#this is making me feel socially awkward lol

[ursae-minoris-world]

9 people you’d like to know better

I was tagged bu @bavariansugarcookie (thanks you!)

To be perfectly honest I was nervous about this because…. I think most of the time it’s for the purpose of bonding over common interests… but if I answer the questions honestly I often come up with random niche things, or even things that are well known in my country but not to people outside of it, and it’s often expected that your response will be something, well, that USA-Americans will have at least heard of (or can find with a quick search if they’re interested in it). So often I will end up talking about a book that wasn’t even translated in English and hear crickets. Or a lot of the music I listen to ends up being small local stuff or random youtube instrumental playlist I put on as background music while writing / drawing instead of a cool song people will know… Like, genuinely, what do you do about these memes if you response is something weird no-one will know? Do you just go for the closest answer where people will get the reference? Especially if you’re not USA-American or if you have other roots? (genuinely curious! you’re welcome to answer in the comments, just don’t reblog pls).

So. Sorry I’ll probably over-explain and speak of things no one really cares about…

1. 3 ships: sheith, Ineffable Husbands, Imodna

2. first ever ship: Lol, I’m not even sure what that means. I think the first (non canon) ship I was invested in was the main characters from a Belgian comic series called “Les tuniques bleues” ( https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Les_Tuniques_Bleues). They kept acting as if they didn’t like each other while CLEARLY caring a whole lot and saving each other’s lives and I had a lot of feels about it that I could not really explain! Like I started reading this when I was like, 10, until high-school lol. I had no words to put on those feelings, and no idea of the concept of shipping but now I can quite confidently say that I did ship them lol.

But idk. I also liked Leïla and Han in Star Wars as a kid for example. It’s hard to pin, really.

If you want something you’re more likely to know, and from a time I was in fandom, Kyo and Tohru in Fruitsbaket? (but I was not in the English side of fandom so ships were not such a big deal, even here for a shojo that had a love triangle lol). If you want more like, non-canon ships you’d have both Nana in, well, Nana (by Ai Yazawa).

If you want the first ship where I actually looked for fan content, then probably L x Light in Death Note ?

And then the first ship I actually got involved with (English speaking) fandom was sheith.

But tbh while I realized—late—that I always had ships, I don’t always care about ships in the stories I like.  I’m just as much likely to get invested in platonic relationships, friends, found families, or actual families.

3. last song: see, after going to the movies (see next question), we went to grab a beer and there was live music band. They did some classic songs (the first one was “Don’t Worry Be Happy”, and I remember Toxic and Hotel California), but mostly it was original songs they have composed. They do have an online presence and I thought about sharing a clip of one of the songs they played, then I remembered it’s a small local group and people on the internet are weird and creepy  (and I mean ants just as much or even more than your regular creep) so… 🤷 Ask me in dms if you’re a moot and interested I guess.

4. last movie: went to see Everything Everywhere All at Once for the 2nd time tonight. It was great.

5. currently reading: For the reference most people will get, I just finished Exit Strategy from the Murderbot Diaries by Martha Wells, which I loved (super fond of this series).

I’m also reading “Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine”  by Gail Honeyman, we have a book-club for it in one of my discords. I wouldn’t have picked it up myself and I’m glad I am actually reading it because I’m enjoying the way the main character is such an unreliable narrator and am curious of seeing things unfold.

I’m also reading “Le château des poisons” by Serge Brussolo (Castle of Poisons), because a friend lend it to me super long ago and I want to give it back when I see her next week. I’m meh about it: the setting (a mystery set in medieval France) is interesting and I want to know how the plot with be solved (if it will be), but this sort of gritty representation of medieval times is not my cup and the characters are a bit cliché.

For fanfic, I finished “Heart Nailed Open” by Perfchan this morning and I loved it so so much!!! I also have a bunch of books about art from the library…

6. currently watching: Trigun stampede (I’ve been procrastinating the end because I need to be emotionally ready lol). And Critical Role campaign 3 (also need to catch up with Vox Machina s2).

7. currently consuming: ...easter chocolates

8. currently craving: tea (always lol)

9 people to tag: I… didn’t follow who got tagged already so… if you see this and want to do it, consider yourself tagged!)

