#though I do not mind those they are cool

[godofthestupid]

been playing the new genshin update and while exploring I met this Melusine NPC whose name is Consanzeana.

A Romanian name

I stared at the little creature like it had told me the most incredelous of information

and sometime later I met this other NPCs who also has a Romanian name(and am pretty sure shares it with some relative of mine) and I just had to do a double take because wha-

I'll keep exploring and looking for other Romanian names because wow,didn't expect them to show up in an anime gacha game of all things

#I litterally could not comprehend the fact that there are just....Romanian people in Fontaine #I thought there would only be like #French Italian maybe Spanish influences #with some Brittish in the mix #if a Romanian inspired playable chsracter comes out I'm going to pull for them #like holy fuck I never expected to even have a smidge of representation in a game #and it not being a vampire #a peasent #or the villain #for whatever reason #though I do not mind those they are cool #but also I was so happy seeing that cute melusine named Consanzeana #because the name stems from a famous fairytale in Romania! and it just fits #genshin #genshin impact #godoframbles

[meteorstricken]

A Casual Indictment of Clive Rosfield

Thinking about how Clive swore to kill the one who killed his brother.

Thinking about how he told Cid that once he'd done so, "whatever happens, happens", and how Cid then chided him for being a slave to fate.

Thinking about how, according to the Ultimania, Clive made Joshua the core of his spiritual identity...and how he began training to be his Shield since the tender age of 6.

Thinking about how, when fighting Ultima in the end, he did so as Joshua's Shield, and nearly every exchange he had with Ultima was drawn from Joshua's last words. But when the fight was done...his high idealism of humanity seemed to fade. Because it wasn't his own. It was Joshua's.

...Thinking that the "Logos" presence that Ultima picked up on in the Interdimensional Rift and in Origin was not Clive--it was Joshua. Joshua, who'd picked up the power of creation. Joshua "with my light in your heart" Rosfield, who occupied Clive's being so much that Ultima could not. (In short, Joshua benevolently "stole" Mythos out from under Ultima.)

...Coming to the conclusion that Clive ultimately did fulfill his original vow, coming full circle: To kill the one who killed his brother, and then let whatever happened next, happen.

Which means...if we agree with Cid's perspective, Clive was not free. He did not fight for himself, nor against his fate. He did not try to save himself after Joshua was gone, even when so many others wanted him to. (Irony of ironies, Clive committed what was one of Ultima's chief sins according to his brother: He refused, in the end, to honor the faith and will others had for him to return, even those he most treasured.)

If one person makes their relationship and duty to another person their whole identity, can that person truly be free willed, on a spiritual scale?

No...I don't think they can be.

Free will (I think) demands some sense of inherent worth, independent selfhood/ personhood--a sense of identity that allows for the value of others' input, but does not require them to validate or qualify it.

Whether he triumphs or fails; whether he lives or dies, I would very much like to see Clive fight for himself--to find out who or what he is to himself when not defined by his role or duty to another person.

#ffxvi #clive rosfield #joshua rosfield #ultima ffxvi #ff16 #Bear in mind this is not a critique of the story. Clive sure did mean it when he said that whole “imperfect beings” bit. #But even then! Even then he's speaking on 'humanity’s' behalf...not his own. #And then after going off about 'not needing a reason'...he turns around--immediately sees what he can do about Joshua... #... and then uses Ultima's power even though it could very well be suicide...saying 'these are our terms'. #Cool bro... what about *YOUR* terms? What do those look like? #Are you truly a vessel emptied out in the end? #(Which...still makes me side-eye his choice to slurp up Ultima like an Eikon all the more. So so so risky. #'Clive lives BUT w/ consequences' is the DLC I hope for most.) #ffxvi spoilers

