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dimitrscu · 11 months
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i love pride month but at the same time it always makes me feel so bad about myself. just knowing that i’ll never be able to properly come out because my family will turn on me and because of that i will never be able to have a relationship just makes me feel really awful
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meosq · 9 months
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BOYFRIEND IZANA
“말해줘, say it back, oh, say it, ditto”
warnings ; fem!reader violence kinda sexual.
Genre ; fluff
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— Izana is the type of guy who only has a soft spot for you and Kakucho (which he refuses to acknowledge), low-key so funny to see the switch up happen so easily
“Fuck off, you guys are useless” izana states as he kicks his subordinates while kissing his teeth.
“ cant do anything-“
“ hi zana! I missed you today”
“Hi sweetheart, do you want to go get dinner” ignoring the groans from the floor.
“Oh of course!”
— not surprising, but Izana is pretty well off. I mean look at his gang.. you telling me he isnt loaded??
“Hey sweetheart, got you that dress you was eyeing up! “
“Zana.. wasnt it like 60,000¥…”
“So?…”
—like Mikey, this dude is lowkey a stalker… especially before you guys where together. He watched you closely and made sure noone hurt you.. ( also made sure anyone who confessed wouldnt see you again. )
— even after getting together the stalking wouldn’t stop , (unless told too) cause i mean it kind off made you safer knowing he was basically helping you stay safe without bothering you too much
“Babe i can literally see you, if you’re gonna follow me at least hold my hand..”
— Bae is literally WHIPPED , no matter how you guys met he either fell in love first sight or you fell first but he fell harder..
“Love you sweeetiieeeee!! Love you love you love you-“
“Okay zana we get it, love you too! “
— He may look like the type to hate PDA.. but not going to lie…. He fucks with it so hard. You’re telling me he isn’t gonna have a make-out session in a restaurant cause you called him hot??
“B-babe were in publi-“
“So? Dont care , theyre just going to have to enjoy the show. Plus you taste to good”
— This demon isn’t afraid of embarrassing you in public for his own pleasure, whether that be slapping your ass or grinding on you when walking past you.
“ow!” You jumped. “Zana stop , you cant keep doing this.. im literally trying to order a pizza on the phone man”
“sorryyyy… you’re ass looked too good hehe”
— To be honest, hes a pretty private guy so dont blame him when the gang doesnt even know he has a gf .
“Boss, i have this girl for you she’s beautiful-“
“No”
“Why? You always say no, maybe just this once?”
“Ive got a girlfriend.”
“what.”
“yeah? Did you not know”
“NO WHAT??”
“Oh ahaha”
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sarahjtv · 3 years
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BNHA Chapter 308 Spoiler Thoughts: Beat His Ass, Young Midoriya!
Chapter leaks are out!  Full chapter hasn’t been revealed yet (and take what I say with a grain of salt until the official translations come out), but I think I have a pretty good idea of what’s going on.  Nothing super heavy, but it’s an action-packed chapter that shows us how much of a badass Deku has become since he left UA and went all vigilante on us.  So, let’s do this:
Before we get into the chapter, I need to mention our mangaka, Kohei Horikoshi-sensei’s comment this week.  He’s basically apologizing for taking a break last week, calling himself a “small-fry”, and promising to pick himself up.  Horikoshi deserved a break last week and he is by no means a “small-fry” for creating one of the best and most popular pieces of fiction in the last few years.  I hope that he knows that and that he shouldn’t blame himself for taking a break.  
So, the chapter picks up right where we left off!  Deku and Muscular’s battle begins and Muscular recognizes Deku’s voice.  He says that he’s been waiting for this moment as everyone else he’s faced have been weaklings compared to Deku.  As far as we know, Deku has been the only one to even beat Muscular by himself.  It took over 100% of his strength to do so, but Deku did manage to kick Muscular’s ass.  It makes sense why he’d want a rematch.
I need to take a moment here to talk about how awesome Deku looks in his Vigilante costume (as I’ve decided to call it).  The tattered clothing really works for him and the dark sclera around his eye adds to the effect.   Again, I love that he’s finally putting the bunny hood and metal mask to use.  I mean, he used them before, but not as a real part of his daily costume.  He looks almost like a completely different person with them on.  I’d be scared of Deku tbh.  
