#so im mot too worried but

[sexykwan]

a little rant because i dont know who tell this and i think ive annoyed my twt people enough (quan sorry if you see this🙏)

#i think im going through a little nit happy moment lol and it's so stupid #like i barely managed to study some stuff but staying focused was really hard and i couldn't go for too long #and im really tired even though im not doing much #and im so alone ksjsksj like its really just me #and like everyone in my family is going through something because like crisis and all #and i have to make sure to keep my scholarship because if i cant keep it i cant keep studying and i dont even know #and like im obviously having problems yesterday i had an anxiety moment and my mom is so worried #like i can tell shes worried but i don't know what to do to make her not worru #anyways im mot home i want to hug my mom and my dad and my brother :( #i took the little calming thing but im not calmingndkjsks i dont knwo anyways #im fine dont worry people :)

[a-certain-romance]

i made the house wife ei and miko thing tbh if u want more i can write u some fr (gonna turn it into a whole ass story for u) tbh skmetimes i imagine shenhe and her house wife to imagine how possessive she could get over her house wife being jealous at every moment

then we have ningguang who adores her house wife who dhe convinced to live a life of luxioury in her jade chamber tbh your not swayed at first untill you know you can worry over her while she works and sew her stuff shes always so pleased so she rubs her hand on your thigh staring at you knowing whats to come she already planned ahead ofc

then hu tao and her house wife (coping with the fact im an og and never got her c1) anyways shes so giggly most of the time watching you cook and giving you soft kisses every time she finishes a meal. your too cute to resist honestly!! so she decided to leave you her outfit who knows what she’ll do next <3

im mot gay iswear-

AHHH ANON U ARE THE BEST!!! (Feel free to share if you have more!!)

Warnings: Smut written by a minor, possessive sex/tendencies (Shenhe), face sitting (Ningguang), Overstimulation (Ningguang), mastrubation (Hu tao), fingering (Hu tao)

Link to pt 1 , Pt3, & Pt4

- She’d get so jealous thinking about all the people you might be around. Shenhe hates crowds so knowing that she’s not at the best of her abilities in the harbor leaves her on edge

- Shenhe who gets so possessive that she singlehandedly builds a house in the mountains away from all those people who might interfere with the two of you. It’s a good midpoint between the Wangshu Inn and Qingce Village, and plenty far away from the crowded harbor

- As she spends her time in meditation and training you spend your time with household duties and tending to your garden of Qixing and other flowers. You spend the days trying to familiarize yourself with new recipes that fit to your and Shenhe’s tastes and even experimenting with a few dishes. On the few times you do travel back to the harbor with Shenhe you always stop at Wanmin restaurant to exchange knowledge and recipes with Xiangling

- These trips can be very fun, though many of them end in a rough fucking against the wall of some alleyway after someone looks at you in a way that Shenhe doesn’t like

- She’s content to carry you for a while since it means you get to be all the more closer to her

- It’s the fact that you aren’t interested in her for her wealth that makes her fall for you

- Being Ningguang’s housewife means you don’t need to lift a finger while you’re in the Jade Chamber

- Yet she still melts when you take it upon yourself to help the maids by cleaning Ningguang’s study on your own or cooking her favorite meals when she’s had a packed schedule

- She’ll order the finest silks or brocades or fabrics; anything you ask for will be in your hands at a moment’s notice

- When she’s especially pleased with your hard work she’ll guide you towards your shared room and reveal her most expensive lingerie & lipstick combo

- She’ll let you suck and nip at her breasts for a bit before locking her legs around your waist. She can’t have all the fun, this night is meant for you. Deep make-out sessions lead to her urging your legs to sit on either side of her head

- Ningguang will lick and suck on your clit until your brain goes dumb from the pleasure, and even after you finish she’ll keep going and overstimulating you further

- Hu Tao who serenades you with poetry as appreciation for all the cooking you do

- She also handpicks the prettiest flowers from her walks around Liyue and places them in a neat vase every few weeks just for you

- She leaves her outfit in plain sight on the bed. It all started with wanting to try on her hat, leading to you wonder what the rest of her outfit would feel like

- You bask in the sweet aroma of red plum blossoms. It’s like she’s with you right now! Sometimes you wear it when she’s not around. Hu Tao catches wind of this quickly and always leaves a spare article of clothing at your place

- One of these days she surprises you by coming early and finds you pleasuring yourself while wearing one of her jackets. Aiya, it was her who got you into this, might as well take responsibility and finish what you started she thinks as her finger teases your wet folds

