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kingofthering · 6 months

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a list of motogpblr creators

Hello, I initially wanted to do this to celebrate some kind of milestone of mine but I have none of them in sight and I got the inspiration for this earlier this afternoon, so, here we are.

My memory is not the best and I tried to research stuff through my blog but I already know that I have forgotten people and I obviously don't know about everyone here, no matter how small motogpblr may seems to be, so, my apologies.

Just a quick thank you to everyone who uses some of their time to create for the fandom and also a thank you to people taking the time to interact (with likes, reblogs, comments) with the content created, it's always appreciated.

☼ gifs : @whoregaylorenzo @flyingfabio @suzuki-ecstar @kwisatzworld @celestinovietti @marcsmarquez @micksdoohan @somkiatchantra @cuthechicane @blorbogp @eneabastianini23

☼ fanarts/drawings : @ilikecarsandlike4people @alexxuce @carlosheinz @vroom80085 @urmomgoodwoman @emergencysideblog @eovaldi @azul-days

☼ fanvids : @russquez @marcsmarquez @f1vegas @urboimatt @callmecams27

☼ web weavings : @f1vegas @micksdoohan @captainbradmarchand @flyingfabio @blorbogp

☼ (mini) fics and au exploration : @whatwepostintheshadows @babynflames @f1vegas @baking-soda @agnst-crrnt @lestelledreams @its-always-silly-season

+ ao3 writers : @remapped-soul @speedtrapped @agnst-crrnt @waru-chan8

☼ stats and technical stuff : @waru-chan8

☼ books (quotes), history things : @kwisatzworld

☼ polls, ask games : @lil-italian-disappointment

#motogp #like I have 570 followers and this blog's anniversary was in july so #watch me regret posting this when I realize who I forgot to include #please complete this if you want #last time someone made a list I was in I gained like 10 followers in two days so maybe this can help people find out about other great blog #I'll prob make an other post for just general content and my favorite taggers (because fun tags and opinions are very important to me)#*#and you can tell me if for any reason you wanna be removed from the list #I was literally in the middle of making a tony/salac thailand 2022 gifset when I paused to do this #anyway #publishing this and running away #(go finish my gifset)#if you see this towards the end of october/beginning of november go vote for your favorite fabio hairstyle

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vivitalks · 6 months

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"Good morning," he tells Troy at the kitchen counter. "I'm studying the human condition, so I'm going to be in love with you for the next few days."

"Um, Abed?" Annie chimes in uncertainly from the table. "I don't think you can just decide that."

"Being in love is a pattern of behavior," Abed says. "I think. Only immersive study can confirm. Hence, my research."

"Okay," Troy says. "Should I be in love with you too?"

Abed thinks on it. "I guess it wouldn't hurt."

There's a clunk from behind them. Annie's forehead has made contact with the tabletop.

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imabiscuitinthousandworlds · 3 days

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I LOVE going everywhere by bike. Don't need to wait for a bus. Don't need to cram myself into a bus with (urgh) people. Or even worse, what feels like every single student in town. I still get home in about the same amount of time. I'm so so flexible including with places. Like yeah sure, let's go there! I don't care if the next bus station is far away. Doesn't matter to me.

Stayed out late with friends recently. Two of em had to get their family to come pick them up because that's too far to walk and it was too late for buses. A different friend lives like 30 minutes away but always walks and their way goes through a small park where literally no one is at with few lanterns so it's pitch black and I could literally just walk them home and then take the bike which is faster and has its own light and feels and probably is safer than walking those dark ass streets at night alone.

Like. I can just do all that. And yeah, sometimes when I'm not doing too well I feel like collapsing afterwards and yeah, maybe my fingers feel like falling off a lot at this time of year but that's like. SO worth it. I have no idea how people can live and NOT go everywhere by bike. Like if it's more than 20-30 minutes maybe but even with hills.... I fucking love my bike.

