#this is incredibly shitty i am sorry

[trianglekisser]

who shat in my temple i am going to smite them

#updates pretty fun i am incredibly lost without the wiki page having much information on anything #sorry for the shitty ass photo of my tv btw 😞 #cult of the lamb #nox speaks

[taffywabbit]

i've been playing through the leaked N64 prototype build of Dinosaur Planet (that rareware game that got turned into Starfox Adventures on the gamecube later) over the past couple nights and i gotta say... i think people gave the gibberish alien voice acting in Adventure a bit more hate than it deserved? like don't get me wrong, it WAS hilariously awkward and impossible to take seriously, but i'd take that shit ANY day over having to listen to... a handful of british people doing the most inscrutable attempts at racist accents i've maybe EVER heard in a video game??? like holy FUCK it's bad y'all. in fact the entire chunk of the game in Swapstone Circle is pretty much fully unsalvageable. the music, the iconography, the way the NPCs talk and are dressed, the literal most basic tropes of the storyline itself in that area... good grief, it's no wonder that entire chunk of the game was cut from the final product. absolutely wild that anyone at Rare thought that shit was okay to include, even 20+ years ago

#buny text #dinosaur planet #the game itself IS like. incredibly impressive for an N64 title #even in its incomplete and janky state #and i AM having fun for the most part (when it's not crashing/softlocking/etc) #but i am also very glad to be done with that area #i was like 'oh boy i get to play as krystal again yay' #and then i saw the totem poles and went 'uh oh' #and then i got close to one and the dynamic music changed to a shitty sampled chant and i was like 'OH NO' #and THEN i came back from cape claw and met the lightfoots and it was like i was being hit with a sledgehammer repeatedly for 20 minutes #turns out some things left on the cutting room floor are there for a reason #rare made some of the best games of that entire decade but it sadly still couldn't save them from being painfully british game devs #with everything that entailed in the late 90s (random bursts of casual bigotry inserted for humor) #sorry these tags got away from me. hello. i hope your day is going well

[hajihiko]

Aaaa I love your post SDR2 art so bad, it's probably my favorite interpretation I've seen yet!

Any mixed race hc's for any DR characters?

Mmmm, like, yes? Maybe? but I dont know that I wanna really speak out on it? Same as with asks about neurodivergent stuff or gender/sexuality headcanon, I might have some ideas but it's not rly something I wanna put into words (this is also @ all those asks). I hope I can make myself somewhat clear in my art, I hope you will understand, but I'm not really comfortable talking about it at least yet.

#I just feel like no matter what I say it may be misconstrued #Which is fair as i am a) not a native English speaker b) not american #(Most major websites are incredibly usa-centric and ppl dont always realize) #And c) sometimes I just dont think about things #c) a) Sometimes I am stupid about things. What's that saying about being thought of as ignorant vs. confirming it by talking #Anyway. Sorry everyone who has asked about these various things #I dont even know a lot about myself so I cant answer you #Whatever you wanna see in my art plz see it if it makes u happy #Unless its shitty. #Not an art #I'm already regretting this answer but I just dont know how to express thos sentiment #I would be quiet except I get a lot of questions like these #And it feels unfair to say nothing. #Oh but also ty anon! Very kind!

[beeapocalypse]

dont say this enough but i truly appreciate all of you. thank you for every moment shared

#not to sound incredibly out of it and disconnected from humanity as a whole but all of you are a reminder of an existence outside of this #shitty room. that there is something beyond the day in day out nothing im going to wrestle with forever. i dont know how to word this #i know im unresponsive and reticent and withdrawn and thaat any connection made is temporary and shitty and i am sorry foro that. i don t #know how to be a human being. it isnt due to anyone but mysefl and my shitty insignificant fears. i might not respond i might shy away afte #just a few messages but i truly truly appreciate everything. you make me human #^ sorry that sounds strange as fuck and over reliant on people i cant form lasting connections with but i dont know how else to phrase it #and im going to have to say goodbye one day and it is going to hurt but im not close enough to a single person to make it personal ive just #got frayed and split connections things that mightve been but never bloomed because i just couldnt REPLY so it could always be worse. it is #a mercy it wont hurt as bad as it could when i leave because nobody really got to know me beyond a distant possibility #i wish i could but i just cannot handle being friends with anyone. not of anyones fault but my own #i know im being presumptuous and attention seeking and shitty here. im sorry #i could leave right now. i really could. its a thought that dogs after every single action the knowledge of just how fragile life is. death #is less than five minutes away an easy solution right at my fingertips and still i get too fucking scared to grab ahold of it. clinging to #these ephemeral insignificant connections thaat are now naught but usernames on dashboards and passing thoughts when i ought to just leave