As the fight continues, he gives the injured Yo Shindo to his GF, Tatami.  Tatami can’t see Deku’s costume because of the smoke surrounding him, but she does kind of recognize his voice from somewhere.  I do wonder if Tatami’s going to put the pieces together and find out that the vigilante is Izuku Midoriya.  And I wonder if she’s going to get the word about his actions spreading and if that will reach our UA kids.  Or the news stations will, that might happen too.  
Speaking of smoke, DEKU UNLOCKED THE 6TH OFA USER’S QUIRK!  The 6th user is the Tobio Kageyama-looking dude with the long collar (He’s cute btw 😳!) and his name is “En” which translated to smoke.  His Quirk is Smokescreen which explains the smoke surrounding Deku at the end of the last chapter.  Deku is using the Quirk too much, so he needs to calm down a bit and use each Quirk individually.  There’s actually quite a bit that Deku could use with a Quirk like Smoakscreen: He could hide himself for a sneak attack, he could use it as a distraction, use it if he needs to retreat, etc.  My mind immediately went to Pokémon (because of course it did) and how Team Rocket would constantly use moves like Smoakscreen and Haze to either distract Ash and Co. to confuse them or use a sneak attack, or run away from the protagonist.  It’s another support-type Quirk, but it’s a damn good one if used right. 
Edit: There’s a panel that shows the scale of how much Smokescreen Deku used and it’s A LOT.  Like, the smoke is covering several streets and it goes to the top of some buildings.  It’s hard for really anyone to see anything.  Deku’s really trying to keep himself in the shadows, I suppose.
To use all his Quirks well, En suggests that Deku think of each Quirk like a support tool.  So, Float is a jetpack, Black Whip is a long string of rope, Danger Sense is a radio, and Smoakscreen is a flare or some kind of smoke grenade (I don’t know the specific name).  This is a really good way of thinking for Deku since he’s been using object-focused metaphors for OFA before.  Remember the “Egg in The Microwave” and the “Turntable in The Microwave”?  Similar to that!
Edit: Fan-scans are out.  It seem like Deku is actively talking to En here as if he’s a little voice in his head guiding him on what to do.  My guess is that after his coma talk with the OFA Holders, Deku can now talk to the vestiges consciously.  He doesn’t need to enter a dream-like state to interact with him; it’s just a thing he can do willingly.
So, Deku uses each Quirk individually and finally ties Muscular down with Black Whip.  I can’t describe it, but it’s so cool to see Deku in action here absolutely folding Muscular.  He really has improved since their last fight. There’s one panel that has a close up of Deku’s masked face and he looks so damn cool!  I’m so tempted to color it when the official translations come out.
Deku is asking Muscular where AFO and Shigaraki are, but Muscular doesn’t know.  He also asks why Muscular is doing what he’s doing, but Muscular just responds that there is only blood and battle in his heart and  he doesn’t want to live a life where he regrets not fulfilling that (his name is revealed to be Gouto Imasuji btw.  Don’t know the translation behind that, but I assume it has to do with his Quirk and his violent personality).  So, this confirms that Deku is actively looking for Shigaraki and AFO.  He’s not just saving people left and right, but he is actively looking for the big bad on his own.  I can’t see that ending well without help unfortunately.  Deku’s also trying to reason with Muscular to see if there’s a different path for him similar to his fight with Gentle and LaBrava.  He’s really going for the “Save People’s Hearts” route and I can understand why.  That’s Deku’s character at its core.  It’s why he wants to try to save Shigaraki despite everything.  If there is a different path for a villain, then Deku will try to lead them to it.  Unfortunately, villains like Muscular don’t always have that path.  
Edit: Actually, you know what, how in the world did Deku know Muscular’s real name?  Did he see it on the news somewhere?  Did he do some research and manage to look it up?  Does he have someone to give him intel?  I mean, unless Muscular’s name was broadcast out there, his real name is some very specific information Deku got a hold of.  