#a biscuit's rambles #also i just love going out with friends til late??#with the lockdown and shit that is such an entirely new experience and its great #also i like feeling useful i think. i like walking a friend home knowing ill definitely get home safe #idk #i also like my bike. a lot #been taking it literally every single day for years now and i have no regrets #EXCEPT FOR THOSE FUCKING PEDESTRIANS THAT HEAR MY BELL AND DO NOT FUCKING MOVE #AND THE OTHER BIKES THAT JUST DONT RING THEIR BELLS OR NOT EVEN HAVE ANY #LIKE THEN YOU GOTTA AT LEAST YELL AT PEOPLE TO MOVE OVER YOU NUMBNUT #A BIKE IS QUIET THEY DO NOT HEAR YOU THEY WILL NOT MOVE OVER MAGICALLY #AND IM STUCK BEHIND YOU #ALSO ITS JUST ASSHOLE BEHAVIOUR LIKE SOMEITMES WARNING SOMEONE SO THEY KEEP TO THE BLOODY SIDE IS GOOD!!!#and dont even get me STARTED ON SOME OF THE CARS #MUCH LESS THE STUPID ASS FUCKING INFRASTRUCTURE OF MY TOWN #ITS LIKE THEY WANT BIKES TO BE RUN OVER #fun fact i have been run over before #just fuckin collided with a car #nobody would listen to me try to pick apart the details of how it felt #which was probably my way of trying to cope with that experience lol #though nothing serious happened. bUT STILL #also oh god that one stupid fucking street with those stupid ass cars NOBODY NEEDS A CAR THERE JUST BAND HTEM ALREADY #AND THE. THE FUCKIGN ROADWORKS #I CAN NOT REACH MY SCHOOL WITHOUT ALMOST BEING EITHER HIT IN THE HEAD WITH A HUGE SHOVEL OR RUN OVER BY A TRUCK #AND IF THATS NOT THE CASE THEN THERES SO MANY FCKING PEOPLE THAT EVEN IF I YELL AT THEM LIKE MAD I CANT GET PAST WITHOUT RUNNING SOMEONE #THROUGH MYSELF #im very passionate about all things bike. but thinking abt it is a huge part of my life so im allowed to be

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tj-crochets · 1 month

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Hey y'all! I am in the mood for some new (to me) music. Do you have any recommendations for songs that make you want to dance? No limits on genre or language, but if you're sending me a link to a specific music video please give me a heads up if it has flashing lights (if possible). Thanks!

#the person behind the yarn #I heard a song playing at the local Joanns the other day and I regret not writing down the lyrics so I could look it up #very very dance-able #I remember none of the words at all lol #I do not care what language the songs I listen to are in #if it's fun to sing I will learn the lyrics regardless of language #I mean most of the songs I listen to are in English but I have songs I sing along with in several other languages #...I might only know what like half of the words actually mean but I did know the meanings at one point!#I just learned a lot of the lyrics before I got sick and those memories are Gone #oh wait if the lyrics are not in English and the lyrics are propositioning someone I would like to know that #so there's not a repeat of the 'the only French I knew as a child was song lyrics but I very much didn't know what they meant'#like I do not mind the lyrics I just want to avoid another Incident #I cannot tell you how many adults (in retrospect) heard me singing that song. CLEARLY had a face journey about it #and were like...she can't know what that means. Should I tell her? That would be so awkward. I'm not going to tell her #I thought adults just didn't like French for so long

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ultramarine-spirit · 1 year

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Is there a phrase that Athy has said that you like a lot? Or any other character? Is there a phrase that Athy has said that you like a lot? Or any other character? I personally think one of Athy's best lines was when he bowed to Claude on his birthday, it was really epic

That's a good choice! I'll keep this post about Athy, because I have too many favorite lines of hers. But overall, Lucas is probably the one who says the quotes I love the most. My favorites from the novel:

«Lucas, you brat... I'll kill you. Next time we meet, I'll really kill you!»

« I'm not yours, you are mine! »

« If this were a kid's story, everyone could have had their happy endings. No one would have been unfortunate or have any faults. In their perfect forms, everyone could have had their beautiful endings. »

Funny, romantic and thoughtful.

First one is funnier without context. Second one, everyone knows it, it's iconic, no explanations needed. Last one is from the final chapters. I think that line perfectly reflects the novel's philosophy, and it's a nice contrast with the manhwa's different take on the story. Neither is better than the other in my opinion, but rather, that contrast is what makes each other much more fascinating.

And as for the manhwa...

First, this classic (from both the novel and the manhwa). When you think about WMMAP, you think of this scene. Moving and heart-wrenching at the same time.

