#to ensure she’s dead.

[perfectlyvalid49]

So is your position that Palestinian death and suffering is fake, or deserved/their own fault, or a regrettable necessity for securing Israeli safety? Or some combination of the three?

Oh man, this is a really weird ask to get out of nowhere on a blog that posts about Jewish stuff a lot.

Hang on, weird wasn’t the word I was looking for. What is it, it’s right on the tip of my tongue…

Antisemitic! That’s it. This is a really antisemitic ask to send to a Jewish blog. It is antisemitic to ask a Jew to give/defend their opinion on the Israeli/Palestinian conflict out of nowhere with no other context. If you want to have a conversation, that’s fine, but an anonymous ask out of nowhere is not how you start one in good faith.

Given that the ask is antisemitic, I refuse to answer. I’ve been posting on this blog about the conflict A LOT over the last five months. If you really want my opinion, read through and figure it out for yourself. I’ll give you a start, here’s what I said as soon as I could form words after the attack. If you’re in a rush, I’d recommend the 5th paragraph down.

And Anon? Go fuck yourself.

#asks and answers #antisemitism #asks like these tell me that something I've said has made it to the people that really need to be seeing it #not that they'll actually take anything away from it #but at least they saw it #what did they think I was going to say? #those filthy inhuman Palestinians are getting what they deserve and Israel should do more to ensure they are well and truly wiped out! #I enjoy seeing dead civilians! #look at the mean old nasty Jew that deserves the hate that she's getting #get bent

[writer-room]

Honestly Rayla is equally 100% ride or die for Callum too.

That's so true I almost mentioned it in that post. They're so ridiculously feral for each other it's hilarious to watch. Callum's the legitimate "we ride AND die together" whereas Rayla is the "I will ride and die FOR you" sort of deal yknow?

Could be literally any situation, no matter how dangerous, and she's already decided she will die here. Does it ensure Callum lives? Then batter-up buckeroo we're going in swords blazing! Everyone cheer and clap for her human or she'll blow this whole place up. Kinda person who says "even if you hate me I'd still lose everything if it meant you were okay". She thinks they're in a tragic love story where she's always at risk of losing him but that's okay as long as it keeps him safe and happy like y'know Viren parallels, she'd risk losing her very self for him over and over. Except Callum would wait until the end of the world itself, and even beyond, and she wouldn't even have to ask.

The difference between them, really, is that Rayla will die for Callum on any given day. Callum will kill for Rayla on any given day. Something something matching sets

#tdp #the dragon prince #asks #rayllum #tdp callum #tdp rayla #talk #someone in the tags of that post said 'raylas self loathing works hard but callums devotion works even harder' and they own that post now #its theirs. they summed it up beautifully. they own it #'yes hes cringe but hes MY cringefail loserboy!!!!! get your OWN' #everyone else would say the 'hes a 10 but--' except for rayla. shes just 'hes a 10. hes just a 10 striaght-up' #he is not. he is so not a 10 i love him but hes not a 10 shes just so ill for him #so insane that the girl who has issues abt not being or being wanted by anyone or not good enough for ppl to stay/want her #proceeds to find maybe the 1 guy in the entire world who will choose her no matter WHAT #and even when SHE was the one who left & he was pissed he was still 100% sticking by her. hes staying #oops she showed him affection. now hes stuck forever! shame. welp guess thats how it goes! #and its partially bc of that she'd die for him. she needs him to b okay even if shes not there. mix of that loathing like #'he could still b happy without me so i need to ensure he lives so he can STAY happy at my own detriment. he means more than me' #girl if you died he would literally crumple into dust. fold in like cardboard in the rain. lay face-down in the sand & just die there #same w callum hes like 'i can hurt myself over & over for her if shes alive. if the danger is dead then she can live longer. i will live bu #tear myself apart so long she is safe' #bestie. if you reach the point of no return she will sacrifice herself to get the old you back WHAT THEN

[marlenacantswim]

are we sure Shaun and Russell aren't related?