#genshin impact #genshin x reader #genshin smut #shenhe x reader #shenhe x you #shenhe smut #shenhe x y/n #ningguang x reader #ningguang x you #ningguang smut #ningguang x y/n #ningguang fluff #hu tao x you #hu tao x reader #hu tao x y/n #hu tao smut #💋 #🫀 #hu tao fluff

[casuallycryingoverbooks]

Okay so after kind of a long break cuz i felt like i burned through most of season 8 waiting for Mulder to get back i just started watching s08e19 Alone. Here are my thoughts

Aaaaahhhhh i love Dogget he’s grown on me so much. He and Scully actually care about each other as friends

Mulder taking an active role in Scully’s pregnancy after being justifiably distant since he’d been returned makes me melt

“Agent doggets a big boy, he can tale care of himself. You have to worry about the little boy. Little girl? Little boy? Or little girl?” AH BARK BARK

No dogget’s spent too much time with Scully he’s touching unidentified goup with his bare hands

Dad!skinner telling Scully she’s not aloud into the office. Skinner acting like Mulder and Scully are the two children he never wanted but begrudgingly loves anyway is my everything

Scully you should mot be autopsying that body and everyone knows it except for you apparently and btw put a goddamn mask on

Mulder is concerned about his son and his wife, partner (girl?) friend more than any x-file

When tf was it confirmed that the baby is mulder’s?

I was so distracted by Mulder and Scully I forgot 8 was supposed to be worried about Dogget what’s going on

When x-files agents drop random history lessons>>> please tell me more about the prohibition

Skinner: mulder your not supposed to be out here. Mulder does what mulder wants

A “walk in the woods” or “nice trip to the forest” has never gone well for this man

“I didn’t catch a name agent-“ “kersh.” HAHAHAHA agent mulder is not a field agent but he doesn’t have to be if he’s not agent Mulder

Mulder looks really good in this episode

Nah dog (random evil biologist guy) get away from my new son (dogget)

Agent Harrison pisses me off, girl no way you read all the reports and went “i wanna do that!!!” And THEN you were freaked out. Like do i love the xfiles? Yeah! Is a career path im considering with an intelligence agency like the fbi? Yeah. Would i ever want to work on an xfile if they were real? Nope nope nope

MULDER SCULLY FACETIME CALLS ARE BACK HELLLLLLL YEAHHHHH

Skinner reprimanding Mulder is back can i get a waahooo?

“You re-gifted my apollo medallion” yes and i wish she fucking didn’t

ENZYMES THOSE ARE ENZYMES (ha, i was right)

“Talk about the blind leading the blind” man-

Rut row raggy

Yes, let’s shoot a firearm when we can’t see anything! That’s a really good idea!

Bad mulder! That is not something we say and then hang up on our wife, partner (girl?) friend

That is a big fucking lizard and I’m getting the feeling i was already supposed to know about it but wasn’t paying attention

Mulder bby they are not your colleagues you are unemployed

“It’s alright, it’s just me” Ahhhh soft dogget

Can Dogget and Mulder be bros please

Mulder you absolutely fucking moron ❤️❤️❤️

“Aim at me” “No!!! I’ll shoot you” “your not gonna shoot me”x4 Haha i cant believe that fucking worked

MULDERS HAND ON SCULLYS BACK AAAAH

Mulder giving Dogget the medallion ahhhhh

I’m very articulate rn

She’s such a fan hahaha

“It was never actually proven it was a spaceship-“ “it wasn’t?” + more bickering “you were frozen and then I hugged you untill you were not frozen anymore” THATS CANON NOW

#dana scully #fox mulder #x files #msr #the x files #txf #john doggett #monster of the week #william mulder #walter skinner

[discobrainrot]

did you say to ask for more harrykim hc? bc i want some more!! it can be canon or au (any of your choice) im not picky

LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

You're getting Canon Kim and Harry this time, but if someone sends me another (without specifying) I'll probably do Swap AU stuff!

1. It's not just Harry who's in love with Kim - it's Harry's Skills.

Whether they're something that occurred because of Pale Exposure or a symptom of something else, they're a part of him. His Skills are how he experiences the world. It's just as much them romancing Kim as it is him.

So when Harry falls in love, every Skill falls hard and fast, too. The INT Skills, particularly Logic, are taken with Kim's mind. The PSY Skills admire his dedication (to his passions, to the RCM, to his partner), and Volition is relieved that they've been drawn to such an (outwardly) stable force.

