very reason that they met was to be taken down. It's almost the arranged marriage trope but it wouldn't work as well like marriage because it really isn't that. It's like the family system (brought together by chance and a common identity) but it's still different. Because they didn't HAVE to be friends even if sharing the same label, because they didn't have to keep sticking around each other and become a real family. They chose to be friends in spite of all odds, chose to be grateful even amidst their destruction, and forged a precious bond that not even their predetermined fall could break and in this essay I will -

#fandom spamdom #enstars #ensemble stars #stuff i say #welcome to the inevitable five eccentrics post that i finally made you may move along now #BUT NO FOR REAL YOU GUYS IM SO OUGH OVER THE FRIENDSHIPS IN ENSTARS #for all the crazy that goes on in the story the friendships and the brotherhood (or siblinghood in some cases) is just so - #i dont even know the characters that well but i could go on forever about the amagis or sakumas or aoi twins #and maybe add a dash of the tsukasa-oukawa cousinhood while we're at it #and thats not even mentioning himeru and his brother #but the eccentrics have had me in a chokehold ever since the anime and the element miniseries and they havent let me go #its about connections that were forced but bonds that were forged instead #its about being thrust into the fire together and deciding to be the cooling water for each other instead of keeping a distance from them #its about friendship and family and realising theyre human because they found people like their own selves #and it messes me up how they also found people to establish their humanity with asides from each other #idk how to explain it because they always talk about how they werent very human before while im shaking them.... #...because you guys WERE human. you ARE human. you have always been human but never treated as such... #....andfjaisojr eifowjifjsof eive lost coherence #i swear enstars hasnt made me go on about the human condition and the philosophy of humanity #i was already like this before the game #also i just find it so fascinating how the stories establish each of the idol boys' humanity.... #....but at the same time the art and the very nature of the industry theyre participating in also kind of forces them to keep it under wrap #(like come on. even the name idols is so compelling...things made by man but revered as gods and potentially more fallible than man etc) #anyway disclaimer that these are all my opinions etc..

[tart-miano]

my versions of Hyde and Utterson in tasteful fashion (based off of this post)

#jekyll and hyde #joapot #eddie haggman #sherry uttanka #my art #oc #sorry i saw this and i was like 'THEM!!' #i can see them in a target. sherry likes to shop for new hairclips. eddie pockets the ones she cant afford and gives em to her later #also. 'we should get matching shirts! but idk what you'd like...' #eddie: (gestures towards the shirts above like its so obvious) '...........do you even know me' #context (since i havent made a bio for Sherry yet)- #When Historian/Eddie graduate and move back hometown for work they reunite with their beloved old friend- #yk the song 'Who is She?' by I Monster? thats the way Eddie feels for her. he was born with Historian's memories- #and Historian had a huge squish on Sherry- so eddie inevitably wants so desperately to meet her and be with her too- #based off of how happy those memories he shares are. the two boys hang out with her all the time- #and act as partners in battle when the magical girl fights eventually happen later on in the story #someday i'll explain all the characters and story indepth but for now. there must be writing. or there shall be no story to talk about #such is the predestined fate of man. want to talk about ocs but cannot bc there is no finished story to give full context with

[bastardcherub]

man. I genuinely wish all of You nothing but happiness. doesn’t even have to be joy, just peace and contentment

just. so much kindness. You all deserve so much better.

