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fairycosmos · 4 years

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3. I know i have to 'get out there' but it's hard when you've felt your whole life that nobody likes you. i literally only have one friend. i just feel really hopeless... i feel like im not meant for this kind of life, everything feels wrong and like im waiting for something's never gonna come, some kinda magic. i want of life of adventure and paint and write but instead i have to study because i'd feel like a loser w/o an education. i dont mind working i just dont want to study.

hey love, i'm really sorry to hear that. i think it's totally normal to be disappointed and even more so to be unsure about your future - it's not an indicator of failure, it's a natural part of growing up and finding your place in the world. i'm probably ignorant and don't know what it's like to actually be in your shoes, so i apologize if i come across as frustrating at some points. this is just my perspective. but i'm wondering if maybe taking more time away is an option for you? maybe working somewhere, focusing on your mental health for a while.... because the thing is your level of education has nothing to do with your worth as a person, and even more than that, there's no set time scale for this sort of thing. you could go back to college at 35, and it wouldn't matter. your life doesn't have to follow that stereotypical linear trajectory we're all forced to chase, in order for you to find happiness and success. and you don't have to justify your own personal choices to anyone, least of all to yourself. i just think it's important to try to focus on the factors of living that are in your control, that will bring you a sense of stability and peace. i know it's hard to let go of the internalised capitalistic idea of having to prove yourself through academia and getting a 'good job', but it's always useful to remind yourself of just how exploitative and made up that entire construct is. you're here and you're experiencing the world and with that you are fulfilling your point, you are doing enough. you are enough. everything else is background noise, that we're forced to muddle through, but background noise nonetheless. you don't need anyone's permission to prioritize your own needs and wants.

however, if you're dead set on studying this topic you don't like (which, i totally understand why you'd make that choice bc i know it's not that simple), then i reckon it's alright to just let yourself feel shitty for a while. any sadness, anger, disappointment, pain you feel about it is to be expected - and even though it fuckin sucks to have to carry it, its intensity definitely won't last. one way or another, you will adapt and so will your ability to cope. just don't use those emotions as an excuse to engage in self destructive behaviour, cause that'll only perpetuate the cycle and keep you in a dark place. having to force ourselves to do shit we hate is always going to feel like an everlasting burden we're never going to escape from, even if that's not the case in reality. and i had a lot of experience with that in school too - the main tactic i can remember making a difference, was like you said, finding little things to make the weight of it more bearable. i think that often starts first and foremost with our own mental health before anything else, because it controls the filter through which we see the world. if you don't like it in yourself you won't like it anywhere. when it comes to your social anxiety, are you receiving any support/would you be open to that? i think consistently seeing someone while you're in school - whether that's a counselor, a therapist, attending a support group or even just calling a hotline to begin with - could really help you manage the stress you're so afraid is waiting for you. having someone to talk to and learning why you are the way you are, and what tools could help you specifically in terms of coping mechanisms and finding a support network can honestly do wonders for your self esteem and the way you approach others. and of course it takes time, maybe that brand of self care is a lifelong process, but it's still important to engage with it. so balancing school with prioritizing your own wellbeing might be something that lightens the weight of the experience. anxiety tends to have us anticipating worst case scenarios and drawing on old insecurities to convince us we'll be alone and in pain forever, but what you've been through is truly not a mirror image of where you're going. making friends especially as an adult is fuckin hard, and struggling with it doesn't mean there's something irreparably wrong with you. just means it's hard to get to know ppl, but that's not a personal failing on your part. it's just a fact. most of them are too worried about their own 'flaws' to take note of yours. but that doesn't mean there aren't ppl out there you haven't met yet who will love you, even if that's hard to believe rn. also a side note, it could be a good idea to build up a routine where you're engaging in something that actively makes you happy at least a few times a week. can literally just be watching netflix, or taking up a hobby, meditating, going for a walk - i know college is v busy and it may not always be possible, but having small pockets of deliberate down time to look forward to is crucial. im not saying it'll cure everything or anything, just that it might make it all feel less overwhelming. but lastly, i want to say that it's ok if you give it a go and then decide you can't do it. that's an option, too. it doesn't have to be black and white. don't fault yourself for not wanting to spend 3 years doing something you hate, but also know that it's possible to get through it if it's a means to an end for you, especially if you seek the help you need. and whichever choice you go with, neither of them are 'wrong.' it's just your path.

