#they all need therapy but godDAMN

[seventh-district]

OCD will literally remove your brain's ability to register when a task is Complete and then create 10,000 incredibly ridiculous and extremely specific rules for you to follow in every single aspect of your life (to keep you safe, of course, it tells you.) and then tells you that if you don’t do them Correctly and Completely every single time it tells you to (it tells you countless times per day) then the Entire Fucking World Will End and then it’ll do this fucked up thing where it makes you believe that nonsense.

and then people that don’t have it will make silly little jokes about being soooooo OCD and make t-shirts with fun little acronyms on them like Obsessive Coffee Disorder and tell you how much they like it when things are organized and clean, too!!

and then you’re supposed to just. laugh. like you haven’t been robbed of your entire being and potential and been taken over by a mind and life altering disability

#PSA: don’t fucking tell me to Seek Therapy or Try Medication. i am Aware. i have Tried. it isn’t that fucking simple #and this is my blog. i’ll complain about my illnesses all i want to. if you don’t like it i strongly encourage you to unfollow me #ocd #actually ocd #cw ocd #cw mental illness #mental health stuff #Seven.txt #Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is actually SO goddamn insidious. and only ppl that have lived with it will understand that #it’s a terrible terrible thing. to have something ruin your entire life under the guise of keeping you safe #it’s like being abused by your own mind and i don’t say that lightly #okay. stopped crying long enough to get this post out of my brain and onto my blog #gonna put Walking Disaster on loop and return to my Mental Illness Floor Time now #if no one hears from me for a little while it’s not personal i just. need to not be a Person right now. i’m so tired

[kavehater]

AAAH I have a mutual who’s 18 and he sorta kinda is flirting with this one guy who is a minor as a joke of course ( to which a concerned anon said that it’s weird ) but I can’t help but flashback to er*s

#granted the er*s situation was thoroughly complex and the reason she did those things was her copism with not being able to pull ( LLLLLLL ) #and ik that guy doesn’t mean any harm etc etc he’s not messed up like some ppl #BUT I DUNNO STILL #sobbing #they’re pretty sweet so #hes* #OH AND HES IRAQI TOO I LEGIT COULDNT BELIEVE THAT #dora daily #lowkey kinda sorta sad that a whole anon was more concerned than ppl i knew and who knew my age #and freely saw it happen so readily #and everyone else on that blog #genuinely and utterly disappointed #it’s always protect minors until the minors need protecting goddamn #this is especially directed at rhy yeah I’m not censoring that #🤷‍♀️ #too busy simping over minor characters who don’t have a time skip in canon and aging them up then complaining about it when ppl call out #the brain deadery of that behaviour #girl pls #you did not care about minors from the beginning literally bye #e[redacted] literally ruined my brain chemistry to say the least I will never go into how what she did absolutely muddled my brain never #told anyone and I don’t think I can ever tell someone ever #not to mention practically hyperventilating being unable to breath literally going into madness and ppl think that I’m overreacting and #telling me to shut up about it and blaming me for the situation as if I wanted any of this #lmaolmaolmao #all that and I was expected to do uni girl byeeee I need a good century to recover at least ☠️ #the only thing I DID want is friends but clearly that was a hard ask when ppl can get friends just by existing on this god forsaken app #atp I don’t even know what to say literally just wth #yall say mdni with your dumbass banners and decorate it like something special when yall are the ones to keep from minors you disgusting #wastes of clean oxygen 😭 mdni my foot gross ass adults should’ve never trusted them #the way I’d give them therapy to their complex traumas ☠️ imagine relying on a minor for therapy

[rubra-wav]

Me: *several WIP requests already in the making*

My brain: *craving Vox fluff like a desperate, starving feral creature*

The way I want him is fucking abnormal. I wanna sink my teeth into that man and THRASH

Not literally

But RAH RAHD RAHSHA GRR AHSB RAHWHSJ

#vox #hazbin hotel vox #i TRULY #am a ride he would not fucking survive #if this man was real he would need therapy over me #i want him so FUCKING BADLY IN EVERY GODDAMN WAY #i cant believe im this down horrendous over a man wirh a literal tv for a head bruh #i wanna wine and dine him #act like his sweet natured little malewife #make him feel all important and loved (as he should be) #then im gonna screw him so relentlessly after dinner and drinks he cannot walk straight #im talking the lights will be flashing fucking horror movie poltergeist style #then im gonna give him the best aftercare hes ever fucking had right after #why am i like this 💀

