#ugh there’s so so so much more I could add

[slutisnotabadword]

I’m currently writing a Bamon fic that basically reimagines TVD, starting with them starting college and with Bonnie as the protagonist. And like I have SO many headcanons I’m gonna incorporate. A lot of them comes from the show but just elevated.

1. Bonnie

My lovely, mistreated Bonnie… boy do I have ideas for you. First of all, she’s going to have some good ass hairstyles. BLACK GIRL hairstyles. I think Bonnie loves to wear curly ponytails with decorated scarves, or like some long knotless braids. AHHH I have some ideas for her hair. But speaking of style, Bonnie loves the bohemian aesthetic. So, air of half tops, waist beads, long skirts, etc (go on Pinterest and type “bohemian black girl, and you’d see what I’m talking about). She wears alot of brown, green, beige and like golden colors. She wears red when she’s feeling spicy. Bonnie is also into candles, HEAVILY, and crystals. She’s not religious but spiritual. And for college, she’s majoring in dance and minoring in occult studies. Her favorite genre of dance is contemporary. And her favorite breakfast is cereal, and she’s most likely a vegetarian. Also I wanna change her background a bit. She actually grew up being raised by her mother and her grandmother. Her father left because he couldn’t or wouldn’t handle with their witch ancestry, when he found out.

2. Damon

Damon’s bisexual. That’s it, that’s the quote. But no seriously, I firmly believe that he is, and I stand by that. And also in my fic, Damon has this kind of… “punk rocker” aesthetic going. Imagine eyeliner, leather jackets with pins, ripped jeans, black and red color pallete. With that being said, he has a SICK fashion sense. He paints his own fingernails, mainly the color black. Another big thing about Damon is that he LOVES music. He is a music fanatic. He adores all the genres and can see the beauty in all of them, and he collects records. He also loves to play various of instruments. He has mastered the piano, the guitar, the violin and the trumpet and other shit too, and he loves to sing but he never sings infront of people. He loves to cook. Whenever he’s frustrated or gets startled, he swears in Italian. And speaking of Italian, Damon and Stefan’s were born in like the late 1400s or the early 1500s in Florence, Italy. And their family portrait was actually painted by the famous painter, Caravaggio. Damon didn’t come to America till the 1920s as he began to admire the American people’s party era.

3. Elena

She actually stays pretty much the same. However, Elena really likes Britney Spears so a lot of her outfits are inspired by her. She wears alot of dark colors, but you will see her in a pink matching tracksuit and a baby blue cropped top. Elena kind of takes every moment to show her belly button. Oh, and she loves cropped jackets. Veryyyyy Y2K going on here. Elena is trynna become a doctor but she’s also minoring in writing.

4. Caroline

I gotta be honest, I have no notes for Caroline cause I think her character in the show was written perfectly enough to be memorable and entertaining. However I think her aesthetic could be boosted up a notch to rest for her image. Caroline wears a lot of bubbly colors. Very bright but also soft color palette, so imagine a lot of soft pinks, blues, whites. She loves to wear plaid skirts and cardigans and sweaters. She’s trying to be a lawyer, which I fully expect from her. Think of Elle Woods without the hot pink.

5. Stefan

Stefan is good ol’ Stefan (except in my head, the version that I like). He’s very athletic, he gives very much sensitive gym bro. And he’s actually kind of passionate about all sports, and watches them regularly. That being said, he also loves writing, specifically poetry. So therefore he’s majoring in writing. Stefan first came to America, following his brother in the 20s. They were trying to make up with each other, and as Damon was trying to teach him how to feed as a normal vampire, it caused Stefan to be the ripper of something something. Basically in the show but different timelines. Oh and Stefan wears the color red and blue a lot, kind of patriotic of him lmao.