Danger! 50,000 Zombies (2004) / Shaun of the Dead (2004)

#idk dawg; shaun might have some aussie in him #there is some insane crossover potential between these two properties #whoop sent me a ficlet she wrote once about shaun calling russell for his skills in the field of zombies #to ensure he was taking proper care of zombified ed #which was very cute #anyways these were a bitch to make #it took me what feels like eons to line up their falls in these gifs #but i am so so so sosososoosso happy with them <3 #danger! 50000 zombies #danger 50000 zombies #danger 50000 volts #shaun of the dead #the cornetto trilogy #cornetto trilogy #simon pegg #nick frost #edgar wright #running my mouth #made this with my hands

[softceleste]

The fact I honestly thought I'd pull off playing College Craze and being normal about it, and then less than a week later I've already played it multiple times, made a duel MC au, a Pinterest board, and recreated some of the PopMe pages, is genuinely not lost on me.

#college craze #katie talks ifs and vns #i made psds for new contacts and calls too but didn't really have a use for them in this #also i just bs'd vidtok if it pops up I'll redo those but >.> i think you can tell who my favorite RO is so far okay (it's Pierce) #and then jay shaun ruby and trish also have me by the throat like if Trish has 0 fans I'm dead okay #I've known those characters literally like 4 days and I'd go to bat for all five of them already ok - my beloveds #anyway madeline mostly follows canon (the divergence is Ches exists and Ches is canonly the one fake!dating Shaun for Mad's tuition) #otherwise what the vn throws at Madeline she gets ok and then Ches breaks canon... so much it'd be probably too long for the tags #but this is what i get for being like 'this oc I've been writing for a decade+ would be down so bad for Pierce and Shaun lemme do a #playthrough with her and see what happens' - this happens apparently 😂 listen the vn helped me get through the entire time my mom was #in the hospital (she's home now) so tbh it was a really appreciated distraction <3 #extremely long post #long post #edits:mine #college craze: ches #college craze: madeline #college craze: madeline x jay #college craze: ches x pierce #i had fun with these though like Madeline messaging Ches to ensure she isn’t going to come in and find Jay in the dorm #and Ches being like ‘yeah my vidtok is 100% Pierce’s fault’ yikes I need to sleep I’m excitedly tired rambling #sorry if this post is annoying (and for the lines under the categories breaking future me will fix that in further edits if I post more #those may be relegated to the shit post blog though we’ll see posting oc stuff makes me so anxious ngl) #im just hitting post I’ve been staring at this stressing it like two hours now jfc

[bbqhooligan]

love that its canon Kazuma can lust after his god, subjugate people, hurt anyone, kill people and not blight his master. dudes compertmentalizing game is unmatched. you post "normalize killing and torturing" on tumblr dot com and kazuma just gets a chill out of nowhere as he has the masters doctorate on exactly that. bro normalized sinning

#mypost #kazuma #noragami #im so interested in his insanity its a tad like me but much more Goals than anything rlse #''i can do anything ensure the safety of my god and itll be right btw'' <- thought process of a man you HAVE TO avoid at all cost #he literally left yato in the mud the second he was safosfied enemy was dead. NOT EVEN A PEACE OUT #he got touched by gods greatest secret. got torn in half. and killed the worst man alive all in a minute #BEAST motherfuckin BEAST #nora whining she GOT him she g o t him and hes sexily bleeding like ''lmao what of it'' #LOVE how stressed out and uncomposed she looks in their battle she was fighting for her life out there #Kazuma is just like:👞👔👖👓 #one thing abt him is he WILL be wearing a suit and tie. lookin like hes at a meeting. yeah. meeting of murder and death #jesus god hes my man. batshit man my beloved

[a-world-in-grey]

Life Debts and why Nyx's is a Big Deal

@secret-engima because I've been thinking on this and have Feelings.

Y'all can find SE's original post on Debt Braids here, but a short recap:

Debt is taken very seriously in Galahd. If you owe a debt, it's expected that you pay it off as soon as you can - via goods, services, etc. Very large debts between families can be settled through marriage, but as it requires both potential newly weds to be completely willing (Galahdians don't do divorce, you're married until one of you die), that sort of arrangement is rare.

A Life Debt is declared when a Galahdian believes they owe a debt they cannot repay, usually because the debt is so large, so personal, that a value of the debt cannot be given. In such a scenario, the Galahdian will declare a Life Debt and weave a Debt braid into their hair. A Life Debt is declared on that Galahdian's life. Only they can pay it, and once they die, the debt is fulfilled.

