#toward meeting a dream

[thunderboltfire]

I know the Gorion's Ward is dead in BG3 canon (as per Murder in Baldur's Gate and so on), but for me personally the real reason why they aren't in the game is that if Iwona got to know that Bhaal is back on his 'creating bhaalspawns' bullshit, she'd get so mad she'd immediately ascend as a goddess of Pissed Off Offspring and punch her father in the balls.

#BG3 #Baldur's Gate 3 #shitpost #I haven't done a durge playthrough yet but I can't help but imagine her meeting durge at some point #and recognising something unsettlingly familiar about them #I may consider renouncing her birthright as her canon choice but I can't help but think that it leaves a lasting mark in her #A kind of a sixth sense - a weird feeling of familiarity #when she brushes with the same kind of dark power which once tried to pull her towards itself #inhabited her dreams and subconscious #and if she got to know durge actually has it worse than she had with the eponymous dark urges #she'd probably be even more mad #I guess I'd have a lot of fun headcanoning the ways my Charname could make a cameo somewhwere in the events of BG3 #seeing her reacting to history repeating itself would be almost as interesting as hearing Jaheira's non-nonsense comments

[seenthisepisode]

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#i am close to tears - beware there is a rant about my life in the tags ahead so watch out - it's nothing VERY serious but it's... well #also this is literally about supernatural convention so it's not like a serious problem but it is a problem for me personally #so anyway last year when they announced misha for purgatory con 8 in dusseldorf i was like yes yes yes and i bought the tickets because: #1. i had a whole year to plan a trip 2. going to spn con was this little dream of mine because i've been in this fandom for years so #so i thought hey i deserve a little treat. i want to and deserve to go to a con and they just announced misha and i'd love to go #(and then they also announced jensen. and then jared too so like all 3 main guys will be there so !! a Treat !! yay!) and also Why Not #because it's in germany so it's the closest i would ever get a convention because i am from poland [*] no conventions here sorry #so i was like yeah the stars seem to have alligned yeah AND I BOUGHT THE TICKET. and the thing is SOLD OUT. and 3 main actor men are there #and a lot of mutuals that i'd finally love to meet maybe if they feel like it or whatever but i'd love to meet tumblr people so there's tha #and now. i just spent 3 hours after work looking for flights and everything. and. the conclusion. after 3 hours of looking at every possibl #way for me to get to Dusseldorf at the days of the con. well. the conclusion is i have no way to get there. and i am stuck. #and there are flights and they are not even that expensive. but the HOURS are horrible. i checked different airports and even looked at #flights to dortmund and i literally have no way to get there in a way that makes any sense... because arriving at 4pm on saturday is #too late. and the other option is being there at 8 am - cool - but i have no way of getting to the airport at 4 am. i'd have to take #additional day off from work (not an option). and i literally don't know what to do. it's almost 1 am and i should be happily asleep and i #am trying to solve this problem lmao because on one hand i really want to go and i want to figure out a way to get there 1. on time 2. in a #way that won't cost me 1/3 of my paycheck ; and on the other hand i just want to email the organizer to return the ticket or resell it to #someone because i know there will be someone who wants to go because the event is sold out #WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE THIS HARD...... #AS I WRITE THIS I AM FULLY AWARE THIS IS SUCH A FIRST WORLD PROBLEM i know!!!!!! fully aware!!!! #but i just :(( really wanted to go :((( but i am slowly leaning towards the option of not going :((( because money and time :(( #and the kilometers between me and the con place :((((( #personal

[fellhellion]

I feel like folks who argue Miles needs to lose his Dad in order to not cheapen the entire conflict of ‘trying to eat both cakes w/o consequence’ are like. a) treading the line of cynicism, and b) not recognising the fact that atsv already has Miles face the conflict of wanting two very disparate things and at the end of the day, having to choose the one that aligns with a version of yourself you can be proud of, even when that choice brings you grief and you can’t make it knowing things may eventually turn out okay.

Miles is forced to choose between inaction regarding fate (and also the support of his friends aligned with this position) and the action he believes is intrinsic to his mantle as a hero (and his love for his family). And at the end of the day, no matter the grief and pain, Miles has the strength to walk away from his friends and an ideological position he cannot contend with.

He’s willing to give them up, no matter how much it hurts, because the alternative with their support is unthinkable. He already knows the pain of being unable to have everything you want.

