#the cashier was like ???? so what do you want

[avvocarlo]

there's a place 600-800 metres from our new unit that's hiring and the pay seems to be a lot better than where I'm at. I really hope I get it

#I've working on my resume this weekend #I'm tolerable of my current job but I'm kinda over it man #you're paid essentially the same as a cashier with more responsibility #and you also need a car to drive all over the place #either gonna call in sick tomorrow or do a halfday because they want me to go all the way to manly for a 2:00 to 4:30 domestic clean #so like. probably 25-30 mins from the previous client #then driving around 40 kilometres home during peak hour traffic #to make what.. $75 lol? while also wearing down my car and having to buy petrol #honestly such a pisstake. I'm not fucked financially since being with them my incoming is less than my outgoing over a year and a half #though**

[confinesofmy]

i'm planning next week's picnic like if one thing goes wrong i'll be publicly beheaded. i'm locked in to such an absurd degree.

#also never shopping in my nearest town again maybe #i saw my cousin's ex who lives an hour away and her friend together which is so....... like wow i really thought i'd seen the last of him #very messy situation #started talking to a cashier/stocker i've spoken with on occasion for several years and she showed me some of her art & poetry (???) #got in line in front of one of my former classmate's dads who tried to proposition me right after my mom died #went to the new dollar store which has four self checkouts & one manned‚ tried to use a self checkout and the cashier said #'we don't have self checkouts' i said 'do you mean today or period' she said 'period' and we discussed how badly that's got them fucked up #they're literally running one of the self checkouts as a manned checkout when things get busy like... #and it was JUST built!! like just less than a year ago i think #i always come home from that town wanting to pull my hair out it's sooo strange!! like everything is craaazy #i also got fucking scammed! #i forgot to check until just now but the grocery store likes to run a weekly sale then not update the computers to reflect it #like they've done this for years and years #and i paid $1.99/lb for apples that were marked down to $1.12/lb so i overpaid a damn dollar #during the panini when it was my only source of groceries sometimes the difference would literally be like $50 because of big ticket items #i'd usually walk out‚ unload and read the receipt‚ then walk back in and get my refund. every friday. #and if i didn't i'd be out like $100/month for nothing on top of everything costing double what it did in the city #that place is fucking cursed. like there's just layers and layers of misery covering every surface. #adam yaps

[koi-fish-boy]

Ranting bout Ai cuz I fucking hate it.

I've been thinking about AI recently cause of an essay I had to write about what should be considered when creating AI. The articles I was assigned to read didn't say a single bad thing about it. It praised AI, calling it intelligent, the future, blah blah blah. Yeah, AI may be smart, but it's not human. I see people using AI art and AI bots like character AI and I don't understand. Those bots will never have the soul, the work, the toil put into generating those stories and "art" that work made by people have. Artisans spend years, decades of their lives toiling over their work, improving bit by bit, learning new techniques to help them improve, getting tips and tricks from those who've been doing it longer than them and know how to make it easier and to help. Will AI ever replicate that? AI is just green lines of code on a digital screen. I'm not saying it's easy to make AI, but that's what it is. It will never replicate the bonds, communities, and pride that stem from someone simply being interested in something and wanting to learn more. AI is constantly learning, but what bonds does it make? Who does it talk to? Movies and stories made by AI won't have the passion put into it like those made by humans. Throughout humanity one of the things we have held close and passed down is art and creating things. It's human to create, the earliest humans created, who we are today stems from their creativity and their communities and their bonds with each other, not artificial voices and stolen data. Using AI to create these is taking the traditions we held dear to our hearts for thousands of years and stripping it down to the click of a button. Our future is bland and soulless if we actually let AI do these things. Our future is ours to write, it is in our hands. Not the digital hands of a pixel screen masking green lines of code. Using AI to create is taking what makes us human and mutilating it. Our creativity is not a lamb for the slaughter, it is not to be given away so lightly. It may be cheaper, it may "look nice", it may be fast, but that takes away everything that makes art and storytelling art and storytelling. All those years mathematicians, artists, writers, screenwriters, scientists, medical staff, etc have put into being good at what they are is being thrown right out the window because of AI being able to do what they spent their lives learning with the click of a button. This is the end of humanity. Not as a species, but as who we are. AI can never replicate the feeling of being praised by someone you look up to because they think the art or story or anything you made is good. AI is not human. Stop letting it pretend to be human.

