#thats some impressive work

[burningvelvet]

once again living vicariously through writers, artists, performers, adventurers, fictional characters, historical figures, and anyone else who has ever done or is doing anything even remotely interesting, etc., because i have no energy to participate in life myself and it's easier to maladaptively daydream my days away instead

#me #and the #tw depression #vent in the tags #ok so #to be fair i have been working on some very angsty fanfiction but like. i shld be working on stuff i cld publish under my real name #but fanfiction is a real medium of literature thats true #like it exists it can be published on ao3 it can make someones day maybe #but society doesnt care or find it impressive & thats my issue - not feeling worthy enough etc #half of me wants visible traditional success in life & the other half doesnt & just wants to do whatever & be chill #so half of me wants to be the next shakespeare (ok not literally but ykwim) & the other half just wants to write fanfiction lmao

[seariii]

I was stressed but now i'm more chill and really sleepy...

#overall my mood has been better but i am so incredibly terrified of the future... its like.... #like i feel as if someone has holding me at gun point and got told thst if i did any mistakes they would shoot #but then im not given clear instructions on what i need to do and i have to figure it out myself #i am really scared... even tho all of this gave me a new objective... i dont wanna be obsolete... #... so... that what we will work on... also... i wanna work towards my dreams... #I've been putting it off for so long i want to do it #people support me and actually enjoy my voice... i want to... #the things on my plate right now are things i can achieve... but i want more... i want things i actually want... #i want... #my house has a constant buzzing sound. i believe its because of the small power plant behind the lot. which makes it difficult for recording #since i have to get rid of that and that messes with the rest of the audio #its comforting to know it wasnt the mic tho... heh... #tomorrow lets try to take the first few steps... well more like lets try to continue with the set up #we have already a couple stuff but we still have a lot missing... #... today the girls said some stuff that impressed me... thats how im perceived?... is that what people think of me? #i kinda want to... fulfill those 'expectations'... they dont expect anything but its more of a me thing... ive been dreaming and hoping for #so long but i dont take the next step. i never do... and its because of the executive dysfunction... but... once i get the hang of it... #once i do... everything will be excellent... and we will take it easy #i am so tired already... i feel im gonan falla sleep #seari talks

[dblsoul]

mapcrunch studies from 2021 (colombia, croatia, italy)

#mapcrunch #digital painting #landscape painting #painting jumpscare.. i guess i did these on stream ??????? and they're GOOD i'm still impressed #the contrast could use some work maybe but even so i really like them #my art #i also dont like the square brush in the croatia one but i guess thats why i switched back to a round brush immediately after lmfao

[calamitys-child]

Unstoppable force (I wanna make a ttrpg campaign I wanna make it so bad it would be so cool) vs immovable object (any time I see a rulebook or a form of literally any kind it makes me hiss and spit and have a furious panic attack and never touch it ever again)

#i want. to run a campaign set in a haunted funfair #where all the characters are just pitched as like. kids who like the funfair #theyve got like some discrete personal goal like maybe they all want to like. collect a rare prize. impress a cute girl. hide from bullies. #look im rereading It okay you get the vibes #and I wanna get them all pressing for those goals and just dial up the horror underneath it all #like one day a bunch of folk get sick with food poisoning from eating the definitely 100% pork #that definitely doesnt have a human fingernail in it #another day they might win a prize thats like. a cool hat with the name of a kid who died last year written on the band inside #and like. just drop little hints in there while running it as a regular funfair and social interaction game #and maybe they slowly realise that half the staff that work there are. dead. and the guy who runs it is like a vampire or something #but i looked at the fate accelerated rulebook - possibly the single easiest and most flexible system - #and i opened the character sheet pdf and went i think i hauve covid and had to go for a walk so i wouldn't kill my laptop in self defense

[istherewifiinhell]

anyone wanna get emotional about collaborative art with me?

[Mirage 19 Story: E&L, Layout: Eastman, Pencils: Jim Lawson, Inks: Laird, Letters: Steve Lavigne]

ID from alt: Cropped section of the page annotations by Laird, (relevant) text: Page 18 is also the beginning of what I think of as "Brick hell" - Jim drew so many panels with hundreds of bricks in them, and I felt obliged to ink them all in. That was a LOT of bricks." Left is a panel showing Raph running down a curving brick tunnel, the wall is drawn with individual bricks, uncountable amounts of lines that illustrate the curvature.