The FYS skills got it bad - Shivers sees how Kim fits into Revachol's greater puzzle like a missing piece. Electrochemistry has... a lot to say.

But the MOT Skills? Oh god. They're obsessed. Kim is cool, calm, and collected. He loves machines. Even with his eyesight, he's still a damn good shot. He's so suave. They. Want. Him. So. Bad.

At the end of the day, Kim is romancing one person in 25 parts. It's all-encompassing, and at first, it's strange. But after a time, he can't imagine being loved another way

2. Kim didn't expect Harry to stay interested in him.

Look, I can't picture Harry as anything other than a scatterbrain. It's partly because of my scatterbrained way of playing the damn game, but it's my headcanon, and I'll cry if I want to.

So, when they first met, Kim watched Harry flit around Martinaise like a speed fuelled (or until-recently-speed-fueled) bumblebee. He buzzes around, finds something, pursues it for a while, then sets it down and forgets. Kim watches Harry blow past his old partner without a word and worries that he might be in Jean's place one day.

Well, almost Jean's position. Maybe a worse one. It's not a stretch to imagine Harry getting distracted or bored of Kim. But this is the happiest he's felt in a long time, so he decides to ride it out. Take the joy where he can. He'll deal with the hurt when it comes.

But then Harry doesn't get bored of him. Instead, he wants more. And more. And more.

And then Harry stays over at Kim's place on weekends.

And they're investing in more board games. And Harry knows just the way Kim likes his coffee. And he makes dinner whenever he comes over. And, oh, Harry's lease is almost up, so he might as well move in. And he buys posters and photos to hang up. And he paints "This Is Something Beautiful" on their bedroom wall. And Kim knows he won't get his deposit back, but he doesn't fucking care.

And then it's been a year, and Harry has some of his old memories back, but mostly he's been making new ones. And anyone who matters to them knows what's happening, but no one says a word. And they don't hold hands in public, but the look Harry gives Kim lets him know how badly he wants to. 

And then it's been a few more years, and they move to a different apartment. And the heaters don't work, but that's okay because they keep each other warm in the winter. And Harry holds Kim close as they dance in the kitchen. And Kim's vision is getting worse, and Harry's got a bad heart, but they live the best lives they can. And they plan a wedding that they know they'll probably never have.

And Kim pretends he doesn't hear the city as she speaks into his heart.

And Harry pretends he doesn't hear Kim cry when he realizes they can't stop what's coming.

And then it's been so many years that their grey hairs outnumber all the others. And Harry doesn't talk about La Retour, but Kim sees how much he thinks about it. And he holds Harry's hand in public because it feels like the world is ending anyways. And the corners of Harry's eyes crinkle when he smiles, and it still makes Kim's heart swim even after so many years. And Harry still sees a halo behind Kim's head.

And they dance between detritus and rubble as an old radio plays. And they remember their kitchen. And they say the names of old friends. And far away, someone smiles and says theirs.

And La Revacholiere holds them in her broken arms and cries. And they hold her in their lungs. And they cry with her because of their loss. And they cry with her because they've survived.

And they love.

And they love.

And they love.

3. Harry has, like, big I'm A Bottom energy, right?

Right???????

#kimharry #harrykim #Disco Elysium Shipping #Disco Shipping #Misc Ask #Ask Meme #DE Hot Take #I'm not sorry for any of this <3

[mrtequilasunset]

I am such a huge fan of your rendition of the DE skills!! apologies if you've been asked before but I was curious about your process in creating the designs because you had mentioned it in the tags of the physique post. please have a wonderful rest of your day, your art is really amazing!

Thank you so much!! It makes me so happy that you like them, It really is just a huge crossover episode between my two favorite things so even though its mostly self indulgence i love that other people like them too.

In terms of process I really wish I had something better to say other than I have a pinterest board of various jester and jester adjacent images i use as inspiration and then i just play dress up using motifs that I like for each skill. They're mostly based on the actual appearance of the cards, and how the most striking physical features from them might translate to a silly little Jester, but I think I have more fun when I let myself interpret their personalities in with it too (which I'm gonna be honest I struggle with sometimes and idk why, it's like i need permission to get abstract with it bc im worried about being misunderstood). Really most of the designs just come from straight vibes, but the physical skills were a bit more deliberate than the psy and mot skills, which is why i wanna go back and redesign them just to make em more interesting to look at. Thank you for asking!!