#memes #sorry for rambling and having weird niche answers #before tonight the movie would have been a movie about whales that also has not been translated in english #this is making me feel socially awkward lol #why can't I have normal answers

[that-was-anticlimactic]

friendly reminder that cole is canonically one of the most socially awkward characters in ninjago <3

#i mean... i would even go as far as to say he's more socially awkward than jay ik ik y'all are booing me but jay has charisma he's good at #social interactions cole is socially stunted because of dance lol like obviously zane is the most socially stunted but that's a whole other #can of worms (haha puns) but i just get so annoyed seeing everyone make cole this sauve confident guy this is the same guy who was #humiliated as a child (triple tiger sashay) and prolly didn't have many friends growing up like Real friends and ran away and lived in the #forest/mountains for who knows how long like y'all aM I WRONG??? #i could go on and on and give so many examples y'all don't even understand i have thought about this so much lol #feels like now is a good time to get this out of my drafts lol #saw a post that reminded me of it haha the post was about keeping blorbos away from a fandom bc mischaracterization <3 #ninjago #cole brookstone

[paperclipfanatic]

Unconditional

(Rant/Analysis in tags)

#midnight doodle? midnight doodle #i can't sleep but this one's very pretty. wanna share #crazy how fast ran gets attached to sara. looks like a simple crush at first but its clear that his feelings for her aren't purely romantic #he notices how much effort she puts into carrying the group and the toll it takes on her #and for a reason I cant quite decipher he desperately wants to take that weight off her shoulders #saviour complex? maybe a way to make up for his past life. he did say he regrets not making friends and living to the fullest #the guy tries to better himself but fails to go about it the right way (socially awkward tingz i guess lol) #still #sad that sara takes advantage of that in the logic route #go girlboss but damn dont do the boy like that #rip ranmaru you wouldve loved mcr and panic! at the disco #yttd #ranmaru kageyama #sara chidouin #paperclip draws #btw correct me if I got sumn wrong cuz i might jus be spouting bull rn #its like 1 AM so im smooth-brained #cw knife

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

tbh i think one of the biggest things they could have done to make five and nine hate each other without bullying or bigotry involved would have been to lean into the thing where some adhdtistics naturally vibe, whereas others have an incompatible combination of nd traits that make them viscerally unable stand each other, and go from there

#lorien legacies #LL number five #LL number nine #like nine is very obviously coded adhd but he is also autistic as hell #and. gestures at five #this is also why canon!nine's brand of lying about things and getting his behavior excused as being 'bad at signals' #when that's Not What's Actually Happening irritates me #they could have even included elements of some of the others being a little too defensive of his behavior at five's expense #without it just being 'lol bully the fat autistic kid' #if they're used to accounting for the fact that nine is neurodivergent and having a Hard Time of It #in ways that make it easy to assume he's just a dickhead when he really genuinely does not realize or understand that's how he comes across #and/or is exhausted and defensive that he has to try constantly and /so hard/ NOT to come across that way #and feels like he's being fucked with when people correct him constantly #because 'that doesn't sound right but i don't know enough about social skills to dispute it' #and is also increasingly bitter at feeling like 'why the fuck should /i/ have to be the one to change everything about how i act' #'why can't people at least try to meet me in the middle for once. fuck this' #all compounded by brain damage from extended solitary confinement and physical TBIs #and it becomes more understandable for the others to kneejerk toward accommodating his access needs before five's when they conflict #while also y'know. being significantly less assholess toward five in general; and in fact treating him a lot less shittily BECAUSE they #have experience with not judging people for initially being awkward and kind of insensitive or seemingly abrasive #or just behaving in ways that seem Weird. it's still a blind spot that they favor nine here but they're not being ableist pieces of shit #nor are they trying to shut him up about abuse and force him to Get Used to It #anyway lots of thoughts about this need to write up posts etc #LL tag #ableism cw #dyn: lost boys

[moonsidesong]

im not like, an "ii critical" or whatever you wanna call it, mostly i just watch new episodes when they come out and feel pretty lukewarm about them, but gotta say its almost comical to me that the newest episode is like "ummmm balloon you should SHOW not TELL..." and then immediately proceeds to explicitly spell out his problems to him verbally. like. alright man sure

