#they died a month apart

[twilishark]

Loving you both was so easy to do.

Thank you for the affection and time, no matter how brief it was.

#my pets #our little biscuits have both passed #they died just 1 month apart: dont go where i cant follow

[omegalomania]

take this to your grave, 2003 // "...i'll take it to mine: the untold story of designing take this to your grave," the bad habits collection, 2021 // where did the party go, the youngblood chronicles, 2013 // fall out boy vh1 commentary on the youngblood chronicles, 2014 // "how fall out boy beat the odds and rose again," rolling stone, 2013 // "the giant white unicorn in the room," pete wentz, 2014 // alternative press #303, 2013

#fall out boy #youngblood chronicles #*making poasts #id in the alt text #the bg on my second monitor is the tttyg album cover #and ive had screencaps from wdtpg up on my desktop for the past several months for comic purposes #and this has been haunting me. HAUNTING. ME. #cause remember they didnt light this video like that! they shot it without any colorful lighting and added that in post! #that was a Choice! That! They! Made! #its making me gnash my teeth about it full stop #the way tttyg has the same coloration as the wdtpg video + wdtpg being the first song they wrote posth #+ that being the video where joe dies and that's when the group begins falling apart in earnest #+ them celebrating the ten year anniversary of tttyg simultaneously #like can anyone hear me. CAN ANYONE HEAR ME. I AM CLIMBING ON THE WALLS.

[benoitblanc]

making an emily-arc gifset and screaming internally. why the fuck did they do that to scully

#also kind of why the fuck did they do that to mulder. like obviously it is WAY worse for scully but imagine: #your best friend slash love of your life calls you. she's just found out that a. she can't have kids #(which you have known for several months but didn't tell her because she was DYING OF TERMINAL BRAIN CANCER) #and b. when she was kidnapped and medically raped by the government a child resulted from this and she's only now found her #and you fly out to them and the little girl is darling and precocious and terrified and your partner ADORES her #and seeing them together hits you over the head with how badly you want this for her. how badly you want this for YOU #how any children you were ever going to have would have always been hers #and you make the girl laugh and you threaten the men who did this to her. you want everything to help her. and she dies anyway #your pseudo-mother-in-law calls from the hospital. your partner's brother just had a baby #you watch your partner fall apart and you grieve for her loss but also for yours. that was your daughter too. or she would have been #arwen.text #the x files

[tortellinigirl]

i think the adult relationship to the childhood dog is something that is so tender and heart-wrenching and important. you are the last vestige of my childhood. you are the sacred keeper of the memories i hold dearest, but you can barely see or hear me anymore. who do i become once you’re gone? where do i turn to remember myself? you’re the last one sitting next to me at the door of a childhood home that no longer exists, waiting patiently for the return of a family that no longer exists. where can i live when you, too, no longer exist? i can’t let go. please don’t make me let go. i know you’ll leave soon. i wish you didn’t have to. but she’s just a dog. her life is short and i will witness her death and i’ve known this from the beginning. i didn’t think it would come so fast. am i ready? have i become someone yet? have i become unrecognizable to her yet? does she still see the child i was? i’m still the child i was. please, don’t forget the child i was. please don’t take her away from me.

#i wrote this and put it in my drafts a few months ago #and now my childhood dog just died and im a complete fucking mess and i keep coming back to this #she was my baby #i got her as a birthday present from my parents #only a couple months before everything fell apart #i didnt know what was going on at home was abuse or that things were bad or that thwy would change #i just knew that my parents got me a puppy so i must be the luckiest girl in the world #and she was with us through all of it #and she knew our pain too #he was the one who wanted to put her in a shock collar #we all cried and begged him not to #she was just as traumatized by him as the rest of us #she was the last thread tying me to a time before i understood how bad things were #i don’t know who to be now #im sorry this is sooooo dramatic #i just loved my puppy #but she was 14 years old and we knew it was coming #i just hoped we’d have her for christmas

[kaeyachi]

One of my favorite tropes/HCs is that Kaeya and Diluc have more than a year of age gap (around 2-3 years)

Kaeya would have always been smaller than Diluc their entire youth, maybe even up until Diluc's 18th birthday, because Kaeya would just have started his sudden growth spurt at that time.