Finally, as he remembers Shigaraki and Kota (the small boy Deku saved back in the Forest Training Camp), Deku runs towards Muscular with full speed and finishes him with one powerful punch!  Deku speeds past Muscular as we finally see his face again under the mask (Badass Deku🥵)!  One Punch Man has left the chat, my dudes.  For real, though, if Muscular really is defeated, it’s amazing how flawlessly Deku beat him.  Deku used every Quirk well and efficiently to dodge Muscular's attacks and pin him down so he could get a clean hit in.  Everything was calculated and executed perfectly.  This is not the Deku we knew back in the Training Camp Arc.    
Edit: Ok, it was explained that Shindo’s Vibration actually did effect Muscular’s Quirk.  Then tendons in his muscles were pulled and were starting to unravel.  That’s what made an opening for Deku to get a good hit in.  I think it would’ve been hard for Deku to knock Muscular out with one punch if that opening wouldn’t have been made.  So, Shindo wasn’t entirely useless.  
And that’s it from what I can gather!  Damn good action-packed chapter! A+ art and writing from Horikoshi once again!  This man just keeps bringing us 🔥.  I’m so glad to see Deku fight like the badass he’s meant to be.  I wish it didn’t have to take a war and several near-death experiences to get here, but Shonen gotta Shonen.  He knocked the lights out of Muscular, I almost feel sorry for him.  He got his ass kicked by the same kid twice in less than a year.  You should’ve stayed in Tartarus, my dude.  Really, all prisoners should’ve stayed in Tartarus.  If Deku can defeat Muscular, then none of them stand a chance against him now.  I can only assume Deku’s going to go after everyone who was associated with the LOV to find Shigaraki and AFO at this point.  Thankfully, we don’t have a break next week.  Will En teach Deku how to play volleyball?!?  I’m kidding!  I do want to know what our UA kids are doing, especially Bakugo, Shoto, and Uraraka.  This would be a good time to transition to them.  Like, they can see Muscular’s capture on the local news, put the pieces together, and go after Deku.  Or we could just keep focusing on Deku’s vigilante adventures, that works too!  
Me @ Deku:
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I just feel like my life is never going to change and I’ll be stuck like this forever.
I’ll forever be stuck living with my parents. Even people will full time jobs struggle to afford rent in this area so unless I find a friend to move in with or get a gf I feel like I’ll have no hope of that. And I can’t just move states because I have no idea how I would even do that by myself and all of my medical professionals are here, if I had a gf I would do it in a heartbeat for her but that’s not a reality now . I can’t complete anything to save my life because of my mental health issues. And yeah maybe im just lazy and have no right to complain and im just a useless sponge on society but I feel like I just can’t.
Just looking at my sad annoys me. I want to scream and kick and throw a tantrum like a baby but I know it won’t fix anything or change anything or even make me feel better because I’ll just hate myself after it.
I see everyone moving forward in life in their own ways and I can’t keep up. I feel so stuck. I hardly talk to anyone. I never hang out with anyone. I have no partner or love life. I get overwhelmed leaving the house. I can’t even properly do things I used to live like write. It takes me forever to do it because I have such little motivation or concentration levels. Even with reading. I’m fairly slow all things considered and I need naps so often after just because of how little energy I have.
I just feel like a waste of time and space and genuinely the only reason im here is because I don’t want to cause trouble or pain to those in my life. But I have nothing to look forward to at all. So I spend whatever left over money I get from the government on useless crap.
I feel like I don’t have purpose. Even before applying for the DSP it didn’t matter how many jobs I applied for I never got anything. I’ve dropped out of every class or course I’ve started since leaving high school. I feel like I can’t even have an ED properly. Everything just feels like such a mess. And I have nothing waiting for me at the end of the tunnel. No one or nothing to keep my hopes up for.
I’ll be 23 this year and time has gone by so fast. Before I’ve even had a chance to catch my bearings I’m ageing. And I feel like I’m losing what little worth I may have been able to find the older I get. Or with each year that passes anything I might have been able to do or accomplish just means less and less.
I don’t want to be the type of person who puts so much value into a romantic relationship. I know it’s not healthy. But it’s so hard not to when everywhere I look it’s what people have. Other lesbians struggling with their sexuality or facing hatred for it - but they have a partner to help them. People struggling with their mental health issues and then posting about their partner helping them. Or couples moving in together and finding joy in the small things. Sharing interest. Hugging. Kissing. Feeling loved. I want all that. And I know I’m probably undesirable and I know my loneliness is probably my fault and I know I’m picky and I know I probably wouldn’t be good in a relationship and I know it wouldn’t fix everything. But it genuinely feels like I have nothing. It feels like everyone is passing me by and I just don’t know what to do anymore. I just feel so trapped and stuck and pathetic.
