#there’s this guy at my church who

[wispedvellichor]

the arc of fourteen reacting to spice up your life like NPH personally kicked his dog to fifteen telling the Baby Eating Goblins to *Hit it Janice* so he could be a part of the DW Camp Evil Musical (TM) is particularly so endearing to me

#my guy has reached the acceptance phase of grief #if theres the doctor theres gonna be gay evil dancers #and he wants to be a gay (not so)evil dancer #and i love him for that #the church on ruby road #doctor who #whovian #fifteenth doctor #ruby sunday #rtd #fourteenth doctor

[mattastr0phic]

REPRESSED HOMOSEXUALS EXPOSURE THERAPY

#sarge WILL still laugh at them and be concerned for simmons's taste. yes he is still bisexual in MY rvb #to be clear he just thinks he's being Better Gay than everyone else #“whats more honorably homosexual than fighting alongside and dying in your fellow man's arms” -sarge probably #kudos if you read the tags and got my bisexual sarge thoughts #it's me. your local guy who spedrun rvb and its fandom #grimmons #dick simmons #richard simmons #dexter grif #simmons rvb #sarge rvb #grif rvb #red vs blue #rvb #rvb doodles #kaikaina grif #lavernius tucker #leonard church #michael j caboose #franklin delano donut #doc rvb #agent carolina #i told myself i wouldnt tag everyone and then i tagged everyone #unhealthy habits do not replicate

[blueskittlesart]

being in art school and having basically 0 knowledge about christianity whatsoever is so funny at this point i think you could tell me literally anything was an allegory for jesus and i'd just believe you

#my ass has been to church like twice in my entire life so my peers are like 'this is a biblical allegory' and im like yeah ok sure #makes art history class very annoying tho because everyone just assumes you can look at a stained glass window and know who all the guys ar #also sometimes people will be like this image depicts the story of david or peter or some random other biblical name #and then just. not elaborate. because apparently we all know the stories of every biblical guy who ever existed. #who is peter and why is he in the church window. please #and i dont even have an EXCUSE bc like both ethnically and like in basic practice i am christian. i celebrate christmas or whatever #my parents both just fucking hated church so much as children they were like nah were not doing that #and now i have a deficiency in Identifying White Men In Paintings apparently. #sigh. sorry just got a 5 out of 13 on an art history quiz feeling GREAT

[finalgirlsamwinchester]

guy who so desperately tries to find god. who wants to have faith in a higher authority to guide him out of the hole he's in. from the weight of guilt from simply existing, as the person he is. but every time he thinks he's answered his higher calling it turns out he's made the Morally Incorrect choice and his path to goodness and holiness was the road to the devil all along

#now trusting god will give you a way out? there's your real crime!!! #guy betrayed by the protestant promise of a direct connection with god. but is also somehow. joan of arc. #see he never achieves actual martyrdom tho bc he's not allowed to stay dead lmaooo #sam somehow the most unintentionally catholic AND protestant character of all time #dean the atheist who sees religious predestination as the curse it is from the get go. framed as the narrative's Real Moral Authority #but also in the process reifying patriarchal familial power n authority. very very important Value of the Church #i don't think it's that deep. the show's attempt at critiquing christianity. but the way it reinforces christian cultural values??? #'religious predestination and absolute faith in a higher authority...bad' #nice nice ok tell me more? #“so you should put your faith in family. in your patriarch (big brother)” #????????? #the thematic incoherence of it all. it's like the world's stupidest puzzle box to me. i can't leave it alone. #sam = maybe i can find god thru following my destined path. wait oh shit. #cas = maybe i can find god thru rebellion and seeking my own destiny. wait oh shit. #dean = god is fucking dead and me i also feel not so good #the “guy who so desperately wants to find god parallel” <- me coming out as a secret sastiel fan #both of them...finding god in de-[sniper on the roof kills me in one shot] #spn bible studies #j.txt

[high-voltage-rat]

Actually I'm still thinking about it. Another interesting way in which RvB is anti-war is the way that the Director fills the role of a villain and antagonist (especially in the Recollections trilogy, where he's a faceless villain we never see but is responsible for everything that happens).