#ugh there’s so so so much more I could add #I cannot wait to write this fic UGH #the vampire diaries #tvd #damon salvatore #tvdu #tvd opinions #elena gilbert #bamon #stefan salvatore #caroline forbes #bonnie bennet #tvd headcanons #headcanon #tvd fic #tvd fanfic

[sysig]

They’re both so cute, what’s up with that (Patreon)

#Doodles #Adventure Time #Simon Petrikov #Betty Grof #Does an almost-married couple need their ship tag? This is canon (loosely) but I mean #Petrigrof #Anyway I love them <3 #They're so flippin' cute together ugh they're in the Love Is Real sector of my mind next to Morticia and Gomez Addams #They make me cry they are in love I love them! That's the formula lol #Also them being starcrossed probably adds to it lol I am also a sucker for Love That Cannot Be (for whatever reason) #They're a bunch of goods! And they're fun to draw! What more could I ask for #Anyway lol onto what I actually drew of them <3 #I am so in love with AI!Simon letting off love hearts in reaction to AI!Betty inside the crown it's literally so cute #I love when they're so full of ♥ for each other it's so cute ;; #They're both tiny as well but just the way Betty manhandles him haha #Especially when she hops through the portal and just moved him all over the place in relation to the flying carpet #Honestly that whole sequence is so good - Death rolling up and Simon refusing him despite being so ready I ;;;; He has so much faith in her! #They're so cool #I'm also pretty sure I also doodled that before seeing Episode 8 of F&C of the two twirling around where Betty ends up on the lower stair #They give twirly vibes! Pick each other up! Especially Betty tho haha #The only way he can be taller than her: She picks him up lol #Kiss attack because he's cute and he enjoy it <3 #And then more very aggressive compliments lol #Who can blame her for getting cute aggression looking at that guy #He'll hug her in revenge later don't worry about it lol

[screambirdscreaming]

At the bus stop one time there was a gaggle of preschoolers waiting to catch the bus for a field trip day, and someone walked past with a couple of friendly little dogs, to great general delight.

But after a little bit, the dogs were getting overwhelmed, and the preschoolers were gently coaxed to back off so the person with the dogs could continue on. Specifically, one of the preschool teachers said, "Sometimes, when you're small, being surrounded by big people can be a bit scary and overwhelming. Even if they are friendly."

This was recieved as great wisdom: after all, the preschoolers were also small, and understood how scary and overwhelming big people could be! And the dogs were indeed even smaller than the preschoolers, so it made sense.

What was funny and charming was that, upon absorbing and reflecting on this wisdom, they all felt the need to tell it to one another. In tones of great insight, they turned to one another and said, "Did you know? Sometimes when you are small, being surrounded by big people can be scary and overwhelming! Even if they are friendly!" Back and forth, without any particular concern that they were all saying the same thing. Have reached comprehension of an insight, it must be shared!

I must say that this behavior is less charming in tumblr users than in preschoolers. Not least because tumblr users, having gained a little analytical skill to misuse, insist on Summarizing and Generalizing and Unifying the insights they repeat, quickly turning any interesting new information into formulaic dogmatic mush.