[atlas-affogato]

I apologize everyone I do not remember anyone's fuckin names

#i have incredibly shitty memory i am sorry but i have forgotten why i followed you and why you followed me

[ikyw-t]

I do relate to olivia rodrigo in some ways for example I did have nightmares each week (every day for months) after that phone call in may (march). I fantasize (once every other blue moon) about a time where you're a little fucking sorry. except I do not hold my undying love (there is not even an iota of love, if there ever was) like a grudge and also I will never ever forgive bc you were indeed filled with vitriol. and unfortunately I also cannot let it go. it was six months (three years) of torture. I did NOT love you truly and I cannot laugh at the stupidity. I may have made some real big mistakes but you do indeed make the worst one look fine. like..............

#sorry i know this is cringe and something i should just journal about #ive just had a very shitty day and also kinda week #ive just been tired and lethargic for no clear reason for the past five days and it's very frustrating #bc i have homework due tomorrow that ive barely made any progress on #and i kinda rly need an A in this class to maintain my gpa. so if one bad week means i tank this assignment and get a B in this class #oh dread. unspeakable unsurmountable dread #also i went on a walk in the park w my mom which i haven't done in a bit and i just was unable to stop thinking #about my high school demon of a boyfriend who lives nearby. altho he literally never goes outside i sometimes get rly freaked out #and panicky that i might see him and have to deal with him again. like he did call (AND TEXT?!?🤢) me last march #and i was having nightmares for months after and feeling so paranoid that he might randomly show up at my house one day #bc that's the kind of shit he used to do regularly when we were dating to keep me from breaking up w him #and like ughhhhhhhhhh it just makes me so upset bc he literally would have the audacity. #it's just upsetting. i am soooo nonviolent as a person but when i think of him i suddenly feel not very nonviolent #again my apologies i know this should be journaled about instead. sorry u had to see all this #feel free not to read these tags like this is just for me. apologies. #while im here some other songs that make me think of him include would've could've should've. atw10 but only the terrible parts #uhh better by myself by hey violet is incredibly on the nose #also it's actually just a rly great song. also get out of my life by little hurt. okay im done now. #gonna go find something funny and cute to watch. maybe little witch academia. #sorry if u read all this 😵‍💫

[feralnumberfive]

So, what's the deal with airplane food

#just putting this here to let people know I'm alive but I'm going to be on a mental health hiatus for god knows how long #S3 has given me a distaste for TUA and I'm not very interested in it rn #I am trying my absolute best not to rewatch it with my mom because I really don't want to 🥲 #I also find it disheartening and annoying that S4 will most likely be the last season despite mr blackman knowing the whole plot of TUA 🙃 #& I'm incredibly sorry to my S3 asks that have been sitting in my inbox for over a month I'll find the strength to answer you guys someday #but yeah after sitting on it for a while I have decided I don't like S3 and I personally believe it's the worst season :[ #life's been shitty and we'll see if I can muster my way back into TUA-I don't want to abandon this blog and my friends 💖 #personal

[gayness-and-mayhem]

I can't believe that some people watched both that carbonara scene and the little bench scene in the same 1 episode of Broadchurch and still thought that Maggie and Jocelyn were sisters.

