#that would have been last weekend

[icewindandboringhorror]

Just curious what the average level of personal investment in these sorts of things is. Like, how much do people usually get into silly stuff like this their friends ask of them? etc. etc. Which I know, only surveying a small sample on a very specific website means I'm not getting an exact average idea lol, but.. curious nonetheless .. Maybe reblog for bigger sample size but also this is not very serious at all/not worth a call to action gbhjbhjb

#which I know this could be context dependent like.. maybe you'd normally dress up but on a week that #you feel sick you wouldn't or etc. etc. - but I mean.. GENERALLY. in the most general average scenario #where you have the average amount of health and free time that you always do. etc. just based on your personality #and level of investment in these things - what on AVERAGE are you most inclined to do #also of course assume they communicate with you ahead of time and are not like planning a part last minute #like 'throw together costume in 5 hours and show up tonight randomly' or etc. I would hope that if we're going with the #AVERAGE of things - most people's friends have better communication skills than springing entire parties #on people last minute lol #assume you have like.. a few days-a week or so to prepare. however ealrly people usually start talking about #birthdays. In my experience it's usually one or two weeks ahead of time. Like 'oh next weekend' or 'oh two weeks from now' etc. #ANYWAY.. feeling a little Sick again of course but still trying to get some photos or something posted #AGAIN i promise I am not going to exlcusively post polls and ntohing else forever hgkjgnekj #I just really really love the ability to post polls and have always my whole life been obsessed with surveying people #I used to think I wanted to do that as a career somehow like.. be one of the people that does psychological interviews #or produce interview asessments for a company or etc. etc. I am always the one friend in the group thats giving out custom made #surveys or asking for other simialr stuff (did you ever take an mbti quiz? how about enneagra #m?? oh yeah I know they're not really scientifically valid or antyhing but like... DID you take them?? huh?? did you??please?? ghjj) #I simply cannot resist.. posting a little poll every once in a while.. as a treat #whilst I still fall behind on like actual content and costumes and stuff gbjhbjh #New poll adventure should be not as much of a wait as the last one was though since I already have the writing #for it really. I just have to do the ms paint sketch. hopefully no unexpected other health issues will get in the way #*** *** *** #< (anytime I do these three star patterns it is an ocd compulsion not me bleeping out words or something just ignore it lol) #(it means something secret in my evil brain just pretend you do not see it. significant only to me) #BUT YEAH.. ... poll... what type of costume party atendee are you? #:0c

[2hoothoots]

i was having a chuckle to myself last night about Gristol, and how his plans are basically:

Restore Ford Cruller's memory

Find Maligula

???

Profit

but then... of course they are, right? this is Gristol we're talking about. Fatherland Follies drives home again and again that he's still operating on a child's logic, a warped and reductive version of the world that he never bothered to grow out of. both of his memory vaults center on the images of his childhood, this idealized version of the past that he clings to no matter what. and that's still how he remembers Maligula, too - as this saviour figure, who rushes in to help him when he's in trouble.

[ID: Two slides from Gristol's memory vault, Glory to Grulovia! Left: Gristol clings to Maligula's back as she summons waves to sweep away his assailants. Right: Gristol and Maligula waving from a balcony as the people cheer. Gzar Theodore brandishes a dagger in the background.]

like so much else, Maligula represents a return to this idyllic childhood - to the peace and simplicity of his youth, when he was free from worries and responsibilities. in his mind, he doesn't need to make any further plans - once Maligula's back, everything will go back to normal. Maligula will make everything better.

...is what i thought, but then i remembered this line:

[Screenshot source. ID: Gristol, in Truman's body, bows on his hands and knees in front of the newly-awaked Maligula. The caption reads: "Yes, High Priestess! I am here to correct the mistakes made by my father!"]

and that's kind of interesting, right?

to be clear: this happens directly after Maligula sees Helmut-in-Gristol's-body, and recognises him. her line before this is:

"Little Gzesaravich! Have you come to pay for your father's sins?"

my first thought was that Gristol hadn't expected to still be in Truman's body by the time he managed to find Maligula, and this was him trying to placate her and buy some time until he could explain the situation. but watching the cutscene back, that's clearly not what's happening here. Gristol is answering as himself, and his response of throwing himself to his knees before her is, as far as i can tell, genuine.

