#this is probably only about 75% of it

[starbuck]

my relationship with the mountain goats album i've been listening to for three and a half months straight is on a level you could never understand

#this is about Protein Source of the Future...Now! please do not derail #once and awhile i switch it out for a different CD but i can only listen to anything else two times through at most #and then it's back to the good old standard #the songs are just so... comfy???? #and almost every one is massively emotionally satisfying over and over #although the funny thing is that even now i could probably only confidently name around half of them? #75% at best #bc my car's CD player doesn't know how to properly read the CD #so the songs are just listed as numbered tracks #but yeah this album and i have been through some SHIT #it has gotten me through such a stressful period in my life and continues to do so #and i am so so grateful #probably not the typical mountain goats album one would say that about but oh well! #the mountain goats #tmg

[oreegaanoo]

Once again I am fueled by comments from my thesis supervisor and feel like I can actually do this thing hell YEAAAAHHHH

I CAN WRITE THIS THING!!! I CAN DO IT!!!!! AAAAAAAHHHH

#imagine a drawing of me going all feral that's me rn #I get so hyped every time I meet him even though all his comments are like “this is okay” and “what did you mean by this”-- #then followed up by discussions and improvement suggestions and I get so excited about writing it all suddenly #like!!! what is this!!!! #it's probably because I get to actually talk about my thesis and in detail with someone who understands it? probably? #most likely now that I think about it. I don't have a lot of friends who study the same thing so I can't talk about these things in depth #(but I'm also very happy to have those friends who don't understand but listen to my ramblings about it <3 ) #p #and also also like. I am about 45 pages into this thing. I am so far. I have wanted to just drop it for the past month or so but!! I'm so-- #--far!!! holy shit!!! that's amazing my guy!!! you're doing well!! just need the clean up and some clearer explanations and that's it #it's not going to be two more years of this it's going te 6 months MAX #most likely 4 months of work with 1-2 months after for the grading and checking process when i don't have to do shit #I only have this thesis; one essay that is 75% done; and one spanish course I'm taking end I'm done!!!! I will cry when that happens!!

[maybeonedayillfindout]

nothing worse than a character you liked being really popular in the fandom but in the wrong way . if no one liked them then to see good posts all you'd have to do is go into a tag or something but if there is a thriving community of people who ship him with a guy you hate it gets several times harder to find posts you agree with

#this post is about armitage hux. #im sorry im not a hater but i genuinely understand those who hate his ass so much better then the huxxkylo shippers. like come on #be so for real. kylo ren would not under any circumstances fidn hux attractive. you could not waterboard it out of him #and anyway even if the ship was fine now he's just a twink!! #now he's misunderstood and really quite a nice guy at heart #NO #SHUT UP #i am probably the only enjoyer of the “i dont care who wins i jsut need kylo ren to lose” line because that was so in character for me #i started giggling i was like yes be a petty bitch. go against your own interests because he was mean to you. #anyway anyone else out there thouroughly enjoy hux as a character but not kylo ren? lets talk i need to get out of this nightmare #star wars #one day i will stop putting 75% of the post in the tags #general hux #izzy hands #ofmd

[the-fibre-stuff]

DH and I were discussing last night how we need to get the kids out to somewhere where they can see wool processing. (Even aside from the pandemic, we have had some issues with the closest living history museum, so it’s been a while.) Eventually we ended up describing the concept of a sheep to shawl competition, but I realised we were missing something.

“Now, how long do you think this would take?” “Weeks” “Nope.” “Oh, it would be months?” “Nope.” *looks up time limits for sheep to shawl competitions*

“This one gives three hours, from when you start shearing until you’re done with the finishing.”

But now what I’m wondering, is how do they clean the wool? We’re assuming that the sheep are washed in advance, like they used to do historically, but kept really clean, so that it’s already washed before the time starts. But as we’ve obviously never been to a sheep to shawl event (we’ll try and hit a local one soon), we don’t know!