Now, this is where we get to just how serious declaring a Life Debt is. A Galahdian who declares a Debt is declaring that they owe this one person so much, that said person essentially now holds their loyalty over even the Galahdian's own clan and Chief. That loyalty stays until the Galahdian dies. If the person holding the debt dies, the debt passes on to their heir. When the heir dies, the debt does not pass on to anyone else, but even then, the Galahdian is not free from the Debt. Instead, they are free to choose how they will fulfill the debt until they die.

Because Life Debts are such a serious thing, no one can demand a Life Debt as payment. It is only ever voluntary.

So now we get to Nyx's Debt to Regis.

(I won't go into why Nyx declared a Debt - canonically we know Regis once saved Nyx's life, but exact details are for everyone's personal headcanons.)

On the surface, it's not that big of a deal. Oh, it's significant. It's a major commitment Nyx can never take back, but it's not really a problem.

Three things make Nyx's declared Debt significant, even by Galahdian standards. 1) The holder of his Debt is the Mainlander King. 2) Nyx is a Clan Chief. 3) Nyx is the absolute Last of his clan. Any single one of these wouldn't be remarkable, but together they turn what would be a significant but standard Debt into a nightmare.

Regis being an Outsider would normally not be an issue. Oh, there are Galahdians that sneer in private over Nyx declaring a Debt to an Outsider, because they believe Galahdians don't owe Outsiders jack shit. (Is it xenophobic? Yes, but Galahdians have a strong insider-outsider mindset and there will always be extremists in any culture.) But they keep their opinions to themselves because commenting on someone's declared Debt is just asking for a broken nose. Even Regis being a king wouldn't be anything other than an unusual detail (because just what happened that caused Nyx to owe a king a Debt?). The biggest thing about Regis being an Outsider is that to fulfill the debt, Nyx pretty much has to leave Galahd for Insomnia until the king and his heir die or one of them gives Nyx explicit permission/orders to return to Galahd. Which sucks, but that's what Debts mean. Regis - and later Noctis - will hold Nyx's first loyalty until Nyx dies.

Nyx being a Clan Chief is where things start getting sticky. A Chief's first duty must be to their clan. Chiefs, as a rule, do not declare Life Debts. They can't, not when they're first loyalty has to be to the clan, instead of a single person outside the Clan. In the very rare cases a Chief feels they must declare a Debt, they step down from their position as Chief. At least, they should. There's no clan law stating someone with a Life Debt cannot be Clan Chief, but a Chief in such a position will either neglect their clan or their Debt. Neither is something Galahdians regard favorably. There's never been a case where a Chief has refused to step down after declaring a Debt, so none of the Clans have ever had to decide what to do, but it's likely it would not end well.

Nyx being the very Last of his clan means that there aren't any other Ulrics he has a duty of care to as Chief. He is the only one affected by his declaration of Debt, so him remaining Chief Ulric isn't actually a problem. Where him being the Last becomes the final nail in the coffin is if anyone ever joins Clan Ulric. Because unless the Clans somehow find an Ulric that escaped the Burning, Nyx can't step down as Chief.

Nyx's first commitment must be to Regis. Then to Noctis. Not to his people. Not to his friends or any personal relationships. Not to rebuilding Clan Ulric. Any spouse/children/clansmen would always come second unless Regis/Noctis allowed it.

(Do I think Regis and Noctis would allow it, if Nyx asked? Yes. In a heartbeat. But Nyx would have to ask. Might even have to explain, and as a whole, Galahdians tend to be... reluctant, to explain their culture to Outsiders.)

I don't think Nyx really thought about the long term consequences of his Debt, when he made it. He might have, and could have decided that the situation was such that he was honor-bound to declare a Debt regardless. But Nyx has a reputation for not really thinking before he leaps into action, and depending on when Nyx declared his Debt? If it was after the Burning, after Nyx lost literally everyone, he probably wouldn't have been thinking clearly even if he had taken the time to think the decision over. And that's assuming he would have realized the implications in the first place - if Nyx wasn't raised to be Chief, it's very probable he wouldn't have.