so what is going on here?

in Fatherland Follies, there's this line in the ride narration that stuck out to me:

"Why didn't the Gzar help Maligula in her time of need? No one knows, but historians agree - it is Gzar Theodore's biggest failure."

other lines mention Gzar Theodore's "mistake", and it's wording Gristol himself echoes in the screencap above. evidently, he believes that his father abandoned Maligula, leaving her to her fate at the hands of the Psychonauts, and it was that mistake that lead to them being driven out of the country - that mistake which he seeks to correct. maybe he even feels like he has a debt to repay to her for his family turning their backs on her all those years ago.

the 'High Priestess' thing, though - that's kinda weird, and threw me for a loop the first time i played the game. it took me until my second playthrough to connect the dots, and remember how the room in the Lady Luctopus - Gristol's room - was full of Delugionist scribblings and symbols.

[Screenshot source. ID: left, the walls of the hidden backroom in Gristol's hotel suite, covered in scrawlings of eyeballs and Maligula's name. Right, the pinboard from the hidden backroom. On its surface are photographs and newspaper clippings connected by pieces of string.]

i mean, look at this stuff! he had a whole conspiracy board and everything!

we learn very little about the Delugionists and their beliefs as a whole during the game, but i think drawing the connection here suggests two important things. one: that Gristol was in deep with this stuff. i don't know how he linked up with them - maybe via old family connections, or just good old-fashioned digging (we know he's skilled at worming his way into peoples' good graces, after all) - but it seems likely that he's begun to internalise their ideas, maybe even warping his own memories of events. and two: the Delugionists themselves are, if you'll pardon the pun, pretty far off the deep end.

like... i understand why PN2 didn't go heavy on the "mass-murderer cult worship" aspect of things, in the end, but man this is such a tantalising glimpse into the wider mythos around Maligula. Gristol is proud and haughty and thinks himself above everyone else; the fact that his first reaction seeing Maligula is to throw himself to the ground at her feet says so much about the way he's come to see her. he's not just trying to bring back Maligula, his childhood bodyguard. he's trying to bring back Maligula, the High Priestess of the deluge, the semi-mythical figure whose supporters believe even death couldn't stop. he doesn't even flinch at the way she confronts him, and maybe it's because he's bought in so completely to this deified figurehead, this idea of Maligula; more a living force of nature than a person. and it all comes back to the same place: an abdication of responsibility, not just to the person who protected him when he was little but to this avatar of floods and destruction. Maligula will make everything better.

i'd write more about my thoughts on the Delugionists but that'd be taking a hard turn into speculation, and this is already kind of long and rambling so i'd better end it here. but what an unexpected and evocative line, right? it's some of the only stuff we have to go off of regarding the Delugionists as a whole, but i think it does such a good job of hinting at the wider story - at teasing another layer to the mythos surrounding Maligula, one whose ripples we see throughout the game but which never quite breaches the surface.

#psychonauts #psychonauts 2 #bored waiting at the airport so you get more psychonauts meta from me #the delugionists have been on my mind recently (because i Might Just have an upcoming au lorepost about them and also cults are fun) #so tossing my thoughts up here because people seemed to like the last few times i did this #and also it's my blog and i like to talk :) #related vent i HATE drafting posts in the tumblr editor because if you hit crtl+z to try and undo a formatting change #it deletes like half the post you just typed out #(yes i did it again while i was writing this. yes i'm still salty. why do i even bother) #what else... this is just becoming a disconnected thoughts dump #but if you've seen my posts you knew what you were signing up for when you hit the button to expand the post tags #there's new art coming hopefully this weekend if i can get it finished! it's more mermaid au designs #i'm two and a half weeks late for mermay but it turns out starting a new job and moving house doesn't leave you with a ton of free time #but that's okay it's never too late for mermaids #omg and artfight's coming up next month too! geez #i gotta make refsheets for the fsau trio because i would LOVE to get art of them #and this year i don't have a thesis to crunch on so i might actually have time to participate #oh and then in august i'm having top surgery! will make a proper announcement post for it at some point #i say 'announcement'. it's just a life update but it's nice to share #i'm super excited about it :) #i might end up blogging the process and recovery but obviously it won't be going here lol. i'd put it on my main #idk if anyone would find it useful but when i first started looking into surgery i had like very little idea about the whole process #and it's only through joining a bunch of online support/discussion groups that i managed to find more info and resources #so hey it might be useful to share? we'll see #our flight doesn't land for another fifty minutes so now i'm just writing in the tags because i'm bored #alright i'll proofread this and then post it when i land and have signal again. peace out yall hope your pride month is going well