#raimi’s spiderman 2 also goes for this similar idea except it’s in the context of Peter having to choose between two dreams #and ultimately no matter the pain he wants to live a life that has the good of his hero work in it #BUT! and this is the same thing atsv does as well. the critical part of spiderman 2’s conflict resolution says that being honest w the #people you love allows THEM the choice to bend. to meet you in the middle where you cannot bend any further #it’s why Jeff and Rio are so good for being willing to look at their parenting and going why can’t we meet Miles a measure towards where he #wants to be met. we love him so we will make that compromise #and it’s the same sort of thing MJ says in spiderman 2. don’t make that choice FOR me. I respect this is going ro be part of your life #but allow me to make my own choice and be a part of that life with you #IDK ARE THESE TAGS ANYTHING LMAO #tunes talks spiderverse

[ashes-in-a-jar]

The Sheridan Tapes episode 66

Oh boy oh man things are heating up

I love recognizing Anna's predictions now that I relistened and remember the context:

Predicting a spaceship will try to escape the apocalypse and get caught by the "dragons between the stars" with their "king of the dragons" those are the Jovians with their Greatmind from episode 59 right? And then "a power will rise below the sand more terrible than any before or after." That's Morrison. "It shall try to close a door" Morrison and Ned's attempt in season 2 "but in so doing throw open doors within itself that shall never be closed again," that's Morrison finding a connection to the source and growing stronger and more unhinged. "and through those doors a terror shall rise to poison the land and freeze the sun" self explanatory. I do wonder what the "where the wealthy drink the liquor gold and silver and bury lights in the earth where no light should dwell" means

Ren's experiments are... Not great to say the least. The moral conflict arising between the crew after hearing it is interesting. Sam thinking it was justified because Anna gave her consent and it's all for saving the world and the rest disagreeing... I'm conflicted about it myself about it hmmm.

Ned and Bill's interaction in the cold open is also very good and I do love the imagery Ned gives regarding how he experiences existence...

Other than the cold open Bill only had 2 lines in this episode, he's so quiet and subdued in comparison to his past seasons vibrant self goddddd

The end tho:

Maria Sol: You okay, Sam?

Sam Bailey: What?

Maria Sol: You’ve got a… weird look on your face.

Sam Bailey: Nothing, nothing, it’s just… just had an idea about something. Don’t worry about it.

IM WORRIED SAM, I'M VERY WORRIED

#tst relisten #the sheridan tapes #these posts are getting longer the more I'm getting into the good stuff lol #i love Sam's viceral hate towards the radio guy Adrian. im gonna be on the lookout for his reaction in the episodewhere they meet #also Ren looking for a reason why Anna's dreams are triggered: maybe it's a proximity to get recording device? hmmm

[amiibo-king]

i know theres at least some fellow gayboy VN romance enjoyers following me, and i have a question for yall—besides the arcana and last legacy, do y'all have any recommendations for VN romances that not only let you be a gay man, but also are NOT written in such a way as to be painfully obvious the writers intended for the MC to be a straight woman?

#i love VN romances but only when they meet this criteria #and for such a low bar its so hard for so many VNs to pass... #better yet if u kno of any VNs geared towards gay men (besides dream daddy) i wanna know abt em

[roobylavender]

you know what would automatically change my hatred to love for sasusaku? If their genders were reversed. Majority of the reason why I hate sasuke and sakura relationship is because the type of environment and the culture I grew up in where it's been fed to women since basically birth to always be faithful to her man no matter how terrible he treats her, even after marriage. The pharse, "Just be patient and he will change", infuriates me to another level. Seeing sakura chasing after sasuke throughout the series after numerous rejections and an attempted MURDER on her by him made me roll my eyes so hard like girl just move the fuck on omfg. And even after their "marriage" sasuke's treatment towards her doesn't get better lmao, leaving her alone with a whole ass child to take care by herself?? BYE sakura's patience for him is outmatch cus I would've divorced his ass for that. Though, the more I mature, little by little I begin to understand the complexity of their relationship after putting my gender issues aside for a second and look deep into them. And especially now, after reading your perspective on their whole relationship, it really did made half of my hatred go away and understand the relationship wholeheartedly. Like yeah, I absolutely love the trope of one person saying they don't deserve the other person's love but the other person keep loving them anyway, that stuff makes me giggle and swing my legs in the air and shit. It's just that the only way this trope would work for me if the person loving them has enough self-respect for themselves AND if it's a girl in the former & the guy in the latter. And honestly, I found naruto being borderline obsessed with sasuke annoying too but the reason why I can digest it more well is because naruto can go head to head with sasuke without backing down. Like, I wanted to see at least ONCE sakura having a heated argument with sasuke, or punch him in the face in the series. I feel like sasuke deserves a punch from her at the very least 🤷🏽‍♀️