[frecklystars]

god im so excited for the Barbie movie today. I might be a bit tense while seeing my triggers on screen but honestly I’ve been doing so so so well handling my ptsd the last few weeks and I'm very proud of myself!!!!!

there’s a few triggers I’ve been actively working on reclaiming and I KNOW I’m going to be okay watching the movie bc I am not letting anybody take this from me. I know I’m gonna wanna see it more than once. I even bought myself a cute pink skirt for it ;w;

#I’m gonna wear pink glitter in my hair too for opening night #woof #like i know im gonna be rly tense but i have been doing SO much better than i was just a month ago #if anything ill just be incredibly tense at first. but i genuinely think ill relax more as the movie progresses #bc ive been using grounding techniques for months and ive been working so goddamn hard to reclaim pink #WHICH IS SUCH HUGE PROGRESS FOR ME to think back to january when i couldnt look at pink at ALL #and i think seeing pink literally every single second for 2 hours straight in the barbie movie #is gonna also help my brain be like 'oh hey everything is fine' help it to become desensitized #bc ive been doing exposure therapy and im doing so much better than i was even just one month ago!!!!!!! #barbie is my girlfriend. and ken is my boyfriend. and i have two hands they can hold #god!!! you know how many barbies im gonna kiss!!!!! SO MANY #this is MY movie i have been so fucking excited to see!! its my number one favorite thing ive been looking forward to!!!! #i have wanted to see this! so! fucking! badly! and fuck anybody who tried to ruin that for me #i dont want ptsd to control my life #i feel like im riding a bull and gripping it by the horns while its trying to kick me off while im yelling Not Today Bitch #thats what trying to reclaim triggers feels like #but i can fucking feel it working i can feel myself getting better with some of these triggers i cant believe it #and i think just a year from now most of these triggers wont be severe anymore #which is my goal. i dont even need them to be cured completely i just want to function normally #cannot tell u how fucking unreal it is to have so many triggers that are like. normal everyday stuff #colors. clothes. phrases. transformers. im taking ALL of that shit back #STARTING WITH PINK ONE OF MY FAVORITE GODDAMN COLORS 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 #THE EMOJI LOOKS RED ON DESKTOP BUT THAT IS OKAY.

[raspberryjellybrains]

remember when delirium was worried about destruction being gone and it was rooted in her loneliness and genuine love for her siblings and the other endless wanted to ignore her sudden upset over this because she's delirium and she gets this way sometimes, don't worry about it, she'll forget soon enough so it really doesn't matter at all. I should get to bludgeon all of them with a bat for that.

#no i am not sparing dream he was nodding along with them. eat wood you little cunts. #the value and intensity of emotions are never qualified by their duration. if someone feels something at a point especially over a #long standing subject then it is most likely that this is not new nor temporary sentiment but simply a flareup of existing emotions that #have become too large and intense to reasonably handle for any variety of reasons. just because shes only saying it now doesnt mean its not #always there but just that she now feels it umanageable enough to seek outside help which SHOULD be provided by an emotional safety net #COUGH COUGH HER FUCKING SIBLINGS. #their dismissal only exacerbated the problem and her inability to clearly articulate her distress only confirmed in their minds the wisdom #of the very action thats causing the fucking problem. which isnt her fault but theirs for assuming that because she wasnt performing what #they needed to see that it did not deserve to be seen at all. #the fact that this is the pervasive attitude of the endless explains so goddamned much about dream and desire while making their #mutual toxicity and self loathing all the more insipid and potent. #it lays bare a massive ill-functioning mechanic of their family unit and makes reference to real world issues in families with disabilities #so long story short i should get to beat their faces in with my therapy bat. called such because it is therapeutic. to me. #delirium of the endless #the endless #the sandman

[borderlineby-madonna]

tbh I hope you talk about me in therapy and I hope the vid of me singing on my IG story made you melt