#if this was a purposeful joke it doesnt read that way at all. and considering this series isnt particularly. Good. at subtle humor #i dont think it was LOL #bri talks #also like cmon. ep abt balloon's struggle with social standing that HAS past season cameos and suitcase isnt even mentioned??? cmon man... #also man the way they treat cabby just makes me sad #we're not really supposed to LIKE the walkie talkie im sure but the fact it just made fun of her for being awkward #and nobody said anything in edgewise just feels bad. im really not a fan of all that #she's pretty consistently the most charming character imo so its just kind of sad the story treats her so poorly so often #anyway i know all this must look pretty silly to my non osc followers (which is most of you! #im very aware i havent made much of an effort to garner an osc-type audience) #but uh. thanks for reading my post anyway. all you need to really know is this is an animated series i watched a lot as a kid #and now i kinda feel like i should at least see it through to the end even if its nottttt reallyyyy as goodddd ... anymoreeee...

[sol1loqu1st]

catching up on fantasy high junior year and Oh Boy Lads, Riz Is Going To Continue To Hit Close To Home For Several Reasons Huh

#the conversation with his mom where she's just like. SO gently explaining that their financial situation is worse than ever #and that even with all the pressure he puts on himself and his perfect grades and Singleminded Focus(tm) it STILL might not be enough #to go to college/etc because he's going to be relying on scholarships to go..... #MAN. #the difference is that his mom sits him down and talks to him about it gently #and mine made me feel like an idiot for wanting more for myself. lol. #also last season not only confirming him as an aroace character but like. actually EXPLORING that and exploring his fears #that his friends are eventually going to leave him. :( #and just. idk man his whole deal being that hes kind of a Socially Awkward Loser who puts an intense amt of pressure on himself #to achieve academically and be Smart and Useful and make sure everyone Needs Him Around because he's so afraid no one Wants him around :( #AUGH. kin

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#focus who? i dont kno her #its so bad. i csnt focus at all. and ive got way too much to do. take me back to last week where i spent hours reading papers #annoying. also possibly lack of sleep cstching up with me #do u ever get very little sleep and not miss it at all? yea bitch all the time. then i get depressed and its sleepy time #and by sleepy time i mean i get like 8hrs of sleep lol #maybe ill just do nothing and completely fuck over my sunday lol #maybe i should go run up thr mountain rn before im stuck in a car for 2 hrs #bc im getting spikes of being insane. unfortunately i have no emotional object permanence so when i feel crazy its like #ive always felt like this ans its terrible forever. and then immediately afterward im like lol wot? nah im fine. ive always been fine #shout out to mood swings ✌️ like bro im trying to get materials together so i can teach a class. can u shut the fuck up? and focus? #well see how i do today with a ton of socializing. itll b fine. im normal i can b normal #or i can b endearing quirky. or whatever i usually i am. i dont think i have conversations like a normal person but i cant tell bc im not #there for conversations im not in. whatever everyone else has conversations in a way thats boring. i just wanna grill ppl til i understand #how they work. and then feel like im gonna die if im in a group conversation 🙃 let me study thr ppl around me #bc im very normal. god. i promise irl im not that weird. ppl think im nice and cool and successful #ok maybe not cool. but i think i can get away with being interesting. i got at least a lil charisma. im only a bit horribly awkward ;-] #but i try to own it. wtf was i saying. jesus. i cant with my brain rn. i shoulf have gone for a run this morning #being social just makes me anxious so im babbling i guess. but itll b fun. and itll b pretty im sure #maybe ill try to draw my ocs while im not paying attention. ive neglected them for so long 😭 #unrelated

[unproduciblesmackdown]

with the recent like self-analytical framework of [putting hand on own shoulder] "are you looking for the external validation of value in this which would never be guaranteed, and you don't even think it should be contingent on this anyways" it's like, that also speaks more to like "yeah i did really enjoy live performance / theatre-adjacent and -overlapping stuff"