[thiefbird]

We are once more reading JSTOR for fanfiction purposes: I gotta know how long a medical degree took at Trinity in the 1790s For Reasons

#this trans stephen maturin AU has grown Backstory bc i cannot just Write it has to Make Sense #ive gotten attached to mona. a character without a last name and who is referenced like. twice #i have 6 pages of backstory notes #and much more in my brain. but i cant write them down until i know how long getting his MD took #aubreyad #aubreyad fanfic #aubrey maturin #aubrey maturin fanfic #jack aubrey #stephen maturin #its really helpful that he went to trinity tho. bc i went to trinity. i know Places. #i dated an enviromental biologist there too. which is funny. my mother commented on their similarity tbh. bc Z is also v autistic #but i know The Places. ive been in the Old Bits where he would have had classes(they dripped water on my head while i was Learning) #and i know how the city Feels. like. the roads. #fuck i miss dublin. i should go to bed befoelre The Crying starts #or find an article thatll let me read it #need to remember to beg my mothers JSTOR access this weekend

[johnbly]

can't stop thinking about how in dmc jack treated james like a dog (whistling when he wanted him to start digging for the chest, the deleted scenes with giving him the other shovel to carry + having him clean his boot) and james takes it first because of wanting to stay by elizabeth but then because he was waiting for his moment to take the letters of marque + either the compass or chest and get his life back

and of course he gets the letters and the heart and gives them to beckett --

only for beckett to treat him like a dog as well ("you summoned me," the sending off/shooing gesture on the dutchman when it was time to drop off the chest, "he'll obey it's what he does") but this time james has to take it because he sees no other path

#i noticed jack's whistle big time in the dmc rewatch last weekend and i was like #dang the james as a dog thing just writes itself huh #i am. daring to put this in the tags bc it seems like the fandom does that with meta and no one has been assassinated so #james norrington #potc #no but james' face at the end of the shovel handing deleted scene if looks could kill #then again if that were the case jack would have died ages ago #i have been thinking too much about the 'you summoned me' line as well #just. davenport's delivery + his face and the way they chose 'summoned' #not 'you sent for me' or 'you asked for me' no he was summoned

[snzluv3r]

being so incredibly sick and not being able to take time off work is actually the most draining thing i have so much guilt about getting other people sick and so much frustration because the entire reason IM sick is because nobody else is allowed to take off work either i’m so sick of this

#like my coworker had the flu last friday and wasn’t allowed to call off she tried and my boss made her come lmdao #i would’ve gone the fuck back to sleep and ignored her call but #god #i’m so annoyed #if i have a 103 fever at work all day on friday the first thing yoh say to me about it #should not fucking be #“you better rest all weekend so you’re good to go by monday #like #my boss was saying how it was unfortunate she didn’t know i felt so bad #WHY WOULD I EVER FEEL COMFORTABLE TELLING YOU THAT J DID?????? #she’s the most non empathetic person in the world like #one of those people who will compare every little ailment yoh have to her own life #so of course when i got in trouble for wearing my winter coat inside because of the chills #she was like #i’ve been cold all week and i didn’t wear my jacket! #FUCK OFF #none of this even makes sense i’m just rantinf

[forcedhesitation]