In his memos to the Chairman, the Director emphasizes his sense of duty and obligation to the military- he becomes irate for the first time when he feels that it's being implied that he was derelict in his duty... or that the work he did out of that duty is being criticized for being against the military's interests. He also talks about Allison's death in a way I find... interesting.

"You see; I never had the chance to serve in battle. Nor did fate provide me the opportunity to sacrifice myself for humanity as it did for so many others in the Great War. Someone extremely dear to me was lost very early in my life. My mind has always plagued me with the question: If the choice had been placed in my hands, could I have saved her? [...] But, given the events of these past few weeks, I feel confident that had I been given the chance, I would have made those sacrifices myself... Had I only the chance."

The idea of sacrifice is central to the way he talks about his wife's loss, to the way he talks about the war in general. He talks of sacrifice with a sense of veneration- that it's something he aspires to do, that he longs for. There's a few ways we can interpret "I would have made those sacrifices myself"...

-That in Allison's place, he thinks he would have laid down his life too.

-That if given the chance, he would have given his life to save hers.

But most interestingly...

-That he would have sacrificed Allison's life for the continued survival of humanity, if that was what duty called for.

...And personally, I think all 3 are true.

In most war media, the Director's perspective on sacrifice is very common. Sacrifice is glorious and heroic- to die in battle is an honour- and it's the only way to ensure the group you serve survives. This is a tool of propaganda- nobody wants to go to war just for the sake of it, you have to give them a reason that the risk of dying or being permanently disabled isn't just acceptable, but desirable. Beyond that, most people don't want to do things they think are immoral- you have to convince them it's important, a necessary lesser evil. You teach them to sacrifice their morals, too.

The way they train soldiers to follow orders and to kill, is to convince them that they, and the people around them, and the people they care about, will all die if they don't. It's drilled into your head from day one. It's the way they ensure their commanding officers won't shy away from sending their men off to die. The message is constant- sacrifice is your duty, and duty ensures your people's survival.

In the Director's eyes, the damage Project Freelancer caused was his sacrifice. He never got the opportunity to sacrifice himself during the war- so he sacrificed others, as military brass do. The Freelancers- including his daughter. The countless sim troopers. Any people he considered "collateral damage" on missions. And when the opportunity to do so presented itself, he sacrificed a copy of himself- Alpha- and he sacrificed a copy of Allison- Tex.

The very thing that derailed his life- the loss of his wife- he made it happen again. He put her copy in dangerous situations, let her exist in the position of constant repeated failure, created the circumstances that would eventually lead to her death. He put their daughter in deadly situations that nearly killed her repeatedly, provided her with impossible expectations leading to self-destructive behaviours in the name of duty, implanted her with two AI knowing they could cause her permanent harm. He was confident he "would have made those sacrifices himself" because he did.

The Director is the embodiment of the military war machine. As an antagonist, he is a warning against buying into the glorification of sacrifice. He's a condemnation of the idea that one should be willing to do anything to win a war- that duty to the military is the thing that ensures survival... All the messages that are pushed to ensure recruitment and obedience of soldiers.

He's a reminder that swallowing the propaganda leads to you doing terrible things... and in the end, you're a broken man left mourning the losses that you suffered even as you repeated them, convinced that it was all necessary.

#late nights with ali #ali watches rvb #not video games #rvb #red vs blue #leonard church #the director #director rvb #idk why I'm so fixated on thinking about the anti-war interpretation of rvb right now but I'm apparently going ham #it's just so fucking. wild to me. listening to the director's messages in S6 always has me thinking 'oh man this guy ate the propaganda up' #the OPPORTUNITY to sacrifice yourself??? homedog you sound like the kid in high school who brags he's joining the army as soon as he's 18 #to be clear: a lot of my thoughts on this stem from the fact that I come from a military family. I spend a lot of time with people who... #...bought in to the military propaganda and indoctrination. I see an amplified version of their perspectives reflected in the director. #to the military man sacrifice is the highest calling. sacrifice of your life. sacrifice of your morals. sacrifice of your wellbeing. #the things the director did were all in line with that fucked-up form of sacrifice. #and that they're portrayed for the evil they are is an important protest against the war machine's messaging.