like i have my sense of how much i loved things and none of that involves any memories of having enjoyed it b/c of any feedback i got, from peers or instructors or anything. memories of curtain calls don't stand out much. like fun Specific Feedback was a kind older (relative to me) performer with the central role telling me that my literal leaping onstage (dance performance. grande jete entrance) despite a technical difficulty that would have to be improvised around was Inspirational/Motivating lol. i stopped having any particular stage fright (although is that when you're onstage? more like, anxiety beforehand about messing up. being onstage was the easier, enjoyable part) thanks to just having to yolo through those technical difficulties lol....anyways and then that same show actually, some relative to me younger audience member's dad was like "she's your (role's) biggest fan" and we nervously take a pic together lol. these things were fun & standout but Not Even It; not at all like "this is what makes it all worth it" like this is largely beside the point but a fun little bonus outlier event or two

like there was also no "i loved it b/c of Being In A Cast" nor b/c of any particular like, hanging out having fun Social Element. i loved rehearsing, though. loved being backstage (or in green rooms, or dressing rooms) but not because of any particular company or goings on. loved waiting & practicing / warming up & getting things together like your own costuming & being summoned to backstage & whatall. loved all the technical elements of getting a show together, when things were being assembled / worked out, though i didn't get to have much of any active hand b/c i'm like this twelve year old just learning the part, but it was fun to witness. none of my sense of what contributed to having a great time entailed any particular praise or anything; there was some implicitness in how all at once i graduated from [ensemble performance, back row for tall people] to [roles with solos] and the like, but there was just like, being busy, doing things well enough that it just wasn't Impeding anything lol, and in other arenas where i might've gotten more comments about being like, an outlier per whatever measure of success, it was definitely like, it's all just [successfully avoided negative attention] and ofc people think good grades are good but i'm not particularly moved by the awareness that that in turn is what's good or impressive about me, or something. or that i have to have anything like that for [successfully avoided negative attention]

and i wouldn't have like, done a monologue to an empty room and been like wow magical. i'd do my thing for rehearsal, and then for an audience, but you can't really see the audience and you're like ten doing local ten year old recreational stuff so it's like, the curtain calls you don't remember much (by you i mean me) and then you're done, and for me it was the fun of just like Everything Before. no like classic memories montage of great times socializing, it was me sitting in the green room equivalent, me warming up in the hallway, enjoying being in an auditorium for like 7 hrs of rehearsal, etc, we didn't do any like social events like high school performance afterparties or anything; i wasn't like Friends w/even the occasional person i also knew from school, and that didn't matter or diminish things in the least. performing A Show and for whatever Audience and that abstract is completely good enough. any of my parents' involvement, unavoidable b/c i couldn't even get places without being driven, was a major downside; i didn't like any like post performance [congrats] from them b/c that stuff was just its own unconstructive Performance that you, by which i mean me, were required to be sufficiently like Oh Wow about when it's like, the focused attention from you here means i want to leave; being left all amongst other adults during rehearsals was the good shit, while it also wasn't the case i needed like support or hype from any of those adults either.

there was Some tradition of like, older students in some program who'd take a trip to nyc / do some performance or other, and that seemed exciting but it stopped existing before it could be relevant to me lol. also for the first like, show that was like "audition for parts" vs "class recitals" they gave us like a relevant keepsake for it, and that was a nice surprise, since i had a great experience and all. and one of my main [not dance, with lines and everything] experiences being this fourth grade english class scenes from julius caesar, auditioned again, i'm like hell yeah that this has to be nongendered b/c it's all a bunch of guys, so i play a guy, and an antagonist yippee who doesn't die midway through and sounds easy-peasy to be like [be the dictator assassin] lol. it's funny how already i Cared about like, wish we had Effects instead of awkward silence for the drama of that assassination. wish i like, knew fuckall about acting. but the teacher just focused on telling us all to talk louder b/c nobody could be individually mic'd, and in the end you really couldn't hear fuckall of other performances so that was a win. and we got to do it twice b/c some people's parents got stuck in traffic. all i remember of my parents' presence was being like "omg yes i get to stop being here talking to you b/c we get to do that Again hell yeah"

like it's social but in a Parallel way. i'm contributing my part, i know my role, you know yours, i'm fondly remembering sitting in some school lobby having mini muffins with hours to go before our performance, amongst other people but not at all hyped abt interactions with them or at all disappointed abt the absence of any. i enjoyed it all being in front of people, others involved in the show, or the audience, but i wasn't there for any specific feedback, just being Part of that group constructed experience there. truly this case of like....loved all of that exactly as it happened, was on my own shit, did not need any external validation, didn't need a specific kind of Socializing that's supposed to look like having individual interactions with personal friends, had this passion for it that i also was having a perfectly good time exploring on my own, whilest also enjoying working with / learning from whatever instruction i got. like sure wishing i knew fuckall about acting but that it turns out no not everyone necessarily all loves stage acting as The Peak like that, and this comfort and interest with it that comes from like, you have all the practice of Having to perform and mask and act in life against your supposed incorrect abnormalities, but here's this constructive and creative and expansive edition of that art and science. good enough for doing it all through like fourteen

