#this is such a funny post for me to make bc we know so much more about ankarna now than we did a month ago when i was considering this

[agapemoon]

i find very funny how everyone in the island knows that q!philza is really good at pvp, like even out of rp viewers from all communities know this, know how good he is bc it’s always implied. And then, there is fucking q!roier ….. silly q!roier who is secretly really good at pvp but is always goofing around bc he doesnt want anyone to think he is a “tryhard” so no one in the island and out of rp (besides q!spreen) knows that he is actually very fucking good at fighting and a nerd, he just never activates his tryhard mode bc why would he? Silly guy just wants to have fun and be silly, there is no need to take things seriously and he doesnt want to be taken seriously either …. bc once again, he’s just a lil guy being silly <3

#qsmp #roier #philza #spreen #like its funny bc im sure everyone thinks roier is not good at pvp as if he wasnt raised in highpixel since he was 13 alongside spreen #I dont think he can beat spreen though but spreen says roier is hard to fight when he plays seriously so yes even spreen agrees #correction: he won against spreen once dkxjdkxf #also ive seen tryhard-roier in action and yes all my hommies love tryhard-roier #is very cool to see him kill other players so fast and quick makes me proud. Is like ‘oh so spreen was right’ Ik it’s unexpected but #we (roiers community) know he is GOOD he just doesnt want to show it hes like shy or smth he doesnt want anyone to think he is a tryhard #he always says he is just ‘silly and funny moments roier’ and then he is at the finals of every single mc event with an amazing countkill #u all have no idea how much i want this server to push roier into his tryhard mode i MISS TRYHARD-ROIER #he only appears when he is caught up in the moment or when he is playing an event seriously and wants to WIN #HES A NERDDDDDDDD HE IS A CLOSETED NERDDDD !!! WHEN HE SAYS HE ISNT THAT GOOD HES LYING !!!!!! HES A LIAR !!!!! #YES IM EXPOSING MY STREAMER #HE WAS ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO MESSAGED CCS TO TELL THEM STARTEGIES TO WIN. IM TELLING YOU HES A NERD NERD NERD and i love him for that 😭💖 #if u guys dont believe me. Watch the vod of that day roier didnt log in after bobbys death and streamed on a sunday for a mc event #he killed three players in a row with a ton of lag. yes thats my streamer <3 #alessa's posts

[cream-and-tea]

[ID in alt]

pallas + giftgiving ❤️

#including not one but TWO instances of stealing stuff from calliope they’re so unserious #i didn’t even notice i’d done that twice until reading through to make this post but i think i should keep it that’s actually so funny 2 me #pallas why r you stealing shit from the person you’re obsessed with in a nemesis way to give to #the girl you’re obsessed with in a besties way what is WRONG with you #<— i bully but this post exists because i got overwhelmed with affection for them #bc like. they’re trying SO HARD they don’t know how to care in a way that isn’t destructive but they’re TRYING #and they do care they care so much they just don’t know how to express it and they don’t! want! to hurt her! #they believe that they will eventually but they don’t WANT to!!!!! #pallas outwardly: gives agnes a littol present #pallas inwardly: i would tear my heart still beating from my ribcage if it meant keeping you safe #they are NOT self aware about this though whenever they do something nice for agnes or anyone else their narration is just like #‘wow so weird that i did that moVING ON’ we don’t gain the ability to self reflect until book 2 #wip: ghost story #pallas #creme does a writing

[skitskatdacat63]

2005 European Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso(my personal post-race highlights)

+ bonus Mark Webber

#THIS RACE OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDD AAAAAAAAAA LETS GOOOOOO #its kinda funny tho bcs only the first lap and the last 2 laps were very exciting #the 2nd to last lap was actually insane(poor kimi but I jumped out of my chair for nando!!) #his smile in that last gif aaahhhhhhh he deserves it!! 4th win!!! #while in the middle of this race I was scared I wouldnt have much gif content cause it wasnt shaping up to be very interesting #BUT NO!! SO MANY GOOD POST-RACE MOMENTS!!!!! #(so many that it was rly hard to get down to 12. I like having 10 exact but I couldn't resist! The camerawork for nando was rly good) #(Mark is so interesting to me bcs he actually has a good amnt of camera time but its usually bcs he crashed out so im conflicted) #(he crashed out on the first lap and i was like 'oh...ok..bye mark :(' AND THEN THEY SHOWED HIM!) #but ah races like this make me wanna continue into 2006 bcs im so endeared by/hype for nando! #fernando alonso #mark webber #f1 #formula 1 #fa14 #2005 european gp #we do a little bit of f1 #(2005: 7/19 races watched) #(also just so you know I usually start another race while working on my post and I always manage to get halfway thru it aghhhhhhh) #(anyways pretty happy with this one!! Lots of good content im quite pleased!!)

