#this portfolio is so stupid

[piedoesnotequalpi]

Shout-out to past me for using [sic] after every instance of "person with autism" that I had to quote in a research paper

#reading back through work for the next class on the list that i have to reflect on #this portfolio is so stupid #anyway identity first language is great! much less clunky #autism #school #isabel.tex #the professor for this class was vehemently in favor of person first language #to the point that he was upset about the Deaf community's opinions #like okay professor [redacted] are you Deaf? no? then it's not your business! #and despite this class being online asynchronous i fought him multiple times #update: I ENDED THIS PAPER WITH THE LINE: #“In conclusion I am joining the war on autism on the side of autism” #AND I STILL GOT A 100 ON THE ASSIGNMENT #thanks past me that was very entertaining to read

[kod-lyoko]

It's Always Sunny in Pomodoro??

hello, is your hyperfixation on sunny preventing you from studying and doing your work? that's why i hired this mac to stare at you and keep an eye on you during your pomodoro sessions and judge you if you lose focus

#if it says that this page is dangerous then blame Microsoft bc i don't know what i'm doing and they said they provide some certificates #for free just like custom domains but ig they lied bc i'm stuck with this lemon pond #also if something doesn't work or looks shitty on your device message me and I'll try to figure out something #also this is so stupid but like i had to make this #putting this into my portfolio rn #iasip

[figofswords]

the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something

#WHAT AM I DOING!!!! #i get up i go to my stupid retail job i stick labels on bags they pay me fucking thirteen bucks an hour i come home i lie on the couch #too tired to draw in too much pain to go anywhere no energy to reach out to college friends to do anything fun #no idea where the even start with getting an industry job no clue what i even WANT at this point #trying to remember what i loved so much about comics i want it BACK i HATE this #WHAT IS THE POINT!!!! WHAT DO I WANT WHERE AM I GOING!!! WHAT COMES NEXT!!!!!! #there's no clear career trajectory i can't do freelance i need structure i can't work too much i need free time #my brain doesn't work every job requires me to move across the country the irs just took fucking three hundred stupid dollars from me #my friends live in different states i can't get a job without experience i can't get experience without a job #i can't work on my portfolio with no energy and no time and i dont have any money and everything is so expensive all the time #i can't get anywhere bc i dont drive and im too stressed to think about taking driving lessons again #and WHAT DO I WANT! #THE MOST INTERESTING THING I DO EVERY WEEK IS GO TO PHYSICAL THERAPY! #I AM EXCITED EVERY WEEK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!! WHY!!!!!!!! #anyway WHATEVER i need to go to bed #delete later #i got into spx. today. so. had to have a crisis about how i felt when i attended spx (energized. excited. a part of something. ambitious) #versus how i feel now (tired. unmotivated. kind of apathetic about art. disconnected) #i dont miss the stress of school but i miss being around other artists. ppl who speak your language and who want the same things you want #ppl who are excited abut art and that makes YOU excited about art. ppl who get you #i miss that i want that back #whatever. its 1am i gotta go shower i have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow. wahoo. $13.50/hr lets go

[micromime]

Woodie....

#woodie #woodie dst #woodie ds #dst #my brother you need to run #i had to screenshot this because the image was too fucking big #weak ass tumblr if it looks fucked that bcasue it is #it looks more crisp not screenshotted can you believe that #ANYWAY #i dont draw woodie very often or at all acutally so uj #look at my art boy #my art #trying to draw things that are not wes to build somewhat of a portfolio #not for professional reasons but rather like #how am i supposed to learn things if i draw the same stupid mime 100000 times ina row #idk guys #hi #tried to do a more dst style with him as you can see the scratchy line art :)

[royalarchivist]

I finally realized what the ending of Karmaland V reminded me of, so naturally, I spent way too much time making this.

#Karmaland #Luzu #Quackity #Rubius #Luckity #Karmaland V #Not to be all ''if you don't cheer and clap for me I'll blow this whole building up'' #but I actually did spend a stupid amount of time on this meme LMFAO #Hope it makes folks laugh because it still makes me laugh despite staring at it for 50 hours #added Spanish subtitles for accessibility because u know Karmaland's in Spanish so that only seems fair #Thank you fangirleando90for double-checking the translations for me #Subtitles #Translated #Edited #Portfolio