[icewindandboringhorror]

sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:

thing that I already do

thing I have tried 10 times

thing I already do

thing that I don't have the money to do

thing I already do

thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail

thing that is impossible given my situation

thing that doesn't apply to me

thing that I already do

thing I have already tried

hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently

thing I have already done

#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things #out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever #all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever #or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc. #especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple #and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already #done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and #all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you. #who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3 #my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster #talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo #I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache #or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop #e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all #sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef #t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of #way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I #think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i #gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!' #like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant #mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain #or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right #now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like #most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once #that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY #Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth

[fragmentedblade]

Boothill's presentation being entirely on the twitter post makes me think he will be irrelevant in the story in the long(ish) run, and that the game itself won't dwell on him almost at all

#Kinda like Argenti but Argenti seemed to be part of a larger lore and worldbuilding #Boothill doesn't even give me that vibe #Cool design though. I do love revenge stories and western films so... #*sighs* I guess I may consider him if he's fun to play with and the story is interesting. I hope he takes Aventurine out of the grave #(Or do I? Emotionally I do. Rationally I think I may lean more towards 'keep Aventurine dead' tbh) #Imagine if his revenge is against the IPC in general and Aventurine in particular but when he gets there Aventurine is already dead #The enormous fail that would be hahaha #Automaton cowboy is such a good design though I would have liked it more had they taken the automaton way enhancing the clockwork thing #instead of the cyborg one with the futuristic air. What can I say I do love automatons and clockwork #and to me they're far superior aesthetically than cyborgs. Not into cyborgs and robots at all. Sorry Screwllum. Herta most beloved design #I wonder if his gameplay will revolve around some killing himself mechanic #I don't know what to say I do love those things gameplaywise. I love the risk they add and how they make one strategise a little more #Even beyond the story and the lore‚ Blade is still my fave character to use. So fun so flexible and ironically so reliable despite the risk #Abfksndk rambling #I am thinking of Aventurine and I'm thinking of Fu Xuan. I think I'll skip Robin unless they go dark-dark with her #but I'm still considering Sunday if they make him shady. I was looking forwards to Firefly but I've disliked her writing a lot #so for now she's a big skip. I wouldn't mind getting Topaz given I love the FUA mechanics and the SU #but I like other characters more and I don't like her design at all so I'll skip her too #Couldn't care less about IL (I have him in an alt account and I don't like him at all) so that's a big skip too #I like Screwllum but not enough for now. Hmmm I guess I could get one shielder since I do love them as characters #and then save until one character really convinces me. Boothill‚ Robin‚ Sunday hmmm I hope Sunday is shady and grey #I wonder if they'll bring Huaiyan. I would give a leg for Huaiyan. Yeah I've not moved on from the Xianzhou I love that place #and I adore Huaiyan and the Zhuming. I so hope we'll get to see that ship #I talk too much

[hzrnvm]

emotional. happy, pissed off, all that.

#hzrn #im cool with being annoying hypothetically but the real kicker is that no form of communication exists that i can really use comfortably #every single form of communication out there. i can't use it. i can't fuckin talk bc the sounds are too hard. #i can't fuckin type bc the buttons are too hard. #i can't fucking body and hands bc motions are too hard. #i can't fucking art because art involves all those things. #damn fucking WORDS are too hard. i put so much work into them and i get nothing. nothing! #who made the world this way?! why is it that all communication and socialization is so. fucking. hard!!!! #i tried! i really really fuckin tried man! all last year i tried so so hard. #i fell FLAT on my face. NO ONE liked me. they called me a retard! they said i was scary‚ awkward‚ hard to be around! #they did coordinated social attacks on me! then when i come back to school this year and i even *think* about trying again‚ they say #'nobody wants him here. and he should stop caring' #well right about then‚ is where she gives up! she has closed her eyes‚ she has given up hope! #i gave up trying to exist socially at school. the two paths are being myself and getting bullied‚ or not being myself and getting nothing #today was a good day for me all in all but idk. #the only reason i dont hold grudges like crazy is because of my object impermanence shit #although this might as well count as a grudge. i think it's somewhat justified though‚ because in my case it's more like #if you hurt me seriously then i'll think about it pervasively until you do something to redeem yourself in my mind. #probably that's part of the reason im so scared of being myself and shit #this is probably the reason why im so scared of being myself. bc everytime i tried i got bullied‚ mocked‚ demeaned. and that shit piles up. #i just spend mosta my time not thinking about it! just like i spend mosta my time not thinking about who i am‚ my future‚ my past and on! #siiiigh. sigh sigh siiiiiiiiigh #it's ok to like this post by the way #in fact it's encouraged. im directly and clearly asking you to. #im not making this post for nothing. im making it in the hopes that someone will read what i said. #although really no one will. why the hell would anyone fucking read this. get fuckin real. #i know for certain i'll wake up tmrw with this at at maximum like. 1 like. 2 if im really the luckiest girl in the world. #and i know how i sound caring about likes and shit. but really all it tells me is someone read this. and i really fuckin need someone to re

