#this started as like a jokey post but like

[birchlogz]

#hosea matthews #arthur morgan #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #i could go into an unhinged rant abt this actuallt i will. fuck u #this started as like a jokey post but like #idk it lead down this whole rabbithole of arthur's emotional maturity #we know john clearly loved hosea but we only ever see arthurs side #and we see how much hoseas mentorship and wit and love influenced arthur #and although he had a similar influence on john and guided his moral compass i think john is much less mature about processing #and understanding his emotions... like he wouldnt have ran away if he had those skills. #and this idea of arthur figuring out that he thinks of dutch and hosea as parents. that its ok to have parental figures #that arent your biological ones and them being there in your life doesnt replace the connection he had with his mother #i just think john would struggle internally with that concept a lot #he wouldnt want to accept that. he is afraid of having a new family. #this boy needs therapy #anyways #my artz #someonewhos smarter than me should write a fic abt that noneed to credit me i just need to see that in the world #if it exists link it to me now i NEED to cry over it

[transmascutena]

something i find a little bit funny but mostly just really tragic is that utena is fully convinced she's in a found family show for so much of it. and in the most fucked up way imaginable she's kind of right? we all know what being akio's family means.

i do think she sees akio as an older brother figure for a lot of the show, much more so than she ever has genuine romantic feelings for him. this is clearest to me in the black rose arc, where all he is to her is her best friend's older brother who gives her advice and respects her more than any other adult ever does. it makes sense that she'd want to see herself as a part of their family too. there's nothing to imply that her feelings are at all romantic in nature. it's only when he starts getting closer to her and intiating physical contact that she starts blushing around him and might be developing a crush -- although personally, i read it more as confused uncomfortable embarrassment most of the time, combined with the expectation that romance is what she should want, and so that must be what she's feeling, right? (this gets kind of naively reenforced by wakaba telling her how cool and handsome akio is and how lucky utena is to be close to him.)

and i don't think it's a coincidence that akio starts calling utena "part of the family" after he's planted this idea of romance in her. reenforcing her previous feelings towards him only after he has started to make them change into something different. he is deliberately trying to cofuse her idea of a familial/sibling relationship with that of a romantic/sexual one, because to him there really isn't a difference, and so that when she inevitably learns about him and anthy, utena will see her not as a fellow victim to find solidarity in, but as competition for his affection. and it works, at least at first.

all this is why i vehemently disagree when people call utena stupid for not noticing that something is wrong about anthy and akio's relationship while she's living with them. not only is it deliberately being hidden from her by both of them for a long time, she also literally has no idea what a sibling relationship is supposed to look like. she has no healthy example to compare anything to. even if she did notice something off about how anthy and akio interact, why would she assume she knows better than them how to be a family? she doesn't have one, after all. and when akio tells her that she is his family, he very much does not treat her like it, but she doesn't really have much choice in believing that it's normal, because isn't that how he treats anthy as well?

#this started as kindof a jokey post but surprise surprise i have a lot of thoughts on how ohtori corrupts the concept of family #and any kind of love that doesn't fit into the idea of romance and (hetero)sexuality #i don't even know if this is coherent or makes sense it's really late i'm going to bed #revolutionary girl utena #analysis #utena #akio #m #akio and utena #all girls are like the rose bride

[vivanightcity]

#cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk photomode #cyberpunk vp #cyberpunk2077 #masc v #jackie welles #i saw the diner and it became a need to make a seinfeld post #i hate that fucking lamp #(in a 'i will die on any hill' jokey big way not a im actually annoyed way) #for all my jokes Ivan's INT is his second highest skill under cool #so im starting to think he wants people to Think he's stupid cause it's easier to act that way and let people understimate him?? #or he's like my old cat 'you're so smart but my god you are an idiot' #my vp #vibes of ivan

[youssefguedira]

in my head nile expects nicky to be a Coffee Purist™ but then the first time they go to a coffee shop for whatever reason nicky orders the most sugar loaded brightly colored barely even coffee drink he can get and nile just kinda stands there with her americano blinking at him