*wheeze* slowly, but surely, working on art of them all

#bg3 #myart #wip #I want to make every tav/companion pairing I have a dedicated. fancy piece. #these started with a concept for a wyll drawing that was very...storybook! inspired. #I would have been done all the linework for these two pieces by now had my weekend gone better :/ #I was violently unwell for...about a week and a half? chronic illness bullshit. had started to feel better friday of last week... #...unfortunately fate had it that the weekend ended up being particularly stressful. so the pain returned anew. #it was. somewhat better today. but still not enough for me to really be productive in my free time :( #I will try to complete the linework tomorrow if all goes well. I really would like to start colouring them! #I have delightful colour schemes chosen... #gale/illamin piece has already been sketched in a notebook. once I finish these two- I will begin lining theirs! #illamin's connects to cadence's because they're intertwined like that. but I have yet to finish planning out cadence's piece. #I've gone back and forth on who I should romance with him...the thing with any of the companions is that they are all written to be- #-immensely compatible with each other. so writing a tav FOR a specific companion is a bit hard. often the tav could fit with any of them. #hell. I'm STILL working out details of jantar and corydalis' story & characters. because I can't be normal about this. #that aside- I DO have other. finished pieces...finally. #well. I had some long before... but I didn't want to post them because I wasn't happy with them. #so I went and finished new stuff that I DO like. #4. technically 5 drawings. all horror/horror adjacent in theme. #my extremely detailed hux painting is also NEARLY done. after months upon months of work. #and I continue to slowly chip away at the big scifi themed dbd piece I've had in progress. #I really never run out of things to draw and it's a bit torturous because I never have the time or energy to draw everything...

[nerdish-nostalgia-revived]

"We are dealing with a maniac that is very dangerous."

"Oh, my Lord! What about Egg? Is she going to be alright?"

Hercule Poirot and Sir Charles having a brainstorming on the train.

#martin shaw #sir charles cartwright #three act tragedy #david suchet #hercule poirot #first time I actually have the titular character in a gif set #I can barely look at him anymore since this episode #my weekend is so packed that I won't be able to concentrate on my writing anyway #so have this gif set instead #that little smile from Charles in the first gif #he is so precious! #also I wonder what kind of choice it was to film him from up above and Poirot from down below #I could say something about certain complexes that makes people want to appear bigger in front of others #while literally putting others down #but we all know which side I'm on in this #also yes Egg would have been alright if you had just eloped with her to finally get married! #I would have loved to see their wedding #instead I got traumatized for life by that ending #and was totally ok with discarding of the Belgian in the last episode because of that #thanks a lot!

[chiropteracupola]

it's ALISON!

#em makes stuff #the flight of the heron #alison grant #ewen cameron #adventures of tiny keith and ewen #and alison too!!! #I actually made her in december and january but it took me until now to actually get around to taking nice photos #you may remember that the last time I drew her I put a very specific pattern on her dress and This is why! #my knee currently feels like it's being chewed on by animals but that could not stop me from taking them out to the gazebo last night #over the weekend I saw some people taking prom photos or whatever there and when I was thinking of locations I thought it would be Funny #also because I left it until quite late and I needed somewhere where a building wasn't casting a shadow :/ #anyway HEY it's MAY and that means HERON TIME HOPEFULLY #want to work on fic but my brain has been and continues to be Soup. #per hap I will post some other photos of alison now that I have done these ones... #have one phrase for you and it is Functional Stays With Boning In Them

[tomatoluvr69]

Alsooooooo I know a couple of DJs in this town by now and godddddd like I genuinely am starting to have djlusions of grandeur like I think I could fucking do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But the problem is I need the crowd to get down with what I want to play like I want to medley up a bit of Age of Consent by New Order with 7th Element by Vitas and put some deeeeeeeeep bass throughout and then maybe switch it up to like…..Roman Holiday by Nicki Minaj and then a bit of the Thai childrens choir vinyl from the habitat for humanity restore thrift shop….with more bass in it……..I think it’d be aooooo good but like not a crowd pleaser….but I’d be soooo fucking good you see the thing is I’m too autistic for the dance fooor but too neurotypical to stay home…the stage is where I belong….mixing and matching

#but like the house show we had last weekend like that vibe would have been AWESOME……..I think enough ppl here know me by now that I could #do it!!!!!!!!

[beatcroc]

this single panel has caused me so much grief but i refuse to get rid of it

#this could have been done last weekend were i not so commited to figuring out how to come into this one panel #i think ive figured out how to make the pacing and end feel decent now but its making things like twice as long. annoying #literally going through the preceeding ones like 3 panels back i was like oh this would actually be a really strong endpoint right here #but. it cuts off some of the stuff i wanted to say.... #i think i can cap it with an action instead of dialogue endpoint now. it still feels a little weird but its fiiiiiiiiiineee #i think it's important to not get too attached to any one particular version of your vision. kill your darlings & all that. however #i want to use this fucking panel.