If not, enjoy brick hell instead (I'll leave, just a doozy of a brick hell image at the end)

(this issue has beautiful layout paneling, which little snippets of could never replicate. great one to check out. imho)

come one come all to the worst barn party of the decade...

[IDS AND ALTS THE SAME]

ID: Jones family barn interior. Mike and Don speaking to Raph (off panel). Mike, in an open gesture: Life is good here... It's given us time to heal, to accept what's happened. Leo's needed this time, too--. Don, by his work table, no mask, wearing an apron. More neutral: We're not the guardians of society, Raphael... we never were. END

ID: Three panels, Raph pushing Leo around, yelling at him. The background moves from uninked, to midtone, to dark tone, as they both get more angry. Raph: No-- You're hiding out here... scared to face facts... And you're dragging all of us down with you! Fun and games are over, Chump... Look at yourself! END

ID: Two panels, Raph looks down to a wooden sword Leo (off panel) has held up in his way. He looks at it, unimpressed. Then looks up, pissed off and says only "Mistake." END

1. Three panels, Leo in the forground, just his leg seen. Raph on the floor against a wall. He whips his chin, saying "You were always good, Leo...". Close up, spit hangs from his mouth, continues "... One of the best..." He stands and finishes "...Which makes life here even more of a crime."

2. Four panels, Leo has Raph in a choke hold, holding him from behind, they are on the floor. Sweaty and teeth grit with exhertion. Leo says "--Do you hear me?!" Raph starts throwing punches to Leo's head, just above his own. As each one land we close in on Leo's face. END

Well. Thats great. Ill eat my own heart out how abouts.

AND ANYWAY. My favourite favourite effect.

ID: 1. Four panels, Leo, Mike and Don, run along a roof top, grab some fire escapes, and make their way to street level, skirting the edge of a street lamp's glow. The entire set is pen inked normally, and washed completely with the mid tone, save the small circle around the lamp, glowing white.

2. Large panel. Raph, 3 point lands, kicking up dust in the center of a spot lit section of sewer. The tail ends of a hood he wears trail up with the motion. Very little double-tone is used on the page, instead the shadow is communicated by increased hatch lines still following the shapes of every object in shot. END

ID: Raph sits in the tattered remains of the turtles lair, his brothers shadowed in the foreground. Raph, not very warmly says "Welcome Home." END

Okay okay. cry forever and every. please for the love of god. read comics. now. more brick hell

ID: Three panels, showing the entrance of a sewer tunnel into a larger area, closed and open pipes along the wall. The shot holds empty for two panels, then with the inclusion of Raph jumping out the exit in the third. If you are to look carefully. You can tell, though the scenery remains the same, in each, the intricate pen inked brick work and shadows have been done three separate times. END

LIKE. I KNOW ITS TRADITIONAL MEDIUM COMICS. But sir.... SIR? Another annotations from Laird specifically. Have mentioned using the copier to place certain things in backgrounds.... i just.... SIR?

#some shit #turbles... #one occassionally gets the impression that. laird is. ehm. a little particular about his work. Id say. well. its good work. #tags now refer to the contents within.... #RAPH LEO FIGHT EVERYONE STOP THE PRESSES IMMA DIE.... #ahhh. the blueprint. god. im ILL. fuck. this. don telling RAPH its not on them. thats. god thats a WHOLE OTHER. ouf. #and then. THE INTIMACY. of the violence. it KILLS THE MAN. thats. one hell of a fight scene. honestly. just. again. the over all pacing #of this issue. tuned to perfection. that is. some of the first time ive very felt panels come like blows. emotional ones. #like. NOT INCLUDED. but theres a moment thats. like down right scary? not horror scary just like. STRESS SCARY. #GENUINELY. feel sick. LOVE IT #i CANTTTT handle it. i love laird turtles inked by lawson but guess i ALSO love lawson turtles inked by laird. #idk. they so emotive and pretty naturalistic expression wise. also makes me think of sophie campbell though i could just be thinking about #the idw leo micro. cause. well. i want (issue) where (they) pass away. not because i hate them becauase i LOVE THEM. #wifi blogs mirage