#Like...what? #Idk who these people actually are I'm just going off all the incredibly shitty articles that come up in Google #But seriously there's no fucking way #They're literally flirting and acting like they're already married the whole way through *and* acting like Ben is their son #''That lesbian kiss came out of nowhere'' my arse #It's not like it's even the first scene of them being like this either just the longest so far #Ffs #Broadchurch #Maggie Radcliffe #Jocelyn Knight #Carolyn Pickles #Charlotte Rampling #Text post #Also yes ok I am watching it again but be fair it has been nearly 3 years #It was time #Just posting things that went into my drafts by mistake in the last day or two - sorry there are so many! #Maggie x Jocelyn #Jocelyn x Maggie

[tragedykery]

girls with fathers who are cunts when their father is a cunt

[ID: the surprised pikachu meme. /end ID]

#elli rambles #who do think my social anxiety & autism affect more: you or me?? #do you think I’m not aware that it keeps me from doing things? do you think I don’t struggle with it? #do you not know how incredibly frustrated with myself I am for not being able to do this shit? #bitch this is one of the things I’m literally in therapy for it’s not as simple as ‘just doing it’ #and why do you continue when I’m already crying and you know how I’ll react to you saying shit like that #‘well my parents would have–’ have you ever thought about the fact that might have been a shitty action too? #also you don’t have anxiety and autism!! you don’t have disabilities that keep you from doing shit!! the situation is different!!! #vent #sorry I just needed to let it all out #one thing about being scared of conflict is fleeing to your room and making a vent post on tumblr dot com instead of telling your dad how #his cuntery makes you feel and also how his arguments are wrong

[turbo-overkill]

scariest thing in the wowlrd when i hear a comic book show tries to have a character with did

Completely valid tbh, I was scared for my life when I started watching it.

I feel like the show did portray DID better than shit like. Split or whatever the fuck that movie was. Which is already a low bar but still.

It does take creative liberties with its portrayal, such as most of the alters having unique powers, but from what I understand, it's not offensive or in any way an attempt to villainize the disorder with its portrayal. It is not demonized and is actually shown to be a complex matter that's not inherently bad or incredibly cool, but just IS. Instead of like. Okay she has superpowers and also is weeeeeird and craaaaaaazy, which is what I expected when I started the show, having only known thar this is a superhero show with a mentally ill character and that Can't End Well.

Jane's DID is not invalidated in any way or treated as some awful and evil thing, it just... exists? It causes conflict all through out the show, but it's treated with normalcy and understanding and afaik the only character who even implies she should get "cured" (become one person) is the villain. It's never implied to be evil or made up, as opposed to the feeling of otherness media often tries to give to DID.

The show also got rid of the Crazy Jane nickname she goes by in the comics, which is a smaller detail but it's good.

I also think Jane's trauma is handled very well, and it's something I feel qualified to voice my opinion on instead of reiterating stuff I've heard from actual systems. I don't want to go into details, but TLDR she was abused by her father and in general had an incredibly rough life. The way it's handled across multiple seasons is very nice and refreshing to see, given how much victim blaming and "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" shit often shows up when trauma is discussed this heavily. I like how her being traumatized and having an incredibly difficult time 'dealing' with it is treated with compassion by the narrative AND the other characters.

The process of healing from trauma and learning to live with it to the best of your abilities is shown to be an incredibly difficult and lengthy one, and made me, personally, very happy to see.

Ultimately, while I don't have DID myself, I have talked to systems who have watched the show, and it seems the consensus is that, aside from the superpowers and different make up/hair styles that appear when their respective alter is fronting, the portrayal is actually respectful and not offensive, and shows that the writers care about it.