My absolute favorite quote... This felt like the one chapter where Athy finally exposed her heart to the reader. In volume 7's author notes, Spoon wrote about how she wanted Athy to learn that the love others gave her is not something to be gained or lost, and that she hoped Athy could in that way learn to love herself. That's it, that's Athy's whole character arc in a nutshell. Yeah I'm going to cry.

A simpler line but also a direct thematic continuation to the one shown above. The sequence leading to this is so impactful (I love the alliteration of people asking Athy her name. It's literal poetry, I'm not joking), and the scene that follows even more so...

Putting these scenes together really shows how much Athy grew over the course of the story, huh? From accepting she truly loved Claude but being willing to give that up, to confessing how afraid she was of losing her loved ones' affection, because it was the first time she held anything across three lifetimes, to finally realizing her true self and then being willing to sacrifice herself to protect those she loves.

Excuse me, I need to go cry for a bit...

#who made me a princess #i suddenly became a princess #suddenly became a princess one day #wmmap #sbapod #sbap #athanasia de alger obelia #athanasia #athy #wmmap novel #wmmap meta #my favorite lines from Lucas... where to even begin. In the novel. when he tells Athy she doesn't need to reciprocate anyone's feelings #'... But if somehow something were to happen to her...#I would be so enraged that I might kill everyone and set the entire obelian empire on fire.#I'd burn down everything until every living being on this land has turned to ash.'#'I shouldn't have shown her the sacred tree. But it's too late for regrets now. She won't... listen to me even if I try to stop her.'#'But why is that I can't bear the thought of losing someone now...? Did you feel this way too?'#'I still don't know how it feels to have a family. but I do know how lonely I would be if I weren't able to see that someone again.'#'... I understand why you didn't want to exist any longer.'#'It's still fine... I'm protecting her... so at the very least she'll be able to come back...'#'... You are the only person that I think of as someone I want to protect...'#Diana's: 'Though I couldn't raise you and hold you in my arms. Never once have I not loved you since the moment I felt your existence.'#'I love you my daughter Athanasia.'#'That's our child... I want to protect her even if something happens to me.'#Claude's: 'Don't be sick. I'll do anything for you. so please always stay healthy and happy...'#'I'm sorry Diana. Now I finally understand you.'#woah notice how most of these are about Athy or people loving Athy? I wonder what's up with that

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whoslaurapalmer · 2 years

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just, spitballing something

violet doesn’t learn how to drive for a really long time (when would she have had the time?? when was it necessary??) but eventually she learns how to drive in her late twenties, and she needs An Adult Who Is More Adult Than Her to be in the car while she’s driving and it’s lemony. lemony is very touched to be asked to supervise her driving, even though no one can concretely confirm whether or not lemony himself can drive. but he knows what he’s talking about and is very patient with her even when she accidentally runs a red light one (1) time

and the thing about violet hanging out with lemony is that like, he doesn’t make her uncomfortable, but, he makes her uncomfortable. violet has been the oldest adult in the room for so long that when there is an actual adult around who’s the age her parents would’ve been if they were still alive, she does not know what to do with him. he never acts like a parent or An Older Adult, but violet has been protecting everybody for so long that she doesn’t know what to do when presented with somebody who could potentially protect her, and maybe actually do it, like they’re supposed to. and she doesn’t need somebody to protect her, she’s in her late twenties and she knows how the world works and what to do, how to live and how to hope and how to be. and she doesn’t need lemony, not like that, not at all. sure she likes him just fine, he helps around the house and he has good taste in books and beatrice likes him, and he took care of her, but you’re supposed to take care of a child. violet isn’t a child anymore. and she doesn’t want to be.

anyway. she runs the red light one (1) time and has to pull over because she can’t breathe. and when she starts crying and lemony lets her cry she’s almost angry that he doesn’t do anything else. but she doesn’t know what she wants him to do. and then he hands her a handkerchief. and lemony has never asked anything of her, she thinks, except that she just be violet baudelaire. and, being violet baudelaire means a lot of things. inventor, orphan, sister, parent, adult. she was a child. then she was an adult. she’s an adult now. and there was no period in between, and klaus knows how that feels, but klaus is her brother, her younger brother, and violet wants nothing more, all at once, but to look up and see somebody else who’s supposed to know what to do. somebody else to make a decision, somebody else to do something terrible and hurt someone else, somebody else to make a mistake, somebody else to raise her siblings and beatrice, not that she doesn’t want to but she’s been going for so long without stopping until here, now, on the side of the road in a car she built herself, learning how to drive much too late, which just tops the list of things that in a decent world violet baudelaire should never have really had to do, and violet feels like she’s unraveling. being violet baudelaire means, she’s never allowed herself to be this tired, and she can’t do it.