[vampyretaemin]

photocard trading is such an act of faith. giving people your address, trusting theyre going to mail out their pc and not just steal yours, etc. like…

#honestly the system thats in place is very impressive to me and i think works really well for what it is #personal #however going back into pc trading after like 2 years of a break has been a little jarring i forgot some of the rules and some things have #changed on me. everyone feels so much more put together than me lol

[hailsatanacab]

hozier's francesca has been out for almost a month and there's only seven (7) fics on ao3 with the title "heaven is not fit to house a love like you and i", how is that fair???

#ao3 #hozier #was expecting there to be at least a number in the teens #what a lyric title for a fic tho #ugh gdi hozier you've done it again #cant wait for the new album #MY BAD ive just seen that its only been out for two weeks so like #guess it makes more sense #im still very impressed dgmw #thats a lot of works #im very much planning on using it for a fic of mine at some point too #AH imagine a hualian fic!!!! so literal i love it

[baylardian-1]

Hey I just want to say I love your threshold Janeway design!! Do you mind if other people draw this design/their own threshold Janeway redesign? /gen

Aw ty! :)

I guess I don’t mind fanart but ummmmm that’s always a real thin line to tread for me with redesigns. I won’t do anything or say anything but ummmmm I know I do get a little miffed over idea borrowing/reworking. 😞 And credit lol. But like, I don’t own Threshold and the idea’s been done even before we did it, it’s just easy to see influences.

i cant really stop people from making their content. i just know as a content creator its a lot cooler (imo) to see people take “other routes” with these characters that are potentially inspired by my own work but dissimilar enough for an idea to not feel like my own needed revision to fit a mold or whatever.

i know threshold’s pretty standalone as a concept for voyager, but there are other scenarios where you could instill permanence (if its the transformation thats appealing) or unwanted children (if that) and still get the same kinds of scenarios out of it.

#i tend to just not interact with things i get that impression with but its really whatever in the end #someone could easily have had the same idea as me and not seen my work #hopefully thats honest enough haha usually people dont ask me they just do it! #call it me being insecure? 🤷 #lingering damage from the mlp fandom that place just idea borrows eeeeeverything without even asking #some people tryyyyyy to be original and out of the box haha #Ask #Anonymous #sorry if this comes across as mean its just happened a few times now 🙈

[silverislander]

prof said congrats for writing up a proposal so early i am going to get a good grade in. well this is literally going to be graded. but yk the meme

#i really hope its decent proposals are really hard for me to write. i never really understand how much im supposed to say #also i dont plan stuff in advance! i hate drafts and proposals why cant i just jump in and run w my topic #i dont Know exactly what im going to cover just yet can i get back to you once ive covered it #levi.txt #i spent One page just opening the two page proposal so. i know it needs some cleaning up #but the last time i wrote one of these i only got a 75 (not a bad grade but i could do significantly better) bc. and i am not kidding. #i wrote a several page intro abt the themes of a story i was super pumped to write. and forgot the /plot characters and title/ #a 75 was honestly generous. that prof already liked me and knew my work so i got very lucky #also i just think the guy im working with for my essay is so cool and i want to impress him bfhshsk #ive taken 2 classes with him before he is so smart and so enthusiastic. i was 1 of only 3 who was there for every class both times #everyone whos helped me has been so cool and very nice to me i want to do a good job and prove that im as capable as they think #and also jesus fucking christ ive worked so hard for this degree PLEASE #if i dont get honours im walking into the forest laying down and letting the fae take me as they will #side note: i have 1.5 movies left (its late and im finishing army of the dead tomorrow + watching evil dead rise)!! thats so exciting #theyve (mostly) been really fun and i feel like i have a really good general idea of where im going w my essay now #the movie eras are starting to kind of organize themselves into coherent themes in my mind #i think its smth along the lines of racism/xenophobia -> social change -> satanic panic -> action and militarism -> prejudice/bias #and i actually think were in smth of a thematic reckoning w zombies rn as a culture that im excited to discuss!! #for so long weve accepted that zombies arent people but weve really been starting to interrogate that since abt the mid 2010s #w tropes like searching for a cure (not just a vaccine) or movies like warm bodies or evil dead where you can truly turn back #and im really excited to see where the future takes the zombie genre!!

