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aliveinacoffin · 10 months

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My Own Mirror

Pt 2 of this fic, since I love feeding y'all. AND TY SM AWW

TW: Mentioned past child abuse, mentioned past brief descriptions of domestic violence

There was another long stretch of silence, just as unbearable as the first if not more painful.

Shouta's tired eyes scanned the balcony, his eyes traveling from the weed to the makeshift roof. He shook his head, muttering to himself how the top was prohibited as well. He seemed deeply uncomfortable, the whole situation was something so out of his depth that even being here was painful.

"Do you even wonder? Do you even care?" Her voice was still wet, the waterworks still coming down her face, just at a considerably slower pace.

Shouta looked back at her, the young girl in front of him, with a sense of sadness and pity she'd never seen on him before.

"All the time. I...regret....not coming back for you, all those years ago, even now. I can't bear to look at you without being angry at myself." He admitted, head low and hands shaking.

Suddenly, a sense of realization hit the younger Aizawa like a ton of bricks. This whole time, Shouta was angry at himself and took it out on her instead of mourning the loss of his family. It made it more painful when both of them realized when they took into account that they both were just carbon copies of their late mother.

They both shared the same sharp nose as her, the same slightly curly jet-black hair, and the same hooded and dark eyes. Hell, even your erasing quirks came from her side of the family. Her quirk was that anyone who was within 20 feet of her would have their abilities damped, and when it was activated, low and behold, her eyes would glow.

"I'm sorry that I was never there. Father just...made it so impossible to even share the same room as him. I've regretted every moment that I left you behind with that man. I thought that now you were coming back to me was some sort of divine punishment. I've been the hardest on you because I couldn't bare to watch you fail too." Shouta's voice was tense, strained as he tried to hold back his own tears. He quickly brought a hand to his mouth, pulling down the skin of his face as he tried to will away his tears.

"All I ever wanted was to be with you. I always looked up to you, you escaped, and you made a better life for yourself like no one else in our family had." She admitted, a true admission of feelings from the depths of her heart. Her stance was still aggressive, feet spread apart and shoulders hunched as she protected her stomach. The more this painful conversation went on, the more her stomach ached. A trait from her fathers.

"I'm so sorry, you've had to suffer so long alone." Shouta looked away, pain etched into the very creases of his face.

Her teeth clenched as agony wracked her entire body, and she too avoided eye contact, not able to bare the look of vulnerability on her older brother's face.

"I-I.. don't have to..anymore now though, r-right?" Her voice cracked.

Shouta looked up at her once more, a sad surprise written on his face. His eyebrows furrowed down, and a sad frown pulled on his mouth. "N-no. No. Not anymore." He rested his arms uncomfortably at his side, and suddenly she rushed into his arms. His younger sister hugging onto his stiff form so tightly it almost hurt.

He relaxed in her hold and brought an arm to gently cradle her back.

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The afternoon was shining brightly, the sun setting made everything glow in an orange hue. The sounds of birds cawing and children laughing and chattering were heard all around U.A., a common thing for the high school.

Two people walked side by side with one another. An outsider might assume it was the result of a weird quirk, the people at U.A. thought it was a man and his daughter, but very few people knew the truth.

"So what does it mean again?" The younger sister asked black thick hair in a messy ponytail. Her long hair had been cut to a comfortable pixie cut, she had never really liked it long. Her once lanky form had been filling out slowly with her time at U.A. now that she had access to a proper diet and constant exercise.

The older brother sighed, tired eyes rolling once more. His hair was shoulder-length with a messy sort of fringe. "I have a foster parent certificate. I can house children in need of homes, and it shows I have the qualifications to do so. I can also adopt children of my own. But for our situation, I am merely acting as your temporary guardian until you turn of age." Shouta Aizawa sighed, turning to look at the younger Aizawa.

"Finally! Jesus, it took them long enough." She huffed, the same hooded eyes looking back at him. Her arms crossed over her strong chest. That was one thing that was different between them, while Aizawa was lean and quick, his younger sister was more built and stocky. Like their parents were.