[bumblingbabooshka]

One of the best Voyager scenes to indicate Tuvok & Neelix's dynamic and how I think Tuvok is just as if not more 'annoying'(positive) than Neelix is when Neelix pours Tuvok a fresh squeezed glass of a fruit juice blend and Tuvok's like (paraphrased) "I don't want to drink this." and Neelix is like "Can you please try it?" and Tuvok's like "I don't want to, you're really bad at this sort of thing. It's going to taste bad." and Neelix says that Ensign XYZ said she LOVED it, she even had a second glass! And Tuvok says Ensign XYZ could drink poison without a second thought and Neelix is like "Tuvok could you please just TRY it? Just try a little SIP of it PLEASE??" and Tuvok sighs and rolls his eyes and sniffs it before taking a sip and it turns out he loves it. Turns out it tasted good actually. And then after all that Neelix tries to talk to him over eggs (which he's again cooking fresh for him) and Tuvok tells him he doesn't wanna hear "the life history of his breakfast." Absolutely insufferable this man I would have burned his eggs on PURPOSE!!!!

#I love Neelix so much and I think he and Tuvok are very funny together - irritating4irritating #People say 'Neelix is so pushy with Tuvok!' and you know what? I think Tuvok can handle it. I think maybe he does need to be pushed - #down a flight of stairs. (he's my favorite character and he's so annoying...TUVOK!!!!!) #Tuvok: -kicking and screaming- I don't want to drink the juice!!! It's poison!!! You're trying to poison me!!!!!!!!! #Neelix: Can you please drink the juice. The fresh squeezed juice I made for you Mr. Vulcan??? Can you please??? #Tuvok: Fine but if I die it's your fault. If I die from the poison you're FORCING me to drink it's on y- Oh this is delicious actually. #and don't tell me 'Neelix didn't make it SPECIFICALLY for Tuvok' bc I know he didn't but he says #'I'll start squeezing that second glass!' after Tuvok finishes his sip so he IS freshly squeezing it #Neelix: -makes Tuvok fresh squeezed juice- #Tuvok: Are you trying to poison me??? #Neelix: -talks to Tuvok while making his eggs- #Tuvok: Can you be quiet??? #<- TUVOK!!!!!!!! I'M GONNA KILL YOU EHHEHEHEH <3 #Tuvok is the most annoying guy ever bc he doesn't care about what people think and is a snob with a lowkey superiority complex #vs Neelix is perceived as annoying (post his relationship with Kes) bc he cares a lot about being useful and helping the crew and sometimes #is too pushy because of that but listen...I think Neelix is sweet and genuinely trying his best - after the Kes plotline with him ends I #really don't find him objectionable. Just chatty & a bit overbearing maybe Meanwhile Tuvok !!! #Meanwhile Tuvok!!!!!!!!! HHEHEHHE #st voyager #star trek voyager #I think they should have done more with Neelix thinking the crew of Voyager were spoiled - specifically how Tuvok acts Like That sometimes #little lord Tuvok. oH SORRY...for DEIGNING to speak while preparing your eggs your HIGHNESS!! #I think people do a disservice to Tuvok by not talking more about how he's kind of a hardass and a snob v_v also a disservice to Janeway #indirectly bc her bestie is kind of a hardass and a snob and what does that say about her?? #I also wish Neelix kept up a bit of that 'these people are crazy and also so soft oh my god shut up about the food being bad - we're trying #to SURVIVE!!! Eat the Leola Root!!' from the earlier seasons...I like when he shows he has a bit of bite #It's just funny and interesting that Janeway isn't friends with Tuvok bc he's 'not like other Vulcans' - she's friends with the most #Vulcany Vulcan ever and I love that for them. #CRIMINAL that we don't ever get any in-depth insight into their friendship #Tuvok

[mqonlighting]

real talk in the tags for a second because i have a crush on a girl and i. a hehe. ahehehe.