#the like metanalysis i'm applying to the wynnstannery journey meanwhile....a multifaceted like Oh Yeah I See places hand on surface #tl;dr like yeah i would love to do theatre in w/e ways and i would truly enjoy my experience completely in its own right. b/c i Have.... #stopped dance when i was fourteen coz knee hurty; gender hurty; parental involvement hurty; was going into college and was like will i even #have time for dance stuff? like yeah maybe but i didn't know it & figured i'd probably be forever busy & fail out anyways. took a break. #and that first year there was some delightful The Shakespearean Theater Just Down The Street also theatre adjacent class experiences #which was just More expansive & More evidence like yes i love all this shit a lotttt thanks #however at this juncture like; oh you Can audition for school theatre & even get there by yourself #didn't want family to know & come; didn't want to be alongside ppl who Did have all this high school experience and even if they didn't #were older so just probably at all better at shit lol. also my roommate had a lot of theatre interest & experience so i would've felt #awkward or out of place. like i do Not want to have to be really socially connected or like be criticized on some As Personal Acquaintances #supposed helpful basis lol. was sort of peripherally eventually [theatre doers] socially involved but eh #i had fun helping out with behind the scenes stuff Sometimes; or just hanging out in that arena #but i didn't make friends really & the true Downgrade was feeling like i was supposed to be / Had to be #one of those cases even when it's like ''yeah for some people they let you be around peripherally b/c you're the butt of the joke'' #like yeah great lmfao This Isn't It....but then going off oneself to some pwyw shakespeare show where you don't know what's going on but #that's not even required to enjoy it and Live Theatre and hell yeah babey. the actors were all whole adults & professionals & kind #like for me the social aspect is [when you're In A Show there's more afforded ''you're allowed to be here''] lol & that's it. #i like being around people but i like being there ''by myself.'' i can enjoy spontaneous; fleeting interactions contained in that moment #i don't need or even want those to Lead To Something That ''Actually Matters'' like an ongoing personal friendship or w/e #i enjoy those interactions in their own right; interacting in the capacity of both doing Show Tasks in their own right #i enjoy being in these Performances and Rehearsals in their own right & All The Enjoyment Was Already There. #i never needed or particularly looked for Especial Feedback from any sources. there needed to be an audience but that presence Was It. #i was engaged & enriched & interested in my own right. all very clear and clearly Genuine #vs whatever i was recognized as especially Good At or what i would just kind of do / was supposed to do but it's like; eh #or just otherwise like yeah i like some of this; but not nearly as much; &/or there clearly aren't ways to engage w/it in ways that i #actually want to or enjoy. i loved having a part but never needed it to be like Solo or the Main part. when i was doing & had done the #performing in rehearsals or shows like That Was It; that was what was fun. didn't anticipate or need the least Especial Feedback #just knowing like yeah that's the good shit. this is a real Passion that i enjoyed w/o ever needing anything ''more'' / external validation #wahoo....and the inherent value & relevance in just Knowing of that fact lol. wasn't always clear to me like yeah we all love that shit #in just the way that i did; right. like lol maybe not exactly and not always; actually.

[altocat]

I don’t WANT IRL conflict dammit. I want quiet cuddles and comfy writing and warm food and nice friends and feeling ready to get around to “liking” myself.