#there's so much i have in my head thay i want to yap about but i dont know how to put it into words #There aren't enough words in every language combined to explain how much i hate AI. #Is my passion a fucking joke to you? Its all about following your dreams until a bot can do it better than you. #being human is an experice no pixel can replicate. #creating cannot be replicated #not to mention all the jobs that will be taken by AI #every job you can think of will be replaced if this continues. #it may not seem like a big deal to you rich folk with nothing to worry about if that cashier gets replaced with anoher self checkout #but it is to them #people depend on those jobs to keep them alive #to keep ther families alive #replacing them is dooming them #i fucking hate AI #if a 15 year old is worried about his fucking future because of your rich asses wanting to be lazy and not wanting to pay people for #their effort and work and the time they dedicate yo doing what they do then somethings fucking wrong #i know people dont listen to children but please #just this once #listen

[zaggyzoo]

another crazy day at work 👍

#is it just me or does it take soooooo much patience working retail fjfjvjjvjv #it's sooo hard when there's the customers who don't speak neither italian or english a little bit just french and i can understand it but #not speak it bc i forget all the vocabs and they don't have enough money and there's only so many times i can say CINQUANTE EURÓS #while met with a complete blank stare without going insane #no but seriously if you ever find out last moment you don't have enough money it's no big deal just say it to the cashier before they start! #so we can figure out what to do before rather than have to take back stuff #anyway i realise now i said après when i actually wanted to say before but there was no need to act like i was saying something #undecipherable like come on ma'am. work with me. use that skill of deduction please

[unproduciblesmackdown]

thinking of how like reading albert cashier's (19th century trans man, fought in the union army) wikipedia article is devastating to me, in a good way, when like there's no The Diary Of, The Posthumously Discovered Letters Of Albert Cashier, it's all like fairly dry Facts about someone living a fairly ordinary life mostly Known by us all later via like, here's his stints at various jobs....and it's that like it's this life where several times due to injury / illness, his being trans was Known to any other people, and those people who, as is always the case in any matters of how we treat others, didn't Have to be respectful & simply mind their own business, but they did anyways, no known added factors, they Just Did. noting that despite hospitalization in the union army stint, he evaded detection(tm), but that it's then later on like this ordinary guy with an ordinary job, albert gets sick & a family he had meals with (a) takes care of him thus (b) becoming aware he's trans, and they: mind their own business about it. later, different job, totally different & even more removed party in the physician involved who realizes this person is trans, Also just minds their own business like aaugh!! the tragic downturn that when becoming "too" disabled for a Soldiers & Sailors Home (where friends & soldiers from his union army regiment visited, it says!! this with notes prior about like "other soldiers in the regiment noted he tended to keep to himself but he's not the only one in the world doing so huh" like waaah!!) being institutionalized & like of course in that environment that's where we get the violence of ppl learning someone's trans & this disabled person being forced into clothes they obviously even now would not choose for themself, or they'd already be wearing them!! but that then what Also happens is that even being this Extra vulnerable now and being trans being Known such that his military pension was investigated for fraud, Former Comrades vouched that this is the same person who fought with them, it was decided the pension payments should continue for life, they did, he was buried as albert cashier with full military honors i'm sooo ;;;m;;; like Cry Every Time (crying now. help) when it's just So like, people, as they do, don't Have to treat anyone decently, and obviously trans people are vulnerable & you're of course made to believe there weren't even 19th century trans people & everyone would Of Course summarily reject it if so b/c the internet wasn't around to mess things up, so that's an extra layer, but truly that timelessness anyways like. this person w/his identity so Lifelong that no "birth name" was known until someone handling his estate traced it back years later, this guy just out here, living his life, with nothing asserted to make him so "exceptional" as to "justify" Exceptions(tm) Made, with nothing about otherwise leveraged power or advantages or appeals....just various assorted people in his life all choosing to be respectful, even when they didn't Have to, just people coming through and Recognizing This Person. thus i sure do cry every time