will be burying this in reblogs and never touching on it again

#so random disclaimer this girl is like a year older than me and in high school it’s like a nono for older and younger batch to like be #a thing so i know i generally have no chance but i like to live in my own insanity and the progression of my crush on her has been absolute #ly cuckoo bananas. so like it started out as ‘i wanna be your friend’ and progressed into ‘shit they’re really pretty’ to ‘wow ur so??’ to #‘fuck i like them’ and then it died down and then by all golly it came back but more of a hallway crush now which is bearable bc i’m #not really a part of their life?? like we know each other but we don’t wave and shit and we don’t like ever interact that much so i was lik #ok this is fine bc they literally never think of me so i’m just admiring from afar. and the FIRST inciting incident was i request them onig #and i expect to not get accepted because according to their friends they onyl accept close friends and i’m like k this is a bad idea probs #but the worst that could happen is i get left in their follow requests right?? RIGHT?? but then within like two hours of reqing. lord. #i got. ACCEPTED. and they requested back. and suddenly it’s +1 tangibility like ok?? maybe we’re not as strangers as i thought we were #i later discovered i was not that special for this but also?? cool?? anyways for a while it kind of laid dead and we never spoke at all eve #tho i was in their acc now (at this time they barely posted but whenever they did it was so?? funny like they would slap the randomest shit #on that acc) and it was still a hallway crush altho my friends r awful (/pos) people who would always make me pass their hallway and i #would run into them so often but at this point we only ever like exchanged glances and they would walk right past me like i wasnt even ther #but THEN the second incident happened which was basically we had to play instruments for this christmas event thing and bc they’re literall #y amazing they played for it and i was roped into it and. i was so gay the whole time. bc who wears a leather jacket to school and gets the #prettiest haircut ever right on the last day before a long break?? and the worst part is whenevr something confusing happened they would #turn to me and this one other person and we’d b laughing together. like we r friends. and they’re so fucking nice they were checking up on #us the whole time i was literally dying i kept dropping my pick and stealing looks AURURUGH and they’re so gen funny and interesting i just #and the first few days of holiday break i just couldn’t stop thinking abt them it was so bad? like that was the moment where i was genuinel #like is this more than a hallway crush… eventually it died back down until the next event we had to play together where they were being SO #SO much more comf w me? like exchanging knowing looks when smt funny happens and that stuff.. at this point i didnt even know what to like #think of my crush on them so i just let it be yk. atp they’re not even waving at me in the hallways at all still so maybe they’re just bein #nice! BUT NO. THAT IS UNTIL I AUDITIONED FOR A BAND (theyr in charge of accepting) AND THEY ACCEPTED ME WHICH COOL BUT LIKE A DAY LATER I #HEARD FROM OUR MUTUAL FRIEND THAT THEY SAID ‘yeaa im so happy i got (my name)’ AS IN IN THE BAND. LIKE. HELLO?? HI U THIUGHT ABT ME?? and #during the first band mtg where everyone’s all awk they kept making eye contact w me and asking if i was good and making sure i got to say #smt before anyone made a decision and it. murdered. me. i’m sorry maybe it’s the fanfic writer in me or this shit is literally nothing and #think they’re just nice to everyone but who cares bc it means they’re nice to ME too. and then last week happened. which was like the nail #in the coffin. INTERACTION ACTIVITY. I IMPULSIVELY ASK IF THEY WANNA B GROUPMATES AND THEY SAY YES. THEY ONLY TALK TO ME AND THEIR FRIENDS. #I ACT STUPID. THEY ALUGH AND TOUCH MY SHOULDER. I ASK ABT THEIR CAMERA AND THEY GO ON A LONG-ISH (cute) RANT ABT SMTH. THEY ASK WHY I HAVE #BIG ASS STACK OF POST ITS. WE TALK. THEY LAUGH AT MY JOKES. SUDDENLY. THEY SAY A FULL HELLO IN THE HALLS. THEY WAVE AT ME A DAY LATER. FUCK

[starphobe]

a couple weeks back i had a very funny thought that made no sense under further scrutiny and so i decided not to post it but i think i'll just put it here for the sake of saving it somewhere

brennan has already established that the lines between gods and other massively magical/influential beings (archfey, archdevils, big beasts, yadda yadda) are kind of blurred? like... creatures can shift between these states if they fulfill the conditions to do so

we know ayda went SUPER FAR back in time. we're talking "leaving fossils" and "creating secret orders of knights" amounts of far back. she didnt WANT to go there either, she's actually mad as hell (malding) at her dad for making her go

we also know aguefort can grow in size big time (see: him tossing the sun literally being shown in the opening) and since ayda's also a very accomplished wizard i wouldn't put learning how to do that past her

and what is ankarna a god of again? Giants. Fire. Rage. (Conviction. Justice. Conquest. i did not definitively know these two when i formulated my thoughts several episodes ago but. i mean...)

basically: briefly considered ankarna being the remnants of ayda that somehow got stuck in the past and grew resentful of her dad for fucking her over a billion times/the unfairness of her existence -> her status as a legendary beast (half phoenix) would probably allow her to transition into something godhood-esque as she gathers a following -> this would tie into fig creating a powerful agreement with an entity/deity for warlock or paladin purposes, she and ayda stabilizing each other -> immediately remembered that ankarna has a sister (ravina) so unless there was some roundabout "ayda went through a phoenix revival and was reborn/adopted into ravinas family as a new god bc she started being worshipped by giants" i think this (very short lived) theory is off the table

however. tracker did have a moment of. bringing winter to falinel -> strengthening faith in galakaia... i wonder if ayda might at some point have brought summer to the mountains of chaos if nothing else. i feel like brennan isnt going to be able to resist making Parallels and References. idk