anyway, i'm sorry this got super long. i think discussing it with someone you trust might be a good move, just to know that they have your back whether you work through uni or not. you're honestly doing so much better than you realize and i'm proud of you for continuing to try and strive despite how painful it all is. but i really hope that you can catch yourself when your brain is being unnecessarily unkind to you, and that you can then make the conscious choice to change the narrative and approach it from a place of patience and self appreciation. i think your life is still worth living even if it doesn't match up to where you think you should be, which is something i've been trying to accept lately too. that so much is beyond our control and we can literally only focus on the silver linings of the factors that are in our hands. that we can still be okay, living like that. and none of this is permanent, not the way it often seems like it is, but especially not the confusion. it just takes time to live the answers to all the existential questions you have. take it a day at a time. ANYWAY im rooting for you with all my heart and if you want to talk about this properly feel free to message me!! my overarching point is that you're not as alone as you feel. and you won't be in college, and you won't be if you look for work instead. so many of us understand where you're coming from. much love to you, take care 💗💗

#one day i will learn to stfu. not today tho❤️#long post #anon

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marshmallowprotection · 4 years

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hello!! thank you for taking the time to writing out that entire message, it means a lot to me! ive been nervous to ask for someone else’s opinion tbh sldjfskdf we started dating when i was 15 and she was 19, so yeah. i feel like it’s important to clarify though that ive never met her irl (she does have my address though because she’s sent me gifts and letters. ) and she hasn’t like,, taken advantage of me in a sexual way. unless v infrequent masturbation jokes nd references to sexual media count lmao. she’s never talked abt anything more than making out and never sent me any explicit images / asked me for anything in that direction tho.

so i kinda feel like grooming or abuse is too heavy of a term?? i know im not fully comfortable around her anymore though. i dunno, i don’t have a lot of friends nd she’s like one of two people i talk to daily so that might cloud my judgement. she was just really nice when i had no one else to talk to ig so its hard to think of her in a light that’s too negative. like the idea that she consciously groomed me or smth doesn’t feel like smth she would do.

but she’s always had a tendency to talk about problems that feel way too big for me to handle (while ignoring any of my problems) and has told me stuff like that im the only reason shes still alive rn which really freaked me out at the time but yeh,,, also she used to joke that she would get ‘written a callout about on tumblr’ if ppl knew we were dating and never speaks about the fact that we’re together in public so i think that’s,, not the best sign lmao.

aaa it’s alright if you dont respond to this btw :’)!! i know im dumping a lot of text on you. you aren’t obligated to respond since you’re just a stranger on the internet. ive honestly been thinking about breaking things of for like 2 months cause all i feel for her anymore is platonic and vague discomfort, im just scared she’ll hurt herself or get really upset haha but i think ill go through with it soon, i just have to think of how to word it to her ;; - submission

Grooming is when someone older than you builds a relationship, trust, and emotional connection with a child or young person so they can manipulate, exploit, and abuse them. I don’t throw around words unless I have a sinking suspicion in my gut. You don’t have to be in physical contact with someone for you to manipulated or deceived. I’m concerned that she has your address but there are ways to protect yourself in the event of that.

It doesn’t have to be inherently sexual.

That’s how young people are often manipulated.

It starts out with someone talking to you about things that you enjoy and it just keeps growing and growing into something where someone tries to pin you back with, “Oh, well... you like this character... would you enjoy them doing [explicit sexual thing here]?”

The boundary lines are very thin, and it can be very dangerous if you’re not careful with what you do.

Look, she’s ignoring everything that you want to talk about. She speaks over you and changes the subject. It’s about her, her, her, and her. Nothing else. That is a real shitty tactic. Literally, everything I heard before rubbed me the wrong way & now I know that there are more red flags here than I can count. She’s trying to pin you down and push you into a corner where you’re worried about her even at your expense. She wants you to feel like you have to stay with her or she’ll just die.

She goes over your head. She belittles you, and she guilt-trips and gas-lights you to make you think if you go against her feelings, she’ll harm herself. I can see things escalating if it goes on any further from this point.

She has proven that she knows that she’s wrong, and she thinks it’s funny to joke about how she would get into trouble if people knew. She’s trying to make you normalize this kind of relationship by slowly back you into this corner and I really don’t want that for you, anon, I don’t want that for anyone.