[miodiodavinci]

there’s a more correct way of saying it though

#which is to say that one #i am mandated by my university to take on a certain number of tasks each week #all of which require extensive documentation both before and after they take place #but my supervisor is so fucking. disorganized that i can’t plan more than a day ahead #and even then they have been. repeatedly brushing off the tasks We Agreed I Would Do #in favor of them just taking the lead and making all of my planning documentation. redundant. #and then at the end of the week they’re like ‘oh what was if you needed to do #and i end up having to cram all these stupid redundant tasks into one day. #and Two. #because of this ongoing issue of them kind of just. agreeing on something one day and then changing the story on me the very next day #i am Horribly behind on my portfolio project #and having to do Very stupid and difficult things to make it seem like i’m Not horribly behind #and in both cases i just feel like screaming and crying and weeping #but i aldo feel like i have expended the emotionsl good graces of everyone around me #so all that’s left to do is suffer. #(but my brain is so fucking burned out that it feels like i’m just) #(repeatedly jabbing electrodes into a piece of shoe leather meat and begging for it to work again) #oughhhhh i just want to collapse already #someone let me………

[chesacakeripper]

why must i undergo the horrors (studying for expensive postgrad exam i need to pass to progress in training) why can i not simply live (feed the hyperfixation neurones with more phoenix wright)

#if you're wondering why i haven't been active much it's because i've either been studying for this stupid bastard nonsense exam #or more likely #procrastinating doing that and playing ace attorney instead #my life and stuff #i have about 6 weeks until the exam and i gotta hope i get all this shit in my brain by then or it's another £550 for a resit #it's a racket #why do the royal colleges even need our money so bad what are they actually doing huh #i already paid for portfolio

[ask-artsy-oncie]

Yeah I really have no patience for self-important people who desperately want to inject themselves into creative industries just because they consider "enjoying media" their defining trait that somehow other people don't have. Being a dedicated fan is a great thing for sure, but you become self-absorbed when you think that, alone, is why you deserve to cut out a hole for yourself in the industry and not maybe the fact that you've put in the work to hone industry-specific skills.

Creative fields are not easy money or easy clout or whatever. Believing so is such a disrespect to those skills and everyone who's worked so hard to get where they are.

#Stupid shit #Vent #Don't mind me just get really angry when I see the adult versions of the 'my uncle works at nintendo' types #A phenomenon most people grow out of after entering high school #It's so fucking embarrassing seeing full grown adults acting so childishly just so they can inject themselves out of selfishness. #This also applies to people who claim to actually work a creative field but have absolutely nothing to show for it #Oh you're a graphic designer? You're an animator? A producer? Where's your portfolio? Any posts with your work? #Any proof at all that you actually study and work at honing this creative skill???? #Any history of participating in projects and contributing??? Even just financially?? #ANY EVIDENCE OF ANY CREATIVE INPUT YOUVE EVER GIVEN?? EVER???? #no? You just wanna run your mouth under the guise of having authority on a subject you have literally no experience in??? #That's what I thought. #Be fucking wary of these people and don't fucking buy everything they say because they're gonna invent whatever lie gets them attention

[potahun]

In a trance-like moment, I feel as though I’ve lost something The love in my heart, has unknowingly become tame Forgive me for my indulgence and love of freedom in this life Though I fear I might fall down one day To give up one’s ideals? Anyone can do it I’m not afraid, even if one day, all that remains is you and me

-- Boundless Oceans, Vast Skies / 海阔天空 : Sa Beining as Sa Weixiao, in Who's the Murderer? S5E6

#sa beining #he jiong #bai jingting #nznd #who's the murderer? #wsm #mxdzt #my doodles #sob #he bai sa #NO ONE ASKED HIM TO DO SO WELL WHILE BEING SO STUPID #NO ONE WARNED ME ID GET ACTUAL FEELINGS ABOUT THE CRACKIEST VERSE OF THIS SHOW #portfolio2 #portfolio

[bottlewoman]

Dude I had the appointment with at the bank was very nice and tried his best to explain money stuff to me but I am dumb of ass. The important thing is that Baby has an education fund set up.

#bttlwmn txt #so I put some money in and the government puts some money in and the bank invests it to make more money #and there are different investment portfolios that I had to choose between and in 10 or 15 years I have to change the type of portfolio? #and when I want to put more money in its a whole thing and I have to call the bank to do that which is 😑 #why can't I do that in the app? I do everything else in the app 😭 #money is stupid

[gravehags]

trying to reach this internship hour count is killing me like i’m going to be working at the museum into october, which is great on one hand because i’ll be getting a paycheck, but also not having my fridays and sundays for doing class/capstone work/catching up on sleep is nerfing my ass. i just want to be done with it.