#drama #introvert #social awkwardness #Don't worry lol I actually don't feel that bad rn #Just wanted to vent because writing stuff down makes me feel better #anxiety #One of these days I need to work on my sense of self-image #Sometimes I feel a bit too cringe

[latinokaeya-moving]

saw a post. reminded me of a thought i’ve had for quite a while now that seems very childish but idk. i think a lot of the humour that’s popular on these social media sites is rooted in a sort of very mean cruelty. like for as much as there is constantly talk of being understanding and accommodating to different marginalised identities it’s like the moment an acceptable target is locked onto all that is thrown out the window in favour of dozens upon dozens of posts/tweets/vids mocking and making fun

#x #i’m sorry i always feel like i come off as overly sensitive or that i can’t take jokes when i make posts like these but i just always take #stuff like that to much to heart so it bothers me #as much as ppl talk abt their own experiences w being treated badly n othered n isolated #sometimes i see the type of jokes ppl consistently make n rb n i can’t help but think that wow. you would not have been nice to me in school #like come on i saw the way socially awkward and/or ‘unconventionally attractive’ fat ppl were treated as jokes my entire childhood lol. t #these attitudes r just continuations of that #not saying i’ve never been rude or malicious before. or that i haven’t laughed at a mean spirited joke. but there’s a difference between #that n the way this humour propagates on the internet i think

[astrxealis]

sometimes (often) i think about the characters i kin or relate to and then the realization comes in again and again that i need therapy (/lh?)

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #unfortunately i doubt i will ever get therapy bcs i have this. thing. idk. but i believe in myself to just rely on myself? #and yeah i uhh can go on more about that BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT OF THIS sorry i suck at explaining things. anyways #humans. interesting. i am fascinated by humans and myself and i'm tired of typing now GOODBYE anyways xiv music is so fucking good #and also idk how to interact w others sorry ..... i am scared of getting close to people bcs everyone i've grown close to has ended up #leaving me or i mess up! but tbh it's better now i think and also not as bad as i think but sorry i still have bad issues with. that #me saying i don't want to type anymore and then proceed to rapidly type out so many words oopsies #pls just do not PERCEIVE ME !! unless you want to ig but idk why you'd want to do that uhm #yk i like tumblr most out of all social medias bcs it feels like i can... sort of just be my weird self here! and it's not fully nice #and i still have anxiety problems and overthinking problems and whatnot which is evident by my 100+ notifs i havent checked since #christmas but that's not the point (?) idk whats the point honestly uhhhh nvm (??) #OH I LOVE FF SO MUCH tbh it's w/o a doubt still my favorite series ever but drake/nier is also up there for sure #which i think is amazing bcs i have yet to finish a game. and ive only like played idk 5 hours of replicant and automata #and then ive already spoiled myself on important aspects of all games but that helps ngl uh. i could explain but im tired of typing #ANYWAYS GOD actually noehgjbsejhbghjes i really suck w interacting w others i really wish i were better at all that #im not super introverted or shy im just kinda awkward and anxious but im a fun person and all and idk #and tbh its interesting thinking abt my personality... some parts of me havnt changed at all from a bit (/pos) like my lively. aspect of my #personality !! i was a bundle of energy and a little annoying (perhaps unintentionally but now i think its a bit more on purpose lol) #but the only person who really sees my true self is me. and the closest to that is lune. but even i dont know who i really am #and yeah... wnvr im like woa ill make more friends !! and then when i have the opportunities i suddenly dont care anymore IT SUCKS #anyways i think i have Opportunities now again so lets see haha ?? at least uhh in school. its like 2nd sem and i dont rlly have friends #as usual haha that sounds so sad help BUT its not like im disliked im just rlly quiet and shy at school..... throwback to 7th grade tho #that was rlly the worst but also now is just as bad in a diff sense but back then i cldnt talk w my crush at ALL i didnt speak at all im so #sorry about that HELPPP I RLLY JUST CLDNT SPEAK anyways moving on in my class rn i do have a group of sorts. like #we're grpmates wnvr theres grpworks and we can pick which is nice! ive been classmates w em all b4 and theyre the cool kids #but in the more fandom sense and one used to be a close friend of my twin and of mine too by extent and then the other was someone #who knew me when i was more extroverted so yeah uhhh anyways #OKAY ALMOST MAX TAGS im DONE rambling. bye. hopefully. bye. oh god

[stonerzelda]

weird ahift ya 3 hours blows and like. It started with me just feeling Completely done with this place like im really hating bejng around my coworkers not even because theyre bad people, theyre not, i just. Do not fit in lol. But then i ended up working with someone thats usually at another store and it was just us and theyre like a younger me lol so ut was nice to finally actually be spoken to <:)