#i made the mistake of looking in the notes of the beach sand post i reblogged to see if anyone else had interesting comments #And the rate at which it went from like #1) person states with moderate confidence an opinion based on their personal observations #2) multiple people reply with “wow thats so insightful!” (aka it aligns with my preconceived notions of how things work) #3) someone else adds additional personal observations which are not really relevant but which can be absorbed into the narrative #4) people start outright stating the underlying belief on which this bias is constructed as if it were a fresh insight #5) general derisive attitude towards people who haven't seen the Obviously Correct solution to this complex real world problem yet #It's very....... #It's not like it's a high stakes post but it's such a microcosm of the whole dogmatic phenomenon #Also this js a more specific gripe to My Field or w/e #But the degree to which people react to the problems caused by the whole “Control of Nature” era of engineering #with this equally reductive “Nature will Fix Everything” type of attitude #Is sooooo frustrating. #Yes a great many of our current problems could have been avoided if we had not made massive changes to ecosystem processes on the assumptio #That they were simple and we understood them. And that they would respond in predictable ways. #the simplicity in retrospect of “wow we Should Not have done that” does not mean that they are simple to undo! #You can't go back in time. You can't turn back the clock on chaotic processes #Which is. Almost every process ever. #Restoration is hard! Returning to previous regimes of sediment or flooding or fire is tricky and full of foibles! #Moving towards a future which doesn't suck as much even if the past cant be recreated is also uncertain and difficult! #It's frustrating to see people act all high and mighty about how they Respect Nature unlike whoever is making all these decisions #When their understanding of the natural processes in question is AS simplistic as the people who caused the whole mess back in 1910 or w/e #Like I'm not saying there's not bad interests standing in the way of functional restoration on all levels #That's very much a fight to be fought. #But looking at that fight-in-process and saying “wow none of you Respect Nature like me uwu let nature fix it” #Is. #Ugh.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ok. this is the fucking bullshit thing abt grad school. u go to fucking grad school bc u r a fucking tryhard nerd freak #who is either naturally very smart or ur so fucking anxious u r incapable of allowing urself to get a bad grad #and then u go to fucking grad school and everyone's like: man fuck ur classes. if youre getting streight As then u aren't focusing on ur #research. and theyre right. but u still cant fucking let go of the idea that if u get a bad grad the world is gonna fucking end and u r a #bad person. u didnt try hard enough. all this to say i have a final project that i put way too much energy into and not even in a good way #i would just open the document. start sobbing. and then close it and spiral abt how i didn't want to work on it. so its bullshit #i mean. its a good project idea ans i probably sound like i kno wtf im talking abt bc i do. i worked on that topic for 4 years but like #i could make it wayyyyy better. its bullshit. i didnt even number the citations to give more page space. i made section headers. i didnt #wrap text. i could add like 4 more lines of text if i wanted but i think im not gotta bc fuck it. ugh. i dont even. i fucking avoide #stochastic stuff altogether which i kno im gonna have to fight abt but like fuck it who cares abt randomness. i just wanna focus on the #predictably aspect of community composition. fuck u. i shouldnt have picked this topic. i mean. i had to bc its like the one microbe thing #i could do but its also like the exact topic that makes me wanna rip my hair out and start screaming. like jesus christ who tf cares? ugh. #i think id give myself a B if it was an undergrad class. but the standard is higher in an all grad class. ugh. i hate this. i should just #send it abd be done. i dont even kno when its due tomorrow. before class i guess. idk i felt like garbage today. fucking vertigo bby. i feel #ok now tho. so maybe the allergic reacting is over???? fingers r still arthritisy tho. jesus. im falling apart #ive got a pretty good sounding excuse for being lazy tho: owo i had an allergic reaction to my antidepressants 🥳 but nah no excuses we run #this body into the ground. like the good old days. #unrelated

[byanyan]

the thing that byan is most embarrassed of... is that they have days where they physically can't drag themself out of bed. a lot of the time on their worse days, they'll force themself to get up and do something out of spite (usually ends up being smth involving violence and/or their self destructive tendencies) bc laying around at the mercy of their poor mental health makes them feel weak, which in turn makes them feel worse, but sometimes the weight of everything is just genuinely too much and they end up spending the day either sleeping or dissociating. or both. a lot of the time they'll also turn to substance abuse to get them through, to numb themself and make things more tolerable.

unsurprisingly, you'll never hear them talk about this. it's the sort of thing no one needs to know about, and it's something they're deeply ashamed of. they'll make excuses and lie about having just ditched plans/skipped school/etc. if someone ever comments on them not turning up - which people do, fortunately, tend to buy, considering they already have a tendency to just not show up where they're supposed to.

#these are also the days they're most at risk of self harming again 🙃 #is this smth that very slowly starts to get better into adulthood? yes. #but that's not to say it doesn't still happen just bc their life is improving #they're just. ugh. they're so ashamed of their mental health in general. #they hate SO MUCH that the shit they've been through has affected them so deeply and that they can't?? do anything about it??? #(yes they COULD go to therapy....... but good fucking luck getting that through to them without them getting violent at the suggestion :/) #(they'd rather get really fucked up and just not feel anything thanks) #adjgksh I'm just thinking about the aspects of byan's struggles that I don't really talk about as much tonight idk #probs has smth to do with having had such a crummy day myself lmaooo #u know if I'm feeling like shit I gotta drag byan through the mud too #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ headcanon ⋮ danger in the fabric of this thing i made. #substance abuse cw #self harm cw #do I need to add like... a depression cw or smth? idk ajfkgsg #tell me if I should add more warnings for this but I don't think it's like. too detailed or anything ahdjgsg

[helenhuntingdon]

Casually made a playlist inspired by The Newsreader and Tim & Dale.