Every other Clan Chief would have caught the implications. They would have known, from the moment they saw Nyx's braid, that the Last Ulric would never return to Galahd (not when the likelihood of Nyx outliving a boy 12 years his junior was slim to none). That the Last Ulric would likely remain the Last, condemning the Ulric Clan to die with him.

#ffxv #worldbuilding #galahd culture #galahd #Nyx Ulric #braids #working on my various Sola aus and realizing what it means for Nyx to declare that Debt #in most aus is doesn't end up being a problem because either Regis dies and Nyx transfers the Debt to Sola as his chosen queen #or Nyx never bonds as Sola's Sword before either of them die and is never confronted with that particular crisis #but in Sunshine-verse *Selena is still alive* and *still a child* for about four years after the Burning #...oh I work with that I can *definitely* work with that #then there's the Memories-verse when Nyx finally meets Sola again after Sola's supposed death (and actually *knows* it's Sola) #and he's smacked in the face with the realization that he can't stay with Sola because Sola doesn't want to return to Insomnia #and Sola has very good reasons for not wanting to go back but Nyx *has* to go back *because he declared a Debt* #and that Debt will go to Noctis on Regis' death because Sola is still 'dead' and Sola (now going by Rhea) doesn't want to be Sola anymore #so Nyx can't tell Regis or Noctis about Rhea because they'd want Sola to come back but Rhea *can't* be Sola #can't be the daughter and sister she was before she fell down Taelpar Crag #before Taelpar Crag it could have worked - Sola's first loyalty will always be to Noctis so she would have understood and accepted #Nyx being unable to give her his first loyalty even as her Sword (which is how it works in the fusion with SE's Blood of my Blood-verse) #(and in the fusion with SE's Nox-verse though Sola does ensure that Nox is aware of Nyx's situation when the two are courting) #it's unlikely I'll ever have Regis or pre-Crystal Noctis learn that Nyx declared a Debt or what it really means

[anonbinaryweirdo]

i am not okay. I found old screenshots of my babies from like ???? two??? years ago

josmora still gives me so much LIFE

#josh n shamora !!! #malewife x girlboss #im gonna hc for a little #josh was a mommas boy snd probably had bad daddy issues‚ which would explain why hes so fragile and sensitive #funfacto; josh died due to drowning‚ so i would like to think that Oliver tries to help him overcome his fear of deep water #it takes a while but he's not that afraid of it anymore !! #notice how shamoras the one carrying the groceries and josh is staring straight into the sun #that should sum up their dynamic perfectly i think #“wife who hates everyone except her husband” #funfacto 2; shamoras cause of death was being pushed off a building (i vividly remember this. im so sure it was this.) #so shes deathly afraid of heights now probably #but will get on an amusement park ride for joshs sake because he needs someones hand to hold #and its either Lucy's or Shamora's #but he also makes sure she's alright the whole ride too !! he doesnt want her to have ant kind of panic attack #so he ensures that shes okay the whole ride #josh is a cinnamon roll with a mixture of “could kill you / is just a cinnamon roll” #shamora looks like she could kill you and WOULD kill you #the black hair streaks are because all dead ocs have them !! i think it was an earlier hc that they couldnt dye over it. #this is because alexandra dyed her hair blue‚ but the streak wouldnt dye(?) #holy shit im rambling im so sorryKSJKSDJ #oc talk ! #ALSO SUNSHINE X SUNSHINE PROTECTOR HOW COULD I FORGET #AND ITS ALSO FUCKING MOON X MOON PROTECTOR IDK THE PROPER NAME

[riceballannie]

I swear, if Hikari Zhang is not half or at least part japanese AND chinese I'm going to riot because what is this name????

Hikari - a japanese name

Zhang - a chinese surname

I sure as hell hope that they have a fucking explanation for that because it's literally Cho Chang all over again and I'm sick and tired of the mediocre Asian representation in western media

#teen wolf #teen wolf mtv #teen wolf movie #teen wolf fandom #hikari zhang #amy lin workman #not sure I'm even going to watch the movie #because it feels like it's going to spit on everyone's expectations #by doing everything it's not supposed to do #like what's the point of bringing back allison now #she's been dead for 3 seasons #leave her dead #honestly it's like they're only bringing her back for the shock value to ensure that everyone's going to watch it #because why would they not only bring back allison but also one of the most popular villains #And now Hikari being the replacement for Kira because people weren't able to fucking pay their actors properly #hhhhhhh

[parkercore-69]

most humiliating/humbling/worst situation of my entire life atm is confidently telling a restaurant waiter that im paying for the meal for me and a female friend i’d spent the day with- and then not being able to pay when she told me the cost 😍😍

“yeah, I’ll be paying today 😎”

“Okay! that’ll be £31.”