[imperpetuallylost]

kinda crazy but…

im gay for you

:o no way i’m also gay for u <3

#also i’m fucking exhausted it was a long ass day of robot #i broke down crying for no reason in the middle of my last tech interview for drama #because i was so fucking stressed abt hosting the robotics comp this weekend and waiting on college decisions #and also two of my friends were like in the hospital at the time #one bc they hadn’t eaten in like a week because of an ed and we’re doing really badly #and the other because they had to get stitches bc of sh #but i couldn’t really explain alllll of that to my drama teacher #anyway #i did hear back from one of the schools tho!!!!! and i got in!!!!!! #but they didn’t give me as much money as i would have needed to commit there #so like i probably won’t end up going even tho i really loved the school and it’s kinda my top choice #and also the accepted students days all conflict and i ended up signing up for one that would mean id miss the end of district champs #for robotics if we qualify #which my hopes are vaguely high this year #but now i’m gonna have to miss part of it if we do :///// #and the other more competitive one i’m waiting on hearing from some time this weekend i’ve been checking the portal like every twenty minute #it’s really bad #anyway i’m gonna go take a shower and then go to sleep before i drive myself to another breakdown #idk why the tags of this ask was my place to say all of this but it sure was

[lemonhemlock]

it's so frustrating dealing with a friend that seems set on finding imaginary slights against their person and seethes in silence waiting for you to figure out what you did 'wrong' this time 🤦‍♀️

#this is the fifth time since october i've invited her somewhere to catch up and she said no #always with some excuse #which. sure. i can't verify #maybe the 8th time in the last year she refused for some reason or another #but there's only so many times you can give someone the benefit of the doubt #when she never initiates anything and just waits for us to ask her out #and if you don't happen to do that within the secret interval of time she is available and which she never discloses #she registers it as a slight #i'm so tired of these stupid mind games how old are you/?? #also she is SO hard to get hold of. never answers anything on any messaging app for days on end including the weekends #even if the proposal is time sensitive #girl you are NOT that busy bffr #i remember we invited her to see barbieheimer and she did not freaking answer on time. as usual. #and we had to get tickets without her bc the time slots quickly sold out #and ofc she was pissed at us bc she's can't be bothered to reply 🤦‍♀️ #she always is pissed even when it's clearly her fault #when she clearly sees the message bc she DOES check the apps whaddyaknow #and the one time we did manage to see each other she had the gall to propose that we go out more often!!! #and then never initiates anything and refuses everything #ik if i were to recount this to a third person they would tell me she already checked out of this friendship #it's so stupid #having to walk on these eggshells #bc we didn't even have a falling out she's just finding pretexts to become offended #that was been her modus operandi since the freaking pandemic #good lord the stories i have #lemonposting #anyway i'm bummed out now

[vveissesfleisch]

THAT’S HOW THIS SERIES ENDED??????? LIKE FOREVER, SERIES FINALE ENDED????????

ARE YOU JOKING WITH MY ENTIRE LIFE????????

(I mean, don’t get me wrong, brilliant amazing spectacular showstopping never the same stunning delightful, 3000/10 highly recommend, and the closures on a few plot points certainly work where they ended up, and man oh MAN what an exceptional final episode, but there is absolutely one ENTIRE season of story left to wrap this up exquisitely!!)

#I was in a recliner and dear reader I shit you not #I levitated out of it when the credits rolled #causing the chair to jarringly zip upright so fast it vibrated #and screamed WHAT?!?!?! directly at my television #literally one more season of this would have been divine. that’s all it needed. #WHAT a scene to end it on too!!!!! #and cesare’s last line!!!! #god. GOD. #the good news is I have a LOT of ideas for fics #(or perhaps it’s terrible news depending on your constitution) #and I will absolutely be penning at least one of them this weekend #my husband has already agreed to watch it with me so that’s going to be amazing #I’m just going to be sitting here in a lisa simpson stupor for a bit first #what a show. WHAT A SHOW! glorious #3x10 really did blow me clean away tbh. so much to unpack in my stupor! #can’t wait to watch this shit again #lex does the borgias