#neon has thoughts #nicky's a big fan of pumpkin spice i think. so is joe #my personal non-jokey Tog Food Thesis is that sometimes theyre picky about things to be funny (especially around nile) and they have things #they prefer but at the end of the day they just enjoy how much easier it is to get and how readily available different ingredients are #like my Joenicky Food Thesis™ is joe likes lavender ice cream and nicky likes stew but #i think all of them love trying different stuff especially if its just. Weird. or something they wouldn't have been able to get in their #first life. anyway this started as a stupid coffee post and turned into Character Stuff but the point still stands

[stonyponyofficial]

i love seeing how much paratext i can fit into the tags. read my footnotes boy

#violet originals #postposting #like that's its own statement right #and then i come down here and tell u everything i was thinking about it #like i just made a post where i put some non organization tags on it for fun as a fun reference #but also it helps clarify the original statement in a less committal jokey way i can have a little fun with #so i start thinking about all that and i get the hilarious original idea for this post and i think abt those tags #but it's only available to those first people who see my original post as it was made #not reblogged #someone can screenshot those tags but they aren't necessary to understand #but they don't add to the post itself just elaboration that isn't really needed #and they aren't all visible at first bc u have to hit the button to see the rest #so my extra little thoughts are there for anyone to see but ull probably wanna see them more if u know me a little through online #but mostly i thought it'd be funny to make this kind of post and then just let the tags run wild bc that's what the post is about see? #do u like all this extra clarification or would u rather i have just posted the post #or nothing at all #or put these tags in the post #bc that could make sense but the original text of the post is to be shared around and 'related to' by other Tumblr users who do the same #so it can't be too long but i need to say all my thoughts about the subject or ill explode and make another post or reblog a comment #so it's all down here instead where it's optional and i can just kinda say what im feeling without feeling like i have to funny it up #i should probably read house of leaves #idk is that related i only have a tiny idea of what that book is but it seems related somewhat #umm #hi :3 #kisses u with tongue #adds tags to this later bc im silly :3 #hi char hi io #the two people who will probably read this far now lmao

[mrpsychokiller]

i have an actual vicious petty anger for the "celsius vs fahrenheit discourse" (and general discourses for metric vs non metric system) cause it literally just boils down to people being unable to fit in their heads the idea that different people from different cultures will do things a different way, and the way they do it feels right and natural to them, and doesnt mean the one YOURE used to is the best one??? i literally feel like im going insane cause i dont know why thats even a thing people care to discuss

#like idk if im caring too much about something thats not supposed to be serious #but like yknow i joke with my american friends like ''americans will do anything but the metric system'' #or ''can you translate this for normal people please'' #i know its jokey #but then i keep seeing people making posts online rising ARGUMENTS to PROVE which one is the BETTER SYSTEM #and then people getting in fights with each other in replies #and i feel like im losing my mind like whats going on #its real weird and also gets weird once i have to start seeing white americans talking about how their systems are the ''best'' ones and #''non americans need to cope'' #which yknow. does not really rub well on me #but anyway ill probably have to delete this in five minutes once someone decides im being problematic #🧃

[skitskatdacat63]

I know it would literally never happen, but whenever the speculation of who the next James Bond will be comes up, I can only think about how I would sell my soul to get a butch lesbian James Bond 😣