[flowergirlmiwa]

#my post #despite them being on totally different consoles these are the only ones i remember im sure there were some more games though.. #it was a really huge hospital my mom worked there doing office stuff. #i mostly remember drinking 7up and watching Pokemon VHS #like i just remember all the kids who were there with me the few times i spent time there were like me and fucking loved pokemon anime #and we would all just want to watch the pokemon tapes.. actually im remembering something about scooby-doo #based on context i think this stuff was around 2000-2002 #also kirby's adventure was so impressive that when i later saw super mario bros running on nes i #didnt even register in my mind i had seen the console before playing kirby's adventure #self indulgent miwapolls.. if you trawl thru hashtag my post lookin to obsess over me im just helping you out thats all... simple...

[salsflore]

ummmm

#oh mika there is beauty in life~ look at your future! everything will be worth it in the end~ #my favorite image on this device btw ^ #cw negative #cw vent #you know where this is going. apologies my mind is a mess and i really just need to get it out because i find its better than- #-writing a semi formal email to that One (1) emotional support organization and i’m afraid to make a call so #but i just genuinely believe things would be better off if i weren’t alive. a bit of a silly thing to jump to i know but #my tuition fees aren't cheap and i'm not even that great of a student or a daughter or a sister and i- #-have no talents or remarkable feats. i’m not impressive in any way. and i hate hearing shit about how ^_^ its okay! we all have something- #-special about ourselves! for example maybe you have really good hand writing and thats good enough ~ but that doesn't work for me because- #-i have nothing. my handwriting isn't good my singing isn't good i'm not artistically gifted i don't have some random affinity for puzzles- #-i'm not charming or somehow really good at calculation or super creative or a really comforting friend i really have nothing at all #i don’t want to die. i have no plans on doing that sort of thing anytime soon— don’t misunderstand me #i just wholeheartedly believe i don’t deserve to be here anymore not because i’m not loved. i just can’t stand myself and my teenage years- #-feel so long and i'm so fragile how much longer do i have to tolerate. i'm contributing nothing. why should my family have to feed and- #-clothe a burden like me who provides nothing. why should my friends care for someone like me. i’m not really that funny or sweet or great- #-with advice giving or pretty or helpful in any way. why is it that life is genuinely easier for others. what did i do? what can i do? #how much longer must i tolerate this? would you believe me if i said i really did try to change my mindset this time? #i have no one in real life to talk to. therapists are pricey and i don’t think mine was helping me in any way anyways. she was nice though #so every night i sleep hoping i wake up somewhere else. somewhere where i'm happier and i can live all my silly fantasies where i'm a fun- #-and lovely person who has everything she wants and nothing goes wrong ever!! #how much longer must i hang onto the little things. i’m in such an exruciating amount of pain that i want to kill myself without dying? lol #everyone repeats the same stuff. get bit #i can't rely on the joy of having coffee every morning or persevere for the sake of seeing cute cats on insta. nothing will ease the burden

[toastsnaffler]

i keep getting irrationally miffed at ppl 😐😐

#'impressed by how much u can talk abt this considering youve not played either game' #fuck off. as if im not just trying to show interest bc u + another friend are both into them + constantly talk abt them in our gc!! #i mean since u guys talk abt them all the time + theyre huge on tumblr like. it would be hard for me to not know anything abt them at all #literally what else can i talk to u guys abt anyway. i dont think there are any interests i personally have that they both gaf abt #if anything they actively dislike most of the things im hyperfixated on. or at least she does so like i cant bring that up can i. #all i did was share a post i saw on tumblr that i thought was funny. its not like i had some negative/controversial opinion #i just saw it and thought hey that makes me think of my friends bc they like those things maybe theyll find it funny too!! #dog sitting outside the door with rly big sad eyes offering them a stick i found in a puddle #i like listening to them talk and i will eventually play some of the games theyre into myself cuz they make them sound rly cool #and even if theyre not my kind of thing i like sharing interests with other ppl and sometimes thats enough for me to be able to enjoy it #i literally own some of them already but im just not in the mental space to start smth new right now. which i have SAID!!!! #why do u even care girl. as if u dont already have a ton of friends playing it that ur talking to abt it???? i wont have anything to add #and thats not gonna stop u from being able to talk to me abt it anyway????? like 2/3 of our conversations atm are abt bg3 #man. i know its not that deep but it makes me kinda sad for some reason. im just trying. i guess next time ill just let u guys talk- #to each other or at me and not comment or say anything so u can pretend im not here or whatever it is u want #ughh. she probably didnt even mean it like that and ill feel stupid for getting annoyed and delete this later but whatever. #might work out early today and then i can like draw or play a game or smth the rest of the day. alright lets go #.vent #listening to my silly little jfunk/jazz/soul playlist and i already feel over it. healing