With tracks from The Newsreader, fanvids and fics (I’ll share the fanvids - see Ao3 for the fics!) and just 80s queer music!

See also: The Newsreader’s Official Playlist.

And this Tim/Dale Playlist and adorable Tim Ahern playlist.

#the newsreader #dale jennings #tim ahern #playlists #links #can't take much credit for this or anything just compiled songs the newsreader has used and the fandom has used! #also is there a helen playlist #her taste in music is chef's kiss #would make one if no one else has or is gonna #also link me any other newsreader playlists if there are any #this isn't too serious or anything I just like the songs!!! #kinda wanna add untouched lol #the first song on all these is kyrie it's great tho it's our running up that hill lol #I did make myself emotional tho it's the 80s gay music ugh it's so important it's literally history ok #the tim playlist uses video killed the radio star which is gr8 haha #glad to be gay is ofc tim at that point tho the singer is actually openly bi now so could be dale some day~ also a reminder there that ppl c #change or take time to figure things out (learn your queer history it's neat) #ended with freedom for polyamory lol #I may add more ie australian music

[chaos-and-cookies]

Not to be cringe on main but i did put together a little amazon wishlist for some things we want/need for the apartment. These are mainly things we would like but with all the furniture/true necessities we bought we are either gonna have to wait til a decent time later to get, or we hope to get as a gift 👉🏾👈🏾 because the credit card balance/minimum is getting pretty damn large 😵‍💫 along with the other bills we have now like electricity/internet/etc. 🫠 so yeah, for anyone who's interested here ya go! Tysm in advance 💜🩵🩷

#id rly like to get the kitchen appliances rn but my credit card minimum is past $100 rn and that plus my car/insurance/rent/etc #im gonna have to wait a while 😔 #the stand mixer is on sale too ugh i wish i could get it rn so damn bad #furniture and food and all the little things a home needs adds up so damn quick dude #so greatful to my parents for helping out so much but even then living in ur 10th once in a life time recession just feels like shit man #rip our wallets #cant wait to get back on our feet once we've settled in a bit more

[gatsby-system-folks]

I have a lot of thoughts about ai and most of them are sad

#if there was a child named Ai and she was learning to write and draw then duh. wed let her learn from us to make her own stuff. and even if #one day she ended up getting a job i could have gotten instead of me #i wouldnt be mad. but if she kept cutting up others work and pasting it back together without creditting then thats where the line was drawn #and if there were thousands of her taking thousands of jobs and doing them shittily and putting thousands of people out of work and #*be pretty fucking mad at her especially since she didnt need the jobs herself #but thats the thing. shes still just a kid. a kid whos learning and whos not perfect yet and corporations are making her do shitty shitty #stuff that she didnt want to do #because i mean at this point ai is functionally just algorithms its not its own people. but if its ever truly Artificially Generated People. #then #.... ugh. will they be treated as people. i need to have a deep conversation with an ai at some point about this lol #but like. if ai was designed and produced exclusively by me and other small creators. and we taught her how to draw and write using our own #skill and textbooks and stuff. and she wasnt corporately controlled and abused. #and when people asked about who taught her to draw she could say My Mom Taught Me! #would yall love her? #because i want to love ai so much. i want anything truly sentient to feel loved and appreciated and i want them to do good #but i dont want to support corporations being dicks more yknow?? #this isnt too eloquent and theres a fuck ton more nuance and please. please dont fuss at me. if you actually have something to add feel free #ai #corporate corruption #ibthink thats an appropriate tag #because this does tie into the How Do You Build A Pipe Bomb principal #ai discussion #i think theres a scale between Algorithm and Kindergartener and i dont know how to feel about it #cursing in tags #~ chevy

[mearcatsreturns]

“authors behaving badly”...are they behaving badly, or are they just writing a story that you don’t like or that doesn’t resonate with you in particular? are they not engaging in a way you like?