#this is such a funny post for me to make bc we know so much more about ankarna now than we did a month ago when i was considering this #and im an ayda liker but im not an ayda.. fan??? like. i was bummed that we wouldnt get to see her sure #but im not one of the people who were devastated when she left #so this isnt me trying to shoehorn my favorite npc into main character status or whatever. truly just my deranged brain at work. sorry #d20 #fhjy #not gonna tag this with anything else . im embarrassed. its so dumb #anyway. single funniest part of this? #past reincarnation of kristens situationship and future reincarnation of figs girlfriend got married #thats all. bye everyone

[magentagalaxies]

fucking love it when one of my professors brings up kids in the hall in giving me feedback, not in a pandering way but in a "this is an observation i've made about their work and how you could channel this aspect in your own comedy to get yourself out of your comfort zone and play with new things"

#shoutout to my improv teacher fr #we were talking about how i don't use dynamic physicality and movement as much in my characters #and she brought up how so much of their characters are very physical and encouraged me to play with that #and also specifically character temperament and emotions and stuff bc i have a specific range i play in #and it's funny even tho i personally think my comedy style is most like bruce #and scott in a lot of ways has these uninhibited moments i wish i could throw myself into #in terms of character range/voice/temperament/emotion? i'm playing heavily in the scott zone rn #and my professor was like ''that's great but also i wanna see you play a bruce girl'' #we also had a whole conversation about gender and kith and how gender plays into my improv or is absent from it a lot of the time #and holy shit erin my improv teacher wins cis ally of the day award she was so respectful while also having good feedback #(her feedback was low key ''be more overtly trans even if it makes cis people uncomfortable'') #bc like. i'm very overtly trans in my standup rn like you know how aubrey is #but in improv? sure i play many characters regardless of gender but that's the thing. it's ''regardless'' of gender #so i sort of default to being neutral so that others can project onto me. it's sort of ''idgaf i'm chill'' which in itself still is radical #but it gives ''cis allys'' who don't want to deal with gender an outlet to just project onto me in a way that i could own much more #anyway the way i process feedback is often by repeating it to someone else so like. this didn't need to be a post this is for me #but idk if you're following along with my comedy journey (or even if you just want to hear my professor reference kids in the hall!) #maybe this is of interest to you. in any case i'm very excited to play with all this stuff much more #and i definitely feel confident in my comedic identity and trans identity and most of all my trans-comedian identity #and i'm excited to see how i grow from here

[seventh-district]

it’s finally getting cold enough that i can bring my cardigan collection back into rotation without feeling like i’m gonna melt into a puddle the second i step outside!!!

#Seven.txt #my face #i have rematerialized back out of the void to once again make my once-in-a-blue-moon selfie & life update post #i’m running on 4 hours of restless sleep and the single banana i ate for lunch earlier today. let’s do this #hrrrrg i hate the lighting in my bathroom but i refuse to take pictures in the absolute Mental Illness Disaster Zone™️ that is my bedroom #anyways. got diagnosed with Mystery Pain Syndrome at the dentist today. so now i take ✨steroids✨ #the less funny explanation is that my tooth still hurts with pressure nearly a month post-root canal and That’s Not Good #so we’re trying some new medications to see if that fixes it. and if not then who knows. root canal pt.2 the sequel. or extraction. sigh #and so the Dental Saga continues. todays visit went quite well in spite of the unforeseen mystery pain delaying the tooth-shaving plans #we had some time to kill so he managed to fill some of my other tiny cavities while i was there today so that’s good #okay moving on. what else. uhh. OH they finally came out and ran the fiber to the house last week!!! now i’m just waiting on one more- #-guy to come and finish the interior install and the long awaited fast internet will finally be mine eheheheheeeee #now i can feel my hours upon hours of unedited gameplay footage breathing down my neck :) #man i’ve got so much stuff piled up right now. i’m drowning in Tasks and it’s a lil overwhelming but i’ll handle it all! eventually #uhhhhm my current writing project is coming along well! i’ve never put so much time and effort into a oneshot before in my life #its a labor of love though and i think i’m gonna be really proud of myself (and the fic) once it’s complete #even if no one reads it bc it’s so goddamn self indulgent and kinda lowkey throws canon out the window but like. fuck it! #if i want Astarion to write a song on piano and perform it for me while mentally taking me on a trip down memory lane. then so be it #fr though i’ve never written anything quite like this and i rlly want to do it justice. even if its unrealistic i still want it to be Good #in other news i received word that one of the chickens i sponsor at my local Gentle Barn has passed away so i had a lil cry abt that #i feel so bad for his little tiny chicken wife. they obviously loved each other and it’s like. so sad when one half of an old couple dies #like. she pulled him out of his depression after his 1st wife died. now who’s gonna be there to pull Her out… #anyways let’s not get all sad about that again. in happier news my cat who i presumed died/got killed has returned home uninjured!!! #after that huge stray dog chased her into the woods i thought we’d never find or see her again #but then the morning after i started grieving her she showed back up hungry as hell yet completely unharmed like the enigma that she is #so that’s one definite highlight from earlier this month. uhh what else. rapid fire summary of the past few weeks let’s go- #Jersey turned 10! Bullet turned 10! my 6 year Veganniversary happened! i’m approaching 700 days on DuoLingo! #i’ve written more than 20 thousand words! i’ve been facing some fears! fighting my OCD! taking care of myself! (kinda!) #anyways things are far from being all sunshine and roses around here but i’m trying to focus on the good stuff for the most part #for now tho i have a headache and have reached 30 tags so it’s time to go shovel some mashed potatoes into my mouth :)