#the others are fine theyre good kids but they dont ever talk to me lol its just always awkward or feels like theyd rather be doing anything #else but socialize with or get to know me which fine fair but fuck if it doesnt make this job suck lol

[lewkwoodnco]

okay so disclaimer this isn’t l&c related but I’m too much of a coward to talk abt this on my main blog anyways I’ve seen this post floating around lately and I absolutely hate it but I’m just so stunned by how many notes this has. Do so many ppl genuinely agree with this?? Cuz my first reaction was wow does this leave a bad taste in my mouth. At the risk of sounding nlog-esque I wholeheartedly disagree with this post and the sentiment. Like it’s kind of unbelievable to me that not a single rb of it (from what I have seen) has been like hey! let’s not shame like-minded ppl expressing interest, however excessively, maybe?? (Assuming we’re not talking abt personal posts) Never have I ever seen someone interact with a post I have written/reblogged and thought ‘ew they suck’ or smth of a similar effect just because I’m not mutuals with them or smth. Even now I don’t feel that this is an unpopular sentiment but frankly I cannotttt get over the sheer volume of notes on this thing. genuinely what the hell

and I get that it can be annoying. I have been so mean to some of the nicest ppl in my life because I felt they were annoying but I cannot begin to express how much I regret that and it’s smth I’m so very conscious of now. which is why the callously mean tone of that post rlly stung (for me). And it just scares/saddens me that there are ppl who I’m mutuals/friends with who might think that way and that makes me feel very icky. Of all the things ppl agree to disagree on this is smth I feel particularly strongly abt.

Of course there are certain exceptions like ppl expressing hate/transphobia or homophobia or racism etc but I don’t think that can be classified as ‘being annoying,’ that’s straight up discrimination. And I’m not hating on op btw I just rlly vehemently disagree and I dont want to pick a fight or anything so yea.

#maybe this is a bit of a sore spot for me cuz of how I’ve felt annoying both irl/online for so many years #basically my MO throughout my socially awkward teenage years (as if anything’s changed LOL) #it’s taken me (and im sure other ppl) so long to feel comfortable enough to take up space just by being myself #posts like these make me feel like we’re moving in the wrong direction yk #Or maybe im just taking a lighthearted post too srsly #still don’t like how casually callous it is tho #personal

[stinkbeck]

wow legit i love it when people decide that i’m not impossible as a living person after all lmao. like wow what a weight off that u have decided i am human. i hope u spread the good word.

#i have 2 figure out how 2 ignore her lmao. like every time she talks i HAVE 2 zone out. this is fucking imperative. #or just laugh i guess. i feel bad. i know she struggles a lot too. she does nice things for me too + she’s just really socially-awkward #i don’t wanna like hate her or make her more nervous but like she’s so fucking mean lol

[alittlebitofpeculiarity]

how do you guys make any friends in your universities, i've tried talking a lot (considering how socially anxious i normally am most of the time) but i still can't land a single circle and it makes me really sad

#is this something to be sad about? am i just being silly? #term 1 ended without making a friend whom i can hang out with after classes or even after school #and it just makes me insanely lonely #i'm just glad there's internet in the campus but i do feel like i'm missing out on SO many things #i shouldn't probably living my college life like another isolated / anti-social buffoon even though i'm not really trying to? #am i just super socially awkward that it's hard to get along with the people i meet because i just feel terribly different #or am i just terrible at adjusting and could be quite stubborn without being aware with it? #again i apologize for the sudden info dump here #i can cope up with being alone better than anyone i suppose but i still think i'm... missing out a lot #maybe i'm just looking at college with rose-tinted glasses and expecting everything to fun and happy and exciting #or i really am just naturally a loner #beats me bro #beats me #jowy rants #the grammatical errors in my tags irks me so much #but alas it is too late to go back and edit them #anyway lol

[astrow1zar6]

Astro Observations (Beauty indicators)- 27

Degrees in the 5th degree: known as a big sex appeal placement. These people naturally draw attention to themselves effortlessly especially on the asc. They could be wearing a bag and will have ppl still staring and asking for their number. They can get famous for their beauty.