You are not responsible for whatever she does. She wants you to feel ashamed and trapped. She wants you to stay with her and she’s trying to scare you into doing it. She wants power and control. I know people like this personally and I can say with certainty that they do not have your best interest at heart, they are only looking out for themselves.

I sincerely say. You owe her nothing at all. You are not to fault for anything that she does to herself. You don’t even owe an explanation. I implore you to cut it off as soon as you can, tell her straight up that you don’t want to do this anymore and exit the chats, block her and leave.

I would say to consider informing adults or authorities of this because I really do fear that she’ll continue to hurt other young people. Nobody will be angry with you for that. You’re young, and you’re not the one at fault here for anything. You are the victim, you are the survivor.

If you need resource links or helplines, don’t hesitate to message me privately or here, and I’ll try to help you find what I can.

#tw abuse #tw grooming #tw age difference #mod kait #submission

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tsuuyuri · 5 years

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tw for suicide, death, eating disorders, fat-shaming, skinny-shaming, anxiety, depression, bullying, etc. just don’t read if you aren’t in a good place.

i swear to god.

any knetizen (because yes, this is a specifically a knet problem) that sits back after sulli’s death and acts like they didnt treat her like a piece of meat to buy and sell and eat and spit out and call too fat and too skinny and so selfish and so ugly and so “out of line” like she was some evil snake when she was always just a girl being herself, expressing herself, being different from the “traditional ideal korean woman”, struggling with mental illness and eating disorders in an industry that is stressful and unhealthy and cruel and with “fans” who are absolutely nobody in comparison to who she was that sit in their homes and talk trash about her body, her “attitude”, her sex life, and whatever else on the internet for fun.

i am sick and tired of people making excuses for korean misogyny and toxic beauty standards because “oh it’s a different culture”, whatever! a culture that promotes sink or swim standards in its education system and requires everyone gets plastic surgery no matter what in order to be considered worth anything needs to fucking change! it’s killing people and it’s been killing people for a long time! south korea has one of the highest suicide rates in the world. koreans and honestly everyone need to wake up and stop acting like this is just “crazy celebrities” because it’s not. they’re just the ones we all hear about. you don’t hear about the teenager 5 blocks down who committed suicide last week after being bullied for being gay. you don’t hear about the student that committed suicide last month because they aren’t an academic person and their parents called them stupid and punished them for not having top grades. we don’t hear about them because they aren’t famous. but we need to look at these famous people who we think have everything that makes life worth living, commit suicide and understand how much that shit probably happens with just regular ole people. for every celebrity who kills themselves, there’s 10 more non-celebrities.

every time someone innocent commits suicide, it’s murder. it’s murder by society. it’s murder by people who tear them apart until they can’t be sewn back together again and then wonder how it could happen.

sulli was anorexic. being anorexic is so, so fucking painful and hard and awful and it’s so much deeper than just being “pretty”. sometimes it’s needing to feel like you have something in your life under control. sometimes it’s wanting to be smaller so maybe people can’t see you anymore because you were abused. sometimes it’s just wanting to die slowly. i went to an inpatient ward 3 times by the time i turned 18 and had tubes shoved down my nose and throat because i just couldn’t eat a thing without panicking and feeling guilty. the anxiety and depression after i got out each time was so crippling that i couldn’t leave my house. i can’t even imagine getting on stage and performing in that state like people criticized sulli for not doing. “oh she’s lazy, she’s selfish, she’s not taking it seriously, she’s just acting like a princess!” she’s a young girl who was having panic attacks, being told her body type isn’t right to be an idol, who was depressed, who wasn’t sleeping enough hours. she was sick. and you made her even more sick. who the hell would want to perform for people who don’t appreciate it? negative words outweigh positive ones. netizens know that. be honest with yourself. they thought it was fun to poke at someone. they felt good talking bad about someone. they thought it was “okay” because she’s a celebrity and apparently when you sign a contract in the kpop industry, your humanity dies and nobody has to think about how their words and actions make you feel anymore.

women in kpop are attacked all the fucking time for doing normal things.