#brought to you by the spinning wheel at my local thrift store yesterday #shame about it #it was on its markdown week #because they'd given it a fair price #but who buys a spinning wheel at a thrift store #they should have considered one of the non-expiring price tags for it #because eventually someone would show up #but you probably can't justify that much floor space #for that long #for only $300 #but even for $75 #the odds of someone coming and buying it #aren't great #even though it appears to have a manual #and at least one bobbin with it #in related news #thing two wants to get into spinning #I should consider getting her a better spindle #and I've already told her that we should get her some proper roving #to start with the easy stuff #and she can work with my old bag of wool #if she gets more into it

[seilon]

hey uhhhh i really don’t wanna be That Guy but,,, I don’t really have spending money right now and I really need a new binder (or two) if anyone’s got some cash to spare so i can replace my old overstretched binders id appreciate it beyond words 🙏🏽

venmo | paypal

#I need about $40-75 depending on if i get one or two but anything helps #I really hate asking for money like this but I’ve needed this for Months #and yes I know I need a job I’m working on it but in the meantime I still need this hsbchfnc #kibumblabs #I also know I should probably be advertising commissions instead. but. imma be real it’s been difficult for me to draw lately #like I can barely get myself to draw things I WANT to draw #maybe money would motivate me more admittedly but. yeah #man I hate that binders only have a lifetime of like two years

[threadsun]

I'm off to bed, but maybe tomorrow I'll get started on polls for the multi-chapter fic?

#sunshine #I'm like 75% sure I'll write one #I definitely want to #I'd just feel bad if I started one and didn't finish it #and also it would probably make me even slower on requests #which is fine I only do requests if I vibe with them anyway #but yknow lots to think about

[biillys]

been flicking between house and er and now i want the billy working at a hospital au's please

#i have no concrete thoughts and head canons just vibes #actually i do but i'm not typing all that out cos it rly is 75% vibes. and probably 25% medically incorrect. so i'll keep that to myself th #but like! good with kids! good under pressure! worked his ass off at medical school and it shows! #also i need max working there too but maybe in a different area and no one knows they're siblings #but then they'll get all /siblings bickering/ in the hallway over dumb shit #and every one's just like.... is that Legal ? #also. heather not working in the hospital but some other job with just as fucked hours #and they're housemates obvsly so every time they catch each other at home they're like #'gonna k myself. you?' 'gonna k myself. bye.' and immediately fuck off to bed or work #and okay. on one hand. billy knows he's not gods gift to this earth. his dads been telling him that his entire life #but. on the other hand. the only way he's made it this far in life is by making himself god's gift to this earth #so. it's rly hard to not be a cocky little shit at the start of his career #which unfortunately leads to small fuck ups. which leads to big fuck ups. #fuck ups he wont forget and carries with him every day #but once he finds his feet. finds his place. boy oh BOY he was made to work in this field #max didnt follow him on purpose. she rocked up on his door step the second she graduated. if that. #and billy more or less just said. im broke as shit and in so much debt i cant even buy myself a chocolate bar. take the couch #if ur staying longer than a week i want fuckin rent #except his version of rent is max pitching in for dinner and chores and groceries etc and if shes gotsome money to contribute thats cool to #but he's not about to like. kick her out #anyway. one night they're somehow magically all off and free for the first time in months. so they're having a few drinks #and heather's bitching about her job and billy's one upping her with every story #and max is like. bro it probably isn't even that hard. and billy's like. i Dare you. #(they're drunk. billy hasn't even had time to think about alcohol in Months and now he's a lightweight and he's Drunk) #and max. becos she's max. and she's never /not/ ready to prove billy wrong. decides to actually go for it #not like she's got much to lose. except money maybe also free time also mental brain capacity and the will to actually wanna live #but. like. nothing to lose! so she's opening google the next day and figuring out where to start. and before she knows it #she's there baby! she's living medical school hell! it sucks ASS. somehow she doesn't give up! #flash forward like 10 yrs and billy likes to brag that his life's so good that max had to copy him. #ran to california. works in a hospital. daddy issues. etc etc.