and lemony snicket is handing her a handkerchief. and he smiles at her, and tells her she can try again. driving scares him, too. that’s why he doesn’t typically drive, even though, yes, he does have a license. he shows it to her. he tells her about how her parents were very proud of him, when he got it. he tells her they made fun of his picture, this very picture because he has since renewed it a number of times (sometimes many years late but always renewed) but always under circumstances where he could not change the picture, but he assures her no one gets a good picture at the department of motor vehicle anyway, and it’s nothing to worry about. he tells her she’s okay.

violet takes his handkerchief. she holds it tight in her hands and can’t find it in her to wipe her eyes or stop crying, and she can’t say anything at all. lemony looks concerned now, and he almost always looks some degree of concerned, about one thing or another, but he looks concerned at her and he puts his hand on her shoulder and says it again, very earnestly. she’s okay. and she really isn’t. she doesn’t feel okay at all. she leans over and sobs into his suit jacket, because she’s not okay. and he doesn’t say anything else. he holds her very gently and doesn’t say anything. not even when she crumples up the lapels of his jacket in her hands as she grips them alongside the handkerchief. like a child, she thinks. it’s terrible.

it’s not all that terrible. the world is stopping, but it still moves on. another car drives by. neither violet or lemony let go for as long as it takes.

eventually, violet stops crying, and she leans back in the seat and dries her eyes, and folds lemony’s handkerchief into a neat square, and hesitates. then she tucks it into the pocket of her shirt.

“for safekeeping,” she explains. anything can happen in a car. in case i need it, she does not say, because she’s still not entirely okay.

lemony nods, very seriously. not patronizingly, but seriously. like he’d do the same thing, like he understands completely, and she doesn’t have to say anything more.

violet drives back home with lemony snicket.

#lulu talks about the sad lemon man #BROUGHT TO YOU BY A WOMAN WHO 1) IS HAVING A BAD DAY 2) JUST RENEWED HER NON-LICENSE ID ONLINE 3) BC SHE DOESN'T DRIVE #lemony snicket hands out handkerchiefs -- a thought lulu has now put in three (3) fic related adventures #no regrets though. i always want to say regerts bc of the snickers commercial but i worry someone's gonna get me for spelling #no thank you i am making a reference. anyway. NO REGERTS.#it is HIGHLY likely i will rewrite this properly into an actual fic at some point but. certainly not anytime soon!!!#WE ALL KNOW MY FIC COMMITMENTS #just trying to feel out. where i think violet is as an adult. and where she is in relation to lemony's presence #ALSO I JUST WANT LEMONY AND VIOLET TO HUG BUT I THINK IT'S VERY AWKWARD FOR THEM

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cuteniaarts · 14 days

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Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl

17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019

#my art #artists on tumblr #I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already #I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that #exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together #not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know #and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again #I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly #instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her #feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time #well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system #and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her #and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result #but it felt like to commemorate her in some way.#so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind #which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever #never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor #but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself #she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret #there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end #even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again #I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing #it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day #she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much #when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was #well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed #I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home #and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me #spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure #and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes

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calamitydaze · 23 days

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long tag ramble below u have been warned