#article's definitely been edited since i last Read It & Weep'd.... #cons ''what do you mean a 2nd larger headstone w/'both' names added! here i come w/a 3rd even larger ALBERT CASHIER solely headstone'' #pros ''what do you mean the 1 room house he was built in one period is now a historic site; it was a tool shed & chicken nursery & moved #around many times; what do you mean it became so dilapidated the local firefighters planned to burn it in a training exercise & then in #the '90s it was saved hours before they were going to do so & then it was moved again & used as a storage shed & Then volunteers restored #it & in 2011 it was dedicated!! & is now a historic site!!'' waauh ;;m;; #being trans & all; affecting. being a bit sensitive abt like ''and you're used to ppl's response to not Having to treat you with #basic respect being that And So They Do Not; being used to like [assume they Won't until proven otherwise]''....wwahh ;;mm;; #and just albert cashier Just A Trans Guy; Just Out Here....reaching out my hands #and these weeps wept thanks to [a figure in the play ''good men wanted'' & portrayed by trans actor asia kate dillon!] wahoo yippee

[guiltyidealist]

Imagine understanding that labor under capitalism is coercive -- all of it, by nature -- and being anti- sex work 💀

#''it's coercive!'' ya. wait that's it that's the argument? that's just a correct statement bro go on #what's special about coerced sex that separates it from coerced cooking driving machine operation building etc #objectively #like do I find it especially insidious? yes #but one of the very few things we have in this trap system where we MUST have labor coerced from us is some agency what WHAT we have coerced #/some./ some #so no I don't condemn people who choose to have it be sex that gets coerced out of them #I support survival and personal freedom and happiness #of course people stuck in that field who want to get out you know? they should be helped out #that's it period it doesn't make the whole practice bad. at least no worse than every other trap we're forced into #yes the existence of sex work is bad in the western world. as are the existences of cashiering and teaching and carpentry and textiles and #sex workers are not bad. sex workers are not bad for being in sex work #anyway condemn the oppressor not the oppressed's means of getting by under oppression #fuck capitalism #antiwork #guillotine the rich #rape tw

[torchickentacos]

I never do this, but reblogs were off and I want to shout this at everyone. stealing this post.

more thoughts under read more. I know it's a popular saying and I never look down on people who say things like this before knowing the impact they have (or even after to an extent, I have too much benefit of the doubt to go around), as we all have things we say and do that have negative impacts, and sometimes you never know to change that until someone points it out. So this is NOT a call out post or whatever, this is my rambling emotional thoughts on a topic.

I think first and foremost, I'm bothered by the ableism of course. But secondary to that is my annoyance at seeing people act high and mighty about fandom discourse. Like, if you want to talk to adults with jobs, go to linkedin or something, not tumblr, where we do care about things, and where we do discuss things.

And I GET thinking some discourse is stupid. I DO! because guess what. some discourse is stupid skjfhsdjkjfhsdjfhkdjs. I've joked about the poke/amour stuff before. I'll clown on some things, and maybe that makes me a hypocrite, but I feel like a step is taken when you take it from 'making fun of the discourse', something we all do to an extent (which dare I say is a form of participating in it) to 'making fun of the people who engage in such discourse'. We are FREE to talk about how silly the voltron stuff was. We are FREE to be snarky about things because human nature is to be a bit of a hater sometimes. but do it in a way that jabs at the topic and not the people.

But I think a lot of it also hinges on how we see human value on a larger scale. People make fun of people who work retail, people who don't have jobs, people whose jobs are considered extra or undesirable like sex workers, et cetera, despite these jobs being IMPORTANT. It's disheartening to me to see people lean on these types of jabs, and I think it tends to paint human value as something purely based on what you can give out to the world. It leans on this sort of input-output based system of determining how valuable or worthy someone is. And if they don't meet that standard value of 'adult with job', then their opinions are moot as jobless losers in their mom's basements or whatever the fuck. I think the whole thing leans into the conservative 'special snowflake' attitude, which isn't something I think we should be leaning on in arguments or discussion.

And I think that the intent is usually not to be ableist. Most people don't start their day wondering how they can insult disabled people, I'd hope. But intent and impact are often detached, and good intent (avoiding discourse) can have a bad impact (making fun of people in the name of pointing out issues with disocurse). I also think race could be a component, given how racial discrimination in hiring is still a very real thing and is a real factor preventing people from getting 'GoOd ReAl JoBs', but I'll leave that side of the discussion to someone who is more qualified to talk on it than I am. Feel free to chime in with any insight on that side of the coin if you want!!! I imagine the same also goes for visibly queer people but I'm not going to get into the straight/cis passing stuff right now.

And maybe I'm looking too far into it. Maybe I'm just thinking about it too much, maybe it's just a funny little saying that TOTALLY doesn't affect actual people in any way. After all, I'm just some jobless disabled loser in my parent's house talking about discourse on tumblr, aren't I?