Neptune in the 1st house: they kinda look like their wearing a filter naturally.. like their appearance is abnormally smooth and glossy, they have a very otherworldly look to them that will make others turn back for a second look. They all look like angels. They can have very dreamy personalities as well they know how to mirror other’s desires back to them which can create an almost hypnotic effect on others. (Marilyn Monroe had this)

Venus in 1st house: they give that conventional insta baddie look usually. But no seriously these people can easily become famous for their beauty fast on social media. They have such friendly charming personalities and genuinely enjoy being around others which adds to the charm. They normally put a lot of effort into looking good.

Libra Rising: I think this one is pretty self explanatory lol. These people are really easy to spot they normally have amazing fashion sense, regardless of their aesthetic they pull of whatever they wear so nicely. They dress like story book characters. Just a main character placement

Lilith conjunct asc: these people are also so angelic to look at. I feel like many ppl expect these people to be covered in tattoos and piercings and dark makeup (however they definitely could) but I mostly see that they have such an innocent beautiful appearance normally, the edginess is more through the vibe they give off which causes a lot of people to become obsessed with them. They look so sweet & innocent yet you can sense how much power these people hold within themselves. This can make them very intimidating but insanely attractive!

Libra Venus: they never usually have a hard time finding a partner due to their refined nature. These are people truly in love with love, their willingness to find love in others can be really attractive to the opposite sex (or same sex) which will cause them to have a lot of suitors normally. Their appearance is always so put together and they have such a perfect face for makeup! They tend to have very beautiful smiles as well.

Capricorn rising: talk about face card, these people normally look like models. They have amazing bone structure and are very petite themselves. This can give more an edgy dark beauty. They remind me of a sculpted Greek statue very emotionless and still yet so beautiful to look at.

Venus in 2nd house: giving princess vibes. These people are the definition of pretty privilege. Men will just buy them things for looking cute. Usually has an amazing fashion sense. They have very wealthy personalities, even if they weren’t raised rich they talk like they came from a lot of uk what I mean. Their power is really in their voice they have the most seductive voices my lord, this is what can attract so much wealthy partners. Amazing sweet talkers.

Venus in Taurus: give such a natural beauty. These people give coconut girl aesthetic with the natural tanned faces, effortlessly messy beach wave hair. These people just radiate beauty. The most beautiful thing about these people is their feminine qualities and their ability to know what they want for themselves. This can make them ideal wife’s to many. They are usually into classical feminine activities such as clothes making, cooking/baking, knitting, making jewelry. They give perfect conventional wife vibes.

Aphrodite in the 1st and 7th house: I feel like the first house is pretty self explanatory but these natives are usually known for their beauty like Venus in the 1st house. Many famous models have this placement (Adriana Lima) they have the most symmetrical features, these were the kids that never had an ugly/awkward phase. The 7th house makes you attractive to others around you. You can be seen as extremely charming and likable in your social engagements with others you can become very popular fast. However this attracts a lot of enemies and jealousy from others because of how liked you are by others. People almost worship you like a goddess. When I think of Aphrodite in the 7th I think of “the birth of Venus” painting where she’s emerging out of the claim and everyone around her is in awe, that’s what this placement is like.

Venus in 7th house: usually have such beautiful personalities. Even if they aren’t physically attractive they have such charming personalities that they are still seen as very attractive. These people are also really funny and good at engaging the opposite sex (or the same whatever you’re into) they attract so much attention from others romantically even if they are the least attractive in the room. They can pull some pretty attractive partners as well! And if they do happen to be physically attractive then they probably steal all the men😂 lowkey a little jealous of this placement! You guys are just so cool.

Pisces moons: they get known for their beauty pretty often. I feel like everyone has a crush on them ESPECIALLY the men with this placement. The men with this placement tend to sweep women away like a fictional character, they’re usually amazing with sweet talk. They also tend to look otherworldly too and others can get really obsessed with them. (Bjorn Anderson was a Pisces moon).

Cancer moons: they are all so pretty and feminine 🥺 they usually have a very doll-like appearance and a very warm aura. They know how to make others feel at home which is really attractive. They usually have soft feminine features and have a natural glow to them like the moon! They have such a motherly energy to them you just want them to mother you. Also very emotionally intelligent. These are amazing people to go to when you just need to vent, they’re the best listeners and comforters. Their softness attracts so many people to them.

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