Diluc must have started knights training young considering he became a captain by 14, so of course Kaeya would soon prefer to start training early as well just to be with Diluc more.

This would, of course, turn everything that occurs later even more tragic.

Kaeya, still in his mid-teens, would lose another father.

Diluc, in rage and disbelief, attacking Kaeya and immediately regretting it once he saw how young the other looked against his raging flames.

Diluc making the hard decision of leaving to learn more about their father's death (because no one else would, and who else better to do it than himself). Kaeya telling him when and how to go.

Diluc selling the manor, their childhood home, and Kaeya having no say in it simply because he is not of age.

Kaeya also having no say in business proceedings other than letting his opinions known

Diluc returning home only to see Kaeya who had become an alcoholic in his time of absence (and him wondering how this happened)

(note: With this age gap, at the start of the game, Kaeya would have just been 19/20 for Diluc's 22/23. Kaeya would be 15/16 when Diluc left.)

#kaeya #kaeya alberich #diluc #diluc ragnvindr #gi kaeya #gi diluc #the popular idea is that he and diluc are only months apart probably due to the fact that they are descibed as twins #i just wanted to spice things up #ive read that one fanfic where kaeya was only 14 when crepus died and tbh its one of my faves #not sure if kaeya changed his surname or if he kept the Alberich name the entire time but how angsty would it be if he was a ragnvindr #when diluc left and when diluc returned he gets slapped in the face with a kaeya alberich desk label #diluc when he sees kaeya as an alcoholic: which one of u brought my younger brother to the tavern enough times that he is alcohol dependent #the knights who kept bringing kaeya along once he was of age: *sweating profusely*

[irregularbillcipher]

i know that not everyone has that giant bill plush because it was really pricey but he literally screams "I'M STILL ALIVE" at you as one of his catchphrases. so aside from every other bit of evidence that bill was out there in some form, it's kind of funny that him literally yelling it at you in an official piece of merch was missed by so many people

#fun story: i was having trouble with his voice box about a year ago and assumed it died on me #and i was really bummed out #cut to about a month later. i was moving apartments and shoving him into a box #ad his voice box either started working again or i pressed it correctly and he screamed 'I'M STILL ALIVE' at me #i genuinely dropped him it actually scared me. so thanks for that bill!

[kaitaiga]

thinking about Damien and Daniel again n crying

their stupid matching stick-and-poke tattoos they got when they were drunk

their silly tiktok account they ran where they posted literally anything and everything prior to army life (+ Dan’s constant wheezing over damo doing stupid shit) hell they probably even had a small YouTube channel they made when they were 12

the times dan had to carry damien back to his apartment when he got blackout drunk and took care of him, scolding him just like his Indonesian mother

dan who somehow knew all of the answers to damo’s questions and problems as well as getting Damo’s life back on track

the time damien helped set up dan’s entire marriage proposal spot to his girlfriend. he was probably more excited than daniel himself. he was even set to be best man but that day never came

and so on

this makes me wanna write about them in a fic again😔

#the deep spiral damien went down after dan died…lord #he was lucky to have Aly and sparrow as good friends then #he locked himself away in his apartment for months like even Lachlan was like holy shit man #was almost discharged #but Aly and Hannah were like NUH UH UR COMIN WITH US #I have many wips of them on my blog #damien whitlock #daniel greenhill

[bewilderedbuck]

on losing a mother

#s.txt #s.poem #mom tag #poetry #okay to reblog #it's officially been over a year since the last time i saw my mom. #her skin was translucent paper thin and she looked so fragile in tht hospital bed but she was supposed to be getting better #and she did. for about a month. #she went back into the hospital 3 days after my birthday. #she stayed there for like 2 weeks and then died about a week after she checked herself out. #the last time she ever texted me was on my birthday. i waited two days to text back. and i never heard back from her. #the next time i saw her she was a pile of grey ashes in a plastic urn. she sits on my shelf now. i haven't gotten her a new urn yet. #i try not to feel guilty. there wasn't much i could do from a thousand miles away #but i still feel the guilt every day itching under my skin and screaming at me in my mind that i should have done better #that i should have been there for her #her phone number has since been given to someone else. i deactivated her facebook account. i cleaned out her apartment & threw away almost #all of her belongings. #i took photo albums. i took some jewelry - including the ring she wore as she was cremated. it survived the fire. the funeral home put it #in the urn with her ashes. i wear it sometimes just to feel like there's still a part of her with me. #but she's gone and i don't believe in an afterlife and neither did she #there's some comfort in knowing she is no longer in pain that she is no longer suffering #but i still sit here and i think of all the things i never got to tell her and the new things i want to tell her every single day #i never got to come out to her. not really. i never got to tell her that i understood what she went thru with my dad because i lived it too #anyways. sorry for going off in the tags. i'm okay i promise. just feeling a lot of feelings right now.