#ok i feel like i should say Something before i start being active again #but i dont want it to be a Statement which is why i’m putting it in the tags #(also bc i procrastinated doing this for weeks so i know this is a very stale topic by now #but i also haven’t been on tumblr literally at all so this is 100% my organic authentic opinion lmao)#so read if you gaf and ignore if you don’t #anyway: george def could’ve done more to ensure she was comfortable #and as someone who has also gotten in over my head with older men and regretted it #her hurt is valid and i’m deeply sorry she feels the way she does about that night #but with that said i see no reason to believe george Should have known how she really felt #or that he deliberately took advantage of either her youth/inexperience or her discomfort #and that’s the most important thing for me— he fucked up and misread a situation but that doesn’t make him an evil person #and i hope they can both move on and grow and heal #as for my future in the fandom: i honestly dunno how active i’ll be going forward #i was already becoming pretty disconnected so this might’ve just sped up the process? i’m tired of being put through the wringer #but i also don’t really have a fandom to replace this so i might just continue casually participating in the way i have been #either way rest assured i will never become a rabid anti. that shits embarrassing #i got HORRIBLE drolo rsd the other day when tommy’s mom needed clout and vagued him so like if nothing else. droloisms are forever #also as a last thing— this feels kinda silly and self centered to say but i will anyway #sorry for not opening up my blog as a forum for discussion again the way i did with the drituation #i know i helped a lot of people sort out their feelings and that was (and is) really really important to me #but it also tanked my mental health (mostly as a result of the fallout and not the act itself but still)#plus my life irl was pretty stressful at the time when everything was first going down #so i just didn’t feel up to putting myself through that again #but i’m sorry if anyone wanted to discuss w me but wasn’t able to #anyway. i think that’s all i have to say!#i don’t want to turn this into a capital D discussion but as always my askbox and dms are open #love you all tons! i hope you’re having a good day 🫂🫶#bella talks

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widevibratobitch · 27 days

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well shit

#tw suicide #my train is delayed cause someone just killed themselves.#the fact that my very first thought was 'god i wish that were me' may suggest that im not as fine as i thought i am lol #anyway. i know people have the right to be annoyed. everyone's making phonecalls and some people are really. i mean. idk. a person just died #'joł no słuchaj ja się spóźnię bo ktoś właśnie ✨strzelił samobója✨' bruh #like idk im just feeling this really strongly for some reason.#prolly because my suicide plans have always involved a train too so i just cant bring myself to be annoyed at this person #idk ill be thinking about them a lot these next few days im afraid. i just hope they didnt regret it at the end.#its so stupid but im sitting here while everyone is so fckn annoyed and angry feeling like the monkey meme #like 'they dont know its probable ill delay a train too one day 😬' sorry yall

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hydrachea · 2 months

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For the ship game, what are your thoughts on Jingliu x Luocha ? 🤔 And on a more common ship but with another nuance, what about Dan Heng x Jing Yuan (HengJing) ?

Wish you a good day, I hope it's sunny where you are ! 🌞

ship chart game

Luoliu? Liucha? Isn't actually something I've encountered before, I think. Now that I'm looking at it, though, I can see it, with them being literal partners in crime. And of course, I'm an avid supporter of both men and women's wrongs, so it can only compel me. Hopefully we run into them again (we probably will run into them again) and get to peek at their dynamic some more.

Hengjing I have seen plenty, and I see the vision but I can't say I really share it. It's one that really depends on how you see Dan Heng, personally I'm among those who think he wants a clean break from his past incarnation and so I can't really ship him with any former High Cloud Quintet members. If you're among those with a different opinion, it's a pretty sweet ship, and they both deserve nice things for real. So all in all, I see it, I acknowledge it, I am not compelled. All my support from the sidelines!

#ask #answer #saunne #i regret to say it's gray and pouring outside the same way it's been gray and pouring for days and i am absolutely starved for some sun #you are a ray of sunshine either way #but if you're a ray then who am i #dan heng ships have so much to them and i don't feel like there are any objective takes #would love to have more info about how he feels if only SOMEONE hadn't been holed up in the archives since 1.3 #but free real estate i suppose #hsr #not tagging the ships this time because i have no idea what the first ship name actually is #and because putting what i think about the second one in the ship tag wouldn't be very nice even if it's not ship hate

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samiraheaven93 · 11 months

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Do you have a recipe/dish that you associate with a loved one?

Ask then for the recipe! Ask if you they could show you how to prepare it.

And WRITE IT DOWN! Not just on your phone… have it physical in your hand.

There will be a time when you need their comfort but they can’t be there (for whatever reason) and I found that even looking about a recipe like that (and/or making it) brings me comfort… for me it feels like they are there… (it can be totally different for you of course!)

Does looking at the dish/smelling/tasting it make me very emotional? Yes! But it also makes me feel better… (crying helps!)