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szopenhauer · 4 years
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Do you have pockets in anything you are wearing currently? I don’t
Have you ever tasted your own tears? it’s hard not to when you cry so often
Do you hang your clothes outside or put it in the dryer? outside, not during wither tho
Do you like the letter q or the letter z better? Z
Do you do anything weird in your sleep? who knows
How many times can you jump in jumproping? I didn’t jump for a long time now so I dunno if I can jump as many times as I used to - doubt it
Do you like the beach? I like wet sand, beachcombing
Have you ever built a sandcastle? I suppose, I want to do that again sometime
Is there a mirror in the room that you are in? not a hanging one
What color is your comb? one is white and other two are red
When did you pull out your first tooth? I don’t remember
How old were you when you said your first word? same
Have you ever had a pet rabbit? hell no
Do you like the autumn? it’s fine unless weather gets really cold and snowy
Are you good at drawing? a bit
What is your Hogwarts house?  Ravenclaw?
Have you ever seen the Percy Jackson movie/s? nope
Ever seen Glee? fragments
Do you like Demi Lovato? Name a song by her. not a fan
Tarzan or The Lion King? Tarzan, from Lion King I only liked Timon and Pumba and I didn’t cry when Mufasa died
Lilo & Stitch or Moana? Lilo and Stitch
Hercules or Pinocchio? Hercules
Rugrats or Powerpuff Girls? Powerpuff girls
Ever seen Pretty Little Liars? no
Baking or dancing? dancing 
Sports or shopping? shopping
Blue or yellow? yellow
Green or pink? green
Did/do you go to a public school, a private school, or homeschool? public
Do you have a secret sideblog? not anymore
If you could teleport anywhere in the world right now, where would you go? if I could teleport once I would save that ability for special occassion like emergency but if I was able to teleport whenever then hmm...
Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced? nah
How would you spend a million dollars? buy an apartment, help my parents, live better *maybe even make a movie?
What’s your pet peeve? I have so many
Do you like paper books or ebooks better? paper
If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick? Moomin valley
If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like? big hahaha
If you could marry any celebrity, who would you pick? well I don’t know them personally so it’s hard to say - just choosing based on their look? hmm...
Who do you text the most? my gf
If you had to choose, which sibling would you live with? I only have a sister so... I would prefer not to live with her again, thx
When was your last date? last week
Are there any people at your job who absolutely hates you? if I had a job...
Do you prefer cool, warm or neutral colors? depends
Have you ever taken art classes? I have
Do you know how to work a cash register? I hope I didn’t forget much about it
Fact or fiction novels? fiction
Do you think you’re a clingy person? am I?
Do you enjoy kisses on the cheek? not really
How often would you say you disagree with your parents? often with my mom, rarely with my dad
Have you ever slept with your window open? nah
What color are your mother’s eyes? brown
Do you cry easily? very
Have you ever been into a court room? field trip in middle school
How many necklaces would you say you own? too many as for someone who never wear them.
What time do you plan on waking up tomorrow morning? wish I didn’t have to
Do you enjoy receiving souvenirs? buying them myself
Do a lot of people dislike you or is it the other way around? it’s both ways
What’s the worst part about school? bullying, grade stress, unhealthy eating, sitting all day long, walking there in the cold and snow during winter etc.
Would you ever consider going on a cruise? nah
Do you still act childish most of the time? often
Did you ever enjoy gym class? at times I enjoyed PE
What is your biggest insecurity? dunno which is biggest, I have plenty of them
Have you ever painted a room alone? not alone but helping
Speaking of which, when did you last paint your room? ages ago
Do you know how to garden? but don’t like to
Do you have any bad habits? shitload
How old were your parents when they had you? in their 30s
What is the most amusing thing on the internet, in your opinion? memes?