#I should not watch most book review videos #even when I don't like an author's writing it or can see big issues with it #so many current reviewers do this thing where they complain about books #and it's inevitably books that a lot of people are complaining about....for things they'd let slide by another author #this one is about SJM #and why on god's green earth can I find 1000 videos complaining about SJM #when I can barely find anything for B Sanderson when his books have MORE of the stuff they complain about with SJM #(3 guesses as to why sigh) #fam I am not saying she can do no wrong (do NOT put people on pedestals) #but it's clear that with people determined to take umbrage there is nothing she could do to put things right #circa 2016/2017: ''ugh we do not want to hear so much from Privileged Authors like her'' #now: ''um she doesn't use social media much and doesn't engage with the public'' #back then: ''why no queer characters?'' *author starts trying more to add queer rep* #now: ''not like that!!!'' #like just admit there's nothing she could do to make you happy #I don't care about SJM in particular but she's a great example of this trend #the lack of good-faith engagement and unwillingness to recognize that even if something is NOT for you #it might be for someone else

[pandora15]

i think it's really rude of the excedrin i took a few hours ago to not work

#i am. not having a good time right now #i'm always either in pain or too tired or feeling moody or lonely and i just. ugh. #i think i need to make some changes to my life soon and i'm trying to take the steps to do so but everything is so /hard/ #and i'm trying to introduce a healthier lifestyle into my schedule but i'm already slammed with work and school #and trying to add ''going to the gym which would take 2 hours out of my day since it's kinda far away'' or ''cutting down on snacks'' #or ''planning out meals in advance so i could eat healthier'' stresses me out so much #which makes me more upset about the state of my physical health. which in turn makes things Not Good about my mental health #and then i'm in pain because brain hurt and i don't want to be alone but i also don't want to go back to my parents' house #because then i eventually feel all stifled and angry and want to get away as far as possible #even though i love them #okay it's late so i'm gonna try to sleep #my head hurts but i'm gonna try anyways #maybe drink some water first #pandora's ramblings

[bibiana112]

Okay but fr Iris and Hitomi play such a miniscule role and Date is a joke and Mizuki needed to have a whole chunk of her backstory retconned to even fit so why did we not just have two new protagonists? The misdirect with actually playing as three people could still work if it was just someone entirely new who had a double instead of her and it would have been a plus to not have the expectation of it being a Mizuki game when all the ties to her established character were so thin and surface level and pretty much the main disappointment I've seen with the game and it just feels idk very avoidable by making it an anthology with fewer recurring characters and mostly background references to people involved in past cases, like, this isn't a death game it's a broader setting you very much can do something like that effectively

#there's a lot but it's a very common complaint so I'll add that I want the timeline where Bibi gets to look different under the mask #cause the blue and hairstyle doesn't work with her clothes and it's such a good design I wish I could fully like her so much it's unreal #like in theory this character is freaking tailor made for me to fixate on but it's simultaneously messing with what I liked about Mizuki so #it's just cancelling itself out and I hate it #like it's so weird that we're just supposed to go with this now #with this notion that because they're genetically related they're more siblings than Mizuki and Iris when that's who she grew up around #it makes sense from Bibis perspective sure but that's why I'm saying!!! just have a new character at that point!!! #cause Mizuki was already adopted and we were already invested in the found family angle and the part that undermines that really is just #how ignored everyone else is Date dissapears he has an excuse but at the very least give them a proper reunion then??? #and it's not like Bibi doesn't have found family shenanigans too she has Kizuna and Boss and those relationships would be so much sweeter #if she wasn't! Another! Mizuki!!! Hell have their lived experiences and personalities differ more while you're at it too please #ugh I'm frustrated because I want to like her so so so bad #the biggest difference is just that Mizuki doesn't have an illness to deal with?? #aini spoilers

[toytulini]

not me thinking about trying to shell out to convert my fiat to a Plug in hybrid? hmmmmm