#food #kinda?#I kinda regret not asking my grandma about recipes of the dishes she made #even if they are from a book… they are not the same #(let alone if the book is old and has not very clear instructions ^^’)#of course this is also about friends who moved away or live so far away that you don’t have much contact because stupid timezones #(some friends shared recipies with me and whenever I make them/look at them it makes me smile…)#I have regular contact with them but only via the internet #making these things makes me feel closer to them #man today is an emotional day huh…#I would love to hug my friends… and I miss my grandma…#if someone is interested … I could share some of my grandmas recipes that I kinda had to recreate #they aren’t the same but close enough #and that is enough!

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eorzeashan · 11 months

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last thoughts of the night after a long day of discussing everything in every game i've ever played, but in the canon game timeline for KOTFE/ET...Eight never found his "answer" for understanding others by fighting for their ideals. in fact, it did the exact opposite. it didn't let others understand him, and he learned nothing about living while his doing so alienated others from him even more. this was the situation Keeper wanted to free him from-- the curse of being nothing but a weapon, but ironically, all it did was push him into being that very thing.

I get to rewrite the traitor arc to smooth things over between the Rishi trio a bit, but it's definitely a case of too little, too late. It's fortunate that Eight is somewhat proud of being a peerless weapon, because anyone else would've snapped in two from the being abandoned by everyone. He still chooses to fight for them, because without his purpose, his current reasons to believe in others and the faith that one day he'll find what he's looking for, he has no reason to live.

#swtor #oc: orradiz #kotfe/et au #theron is the first/only one to express conflicting feelings towards what happened as the one with outstanding morals #but he knows they're neither close nor what they could've been. and no one feels greater shame at having someone else bleed for you than hi #he's the kind of guy who would pick fighting his own battles any day but this is by far too much for him #lana also feels regret very late and while she can't call her decisions mistakes bc of her position #as a *friend* she is deeply mortified by it. she has to accept it and says what's done is done #but a part of her definitely took a hard hit that she could be as callous as those siths she once prided as not being #and eight. eight will never falter in his path. even if it makes him unhappy. even if it leaves him alone. he knows no other way forward.#even if they turn their backs on him he will fight as he always has for their sake.#ok goodnight i've said way too much bullshit these 24 hours lol #quit talking about your wip and finish it already crowd boos

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zemnarihah · 9 months

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btw i think i may be attempting to enter into a long distance relationship w erik.

#ik nobody cares i think its annoying to constantly talk abt ur dating life on here #but like. this is my diary. so.#basically the deal is.i may very well be setting myself up for failure and heartbreak. but also i will regret it for the rest of my life #if i dont try #he feels important. like this feels different than it rlly ever has before. he felt important before i ever had any romantic feelings.#and like. idk if it was just bc i was so emotionally exhausted from all like the processing feelings and talking abt them and stuff but #he slept over. and i can NEVER sleep if someone is in my bed. but i slept really well. like literally in his arms i have NEVER been able to #sleep while im touching someone not once in my life.#this is so embarrassing lolll bc literally since i met him ive been talking abt him on here like 'oh my new friend i think hes into me but #im trying to just be friends' well. mission failed.#also my mom and my sister bc of COURSE any time i speak to a man its like well do you like him are you dating him. and i was like NO we are #just FRIENDS god can i just have a FRIEND #and so when i tell them. god it is going to be sooo humiliating. also he has multiple satanic tattoos so if he meets my mom....#long sleeves on that day methinks!#um anyway im getting ahead of myself. basically we had a talk yesterday abt all my doubts abt getting into a relationship when hes abt to #leave and we kind of talked through what we would do to make it work. I told him I still couldn't give him a sure answer bc when im with hi #it feels like it can work but when he was gone the other day after our first talk abt it i felt so sure it wouldnt work so i need to #sleep on it and think abt it without him there but idk i think i know my answer like at this point i feel like its worse to wonder.#i have to try yk?