[rosicheeks]

2, 29, and 53 for the asks :))))

2. what would you name your future kids?

Haven’t thought about this in AGES tbh not sure anymore

29. favourite film(s)

Anastasia , Encanto , Treasure Planet

53. 5 things that make me happy

1. Music 🎶

2. Spending time with loved ones ❤️

3. Apple scented candles

4. Homemade cookies

5. Fuzzy blankies

#ok ok ok #I was definitely the type of kid to have a lil notebook of future kid name ideas #😂😂😂 #also dreamed about my future wedding #and all the things I wanted to do when I grew up #L O L #gonna ignore that tonight #but my sister used to write stories growing up and she would research what name she would want to name each of her characters #and I always thought it was fascinating where each name came from and what it meant and all of that #so I would write down names that I thought were unique and had a cool meaning #buuuut #*heavy sigh* #I haven’t thought of actually getting married and having kids and all of that in fucking YEARS #I used to dream about it all the time but idk maybe I just lost hope or something #hoping once I meet that special person than I will be able to dream about it again #those are the films that came to mind right away 🥰 #I was trying to think of any real people movies but I couldn’t think of any 😂😂😂 #Anastasia is probably my all time favorite movie though #those are the first 5 things I thought of that made me happy #took me a second to think of things but the first 2 came instantly 🥰🥰🥰 #I think music will always be my true love #I need to get back into music and music theory #anywayyyyyyyyy I’m sure this was a lot more info than you were expecting haha #thanks for the ask lovely 🥰🥰🥰 #ask #lovely mutuals 🫶

[moe-broey]

Also Moe gender notes/lore:

It has a more masc leaning identity, and typically uses masculine language/titles but more like. For fun. Like the way you say "SIR." at a misbehaving cat. It will also call itself a man ESP if it's funny. Also I've been toying w it liking the terms "boyfriend"/"boytoy" for itself, which is a very funny combination w Alfonse (in my mind) preferring the term "partner" (broadly, but also esp for himself). So like, Moe calling Alfonse "My partner" and Alfonse, On Occasion, ESPP if the situation calls for it, calling Moe "My boyfriend" (still, partner is the preferred term across the board for both of them -- but if we need to clear up the air...)

BUT ALSO! There are at least, so far, Two cases where Moe prefers feminine titles/language!

One was initially a misunderstanding but it ultimately ended up preferring the term anyway, with "cleric" (one comic idea is to resolve this castle dialogue):

LIBRA.... I WOULD NEVER .......... (Moe didn't realize "cleric" was a femme-gendered term, and had already been using it for itself for a while at this point.)

The other title is "seamstress"! That one is a case of Knowing the genderedness of it, but deciding to use it in a nonconforming way (which is eventually how "cleric" ended up). To me Moe uses these in the same vein as a drag queen, if that makes sense!