#(lots of personal stuff in the tags) #its been I think nearly 8 years now since I was in a psychiatry for the first time #and like. I don’t remember much from that time #but I do remember how hopeless everything felt #it felt like such a fucking waste of time. like my doom was inevitable #and here I am now #my life is nothing like I thought it would be #it sure as fuck isn’t perfect. I struggle daily #but I can genuinely say I am at a point in life where I have found peace with how things are #and can find joy in small things every day #and that’s closer to paradise than I ever thought I could get #and I know it’ll only get better from here #to add to this: it was NOT a straight line of recovery #I was in a clinic again over new years #but I am here. I have hope. I am genuinely #like #good? #not in the GOOD!!! way but. again. in a sorta. hey this is how it is and I am still worthy and will still find happiness #sorta way #I’m happier than I’ve ever been. GENUINE happiness. #and joy. genuine joy. #and yes my thoughts still try to disagree #but I don’t listen to them anymore. I tell them it’s okay to be scared of the unknown but that we can do it together #anyways this is. way more personal than I ever expected something on this blog to be #just. know there is hope. please. #angel rambles

[calamarispider]

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#did i even matter to you? did i ever? do i still? if you see this #you should let me know. i hate the thought that i was nothing at all #even though you hate me. i dont hate you. i really dont. it just feels bad. you just make me feel bad #and upset. i wish things could have gone better #it was inevitable though. and im being dramatic. theres no way to fix this. no way to resolve things #not that i can think of at least #i just wish i could have *some* resolution. an update or something. maybe im just too curious about things that hurt #you probably just talk shit about me. if you talk about me at all #i cant watch videos i used to love. i cant listen to songs i enjoyed. pages of sketches are nothing but a reminder. #ive experienced worse since. but this is the thing that stuck. probably because i was younger? that would make sense #i dont know if you ever cared about me... not really. did you know #every relationship ive been in. the other person has shut me out. avoidance or forgetfulness or attempts at isolation.... im not sure why #its a pattern though. which means it must have something to do with me. im the unchanging variable.you dislike me.or at least i think you do #so surely you can tell me bluntly? #im speaking to air right now. you wont read this. you have no reason to #calamarispeaks #vent #i guess. its more of a letter to someone who will never respond

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i just blocked so many bots my hand hurts. we're fighting for our lives here on tumblr dot commed

#nearly brought me down a full hundred #friendly reminder that if you have no likes/reblogs on your blog Blocking Is Inevitable #and most people wont even check. if you have an untitled blog with a default icon its often an insta block #i have a feeling most people who are mistaken for bots #are from tiktok/twitter/insta #but yall pls... at least change your icons it takes 2 seconds... it can be literally anything... a stock photo from the internet... #i feel bad going on sprees bc i just Know im blocking real people purely for the crime of acting exactly like a bot #its harder to tell especially since the names are getting more creative #rampant bots and likes over reblogs... these are the dark ages of webbed site #absolutely unprompted

[faeymouse]

I like to think a program’s circuits become more complex the older the get (which sure raises some interesting possibilities for Cyrus)

#babbles #tron #theory for cyrus: time is different in his prison so it felt like eons to him #and since most programs don't live to incredibly old ages they don't know their circuits will inevitably look like that #its like the badass version of wrinkles

[bonestrouslingbones]

sigh. ebony's birthday is at some point this month isnt it.

sigh. i'm not gonna be able to get this idea to combine that with a sort of last hurrah to finally kill off the ask blog format for atbb out of my head am i.

#hey dont click that “see all” button for the tags. just dont. its not worth it #not giving any character tags because secrets #but. ugh. i had the idea to give him his own mini ask event at some point last year and never went through with it #but now. well i've already pretty much fully decided atbb's just gonna be a fic series right. i need to post about that at some point #so what if. you know. just as a final celebration to what atbb was #and also me somewhat remedying being sad that y'all won't get to actually TALK to this fucker #and also me getting some feel for his voice since i still won't get to write him for a MINUTE #it would be almost entirely text tho. probably use the chat font lol #probably the intro to the event would have a pic of him and then the ending and MAYBE some bits in between #for the inevitable Can We See Your Mouth question #but just enough to not burn me the fuck out #but also would anyone even send anything in lmao....kinda a big part of hiatusing atbb at all was lack of engagement #hm. maybe i will post about ebony a tad on my normal blog. just to test the waters #not today tho becase i need to work on my finals so so fucking bad oh god everything's due tomorrow #but. soon maybe. #OR maybe i'll chicken out again lmao who knows!