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tiercel · 1 year

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W/ all the reactionary talk regarding trans peoples bodies and shit i would love to see repubs and tεrves reactions to all the fascinating body modifications that exist for aesthetic and fetish purposes

#Ns*fw i guess #I briefly hyperfixated on body mods some years back and the absolutely insane shit people can and will do to their body is awesome actually #Like this ranges from getting subdermal saline injections like bagelheads to splitting your junk down the middle. Who cares its your body #Ive seen several people that EXTENSIVELY altered their body for purely aesthetic purposes and years down the line never regretted it #Bc it made them feel at home with themselves or was just a very personal choice. I see literally nobody screaming about mutilation wrt this #I know the answer as to why but its ironic you never see anyone crying about someone mutilating their body bc they split their tongue #Or people who get scarification... or people who get genital piercings... or hell even people who just get tattoos #Hell even entirely medical procedures such as using your toe to replace your thumb is by technicality ''mutilation'' in these ppls eyes #''ITLL NEVER BE A REAL THUMB!!!'' No shit sherlock but it works for me. Better than not having a thumb at all lmao #Idk i dont understand how people can attack bodily autonomy and then act surprised when repubs want to strip ALL bodily autonomy #You do not have to agree to a lifestyle but you absolutely have no business dictating what one does or does not do to their bodies #Bc at the end of the day they're living in it. You are not. End of story #And statistics prove that the vast majority of people in some form modify their body; i.e. tattoos piercings & minor corrective surgeries #Can you imagine screaming at someone for getting their tonsils removed bc theyre 'perfectly healthy organs' bc they dont want tonsil stones #Bc thats what these people are saying about elective hysterectomy/vasectomy/internal birth control/gender procedures #SORRY THAT IS A LOT. I just have a lot to say about this as someone who is deeply invested in bodily rights #emf

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seraphim-soulmate · 1 year

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everything is simultaneously breaking in my shitty shitty house. excellent. i have water infiltration in my bedroom & mold in the walls, the water heater is making a terrible noise, the washing machine apparently just broke, the toilet seat got broken today and is now replaced with one where the seat doesn't hold in the upwards position so hopefully every guy in my house pees sitting down ! live laugh love get me out of heeeereeeeee

#personal #housing #looking for housing is SO anxiety inducing bcs theres so many options and all of them fucking suck in different ways #i could find the ideal colocation and get rejected #i could find a decent colocation. get accepted and it turns out they're all shitheads.#i could pay a fuckton of money to live alone but then im responsible for everything #aaaaaaahhhhh girl help !!!!#cant move to a cheaper city bcs I'll never see my friends and i need to access medical care #plus of course being disabled means I need to have accomodations VERY close by #the big grocery store near me is striking which like. good for them! i can't get food without paying a fuckton now though.#should i ask my dad for more money? can i maintain the price of an apartment when/if i receive disability ?#i dont want to live alone and go insane bcs of isolation #but i also dont want to live with people who are constantly triggering #and for any of these apartments I'll find I have to make the decision VERY quickly #bcs if i dont say YES the day i see it then it goes to someone else #i dont wanna keep going thru thiiiisssssss #hard to not be filled with regret of not taking my grandmas apartment bro. i wish i could rewind time.

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amberwings · 3 months

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I… feel… like… a… little… zombie!!!

#get ready for a vent… oh boy this will be fun to look back on #i am so tired of being the one who cares more or at all #it is a particular hell to get attached to someone who is incredibly emotionally unavailable #especially when said person made it seem like they were romantic and emotionally available in the beginning #and then u felt crazy for questioning them when all long they never planned on actually wanting anything with you #I have wasted so much time but can’t stop somehow #I just don’t care about other people the way I do for this person whyyyyyyyyy did this have to be how it was #he cares so much about his friends and work and family and just does not feel the way I do #I keep hoping he does deep down but I’m afraid to say it just doesn’t seem like it anymore #who invites someone over then tells them right before bed they have to leave at 9 or 9:30 for breakfast with their friends #after I took the freezing ass metro for him!! and he only invited me last minute cause he decided not to go out with friends cause the cold #like what on earth how did I end up in this????? this is not how it’s supposed to be #and I feel a little sorry for him that he can’t let himself experience something intimate and great he is emotionally shallow #i never would’ve imagined this is how it would be…#I never ever vent ever but I just can’t stop talking about it or this sadness will eat me from inside #I even told my mom!!!#im sick of this…#maybe one day he will regret it but maybe not he is so apathetic it’s so frustrating #it just hurts so much to see that someone you thought you were close to does not value you the same way or appreciate you very much #he meant/means so much to me and now I see I just don’t mean much to him #he doesn’t want to commit to anything and said I’m his friend after leading me on for a LONG time #i turned down other people for him cause he just kept making it sound like once __ happened he’d be ready for a relationship #i was so hopeful :(

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