[skitskatdacat63]

There's this nearly 4 hour movie I've been meaning to watch for a while and I was like "ah maybe ill watch it tonight hehe 🥰" and then I remember...quali is at 9 🫠

#i actually despise abu dhabi being the seaosn closer ngl #basically since Japan the race time has suited my timezone pretty well #1 am. 1 pm. 3 pm. 4 pm. 12 pm. 1 am. #<- like look at that. look at they absolutely delicious schedule #every race for the past 2 months has been at an ideal time and ive really settled into it #wow you mean i can sleep in on weekends and actually wnjoy the schedule!? oh boy! #and then they put fucking ad at the end which is at 8 am. who wants to wake up that early on a sunday #it would be fine if it was earlier in the season bcs during the middle i got pretty used to waking up before 9 bcs all the European races #but to have this one at thw end is literally horrible #its really down to timezones but fuck it really does bother me #bcs wow youve made me have zero desire to watch the season closer! thanks!! #id sooooo much rather brazil be the season closer still #like whh do you have to completely switch timezones right at the very end. its terrible #i think ill do waht i did last season and take a bit of a nap beforehand #it makes it much worse that this on a holiday wknd too. yeah bcs i rly wanna spend the last two days of my break waking up in the morning #sry im being ultra salty rn but i really dont wanna wake up for it but i hate missing race events UGHHHHHH #last yr i literally fell asleep during the first lap of AD 😭 #yeah im concerned abt if nando will retain p4 or not but...waking up before 8 am...?? #yeah idk i just rly dislike this scheduling #i actually kinda like AD as a track but its position in the season makes me resent it #catie.rambling.txt

[eyes-above--the-waves]

I just feel like the people who don't think Mitch should be voted into the All Star game because he "hasn't been playing good enough" don't understand the point of the All Star game...

#like...has it ever been about being 'good enough'? last year they had dogs and children playing. #plus i don't know why you would want to deprive the world of auston + mitch + willy together at the ASG...IN TORONTO! #it's supposed to be fun and silly and corny WHICH IS WHAT MITCH IS! #ppl take hockey way too seriously during the regular season. let the boys have fun together for one weekend #mitch marner #toronto maple leafs #all star game

[doux-amer]

I was afraid the police questioning was going to lead to death and I'm sadly not as surprised as I should be over Lee Sunkyun's death. I don't care what he was accused of (let's not forget that he tested negative for everything! And that this all happened based on a RUMOR. A RUMOR. By a notoriously unreliable source. But is this surprising? The police never do anything properly because they're the police); it isn't anything that should condemn a man to the witch hunt he went through.

If you're not familiar with how the witch hunts run in Korea, just know that it isn't a simple matter of being brought in for questioning (if there's actual official action taken) or being the subject of gossip (if it's society deciding your fate). You're essentially subjected to such horrific treatment that it's no surprise that people break down mentally. It happens all the time. It's making me want to smash things because media outlets are being vague about his death so everyone online is like "Oh, that's so sad that he was depressed. You never know who needs help" or "People who are struggling with depression should get support." He wasn't depressed! This was a man driven to suicide because the government, police, and media basically made him feel like he had no future.

#if you don't know how insane korean culture is about this...it's easy to read up on it #thank god jiyong made it through this but i was worried that he or lee sunkyun would be mentally impacted #lee sunkyun was brought in for questioning multiple times and the last time was THIS CHRISTMAS WEEKEND #he should have been spending that time with family and instead he was subjected to 19 hours of police interrogation. NINETEEN! #don't @ me about his infidelity. i'm well aware that other things surfaced while they were digging into him #but a. that's not something someone should be killed for and b. that's not a crime however you feel about it #(for the record that's something i have an issue with but my personal feelings have nothing to do with this) #none of this should have happened and there's so much police misconduct at play #all i can say is that i hope they get sued to oblivion #and due to lee sunkyun's profile because of the fame parasite brought him #this becomes an international embarrassment/disaster for the govt police and media #and something good can come out of this because this can't continue #all three are disgusting and should be treated as such