[ganondoodle]

i barely got any sleep and cried twice already, call it silly if you want, but yes its bc of the whole twitter thing, its crashing an burning and its doing it fast, trying to make people go to other websites im on has proven incredibly hard

its taken a huge toll on my mental health already, since i relied on twitter for alot of social interactions .. and it was the only website i ever gained a following that gave me a reach i never had before, not to discredit tumblr, i have been here twice as long as on twitter and love it dearly, but despite that have less than half of the followers, most inactive too, and the only posts that ever took off here where unfunny memes or self deprecating joke memes i now hate making altogether

i only really realized just how much it helped me with my chronic depression and isolation now that im about to lose it; the few friends i have now i found through twitter, despite twitter being rly unsuitable for comics, destiny has done much better there than here ..

i doubt i will ever get to the point i got over there anywehere ever again, i feel horribly powerless just watching a disgustingly rich manbaby run it all into the ground within such a short time

art is all i have, twitter was surprisingly the website i got the most recognition for it, felt like i reached people who cared about the same things i care about, ppl call it a hellsite just as much as ppl call tumblr a hellsite, but to be honest i have had very few bad interactions, most of which where more funny to me that hurtful

the fact that i can lose something so important to me so suddendly without being able to do jackshit about it is yet another thing to be horribly afraid of, as if i needed more things to be afraid of ...

#ganondoodles talks #i know its not gone yet #if you remove the pilots from a plane it wont crash and burn immediately #itll keep flying fo a bit but will inevitably hit the ground #no i have no hope of it being able to correct course in time #not with lil muskboi at the wheel #been going throguh some of my fav artist accounts to try and see if they posted about where else to find them but most dont #i guess i will just have to come to terms with the fact i will fall back into complete obscurity when it all goes down #perhaps it doesnt matte that much to others #but art and the people i have reached with it is the only thing that has kept me going #finding a bigger audience on twitter had helped me deal with my depression to a point i rarely had depressive episodes the way i used to #especially after losing my therapist #despite that i was doing much better these last few years than i ever had ever since i was a teen #i just hope i wont get suicidal again .. i was so glad to have grown past that

[lilac-vode]

i really need to stop headcanoning characters as being like me and then being heartbroken when the opposite is proven true. this is not a sustainable model

#since theres no canon rep i tend to just pretend my fav chars are aroace as long as theres no indication to the contrary #but it makes it feel so much worse when they inevitably get their romance arc because nobody can be complete without one apparently right? #god i just. i know its all on me but it feels personal #am i dramatic? sure. am i overreacting? probably. but boy does it hurt #i think. it is time to stop consuming media #anyway time to go immediately into abject denial which im sure is a totally fine way to handle this #god forbid we have a VIDEO GAME without KISSING!!!!!!!!!!! #jedi survivor spoilers #god im so fucking devastated

[thekidsfromyestergay]

Took this a couple years ago but don't think it ever made its way on here, thought it might be appreciated

#why spread Catholicism when you could spread mcr instead 😌 #also because i know ill inevitably get asked: this came from hot topic a couple years ago and last i heard they dont stock it anymore #i have worn this thing every single day since i got it without fail #honestly its a god tier stim toy i love rolling the beads when im anxious

[mantisgodsdomain]

Very fun to be an dormant Homestuck in 2023. We saw a post with an aside about the mid-to-highblood bias present in the fandom and we took a moment to think "wait, what?" before remembering how much people posted about Mallek, Lanque, and Marvus. Obviously no one asked our opinion on the matter but we think that a lot of the bias here may just be because fandom people will jump at any vaguely conventionally attractive male character who can say something angsty, and we don't see 99% of this effect because we rapidly get fatigued with any character who is overly present in the fandom and any ship that has overrepresentation in the sample size and start blocking tags.