[carbonateddrinks]

“And I mean, hell. If you’re have to live the rest of your life in a memory… ya might as well make it a good one.”

#RvB #Red vs Blue #red vs blue the recollection #RvB the recollection #rvb church #guess who finished season 3 #no spoilers for project freelancer btw I’m gonna bawl my eyes out and then watch it #I am so glad im going in this blind #like yeah. some of it didn’t age well but dear GOD this was so good #AND THE FIGHT SCENES???? TEXAS KICKING ASS??? #she was making sure griff was the last of his legacy dear god #AND THE GLACIER BOMB TRAP SCENE MADE ME LOOSE MY SHIT she is my favorite #it’s moments like this that make me proud to be a Texan #god. and. just everything. SARGE’S DAMN SPEEECH i was so convinced he was going to die and I was gonna lose it. #the griff death fake out gave me a heart attack. AND SIMMON’S REACTION TOO LIKE BRO WAS SAD #AND. GOD. HE (church) REALLY DOES CARE. HE’S WILLING TO SPEND ETERNITY WITH THESE GUYS WHILE WAITING FOR TEX. ur honor im. emotional

[theloveinc]

My roommate is fighting with her boyfriend but I just keep thinking about having the police called at your wedding because you and the groom are having some, major break-up worthy fight and are throwing cake and champagne glasses at each other... but the closest officer is technically a pro-hero (Kirishima? Bakugo? Both?) who shows up expecting a criminal rather than a would-be bride sobbing in their arms

#'i just wanted to be happy' mascara all smeared cake all over your hair and dress #and suddenly they arent a hero just a guy wiping your face clean in the church's bathroom #and it feels a little too holy to be real #esp when the groom comes a knocking and has to deal with a protective pro hero who just wants you to stop crying #and tbh? thinks you were right for starting a fight #anyway my poor roommate but her boyfriend is a loser #shii posts #gen

[143htg]

I think that Red Thread!Sunny wouldn't even bat an eye at randomly seeing Aubrey and Basil making out behind the church when Aubrey should be delivering pastries in the city, maybe the client's order tidy and nicely put on the grass, forgotten for a minute.

Not batting an eye at least physically, but internally probably scoffing and cursing Basil for distracting Aubrey from her job, pastries will not forever be warm after all.

Again seeing the tall figure of Aubrey getting more meek and shy that usual because of Basil, who is significantly tinier that her, is amusing. So Sunny doesn't really say anything, prefering to not disclose to Aubrey that maybe their little lovebird spot is a bit too close to the path he takes everyday.

Maybe he tells Mari out of amusement.

A bit annoyed, too.

Aubrey's new and probably first boyfriend. And Mari is happy for her, her beloved friend finally finding someone that she's content with. Sunny's happy too. Already marveling over meeting the boy when Aubrey is ready enough to tell about her little love.

Sunny does not tell who the love is.

Mari pouts when he doesn't tell.

#omori of red thread au #Aubrey absolutely kabedon s Basil and the gets embarrassed because Basil gives her not reaction #just smiles #then either tries to get on tippy toes or straight up pulls her face down to kiss her #He's and old man he has no time to lose on kabedoning (guy who is 22) #to be fair they're both in their early 20 but it's silly calling them old even if they aren't at all #I'm a teen still let me bully people in their 20s for the year it remains for me (all very affectionate though #for me you're old when you hit 50 otherwise you're pretty young #aging is a privilege truly #but yea Sunny kinda finds Basil annoying #I too would find the local pretty church boy annoying if he looked at me without blinking for five minutes straight unprovoked #when I'm just minding my business then he proceeded to wife one of my closest friends up