[sage-nebula]

I'm really glad that Sega has allowed Amy to move out of her harassment phase re: her crush on Sonic, because the way she was written back in the late 90s / 00s with regards to her crush on him is not only uncomfortable and not okay behavior (continuing to push yourself on someone after they've said "no" isn't okay even when you're a girl pushing yourself on a boy), but was also really detrimental to her character. Not only did it give people a negative impression of her (her obsessing over Sonic being her boyfriend / marrying her is remembered more often by casual fans than her actual stories in those games), but it also runs contrary to the fact that Amy has always been a kindhearted, compassionate, empathetic person. We see her compassion and empathy with other characters in those same games (wanting to save Birdie from Gamma, reminding Shadow of his actual promise to Maria, helping Cream and Big find Chocola and Froggy), so to then have her turn right around and completely ignore Sonic's feelings / boundaries because of her crush is just . . . bad. It's a bad look, and bad writing. And I don't hold it against her, any more than I hold instances of Tails having bad writing against him. These are fictional characters, they're beholden to their writers. But it's still not great and I'm really glad that Sega has realized that having Amy harass Sonic isn't funny or cute, and has instead allowed her to treat him like she does the rest of her friends: with the kindness, compassion, and empathy she's known for.

#not rebloggable bc i know how this fandom is & i don't care for the discourse #but i was just rewatching some Heroes cutscenes and y i k e s #Amy being like ''just give up! you're not getting out of marrying me now!'' before Team Rose attacks Team Sonic is like . . . jeez #it's not a great look! #a lot of this was a product of its time; anime from that time period did a lot with ''girl pursues guy no matter how much he tells her no #and this is seen as OK bc teehee women are weaker than men and therefore ineffectual threats'' #see also: Sakura pursuing Sasuke - although decades later she never grew out of that & in her post-canon novel has the ''epiphany'' #that she will continue to push herself on him until his ''no'' turns into a ''yes'' #so needless to say that i am SO. FUCKING. GLAD. that Sega got their heads out of their asses & didn't go that route w/ Amy #i would still prefer Sonic to always remain single bc I'm an aroace Sonic truther - but at least we won't be in a timeline where #Amy just ''wore him down'' - bc she hasn't harassed him like that for years now. she calmed down & they have a friendship #so if they DO make the ship overt it'll be bc she calmed down so Sonic was able to develop feelings naturally #versus she wore him down with the harassment. & her behavior in the 90s / aughts games WAS harassment #but back then it was considered cute & funny in anime (bc again - girls aren't threatening teehee /gag) so. it was what it was #i'm just glad things are different now

[1llusionmachine]

ok but like. if I was pauline and my partner still had his ex's name tattooed on his arm and he wasn't in the process of lasering it off i'd be PISSED

#also getting a partners name tattooed is the biggest no-no to ever exist #like rule number 1 #does he not want us to remember how dumb he is lmao bc hun do i have news for u we think ur dumb anyway lmao #also mate NOT showing ur arms for literal YEARS is making it more obvious #its just so funny to me and also im so nosy i just want to know if its there #i dont normally post much abt his personal life in depth but this is a point of contention haha

[skitskatdacat63]

are there any other historical figures you like I'm intrigued 👀

Okay buckle in, somehow this post will be weirder than any of my f1 stuff bcs for some reason I'm very intense about historical figures, I think I just have a tendency to treat them like blorbos

Mostly I'm endeared to powerful figures, idk why, it's the way it is. Okay so obviously you already know I like Napoleon(and Wellington to an extent), that really doesn't need to be emphasized anymore

