Stuck In Reverse : Table of Contents
Rockstar!Eddie x Fem!Reader x Cinematographer!Jonathan | 18+ ᴍᴅɴɪ
𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒: ₁ ▸ ₂ ▸ ₃ ▸ ₄ ▸ ₅ ▸ ₆ ▸ ₇
Content Warnings: drama. trauma. angst. fluff. hurt. comfort. mentioned infidelity. drug use. sex. violence. probably vulgarity. self-image/self-worth struggles. love triangles. cliche shit.
❝You see sass, no class, negative ass over there? Honestly, he's great, I swear.❞
𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘: As his friendships and relationship teeter on the rocks, Eddie's faced with a stark reminder of what's important when his intended is taken down by a bullet with his name on it.
After a year of Eddie sinking money into treatment and care to make her comfortable, Reader's eyes open again.
But she remembers no one past her junior year of high school.
What was believed would be a short term side effect, won't go away. Now Eddie must try to make her fall in love him with all over again. But it barely happened back then, and it is no easier now ~ When she's falling for the wrong man.
Jonathan tries to ignore Reader's affections for the sake of his work and personal friendship with Eddie. Though, he has found that he and Reader have more chemistry than he'd expected.
❝It's high school all over again, damn it.❞ ❝At least now you know the icebreaker.❞
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May I request an angst about Maedhros? Gender neutral/Fingon whom he is courting. He's saved from Angbang, but through all the trauma and self hatred he believes they are better off without him and let's them go? Cries and tears as they tries to explain to him that can work out together? Maybe 2 alternative endings? Fluffing ending and angst ending? Please && Thank you for your time 😊
Dear anon, I do not do angst very well, I am very sorry.
BTW, I went with gn Fingon 🤷🏻♀️ looool
I've given it a shot, but I like them a lot and I truly hope you'll be choosing the ending under the sun banner rather than the one under the night banner...
Words: 1,5k
Characters: Maedhros x Fingon
Warnings: I've tried my hand at some (very) light angst
At first, the silence was deafening.
It took a good moment before his dazed mind could pick up on the small sounds and noises filtering through the deceiving hush that was habitually drawn like a veil over sickrooms and households struck by tragedy.
The heavy, quick steps screaming their impatience were Tyelko’s and the nervous humming vibrating against his sweat-sheened skin let him know that Maglor was dreading this confrontation; he had no doubt that they were all there, waiting for the heavy door to be tugged open so they could heap their worry and anger in a tangled ball of but half-baked emotions onto his crumbling form.
It had ever been thus, and he would not have had it any other way.
In his younger days, he had often wondered why he had grown so very tall, but now he knew: his body was the shrine and sepulchre of his brothers’ most precious memories that had to be left behind when the world around them fell apart. In his blood, he kept samples of their tears – helpless, frightened, angry tears shed over mishaps and quarrels – from a time when they had still cried, and his skin was a map of the imaginary adventures they had set out on back when they could not even have imagined what terrible actions lay in their future.
Maedhros looked down on the tightly bandaged wrist and he saw that hand that was no more; it would leave bloody prints on everything henceforth that might be invisible to everybody else, but he’d know.
This hand had been Fingon’s, their love had been etched into every line, and – for a single instant – he wondered if the Enemy would peruse the epic, desperate, monumental story he had marred with a mocking smile. He remembered the blades and talons opening each cherished scar on his once so beautiful body to befoul the memorial of a youth spent as a protector and friend; he had been stripped of more than his dignity, he had been robbed of his very purpose.
The person staring back at him from the blurry looking glass was a stranger wearing his skin, a threat arrayed in familiar colours, and he took a deep shuddering breath. He had not merely been injured and poisoned, no, he had been turned into a well of toxic hurt himself so that he might defile everything he touched.
Boundless and merciless was the Enemy’s guile and cruelty.
A sudden blur of movement startled him into stumbling back like a frightened beast, teeth bared and lone remaining hand lifted as if to strike, but then he realised that it was his beloved – crouched in a corner of the room like a ghost – who had come forth to check on him.
“Your brothers are here,” they informed him gently, just in case he had not deciphered the thousand sounds that had been the melody to his life as much as his own heartbeat echoing in his shapely ears.
“They may wait,” he croaked – his voice a jumble of sharp-edged shards grating along his windpipe – and cleared his throat a few times in vain, “I need to talk to you first.”
He could see in the eyes of the one he had loved with such a self-evident ease all his life that Fingon knew what was to come; they always did and that was part of why their relationship had been so effortless – despite the shifting sands of treacherous circumstances – hitherto.
“I shall leave with them.”
“You are too weak to travel!” Fingon’s eyes flashed with indignation and a fear he had never expected to discern in a soul so valiant.