#asks #ableism tw #i am incredibly sorry for this rant but i had to say it #i was actually shocked when i saw how even the like. less sensitive characters treat Jane with so much respect in this regard #the character Cliff is like. the insensitive asshole character. hes also very well written but the point is that even he doesnt try to #imply that Jane is a bad person or that DID is inherently dangerous #and he's fucking Confused and doesn't know shit so it's especially refreshing to see how he tries to be understanding despite #being a shitty person in general #rant over now 👍

[sweet-herba-mystica-archive]

hmmm i wonder what his name is

#my pokemon posting #sorry i am so incredibly unmotivated a shitty ms paint doodle is all you are getting

[cerbreus]

Been trying to find a funny and less humiliating way to say I fell down the stairs with a mug of hot water like I'm charlie chaplin playing a 90 yr old retiree yesterday but there really isn't one lmfao

#like picture it in ur head .. me spilling hot water all over myself as i tumble down the steps and come to a stop at the bottom sopping wet #theres this slick worn away carpeting that gas almost done me in MANY times for this so i should have seen it coming we gotta get some #grippy tread things this is prob gonna happen again #anyway i am so fucking sore i am tender in so many spots and the worst ones are my back and ass cheek where i landed #for suuure aggaravated my back injury lol #and i cant sit comfortably at all rn which sucks bc i work at my desk full time 😭 #my roommate heard me tumblr down the stairs and thought i just dropped something bc all i said was 'ah fuck' when i got to the bottom lol #also for how much pain im in i have not a single bruise to show for it which irritates me #at the very least i deserve some cool bruises this is fucked up this is homophobic #personal stuff #anyway dont wear slides if u have shitty worn away landlord special carpet on ur incredibly steep stairs #sorry theres so many misspellings in the tags my fingers hit the wrong buttons and i dont care

[v-iv-rusty]

yeah yk what I think I'm just not going in tomorrow

#misc.txt #sorry for essentially liveblogging my shitty night it's making me feel slightly better for some reason #tomorrow seems like a great day to use a sick day. its a temp position at least so Im not too worried #feel bad about doing it but at this rate I am not going to get any sleep at all and the 40 min drive there at the crack of dawn #would be incredibly unsafe considering I barely got any last night either bc I kept waking up #my manager is nice thank God and Im not getting in a car accident over this #wish my brain would stop completely shitting itself on random days but I guess thats how it is. breaking news mental illness has symptoms

[piplupod]

becoming more and more apparent to me that i am well and truly fucked so. that's cool. doing great

#i cannot catch up on schoolwork lmao i cannot make myself work any faster than my admittedly slow pace #so like. i cannot catch up. im going to fucking fail out of this program lmao #maybe its for the best idk maybe it'll lower everyones expectations of me and they can see how fucking useless i actually am #i cant even keep up with this shitty course that shouldn't be this difficult #im just so incredibly stupid and useless. im tired. im too tired!! #i hate that i isolated myself away from a good portion of my social group too bc i was scared I'd have a blowup in there #i dont want to freak ppl out fhfkdl and i dont trust me or the others in this head #im trying to just get my shit together before i go slinking back but my shit is not coming together fjfkld its only falling apart more #idk what to do anymore dhdksl i am behind on literally everything rn #schoolwork and cleaning and dishes and keeping myself fed and letting myself rest and DMs and creative projects #the only thing im keeping up with somehow is my medication refills which i NEVER keep up with so idk what's up with that fhdksl #anyways self pity post lmao wah wah my life is so hard and i want to kill myself like always boohoo sorry for doing this every fucking day #i am just so... idk. no words for how much i loathe myself and my situation rn #i dont know how much longer i can keep doing all this shit fhfkdl im so constantly distressed #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #suicide mention

[etheries1015]

I had sort of a crack idea of what would the non-human twst boys do if their crush or s/o was allergic to them? Savanaclaw and Octonivelle with like the fur allergy and seafood allergy. Maybe diasomnia’s s/o has some sort of fairy allergy? Sorry if this is too silly for you to write, it’s alright if you don’t 😭

I LOVE THIS BECAUSE I'VE HAD A SIMILAR THOUGHT i'm allergic to cats and i'm like...man what am I gonna do around Grim BUAHAHA...this is a great idea. Nothing is too silly to write my friend!

Non-human Twst boys reacting to a S/O who is allergic to them!

featuring: Savanaclaw and Octavinelle!

general warnings: gender neutral reader, not really proof read \

TW: None! just fluff. and allergies.