“…w..what-?”

#never wanted to off myself more #for reference a usual meal there wuld b £20 its just cuz jesus died today or sumthin #NO CUZ IT WAS SO BAD #i had to ASK HER TO PAY SEPARATELY #SHOOT ME #SHOOT ME DEAD #this is why i genuinely couldnt go on an actual date with a woman #im a loser pathetic man #i am broke #i have a nicotine addiction #i dress awfully #fr was stood there in a children’s batman hoodie when she was dressed so lovely #i do not deserve women #EARLIER ON IN THE DAY I ACCIDENTALLY TOLD A CINEMA EMPLOYEE ‘you too!’ AFTER THEY TOLD ME TO ENJOY MY FILM #I AM A HUMILIATION #ALSO THIRTY FUCKING QUID #IM A TEENAGER #WHERE AM I GETTING THAT INCOME FROM #GOD DAMN #parker’s funnies #parker spews his troubles connecting emotionally and romantically and platonically and just generically with people #i was tryna be chivalrous and charming and I COULDNT PAY #i had offered to pay and ensured her i would #i literally double taked and deadass stammered when the waiter told me

[meatriarch]

im still on my fuckshit but when i think of cc maria ( by extension also nosy maria but specifically noting the isolation aspect of cc );

can you imagine one day skimming the paper. its been a few weeks since all the commotion knowing your friends' had attempted to come find you but then were chased off. never actually heard or saw any of them, but you know they were around.

but you've been moved from the cells to a mattress upstairs. you're given more freedom, more wiggle room, you're allowed to do things - little hobby-type activities - you're given better foods, you're looked after by the older woman at the other house. the man who took you, who terrifies you still to some degree, slowly doesn't feel like such a stranger anymore, you're right to still be cautious around him but as the days, the weeks, pass by, there's simply a different air about him, and in the shack. lighter, in a sense.

you find yourself growing used to the new daily - the new routine. of waking to the sound of him getting ready for the day, of being left alone in there for hours sometimes, others trailing after him like a duckling, around the older womans' property, helping with an array of tasks. and you worry about upsetting her at first, unsure if doing so will earn a knife to the throat. you listen, you do as you're told, you find some kind of way to co-exist - all the while still, in the back of your mind, there's still a ray of hope,

that maybe, maybe, since the rest of them got away - that they're merely licking their wounds, that they'll get word out and even with all the silence since they had been on the property, there's that shred of hope that maybe? someone will waltz in, guns blazing so to speak, and you'll get out of this hell finally.

that is, until that day - that you're skimming through the paper, and you recognize yourself in a little column - and you realize you're staring at your own fucking obituary.

and in that moment everything seems solidified.

you're never getting away.

there's no point in it.

there's no one out there who are still trying to find you, get you back, bring you home, back to your mothers' arms, back to being an older sister, back to the circle of friends you loved so dearly.

you're dead.

not just to the world, but to those you loved - those who claimed to have loved you, too.

what else do you have at that point? where else do you go, even if you still tried to leave? who wouldn't look at you sideways for the blood that's already stained your hands? for the flesh caught between teeth?

who else is there, except the one murmuring encouragement and praise in your ear?

the only constant you've had in all these weeks? whose words rang true - clearly - that no one cared? that they abandoned you? left you there, didn't even care to make sure you were alive or not? only thought of themselves and got the fuck outta there without confirming if you were even still alive.

