#surprise! its a continuation!

[s0fter-sin]

it takes far too long for soap to realise ghost won’t touch him anymore

he doesn’t avoid him, which he considers no small a miracle given how he usually treats his emotions, and he’s too busy being thankful to notice. thankful he didn’t run from him, thankful his simon has returned to him, no matter how changed he is from the man he knew. ghost doesn’t shy away from his touch so long as he knows it’s coming and he spends long nights just tracing the scars on his newly bared face; following half-remembered tracks and memorising new ones

but ghost never reaches back. he’ll press into his hands like a starved man, melt beneath the smallest of touches but he never initiates. and now, his regular touches have disappeared; no longer does he clap him on the back after a job well done, doesn’t cheekily nudge him after making a recruit shit themself just by giving them a look and soap hadn’t realised how much he’s come to rely on them until they stopped. how much he’s grown to care for ghost the way he used to care for simon

he can’t confront him about it; ghost’s fight or flight always firmly tuned to flight when it came to matters about himself. soap would’ve if it meant fight; if ghost would just put his hands on him again, he’d take his violence with the passion of a lover, wear the marks he left behind with grateful pride. but he remembers the look on ghost’s face when he’d ripped his balaclava off, when he’d stripped his barrier and his protection and spat, “i ruined you the moment i touched you!”

so soap waits. he waits for ghost to crawl into his bunk, to take off his mask and surrender himself to his touch; a touch that seems to burn as much as it freed. and instead of taking his face in his hands and worshiping it the way he has every other night ghost’s come to him, soap takes his gloved hand in his own

ghost flinches, the preemptive bliss fading from his eyes as reluctant fear takes its place. soap brings it up so it hovers between them and already feels him edge backwards. he doesn’t let it stop him and gently tugs his fingers free of the glove one at a time until his hand is bare to him; visibly shaking in the dark. soap brings it towards his face, holding firm when ghost tries to yank it back and presses into it; his breath hitching as he finally gets the touch he’s missed for years

“stop, john,” ghost whispers and it hurts to hear the pain in his voice; closer to begging for the soft touch to end than he’s ever been under torture

“no,” he refuses, pressing a kiss to the centre of his palm

his eyes shine in the dark, arm twitching as he fights himself; pulling back against his grip and leaning into him in turn. (how can he stand to put his mouth on him; can’t he taste it? the dirt and decay that lives under his skin? the maggots that swim in the slow beat of his blood; the rot he’s been trying so hard not to spread to him but he’s weak.) “you don’t know how broken i am. i’ll ruin you, john.”

soap kisses him again; thick, phantom blood coating his lips. “i’m not letting you slip through my fingers again,” he promises, swallowing it down. “i’ve missed you too much to be afraid of getting cut, simon.”

#surprise! its a continuation! #im a little less sure about this one but hey what can you do #also peep my ugly ass hyperlink bc idk how to do the nice fancy links and cant be assed googling it #honestly bless curiouscat bc ive been dropping these into random peoples inboxes on codtwt and its been going swimmingly #obviously the people that follow me follow me for mha so i dont expect them to care about cod #but this way it still gets to people who will enjoy it and that makes me happy #maybe ill make proper threads out of them one day #whos to say #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #talk to me ghost #soapghost #ghostsoap #09 soapghost #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #soap cod #ghost cod #cod mw2 #we’re a team. ghost team #save post