#moe tag #trying to explore gender nonconformity when the chara in question IS genderqueer/nb is VERY fun and interesting! #like esppp as a binary gnc transguy. it's been so interesting to try and adapt this in a way that still feels true to moe and its identity #and ofc there is the baphomet inspo which is a balance of all things... esp 'male and female' #which. has also been interesting to adapt. bc no matter what i do have a solid boundary i can't cross #when it comes to a chara that no matter how funky i get w it. is still ultimately a reflection of myself #i have another silly comic idea too of moe further explaining its identity where it calls itself a man for a joke #to be met w 'i thought you were genderless? neither?' where it explains the title thing essentially #and is asked (in good faith) 'are you ever a woman?' and it says #'under no circumstances am i ever a woman.' (tone/expression shift) 'i believe in their beliefs though!' #it's just been such a cool avenue to explore things i typically wouldn't (if i were only thinking of myself) #and the separation IS so important. bc it helps so much. in exploring things i typically Couldn't. #but also i do still have those hard boundaries. and that's interesting too #i love you moe..... blorbo from my mind.............

[bluebellthesponge]

imagining outfit ideas i saved on pinterest on some guy from a band i enjoy is weirdly such a helpful way for me to be more confident and try the outfit

#this sounds soooo insane but i will think #oooh i like this outfit idea i found on pinterest now i am gonna imagine #joey nsync wearing this outfit and oughhh ok ok i like it even more now #and it's insane too considering i KNOW most of these outfits will not be actually caught #being worn on any of these guys but still it's weirdly helpful #to make me even me less shy to try it out in the future #i'm just some transmasc loser trying to live out my imaginary wardrobe if i wasn't a coward ok #also yeah imagining band guys in these outfits does also kind of help my gender #sometimes i do worry that i feel like i am fake or that i am not a real transmasc non binary person #but then i realize that shouldn't fucking matter and that i should be happy with how i want to present myself #and that those who love me will respect my identity no matter what and see me how i want to be #but anyways but also just imagining joe fababoi in a cool outfit idea i found on pinterest #makes me giggle and lowkey gender envy even though it's fucking made up in my mind with what he is actually wearing lmao #and that me getting literal envy from an imaginary outfit idea on a band guy then maybe i do actually like the outfit and should just try i #bluebell talks

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Hi, so uh i just found your posts recently and uh i really like your arts and artstyle! Its just look so beautiful and i want to give you an appreciate art to tell you how pretty you and your arts are.

Sorry that my English sound crappy- also since i dont really have Kross sooo uh i hope you dont mind me giving you Killer? ^^" sorry, im really nervous to talk to somebody as you cool as you are heh!

**************

HFRYYAHHRFY!!!! OMG!!!! thank you sO much oh my gosh?? you're so sweet :'Dc <3333

#submission #other's art #killer #ghqahzgf GUUUYS!!!! #YOU'RE ALL TOO KIND!!!! :'Dc <3333 #your art is so cuuuute just LOOK at those proportions!!! the shapes are so neat and well drawn hold on i gotta save this- #and look at him!!! the man the baby the boy himself is so confused guyjhufgjgajgg HIM!!!! it's killer<33333 #i'm serious though it's perfectly fine if you or anyone sends me asks or a doodle or really anything you wanna show me!! #and of course i don't mind if you send me killer art ghjgjugy omg!!! i would LOVE to see your works!!!! #and it's fine if you don't have kross (or even like it hhh) either! #you guys could probably send me a stick figure and i'd still value it like gold :'Dc <3333 #and omg since when do so many people think i'm cool?? i never thought anyone would associate me with that word before xD #it's like you guys see a baby drawing doodling and babbling about her favorite characters and go ''wow her art is so good she's too cool-'' #when YOU guys are the super amazing sweet beans!!! i'm sorry but next time you think I'M cool you probably should look in a mirror! #also it's been ages since i got a submission hhh i was almost too scared it was a bot xD but nope just regular old perfection :')c #i'm cherishing everything you all say to me/draw for me i swear- if i could dump all my love onto everyone i would >:'Dc #amazing art<3333

[lightkrets312]