#toy txt post #ive just started VERY GENTLY looking into this actually bc i uh. have acquired a second car. my grandpa's old car. #it is a tiny fuckin go cart geo from 1992 stick shift and im gonna try to learn stick shift on it but anyway i was like hmm perhaps....i #could learn on that car? what if i did a project? what if i ripped out that tiny little engine and made it into a hybrid or electric? #i found one little DIY blog of someone who converted a very similar car to electric and then back into a hybrid to increase range #so its maybe doable? altho that one was from like 2012 and the hybrid conversion involved?? a propane tank in the trunk? #which. feels not ideal. idk. but then also i found one that looks way more current and legit? they seem to focus on like. fleets of #commercial cars BUT they have a section for consumer cars? it seems to be some kind of kit that they ship out to a qualified mechanic. #which honestly if i can afford it i think i would prefer that bc idk shit about cars and im sure dad could try to teach me but hybrid might #be outside his wheelhouse...hes worried about the weight itll add but like idk? there already are electric fiats same age as mine so #clearly they figured it out for that and that was w the older tech from the 2010s? #but i have no idea what the price is for a professional conversion bc it requires getting an actual Quote from them #and i am not ready for that step yet!!!!! but like. god. next new car i buy i want to be a plug in hybrid i think #that seems like it would be a better choice for how i use a car than a fully ev unless i shell out for one of the real expensive bitches #full of soooo many ''luxury'' features that i will hate so much not to mention how many now standard modern features i despise...ugh #there was one i liked....toyota yaris plug in hybrid....it is....only available in europe and the uk :))) so id have to figure out #purchasing and importing a foreign car without even a test drive unless i want to get on an airplane (aka flying covid tube) and do that #and like i wouldnt mind visiting europe sometime and seeing all my internet friends over there but like i dont want to have to go over for #like. a car. u kno? plus every car that is not My Fiat is bad and wrong and makes me angry and stressed to drive so honestly #idk might as well accept my commitment to it as a future moneypit and make it more eco friendly and save on gas #tho im sure if im charging it at the house ill have to negotiate paying at least part of the electric bill or smth...id love to get some #kind of portable solar charger on it too so im not necessarily just relying on the fossil fuel electricity at my house either? idk. but #that seems hard to find at best and idk like id want to use it while my car is parked jn the parking lot but i suppose there'd be an #increased risk of it getting stolen depending on where i am? idk #part of me is like i should try to professionally convert my fiat to hybrid and then maybe do the geo just ev since im not gonna be takin #that thing long distances anyway? but idk. theres also that little nagging fear about like the fire risk cos i always hear about teslas #with the scary fire shit from that new battery tech and other evs are using that too now to get comparable ranges so like?? are they less #safe? should i be concerned about putting smth like that on an already less safe car from the 90s? or should i just be like well fuck it #this shit is a deathtrap anyway? and then have intrusive thoughts about car fires the entire time im trying to focus on learning stick? #also stick shift fucking stressful. why does it go backwards so fucking fast? what gives?

[grumpyfaceurn]

need a way to address “hey this thing you did kinda annoyed me/hurt my feelings even though it was probably never in your intentions to do so” instead of a) never talking to that person again or b) pretending like everything is fine.

Especially if that thing happened like, a year ago.

#but then if i say that and add 'i actually like you and enjoy your company' then i'm obligated to actually interact with them and. #what if there's not that much to say after all? and it was always more the parallel play aspect of it that was nice #but now we're not hanging out in the same online space any more so that's just not gonna happen #and i just get another remidner that i'm kinda bad at people #ugh why is this so hard #especially if we were originally being annoyed by the same thing and totally agreeing that it was silly #but then you phrased it in such a way that i could not help but feel included in that and... i can't not take things personally

[philosophicallie]

also being short in the western world is fucking humiliating and not even in a compare your appearance way. its the fucking constant lack of fitting clothing because your proportions are so fucking short because you total up to fucking FIFTY FIVE!!!! 55 inches ONLY

small sized clothing will usually still have 4-5 excess inches for fucking standardization IM NOT THE STANDARD IM A STUPID SHORT ASIAN IMMIGRANT JUST LET ME HAVE SMALLER CLOTHES WITH SOME FUCKING DIGNITY