Leona

The first time you sneezed around him, they didn't know it was literally BECAUSE of him. This was until you two took a nap together for the first time, and when you woke up he saw your face...Oh, brother. Your eyes were puffy and red, congested, and your nose leaked like nobody's business. He genuinely felt bad about this, but wouldn't let you in on his true feelings/emotions. Without understanding the cause (though he had an inkling) he immediately took you to the doctor.

"They're allergic to me? What kind of shitty nonsense is that?!"

Leona invested in the most expensive of healthcare for you. Allergy pills and whatnot, because he wasn't about to sacrifice his lovely naps with his significant other. No amount of allergy is gonna stop him from getting what he wants, and that is your affection.

Ruggie

"Sooo...basically you're saying you're allergic to me? Cause' im part heyena?"

"It's a little more complicated than that. It's more like...animal dander? I guess?" You didn't seem to certain in your answer either, it was more or less a guess since...well, there wasn't half beast half human where you are from. You can only make an educated guess on why you're so allergic to him based off of the information you had back at home.

Ruggie is honestly so sad about this. He can't afford to get you any treatments or medical help with this, so you two just have to be careful. He does manage to get his hands on some special washing products (probably legally) and takes extra care of what he eats, and how clean he his. He's consistently brushing his hair and cleaning his ears.

"Man i'm such a simp. What's wrong with me?!" ...He isn't used to bending backward for people. But seeing you so sick around him, hurt him even more than his pride, so he of course would do anything to make sure you're as comfortable around him as possible. Ahh...the power of love <3

Jack

He gives me the "I must stay away from you for your own good," Type. Although this doesn't last very long. Jack is incredibly loyal, and he's far too attached to let you go. There's times where he would try and keep a distance (much to your annoyance), but when you began sneezing and itching your eyes you knew he was somewhere nearby. Jack is protective like that, but it pains his heart to see you so sick because of something he cannot control.

He does both a mix of what Ruggie and Leona does. He took up extra part-time jobs to afford good allergy medication for you, the entire works. Pills, eye drops, nasal sprays, breathing treatments...He also invests in high-quality shampoo and conditioner to help rid of his dander and hopefully reduce the amount of shedding he has.

With the amount of hair Jack has, he is CONSTANTLY brushing it and it is CONSTANTLY shedding. He does EVERYTHING under the sun to control this, all for you. Although... this is a partnership! You told him that a relationship goes two ways. You love him regardless of how itchy you may get, and you equally chip in to problem-solve.

You're both loyal to each other until the very end, no matter what trivial matters may get in your way <3

Azul

He knew before you two started dating that you had a severe allergy to seafood, so he made it a point to avoid you. But...that didn't stop YOU from coming to HIM. It was one of the things that drew him towards you, the way even though you were gaining a rash you would still wrap your arms around the back of him. Although it wasn't as bad in his human form, he was always terrified what would happen if he were to unleash his original form.

But worry not! We are talking about the literal king of potionology. He finds a remedy very quickly, and you trust him...a little too fast. He is astonished when he says;

"Take this...the second you drink this your allergies will be something of the past. But be warned-" You grabbed it out of his hand and chugged it. He stared at you with his jaw slacked open, his face turning a deep shade of hot red when you throw yourself onto Azul and place a big fat kiss against his cheek.

He imploded. But hey! his potion worked! He tried to get you to give him some sort of paypack, but you mentioned that your form of payment was in that kiss.

He now demands kisses every time he makes the potion for you <3 It's kind of a silent agreement. He just stares at you after you're done drinking it, and whenever you feign ignorance the point upon his lips is far too obvious.

Jade

The first time you broke out in hives, he remained completely calm. Jade is rather smart, and he understands your allergy must be because of his disposition as a mer-folk. Although in human form, he couldn't help but notice the way you would hide your rashes either behind makeup or by bulking clothing. He was amused by this for a moment, but when he saw it worsen he couldn't help but become worried.

"Why would you go so far for me? what do you gain by allowing yourself to become sick?" When you replied with a blush that you simply liked Jade, thus his shock soon turned into action. He excused himself for a few days to climb mountains and collect the most effective of flowers and medicinal remedies for allergies and put together a potion that you were able to take to alleviate your symptoms.