Sigh, I really did wanna love their relationship and their journey to love (that scene of him catching her when she was about to fall and then having that iconic eye contact had me feeling butterflies ngl) since it has all the tropes I love but the execution is just so...

i mean if it helps any i absolutely hate post-canon and that's where my primary divide with most sasusaku fans lies 😭 i'm not sure if you read the blue-plums post i reblogged but it's a good dissection of why exactly it fails as a conclusion to both their individual arcs and their relationship arc generally. the post-canon we see is a direct answer to what sasuke's and sakura's dreams are at the start of the series, but the problem with this is that sasuke and sakura are nowhere near being the same people at the end of the series as they were at the start. generally, i don't think post-canon really takes the individual arc of any character into much account. its primary goal is maintaining the status quo with a slight veneer of friendship power draped over it for aesthetics. but nothing at the root is changed despite every traumatic development the characters were relentlessly subjected to. resultantly, you're left with a portrayal of sasuke as a neglectful father who glorifies the lone-wolf hero trope, which goes against everything he could possibly have learned from itachi; and you're left with a portrayal of sakura as someone content to keep house despite the bulk of her character arc being grounded in her ability and desire to take initiative not only at home, but abroad. it's not true to who either of them is by that point and, even more than that, it's a disservice to everything they've put themselves through for the sake of the love they were vying for. so while i love sasusaku as it progresses up through 699, i tend to wholeheartedly ignore whatever comes after and relegate that instead to either my own imagination or blue-plums's in her fics

what i will say about the naruto and sakura distinction is that a lot of people are more comfortable with how sasuke reacts to naruto bc they believe what naruto is doing is right. it's kind of like: if the only thing sasuke will realistically respond to is violence then obv naruto can resort to that violence without dwelling on it too much. but if you think about violence in the context of sasuke's entire life, it's not actually helpful at all beyond its ability to physically bring him to a grinding halt. even when naruto finally breaks through to sasuke, it's not the violence that makes things click for him. it's the words he says after, and it's the words he's always said before that that have stayed in sasuke's mind. violence, in contrast, is a poisonous thing for sasuke bc it's the only thing that has defined the parameters of his entire life. it robbed him of every person he cared about prior to his meeting team seven, and inevitably it intimidated him into seeking out more violence once he realized that he was incapable of saving the new people he'd come to care about as well. everything, at the root, was driven by sasuke's traumatically-exacerbated response to love and loss. the idea of losing naruto and sakura to the hands of anyone else was unbearable. so he decided that he'd rather have killed them himself. it was absolutely irrational. but a twelve year old child put through that kind of successive, relentless trauma was never going to think rationally, and certainly not after being exploited by people like orochimaru and obito (and to an extent itachi) in turn

all of this to say: there is of course a gendered aspect to the fact that sakura's response to sasuke is markedly not violence. but i also think people sort of refuse to dissect her response any further and esp in context of the narrative itself. despite being the hallmark of rationality within the team and perhaps even the series, sakura was inevitably always driven by the value she placed on humanity. it would've been so easy and rational and "right" to kill sasuke bc he was an insurgent, a terrorist, a danger to public safety, etc. but sakura knew it was more complicated than that. even without knowing about the intricacies of the uchiha massacre she'd been a witness to his suffering and struggle and helplessness. she was as much unable to kill him bc of her love for him as she was unable to kill him bc she knew it wouldn't be right. bc really, what would it solve. sasuke being written off or dying would accomplish nothing bc he would become one more person in the long line of victims to nationalism and the military-industrial complex. while naruto's desire to retrieve sasuke was driven by his love for him it was also driven by the fact that he was stubborn and relentless and refused to give up on people. if you won't believe in yourself i'll beat the belief into you. it's a very shounen-esque trait. in contrast, sakura's desire to retrieve sakura, while also driven by her love for him, was significantly driven by her ability to see that sasuke needed help. in fact, that's all she ever wanted him to get: help. and it would be one thing for this to be an isolated desire but when you read it in context of her own goals as a medic and a mental health professional, her unwavering belief in sasuke is a lot more striking. she was the only person in the entire narrative who never resorted to violence as a solution to sasuke's problems. and she was angry, to be sure. much as she loves him the struggle to bring him back and convince him that he was worthy of love and healing left her emotionally exhausted. but they're also children at the end of the day. she could've been angry at him, or naruto could've been angry him, and in the end none of it would've mattered in the face of knowing they'd finally gotten through to him. he had a smile on his face, he didn't have an arm anymore, and for the first time in his life he met a loss with utter peace and content. it was a thing of miracles after six years of relentless grief and sorrow, and nothing else could've been on their mind.