#[ ♡ ] ── * maria f. / 𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘦. #[ 𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘦. ] ── * queue. #[ 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦. ] ── * cold case. #[ 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦. ] ── * no one saved you. #for cc maria its just. theres literally no one else. the only constant has been johnny. hes the one who was there with her when the #broadcasts sounded off her searches being called off. the only one who ensured she ate - was clothed - was looked after when she fell ill. #who she could talk to. who in spite of all her escape attempts & all her attempts at trying to kill him kept her around - taught her how to #do things properly - protected her from others that'd be brought down below shack. honestly. her isolation in cc - only having any sort of #connection being with johnny for *months* before he trusted her enough to let her join him for longer periods - like its. complicated. #SO fucking complicated. youre seen as dead to literally everyone else in existence - *except for him*. he who sees you. who hears you. #who talks to you. looks after you. its hard not to find yourself becoming attached/devoted. to the only person who knows you still exist #like i mentioned for nosy its. theres lee there too now so its. a little different. it doesnt hit right away - the almost blind devotion. #but it still happens - over time - with the both of them. the last two people who for a time at least know you were even still living. #and its by the time ch2 rolls in for either cc/nosy its just. its so confusing to her. why they all bother returning then? #for cc its just. you all buried me in an empty box twenty years ago...you all moved on then. you accepted that. so why are you here now. #why are you re-opening wounds that shouldve been long buried - with that empty casket. why suddenly care now? #in nosy she suppresses it w. her bitterness but cc i feel it comes out more like... grief & hurt. all over again. because if you came back #20 yrs after the fact? then why DIDNT you return back then? why *now* and not then? at any point in the last two decades?

[weallpartyatybcpatricksfuneral]

you ever think about how patrick had no time to get help in between his kidnapping and his death. after joe died pete and andy were able to get cleaned up. they don't have blood on them when they go confront the vixens. they had time to address their injuries and clean their faces.

patrick did not have that chance. he was injured worse at the police station. he was not offered help in any form. and then the vixens took him back and he died not long after.

#constantly thinking about the connections between patrick and joe/pete and andy #both patrick and joe died without someone helping them. the only people they reached out to didnt help them. #foxes indirectly killed joe and doomed the defenders of the faith. #patricks only breather during this whole series was that short car ride with foxes and then she turned on him #he didnt even spend that long in prison #the whole entire ybc takes place over like. the span of a week-ish. its hard to tell how long they were held captive but still #patrick would absolutely have died even if pete didn't stab him. he is severely injured and no one helped his injuries #fun ybc idea where he snaps out of his possession and pete has to ensure he does not die immediately because my dude should have been dead #long before he started chasing pete #me posts #ybcpatrick

[meatriarchived]

i did not sleep yay for me im still on my fuckshit but when i think of cc maria ( by extension also nosy maria but specifically noting the isolation aspect of cc );

can you imagine one day skimming the paper. its been a few weeks since all the commotion knowing your friends' had attempted to come find you but then were chased off. never actually heard or saw any of them, but you know they were around.

but you've been moved from the cells to a mattress upstairs. you're given more freedom, more wiggle room, you're allowed to do things - little hobby-type activities - you're given better foods, you're looked after by the older woman at the other house. the man who took you, who terrifies you still to some degree, slowly doesn't feel like such a stranger anymore, you're right to still be cautious around him but as the days, the weeks, pass by, there's simply a different air about him, and in the shack. lighter, in a sense.

you find yourself growing used to the new daily - the new routine. of waking to the sound of him getting ready for the day, of being left alone in there for hours sometimes, others trailing after him like a duckling, around the older womans' property, helping with an array of tasks. and you worry about upsetting her at first, unsure if doing so will earn a knife to the throat. you listen, you do as you're told, you find some kind of way to co-exist - all the while still, in the back of your mind, there's still a ray of hope,

that maybe, maybe, since the rest of them got away - that they're merely licking their wounds, that they'll get word out and even with all the silence since they had been on the property, there's that shred of hope that maybe? someone will waltz in, guns blazing so to speak, and you'll get out of this hell finally.

that is, until that day - that you're skimming through the paper, and you recognize yourself in a little column - and you realize you're staring at your own fucking obituary.

and in that moment everything seems solidified.

you're never getting away.

there's no point in it.

there's no one out there who are still trying to find you, get you back, bring you home, back to your mothers' arms, back to being an older sister, back to the circle of friends you loved so dearly.

you're dead.

not just to the world, but to those you loved - those who claimed to have loved you, too.

what else do you have at that point? where else do you go, even if you still tried to leave? who wouldn't look at you sideways for the blood that's already stained your hands? for the flesh caught between teeth?

who else is there, except the one murmuring encouragement and praise in your ear?

the only constant you've had in all these weeks? whose words rang true - clearly - that no one cared? that they abandoned you? left you there, didn't even care to make sure you were alive or not? only thought of themselves and got the fuck outta there without confirming if you were even still alive.