*realizes I'm just kind of a mid guy and feels my perspective on myself adjust in real time* huh. ok

#my post #i know gender is kind of a 'you can do whatever you want forever thing' but my brain only likes thinking in binaries first #and my impression of myself has kinda been 'sopping wet cringefail girl' for a good quarter of my life- #-DESPITE BEING TRANS. cause my brain thinks in perception-first all the goddamn time! #it kinda cracked recently though and its just. nicer. its a peace of mind. just- 'oh ok im one of those dorks that needs to work on myself' #'im just kind of a weird little guy. that's way easier to work on. cool.' #idk why that's easier to work on than 'cringefail wreck of a neurotic girl' for me but like. i got issues gamer. what do i say. #'...is this a good thing emile?' its an Improvement 👍

[potatobugz]

When I see creek (ship) I smell colors and have a seizure please do more

egads! i advise you to probably go 2 the hospital...

my answer to your request is a resounding "maybe!"

#rambles #south park #ahhh sorry if that answer disappoints you #those who follow me may have noticed i do not draw much sp stuff anymore and that is due to persnal reasons a little bit... #its very bad for my mental health as in; i have really really bad anxiety and drawing sp art makes me incredibly mind numbingly afraid #to the point of nausea and overall just feeling crummy #when i draw and post it i mean #i still love my sp mutuals forever though because they are Cool *points at knight in ink points at knight in ink* #AND TRICKY CHARM MY GOOD FRIEND #the coolests #apologies for being a weenie

[picory]

i need to draw them too. i just have to figure out how.. what situation to put them in...

#phoenix would first think keaton's a bit weird and absent-minded but nice #then he learns the guy used to be a high ranked military soldier and maybe shits his pants a little #but THEN he'd think ''how is this guy both so cool but such a dork...'' #but i think they'd make good friends. or at least acquaintances #they definitely have a few things in common. like their determination to find the truth to help those in need #no matter what it takes! they're both perceptive. though keaton is more so... scarily perceptive #they're kind and sympathetic. but phoenix can be snarky and sarcastic unlike keaton #they're investigators! but for keaton that's his job. phoenix is not supposed to do that as a lawyer lol... #aaand they're both single dads with daughters. so they can bond over how much they love their smart little girls #yuriko and trucy have to form a friendship. for me #characters from my various favorite media have to be friends because i say so #there's probably more similarities i just can't think of any at the moment #on the other hand keaton is much more level-headed than phoenix. he always keeps his cool in dangerous situations. but that comes from #his military background i guess. also he's 40 so more seasoned. at the start of his career phoenix was only 24 and he did NOT expect #to be punched in the face by a shady company's CEO or be confronted by the mafia or be tased by a prosecutor #the man just wanted to be a lawyer. who knew that job attracted so much danger. of course he wouldn't be very calm #fast forward to disbarred phoenix who gets hit by a car but he doesn't give a shit. like he's used to this. just another tuesday tee-hee #quacks

[cherry-shipping]

ALSO. sorry for being lame but i think its fun to think about watching all these stupid romantic kissy scenes with my f/os 😀👍

#cherry chats #mostly preslash. but as a couple too #its fun if its preslash its like OOooooobhhhhhhhh there is something on both of our minds but lets just not say anything #and postslash its just hehe kissy kissy kissy ^__^ #sorry my favorite selfship thoughts are all lame. i cant help just loving a generic mutual pining/friends to lovers story -_- #its very rare any of my selfships are anything genuinely interesting like a lot of other selfshippers do #u know where they think of interesting stories and character dynamics and aus and stuff #(those are all so awesome by the way love hearing about peoples intricate selfship stories) #but i cant DO that or well maybe i could if i tried but i wouldnt like it as much #its like when i draw me and sans and people say nice things like 'your self insert is so cute!!!' n its like #buddy that is literally just me. like thats just regular me. thanks though <3 #THERES NOTHING INTERESTING HAPPENING IN ANY OF MY SELFSHIPS ITS JUST BEING COOL FRIENDS UNTIL WE ARENT ANYMORE!!! U GET IT!!!!!!!! #so its the same here. my f/o imagines posts where i sneakily say 'f/o' rather than just sans so as to mislead you into thinking i actually #spend time thinking about anyone other than him #are all just pretty boring basic fanfic-y stuff. which im cool with #its just what i like best <3333