#a big part of the reason why the designs took me so long is bc im trying not to force them #gotta just let the vibes come to me #and also i work a full time job and im so so tired all the time HJDFHGJD #but honestly i forced the motorics designs and thats why im not as happy with them #so i cant really give a timeframe for when the int skills and the redesigns will get done but im feelign confident in getting adventurous #so! #giggles kicks my feet

[oh-gh0st]

blegh long morning ramble

i physically feel like shit but thats from sleeping in and being on my period, so generally im doing okay at least much better than last night

i dont feel so . eugh…. i did sleep well obviously which for hiw much sleep i get a night is pretty good. i still worry but since i have morning static rn im mot thinking too much

i appreciate those who asked if i was ok and reached out to talk OTL…. it really did help to talk about the shit thats been going on lately without having to mask happiness or act like nothings wrong. so thank u so so much <3

im gonna try and take it easy for these next few days or weeks until the jobs over, then i don’t have double the isolation problems to deal with

#ghosts rambles #ghost’s 12 am posting #i would say a joke about going back to “normal” but. who am i kidding these problems will last for a whillleeee #its really hard to act like everyone else and be happy all the time when u worry if theyre ever mad or are actively pushing you away #struggling out here worrying about things that do not likely matter or do actually exist uurudhudhdshsb #ok ramble over

[bunnychargebolt]

Silly little vent below the line :3 feel free to ignore it

I kinda feel like- i don’t deserve the kind of relationship I want??

Like- id love love love to be taken care of and not have to worry about working but idk i just- being taken care of is a lot to ask for me

I need help doing basic functions sometimes and taking care of myself. Im probably going to have a lot of medical for the rest of my life. The cost of living these days is fucking astronomical. I feel like id really just be more of a chore to someone else at that point

Of course I want to be able to work and be independent. I’ve considered becoming a nail tech or an accountant. But realistically- im not sure if im going to be able to. Im going to have flare ups and bad days and i cant just dip when that happens from a job but i also cant use my only energy on working.

I’ve considered using my hobbies as a side business kind of?? Baking, crochet, makeup, hair, nails, that kind of stuff. Its all stuff that’s profitable if i manage to get the right footing. But thats unreliable. And ive considerdd going on disability which will probably happen but thats still not tjat much money.

I dont want to become a burden for someone i love but I cant see that not happening??

Not to mention all of the trauma i carry around with me and everything that comes with that.

And ofc I know that if someone isnt going to want to be there for me and help me then theh dont deserve to be with me but i dont get to see myself through anyone elses eyes. I know id make a good partner and im actively working on myself so I can be in a healthy relationship in the future. But idk how successful id be at being independent. Amd I dont want to have to be dependent on someone else. And evem if someone was ok with that the amount of reassurance id meed that its actually ok would be fucking astronomical.

Ive just- never met anyone thats been willing to put in that kind of work for me. Even on a lower scale of being friends. Everyone leaves for one reason or another. And i know sometimes its bc i was shitty or whatever- no ones perfect and mot everyone is meant to be friends with each other. But sometimes its bc who i am is just too much. I dont want to keep going through that. It sucks.

I know i deserve to be loved amd feel cared for. And that ill be able to find someone like that. I just think its kind of hard to see that sometimes and right now is one of those times and it really hurts.

#tw vent

[lonelyplanetfag]

been wondering . whats trc / the raven chronicles (pls go into detail)

this is probably the best ask ive ever gotten oh my god i could talk abt trc forever

the short answer is that it's a fantasy series of four books and a spin-off trilogy abt four private school boys and their token Girl friend trying to find a dead welsh king (and i know that's like. every red flag possible but hear me out ok)

the long answer is. ough. i know you specified detail but i got frank to read it so im gonna be So Careful mot to spoil anything and im mostly gonna talk abt the main group of characters cuz they have me in a chokehold (and there's so many details about the plotline itself that it's impossible 4 me not to spoil it on accident once i get talking)

in the first chapter you find out that one of the private school boys is going to die. his name's gansey and he's the one who got all his friends roped into his obsession over the dead welsh king. he's like the personification of rushed cursive and accidental insensitivity and passion. he means well but he's overly polite and knows what is objectively too much about business for a seventeen year old

you find out that he's gonna die via the token Girl friend. her name's blue and shes the only non-psychic in a family of psychics that run a Psychic Business out of their house (which is probably really dangerous considering they're all women and live in the middle of nowhere). she makes things Louder when it comes to all the psychic shit and she's like fingerless gloves and tangled necklaces and having too many highlighters 2 me