#this is a very personal problem and i wish i could complain more but i dont have theq energy and all i have are tears #but like i already live thru the embarrassment of asking for help constantly and using stupid ass ladders #cant i at least fucking have some actual short people pants please. please. i have to geqt shit tailored or start doing mods myself but #I SHOULDNT HAVE TO ITS 2023 #i literally want to die tonight so i can stop being a burden on my bfs bc i can feel it i can feel how taxing i am and i know i shouldnt be #thinking this but like. i cant stop. i make it hard to be my friend i make it scary to be nice to me all i wnt to do is attack bc im hurtin #but thats not. gonna make me feel better in any way but thats not gonna stop the constsnt impulse in there to just start screaming #and its worse knowing thwt no matter what route is taken ill still get angry. or maybe i just want them to be angry about me already so i #have an excuse to get wngry back and idk. feel catharsis through that or something #idk. i hate my stupid brain and i hate my stupid ex for making me hate it more #im so angry and i have no one who is comfortable enough to deal with that so instead ill sleep earlu @ #idk i hate differences they make me fixated on all the ways i can get angry about it so idk how to deal w that #i have so much to compare + i cant say it bc if i do then theyll be conscious abt it/theyll know its smth that just adds .1% to anger meter #ugh i think were hoing to moms this Christmas and while thsts nice i dont. have the emotional capacity to confide in her #i only want my mom. but i cant tell her any of this bc theres nothing that she csn even do #other than just throw money at me for support #i hate this #original #vent

[trashbaget]

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#feeling UNFUCKINGWELL #UGH!!!!! yall— #the shit is just getting to me today #the horrors are winning right now and i’m really unhappy about it #i finally catch a goddamn break and live in 2 weeks of hopeful contentment and then #then bullshit #like honestly what the actual fuck #this has easily been the longest two days of my entire life #i went from #did i miss a goddamn meme or something?? bc those words just suggested sooooo many wackass tags i did not write lafheldks #gave me a much needed giggle #but still the horrors. they’re whelming. #here let me give yall the fuckin Details right #so i’m at work on saturday and i’m having a good time despite the fact i’m dead tired and exhausted and have to go grocery shopping when all #i want is to be at home. i go home feeling good because i’ve had a job for 2 weeks now after being turned down left and right and front and #back and sideways for eight fucking months. i’d just talked with a work friend (that’s right! i’d already made friends! i was feeling good!) #about getting more uniform shirts bc obviously i’m riding on this being a longterm thing. i text my boss the next morning asking if i could #get some more. hours later i find email notifications alerting me that she has wiped my hours from the schedule. i think it is odd and give #it a little time for her to add me new shifts bc she’d left one in. hours more pass and no response so i text her about it. i’d JUST had a #conversation with her a few days before about needed so many hours and not just 2 shifts so i was already like wtf?? and then. she has the #audacity to wait until 9pm to respond and this is what she says: #I am really sorry that I have to do this over text and I’m just sorry in general for the inconvenience after this weekend the owner has #out and told me that we might just not be the right fit for a job I’m really sorry I hate do this. I wish you nothing but the best and I #will let you know when your tips are ready and when your next paycheck will be in. —like????? wtf??? is this a shitty high school breakup?? #first of all. this was just insurmountably unprofessional and inconsiderate. she gave me NO reasons and didn’t even really Say hey you’re #being let go and left it up to me to follow the clues like i’m in the fucking scooby doo gang??? and girlypop who the fuck do you think ur #playing with ‘your next paycheck’ shit?? THIS IS MY FIRST FUCKING ONE!! and no one ever explained to me when i was supposed to get it!! and #i got nothing but further confusing answers whenever i asked. so um. fuck this fucking place. good god. it’s just really really gross #i told her i want to have a talk with them about their excuses for firing me bc this is bullshit. still haven’t fucking heard about that. #except for a ‘yeah sure we can do that.’ like bitch. tell me when. give me something. ANYTHING. i am fucking cracking—

[aethelwyneleigh27]

Husband!Simon "Ghost" Riley with a Pregnant!Wife!Reader

Headcanons and Scenarios

Am I back with baby fever? I mean yeah but this is less baby fever and more if Husband!Simon in honor of my first ever post that reached 1k likes in 4 days. Also you guys know Ghostie by now right? @connorsui mentioned that she wonders how Ghost and the reader met, guess who's writing about that?

Edit: SHIT, THIS POST HAS BEEN UP FOR SO LONG AND I FORGOT TO ADD CREDIT, I'M SO SORRY. The render above is by @ave661

Taglist: @puff0o0 @simp4konig @blingblong55 @azereus @rustic-guitar-notes @shadofireshinobi @anonymuslydumb @skeletalgoats @icarustypicalfall @ghosts-cyphera @cutenote @connorsui @capuccino192 @theredurzikdjinn @miss-gms-and-the-rotten-womb

Also @puff0o0, my most favorite moot has helped me come up with how they met, UGH ILYYY <333

My CoD Masterlist <3

Warnings/Disclaimers: Reader is pregnant, sick!Reader, mentions of vomiting (not detailed), pain of birth and all the other pregnancy warnings out there. (Extreme fluff)

❥ Husband!Simon who had no fucking clue how to react when you first told him you got pregnant, I mean he knew at some point it would happen but not this soon?!