[occidentaltourist]

bbc: Some sweet #Silvacre content for your FYP ❤️

#silvacre #suranne jones #rose leslie #vigil #the bbc making a silvacre fan edit was a pleasant surprise :) #i saw the streaming numbers for vigil 2 were very good (understatement) #which makes an s3 at least a possibility #if they can write a story suranne and rose would sign on for #i'm counting on what suranne said that the continuation of the love story is a big part of what brought her back #the series does a good job creating dramatic tension and conflict within a happy relationship that doesn't involve cheating or one dying #if they do a 3rd season i hope that continues #i mean the series started with amy in the worst possible place emotionally and psychologically so surely they wouldn't go there again #s2 with its wlw mlm solidarity/parallel storyline and giving us more insight into amy and how far she's come since s1 #on top of all the other things i liked this season (which i enjoyed quite a bit in addition to the ship) #at heart it's very critical of the british government and military/war machine and some reviews seem to have missed that part #anyway i'm pleased as punch that a prestige bbc drama has two women in love at its center and a lead as compelling as amy #and that it's pulling in the numbers even without the submarine and claustrophobia (admittedly a cool premise) #keep making the fanvids bbc social media team we appreciate you #queue

[medicalunprofessional]

life is wasted

#psychonauts #caligosto loboto #medical abuse cw #<-yeah i think.That covers it #nightmaretheater #so sorry if you were innocently checking my blog after the crowment and were blasted with this #i was going to do a bit of artistic censoring but.Nahhh #time on canvas : 6 hours #i had to watch some videos of a transorbital lobotomy being preformed for refference 😁 #god forbid i had my photos app open and someone looked over my shoulder and saw several screenshots #also Yes thats text from berenice. I cant be stopped #ohhh im so hungry.Chili for dinner…… #wait. i forgot my watermark #thats okay. Theyll know its me from the berenice quote /nsrs #also yeah the orbitoclast looks a bit small. its the angle. Trust me. Okay. #I dont know how to paint flowers . I….Kind of my first time.Sooorry #Sorry guys . Had to post Horrifiying Upsetting Art again. Will continue to happen #its kind of funny this barely looks like fanart #good. Cant wait for someone to stumble upon this and freak out when they realize it is indeed fanart #surprised this was. 6 hours? Looks down at my hands… Woah… #reminder: I am drawing on my phone i did not go to art school💞 #Okay time to collapse . Im really hungry #sorry . Just had to give my artists commentary

[quietwingsinthesky]

thinking about how dean’s character gets simplified in fandom, or more specifically, the very black and white lens that gets applied to him. because integral to dean, from my point of view, is that he is both a victim of abuse and a perpetrator of it. that these two things do not cancel each other out or outweigh each other to the point that only one matters. he’s both, you cannot separate him from the fact that he’s both.

but very often, people do. dean is either a victim. or he’s an abuser. it’s like it’s hard for people to hold both those facts in their heads at once. dean went through incredible amount of trauma as a child and an adult, is routinely faced with violence, has resorted to alcohol abuse to cope with it. he’s also a violent person, someone who retreats into tactics of emotional abuse and control when he feels threatened, who hurts the people around him constantly and the people who are closest to him (ie Sam, Cas, later Jack) get the brunt of that abuse. these are just facts. they’re things that happened on the screen and cannot be denied.

and it’s. idk it’s weird to me (not unexpected, because he’s hardly the only character to ever get this treatment) that dean of all people is the one portrayed in such an either/or way when one of the defining moments of the show for him is that during his stint in Hell, he was tortured and then became a torturer to escape that, to feel like he had some control again, and he relished in it. it’s baked into who he is.

#dean as a victim of abuse who goes on to continue those behaviors is still important to me surprise surprise #i didnt want to put this in the main post but also. from observation. when people start projecting onto him This Gets Worse #because. you know. as noted before: big fandom - lots of queer & neurodivergent people here. #tend to be targetted by abuse. statistically. #and mix that with a character you can project heavily upon. one you can project queer/neurodivergent hcs on even. #then like! understandably stressful to reckon with him being canonically kind of shitty sometimes! no one wants to consider their own #potential for shittiness - not even through a character they just heavily relate to! #(note: opposite happens as well. people project onto sam -> see dean hurt sam -> block out the idea that dean could be just as much victim #as he is abuser. its just. easier like that.) #anyway. none of this is like. a crime. just an observation. really we get all our biases from the society we live in — a society obsessed #with perfect victims and evil unredeemable abusers. #all that stuff leaks into fandom takes whether we want it to or not #dean winchester #spn