[sonknuxadow]

do you ever see a poll tournament or whatever that has a character you like on it but its not even exciting it just annoys you because you Know they dont belong on there

#just saw an edgelord bracket where shadow the hedgehog made it to the finals..... none of you understand him like i do #yeah he has a black and red color scheme and says edgy things sometimes but i would argue hes not a true edgelord at all #at least when hes actually written well and is in character anyway #i feel like he only made it this far because hes one of the more recognizable characters that was on there #and also because 75 percent of the internet doesnt know much about him outside of memes calling him edgy and stuff #ALSO the himbo competition that had knuckles on it i cant stand it when people call him a himbo all of you are WRONG!!! #ALSO THE TRANS CRINGE COMPETITION THAT HAD SONIC IN IT!!!! HE HAS TRANS SWAG ONLY!!!!! #theres probably other examples of this with sonic characters or other characters i like but these are just off the top of my head

[khizuo]

i'm going to put "studying chinese" on my bucket list for the year

#i can speak and understand it but reading and writing is an issue #like if i were given a text i probably would only know about 50-75% of the characters (depending on its difficulty level) #which is not enough to be able to really read something #and also since i'm not on the chinese internet there's a lot of chinese jokes and phrases i don't know #my text #sorry. i'm in a mood rn

[journeyman-tier-fibercraft]

I am a dragon and my horde is half finished WIPs

#knitting #lace rot #wip #brioche rot #idk if that is a real tag but i sure as fuck got it #everything shown here is a wip except the red and black striped blanket they're all on #unless weaving in ends is part of being finished. i've been sleeping with that blanket for over a year now and they're still hanging <3 #also this isn't even technically all my wips i have at least one more but it would've been annoying to add #anyway there's one lace scarf. one brioche scarf. one garter stitch chevron scarf. #the white and red stripped blanket is a baby blanket that isn't finished #the dark grey thing is sleeves for a brioche sweater (the sleeves are the only th ing that exist) #below that is the body of a drop sleeve super textured sweater. that at this point i'm thinking about making into a vest. #i've put off knitting the sleeves for it for like 6 months now idk if they'll ever get made #rounding out is a knit lace tablecloth where i started fucking around and making lace (shit) up at the ends because i had mroe yarn left #and my newest lace doily that's going to be so big that i'm going to make it a wall hanging probably #most of these are over 75% of the way finished and i just. i just gotta bring myself. i just gotta do it. i just gotta knit them.

[perenlop]

very funny out of context fun fact about my ocs is that dr footstep caused castor’s parents’ divorce

#so explanation. dr footsteps level 5 dialogue implies that there's a social gap between wild and caught pokemon #wild pokemon tend to seek out trainers to join their teams so that they can get stronger and certain types (tough iirc) brag about it #while other types tend to wonder if their friends from the wild would even recognize them if they were to meet again #meanwhile wild pokemon who dont want a trainer are implied to be either prideful of not having a human or resentful that theyre weaker #so. that dialogue inspired me to create the story between castor's parents which i can say bc it has no bearing on the real story lmao #basically dusk was specifically bred to have perfect IVs and a hidden ability and bought by a trainer who didnt exactly neglect her #but didnt give her much of an emotional connection and only cared abt what she brought to the table with battling #so she didnt exactly have a choice in being caught at all nor did she have any choice in her specific trainer. #regardless though. shes in a place where it's supported that wild pokemon are missing out and shes in the best possible position #so she boasts about it and kinda looks down on wild pokemon #bruno meanwhile was an alpha pokemon who was practically pushed and trained into a leadership role since he hatched #he was born in a group of skorupis and its been an unspoken expectation that they are his responsibility #being an alpha also means that he didnt actually need a trainer to become as powerful as he became (reaching around level 75 just being wild #so he also looks down on trained pokemon because he did not have that experience and finds solace in his community #yet at the same time he resents his position bc he never chose to be a leader and he has to pretend to be vicious #when in actuality hes extremely tame for a drapion and wants nothing more than to settle down #so dusk deep down secretly kinda yearns for the wild bc she wants to know what its like and bruno secretly wants a chill trainer #that probably just feeds him and lets him sleep in their yard #meaning that the two of them are Inherently incompatible despite what they believe #bc like no matter what. if they tried to stay together someone would have been miserable #because dusk has no experience in the wild at all and likely would have perished sooner than anticipated #and also doesnt get the rigorous training she desires #while if bruno joined her trainers team then he would be leaving the skorupi to be vulnerable in the great marsh #and joining a team where only his mate would have had an emotional connection to him when community was so important before #and so they both have to stay in their positions and theyre both kinda looking down on one another AND being very jealous of them #so like. they can talk abt how their romance was escapism all they want but it NEVERwas gonna work out. sorry castor #you were always destined to be a child of divorce #id like to think that dusk at least gets a different trainer that still uses her competitively as she loves #but also gives her the affection and friendship and connection that shes always yearned for #but like. way way later on bc when she gives up castor she is extremely deep in the fog and terrified of losing her trainer