i looked at pictures of sulli when she looked her healthiest and i thought she was beautiful. koreans called her flat, flabby, said she had cankles, thick legs, called her fucking sulliphant. i looked at pictures of sulli when she was so thin she should’ve been in a hospital like i had been and i was scared for her but her smile was still beautiful. koreans criticized her for “getting shots and liposuction, oh it’s not natural, the bruises aren’t pretty” or praised her for finally not being “ugly” and having a pretty bodyline, having skinny legs, and for finally discovering the “true wealth of a woman is her looks” and the worst part, some still called her sulliphant and fat and ugly when she was easily under 100 lbs. it’s just unfair. it’s so unfair and horrible and it happens every day, to every female idol, some less and some more, and it happens to every single woman and even men now in some places.

and now, im sitting here sobbing, not just because i regret not being a bigger support when sulli needed that even though it’s not my fault i wasn’t as aware of kpop, but also because i know if i were a kpop idol while going through depression, anxiety disorder, panic attacks, paranoia, and anorexia nervosa... i would be dead. i would have been dead years ago. i would be just like sulli. bullied to death by her own mind and by people who think you are their doll to throw around.

no one should have to “stay strong” through comments like that. not a celebrity, not anyone. no one.

korean beauty standards need an overhaul. i have had enough. anorexic isn’t beautiful. it’s painful. it should not be a singer’s job to be nice to look at in a very particular and unnatural way that only 10% of people are born looking like.

sulli having a boyfriend got koreans so fucking angry, calling her unprofessional, a cock-sucking whore, a slut, whatever other disgusting words you can think of, but men were just as quick to ogle her and take photos up her skirt for their own enjoyment because “oh well she’s an idol, that’s what she’s there for”. women were jealous of sulli for having access to handsome and rich men they wouldn’t because she’s an idol and they’re not, so they shamed her for it. men weren’t mad about sulli having a sex life, they were mad about sulli having a sex life that didn’t involve her fucking them, so they shamed her for it. sulli was just being a person. but being a person isn’t congruent with being an idol, for some reason.

sulli spiraled into reckless behavior and they blamed her for that too when they drove her to it.

“she’s a celebrity, it’s what she signed up for.”

no. she didn’t. she signed up to sing, dance, and make people happy. she didn’t sign up for people to tear her apart.

his case is significantly different, but it’s a part of an epidemic all the same, so i’ll mention him once and not again: jonghyun didn’t pass away just for south korea to learn nothing about ignoring and shaming mental illness and torment another already tortured idol into leaving too.

this isn’t simple cause and effect, this is prolonged bullying and attacking someone, beating them again and again until they can’t stand up again. this isn’t an isolated issue. it’s years of criticizing, terrorizing, dehumanizing, ignoring, and taking for granted, that leads to one very horrible, very permanent, very quick outcome.

so yeah. any knet who says “rest in peace sulli” needs to rethink if they really deserve to be saying that. if you ever called this poor girl names, criticized her body as not “aesthetically pleasing”, shamed her for being in a relationship and having sex as a grown woman, sexualized her regularly, exploited her, and/or contributed at all to her feeling this horrifically bad about herself to the point she felt alienated from everyone and like she couldn’t continue living... you don’t get to grieve. you get to feel guilty. you get to feel horrible about what you said and did to this woman who was only human, and who was ostracized for being herself and for appearing strong until she couldn’t anymore.

sulli, you are not a bad person. you are an angel now and forever. i wish we had done better for you. rest in peace, sweet girl, and know i will always think of you. you will never be just a memory. you are alive through those who truly love you and know you.

and if you or anyone you know is struggling with bullying, depression, eating disorders, suicidal thoughts, etc., as always, please reach out and get the help you deserve. support is a phone call away. you never walk alone. even if it’s a complete stranger, there are people who want to help and who want you to live on. i want you to live on. i want us all to fight these demons and to work toward a better future. it is possible. we can and must do better. we can and must love ourselves and each other.

be kind, take care, ask for help, give help.

celebrity, non-celebrity, women, men, children, black, white, asian, latinx, gay, lesbian, bi, trans, non-binary, cishet, disabled, able-bodied, neuroatypical, neurotypical, etc. we are all human.