[road2manjuumaster]

ok so what if. hear me out on this one. midoteto suicide pact.

#ok so maybe i saw some translations from the current event #and i mean. i think constantly about how in motor show he joked that he 'wasnt any good at being depressed' #i feel like tetora doesnt really know about this kinda stuff and has a very narrow view of what depression is #like hes the type to think depression and being suicidal are the same thing. that you cannot be depressed if you dont wanna die. #which is why hes 'not good' at it #he DOESNT wanna die #at least he doesnt think he does #but he says in this event that if hes not loved or even liked he has no reason to exist. #and with everything rst has been thru with chiaki making everything a chiaki problem and not a rst problem and tetora #taking the fall for it more often than not as the leader of the yumenosaki division who is probably the most affected by those decisions #his help being constantly shrugged off by someone whos supposed to value teamwork above all else #that GETS to a guy #it gives the impression that he ISNT cared for. that he ISNT loved or liked or important to people. #and thats one of the worst side effects of chiakis stubbornness. #and with midori nothing ever seems to go in his favor #he was unwillingly put in the idol course because of his looks which hes super self conscious about #dude skips meals and avoids certain food groups in hopes he'll stunt his growth and probably has ever since he started growing like this #his genes failed him and now hes stuck in a position he never wanted to be in. he gets a lot of modeling work #which he hates bc it brings more attention to his looks #he was pulled into rst bc he had to go somewhere by a man with a hero complex as tall as midori #he stayed more out of convenience than anything. he stayed so chiaki wouldn't make a fuss about it #and while he did come to genuinely enjoy being an idol and came to love his unitmates #he still feels that inferiority constantly #and i think #in an emo way #it would be poetic if they felt they were the only people who would miss them if they died #so they die in each others company alone so that they arent without the one person who cares for them #ensemble stars #enstars #tetora nagumo

[magicaltimelady44]

The dr I saw today[not my normal dr]: what do you mean you can't have dairy? Don't you know how much calcium and vitamin d are in it? Are you sure you can't just try?

Me: sir if I could eat pizza and lasagne again don't you think I would be?! My body being a walking disaster is not my choice here

#he seemed to be under the impression i could willpower away my inability to consume dairy #and also certain other foods that are the Bad Texture that make me gag #look. i would also like to be able to eat porridge. but thats just not happening #he also had a hard time with the whole 'listen to the patient when they talk about how things affect their body' thing #i have lived in my body my whole life. maybe i have some input on things that do or dont work with it? #especially when he had not even really glanced at my chart before starting to suggest things

[britneyshakespeare]

I don’t think he ever read any of my poems now that I think about it

#tales from diana #when we first met i told him about my poems and i gave him some free copies of this small local literary magazine they're published in #he pretended to be interested but never actually said he read them. i dont think i asked more than a couple times #but if i recall correctly he told me unprompted a few times he hadnt #perhaps thats why he thought of me as more of an artist than a poet. he had seen me draw but i dont write poems in front of ppl #and it takes one second to look at a drawing (and to not appreciate it) (as he didn't for the most part) #even though i explained often that id only been drawing for like a year and im still very much a beginner and it's a huge struggle for me #it's very very hard for me to draw i don't consider myself good at it. ive made a FEW good works but im not a good artist #im not confident but that's ok ive enjoyed my progress #there were a lot of little things id do for him that he just wouldnt acknowledge much or seem to care about #so much for trying to make an impression on ppl #i think some ppl only want to be around you so they can suck up your company and feel validated #i have to be honest. that is nothing like me at all #im fine being alone. i could never be addicted to ppl as some are. #long story short this guy never cared about me