[alientoastt]

thursdays are meaningful again (magnus protocol)

#babble #im having a good time #purpoesfully avoided like everything possible until listening to it. 0 expectations. big fan of colin and ive worked with alices. id love t #pick apart how in two episodes her verbal approach to work is established but i dont have the spoons. shes not just anti capitalist shes. #shes like a teenager about it. how do i explain that better #complaining and continuing on because the idea of The Great Chain is immutable to her and she comforts herself with platitudes and thinking #of things unseriously? which is normal. not ideal but normal. its a coping mechanism with living under capitalism #and putting sam between her. serious gwen. and colin off like. eating a keyboard and weeping in his spare time. i like it #i wouldnt be surprised if sam and alice broke up because of her unseriousness but i like her so much.ive been her. #she and colin work at the same chain restaurant shes on register colin is a dishwasher and their bond is unbreakable. to me #bit unsure if any of this makes sense. eh. #tmagp

[itsyouch]

no because I regret EVEN saying that I hate tex as a joke. This scene hurt man....

#rvb church #rvb tex #tex rvb #church rvb #red vs blue caboose #red vs blue tex #tex red vs blue #red vs blue church #i actually cant #I'm so sad I don't even want to continue watching rvb #I actually think its effecting my mental health #I love Tex Church Caboose Sarge Simmons Griff Lopez Dounut and Tucker etc sm #i'm sad #Even tho Church let her go I can't :[ #I sound to emo rn #I'm really surprised that rvb made me cry this much #lol #Haha I'm not doing well #:'] #I'll probably draw the text later cuz rn my head if foggy and I literally feel so numb lol #thats crazy I REALLY didn't expect to get this effected by this show so bad #i love them so bad #And I love rvb #I dont even have enough energy to hate agent Wash #rvb #red vs blue

[gummi-ships]

#kingdom hearts re:coded #khrecoded #glitched data-roxas #my gif #so i've searched online and i can't actually find a proper name for this boss so i'm just gonna call it that #ahh... so i really shot myself in the foot when getting to this point in the game #this boss came as a complete surprise to me because this is my first time encountering it or even learning of its existence #i used the in game cheats to drop my hp really low so that i could get the eliminator heartless to drop its rare item #then i continued to the next floor only to be greeted with a bugged out roxas :] with no way to fix my hp :] and my commands were bad :] #it was quite the grueling ordeal but i managed... #it was worth it because the rewards for beating this sector were really good

[spaciebabie]

i didnt think that cotl would become a long lasting interest of mine but it turns out it was a slow burn lmao

#man. #spacie spoinks #im still not crazy abt it. but its pretty cool #i like it :3 #watch the slow burn continue and then in a few months im making nonsensical posts screaming abt lamb or leshy or some shit #would not surprise me #i said i was only gonna make one cotl art and then move on and look what happened 💀 #that piece i had planned on doing sux i gotta redo it

[triplegoddess3]

Im at the tiefling party in bg3 right?

Astarian, shadowheart, and lae'zel want me. And i want all 3. Who do i choose?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?

Im very crossed. I've been replaying the romance scenes over and over and over and over, but i can not decide.

Astarian is sexy, but i feel bad about the sex with him, and everything he says feels fake, but i love it so much.

Shadowheart is a little bitch, but the idea of a poly with her and daddy halsin is hmmm.perfection.

Lae'zel, i dont mind her firey nature, and i like how focused she is, and shes full of herself like shadowheart, but doesnt feel as bitchy you know?

Im also sad that the only one who has a scene with my durge is lae'zel. Astarian is like fades to black before anything happens, shadowheart is a kiss.