[princekirijo]

I just realized I haven't updated y'all on some changes I've made to Riku specifically Noble (his thief self)

#> has changes to tell y'all #> doesn't tell y'all #they're mostly visual changes but like a huge thing thats changed is actually his weapons #he no longer is stuck sharing rapiers with kasumi woohoo #that was bothering me for the longest time tbh #nah he uses two swords now #its kinda funny seeing nico's katsuro also using two swords... a coincidence i PROMISE bro 😅 #although riku is more scimitars and curved swords i feel #maybe those egyptian swords the name is escaping me rn though those wouldn't fit the aesthetic as much so #i could also do the sword and knife combo his black mask variant now has #yeahhh black mask riku's new look/weapons is HEAVILY inspired by abyss watchers LOL i just love them sm the vibe works so much #i was gonna go twinblades cause that would be fire but dual swords are slightly more practical #and also because ive been grumblinh about this for a while but ive been sorting out his personality more!! #i found a cool website that had a load of templates so ive been using those #very basic ass shit mind u but still good stuff #he still wields dual pistons btw #hes slowly turning into a dm€ character ngl 😭 #<- censored so doesnt show in main tag lol #i would love to make a new reference post for him but a) i have to draw it and b) i bet i'd chicken out when it comes time to post... #I'd also be posting the references for pimpernel and lugh #because they are mostly done? #lugh's been done for like two years at this point LMAOO aside from some slight visual updates #but pimpernel well... yall KNOW how much of a headache that fucker is for me.....

[sketch-guardian]

Speaking of MCs I’m thinking of making art of mobim and my lovely mc together!

Aw that sounds like a really cute idea and I can't wait to see how you will represent them💖in any case take all the time you need obviously, there's no rush🙈

I'm flattered that you want to draw a sketch of your MC with my oc Mobim to be honest😳I find fanarts always a very sweet gesture💜✨

#obey me rad classmates #camy replies #also for everyone who is reading the tags #I don't mind if you draw the rad classmates #that would be actually pretty cool #I would like to be tagged as the creator of the rad classmates though #I hope that isn't too much🙈 #in any case I really appreciate all the love and support for my ocs #not many people care about the rad classmates but I still find those who do quite sweet

[1980ssunflower]

ryan my love please come and let me brush your hair behind your ear as i admire your beautiful eyes and smile

#tape entry circa 1980 #f/o:💖what a fool believes🎸 #my hearts longing for my ryan sm #it hurts i just want to be near him rn #it makes me feel a little bad though when suddenly im longing so so deeply for ONE in particular #i dont want min to feel like im ignoring him :-c #i love him too so so deeply but my mind just wanders to ryan rn #his soft pretty features his soft messy hair his cute sparkly eyes behind those red glasses #i keep thinking of the way his turtleneck and leather jacket hug his body #the way itd feel to run my hands over the clothe the feeling his his body underneath how slim he is #feeling his hands on me and holding his hands in mine #how small and slim they are 🥺💖💖 #to be able to kiss the palm of his hand and his fingertips #to hold his hand against my cheek and feeling the coolness of his skin on my face #maybe then he'll hold my face to admire me. in the same way i do him #and we can hold and melt into eachother as we finally kiss eachother for as long as we can until we need to breathe ghfdj #oh my love my ryan...mi amor... #i just need to see and feel him i need to see his bright smile #i know being able to see him smile at me would make me feel alive it would brighten my entire life just to see him smile at me... #just knowing that he loves me... #i miss him... mi principe mi bebe te amo... siempre te voy a amar