Since being in Austria, I feel super endeared to Maria Theresa. She just seemed like such a boss! I think she's just really cool. Her father changed the plan of succession so she'd become Empress(rather than her cousins), but immediately upon taking power, she was immediately embroiled in war over her being the new ruler(everyone who had signed the treaty of succession suddeny reversed) But she defended her rule of the Habsburg monarchy! I think the coolest part about her is that her husband, who married into the Habsburgs, was supposed to be in charge, but she wouldn't let him be involved at all practically and was the de facto ruler of the Holy Roman Empire for like 20 years. She had 16 children and was basically constantly pregnant and having kids while involved in war, yet still held power and guided Austro-Hungary through it all 🥹 I think it's very funny also that she was laying out so many reforms, guiding the country basically just herself, and still found time to write letters to all their kids and be an overbearing mother. Also she was Marie Antoinette's mother?? I'm still shocked by how many important kids she had. If you've been to any part of the former Austro-Hungarian(+ Bohemian) Empire, she really left her mark, there's soooo much stuff named after her. The statue of her in between the Kunsthistorisches and the Natural History Museum in Vienna is really cool, and that she has a whole Platz named after her with her giant statue!!! I think it's just really admirable that a woman at that period of time had so much power and ruled so efficiently. (MY god sorry I wrote so much)

Okay now I'll try to refrain from the historical rambles, I also like: Julius Caeser(cliche sorry I know), Dmitri Shostakovich(my favorite composer ever), Pyotr Tchaikovsky(pls read about his sugar mommy patron), Erwin Rommel(I like his nickname: The Desert Fox), J.C. Leyendecker(favorite artist, I am obsessed with his work), Alphonse Mucha, Calvin Coolidge(not the best president by far but the anecdotes about his social awkwardness and quietness are hilarious to me), Ernst Gideon von Laudon(not completely insane about him, but it's like with the Napoleon Crossing the Alps painting, I saw a painting and bust of him and now feel weirdly endeared.) And then there's probably some others I can't recall atm because it's 3 am

I think my top three though are Napoleon, Julius Caesar and Maria Theresa. They're all just very: "Catie saw a painting/statue and is now very weird about it." And then being in the vicinity of so much history made it 1000x worse. Things I saw in Vienna that made me go "oh my god it's blorbo from my history book": Napoleon Crossing The Alps painting(I seriously sat in that room for probably 20 mins just staring at it, I didn't want to leave) + some other various Napoleon artifacts in the Heeresgesichtliche, a very nice bust of Julius Caesar, and literally the entirety of Vienna had Maria Theresa everywhere

#i said before but i do think its funny to have historical blorbos bcs it makes people go 'what is wrong with you' #all my friends on that trip soon learned my napoleon obsession once we stepped in that museum.... #you guys are learning too much about my psyche between this and the OC posts #you thought I was unhinged only about F1? dont worry. it gets worse. #i just like reading and then holding info i guess so i can go on random rants #and history is the best to read about!! #mostly though im incapable of being normal about anything i have to be unhinged about it #but gahhhhhh im having actually a lot a lot of fun with all the napoleon stuff lately #thank you guys for encouraging me <3 #for some reason that era imprinted on my brain and its always there and i cant escape #so being able to use it and indulge in it is so much fun #also i found this random person's blog and they are way more knowledgeable abt Napoleon than me #i was having so much fun reading through their blog and learning!!!! #anyways yes here pls take my rambling this one is especially bad #why did you have to ask 😭 you dont know what you unleashed in me 😭😭😭 #* gotta add #the napoleon thing is sooooooo bad #like ill see a tiny ref to him and ill get all 😍 about it #like i think one time in Russian we were reading names of historical figures in cyrillic #and i saw napoleon and i like had such a 'gasping maiden' moment #WHY AM I LIKE THIS WHY DID MY BRAIN DO THIS TO ME #i dont get it either so dont question it JDKFLGLG #i mentioned but someone asked me 'so why do you like napoleon so much' and im just ?????? i dont choose what i brainrot over. #catie.asks. #catie.rambling.txt #sorry its late and i feel deranged #no FPs for me! too busy and too tired

[iron-sides]

ok so on one level i do think tim will hold damian trying to kill him against him like. for years and years if not for EVER. i am nothing if not a believer in tim drakes ability to hold a grudge. how ever it occurred to me today that my little sister used to like. attack me, right. unprompted. she didnt have any way to deal with her feelings other than anger & violence and she couldnt take it out on my parents so it was All directed at me until she was at least 10 and even then we werent close until she hit around 13 or 14 because we (and by we i mostly mean she) learned how to compromise and also because i had started figuring out how to get my Autism Needs met and had more energy to spend on improving that relationship. anyway the point im making is that and it never occurred to me until like today how unreasonable this is but i have never actually held any instance of physical violence (and i do mean physical violence like hitting kicking biting slapping-- i used to have a habit of turning my back to her any time she seemed upset because she Would come at me and it hurt less on my back like. neither of us knew how to fight but i didnt rlly want to hurt her (i did a few times but almost always in the form of like. "oh bee pushed me down the stairs when we were younger" <- girl you were attacking me i needed you out of the room so i could melt down and u were literally attacking me. it wasnt on purpose it was the natural consequence of you attacking me) anyway ive never held the physical violence against her longer than like a few hours (been nervous sure but not mad) because like shes my little sister and i love her and that was the case even when she hated me. its something my parents did an okay job of acknowledging at the time that like any time the lamented that we didnt get along where i could hear it came with a "we know youre trying, she's the problem" (and she was to be clear. i say this with love but she was very much the problem i was the only person she ever attacked and i never hit back except to try and put space between us). anyway. the point is i do think i would react to damian wayne the exact same way dick grayson does if put in a similar situation because if my sister had had assassin training she would have done serious damage and it wouldnt have changed a thing