at the end of the day, team seven's love for sasuke isn't rational. the farthest thing from it, really. but that's what makes it so radical in context. if love in naruto was only ever meant to be rational then hardly anyone would survive. love was always written as an act of defiance and for however subtle the depiction sakura exemplified it

#this is already so long i won't ramble any further in the text bc i've gotten across my point #but tldr you're totally valid! like honestly a lot of sasusaku fans tend to take the full scope of post-canon as gospel and it's infuriatin #and it definitely panders to a lot of gendered stereotypes #the relationship is i think way easier to digest if you isolate 1-699 and then pretend none of the rest exists lol #me personally i want sasuke to go on travels and meet lots of orphans and dedicate himself to humanitarian work #and i want sakura to do her mental hospital thing and research and advocacy at the village #before the projects she works on inevitably extend to intervillage endeavors #it's a nice way for both her and sasuke to explore their respective itches while also doing something that overlaps #with what the other person is doing. i am also a gazillion times more inclined towards them adopting an orphan #than i am towards the idea of them getting traditional married and having a traditional family and birthing traditional babies. boh-ring #i have a post somewhere on my old blog but to Me it would be revolutionary for sasuke to separate himself from the idea that the #only real bonds are those borne in blood. bc all that matters is love. i think adoption would be a really good personification of that idea #also occasionally they can come back to konoha and do silly couple things. like go to the farmers market and plant flowers #and harvest tomatoes. househusband sasuke and workaholic sakura. my dream combination truly #outbox

[floral-hex]

Haven’t been sleeping well because, and this is the stupidest reason, I’m so full of damnable longing. All I do is yearn and pine and want.

#I hate it! #I just want to fall in love! #not long distance. not through an app. I want to meet someone and be awkward and flirt and be messy and work for it. #I’m 35 now and I feel like I’m too old for that #which yeah I know sounds ridiculous. life goes on. I’ve got time. blah blah blah. #but I do wish I’d done the standard meeting and falling for someone in school and marrying young and having kids #all that milquetoast basic stuff #BUT IT’S NOT BASIC! I want that! I want that security and young love that just grows and grows! #can you imagine building that kind of connection with someone? #I know there’s plenty of valid criticisms towards marrying your high school sweetheart but come on… lemme dream a little #I don’t want to fill out applications online and trawl dating sites for someone! #I want the friends to awkward more than friends to maybe more to yes! please why did we wait I know you. I’ve known you. I accept you. #I want someone to know me and want me for who I am #aaaaaaaaaa I’m fucking foaming at the mouth #I can’t stop thinking about it and it makes my chest ache so much #and I feel like I’m too old for that! I have no social life! I’m not in school around other people! how could this even happen for me? #stupid! #😮‍💨… okay… calm down Ian… it’s cool. we’re cool. #I don’t want to sleep. I just want to lay in bed and imagine being in love all night. #gross. gross gross gross. #you can ignore this #goodbye forever #text

[beeapocalypse]

trying to get better at drawing this sog. want to lock more in on the idea of how a guy who was created by the highest being to Only be cute would feel like after that realization

#poduk oc #a bit of a king type guy i will admit but poduks been around for a while. just havent done anything w him lol #want there to be a bit of an offputting edge (?) to him. not so much with the idea that hes creepy or whatever but playing up his-- #--biological aspects as the only flesh+blood guy in a sort of dream logic type world populated by living toys #and this whole thing where hes never treated as an entire Person by the majority of ppl he meets. hes-- #--infantilized and denied agency bc ppl view him as a simple extension of the mayor. it is thru poppy that he learns to lose his shit #^ dont think poppy would work as the ultimate understander of him but im leaning towards putting the mayor in a more gray area vis a vis-- #--their relationship w poduk. they love him and sacrificed everything for him but they still keep almost everything a secret. one part-- #--out of concern and one part out of this weird desire to not Tarnish him bc hes thules purest creation

[gayforminatozaki]

someone told me i'm a lesbian stereotype COMPHET IS BACK GUYS!!