Very highly effective approach, admittedly, but it leaves us a bit out of the loop. We only really start encountering Issues with that approach in smaller fandoms when blocking any given popular ship will instantly shrink our mutual circle to Just Us and maybe, like, one guy who we dragged in here ourself, so we have to relax blocking standards somewhat and just make it "blocked for a week" or something similar.

#we speak #whenever we decide to revisit homestuck ao3 we just block the entire first block of Popular Ships #we have not seen a da vekat fic in years and this is vital for not burning out our tolerance of Them Interacting At All #we are censoring that tag so it does not appear in their ship tag also #we still have the mar vus tag blocked. we know this bc we have one specific clown mutual who likes him and will reblog him sometimes #but its been like a year since we've seen mal lek or lan que in anything and we like it that way #this has also made our character preferences skew like. OVERWHELMINGLY to woman and enbies over time #because fandom as a whole is EXTREMELY prone to focusing on men and setting anyone who is Not A Men as a background character #which results in a weird little loop where we'll get into something and get burnt out on like. Every Guy within a week #simply due to the sheer oversaturation That One Guy has #and then we only get time to recover on the saturation of Random Gals bc of the trends falling towards Just Men and nothing else #and then our Characters We Like portfolio ends up being like. five women used as background characters and one enby #sometimes we will also pick up a guy who gets villainized by like half the fandom or a popular character where the popular takes suck #but like. it's almost all background characters you see what we mean. we're a home for random blorbos that no one pays attention to #because in order to get into Actually Liking A Character Enough For Them To Hit Heavy Rotation #a high concentration of fans is like. an active detriment bc we'll get burnt out on them #and if people talk about them Too Much to the extent that theyre unavoidable then we will inevitably start to dislike them #we are but a simple beast and if we don't get recovery time we begin to run into Issues with random things & tropes #and then our recovery time once we've hit burnout is like. months to years #anyways this is a long tag ramble but generally if we spend the time to explore a character and figure them out we'll enjoy them in some wa #with the major caveat that if theyre Too Popular we may dislike them regardless #and the way that they're framed both inside and outside of the original narrative can heavily influence us if we run into it too often #bianca and jaune are utterly facinating characters who work with a set of tropes we would LOVE to do justice to #but unfortunately people who like bianca and jaune are the kind of people who think they did nothing wrong #so we can't just like. Talk About Them And Whats Going On There #without running face first into people that genuinely believe theyre a Good And Loving Family Who've Done Nothing Wrong In Their Lives #but we feel a lot like if we go into depicting them without making “THIS IS IN FACT BAD” incredibly blatantly obvious #that we will begin running into people who DO NOT have the prerequisite knowledge and will take it WAY off from intended

[rebelband]

#scc log #|| tiny reasons I get to give my cap'n heterochromia exhibit A an outright fix & replacement because aesthetics are important #that being said since he (and cks in later following) were recruited for the sake of decreasing swt's workload #inevitably swt and manager has had their own relationship and she gets to know swt's the stupidest about its own state - thoughts of #inferiority and all that. which she keeps confidential but there's at least one point in time cpn accidentally stumbles across it in a #vulnerable state so... huh! warming up to and/or respecting your partner through weird circumstances over time #|| on a semi-related note. manager has also had to deal with q5u and palette and many more #(in which she can manage it because of course she can but this is to note that queen's also helped her out since she's... vital ? (and also #a friend). do you feel me) #something something... handling audio services & having assisted in voice speech & language -> devices such as say... #a player and a speaker especially would not be entirely out of her range #if anything there's always the web search too so like - #getting too into it but maybe you get the point #my timeline is stretched unreasonably but I'm a sucker for friendship dynamics that are also a little complicated and increasingly so after #conflict and - (mutes myself.) #you? trying to hide your insecurities and flaws? manager will straighten that out for you <3 #truth be told BOTH of these short dumbasses have gotten into their fair share of fights