#bg3 #bg3 romance #bg3 astarion #bg3 lae'zel #bg3 shadowheart #im not sure what to do #and its hindering the continuation of my play through #i would skip the whole bedding thing completely #but like my durge #aria #wants all 3 #lae'zel #was the first she wanted #then #astarion #shadowheart #is a pleasant surprise aria wont say no to #bc she likes non humans

[oflgtfol]

finally read flatland for myself. read it in its entirety today during my free time on my 12 hour shift. really good book but maybe would have stuck more in my mind if i hadnt seen the janky 2007 animated adaptation several times before reading it. but then again my coworker saw me reading it and said they had tried to read it but it was too confusing trying to visualize everything, so i at least had a leg up there since all i could think of was the characters from the 2007 adaptation. anyway i think i’m going to rewatch it for the Nth time tonight <3

#the animation is SO janky and lowkey bad but i love it so much #and plot wise its like. a straight 1:1 adaptation i think?! from what i recall of the movie #like literally i read this whole book and there was not a single moment where i was surprised or like ‘oh that wasnt in the movie’ #llike nothing was new to me. except for the funny 1880s dialogue style i guess #like i guess what im saying is that whenever i think of Flatland im just gonna continue thinking of the movie rather than the book #even now after reading the book #bc the movie is just more notable in my mind still #brot posts

[oifaaa]

I assume Jason just enjoys watching other people's family drama. He's like her hype man

It's nice to be reminded every so often that your life could be worse you could have slade Wilson as a dad it humbles Jason slightly

#ask #anon #he needs to be humbled #also funny idea that Jason likes watching rose and slade fight for the same reason i like the batfam #its cathartic to watch a family thats more fucked up then your own interact #onto cheerier news #i decided to finally peak at the results of that au poll #and ngl im quick surprised at how many votes the billy jason friendship got #honestly didnt think so mant of you were invested in that one #dw btw i obviously will be continuing all my aus especially the ones on that list #adhd brain just meant i was struggling to figurd out which one i should do first #this poll is just to put them in order #so yeah looking like your gonna be getting more reverse batkids soon #yeeyee

[meowchela]

random ass lps popular thought but i literally dont understand people who treat brooke like shes innocent solely because her mom is shitty??? like to me it seems like a very clear "villain origin story that explains why they are the way they are but doesn't redeem them". her mom is neglectful and abusive, yes, but a lot of her actions through the series are like. completely divorced from that conflict. brooke may be taking ques from her mom with the whole cutthroat social attitude she has going on but her actions are still very much her own, like she only got the baseline ideology of "you need to stay at the top to have any worth" from her mom and everything else (the manipulation, cheating, blackmail, etc) is all stuff she chose to do herself to attain that goal. and even THEN she's doing it all completely to serve herself, her mom couldn't care less about her daughter's status in high school. brooke probably knows this and is doing whatever she can to derive self worth from her social status alone because she's all too aware that her mom just doesnt give a shit. so everything she does is still on her

i guess a more succinct way of putting it is like. brooke's backstory is more of a frame for her mindset than something you should feel sorry for her over, yknow? because as badly as she's treated at home she turns around and treats everyone around her the exact same way. abuse is cyclical and it's crystal clear that brooke is willingly continuing the cycle because she's obsessed with the power it gives her, power that was stolen from her that she's now stealing from others. and the kicker here is she HAD chances to make positive changes, both with her dad treating her nicer while he was still alive which establishes that she does know how to be kind as well as savy being willing to reconnect and give her genuine friendship again which could've helped her out of this toxic mindset. but she threw both of those chances away because she's so power hungry and is CHOOSING to continue acting like her mom because that's what gets her the most power/worth.

she needs help, but she doesn't deserve forgiveness or sympathy because of all the heinous shit she's done. also, you can't help someone unless they accept the help and/or are willing to change, and we've seen that brooke is NOT willing to change at all. idk man i just dont think we should be so fast to absolve her of accountability when she hasn't shown any willingness to overcome her circumstances. like not even "oh i want to change but things are so hard" no she doesn't want to change full stop. shes stuck in her mindset and that's her downfall and that's the point

anyway brooke would fucking love marina and the diamonds. unrelated to everything