#rbs are fine but please be kind if you're going to send anons about this topic. #reblogs were off for a reason presumably so I'll leave it anon #i don't know or care what side of whatever discourse op is on. they're right about this specific thing. #i genuinely don't want to get into back and forth discussion about how wrong i am on this right now tbh #I don't want to hear WELL ACTUALLY- #like no please just let me say my piece and step down from the soapbox #this isn't a callout post or like OH YOURE SOOOOO TERRIBLE IF YOU SAY THIS #like no i've said it before i think khdfskdjfhdzb just my thoughts right now #it's annoyance at the societal aspect of it as a whole #like i'm not mad at cashiers for taking my money. i'm mad that as an entire society we have no money for groceries. ya feel? #never mad at any individuals! always mad at the societal aspect as a whole #beause it really isn't something any one person should have blame for imo #also reminder i am a random tumblr user and not some moral lighthouse to guide everyone. what do i know lmao

[cryolyst]

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#there was a customer that got so mad at my coworkers earlier like... what's ur problem... #like he asked one of us on the floor first and my coworker said he couldn't find that so the guy went all #''oh so you just don't want to do your job then?'' and ''why won't you help me'' like. he literally can't!! #and then he went up to the cashier and she said the exact same thing and he went ''why are you all so rude'' WHAT DO YOU MEAN??? #WHY ARE /YOU/ SO RUDE??? WHY DON'T YOU JOIN A LOCAL THEATER TROUPE IF YOU WANNA CAUSE DRAMA. #you're yelling loud enough for the whole store to hear like no one else needs to be involved. quiet down. #i'll bite your head off bitch. #they speak!

[deityofhearts]

can I admit that i didn’t know what a green onion looked like a few years ago and was sent into a store to buy some and was like so confused for a good five minutes and eventually had to google it and felt like a fool

#deity dialogue #fucking scallions strike again #I know what a scallion is. #I’m used to onions being round boys #not long #can I also say that I lived a weirdly isolated life and was never sent into a store by myself and so was learning how to use debit cards at #this same time and almost cried because I kept messing up and thought I was annoying the cashier #(and also it was one of the few times I was ever sent into a store alone and that also made me want to bawl) #you ever realize how fucked up your life is that going into the go every store alone and buying a green onion and using a debit card are all #things that made you start crying in a foodlion? #I think I’m doing better now like I can go into stores alone now without wanting to sob #I know how debit cards work #I can differentiate a green onion from the common onion #18 year old me was more of an emotional wreck #or like maybe not emotional wreck but more of an anxious wreck the whole world was so so so scary #sorry that my silly onion post turned into me realizing that I have problems

[bredforloyalty]

ok going back soon to the regularly scheduled posting. nothing changed it's just that the sun is up and i feel braver being a girlwreck so we're back to that not so sweet spot where i just don't care. just don't care. so what if i don't hand in anything or hand it in a week later and get a bad mark and have to apologize profusely and everyone's disappointed and they think i'll never amount to anything. what about it. what are they gonna do, kill me? better make it count. better make it hurt. because otherwise, well i do not care

#it's my armor it's the only useful thing my father taught me #i hate being a shell of a person though #but what can you do. in this environment. in this economy. i mean come on #so what if i never amount to anything. the world needs cashiers and janitors and maids. i can be that #i'd love to work with my hands‚ my brain is kind of killing me #getting in the way. i can't be someone with a diploma‚ i can't be like my mom for real #for real! but the other option is my dad and you know how i feel about that #my mom's miserable btw. you think i can take her path and not go absolutely insane? naw!!!!... #i do know that blue and pink collar jobs are not equal to ''not amounting to anything'' btw #that's just what certain people would say that means‚ in my case? like there's something people expect from me #and then i suck at it but i'm also like a delicate soft-shelled turtle or maybe a turtle without its shell at 20. seems like i wouldn't be #good at like‚ costumer service or manual labor. i feel like i'd crumble they say i'd crumble #but maybe i should just take that chance cause it's better and more fitting than whatever this is and eventually i'll be happy #i could still help people and be relatively comfortable without a degree.. i don't know why i act like i want this #well i do know but i've already said a lot of stupid personal shit and i don't even have time for this i'm wasting time right now #so.. whatever 🥴 #kata.txt

[this-doesnt-endd]