#for cc maria its just. theres literally no one else. the only constant has been johnny. hes the one who was there with her when the #broadcasts sounded off her searches being called off. the only one who ensured she ate - was clothed - was looked after when she fell ill. #who she could talk to. who in spite of all her escape attempts & all her attempts at trying to kill him kept her around - taught her how to #do things properly - protected her from others that'd be brought down below shack. honestly. her isolation in cc - only having any sort of #connection being with johnny for *months* before he trusted her enough to let her join him for longer periods - like its. complicated. #*so* fucking complicated. youre seen as dead to literally everyone else in existence - *except for him*. he who sees you. who hears you. #you speaks with you. looks after you. its hard not to find yourself becoming attached/devoted. to the only person who knows you still exist #like i mentioned for nosy its. theres lee there too now so its. a little different. it doesnt hit right away - the almost blind devotion. #but it still happens - over time - with the both of them. the last two people who for a time at least know you were even still living. #and its by the time ch2 rolls in for either cc/nosy its just. its so confusing to her. why they all bother returning then? #for cc its just. you all buried me in an empty box twenty years ago...you all moved on then. you accepted that. so why are you here now. #why are you re-opening wounds that shouldve been long buried - with that empty casket. why suddenly care now? #in nosy she suppresses it with her bitterness but cc i feel it comes out more like... grief & hurt. all over again. because if you came bac #20 yrs after the fact? then why DIDNT you return back then? why *now* and not then? #[ mf ] ── * 𝐇𝐂 / 𝐋𝐎𝐑𝐄. { maria. } #[ mf ] ── * 𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄. { cold case. } #[ mf ] ── * 𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄. { no one saved you. } #[ mf ] ── * 𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄. { we saved us. }

[antihibikase-archive]

Blur/Blight Shiroshipping,, Hilda who has had dreams of her past life, when she lost everything in one night. When her party dissolved, her king fell into despair, and she had to take control of the kingdom or it would fall into ruin.

The Warrior of Truth only had The Scholar of Truth as her advisor throughout the years, as The Scholar of Ideals carried out her own mission separate from them, and The Priest, too, would pass on eventually.

The Warrior of Truth who was never able to admit her feelings, and eventually, she lost her advisor too. She was the last of the party to die- and as a result, she's the one that carries the most memories when they're reborn.

#antihibikase.txt #((The difference between Hilda ensuring what happened before doesn't happen again- so she reaches out for Bianca as soon as she can)) #((While Hilbert remained in denial about everything until Cheren lost half his heart. Then he ran away. And when he came back he was dead)) #((Rightfully Hilda resents him for this. The girl who despises having fate and legends take control of their lives is the one who-)) #((-knows all too well that Hilbert's choice to deny his past was what got Cheren killed.)) #((And Hilda tries to hold onto everyone else. Bianca and Cheren and the kids and even N even if she dislikes him))

[cor-ardens-archive]

#thinking about how this effectively traps her in his narrative (something cmm talks about actually) #and ensures her silence #she could only ever be already dead #m. #lolita

[specialagentleonkennedy]

AU Leon DBD HC.

Became Umbrella’s best soldier after being betrayed by Chris, only to be taken by the Entity during his first field mission.

Has PTSD from both his past and his “Death” along with unresolved anger issues.

While in Umbrella he adopted Eveline, [the E-Series type fungal bioweapon who takes the form of a little girl] and acted as a father figure before Eveline eventually died due to biological instability, passing the virus on to Leon.

The Molded, paired with both the Las Plagas and the G-Virus from the Raccoon City outbreak have made Leon an apex predator in his home, now a deadly hunter in The Entity’s realm.

His eyes are normally yellow due to the viruses, but turn their original blue when he’s genuinely happy or experiencing positive emotions.

In trials he uses his stealth training to catch Survivors off-guard, manipulating the Molded to form misshapen worms that detach from his arm and attack Survivors, infecting them and slowing them down. However this causes hunger which leads to starvation if left unattended.

Leon possess two Moris.