#just bc i didn't find an anime guy attractive 😭 #i am severely incapable of not experiencing comphet every second i'm alive #i literally even have comphet dreams I've never had a dream where I fall in love with a woman its always a man #and even in the dreams i don't wanna do straight shit i'm always severely uncomfortable why does my brain do this to me #once i had a dream where i fucked some guy and when i woke up i felt so disgusted #guys imagine in the future i actually meet other lesbians and don't have to fake attraction towards men and heal and be able to find people #attractive and express that normally and not feel like an unempathetic hypocritical piece of shit for not liking men 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 #lesbian #comphet #compulsory heterosexuality

[wrathdiwata]

you’re not a failure if you let go of your dreams because something bigger moves you

#you’re not a failure if you pursue your dreams and meet truths incompatible with them and instead choose to orient towards those truths #you’re not a failure if everyone wants you to be the success story that “heals yourself” but you won’t do it #you’re not a failure if your dreams include reliance on other people #most controversial one yet because the neoliberal independence ableist brainwashing gets ya good #etc etc etc

[vampireic]

hello medical professionals why do i make up arguments in my head between me and my bf that always end up in us breaking up. why do i do that and why are they kind of realistic and why do they make sense and why won’t they stop????? i cant even think of us being cutesy and nice and lovey because it will spiral into an argument WHY DO I DO THAT PLEASE. how do i make them stop

#i literally get so angry i have to calm myself down and remind myself that it’s literally all in my head and it never happened like HELLO #like is this a sign????????? do i hate him????? i don’t. but like girl who is in my head hating him???? #watch me come to the realization i’m a lesbian /j screams #i’ve been so scared of that too like what if i meet the woman of my dreams while my bf is gone……….. what if she makes me realize #like i don’t think i want that to happen but also i kind of do ???????????? i just want to know wtf is up with me and why i have so much-> #animosity towards my bf……. am i not over what he did to me last year???? i really need to talk to him face to face #it’s not even about last year all that much but all the times he made me cry the first few months of dating. mf used to make me cry like -> #every other day…………. like damn wtf. i’m actually kind of processing that he really made me cry a lot #seeing him in december will help i think. give me clarity #i’ll ask my himbo friend for advice on monday or smth

[unproduciblesmackdown]

description of a substantive billions dream

a typical [school problems] genre thread of assigned fiction reading became a book about winston as an elementary or middle schooler, and how there was a new girl who, i guess to sort of change the conversation around herself from [being the new girl] instead established the topic as her having a crush on someone, this being winston who she’d already interacted with more often than others / was closest to friends with. but he was kind of uncomfortable with this and so there was a scene with them talking about it and her explaining it seemed like the kind of thing she was supposed to do, with mutual genuinely liking each other but not necessarily so far as [let’s declare mutual crushes or bother with that framework at all at the present]. and yet there was a sort of dramatic irony tone conveyed for the audience that, not that this was incorrect / inaccurate or anything, but naturally that anything associated w/that framework might not be off the table forever, especially what with having a whole discussion about things really here just cementing that they do both want to be / consider themselves like friends proper. there was a little illustration like so:

i don’t remember my dream supplying a name for the girl, just like how it didn’t supply any particular design for elementary or middle schooler winston than “smaller, i guess”....despite things only featuring this small winston at the start, it then became a) about regular billions b) directly observable as An Event as well as being relayed through reading the book still and c) about winston and taylor and others, including the older unnamed dream oc girl, having a pleasant day outdoors in a meadow by water and sometimes in a cave with water, as a helpful offshoot of another prior typical dream thread.

more granular and vivid details: one scene being observed half directly as a real event, half through reading about it, ended with philip and taylor at a distance (winston keeps the pov) sitting in a field by water, and philip being playfully affectionate with taylor like 😉 and holding their hand and calling them “baby” while taylor is like 😳 like so:

i read this part like :o ! and turned to noted blogger nothingunrealistic like “omg what page/chapter are you on” and they had not yet reached it so i was like “omggg...” expressions to the [honey you’ve got a big storm coming (positive)] effect

and another scene specific enough to have drawn was that, after having enjoyed a swim (philip constantly appearing in usual canon-type business suits despite the outdoors activities, even this one) winston kind of [tag you’re it]’d philip out of the water and they had this drenched like wrestle embrace ft. winston pressing his face to philip in as close to a kiss as anything else that happened. had as much or more as a like lighthearted playful energy as anything as well despite the [intricate rituals] and [sounds like a sexually charged kind of situation perhaps] lol like well once again it needn’t Not be that, but things are casual and spontaneous And homoerotic. everyone simply being comfortable enough despite tensions of [discuss that you’re nervous abt there being hot gossip abt you as a Crush] or [flirtation ft. the recipient being flustered] or [plenty of physical touch plus affection] like so:

let’s go boys! and of course, relevant as well that winston was Deeply Affectionate and Closely Aware/Attentive towards taylor the whole time, sometimes conveyed simply through how again taylor scenes were seen through him as the pov character and myself as the pov beyond that, like, of course there’s tayston and of course there’s plenty of like, well anyone here may be liable to kiss anyone and everyone else. tl;dr everyone enjoying this refreshing outdoors excursion and being comfortable in the marinade of any of that tension re: potential increased emotional and/or physical intimacy with each other out there, like, as a metaphor, having a stretch and despite the element of [!] there it can also be unthreatening, welcome, pleasant and it can be like “well i’m glad for the greater flexibility this can yield. and/or being warmed up for something. and/or easing an uncomfortable physical sensation. etc” lol. good for them

#winston billions #corned beef #tayston #taylip #and others.... #can't say i'm often thinking abt winston/philip material lol but like i'm not not thinking about it and perfectly unsurprising dream moments #like sure anyone could be getting homoerotic w/each other out here. ofc #including also winston and that dream provided oc....no sense upon waking of like. oh this was drawing from [xyz] preexisting character.... #but not like the dream really got into many specifics therein so why would it be based on anything (which prob Would come w/specifics) #sort of other nebulous Potential Dramatic Threads and Affection And Interest in all the vaguer dream scenes & all in b/w them...the theme #it's fun this was so extensive and of interest itself lol. [billions] often shows up more fleetingly like here's a ''preview'' of an episode #that's pretty uselessly unspecific like oh ppl are in a business meeting. & then the dream's abt failing to get to watch the ep lol thanks.. #these were drawn chronologically and thus gravitate towards my natural habits like; increasingly [honed lineart] increasing [color contrast] #really anyone Definitely Kissing in my dreams are some of the like rarest occasions #shoutout to this dream akd cameo where they showed up in some invented movie as like [another character's cool sexy lover] like oh hell yes #typecast just like irl as [tfw you're so epic and sexy and genderous] #it's now 8am so by ''last night'' i do mean the night before / leading into january thirtieth

[tylenolnighttime]

Also, I’ve changed my bio from perpetually grieving to perpetually yearning. I feel as though I’ve reached a point in my grieving where I’m able to look at the relationship and see it for how poor it was. I now look at poetry knowing the universe is preparing me for the most perfect person for me. I no longer use it to reflect on my past feelings, but I’m using it as a tool to manifest my person. I have suffered enough, it’s time to stop suffering and start working towards the good the universe has for me. I was lost for a really long time but I really feel like I’m starting to find my way now.

#been dreaming a lot about my person #I don’t know them I don’t know when I will meet them but I’m starting to trust myself more that as long as I’m working towards good #then the good will happen to me #pls universe be kind to me these next few months while I begin this new period of my life🤞

[llycaons]

the tgcf romance is so high quality compared to the one in mdzs for example the tgcf couple enjoys spending time with each other.

#just thinking about how good their chemistry is and how they're besties #and how xl immediately after meeting hc is so worried for him and concerned he might get hurt #and verbally and constantly expresses that hed be upset if that happened #no bullshit miscommunication either theyre like a dream #rly are perfect for each other... #tgcf was genuinely so quality gd I wanna reread #as you may be able to tell I am being a hater towards mdzs today all I recall brings me wratglh #wrath* #tgcf txp

[silverysongs]

Any/all of 16, 17, 21, 22 for the song asks 💓

16. Most beautiful vocal performances

My Luve is like a Red, Red Rose // Voces8

Maria // West Side Story (specifically the 1961 film version)

Almost Real // The Bridges of Madison County

Jubilate Deo: VI. Alleluia (Song of the Earth) // Dan Forrest

17. Songs most likely to give me full-body shivers

(honestly I feel like this happens to me with a lot of music, so these are the ones that come to mind:)