"It's a long legal process with the necessary precautions. It would be foolish to just allow anyone with this license." He said, stating the facts per usual.

"Okay yeah sure, but it didn't have to take so damn long." She muttered angrily, lips forming a pout.

They walked to the teacher's dorm, and she awkwardly waved at all her mentors lounging around in the safe space. Some were caught off guard and scrambled to do something productive, while others just lazily waved at her back.

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"This is..kinda sad." The little Aizawa admitted, wandering around the older Aizawa's dorm. She immediately went to snooping and started rummaging around his few belongings.

"I didn't bring you here to judge me. My decorating is fine the way it is. No need to over-clutter my living space." He murmured grumpily, going over to the open kitchen to start a pot of coffee.

"Sureee. So, do I have to live with you now that you're my legal guardian?" She asked, her voice giving way to nothing of how she truly felt about that.

Since the two had started to build a relationship together, there were many bumps in the road. The biggest and foremost was their personalities. The older Aizawa acted like their late mother, her emotional unavailability and neglect are what shaped his apathetic nature and rather tired attitude. Whilst the other had grown up with their angry and headstrong father, his anger and physical abuse turned into her stubborn pride and unmovable nature.

Though that proved to be difficult to navigate at first, it soon turned into their own song and dance. Almost reminiscent of how their parents were with one another. But instead of screaming matches that turned to physical violence, they turn to angrily stare each other down.

"You don't have to if you don't want to." Shouta said, wary of what her response will be.

The youngest turned around, a determined grin on her face. "Guess I'll have to move all my stuff in here before the weekend ends, huh?" Her hands were on her hips, proud of her revelation.

He sighed and shook his head in mock disappointment, but a smile found its way to his lips. "If that's what you want." Shouta turned around to pour himself a cup of coffee.

"I see you smiling asshole!" His sister laughed, joy filling her teasing voice.

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Tag list :>: @hitokor

#my hero academia #aizawa shouta #bnha shouta aizawa #bhna #mha #mha fanfiction #aizawa fluff #shouta aizawa #hes a dork #SORRY GUYS I CANT HELP BUT MAKE HAPPY ENDINGS #im so happy so many people wanted a pt 2 omg #just two traumatized sillies

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dogloveri23 · 2 years

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The Hardest Thing

Pairing: Diluc x reader x Childe

Warning: break-in/sneak in, heartbreak, tears, not proofread

A/n: So I googled a few angst prompts and I've gotten some motivation to write again! So I'll try to keep them coming. This one is long awaited! Thanks again for reading my content!

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Part 1: safety Part 2: All for what?

Written by @dogloveri23

It was an ordinary day at the harbour, you had been doing your usual routine for the day. You had already finished working and had the time to prepare food for yourself. Your boyfriend Childe had been out of the city doing work for the Tsarita, so he would not be back anytime soon meaning that this would be a cold night. Occasionally, on these lonely days, you think of him. His red hair, despite him always being gone, On cold nights, he would come over no matter how late, to hold you. He was quiet and late, but he was there! It had been some time since you had said his name as just hearing his name or seeing anything he liked to do made you stop in your tracks and freeze up. On this cold night, you often find yourself crying For Reasons only your heart understood but your head refuses to pay attention to. It felt so wrong as Childe treated you like a princess, he had vowed to protect you no matter what came and you love him! Despite it all the red-haired man occupied your mind no matter how you tried to deny it. What was wrong with you? Things were never this difficult for you! They were never this complicated! After all, he left you not the other way around! He gave up on you not the other way around! So why are you still thinking about him, after all, this time when you have someone who's willing to stay with you despite all the craziness that happens in your life it was a question that only your heart knew the answer to and your head constantly pondered over. Your house was quiet as expected, after all, she had told you ahead of time that he would be gone for some time. You put your grocery bag on the kitchen aisle as you thought of what you were going to prepare for yourself. Zhongli had told you earlier that he thought that it might rain tonight. The man wasn't always a hundred percent accurate with the weather as no one could exactly predict it. But he was highly accurate on most occasions, so you thought that maybe tonight you will prepare some soup. You had bought your ingredients randomly with no definite meal in mind. As you were about to prep your ingredient of voice coughed behind you. The figure was hidden in the dark part of the kitchen close to the light switch and you could only make out a few features but you felt oddly familiar. "Childe is that you? This prank isn't funny!" You yell in an attempt to get the person to show themselves. Childe often played tricks but he never lied when he was going on a mission.