#bpd #borderline personality disorder #Jesus fucking Christ I need therapy and goddamn it I will get it #you #literally the one person I want to date is not ready for a relationship #I need to set you on the shelf for a bit and I will but omfg I need to talk about this in therapy and let it all out #like CRY and let it all out #you ever know you’re supposed to date someone? #or at least try and see what happens? #I just wanna hang out with you more #talk and laugh together #like we get along so well and have so much fun together #I would be so good to you and ik yk that #idk at this point #you know where I stand though 🤷‍♀️

[spicyvampire]

Me : okay but how much trauma can one have with his teeth

MTYL :

#my tooth your love #literally post traumatic stress du to his parents car accident #guilt that he caused the accident #fear of abandon cuz his parents died #thinking people around him will only get hurt so he doesn't get close to anybody #thinking he doesn't deserve love for that reason #and the insomnia and being afraid of the dentist #like girl u need so much therapy #and it's all related to ur goddamn teeth

[actualbuckybames]

thinking about how my dad used to tell me, when i was stressed to the point of crying about assignments, that in a few years I wouldn't even remember what the assignments were about. he was right.

I just remember crying so hard I couldn't breathe. Sleepless nights kept awake by the beating of my own heart. Wanting to throw myself off the bridge on my walk home just to get out from under the pressure.

so yeah. i don't remember them. but that wasn't at all what i needed to hear.

#in hindsight perhaps i needed therapy #my dad tried his best but goddamn was it not enough #that old 'thank you for trying to comfort me but fuck you for the way you did it' #so many years down the line it's still got me fucked up #the look on his face when i told him last year that i was deeply suicidal throughout high school haunts me #he had no idea. none at all. #i think i broke his heart #abb vents

[caffeinatedopossum]

I hate that the only compulsions I have aren't stereotypical ocd compulsions, not because I think it wouldn't also be torture to need to clean or check my locks constantly, but because I feel like I don't actually have ocd if my compulsions are just things like skin picking, pacing, or looking things up repeatedly

#in desperate need of validation unfortunately #not because i want to have ocd but because im afraid i do regardless #its getting a bit unbearable #kinda wanna kill myself about it #istg if i have to go through exposure therapy for this i will #i cannot handle that #i just wanna have a normal thought pattern for once in my goddamn life #i want to not hate myself and not feel like a terrible person all the time #i want to be able to fall asleep without being convinced i could be dying

[nokingsonlyfooles]

Kinda legit thought I was just fucked up for no reason and my parents lost patience having to put up with it, ya know?

#mental health #therapy #emotional support frog #not sure who needs to see this but there ya go #i have a very flat affect when i am overwhelmed this is not hyperbole #BECAUSE MY CHILDHOOD WAS BARBERIC AND DEHUMANIZING!! #when shifting your paradigm remember to pop the clutch #wow it's a goddamn miracle i function at all so i'm doin real great actually!

[indagonightmare]

If you haven't ever been locked in a trunk and tied to a basketball pole don't even talk to me

#a fun childhood game #for some goddamn reason #my siblings and i all need so so much therapy

[hecksupremechips]

Rebecca Gales and her “I’m the most mature person in this friend group I know what’s best for everyone here why don’t they listen to me” attitude that she has despite being the most fucking immature person in the friend group 💙

#the letter #the letter vn #rebecca gales #god i love it just like #she thinks she knows so much better than her friends #particularly isabella like she thinks belle is so immature and unwilling to do better for herself #but then its really rebecca the one acting like a child by being super petty and jealous of everyone #and getting in pointless fights because she makes assumptions about everyone #and she never takes action to get things she wants she just sits and waits while judging others for doing the same #shes very much The Problem like 95% of the time but refuses to acknowledge it #she overhears ashton talking alone to isabella when shes in a coma tearfully confessing his love for her while pleading for her to wake up #and all she can think of is how unfair it is that ashton is in love with belle and not her #she will just openly act like a child calling luke a whiny baby man right to his goddaughters face and act like shes the better person #it just slaps her in the face when shes told how greedy and selfish and obsessive she is #she loves her friends so much but is so fucked up she also resents all of them and blames them for it #she needs so much goddamn therapy #this is not me dragging her btw its literally the exact opposite i fucking love how messed up she is 💙💙💙 #I CAN FIX HER I CAN MAKE HER WORSE #i could write so much about her and how mentally ill she is

[archiephd]

i really don't think any of you have ever actually interacted with a fully grown adult human person who genuinely believes satanic ritual abuse happened to them when they were a child.