#cause people are always arguing against having a female 007 bcs it would change too much #okay so why not just swap her gender and change nothing else 😌 #i realized when writing this post tho that my one oc is literally my concept for a lesbian james bond 😭 #butch lesbian womanizer who wears suits all the time and smokes/drinks too much and loves money and weapons #i think about this every once in a while and i want it so badly but it will literally never happen #please she would be so masc and cool and sexy #i dont know if i necessary like the idea of making a new chara to be 007 #but like....female James Bond but nothing else changes 👀 #im trying to fall asleep and i can only envision various scenes from casino royale but w my version of james bond #pls she could be jamie bond!!! #sorry this is completely random and probably nonsensical but it haunts me so often #every time i rewatch casino royale im like man...espionage movies are cool! and then start fantasizing about female james bond #the names bond. jamie bond. #maybe i will draw it sometime #just not sure how id design her bcs as i said my brain cant help but be a bit stuck on my oc that fits pretty well #but seriously. they wouldnt even have to change anything! #like they have all the jokey pun names for women...guess what. even more opportunities #but like gahhhhhh i think about a masc woman in the bond movies ive watched and im like wow i would enjoy this movie substantially more! #like the shower scene in casino royale........ #i cant even rly bring myself to watch bond movies older than the daniel craig ones bcs the objectification and misogyny bothers me too much #but imagining a masc woman in their place 👀 i am on board! #imagining her with bond girls 😳😳😳😳😳 #sorry again: super random but it is late please forgive me #catie.rambling.txt

[insecateur]

someone on that post about French and English and how they differ when it comes to typical writing styles asked what this means irt French people who write in English and i do wonder about the way it affects my writing sometimes

i have definitely had instances of French brain causing me to use turns of phrases that probably wouldn't occur to someone with only English as a reference point but idk about the Vibes. i do like long sentences

but also i've been writing in English exclusively for so long maybe i have perfectly acclimated at this point

if you have thoughts about this regarding my writing i would be interested in reading them perhaps...

#samtxt #i touched on this in that one jokey post but #when i first started writing in english i definitely felt diminished in a way #like my writing in french felt so much more lyrical and inspired #i think this is different than the way i felt when i was rereading the og slawcs #and i kept thinking it seemed almost as if i was holding myself back in a way like... afraid of being too dramatic(?) #which is funny when you know what the beginning of slawcs is like. #but what i mean here is more like. an adjusting period i think. to figure out what 'lyrical' looks like in english #i do think i hadn't figured that out back then tho. so maybe the two things fed into each other #i didn't know how to write out feelings the way i did in french AND i was afraid of putting Too Many feelings in #nowadays i no longer care but instead of pouring that energy in angsty character studies i pour it all in kinky porn. i'm sorry. #i promise when i get back to slawcs and write them getting married the angst and the feels will come back. #it'll still be kinky tho this is baked in at this point #it was always baked in!!! i was just blind to it at the time!!!

[tottymatsuno]

I believe in myself to a stupid delulu degree, so in my heart i know that i had made a series of different choices in life I could be the cowriter of ososan completely and unironically bc if i knew enough Japanese i could write their dialogue consistently both in English and in Japanese without any problems.

I could write ososan completely imo undetected from matsubara’s writing, fairly easily if i had the professional training and the language skills. And I wouldn’t even add myself or self insert in any way, id just be happy to have my ideas on air and to smack matsubara around when i think something is unfunny or hes dragging out a joke too long

Now the funniest thing in the world is, the true ending if i ever got to be the cowriter is that the first season i work on would be regarded as the actual worst one specifically and exclusively bc this fandom is batshit crazy and hates any and all change

#ik i don’t actually post serious scripts bc theyre all like jokey and spitball sketches but i fr could emulate the writing style perfectly i #if i ever wanted to #ive been thinking about script writing since i started writing my house au #like i have a pretty good handle on dialogue in most cases

[annaccident]

trying out color! [mind the lazy background]

me and my friend hc that akari was actually vacationing in alola before pla happened

this is how you get yoinked into hisui right

(also i swear these look better as the original pen paper sketches)

Bonus uncolored:

#akari pokemon #pl:a #my art #my friend recently started playing with me tagging along #and yk how you make up like jokey hcs for characters and your playthrough? yeah thats what we did #akari's eyes are purple cause shes psychic #i might post the sketches i have of her and rei (also psychic) but prolly later when i have the courage to #pkmn legends arceus

[thethingything]

I love that, for whatever reason, Lucy has started affectionately saying "ewwww yuckyyyy!" all the time in response to random stuff. I'm yet to figure out what constitutes as being "yuckyyy" but I think it's mostly just aimed at me, which is fair