#long post #tw #negative #sulli #f(x)#choi jinri #feminism #delete later?#anyone that has a problem with my opinions here. just dont mssg me. dont respond. i dont want to hear it #i am allowed to be angry and upset that the same preventable shit is still happening because of a toxic society that ignores its toxicity #even as it kills #also YES my feminism includes transwomen and transwomen absolutely experience misogyny because the probably isnt biology #its femininity (which is genderless) being perceived as weakness and laughable

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uniformbravo · 7 years

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this was part of a different post but it became too long so now it gets its own post (mp100 manga spoilers up to ch 73)

ok so that scene showing the time mob and reigen first met, right, that was in the anime in ep 11; it’s such an interesting scene to me bc it’s used for a totally different purpose in the anime than it was in the manga? bc in the anime it’s shown from mob’s perspective and its purpose is to help the viewer see why he looks up to reigen so much, and with the way it’s presented it even goes so far as to drive home this running idea that reigen is actually a good person beneath the conman act and the deception we’re introduced to him with in the earlier episodes

the thing about this scene in the manga, though, is that it does literally the exact opposite; for one it happens much later in the story and it’s from reigen’s pov as part of a reigen-centric arc, so you get all of his inner dialogue throughout the scene like “man this kid is wasting my valuable time ugh i guess i’ll just humor him to get rid of him & bullshit my way through this like usual wait holy shit he actually has psychic powers hello i can use this to my advantage” which i mean, yeah, you can somewhat get that from the anime version too, but what you don’t get is reigen coming out of that flashback like “wow i’ve been using him like that this entire time i haven’t changed at all huh”- the point of the manga version is to highlight how selfish reigen has been wrt mob up until this point and to propel him forward into the realization that he Fucked Up and needs to change

(the anime version very purposely steers the scene away from that interpretation in favor of painting him in a more admirable light, the way mob sees him- all those inspiring words about living life and being a good person were basically just bullshit off the top of reigen’s head, but mob believes it, so you do too)

im very keen to see how the anime handles this in the future tbh (assuming there is a s2) because it was a super interesting choice to take the scene from its original context and repurpose it to convey the exact opposite message; this could allow for a great contrast in a callback scene later on (if they decide to use it again), like “hey remember this heartwarming scene from s1 well Guess What”

(i also like the idea that like. the anime version shows how mob was tricked into looking up to reigen, and at the same time the scene is essentially doing the same thing to the audience by framing it that way. we’ve all fallen victim to the Ultimate Con)

Also i just wanna say im not trying to make this sound super condemning as if reigen is actually this Evil Man and all the good things about him were just lies and deceit, because i really do believe there is a lot about him that proves him to be a genuinely good person at heart. it’s just this specific scene that’s meant to draw out of him the realization that mob is way more important to him than he thought and the fact that he’s been exploiting his powers for this long is Not Okay- if anything, the scene comes full circle and ends up showing what a Good Person reigen is after all, which i think is made abundantly clear in the scene after the press conference, when the two of them reunite

it’s such a small detail, but when reigen asks mob if he knows his true identity and mob responds with “i knew it all along,” there’s a panel showing reigen’s hand clenched into a fist, shaking

i think that, previously, this reaction would have been all about the dread of having finally been found out and the resulting shallow panic at the possibility of losing such a powerful asset to his business, but because of the change he’s just gone through, none of that is on his mind. in fact, such a strong emotional response is an obvious indicator that this is more about mob’s opinion of him than anything else- the fear of being perceived as fraudulent and untrustworthy by someone he himself came to be inspired by; the overwhelming regret he feels and the anxiety at the possibility that he’s realized his mistake too little too late; the idea that he deserves the potential imminent rejection from mob, the one person in a sea of millions whose rejection would actually hurt.

the contrast between these two mindsets are, to me, a huge mark of growth in reigen’s character, and just the fact that he was even able to make the jump from one to the other once he fully realized his fault is more than enough to convince me that he’s always had it in him, which. is exactly what mob says next:

“I know that. I knew it all along. My master’s true identity.... He is ‘a good person.’”