blue's dynamic with adam is one of my favorites. adam's another one of the private school boys, but he's the only one who isn't filthy rich. he lives in a trailer park and has a family that makes gansey worry so much that he all but begs adam to come live with him (the school has dorms but gansey decided to invest in an old factory instead and lives there with the other two private school boys). the thing about adam is that he wants out of that fucking trailer more than anything, but success means nothing to him unless he got it for himself. he's my favorite character and i could talk about him for days. he's like shitty cars and guilt and the forced silence of things that are loud in nature

then theres ronan. he's another one of the private school boys and there is so much about him. his dad was murdered and he was the one who found the body, his older brother's a dickhead who controls The Family Fortune, and there's so many secrets that go into who he is that i can't go into much detail without mentioning them. he's an asshole in the best way possible and he's like loud music and fucked up religious imagery and anger and violence. also im 80% sure he's franks favorite

noah's the last of the private school boys and has more secrets than ronan does. he's connected to the plot so intensely that i am Not gonna say much about him, but he's like smudged pencil and being forgotten and being remembered

#i have way too many thoughts about this fucking series but the most important one is that ronan and adam are holy #barbi #trc

[cogbreath]

good lord people are acting THAT way about the cake post?? man idk both them ppl sound like they don't fit for eachother they both have different standards. i guess i kinda relate to the guy in that there is a difference between cake for birthday and cake for other purposes and i too would prefer my favorite cake for my birthday. ultimately though the fact she left him means to me that there was more going on in this relationship. i think these ppl were pissing eachother off for a while and straw brake camels back. usually how that shit goes. ultimately i can't relate to ppl who think theres some insidious abuse dynamic going on. they rlly just dont seem fit for eachother. she seems to rlly value baking as a craft and tgats why she's embarrassed and hurt by what he said. guy however doesn't seem all too interested about baking in that way. nobody is rlly wrong for how they feel but these ppl just don't seem compatible. end of the day shes out of his life and hopefully will find someone who admires baking the way she does. hopefully he will find someone who knows he isnt interested in anything more than what he specified. its fine. anyway though we only know what is told to us so ofc we only know that much. there could be a lot left out the other person might have a different perspective you know how it is. so thats why i try not to take it too seriously. we r outsiders looking into a cross section of someone else's relationship dynamic based on one incident. ultimately do i think hee the asshole? maybe a little bit. but idk. it's not the end of the world. frankly dont understand aita posters bc im not worried about if i was or wasnt an asshole in a situation. it doesnt matter to me. its not the end of the world if it turns out i am one. atp im more focused on fixing the situation and making amends than judging if i did something bad or mot that cant be undone anyway. i find it strange that it matters to so many people. whatever.

[pridetorn]

I can't have sjit in this house so here i am pre emptively saying bc it's not on my rules yet! Leave if you ship kaeluc I'm not here for it!

#𝟶𝟶𝟶. 𝚁𝙰𝚃 𝙶𝙸𝚁𝙻 𝚂𝚄𝙼𝙼𝙴𝚁. — ( out. ) #im sure most of u are sane and agree with me #so im mot too worried but #found some great jean art! a shame this artist ships that shit #makes me so mAAAD LIKE I HAVE 4 SIBLINGS OK LETS NOT BE EVIL #THANKS

[serotaejin]