Do you try to spend a lot of time with family? compared to some people I spend lots of time with my parents
Do you need to clean your bedroom? yeah
What do you plan on doing with the rest of your life? we’ll see
Which decade were you born in? 90s
Are you good at giving advice to people? but not myself
Is there anyone out there who makes you feel completely useless? I am useless
Do you like texting or calling people more? text
Do you have a lot of friends? I don’t really have friends
Have you ever thought of someone as useless? myself for example
Can you count to ten in another language other than your own? english, polish, russian
Does photography interest you at all? kinda
Do you think you’re a good singer? am not
Do you think you have a good sense of style? I have my own style
Do you enjoy reading often? not often
Are you afraid of lifts? I prefer to take the stairs
How exactly are you feeling right now? Why do you feel the way you do? emotionally/mentally bad because of family and health issues mostly, physically my usual so not the best but can’t complain much
Has the last person you held hands with, ever told you that they love you? yes
Which do you think is the worst - saying something and then wishing you hadn’t, or not saying something and wishing you had? saying smth and wishing I hadn’t is worse to me
When was the last time you saw your grandparents? I saw my grandma almost 3 years ago
Have you ever felt really attracted to someone, but been deterred because you found out they didn’t have a very nice personality? omg more than once
Have you ever hugged/kissed someone you’d only just met? hugged, not kissed
Would you ever apologize for something that wasn’t your fault? I do that sometimes
Has anyone ever cried in your arms before? sure
Do you keep a lot of things from your parents? basically nothing
Using one word only, describe the day you’ve had so far. Sunday
Have you been annoyed at someone/something today? I still am  Are you avoiding anybody at the moment? you could say that Is rap your favorite genre of music? it’s not Have you ever lasted a relationship longer then two months? yep Is it safe to walk around your neighborhood at night? not for me Are you a fan of heights? nah but I’m not super scared of heights Rate your typing speed on a scale from 1 - 10? almost 10
Do you text more then you talk on the phone? obvi Are you scared to grow old? to get more ill
Do you use a dishwasher or wash dishes by hand? by hand, I hate dishwashers
What is the best pharmacy near you? they’re not that good 
Do you use public transportation? yup
How much does it cost for you to laundry (if you use a slot machine)? we have a washer at home
Do you make your bed every day? I’m lazy and it’s unhealthy to so I don’t
Do you save receipts? depends
Do you use re-usable bags at the grocery store? yep
Have you ever burnt yourself with the glue gun? slightly
Wall calendar or desk calendar? pocket :P 
Does your home have a basement? it does
How often do you clean? clean what?
How often do you go grocery shopping? often
Ever bought a lottery ticket? few times
Do you gamble? online for free at times
Do you ever sleep on the floor? sleepover
Which room do you stay in the most? mine
Ever worked two jobs or more at once? noooo
Do you live in an apartment, condo, house, or dorm? house
How often do you go see a doctor? too often
Do you have acid reflux? chronic
Do you snore? no
Are you on birth control? I’m asexual and into women 
Do you put on make-up in the bathroom or the bedroom? I did it wherever
What is the first site you go to when you turn on your computer? fb
Which email service do you use? wp
How often do you check your email? usually rarely
How old were you when you got your first phone? I was in middle school
Did you own a Britney Spears album? I don’t listen to Britney Spears
What sites are you on? plenty
Does the door to your room have a lock? I wish, it has a funny stuffed/plushie one What type of skin do you have? mixed Ever gotten beer poured all over yourself? luckily not, gross *from what I remember someone poured wine or beer on my shoes once in the store by breaking the bottle and didn’t pay for anything  Who’s the last person you had a sleepover with? John  Who’s the last person you wanted to kiss? my gf Can you keep a secret? not really When’s the last time you went on a walk? this evening
Do you feel uncomfortable when people you hardly know confide in you? if they use me 
Have you ever regretted what you said in drunken conversation once sober? never been in such situation
Is there anything coming up which you’re dreading? it’s complicated
Do you ever do tedious tasks just to keep your mind occupied? I have my usual things/distractions that I do everyday
Have you ever lived with somebody with truly repulsive habits? could say so?
Do you tend to say things because they’re appropriate not because you mean them?   sometimes
What was the last thing to fascinate you? smth I saw on the internet?
What was the last thing to annoy you? someone close to me
When did your hard work last pay off?   basically never
When did you last feel a need to be alone? almost always?