#my thots #like i would give the world for her. she is my number fucking one thats my girl!!! #im so proud of her at all times and i love her so much and im so glad she knows she can come to me and that we're friends now #i get rlly sappy abt my sister actually there are not words in english to describe how much i love her. shes the reason i love older #sibling characters so much because theres no other feeling in the world like the way i feel about her #anyway. she described to me in detail one time how she was going to kill me. she was three and i was five #i kicked her out of my room bc she did this after we had a minor argument abt sleeping arrangements for the sleepover we were having in my #bedroom #looking back the image of three year old sister waiting with an axe to kill me is rlly funny but it was a lot less funny at the time lol #idk how much sense this makes but i do think part of the reason i love damian and dicks dynamic so much is bc it half reminds me of her #if she was younger and our parents were more overtly shitty than #yell at us about stupid things shitty #anyway i think its an oldest sibling thing like i dont think tim would ever come around because hes not been an older sibling for that long #he hasnt developed the Instincts. but i have as dick grayson very clearly has and the Instincts say small child attacking needs therapy #and patience #this post makes no sense but im not gonna try to fix that bc i need to write a speech #loveposting

[mrs-kelly]

There has not been a day since I first saw Charlie where I’ve seen him and not been filled with delight at his existence and there never will be, this I know for sure ❤️

#it’s funny to think. the memes of him have been around forever #and even before I watched the show I’d see him and he’d make me smile #no matter what c: #and then the first time I saw the show and heard his voice and saw his mannerisms #I was like WOAH THIS MAN #I had so much affection for him #but I was like ‘I should wait 🥺 I should wait until I watch the show and get to know him better’ #basically I was like ‘let’s be friends c:’ and in the meantime I’d see him and just look with heart eyes ahfjgkgl #for yearrrrrrrrs #so many years. so many years of seeing him and feeling in my heart that I’m crazy about him #but doing nothing about it until what. a few weeks ago #what changed? idk I was like ‘I should finally watch aIways sunny bc my husband and his brother always quote it’ #and then I just couldn’t help but fall madly in love with him #I couldn’t stop thinking about him even tho I thought that maybe it’d be a little crush #I want even gonna post about him at all like. I thought it’d pass bc I felt SO much so fast #‘so fast’ ahdjfl as if I haven’t been pining for him for years #look where we are now. he’s so important to me #I don’t ever wanna go back. I wanna stay in love with him forever #ren speaks #im gushing out here folks #renlie

[hella1975]

right so i got my hair cut yesterday and mind you when im at uni my haircutting options are to get my one mate to do it (she's surprisingly good but can get very scissor happy) OR cut my own bangs in the sink with cuticle scissors at midnight while my automatic light turns off every five seconds. no that's not hyperspecifc what do you mean. anyway i got my hair cut yesterday and BY THE PROFESSIONAL HAIRDRESSER THAT DOES MY MUM AND SISTER'S HAIR. now this lady has been doing our hair for over a decade she's very chill she knows us very well i stress her out a lot bc every time i see her im like 'i want to [insert crazy hair idea here]' and she's like orrrr what if we didn't? BUT yesterday i was like i want my hair short again i hate that it's grown to touch my shoulders bc it curls weird. and what i was aiming for was literally just to replicate what my friend does for me back at uni where she just cuts it to my jaw and that's that nothing too complicated, BUT like i said this lady is a skilled professional AND she knows me in both a style sense and what she knows i'd like and in the sense of i really dont give a fuck about my hair so she knows she can have a lil fun with it, and basically long story short i have a wolf cut now