[gay-little-axolotl]

lord forgive me for I have uh- I have- I might have- uhhhh

#how have I not been kicked out of church yet #can you tell I’ve been reading the scriptures very carefully #fully convinced I created the 8th deadly sin actually #starkid #npmd #tgwdlm #black friday #starship #firebringer #tcb #saf #hatchetfield #team starkid #nerdy prudes must die #the guy who didn't like musicals #nmt #nmt2 #nightmare time #my art hehe

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

there are too many thoughts inside of me at all times.

#hello friends hope you all are doing well. my words have been abandoning me lately. #I talk a lot and feel like I say nothing. it is truly frustrating. #meanwhile I am doing a bible word study and realizing that all the things I have realized in the past might be valid #(namely the way that a lot of people in my church tradition try to reduce biblical concepts of 'peace' to a sort of inward emotional state #and that's not actually a great way to interpret the biblical concept of shalom. like at all. and massively cheats a lot of communities out #of the actual practical real-life extension of the kingdom and how it's supposed to function) #also I had a minor crisis a few days ago when I looked at a boy who I know only vaguely and thought 'oh. shoot. he's cute.' #I am not used to having these sorts of thoughts or at least not to acknowledging them to myself #not sure why I'm telling tumblr this but I have no one else to tell it to and I feel like I should get it out of my system lol :') #ok logging off again gotta eat some noodles and finish this assignment with is already late #I will see you guys at a later date #(probably not too much later tho bc it is spring break and I am unfortunately stuck at college and there are very few other people here :') #gurt says stuff

[nostalgia-tblr]

I watched Avengers: Age of Ultron (apart from I skipped some overly long action sequences) and I am not sure so can someone tell me whether or not Tony Stark was the baddy in that film? Because about halfway through I was sure he was but then it was maybe just an evil robot after all and I am confused because either this film was surprisingly subversive or it was about robots hitting each other.

#I CANT STAND THE CONFUSION IN MY MIND #also i get why people wrote wanda/sylvie. they should go on a wholesome chick-flick revenge-quest together. and also they should kiss. #also i am now only *half* joking about thor being in love with mjolnir #it kept doing Christianity Bits which was quite awks. #not sure why it used the bit about building the church on a rock for some metal i mean wasn't jesus making a pun there? about peter? #i think Vision might be Jesus? or else he's Dr Manhattan who's done a first year philosophy course. could go either way on that tbh. #BUT TONY WAS THE BADDY RIGHT? WAS HE? WAS TONY THE BADDY OR NOT???? #with the homocidal glitches in what he thinks is his winning personality? #and all the weapons he's made and is in fact still making but now he only sells them to The Good Guys? #except look how easily they fall out with each other and also don't a lot of innocent bystanders die in their overly long action scenes? #also i need to write fic about whether mjolnir does in fact obey some unknown code that can be cracked if you set your mind to it #she does like Robot Jesus so apparently we can rely on her to make the major decisions from now on #the ending's a bit ominous - apparently someone's collecting those TVA paperweights to do... something? Oh no! :O #yeah i watched the MCU in the wrong order shut up this was inevitable and Marvisney should just embrace that at this point #(i know 'Marvisney' will never catch on but that will not stop me using it) #the loki series ending is but the latest installment of “unlimited power with no oversight is fine as long as the Good people have it” #UNLESS TONY WAS ACTUALLY THE BADDY. WHICH AS I MENTIONED I AM NOT AT ALL CLEAR ON. #maybe what i mean is was tony stark the baddy *on purpose*? #i only picked this one to watch next because tumblr gifsets told me thor wears a nice coat in it #which he does! but only for a small fraction of the film :( #journey into the mcu #the avengers (the marvel ones not the other ones)

[ectonurites]

having another one of those nights where i feel the need to deep dive research into the well-known but now-defunct punk rock club in boston that my mom's great-uncle/godfather was the doorman for in the 70's-80's