💌

#this is gonna be long rant but also appreciation for serendipity/jimin/joon but also v personal so trigger warnings #negative / mental health stuff / drug mention / relapse tw #im quite shit at listening to previously released music and take a lot of time to go through the discography and tbh I haven't even #scratched the surface with bangtan but i wanted to prepare for bangbangcon so i looked up the setlist and listened to it #before the date and since then. i've been listening to serendipity every night and sobbing my eyes out. every single night. #jimin's vocals have always been my favourite. like ever since i first heard them in dynamite. and serendipity is just. ethereal #that song was MADE for him. he is enchanting. the yearning for this new thing to work when it's them vs the world. oh u can just feel it in #his voice. and the performance... i really cannot get through it without pausing every few seconds. jimin is SUCH a graceful performer #he flows to the music. he flows with the emotions and fuck it IS the most beautiful thing ever. only jimin could carry the tenderness #of this song so beautifully. when soulmate & i watched a performance she mentioned how she felt like she was being held in a trance #because she could mot take her eyes off of him and i knew exactly what she meant. bc every since the first time i listened to it ive been #wanting to relapse. the song/performance reminds me of how i felt when i was using. i used to use bc i was depressed as hell and needed #something to make me happy. and it made me happy. my chest would be filled with happiness but also ache. this is exactly how i feel now. #the lyrics... they hurt. a lot. joon writes so beautifully. he really is one of the greatest poets of our gen. idc it's a fact #the way it says that universe planned this. it planned us. you have nothing to worry about. we were meant to be. #and how the uncertainty is quelled over and over again by reminding themselves that the universe moved for them and fate/destiny is envious #he says he's afraid too but it goes away when they see him. when they touch him. all this had been planned ever since the universe was first #formed. yeah i can't.... 🤧 there is nothing more precious than this and it just makes my heart ache so much bc i want it so bad #i just wanna be in love. so in love. so consumed. im so sick of messing around with people who i don't care about. #i don't want to care about anyone else. just them and what we could build together. at the same time it disgusts me to see myself #be like that. i can't even think about it without shuddering. why am i so afraid. why can't i take my own advice and out myself out there? #why do i hide behind a wall. why do i not let myself form any type of feelings. i know that im not afraid of getting hurt SO WHY #i just can't being like this. i need to love. i can't relapse and escape my issues once again. i just cannot. #ig thank u jimin & joon for awakening something in me. i love u #please don't rb or if u have anything condescending to say keep it to yourself #some... thots

[ecl1pse]

im so stupid. i really did let myself get scammed over the phone the same fucking way im always telling people not to get scammed at my job 😑😭

#the same fucking way!! #im so dumb #im mot too worried abt the money bc its just $2800 pesos #which is like less $200 usd #and i get my next paycheck tomorrow #im just so fucking embarrassed bc it’s the same damn scam im always telling our clients not to fall for

[suyunsgf]

My laptop CAN run Skyrim

#just barely tho she starts lagging if theres too much going on #it onlt became a problem when i was fighting like 6 dudes at the same time so i wont be too bad #she did sound like she was trying to take off the whole time but she does that running youtube so im mot tooo worried about that

[greedygreedyphilza]

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#vent #ahhhhhhhhh #my notifs are just full of that one post and its making me anxious #ive had a post pop off but like i think people thought the tweet was mine #but its not its not #like please do not praise me for someone elses work #ugh i want to edit it but is literaly far too late #i genuiely thought since i kept the @ people would know it was not me #but now im so worried they think it is me #even if i edit it its not really going to change anything #ugh the urge to delete it is strong #its mot just that #i have so much work to get done for school that i just let pile up and its stressing me out #i tried to get stuff done today but i just gave up mostly #ugh im gonna try to get stuff done now

[higgs-the-god]

I usually give into my temptations but maybe stabbing myself is Not The One

#this is a ... popular reaccuring one so don’t... be too worried #ah but wanting to be paid attention to really isnt helping #look im mot aaying stabbing myself would get me a LOT of attention. BUT—

[brieflygorgeouss]

rant: when you talked about a fruit basket of gratitude in your reply i immediately remembered that one evak fic where they visited an art gallery in rome and saw the "boy with a basket of fruit" painting and then i thought about the painting and now i want to forget all this shit here and go to rome or paris or amsterdam or vienna and visit museums and go to cool cafés and NOT have to worry about my current situation ugh. let me live without time and work and future pressing down on me!! -wea.

i feel you abt wanting to go somewhere far away to a different city and trying to figure myself out over there all over again!! i am worried about the future too, especially since i do not know what to do with it at all, it’s frightening when i let myself get too much into my head...hopefully everything somehow works out for the both of us baby :(

#asks #anon #worried english anon #ive never been to paris or amsterdam but rome and vienna are breathtakingly beautiful #vienna esp is so dear to me when i go there again i will truly be happy again #and abt the future yeah its stressing me af too #like i have decided already that i am leaving china next month and not coming back in february bc i am unhappy here and i dont want to live #a life like this #but now everybody is asking me so what are you gonna do instead?? and im like idk?!!! i have no idea!!! #so see staying here for the next 1.5years would just be so much easier even if i know i would be unhappy #and my heart is telling me mot to stay but everything else is so uncertain and im just so overwhelmed #i dont know what to do about my guture at all #its so frightening honestly im so scared of making some big mistake why cant someone just tell me what to do! #sorry abt this mess this is yhe fourth time im trying to answer this ask bc tumblr just loves me so much