#im crying at 4 am i didn't mean to go so deep w/ this post ajgkajgkjsdklk #a disclaimer turned into a full-on scene analysis im dead #retag later #mp blogging #talkin bout mp

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spotlightsaga · 7 years

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Kevin Cage of @spotlightsaga reviews... Untucked (S09E05) Reality Stars: The Musical Airdate: April 22, 2017 @wowreport @youtube Ratings: 343,000 (in just 4 days!) Score: 8/10 **********SPOILERS BELOW********** Im going to get to Eureka in a minute but since I've already addressed it wholeheartedly in the 'Drag Race' reviews... I really want re-address something that I think people are missing and the producers are exploiting. I don't know what it is on the nose, by any means, but Nina is going through something serious. I want her so bad to pull it together, because I think as an audience member all of us saw just how talented Nina was from the get-go. And if you remember correctly she talked in depth in the first first or second episode about how she was really at the end of her rope. I get that. I get saying to yourself... This is it, this it my last chance... And if I don't make it here then I have nothing. I battle depression, dependency, addiction and I've had to learn how to live with it, how to cope and navigate through the bullshit the best way I know how and still find a way to shine through. Looking at Nina, I can sense that it's not just depression tho. I felt uncomfortable how they exploited her obvious issues with watching Shea take a part that she felt should be hers and excel so well in it. You can call that petty or whatever you want, but then producers who pick up on this kind of poke the judges into comparing he two, giving them opposite critiques, using similar language to get some sort of reaction or rivalry brewing now that Eureka is gone and he and Trinity don't have that legit beef to make good television from. I want to see the producers pull back on this one... Say what you will, but mental health is everything... And something inside of Nina isn't right at this very moment. I really hope and pray that next episode, instead of egging this on, Ru takes Nina aside and attempts to lift him up. At its bare bones, that's what this show is supposed to be about. Not kicking someone while they are down for a small spike in ratings that you might not see anyway cuz you have the main show on Friday nights. Whatever it is, Nina... I want you to know that even though this already filmed this I recognize that look in your eye. That posture, that exasperation... Its something that I know all too well. I'm glad that Shea came up to you and said those things. I hope you heard them. Yes you are representing queens of color, you are also representing a talented, creative, and capable human being. And whatever it is that has created this brick wall you throw up in front of yourself right when you take off running, I want you to know that you are will always be bigger than that. No matter how this ends, you have already shown us things we have never seen before, so you made it. You're here... and this is the penultimate, the best is yet to come. Depression is a bitch, self-sabotaging is a bitch... But you can overcome whatever it is playing over and over in your head. So much love to you, and like I said when you walked in the workroom from the very beginning, I have my favorite. Win or lose this competition, you've already jumped over the biggest hurdle. Much love! ❤️🙌🏼❤️ Alexis, you too... You doing too well all the sudden to be blaming everyone else for your faults. And what we're talking about here, is something totally different that what's going on with Nina. You better man up in a pretty dress and start taking responsibility for your own actions. My step-dad did a lot of fucked up things when I was younger, but he redeemed himself and rose from one of the largest holes anyone has ever created for himself. And if I took away one thing from him and his inspiring road from complete fuck-up to total redemption is you always call things what they are, accept this things you cannot change, and know just what the fuck you can change... And never EVER blame other people for your own mistakes... That way no mater what you do, you will always be able to bounce back. Eureka, I've already been over this with you on the main Drag Race review... You are Top 3 Material. This is fucking bullshit. VH1 and whatever production company and ignorant genius who came up with a challenge that injured not one but two queens should be fired. Thank you Ru, for inviting Eureka back for S10, because you know damn well (no matter how you perceive his personality) that he had the goods to make it to the end on his own merits and talent. 10 Queens remain, but there's still quite the handful that aren't up to par to even make Final 6, so let's start knocking them out and definitely NO surprise and bringing anyone else back! Cynthia Lee Fontaine was quite enough... And most of us would have rather seen Willam or Trixxie any damn way! Let's go!

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courage-a-word-of-justice · 7 years

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Grimoire of Zero 1

I mistook this as Re:Zero at one point (because of the Zero Kara Hajimeru… start of the title). However, despite my having never seen Re:Zero, I’m always open for a good fantasy title.

At least this show is funny, that’s for sure.

Eh, this plot seems like Bungou’s a tad – if you think about why Atsushi was hunted down and such – but then who’s going to be Zero in a Bungou Stray Dogs x Grimoire of Zero AU?

This seems a little cliché in how it handles its humour, but I have a feeling it’ll go above and beyond.

What struck me was that they chose the name Plasta as the capital’s name. A capital city called “Plaster”, pretty much, LOL.

The ED reminds me of Flip Flappers and the book motif reminds me of Deltora Quest, so it’s quite the nostalgic feeling. It’s a keeper, although if it becomes an endless bore of a quest then it may hold less potential than I think it does.