[portokali]

bestie gi @pinknoisemp3 tagged me to share my 9 albums of 2022!!! ty that was v fun to do and think abt!!!

criteria for being a nica album of the year were: °albums i listened to front to back a lot, not just albums where i loved a couple individual songs, °albums that actually set the vibe and made me think of a lot, °albums i liked (ofc), °albums that i either discovered or came out this year OR if they're old favorites, °albums that were particularly relevant, and °albums that were somehow in pace w my character development

here we have: jubilee by japanese breakfast, laurel hell by mitski, ANIME by foivos delivorias, be the cowboy by mitski, μια πέτρα σαν σπίτι by sophie lies, a liquid breakfast by audrey nuna, metro by lex, surf by blackstarkids and red hearse by red hearse

tagging besties @catboyparrish @catboykacchan @catboypranparakulisaro @catboyhammerandsickle @transcatboymegumi @byrons @matchas @stuckwith-harry @quillsand @soupbi @diarygirls and everyone else who wants 2 do it.. ily i hope everyone enjoys the music they listen to as much as i do if not more its my genuine hope for humanity

#jubilee ALBUM OF THE YEAR loved it soo much only listened to it this year too before that all i had listened to more than once was be sweet #but so so so good sooo important to me!!!! #laurel hell A GROWER i loved the singles as they came out but after the album came out i loved jt #but then took a break from listening to it and arrived at the conclusion that it's a lot less musically interesting #than any of her previous works and then came back to it some months later w new uears #OK I STILL KINDA AGREE W PAST ME that melodically it's not AS impressive as some stuff shes done before but stillll #such an important album to me this year n now i grew into some of the songs more esp thats our lamp #ANIME BY DELIVORIAS AND FIRST GREEK ALBUM IN THE LINEUP OKOK OK LETSGO #hes my greek boomer of choice look he went and named his album anime it doesnt even have 2 do w anime #he meant as in.. anima as in the soul in latin ig?? so much of it has 2 do w the matter of thr human soul n how delivorias sees the world #his brain!!! ok even if u dont speak greek i think its an enjoyable listen!!! look i wouldnt be reccing it if it wasnt good!!!! #BE THE COWBOY a classic an old favorite but i listened to it soo much more this year and developed personal close relationships w so many #of the songs so!!! a 2nd win for mitski CHEERS #mia Petra san spiti aka a rock as a home (??) by Sophie lies ANOTHER greek indie album in the lineup n honestly #its more of a 2021 album of the year but this year too and actually one of my fav albums ever #soo much of it is abt growing pains and struggling in your 20s.. hi. was listening to it recently thinking funny how sophie lies writes #songs specifically for me such as aeras bc well of course eimai aeras eimai o ai8eras pou anakatevei fyllarakia eimai neraki ki auto einai #kati... mia stagona poy soy 8wlwse to mati!!! WHO comes up w this stuff NOT NORMAL PPL ILL TELL U THAT MUCH. also nastia likes sophie too #yes yes loved talking abt her w nastia bestie.. #a liquid breakfast by audrey.. v good grew on me fast too it interchanges btwn being badass and gritty to vulnerable and softer letsgoo #definitely sth i needed a lot also v fond memories of playing this in the car 2 my friend and his friend i had just met and them both #approving. also b4 the friends friend became MY friend hello!!!! #lex metro what can i say. he already said it all!!! skg gang letsgoo #CULTURAL RESET also ofc i was there at the live.. a v v remarkable and unforgettable day by all means. n my brother gave me one of the #tshirts he got AND I ALSO got a paprika tshirt by artist ej chong so i have 2/9 tshirts for the albums mentioned here #surf by blackstarkids WOW A VIBE!!!! again v relatable to growing n 20smethingisms but also v fun and just super gr8 #helped me alot through the summer.. love 💕💕💕 #RED HEARSE is actually a long time fav since 2020 i think but it stayed a fav this year n got me through a lot there r some absolutest bops #here!!!! everybody wants you is one of my top most listened songs n my fav alongside red hearse n half love.. #tag game