Romance from Piano Concerto in A Minor // Clara Schumann

The Deer's Cry // Voces8

Omar Sharif // The Band's Visit

Millstatt // The Arcadian Wild

21. Songs that make me think of my favorite books

Gravity // Sara Bareilles

Not With Haste // Mumford & Sons

Orpheus // Sara Bareilles

illicit affairs // Taylor Swift

22. Songs in which I see myself

No One Else // Natasha, Pierre & the Great Comet of 1812

peace // Taylor Swift

The Cave // Mumford & Sons

The Graduate // The Arcadian Wild

lessons // Lilli Furfaro

The Words // Anais Mitchell

Kathy's Song // Simon & Garfunkel

#these really stretched me! which is good! #thanks leah :) #ugh i could say so much about any of these songs #like how much i love the soloists in My Luve #or how I could have chosen any Kelli O'Hara song because she's my fave Broadway soprano #how when I watched Omar Sharif at the Tony Awards I literally forgot I was watching a performance through my TV screen and melted into a #dream woven by Katrina Lenk #in case you're wondering: i couldn't think of hardly any of my favorite books so half of that very short list is about the Iliad #(are we surprised) #i realized as i was making this that my literary worlds and my musical worlds just don't intersect that much? like i'll think of a #character or plot while I'm listening to a song but not often and not really the other way around #but now i want to make a playlist that's just my favorite songs (no particular genre no theme no carefully organized list) so that i can #just be like “here” and shove it towards any new friends i happen to meet #ask game #about me

[yueebby]

12:03 pm  — gojo satoru

synopsis. gojo tries to convince his first years that he was able to pull you.

contents. fluff, crack??, whipped!gojo, mentions of having a kid, he is SO in love with his wife it's disgusting, the first years are sick of their teacher

“[name] sensei is a good looking woman, isn’t she?” yuji remarked, nonchalantly propping his feet up on the desk. “you think so too, right gojo sensei?”

a sly smile played on the corners of gojo's lips, eventually blossoming into a wide, dreamy grin. “good eye yuji! she's undeniably the most beautiful woman on this planet.”

megumi, seated at the desk beside yuji, couldn't hide his grimace.

nobara's expression mirrored that of a disgruntled sea urchin. “dream big, you two. she’s way outta both of your leagues.”

“she is, isn’t she?” gojo sighs dreamily, his gaze far away. a dopey grin settles over his face; like a man walking on air. it was deeply unsettling to the first years to see a grown man behave this way.

megumi rolled his eyes and muttered his disapproval, choosing to ignore his sensei, who had casually seated himself backwards on a chair.

gojo propped his chin with both of his palms, leaning closer into the first years students. “do you think i’d stand a chance with a woman like her?”

megumi buried his face in his hands, audibly groaning in response.

“a sensible woman like that and you? fat chance.” nobara deadpanned, squinting disapprovingly at her teacher. her negative comments elicit a grunt from the snow-haired man.

yuji’s eyes flit nervously from kugisaki to gojo. 

“sensei! i think you have a chance with [name] sensei!” yuji tried to reassure his white haired teacher, offering a thumbs-up. gojo responded by affectionately ruffling yuji’s hair.

megumi couldn’t help but speak up. “she’s a married woman, you know,” he mutters to his friend.

yuji’s eyes widened,  “you’re kidding! who do you think got the honor?” 

“but she’s so young!” kugisaki exclaimed, slamming her hand on the table. 

their discussion is cut short when the shoji doors of the classroom slide open abruptly.

with hands on your hips, you stood sternly before your first year students and their teacher, an air of authority about you.

satoru couldn't help but gulp; you were indeed captivating when you were upset. it’s not his fault that you look so cute when your eyebrows furrow and you puff up in anger.

“i waited for half an hour in the courtyard to start today’s lesson and yet here i find my students, along with their sensei who should be in kyoto for a meeting.” a wry smile graced your lips, sending a chill down everyone’s spine. the three first years bowed their heads in shame.

yuji thinks this is the first time he’s seen his teacher nervous. a bead of sweat appears on the side of gojo’s face.

“honey!” he quickly stands up and walks towards you. with every step he takes, nobara’s face scrunches up at his disgusting conduct. 

“don’t.” you warned, raising a finger up to keep satoru at an arm’s length. he respected your wishes to some extent, grasping your hand and placing it within the hold of his own. the diamond on your ring finger glistened as satoru toyed with it.

gasps filled the room as yuji and nobara observed the display of affection. just how inappropriate could their sensei get, and why were you allowing it? what would your husband think?

satoru tenderly caressed your hand in his, cradling it as he leaned in closer. “please forgive me; it was an honest mistake.”