[somelazyassartist]

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#YOOOOOOOOOOO MASSIVE FUCKING W FOR MEEEEEEEEEE #FOUND A PHYSICAL COPY OF The Adventure Zine(™) IN NEAR-PERFECT CONDITION #BEEN SOLD OUT FOR YEARS BECAUSE ONLY AN EXTREMELY LIMITED QUANTITY WAS EVER MADE #AND FROM WHAT I'VE SEEN THEY USUALLY SELL FOR LIKE. $75-200 WHEN YOU CAN FIND A COPY (WHICH IS RARELY) #AND I FUCKING #I GOT IT FOR $30. TOTAL. INCLUDING SHIPPING #FUCK YEAH FUCK YEAH FUCK YEAH #oh also i might be able to sell my handmade costumes in an actual storefront which is neat i guess #BUT I GOT A FUC KIN‚‚‚ BOOK #WOOHOOOOOO YEAH BABY #sorry i probably shouldn't be this excited over a dumb book but it's so hard to find this one just like. at all #so I'm probably gonna delete this in a few minutes because frankly I'm already embarrassed about getting so excited over a silly book #but i can't help it i know it's stupid i know i just can't help but be a little excited y'know?? I'm sorry yeah I'm gonna delete this haha #yeah

[southislandwren]

I love my fucking apartment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#it’s sooooo quiet i may be able to sleep with just a fan on or something #probably ear plugs until I’m certain I’ll be okay but it’s SO quiet #you guys it’s so fucking cute here. #100% worth 850+ dollars a MOTNH because I’ll be happy and okay #beloved father is paying the most but I’m handling internet and electric on my own #idk who’s doing food yet but if I work 7 hours a week for 11.25… #and 315 - 75 (internet) - 100 (guesstimate on electric) - 100 (guesstimate on utilities) = not a lot for food #and I’ll have a baby meal plan this semester and I’ll buy bulk foods etc so I’m not too worried #but I’ll be going back to plasma donations this year and maybe see about selling feet pics #haha jk……….. unless ? 😳 #because I need momey. thanks #diary post #there’s so much space i feel super greedy and like im taking advantage of my dads generosity but like. #this was basically one of my only options. all the others were cheaper but much shittier locations #surrounded with other units filled with noisy college kids #I think I have 2 neighbors? and one of them is an old lady with 2 cats #(so I know who my best friend is….. gonna bake her things in exchange for cat time) #anyway goodnight. we have to go shopping for stuff tomorrow and unload the van etc #and I have dnd tomorrow fuck yeah!!!!!!!!!!!! #basically im happy and I don’t think school will wreck me this time around

[wizardhex]

it's so funny how I went into animation because there were more jobs there than the average art profession like illustrator but now that I've graduated there are literally no animation jobs....lol......life is hilarious

#My profs and every animation professional in 2019: THE INDUSTRY IS BOOMING! YOU WILL PROBABLY GET HIRED RIGHT OUT OF SCHOOL #Every animation professional in 2023: I've been out of work for 75 years #I MEAN I also wanted to do it like since I was 14 thats what i was passionate about doing... but alleged job security was also a factor #I dont wanna sound like I only chose animation bc I wanted money lol if that was my only motivator I would've done graphic design

[always-a-slut-4-ghouls]

*makes a whole bunch of art and crafts*

“I want to sell this so I can make EVEN MORE and also hopefully someone else will enjoy it!”