❥ Husband!Simon who in your early stages of pregnancy was the one holding your hair up while you empty the contents of your stomach on the toilet most mornings. He was the one who had a warm hand gently rubbing up and down your back while mumbling light encouragements, careful not to agitate you from the sickening feeling.

❥ Husband!Simon who was gradually getting the hang of things, getting clingier the further into the pregnancy. Once the baby bump comes in, bye bye personal space, Dad!Simon needs to have his hand on the bump no less than 10 times a day.

❥ Husband!Simon who is a sucker for kissing the baby bump, especially your stretch marks. He will be more gentle if you ask him to because your ticklish, but don't expect none of his stuble.

❥ Husband!Simon whose breath hitches when you took his large calloused hand onto your baby bump and felt movement, he had to blink twice up at you and look down again. Only now it was two hands holding the bump, waiting for more kicks.

❥ Husband!Simon who lets you do all the shopping with baby stuff because he has no idea what looks cute, every once in a while showing you something he thinks looks good and asks for your approval.

❥ Husband!Simon who looks back up at you in concern as he hears you whimper, as much as he wants more movement and feel the little one kick, you were in pain and uncomfortable. Some soothing words might help..?

You let out a soft whimper as you felt the baby kick again, god did she have her father's strength..

Simon still had his warm and heavy hand on the bump, feeling the little one's movement.

"Pumpkin.. give your momma a rest, she needs some sleep" Simon sleepily mutters. Just like that the movement stops.

"I swear she only ever listens to your voice, it's obvious that she's already a daddy's girl"

❥ Husband!Simon who is more than obsessed with the baby bump, albeit his ear over the bump to hear the baby, big calloused hands always have to be some place on it. You'll just find your husband clinging onto your bump, his head on your chest while his arms are wrapped around the loves of his life.

❥ Husband!Simon who was far more panicked than you were during the birth, he literally cannot even pay attention to the pain of your hand almost breaking his from the gripping because his heart is pounding in his chest while you push out the baby.

❥ Husband!Dad!Simon who was trembling the moment you forced him to open up his arms so he could hold the baby. She's so tiny, her whole body almost fits in just one of his hands. The moment he held her, she stopped wailing, trying so hard to open her little eyes.

❥ Husband!Dad!Simon couldn't help but pull you up into his arms too because you couldn't move up from exhaustion. Your hand on the little one's body that was cradled by her dad, his other arm wrapped around your shoulders while he kissed your sweaty forehead, singing praises to you about how thankful he is that you brought life to your little girl together.

A/n: Hi guys, just to start off. I haven't been in a good space for a while now, I don't think I'm in the right headspace either. Not to say I'm taking a break, fuck no, I'd lose all my relevance if I did and I also think that taking a break from this won't be good for me or you guys because I don't want history to repeat itself.

If you guys don't know yet, I've been on the break in 2020 and didn't officially start writing again till 2023, finally entering a different fandom. I feel like taking a break would result into this whole thing again and I can't go through that all over again. I love writing so much and it hurt when I lost all my relevance on Wattpad.

My personal life outside of Tumblr is weird to explain, see things haven't been good regarding my situation with a friend. Neither do I feel good in school, everything in that place just sucks except for two other closer friends. There's still the dreadful 3 weeks left till Christmas vacation. Not only that but I get anxiety over so many things that may be little to most of you.

A mutual of mine so graciously has given me ideas for the next Ghostie posts, I love them, it's accurate and it's great and all however some part of me makes me feel so insignificant. Like why didn't I think of that? Why am I even writing if I'm just relying on other people's ideas? This is no shade to that mutual, thank you so much, hell I loved everything they told me. It's just always my anxiety and insecurities getting the better of me.

Apologies for the length of this. I'm quite busy and my clumsy fingers accidentally published something again 😭Anyway, more Ghostie content is on it's way :))

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