The Royal Tutor 2

It seems Bruno is one prince everyone with a strict study regimen’ll relate to. (Or at least, those who’ve had a strict study regimen at least once in their life.) Even if this is an exercise in drawing out humour to the fullest, it’s relatable and that’s part of what gives this show its personality.

I haven’t seen anyone this enthusiastic to have a master since Yotaro (SGRS)! LOL.

Heine used watakushi. He’s very polite.

Yeahhhhhhh…this, as you may know from how I treated Love Tyrant and Armed Girls, is not going to go down well. Just when the show had gained my favour, too…

I think the girls might’ve referred to Heine as Heinecchi. Update: My mistake, it was Heine-chan.

Behoove? Welp, I learnt a new English word from the subs. It’s not every day that happens, although I tend to pick up cultural things a lot from subs (hence these notes).

Creepy CGI door is not to be taken lightly too. The camera angle was a bit weird there, to boot.

Eeeeeeee! Kai is the one I want to know about the most! (Not just ‘cos he’s handsome, mind you. It’s because he doesn’t talk.)

Shadow? A name for a white dog? Doesn’t make much sense, but it makes me laugh, so okay, I’ll take it. *beams*

Just antisocial, eh? All the more reason to like ‘im.

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There aren’t too many promising debuts this season (I only really have my eyes on BnHA, Kado and The Royal Tutor at the moment) because “shows potential” is very different to “I want to keep watching!” for me, but maybe SukaSuka will do the trick.

Why does every fantasy world these days involve animal people? Who knows?

Intereting to note there was Scarborough Fair in English (yes, I had the volume on this time). As a side note, the song was sung by a Tamaru Yamada. (Around when the juggling Pac-Man appears, there’s credits for it.)

I would’ve asked where she was going if she said she had to go, mate. Ask her!

Ny…troll girl is pretty typical for this kind of anime, but Willem seems like he could be a spanner in the works.

Butt shot no. 1.

That oddly placed camera angle (the one where you see into the room from the window) was weird. Seriously though, how does Willem know Nyllathgo (or whatever troll girl’s name is)? Update: her name is Nygglatho. It was close, but not quite it…

Reptrace appears to be a made up cuisine.

I can only see the kids as shippers in the making, but I guess that’s YoI’s fault…?

I remember from pre-show material her katakana name is Kutori, so I’m gonna go with that spelling.

Lemme guess: it’s because the weapons are the kids?(!)

Well that was new: I can normally guess a new point for a show that plays it safe like this, but Kutori is a weapon too? That I didn’t guess. That automatically means I keep it on, at least for another week.

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Tsukigakirei is sitting somewhere pretty high on the list of “shows to go on hold this season”, so it’ll have to perform well to not have to get that treatment. Considering I can be fairly strict with my 5 show quota, I need to put 2 shows on hold (since out of 8 shows, the third is Kenka Bancho Otome, which automatically goes out of the running), 1 if I use a space I just freed up.

Was the live action OP really necessary? Considering this is anime, it is a bit odd. (Then again, didn’t I raise that gripe with Kado too?)

I don’t normally think about staff much unless they’re familiar names, but Seiji Kishi is a name that’s come up before – with Rampo Kitan.

It just so happens the girly boy is the one with the horns on his headband…for some reason, I find it suits him, since he’s the devil’s advocate to Kotaro. Also, why isn’t Kotaro wearing his headband?

Hey, this feeling. I’ve never really participated in these sport days (if I was forced to do stuff, I’d shotgun shotput since no one really took it), but I know the feelings around them real well. Once again, Tsukigakirei excels in recreating a teenage experience…

I has a small sneaking suspicion Akane’s toy would have gotten lost, and it seems like that’s coming true.

I laughed a really derpy laugh at devil’s advocate boy liking the teacher. Even though I had a small squick moment that it may have been romantic, suki is quite the broad term compared to how Akane and Kotaro’s romance is laid out so…it can’t be said for sure that the boy’s “like” is romantic, too.

That pink thing is a potato mascot?! I’m not angry, just hella surprised – that pink thing is so not a potato.

I gave a little “aw!” at when Kotaro told Akane she was fine the way she was. Now there’s a sentiment I can get behind.

Why does he box the light string? I don’t get it…but at least it makes him more dynamic than, say, Haruki (Sagrada Reset).

Haneteru-kun? So that’s how you say it in Japanese?