He isn't the vice house warden for nothing! His talents and magic prowess truly aided him, albeit in a way that was seemingly selfish. It was all worth it for you, though.

But he does use you as an example during a class project in potionology, having you stand up in front of the class while he compares your allergies before and after taking the potion.

He got a 100% in the project. And a Significant other. A win-win for everyone!

Floyd

Floyd is much smarter than he lets on. The moment he hugs you from behind and touches your arm, he notices the rash right away. He eyed it with a frown, and without saying anything he let go of you much to your dismay, leaving you to your lonesome for a few days on end.

You had to admit you missed Floyd, his silly jokes and way of talking, his unpredictable personality, and the attention he would often give y you. While sitting at the table during a free period, your head was propped up against your hand and a sad sigh escaping your lips.

"Ehhhh? Why is shrimpy sitting here all alone? Didya miss me?" A familiar voice teased as arms wrapped around you and something akin to a vegetable drink set in front of you. You gasped and smile up at the tall male, who wasn't wrapping his arms around you as you were used to, typically ignoring the itching of your rashes. He convinced you to drink what he sat in front of you, and although you eyed it with suspicion, you sighed and drank it in one gulp and tightly shut eyes.

Nothing happened. You turned to look over at Floyd, about to question the purpose of making you drink the (surprisingly tasty) smoothie-like liquid but were quickly interrupted by lips pressing against your own.

The kiss caught you off guard and you began to panic, talking about your allergy...before you realized that nothing was happening. No rash, no itchiness, nothing.

"Seeeee? It's a potion. I made Azul make it for me. Now I can touch you as much as I want," He smiled proudly. However he managed to convince Azul would forever be beyond you...

He forgets to give you the potion sometimes, only when you two are cuddling and a rash or itching pops up do the both of you realize it's time for a dose.

Ya'll are so silly for each other <3

#twisted wonderland #twst #twst x reader #twisted wonderland x reader #octavinelle x reader #floyd leech #floyd leech x reader #jade leech #jade leech x reader #azul ashengrotto x reader #leona kingsholar x reader #ruggie bucchi x reader #ruggie bucchi #jack howl #jack howl x reader #twisted wonderland headcannons #twst headcannons #leona x reader

[mirtifero]

personal

#incredibly upset with my friend. Not upset I think just kinda disappointed. #I said something shitty some days ago and honestly? It was very shitty. I shouldn’t have said that and I shouldn’t have let my anger choose- #-my words so freely. But still. Why not address that to ME? He knows I am someone who is willing to listen and go on their knees to say- #-''sorry'' if needed. Why address that to my close friend and make the burden of solving this issue HERS. It’s not her problem… it’s ours- #- it’s a problem I CREATED. Not her. #Not only that but he simply started acting as if I was being unreasonable and trying to justify my anger by saying I’m close to my period. #He is living proof I am a calm person… if I got so upset now then there’s something off and to say I am ''using that as an excuse'' is - #-kinda insensitive. #Idk I don’t want to sound like the asshole(tm) and I want to talk through this but it seems like he is unable to do that? #Why did he have to fit my friend into this mess. It’s not her fault. #He was bothering me like always and I was more sensitive that day and got angry. I’m used to these games but don’t be inconsiderate. I have- #-limits too. I just wanted to talk to him. #And he apparently accused me to my friend (the same one I mentioned he put into this mess) that I was romanticizing DID. #Which okay valid criticism but that’s … not what happened. I was literally just liking my moot’s art on insta #it was a vent art that featured two ventsonas. Like two versions of the same person. But noo it’s DID stigmatization he wouldn’t even - #-listen to me? Like see the context if you are going to point something out… it was vent art… featuring two ventsonas… that are just - #- representations of different emotions of the artist… not ''two different personalities living inside them''.. #just… them at conflict with themselves. #Idk man I forgive him for bothering me and shit and I think we can talk through this but I think he’s going to ignore the fact that he’s- #- also kinda being an ass.