"So you are really conversing with that Fatui, you must really like being in danger," a voice you could recognize in your sleep said so monotonously but with underlying anger. The figures step into the light to reveal the Keeper of your heart and the one who had been clouding your judgment. "Diluc? What are you doing here? And why the hell are you in my house?" You are taken aback by the situation you were currently facing. "None of that is important at this moment, What I need to know is why you chose to be with that man who is guilty and evil in many ways," Diluc says, eyes not leaving yours. "Excuse me?!" You exclaim coming to your senses. "You can't just come into my house and start questioning me like I owe you an explanation! You and I are over you said it yourself!" You exclaim feeling that anger bubbling in you. "I understand that, but I don't understand why you are choosing to be with someone who will put a target on your back" "Because I love him! Is it that hard to understand? I want to be with him because I love him, I couldn't care less" You yell in rage. Diluc was taken aback by your voice, you had never yelled at him before, even when you two had arguments. But this wasn't an argument he could back out of when everything he sacrificed for was going to go to waste! "This isn't about what you think, it is about what is going to keep you safe" He yelled at you hoping to see you calm down and return to your senses. "I am safe with him, he can protect me, why do you even care?" You ask not getting why he felt like he had a say in any of this or what you did with your life. "Because I broke up with you so you could be safe and not for you to run into the arms of one of the most dangerous people in the whole of Teyvat!" He says as he calms down and looks at the ground and ponders to himself during this silent moment between you two. "Safe? Safe from what?" You asked, extremely confused as you finally understood his previous statement.

"I am... The 'Darknight Hero' of Mondstadt. I had been before, during, and am still currently. I.. had thought that if I had continued to date you, the abyss would have used you against me or directly hurt you, so I couldn't just keep..." Diluc said as he took occasional pauses in his statements. After a few seconds, it all made sense, the lateness, the rushed dates, the tired mornings. At this moment, it was so obvious to you that you wondered how you didn't figure it out before. But it didn't change the fact that he didn't trust you enough to tell you when you two were together and optimally broke up with you. Though it had answered your questions, it gave you a new reason to be pissed. "So what I'm hearing is... you didn't trust me and optimally made a major decision in our relationship on my behalf? This doesn't make it any better?! It doesn't change the fact that you left me! You broke up with me, you let me go! " You yell. “ Giving you up is the hardest thing I ever had to do! Do you think I was happy that I let you leave? Do you think I was happy that I let you walk out of the door that night? It took everything in me to not chase you after you left!” Diluc yelled, his usually stoic expression turned into one on the verge of breaking down right before your eyes. "But what's changed now? What happened that make things different from how things were before?" You say as you turn away from Diluc as it pained you to see him like this. " I...I'm Jealous" He says causing you to look at him confused, it was not something that you had expected to hear him say. " Despite your recklessness with choosing partners, I cannot imagine something more torturous than the life I had lived without you. I..... did not know what to do with myself. I expected to keep you safe even if we were no longer together. Even if it would be watching you from afar, it was complicated. I had to compose myself so I wouldn't run up to you and it was even harder not seeing you anymore. As I imagined not seeing you for the rest of my life, envisioned you with someone else... I couldn't accept it! I was so sure that no matter where you were in Teyvat, I would find you, because, without you, I am incomplete" Diluc said. He slowly walked up to you, giving you a chance to move away if you were uncomfortable but you stayed in your spot not moving an inch. He took your hand in his and used his other hand to tilt your head to face him. "Please come back to me?" He asks as his face hovered above yours and you could feel his breath softly hitting your our occasionally. "Diluc.." You whisper as you think of the choice you are about to make.

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