*can’t fucking drive because of my gods damned epilepsy*

“Alright, so, while I could probably walk this stuff to the ups store two blocks over during spring and fall, once it starts to get really snowy the sidewalks are going to be shit and i don’t want to risk damaging something before I can even send it!” 🥲🫠

#emma posts #all summer it was an issue of time and temperature #i overheat easily #and while I can walk more once the weather gets below like 75 I guess? maybe 80. there is only a limited opening before the rain turns into #snow and i have to trudge through poorly maintained sidewalks without damaging my art #if the city kept the sidewalks clearer it would probably work #but sometimes a sidewalk will just stop existing for at least four months because the snowplows will cover it up #and it will be under like four feet of snowpack that was pushed out of the way for cars #I don’t know what to do 😫 #and sure. there IS public transportation here. but they don’t go everywhere and have to be scheduled at least 24hours in advance #I’m also insecure about some of my stuff #some of it i would even give away for free because of that but then it would cost me money to ship #i have photography up online. sure. but the physical things #those are the problem #i especially love to create jewelry but I can only give away so much as gifts #and it would be nice to make some money back so I can keep making more and improving #but then every time I make an improvement I feel like shit about my old stuff! #I am trying to figure out the best way to seal the paper and glass in a pendant without the glue smudging it #and while my old work isn’t BAD. it’s worse than it could be #I don’t do much except read and make art so I keep wanting to create and share more #but im so bad at the sales part #if I liked knitting I could donate it and stuff #but i don’t think many places would take handmade jewelry and stuff #I know a place in a large city a few hours away that might. but they are… not the easiest to get to #creating things is my passion and makes me happy and since I can’t drive it’s one of the only things I can do regularly #but I want to do SOMETHING with what I make #and if I made money off it i could make even more stuff! and also maybe save up for better equipment! #over the years I’ve gotten really good at finding cheap options. but sometimes you just can’t get something super cheap #I’ve been wondering if my friend who has started a photography business would be open to teaming up #but she does portraits and I do everything but that

[musical-chick-13]

I think maybe part of the reason I'm so afraid of instigating any type of interpersonal connection, and afraid of genuine vulnerability period, is that I feel like I have to ration my love. That I can't express it too frequently or too intensely because doing that will overwhelm or scare people off. "Don't be too affectionate, don't talk too much, don't demand too much attention, don't ask for any more than the barest, most minimal part of someone else, that's not fair. Expressing love or admiration more than maybe once every few weeks, starting a discussion with someone more than once a month, wanting someone to hold your hand in any context other than having a full-on breakdown, that's desperate and clingy and uncomfortable, no one will bother with you at all."

And having to plan everything out like that, having to curate myself so that everything doesn't spill out all the time constantly, having to hold back all of these parts of me so that I don't disquiet someone else is just...so incredibly exhausting that I struggle to see the point at all. If this is the price I have to pay for human connection, then it's better to just make peace with being alone and unseen. Rather than expending all of that effort on a version of myself that is, ultimately, untenable I should just never even start the whole process to begin with.

#I could be having a better time than I'm currently having. #maybe I WANT people to express their gratitude for the similarities between us with unhinged metaphors #maybe I WANT physical affection and a 3 am trip to walmart to buy cheesecake #maybe I WANT someone who will sit through 75 episodes of an anime with me #but I am so constantly surrounded by people who DO NOT WANT these things who think this is TOO MUCH that asking this of someone #is TOO MUCH. I am so TIRED I am so LONELY but there isn't a SOLUTION so I just have to cry about it in therapy and pray it gets better #which is a hell of a thing to have to try to do when you don't believe in prayer!!! #AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH #there's a reason Best Friend is the only one I don't routinely feel this fear about #it's because she's been here for 12 years. THAT'S what it took for me to get to the point where I genuinely wasn't afraid like this anymore #UGH why can't we be in the same PHYSICAL SPACE I am /SUFFERING/ #ANYWAY this is probably the time to. idk get some ice cream or something in the hope that maybe I can be normal for half an hour for once