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #it's always said in a very jokey and lighthearted tone and I've started saying it back so it's become like a call and response thing #I'm pretty sure we picked it up from somewhere but amnesia is a bitch and I don't remember

[tinkkles]

i love that we're still censoring katααng vs. zutαrα posts btw. the cultural impact

#when korra started airing i made like 1 (one) pro zutara jokey post and got like 6 hate dms and i dont even think i tagged it #atla is like my favorite media of all time but kataang fans are just so fundamentally wrong that i cant engage with the fandom at all #our beloved zuko... their wretched aang... i know i am complicit in this ongoing violence

[leatherbookmark]

death to the misconception that “lxc is stupid” and “mxtx was surprised that people thought he was smart”. this is NOT what happened, NOT what she said, even an idiot with a google translate (=me) was able to figure it out. god

#this is the 8573589374th time i'm saying it but death death murder and death to the trend of seeing a work of fiction through the lens #of funny jokes and goofy oversimplifications as well. i understand that there are some people for whom this is their primary method of #consuming media and this knowledge brings me excruciating pain but when these funny posts start circulating through fandom and get thousand #of notes AND become the thing people base their understanding of characters on i just fuckening Die #at this point it's almost like those insane people who make fanworks for series they haven't seen. not like a jokey 'this is my impression #of X from dashboard osmosis' but actual serious fanworks as i understand. except this is perhaps worse because at least if you haven't seen #the show/read the book then obviously your characterization is going to be stereotypical/default coffeeshoppy at best #but when you DO know the story and yet misinterpret it and the characters so bad its like. where are we. what is this. hell?

[polarisbear]

the homosexual urge to render something in black and white for 3 weeks

#i could do this in one day but i’m not insane #i got done a good chunk of it though so :) #i am 100% certain it’s gonna flop because literally anything that isn’t explicitly ship art done in a specific way #does in fact flop. my vague homoerotism is. apparently not marketable #and even better yet when i take things 100% seriously they also flop. so #to be frank im not the type of guy to be popular in social media spaces. i am not funny for one #for another my niche combination of hyper femme lolita fashion and really like sticking to it #and my love of fucking insane mental gymnastics isn’t like. #i like pink and surface level stuff just fine but i’m also a nerd who likes it when they can start thinking about things like two in. deeper #i don’t post my jokey gay headcanons because i don’t care enough to #like i have a lot. but also i don’t really care #also whatever brand i’ve built up definitely doesn’t match it #this is to say i want to kill someone whenever my ruikasa art gets popular meanwhile the ships i Actually like #for Real Reasons doesn’t get shit. guys i like ruikasa because they remind me of something else i don’t think they’re that interesting

[keeps-ache]

Anne of Green Gables was right, everything is a poem

#just me hi #was whistling a tune #one that i was making up as a i go. like usual #however. usually they aren't veryyy ?? #they're all over the place #tonight it was something from an era i can't name. the notes would shake and falter #my mother started to sing along to it #just some jokey words to our cat #she tried to follow the melody but i can't ever keep music in time to a voice #i finished and she said 'that song was about you Christie!' to the cat #nothing there but i swear some things like that hold an ocean's worth in them #another post as a note for myself :)

[ciderjacks]

“Aw man this drawing I spend hours on only got 11 likes, and only 1 rb! This sucks I’m so discouraged” or “wow, 11 whole people liked my work, and one person liked it so much they wanted to share it!” Which way online artist

#artist stuff #art discourse #Fyi this isn’t really a jokey post I think if you’re thinking like that first example you need to change. Like genuinely. #That attitude is horrible for artists and it’s horrible for art and I hate it #I don’t respect any artist who thinks about art that way. If you think that way I think you’re a capitalist. #Like I’m being so real idc how talented you are as soon as u start guilt tripping ppl to rb your shit and talking bout “the art ecosystem” #Ur art just instantly becomes ugly to me