[ferdydurke]

Wow entered an empty bus and it smells just like my grandmas apartment... crazy

#barking #to be clear my grandma died some 8 years ago #cig smoke and faint perfume and old person smell... #remember when i had to clean that apartment like 3 months after she died and literally every surface was covered with dead flies #that was so narrative

[trans-xianxian]

when ursa died a few weeks ago I had to put her in a plastic bag in the freezer for a Day until I was able to bury her at a friend's house and my housemate just sent me this text??? like. not really sure what the wants me to do? keeping a dead animal just in my room could attract flies, which she would also get upset about, and no one is going to be on call to have me bury a pet in their yard day of, especially if I discover at night like I did with ursa. like it would be unreasonable for me to demand one of my friends let me bury my pet in their yard with less than a days notice so why is it reasonable for her to ask that I come up with a magical solution that I can employ day of in every scenario? I can understand not wanting a dead animal in the freezer but also there's this thing called compassion and understanding thats generally appreciated. it's not like she's coming up with alternate solutions either lmao. also, sort of fucked up to ask this two days after she knows I brought one of my rats to the vet. like can you at least wait a week or something before implying that my sick rat w a very treatable illness is actually going to die soon? like is she being as insensitive as I think she is or am I just being unfairly irritated about this

#like is it unreasonable for me to think she should just let me keep my dead pet in the freezer #she was wrapped up securely you couldn't even see her!!!! #I get that dead is uncomfortable for people but idk I just find it kind of rude #if her cat passed I would have no problem w her being in the fridge or freezer #because I understand that 1 it's a difficult time and 2 we live in an apartment with no yard so it takes a second to figure things out #also bringing it up right after taking nova to the vet is. uhm. #like ursa died almost a month ago? she could have brought this up at any time? #this combined w how Weirdly she acts to me sometimes has got me like. lmao maybe I need to find a new place #anyway if you have any thoughts on this I would love to know #ghost posts #text #image

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya wasn’t one to really get angry as a kid, but the very few times when he genuinely did, it was extremely obvious to everyone, in the way he carried himself.

#hc; kaeya #//Dude had/has like #//Mom type anger bfbfb #//Where his bad mood would just absolutely Contaminate the very room he was in and make the atmosphere utterly Suffocating #//He wouldn’t be confrontational about it either; just be absolutely Frigid; enough that it leaks through his politeness #//Which most of the time was at Luc (after antics gone too far or him pressing Kae abt himself/his past too much) #//Or maids who mouthed off and gossiped a bit too much; esp abt Addie. Which was the most frequent cause #//Only TWICE at Crepus; 1) directly when he tried to pry once; 2) from afar the day he died when Kae saw the Delusion on him #//And ONCE at Addie after Luc left & she tried to lessen the blame Kae heaped upon himself; in reasoning Luc could have; too #//He regrets that one most #//He’s not even overt with it; not usually. But still v palpable to those it’s directed at #//It’sa subtle storminess in his eye; a particular tension in his body.ACertain Tone in his voice; like an air of finality w each sentence #//It was far more obvious as a kid than present day; bc later on he got better at hiding it as smth else #//& as a bab; it was far more jarring to see him acting that way after being used to him being so warm and shy #//For Diluc esp; it was prolly a mad stressful affair each time it happened; no matter how infrequent #//One minute yer bro is jokin around & chilling; then he’s suddenly put what feels like leagues between you & kicked you off Dragonspine #//Tended to show up sometimes during their knight days at the others & ESP in his first few months as Cavalry Captain #//Except he was deffo far more willing to resort to confrontations over insubordination & challenges of his capability in latter #//Before he mellowed out again bc of Jean & Varka and really started picking up the silver tongue’n sly approach more #//It was more efficient seeing people fall apart seemingly from their own doings than do it himself & deal with the troublesome aftermaths #//Nowadays; his Vision acting up if anything is is main tell to if he’s angry or not #//Unless the person knows him REALLY well; or he genuinely can’t hold it back #//But that one is v extreme cases