#on one hand i think the full scale of the satanic panic does need to be talked about more yeah #on the other it all seems very figurative when i see other people bring it up #when like. there are real people out there who have been deeply traumatized by something #even if it wasn't. fucking satanic rituals #and decades have passed that they've spent trying to heal this shit without questioning the original premise of abuse #and like. what the fuck would the point be in trying to convince them otherwise at that point #like. if it's been literally 3 decades of therapy trying to heal this shit #and so much progress has been made #what is the point. on their behalf. in picking apart the premise. would it just retraumatize them? i don't fucking know! #but at the same time it feels negligent to leave it as is when things like qanon are still fucking happening #so. like. goddamn #is there a right way to even go about it? it seems like either way damage is done and it. sucks severely #tumblr is not the place to be talking about this but so far i haven't found Any place where this can be talked about so #yikes #j.txt

[note-a-bear]

I had fun last night but it is WILD learning how fucking tense I am with most people, lol

Put me in a club and I am the makeout boy no problem. Hanging out, knowing the plan is for us to all touch bits? "911, come get me" (not really, but even after we got going I was like 'oh shit, time for me?' I am really learning that I definitely have a stunted sense of the space I can take up with people)

#the dog who caught the car #theyre all very cute #and we're going to trt to play again before the end of the month #but uhhhh goddamn I might need therapy #also....i had a foursome? #and yeah i still love giving head

[mejomonster]

Oh no guys I read about adhd symptoms to see if I had it and now I've made myself sad :c dang these things be affecting my life :c

#rant #i was like: well i probably have ahdh but i have a fuckton of coping mechanisms so doctors probably wont help me #then i reflected on my coping mechanisms :c #guys i spend 8 hours prepping for a doctors appt. im not kidding. i hqve to schedule reminders on my outlook calendar #that i must look at constantly for work (so i dont forget). then sit for a couple hours to focus and dontemplate on the goal #of the appt. then write everything i need to tell them. then think some more. then write things i forgot in another few days #then in anothef few days. then after several hours and a few weeks i have a LIST OF STUFF TO TELL DOCTOR and then i always put calendar #appts EARLY on them by 1 hour so i freak out when i hear alarm and get ready then have time to get there extra. #and i do this for. taxes. oil changes. license renewal. any appointment of any kind. any work situation that isnt super routine and quick #all this shit takes me hours to WEEKS of prep. taxes take me 2 weeks of ONLY TAX WORK so like 20-30 hours whenever im nog working to slowly #prep then calm down then concentrate then prep. but i also do this for shopping for so much basic shit #i have calendar reminders to pay bills. i have a whiteboard on fridge to remind me of chores #i CANNOT remember any convo or task without gratuitious written reminders and notes so i write EVERYRHING down. college was hell #i threw out my planners from college so many bad memories and stress. byt like. goddamn some peiple... #onlt take 1-3 hours to prep for a #doctor???? or even less?!!!! some people GENUINELY only need 8 hours/a #sunday to do taxes???!!!! some people can plan appointmenrs without 1 hour buffer early time on their alarms? hell without NEEDING alarms #to remember the appt exists??!!!! i cant even follow a conversation thats 5 minutes without asking what they said. my mind blanks and i #space out. like... :c quite sad how much time is wasted by all this prep to cope as well as others. its all that CBT therapy strategies i #learned combined with just. so many fuxking notes. #i also do SO much to have normal convos. i practiced hard to focus ish and respond better and write things and have #the correct expressions and even now i know my talking speed upsets some ppl. which stresses me out :/

[seethinglikeme]

fuck this place i hope i can leave tomorrow

#in inpatient care rn for this therapy program. thing is i don’t NEED to be an inpatient to do it #it’s just bc of my problems that we all figured it’d be easier this way but honestly chief i’m not feeling it #sobbed like three times earlier so hard i thought i’d throw up #been filled with anxiety and paranoia abt this for the past few days #fucking hate it here and of course my parents are like ‘you should give it a chance you should stay!’ #no fuck this place. i’d rather die #goddamn them and everyone here. just being here makes me wanna kms #me