“honest mistake my ass. yaga told me that this is the second meeting you’ve skipped out this month,” you stated, peering fiercely into his blindfolded eyes. satoru’s cocky demeanor wavered, replaced by a nervous chuckle.

“the first time was when i took you to naha, remember?” he wiggles his eyebrows suggestively. “and if i remember correctly, you enjoyed our night out,” your eyes widened, recalling the romantic trip satoru had organized. 

feeling the heat rise to your cheeks, you attempted to pull away, but his grip on your hand tightened.

“forgive me?” his voice softened, lips curving downward, giving him the appearance of a dejected kitten.

a sigh escapes your lips. he was going to be the death of you.

“fine. but this is the last time,” you warned, “and you owe me for covering for you.”

satoru straightened up, nodding fervently. “have i mentioned how much i love you?” wrapping an arm around you, he placed a kiss on the top of your head, despite your futile attempts to stop him.

“this is…” yuji’s jaw dropped.

“so inappropriate! shame on you!” nobara’s chair makes a harsh screech with how fast she leaves it to come to your aid. 

“kugisaki–” you attempted to calm her down, but she clung to your elbow, desperately trying to pry you from satoru’s embrace.

satoru’s hold on you tightened as he wrapped his other arm around your frame, pulling you close. he plops his chin on top of your head and resists nobara’s attempts to free you. like hell he’s letting anybody take his girl, not even his own student.

“crushing on a married woman is one thing, but to openly flirt with her– ” kugisaki struggled. you tilt your head in confusion. 

satoru’s strong arms flexed as he fought to maintain his hold on you. he nuzzled your neck. “’m fine right here,” he inhaled deeply, as if trying to take in as much of you as possible.

“[name] sensei! how can you stand there and let this man disrespect your marriage?!” nobara implored, wide-eyed, disregarding all respect she had for her teacher.  “how will your husband react when he finds how gojo sensei behaves around you?” she looks desperate, and you want to laugh at the sincerity behind her actions. you get it now.

only your idiot husband would pull a stunt like this.

“i hope your husband can fight because i’m willing to fight him to the death for your hand,” satoru mutters from your neck. you take your hand from nobara’s shoulders to shove the six-foot-three giant away.

“you seriously didn’t tell them, satoru?” you ignored his whiney protests as you created distance between the two of you. 

“tell us what?” kugisaki demanded. yuji was on the edge of his seat, nervously watching the unfolding scene, while megumi put his head down in embarrassment.

satoru looks at you with a deep frown on his face. uncertainty clouds your mind as his silence forebodes something. wetting his lips with his tongue, he quickly closed the gap between you, too fast for you to escape. a secure hand rested on your lower waist as your husband dipped you down to deepen the kiss. 

had you not been so absorbed into the kiss, you would have heard the scandalized gasps from your students.

you managed to place a hand on his chest to separate yourselves, “satoru, stop.” his eyes remained fixed on your lips, but he complied.

“yuji, nobara.. satoru and i are–” you hold up your ring finger for display.

“happily married!” your husband finished for you, a triumphant smile on his face. he squeezed you close, throwing up a peace sign. “been madly in love since i met her!” 

“what– no way! you pulled her?!” nobara spluttered, head whipping from satoru to you, unable to wrap her mind around the revelation.

yuji’s jaw is still on the floor, “megumi, you knew about this?!”

the sea urchin looks the other direction, avoiding his friends’ judgemental gazes.

“they… raised me.. sorta..” he mumbles under his breath. your heart melts at his confession. unlike you, the other first years don't take too kindly to his comment, as they start shaking him by the shoulder and starting their own interrogation.

“and we did a good job too! don’t you think we’re ready for our own?” satoru smiles down at you jokingly, his hands snaking around your waist and his hands sneaking onto your stomach. he leaves a couple of soft pats. 

“you’re cuter when you’re quiet, y’know?” you whispered. taking advantage of your students' attention on megumi, you place a single finger on his lips, hoping your husband does not notice the way your face feels like it is on fire. 

he does.

“no need to be shy now,” satoru said, grinning wolfishly, “we’ll continue this at home.”

your face flushes even deeper.

unbeknownst to you, the first years had fallen silent, observing how gojo whispered in your ear, successfully turning you into a flustered mess. perhaps they should give more credit to their sensei.

notes. not proof read (oh no). this was just a random scenario that has been plaguing my mind during halloweekend so i typed it on my phone at a party LOL this is me desperately trying to get out of my writing slump

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