[prima-donna-worm]

ok who was going to tell me they violently murdered david AGAIN unFUCKINGbelievable

#david alleyne #prodigy #x spoilers #look. i know it’s comics. i know everyone dies 2x per business month and then is fine but like. COME ON #how many hellfire galas do we have to do this #marvel being like didn’t you guys notice everything was going a little tooooo well for the x men #so we had to do just a teensy weensy little genocide. again. teehee #and maybe we should graphically depict one of our few queer characters of color getting torn apart bc the last time we had him killed #by a serial killer specifically targeting young queer black men maybe we kept it TOO tasteful 🙃🙃 #when i say i hate it here i mean it this time #marvel #fall of x

[wednesdayday]

i miss my rat girlies so much

#the fact they died not even a month apart #i am truly heartbroken

[emo-nova]

Platonic Modernish Stobin where they both listen to the magnus archives as their way of having a spooky month-like Marathon where they actually feel something other than fear in October.

Robin found it first and dragged Steve into it with the pull of sweets and the promise of keeping her side of the car clean.

#stranger things #steve harrington #platonic stobin #stobin friendship #mondern Stobin au thingy #tma #kinda? #i have been hyperfixating on TMA have you noticed? #robin buckley #robin and steve #steve and robin #they would both have a vegetarian month due to the flesh and such #they just cant stand it after the meat apartment episode #Steve is 100% a Jonathan Sims kin #Robin kins Sasha and Tim and cried so much when they died #they had a ice cream night that night

[semiotomatics]

feeling sad about my cat(s)

I love bean, I really do. I'm so glad I have her.

but I fucking miss wally.

the thing about bean is, and obviously this is not her fault at all, but she is very skittish and fearful. she can't really handle loud noises or unexpected movement, and she doesn't really like being crowded. this means she's not really someone I can go to for comfort when I'm upset, because she tends to immediately want to run away and hide.

but wally. wally would come to me when I was crying, and I could cry into his fur as much as I wanted without him batting an eye. he had the patience of a saint, I could come over pretty much whenever and start cuddling him and he always enjoyed, or at least tolerated, it. I would have panic attacks that would send bean running but wally would just. sit there and let me pet him as much as I needed to to ground myself. I never had to worry about stressing him out or overstimulating him because I knew he genuinely didn't mind. I can't do that with bean. which is fine, that's just who she is, but man. I really miss having that ability.

idk, I'm in a bad headspace today and I just really wish I could go cry into wally's fur and let it all out but I can't and I'll never be able to again and I'll never see him again for the rest of my life and it's almost unbearable how much I miss him.

#this has been an original post #personal spewage #my cat wally #i cant take it #its been two and a half months and i cant take it #i feel like my entire life fell apart when he died #i feel like i died too #i dont think i can do this without him

[area51-escapee]

I need the true crime fans to learn how to rub two braincells together to spark some intelligent thought

#you spend months hyping up this woman to get out of prison #and treating her like an icon or an influencer and ‘stanning’ her #using the same language to talk about her that you do to talk about your favorite pop stars #you essentially turn her and her horrific situation into a meme #she finally gets released from prison. after a lifetime of abuse and isolation and horrendous treatment she is free #you celebrate for about a week once again treating her like some kind of influencer and hyping up her every action #and now that the excitement has died down it’s suddenly #‘I was a huge supporter of her but idk there’s just this off vibe about her :/‘ #like oh really. really. is the woman who had to plan a desperate act for escape her situation. off???? #I knew this was going to happen. I knew y’all wouldn’t leave her the hell alone #she’s been victimized her whole life and now that she has a chance at a normal life #y’all are gonna tear her apart the moment she does something that doesn’t fit inside your narrow view of who she should be