I also got a bloody nose while waiting in line at macys and i was sniffling tryna get thru the transaction and sat on the bench holding tissue to my nose, blood on my face cause i had to hold my nose with my palm at one point and got it on my face while my mom went to find tissue or something and it made me so tired and dizzy i almost threw up and almost fell over in another store and ended my day with 15min left in the mall where in which i had to sit down and accept defeat

#sorry if it sounds kinda whiney #but like this is my blog my diary so i get to be #but also like i treasure a good mall day with my mom its just like my fave thing #and it went exactly how i didnt want it to go #and my dehydrated little brain fried itself when i had to deviate from my plan and routine #like we always go to f21 and go to the top floor to look at clearence and everyone mumbled aroune the ground floor #and in my head i was like no!! we arent following the rules!! stop!! this isnt how you properly go to the mall! #im not gonna get an A in going to the mall which is normal to want and achive #and then we went into hot topic which is thr size of a large book closet and my cousi. walked near me and was like ur still here? #girl what do you mean im still here we've only been in here 20min im in the other corner 15 steps away from you #also the cashier lady at macys somehow knew my last name? even tho i didnt give an email or a phone number to my reccolection? #she handed me my stuff as i was on the phone with my mom being like hey pls find tissues asap and she saif have a nice day miss last name #and it threw me off but i was preoccupied trying not to have an bloody nose in the macys since the one on friday was horrendous #and it was all dripping down the back of my throat i ended up spitting it out in the thrashcan by the exit #but like how did she know? cause i have the like point account but i didnt give it to her does my card info popup on screen? #is my card like linked somehow and i popped up that way idk it was weird #but i got a v e r y nice shirt for 10 bucks #i did give her my zipcode so maybe that?

[penisliker-moved]

but like they literally. ok so betty ws like "vacuum up front whilei check your rooms" do im like oh ok like the rug jn the entrance zone. bc rheres like the double sliding doors ykwim. so im getting the vacuum and rhen Fucking stacy is like Make sure you get everything all the floors and carpets and gestured at the entire lobby. and im like ... ok? but she put so much emphasis on Everything so i go to like. the halls and start vacuuming the carpet right. and she starts bitching like Just over here 🙄 and its like GIRL YOU FUCKING SAID EVERYTHING !!! and then im fugking doing it and her and betty repeatedly say "MAKE SURE YOU GET THE CARPETS!!!!" like yeah dumbfucks of course im gonna get the fucking carpets im goddamn vacuuming. yr making me vacuum hardwood acting like my first instinct wouldnt be to vacuum the carpets. and then at on3 point i unplugged the vacuum bc th cord ws too short and Clearly started walking to the other side of the room where theres another outlet to plug it in and stacy whos just sitting on her ass in the cafeteria goes "YOU DIDNT GET THE CARPET 😡" LIJE . GIRL I COULDNT FUCKING GET TO THE CARPET I AM CLEARLY GETTING TO THE FUCKING CARPET. and then i finally fucking fjnish it and some dickhead fucking guest goes You missed a spot teehee thinking hes so funny. and i just ignored him bc shut the fuck up you annoying dick and stacy goes Did you miss a spot 🤔 like . im going to snap one of these days

#i hate guests so vad i fuckjng hate them #sometimes i get rly polite guests who just ask for towels and are super nice but other times i get either the dunbest people alive or the #rudest people alive #and i still have to be nice to them when they treat me like shit and Ik thats like just part of being a person but oh my fucking godddd #rheres a goddamn reason im not working as a fucking cashier or some shit and its bc i dont want to fuckjng talk to you people #literally the front desk is always (supposed) to have somebody there (fucking stacy likes to just run off whenever for a laff) #what ever ughhh i hate it here i hate it here #n when i get home were doing th christmas tree but to be so honest . as fun as it is im Not fucking feeling it immediately after work #i want to lay down andi want nobody to talk yo me for 500000 years #whatever.