#meow meows #lps popular #brooklyn hayes #and before u come for me for ''hating abuse victims'' or whatever: i'm literally a victim of similar abuse to brooke herself #it's why i get so heated about this tbh #i've been down a similar road and it boggles my mind how she can continue the cycle so effortlessly the way she does #i know from experience that you can be a good person or at least TRY to be a good person despite your circumstances #so the fact that she doesn't even think about trying to do that and perpetuates the cycle instead is super interesting to me #god lps popular was SO ahead of its time in every way i salute sophiegtv #i feel like flattening brooke to ''sympathetic abuse victim'' takes away everything that makes her interesting #like u do realize victims can be bad people too right. we're regular people and surprise regular people range from kindhearted to shitheads #and that doesnt take away from what happened to us #both things can coexist. see nuance

[devotedlystrangewizard]

minthara's response to "this could be our last moment together" being just a firm "no" because "if we are to die here, we will die together", before she still grabs you SO gently for The Final Kiss. yeah

#ramblings #bg3 spoilers #her romance was so bugged for some time but now that its playable. and has been added onto. yeah #yeah its good #i love minthara shes actually so great #she just. tenderly reaches for your face and draws you in. and its so soft #im guessing all the final kisses are good but minthara was the first one i saw (shoutout to gale still being bugged at high hall) #and it really surprised me with how sweet it was. after both that durge and minthara continuously condoned each others violence #like these 2 are gonna have the nastiest lesbian sex on that throne you can IMAGINE (for procreation reasons definitely) #but theyre also soft for each other. and genuinely love each other #and and and and

[firefly-fez]

im not sure why a little girl wearing cat ears isn’t considered a uniform violation to a school as prestidgious as eden academy but i have decided it’s 100% saiki k’s doing.

#he accidentally teleported himself cuz he was running away from a cricket #when he bumped into a crying anya #and was VERY surprised to learn she could read his thoughts #he was curious so they chatted for a bit and he cheered her up #and he learnt why she was crying #she wears her cat ears bc they were a gift from someone very dear to her before she was adopted by the forger family #her only real happy memory of that time #but now the school is saying she has to take them off or its a uniform violation #so saiki just shrugs and yare yares his way into changing the universe #just one tiny alteration. students can wear cat ears now #he teleports back to his normal life #he continues to have a soft spot for anya #every now and then he takes off his control pin and talks to her vua telepathy just to check up on her #saiki k #spy x family #the disastrous life of saiki k

[sol1t41r3]

aged up

#pokemon ranger #shadows of almia #3atonage #aged up #its nice to think of them becoming senior rangers... #also a bit of pokemon uranium kellyn #are we allowed to talk about that? #he went so downhill in it #while im not fond of his characterization in it as our FATHER #i do appreciate the developers including rangers and giving them a big role #you can imagine my surprise when i started up uranium #and it said kellyn was our father #right when i started playing soa #im sad only kellyn appears though #anyways i should continue playing uranium #since ive practically finished soa #isaac with the glasses was also borrowed from jp twt #hes so cute w em

[dimension20stuff]

I feel like I've grown so much as a person the past couple years but not in like...quantifiable ways. I am very proud of myself.

#its little things #ive done a little more introspection about what i like and why i like it and tried to apply that to other areas of my life #and ive started actively working on embracing feeling uncomfortable and doing things that make me anxious anyways #feel like ive become a Human Person rather than an abandoned building #im very very proud of me. i hope the progress continues #this post brought to you by: me #saw that post thats like “you ever get surprised by your own reoccurring issue” and realize no! #ive actually taken big steps to confront my reoccurring issue (preferring the devil that i know rather trying something different/scary)!!! #shes still there. its still easy to stay in a familiar sadness. but im reaching for hope so hard! and ive almost caught it!