With a sigh, he repeated himself slowly; he would not stay around to see the corruption implanted into his flesh hatch and devour what he held dearest in this life. Selfishness had never been a luxury afforded to him and so, he knew only too well what sacrifice was to be brought in order to save his beloved Fingon.
Your destruction ends with me, he thought bitterly, I shall curl up around the wounds wrought upon me and feast on the darkness gnawing through my being in solitude; the endless circle of desolation you’ve embedded into my flesh and bone – one cut at a time – shall find no other outlet, you are now my prisoner.
Tears sprang into Fingon’s eyes with that sudden energy that always came so naturally to their strong body; but then, they stilled as if stricken by sudden cold, as if wrenched back onto the icy wastes they had crossed to find their half-cousin, as if death itself had wrapped its cold arms around them.
Angsty ending
“We can figure this out together,” Fingon said then, a sigh like a gust of wind weaving through their words, “I can’t lose you again.”
“It’s not again, love,” Maedhros replied in a hollow voice, gravelly with regret and disuse, “you’ve cut my body off the rock, but you couldn’t carve the corruption out of my soul lest you dig right through me.”
“NO!”
Fingon had such faith; they had forgiven the burning of the ships and the suffering it had brought, and – of this Maedhros was almost certain – they’d accept and embrace this danger with as much foolhardy eagerness if it would just keep him by their side as well.
“I can’t,” he sighed, “I have to look to my own now. My brothers need me.” They are enmeshed in my doom anyway, he thought, and it will cost me my life – whether in a singular burst of agony or in tiny torturous increments – to uphold the many vain, but binding promises I’ve made out of love or despair.
He knew that it was vicious and unforgivable, but he did not bring up his doubts about soiling the purity of Fingon’s soul which was so very important to him for it reminded him of all the good things he was fighting to protect; his lover would rail and protest, and he’d be swayed by their loving arms and words.
No, this burden was his to carry in silence and in solitude.
He had to cut this golden tether to a better future before his doom would drag Fingon down along with him; he had to try to save as many of the remaining beacons of hopes of his grandfather’s people as he possibly could. He was too jaded now to believe – even for a single moment – that it would counterbalance the crimes that were yet but festerineg seeds within his core, ready to burst forth to choke out life and light, but he would struggle against those malicious vines tirelessly until they devoured the last remnants of his essence in their insatiable greed.
“Call them in, please,” he declared as he felt his soul wither and die within a pale, seizing chest; the dice had been cast and he would follow the path he had been chained to without looking back lest he succumb to the temptation of fleeting, sweet happiness oft promised and ever out of reach.
Fluff ending
“We can figure this out together,” Fingon said then, a sigh like a gust of wind weaving through their words, “I can’t lose you again.”
Maedhros understood; too often had they taken leave from one another to face unfathomable dangers without knowing if they’d ever get the chance to lay eyes upon that beloved face, distorting into a tiny, blurry dot in the distance, once more.
“I love you more than this,” they pleaded, “and I am so sorry about your hand, but – you of all people must understand this – there are promises so sacred that no sacrifice, no matter how gruesome, will keep one from fulfilling them.”
“Which terrible oath have you sworn then, my dearest heart?” Maedhros asked warily, rubbing stiff fingers over an expressionless face that adamantly concealed the turmoil under the surface of that scarred and mutilated skin.
“To love you, to be by your side,” Fingon replied calmly, “you are not the only one to have pledged your life blood to another. Leaving me equates killing me in the most heartless of fashions, Russo, for I’d wander lost in the unending darkness forevermore.”
I’ll die at your side, they thought peacefully, so it was written and so it shall be done.
“Oh Finno!” Finally, the dam broke and tears – his and all the ones he had preserved within the depthless well of his immortal soul – spilled forth like ink in which Fingon’s whole life had been scribbled down haphazardly; they threw their arms around the one they loved beyond reason and self-preservation.
“We’ll be alright,” they promised, ever believing that good faith and even better intentions would end up saving the day.
“Eventually,” Maedhros quipped without much conviction.
“Now,” Fingon opined, “or at least very soon. Let your brothers see you, we were all much afeared! Soothe their worry; you are back, and none of us will ever let you face the darkness alone again.”
It was weakness, pervading and insidious, that made the tall elven lord shiver in the tight embrace; he knew what price Fingon would have to pay if he didn’t manage to send them away, but he could not bear to let go of the last vestige of innocence and hope that had not yet been wrested from him by unfeeling hands.
With a soundless sigh, he pressed his lips upon that devotedly upturned face and nodded ponderously; he’d do better than his father, he’d keep those he loved most close, he’d keep them safe, he’d keep them alive at all costs.
Dear anon, I hope this has satisfied you; I've given it my best shot...
I am sorry if I am not the angsty type of author 😬
Lots of love from me <3
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