[ssahotchnerr]

on tiktok my fyp keeps showing vids of people talking about their most embarrassing moment in college 😭😭😭 mine was during my freshman year i ordered a salad, asked for no romaine… BC I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS LETTUCE

#tw food #the cashier was like ???? so what do you want #just katie things #no one ever told me lettuce had names

[scholarhect]

for the record, that “in our future utopian society, we will have a system wherein everyone will do exactly one day of sanitation work each cycle” post is insane, and i wouldn’t comment but i’ve seen it agreed with so many times that i just have to say. guys. hello? this is nonsense. this makes no sense

#listen we already have a talking point it’s extremely simple it’s ‘some people want to do this work but it’s undervalued & underpaid so they #choose other career paths. ideally in future the job will be treated with more respect’ #you can just say that. you don’t have to imagine a world where every job is done by every person one day at a time #imagine being the new guy on the job EVERY day. one day picking up trash. one day in a factory. one day a cashier… hello? #am i being psyopped. is this an op to make ~the online left~ look like the dumbest people alive #listen i’m just saying if i started a job as a sanitation worker you’d have to give me at least a week on the job before i REMOTELY acted #like i knew what i was doing #one day total………. and then DIFFERENT people the next day. who ALSO have no idea what they’re doing #ok i’m sorry i’m done i just had to get it out of my system. i’m good now #post tag

[fazcinatingblog]

Remember when Brodie Grundy and Tim Broomhead were broommates

#i want to be a broommate #goals #Tim's in Albury now and Brodie's in Sydney #do you think Brodie takes trips down in his caravan to see Tim #he walks into Albury and there's a huge billboard with Tim broomhead on it #in the town square there's a statue of Tim #Brodie just like 'oh my god is Tim the mayor of Albury?' #asks the locals about Tim and they all gush about his heroic feats #holding up the queue at the grocery store because he asked the cashier about Tim and people push their trolleys over to join in #they live in a mansion on the hill #Brodie is worried that Tim's moved on and is so popular now that he's forgotten his old broommate #Brodie nervously knocks on Tim's door and Luka answers like 'daddy there's a strange man here' #'Luka finish your caviar I'll get it' Tim says as he comes into the foyer and he sees who's at the door #'it's me' Brodie says hope spreading through his limbs that Tim hasn't forgotten him #'Brodie' Tim says amazed 'come in' #shows Brodie around the mansion where there's a bedroom for each child plus a room for every cat #dea steps from the kitchen 'hey i was just in the middle of a Belgian feast Brodie stay for dinner' #'oh i really should get going---' Brodie starts and dea looks at her boyfriend 'have you shown him the basement yet?' #Tim blushes shyly and shakes his head #'oh what's in the basement?' Brodie asks intrigued 'is that the wine collection?' #dea pushes Tim toward the basement stairs and he cautiously descends into the basement Brodie following #Tim waits until Brodie is standing next to him in the darkened basement then flicks on the light #The room illuminates and reveals framed Grundy portraits on the walls and every newspaper clipping ever written about Brodie Grundy and #everything shining and polished and gleaming and 'i come down here to polish it all every day' tim boasts #'what's that?' Brodie points to an old dusty couch in the middle of the room #'sometimes i come down here and sit there and just think' Tim says 'it's our old couch from our broommate days' #'when we'd sit together and discuss the world's problems' Brodie reminisced wistfully #'it's beautiful' Brodie said walking throughout the room and gazing at all his paraphernalia with his name on it #'I even had a Brodie Grundy inspired chess set made' Tim said gesturing to the porcelain pieces on the coffee table #'awww you changed the chess pieces to incorporate my ideas for them!' Brodie cried picking up the two kings

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #hmmmm my tongue is so cool right now I like it #I like seeing the layers of tissue. the white fatty layer past the red skin and blood layer. #first time I saw that was when I cut the head off a snapping turtle cause my friends caught it but were too squeamish to kill it #(the legal kind to kill. not a protected one). idk if killing an animal is gonna make you think I'm problematic but oh well. #messed up and didn't cut the throat first so blood sprayed fuckin everywhere when I cut the head off. #butchered the body to keep the shell and we saved the meat cause they talked about making turtle soup but idk if they actually did #their six year old daughter was the only one brave enough to hold the heart (it was still spasming like it was beating) #honestly I feel like I get bored at all my jobs but maybe cutting up meat would be something I could do regularly and not get bored #idk. maybe one of these days I'll try and get into it somehow. I've got other things to do first though so I'll keep cashiering #anyway. meat is cool and I like cutting into it and I like forming my body in the way I like #and I really really really want bottom surgery because I want the bits I hate cut off and gone forever #I think nullo would be better than what I've got right now but the absence of dysphoria isn't euphoria #cutting out sadness without replacing it with happiness just creates a void. #and nullo wouldn't be gender affirming at all. #don't get freaked out about my random talking about blood. this is a Hannibal appreciation space #did it delete my tags where I said that I cut my tongue frenulum or was that on another tag talk. idk