Normal: similar to Legion’s, only followed by the crushing of the Survivor’s head.

Starving: impaled through the chest by Las Plagas tail, followed by the consumption of blood before the body is infested by Molded.

Back home he preferred being in the company of Nikolai, Carlos, Sherry, Eveline and a guard dog named Styx. In the fog he prefers Wesker, Carlos, an Evil version of Chris, and Claire.

His realm is RPD, only the Entity’s corruption is replaced by black mold and the Los Illuminatos cult symbol painted over the floor mosaic in blood.

If he likes someone, he won’t carry his weapon (a combat knife) but if he REALLY likes them, he’ll refrain from wearing his sunglasses and gloves, showing off his eyes and blackened hands.

Will headbutt someone to get attention when he’s lonely. (it actually hurts)

#resident evil #dead by daylight #leon s kennedy #killer!leon #Leon will go to great lengths to ensure Claire’s survival #he’ll also let Rebecca live bc she’s small and cute #will literally get into a fist fight with Nemesis every chance he gets bc he hates it #only to be floored by the bioweapon and be reduced to an undulating pile of mold worms #yes mold worms bc worms are CUTE #very very very long post so sorry 🥺😅

[tellie-vision-art]

I’m gonna be honest I lowkey want to draw Axel or maybe her with Priya but I don’t normally draw fanart and I am scared 😭

And also I would hate if people followed me explicitly for that BC I don’t normally draw fanart and I know it would be disappointing to see my OCs all the time. Like would any attention I receive from it be worth it if no one’s interested in my actual art rather than just the characters in it. Like there’s no demand for my art would anyone who follows me even care if I drew fanart 😭 it’s a double-edged sword

And like interacting with fandoms always ends poorly for me (Scream Queens bc harassment, Squid Game bc lots of gross people) what if I draw it and post it and the TD fandom gets ruined for me too somehow, I would die 😩 I fear interaction outside my target audience (followers and my friends) I suppose

#total drama was my first hyperfixation fun fact for you #but I was too small and bad at art to make content at the time lmao #but like damn what if I draw them and they look like shit in my style I would off myself #also tbh I headcanon Axel probably doesn’t care about shaving bc she’s too busy… surviving #and I don’t want to get roasted for drawing a woman with body hair 😩 #I feel like also I want to give her a tooth gap I think her design would look aesthetically pleasing to me with it #I love her so much she was ROBBED #also she is trans and a lesbian she told me personally #if she told me to jump off a bridge I would with no questions asked #anyway random ship headcanon also: I feel like Axel is the one with the crush first #however her ways of showing affection are not necessarily seen as affectionate by other people bc she’s so intense #like i.e. I feel like she genuinely thought killing the squirrels for her team was a kind gesture #she just does not show things like kindness traditionally if that any of that even makes sense #THE POINT IS SHE’S SHOWING AFFECTION BUT PRIYA’S NOT PICKING UP ON IT BC SHE SHOWS IT WEIRDLY 😭 #lmao I’m imagining her trying to gift her a knife (or saw!) bc she’s baffled at the idea of someone not having one for self-defense #SHE BRINGS HER (cooked obviously) DEAD THINGS LIKE A CAT 😭 #she won’t get you flowers she will bring you military rations so you’ll have food when the apocalypse comes #maybe Priya even gets irritated by everything bc she’s capable of defending/doing things herself and she’s like #misinterpreting Axel’s shows of affection as her thinking she’s weak/incapable #and poor Axel wouldn’t understand what she’s doing wrong bc she is ensuring her survival! why is that not working! #Someone needs to help her but I can’t see her accepting help #but it would be funny to see someone suggest giving Priya flowers or smth and Axel’s like #why would I do that flowers just die wouldn’t you rather have a weapon for when the apocalypse comes #a strange way of showing affection but I think it would be CUTE #and it would be funny bc Priya would eventually show affection the normal way and Axel would not pick up on it at all #she would tell her she looks pretty today but what she REALLY wants to hear is I would trust you with my life during the apocalypse #the way to her heart is the apocalypse! she just tragically thinks it’s the way to everyone else’s as well #lmao I’m talking so much but it’s so funny to me #a disaster lesbian in her natural environment #they mean so much to me I saw them interact once and my brain was like yes this is it