#it wasn't even on purpose i didn't actually realise what i was describing to her was a wolf cut until she was done #and i looked in the mirror like HEY THIS IS WHAT ALL THE HOT TIKTOK BISEXUALS HAVE #like you know how a wolf cut is a mix between a mullet and a shag cut? mine's like that except it's slightly more shag #until i push it behind my ears a lil in which case it's more mullet #im OBSESSED with it holy fuck #im gonna get styling stuff too bc i never normally do anything with my hair but this is something else #i look like a punk lesbian im obsessed #also my godmum is coming for tea soon and she's a butch lesbian so im hoping i get some sort of compliment from her #will keep you posted #mind i dont have much respect for her despite her being my Sole Female Queer Rep Irl because her politics are FUCKED #this woman voted brexit like okay babygirl set your own movement back then #but acknowledgement from the local butch is still acknowledgement from the local butch #and i am but a mere baby gay making grabby hands #fun fact i acc tried to get a shag cut from my uni friend but it was out of her skill level (obvs cause she's not trained lol) #BUT she's the super super innocent highly christian friend ive mentioned a couple times #and she very cheerfully went 'i love when you ask for a shag' and like. left it #and we just sat in silence while i waited for her to clock what she said and she just DIDNT #and i just said her name very slowly and went 'can you repeat that for me' #and she really loudly went 'OH MY GOD' it was so funny

[magentagalaxies]

went to toronto again for new years weekend and spent pretty much the entire time hanging out with paul bellini which included us rewatching a bunch of episodes from kith s4 during dinner on new years eve. and y'know the second best thing about watching kids in the hall with paul bellini is getting to hear a bunch of behind-the-scenes backstory about the inspiration for sketches, previous versions that never saw the light of day, , etc. but the actual best thing about watching kids in the hall with paul bellini is when an entire sketch will play without comment and at the very end he goes "the fuck was that?"

#i already sent a similar thing to the kith discord like right after this happened but i can't stop thinking about it that was so funny #the specific sketch he was reacting to was mark's monologue about having no sex appeal #(paul had completely forgotten that one bc he didn't write it and he wasn't even there the day it was filmed) #we were specifically watching s4 bc he's seen seasons 1-3 fairly recently but s4 he's less familiar with #partially bc he and scott spent so much of the year working on chalet 2000 #but yeah i'll do a full end of the year post as soon as i get the rest of the pics from hanging out at bellini's apartment on new years eve #but yeah this weekend was so fucking good. like we've really come full circle #from the days when i'd joke on here that ''paul bellini is my bestie'' bc he replied to my comment once #bc now i genuinely consider him one of my closest friends and it seems like he sees me that way too #like just the fact that we were hanging out all day both days i was in town even if it was just like running errands together #and any time someone called him he'd make sure to mention ''jessamine's here!'' and he sounded so happy about that #and we watched the video of my standup final together which i used to cringe at just bc i low key bombed in front of the second audience #like i think the performance itself was great the audience just wasn't giving me any reaction #but even tho paul had clearly watched that video multiple times he was still laughing at a lot of it #and making sure to note whenever he genuinely thought i had a great joke which was often #so now i have a completely different association with that set bc i got to see bellini enjoy it #i don't have a specific favorite kith member (i know it seems like it's obviously scott but i love them all for different reasons) #and it's also complicated by knowing some of them irl bc my relationship to each of them is so different and great in their own ways #but yeah there's something so special about my friendship with bellini #i'm so excited to move to toronto full time next year bc i already know i'm probably coming over to paul's for dinner at least once a week

[cloneboywonder]

im so CWCcoded

#anyway my apologies for gaslighting you all about not personal diary posting bc my dad just texted me goodnight and it made me sad #him and my mom both tried to call me all day I feel bad when I ignore them #bc I know they’ll be dead someday and they won’t be able to call me and I won’t be able to answer #and my brothers both tried to call me I know my mom narced that I was weird yesterday and now everyones scrambling to keep track of me #it’s very nice of them but I really do hate being reminded that I’m the family member that like #they’ve all quietly agreed is always going to have to be monitored and taken care of #I wouldn’t be surprised if Andy and Alex haven’t talked about who I’m going to going to live by when our parents are both gone #it was kind of funny Andy invited me to like go install a security camera with him today #I said no but I do think it could’ve been a fun experince #I was gonna see my mom but she didn’t want to go out again so I waited around until my dad tried to call me again #so then be brought me with him to a hardware store where he tried (and failed) to return paint or something #we love a schemer #and then we picked up Andy and got milkshakes but I was ill so he got me real food on the way home #but I’m going to have to find a way to throw it out tomorrow bc I didn’t eat that much of it and I don’t want him to be sad about it #and I have to clean my room bc Lydia will be here soon #I was weepy in the car and my dad kept saying it’s nice you’ll get a few days with her before the concert #I know :-( #to some extent I love that he’s so incapable of handling emotional moods bc he just puts on songs and complains about them #bc he knows I like to complain and I think he gets scared when I don’t talk and that’s his attempt at getting me to #I need to finish my costume and make bracelets and clean my room these seem doable #okay bye please don’t unfollow me #also I love the name doxing bc these are for me and me only and maybe burke when he logs on I love you #my posts