#don’t get me started on how stupid it is we have an hour count in the first place #like i worked all summer and still only hit 80-something hours of of 150 #because my supervisor is only at the museum 2 days a week #therefore i can only be there 2 days a week #and i completed the internship portfolio assignment last month so like tell me what the point is #besides making me suffer #ugh anyway #grad school shit

[ribbittrobbit]

me: full body seizing up in cringe over having to post my actual work on social media to self promote as a freelancer

also me: sharing my entire stream of consciousness on tumblr without any filter at all

#i talk a big game about big up-ing yourself bec u gotta #but that doesnt mean i have to like it #or even am good at it #my wholeass legal name is so easy to find bec my portfolio is out there #but im terrified of posting anything where anyone i know can see anything #rip #stupid irl stuff

[aroace-polyshow]

having blorbo brainrot is so fun until

#dude i wish i could get this invested in my own ocs and stuff it’d be so much easier to get original artwork done for portfolios and shit #but noooo my dumbass brain has to fixate on my stupid video game characters #i love them but like. they quite literally take over my life #and i cannot do creative stuff Not related to them #and i am going to slam my head into a brick wall #thsi is so dumb #girl i hope i die #vent

[tillman]

gahh . im still thinking about stuff.

#and like ugh. no. the reason i havent been happy with my art recently despite liking how it looks is cus im too exhausted #from work and life and such to really put the effort and thought into it i want. its careless. its thoughtless. theres #very little in my current portfolio im satisfied with on an intellectual level. and it makes me feel very #stagnant and kind of pissy about art. gah. #<- btw. call me pretentious or whatever and ill just straight up kill you. this isnt pretentiousness. i just care deeply about my art and #it conveying what i want it to. for me to be failing on that well. it kindof sucks #i think a lot of the work im happy with now is my stupid soliloquies to myself. theyre scratchy and look bad but at least they #get it across. yknow? ahh its so hard then. #txt #this isnt all that serious just thinking to myself. #having an odd blurry moment so putting my thoughts to text helps a lot in figuring who i am LOL . <- in a system way not in a . #whatever #but i do think that ^ above not the system stuff ^ contributes to why i really feel negatively about being viewed as a fandom artist #despite drwaing fanart- i want to use these characters to explore and think about stuff. u know? and i think fandom spaces #tend to treat fanart and writing and all that as mostly disposable one time use pretty things to think on once nad never agian. #and GAH!! that bugs me!!! i do not like how the internet has PRIMED people into treating art that way! #personal pet peeve i guess. what can you do

[crave-mp3]

i have traded statistics hell for application hell and seen that it is Worse

#im at the point whwre i technically don't have to apply to all the ones left on my list bc ive gotten in to several ...... #but like what if i miss an opportunity ill never replace in my life. or something stupid like that #:( #sigh sigh dont worry about it everything will be alright in the end the universe will course-correct ect ect #im legit so tired of doing study stuff tho. IT IS MY BREAK!!!!!!!! i should be cosy w my sketchbook or book book or a dw marathon rn. #or some such pipe dream as cleaning my room #vic.txt #FUCK just remembered i have to. come up w a portfolio theme. kneecapped myself with the ambition yet again

[thedreadvampy]

sometimes I am like 'boy I am So Normal' and other times I am like 'wow my grandmother sure did give me a lot of undergrad level art criticism to chew on when I was like 13'

#red said #both the good thing and the bad thing about my grandma was that she didn't talk down to kids #and she had taught undergrad art school #and I'm not sure i was always 100% on board on account of being A Child #but she had me reading Klee's pedagogy of drawing when i was like 8 #and oh god what was it. herbert read's 1930s analysis of modern art? when i was like 14 #i know this bc my year 9 portfolio is full of anime art and a big typographic quote about interpreting art from read #now when i go to art galleries with my friends i vacillate wildly between 'haha look at how weird this guy's hair is' #and 'the impasto creates a kind of paradoxical verisimilitude!' #bless them but i was walking around a gallery with my partner enthusiastically going on about trompe d'oeil and marxist analysis of realism #and i said '... does that make sense' and they said 'nothing you've said for the last 20 minutes made sense but it sounds cool' #and people think I'm like this because i went to art school #NO THE ROT SET IN WELL BEFORE THAT and also like i did a year less study than my classmates at undergrad #and i still found most of them hadn't heard of most of the terminologies i was throwing around #it wasn't until my masters i started meeting other people who were hype about critical theory #and then i felt stupid bc tbh i haven't like. STUDIED it formally. i just pick bits up. #so when i was talking to someone with a really thorough grounding in semiotics i was just Saying Words #understood what she was saying but couldn't back up my own points enough to feel like we were on an even keel