#last few times i did this it was mostly about tracking down the t-shirt with mitch (my family member)'s face on it but tht has been found #(both in digital version on the website of the guy who originally designed it and also the fact that my mom literally has one which #he specially signed to her and everything it's so cool its SO cool) #so this time im looking more into the music played there. there's a whole live album! several recordings of shows ppl have uploaded! #and theres a whole ass DOCUMENTARY on the place someone made thats on youtube. so im having a fun time #grandpa max is god? i go to church now

[fischiee]

honestly though who was epsilon before meeting caboose??

like he obviously wasn’t church - eg. telling carolina when they first met that he was church, NOT epsilon (which makes me emo that everyone calls him that in later seasons) and wash not recognizing him/his voice in alpha when they meet

so like.. was he just a recreation of the director? was he an entirely different person??

#thinking very much about him insisting that he’s church and not epsilon in s9 and that just getting.. forgotten #my poor guy is just made up of memories an the only person who knows who he truly was is wash ;_; #rvb #red vs blue #leonard church #rvb epsilon #rvb church

[drainbangle]

healer swap NPC doodles

#can you tell who my favorite NPC in healer swap is. it's malaya i love her energy #roi mistral #crick wellsley #malaya (octopath) #sketch #ot2 au: healer swap #octopath 2 spoilers #btw crick isn't swapped into malaya's role bc this isn't a 1:1 swap. roi is in malaya's role #crick is swapped in for a sai route NPC #he really is just some guy here since temenos & roi's relationship is the main focus #malaya also takes more of a 'Press X to Doubt' attitude towards the church where cas is initially p devout if unhappy. it's dire

[moregraceful]

one time my mom told me that our young neighbors loved our persimmons so much that they decided to plant some trees of their own. so they planted four persimmon trees ☠️

#OH YOU SWEET SUMMER CHILDREN LMAO #we have two trees planted in 80s. they put out conservatively at least 300 persimmons each. maybe more #FOUR PERSIMMON TREES #fuck around and find out of ALL time #<- says the guy who is inheriting a house with 14 different fruit trees on the property #i feel real fear when i think about my future sometimes #not bc i am afraid of growing old. but bc i am afraid of the amount of gardening i will be doing #but like what am i gonna do - cut down the persimmon trees? those trees are my family. all the fruit trees are my family #anyway if any of you are like should i plant 1-4 persimmon trees? NO just COME TO MY HOUSE i will GIVE YOU THEM FOR FREE #fresno oilers.txt #feelin real chatty tonight but i was just at church for 5 hours and am trying to recover from the yearning #so i can get started editing my fth fic #i got stuck in traffic while going to church tho and untangled a motif that was driving me crazy so i'm feeling MUCH better abt it #and we stay silly above it all

[the-rockinahard-place]

the Sunday school lesson today was how to maintain integration.

half the class had to come up with ways to break integrity

the other half had to find ways to keep it.

I was with the break integrity group, this group consisted of me and 3 other guys who were uneducated conservatives. can see where this is going yet?

I was the one assigned to write down the different ways to break integrity and I start with the obvious stuff like peer pressure, excuses, hazing, embarrassment, stuff like that. The guy next to me then leans over and says I should write down transgender people because they have no honesty or authenticity to themselves. This comment completely blind sided me ofc. I quickly responded with

“no, they are more authentic to themselves then you will ever be, educate yourself before speaking up.”

which obviously shut him up real quick. I just can’t believe the audacity of this man, just the sheer stupidity he has. He said this to me, to ME, a closeted trans guy with short hair, dress shoes, dress pants, a button up, and a sweater on. What reaction was he expecting????

#this is the guy who plans to go on a mission everybody :| #He really thinks he gonna be my friend while being this ignorant #can the church address this stuff better soon #because I’m tired of hearing this crap #transgender #queerstake #transmasc #trans mormon #mormon #lgbt mormon #closeted #trans teen #tumblrstake