The style of the ED is unique, that’s for sure.

I think Tsukigakirei just proved itself. Sure, it’s not a complete “turn genres on its head” sort of thing, but it’s competent at what it does, and that’s all it needs right now. That’s all it’ll ever need. Then again, that does beggar the question: what goes on hold instead? There’s only one way to find out…

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I was surprised to find out Shunina was voiced by none other than Akoya (Takuma Terashima)!

The OP is a rather odd choice (in regards to the music), but it does at least set the atmosphere well.

WPAN? I know of LANs and WANs, so WLAN makes sense (kind of), but not that…Okay, I learnt something.

“…we’re touching the ground…”

When the plane looks better than the characters…you know you’re doing CG wrong.

I want the OST of this, that song when Shindo touches the bottom of the cube really creates the feeling of a “foreign space”.

Erm, while Shindo and Shunina are negotiating, Shunina seems to have forgotten he’s buck naked…? Not that I mind, and it completely makes sense for an alien like him, but…yeah. He’s naked.

Base 10 = decimal, base 16 = hexadecimal, base 2 = binary. Shunina seems to be expressing the time in binary, but time is in base 60 (because 60 seconds = 1 minute and so on, so forth).

That bread doesn’t look too appetising, LOL.

I know Kado is much prettier flat, but when it’s just slow pans…you can tell they skimped on the budget. CGI is costly, sure, but…make sure you have proper budget before you make an anime, people, please. (On the other hand, I like 2D!Shunina.)

Is there any significance as to what order people appear in the ED?

Kado’s been my top contender ever since episode 0. While it does have its visual flaws, it’s an intelligent anime that takes its time to explain things and build suspense.

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I ended up keeping this on because I have no access to Twin Angel: Twinkle Paradise…

I never knew Sumire was such a sucker for her brother…I’ve never seen such a trope in magical girl shows before, and normally when you see it in anime, it’s a dude lusting after his younger sister, not the other way around. Just another sign this is aimed at pachinko-playing guys…

Gah! Fanservice shots! In my magical girl anime! *points* Another sign this is for dudes. By the way, ari can mean ant.

People don’t move like conveyer belts when solving maths problems.

Welp, such is the mark of a society that wants extroverts…

Meguru appears to have a red bean bun, although I’m not sure of its name aside from “red bean bun”.

Wait, where’s the ball?!

I always thought “Pochi” was a common name for a dog in Japan, kinda like the Western world’s “Spot”. Or “Hachi”, if you want your dog to be like Hachiko.

An event about animals at Tokyo Big Sight? Well, I’ll be. Wonders never cease in this show.

During the pan, the screen seems to jolt a bit. It’s kinda awkward for a show that is otherwise good visually.

Who has a porcupine as a pet? Sometimes I can’t tell if this show’s for little girls or older men…Well, Google says it’s possible to have a porcupine as a pet, but still I bet a pachislot-playing man wouldn’t know you can have a pet porcupine.

I was most displeased when I realised Sumire has a Gainax moment in her transformation sequence. Yet another fanservice spot to add to the growing list of annoyances in this show…

Geddit? It’s Me-ari?

It’s the ol’ duplication trick. Saw it in Smile Precure, so I guess I’m kinda numb to it already.

I was not expecting that for the ED. I really didn’t.

Well, I’ve had enough gripes about this show. It’s going on hold so I can figure out my feelings about it. That being said, there’s a lot of “middle ground” anime this time - if SukaSuka or Grimoire of Zero don’t get the boot from their next ep, I’ll have to deal with 6 simulcasting anime and leave the space open. (Luckily, there have been so many full seasons that I have a little too much bingewatching material available, regardless of whether I have the space open or not.)

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Not sure if chicken race means this or actual chicken racing, since Google tells me actual chicken racing exists.

I’ve wanted to know more about Tokoyami for a while, so here’s hoping for character development!

A-ha! Exploiting landmines’ propulsion – not many would think of that, but Midoriya certainly would.

All Might, Thirteen and Present Mic ganging up like that looks ridiculous, but it’s hilarious and helps to break up the suspense. *thumbs up*

*laughs* Oh man, this is what makes this show so good. It manages to strike hard and well with both its humour, strategy and action – it never misses one beat. That’s the spirit, Boku no Hero Academia! Keep going just like this!

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