When did you last REALLY want to go out but couldn’t for whatever reason?   covid and my other health problems but also money
Have you ever eaten chocolate for breakfast? nooo
Do you like balloons? I do (don’t worry tho I can do without them)
When will you next go to the beach? *shrug*
If you have pet fish do you bother to name them?   if I had fish I probably would name them
Did you ever read the Terry Pratchet “Disk World” books?   I hate Pratchett
Do you keep your eggs in the fridge? of course
Have you ever owned chickens? I wanted to
Do you like classical music? at times, some songs
When did you last listen to music?   this day
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lovemesomesurveys · 4 years
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cause I’m a blackbelt when it comes to beating up on myself
Do you listen to music while you fill out surveys? Rarely. I mostly listen to ASMR while doing them or just have the TV on.
In the past week, what song have you listened to the most often? I Love Me by Demi Lovato.
What was the last thing you shared with someone else? My mom and I shared a Mcdonald’s french fry yesterday.
While playing video games, do you prefer being first or second player? I don’t care. When I was a kid I would have said first, but what kid didn’t. 
What is the most difficult word for you to pronounce? Hmm. I’m blanking at the moment, but when I was a kid I struggled with “aluminum.”
What did you have to do for the last homework you were assigned? *shrug* That was 5 years ago.
You’ve planned a roadtrip. Where are you going, and who’s coming too? Can we just fly? ha. Road trips can be fun, but I don’t like really long car rides so I guess it would depend on the length of the trip. Or actually, I guess if it was a road trip we’d probably have a lot of stops along the way to do stuff and stay somewhere for the night so that wouldn’t be bad.
Do you have an overactive imagination? My mind wanders to some random places. Some really sad and dark places, too.
What was the last important thing that you thought about? The latest news about the Coronavirus regarding my city.
Generally, do you call people, or wait for them to call you? Neither. I don’t like talking on the phone.
On average, how many texts do you send out each day? I don’t text everyday, but when I do it’s just a few.
Has anyone ever questioned your sanity? I’m sure.
How many people do you depend on? Three. Two of those three especially.
How many people do you think depend on you? Zero. I’m not very dependable anymore. I’m useless. 
What is the worst color combination? Brown and anything, really.
Have you ever injured yourself walking around in the dark? I don’t tend to go around in the dark. At night I have the light from my TV in my room and if I needed to go somewhere else in the house, I’d use the light on my phone.
When you get a papercut, how do you react? Go “ow!” or make that sound when you suck your teeth or whatever you know the one and examine the cut. Can you type without looking down at the keyboard? Yep. I’ve been typing since I was a kid, so I have like 20 or so years of experience. 
At what age did you develop an interest in the opposite [or same] sex? I remember my first crush was when I was in the 3rd grade.
Are you or members of your family religious? A few of my family members are, as well as myself.
What’s so scary about clowns, anyway? There’s something creepy about ‘em, but I’m not scared like I was when I was a kid. I’m a fan of Pennywise. 
When was the last time you acted like someone you’re not? I can’t hide the mess that I am now.
When was the last time that you cleaned your room? I straightened up not too long ago.
How many hats do you own/wear? A few.
What was the last thing that you printed? I don’t remember. I haven’t had to print anything in a long time.
Did the last song you listened to hold any special meaning? I forget what I last listened to.
Are you experiencing problems within a current relationship? No.
When you’re upset, who do you turn to? Usually no one, but depends on what’s wrong. Does winter weather depress you? I’m depressed year round, but I love the wintertime. Reminds me of this photo I found on Pinterest last year that had a skeleton in a Santa hat and Christmas lights strung around its arms that said, “when you’re dead inside, but it’s Christmas.” I need that on a t-shirt.
Who was the last person that you called? My mom.
What product was being advertised on the last commercial you saw? I think it was food related. 
Do you ever wonder who sings the catchy commercial jingles? Not really. There have been actual songs in commercials that I was curious about because I liked them. 
When you think about your last relationship, what song comes to mind? Nirvana’s song Lithium, but the cover of it done by an artist named ThePeteBox. Also Kids by MGMT. 
Are there any lyrics to describe your current crush/relationship? I don’t have a crush.
Who in your life makes you the most uncomfortable? No one. Do you ever receive comments on your weight? Yes, quite often.
Is there anything that you do just to make other people happy? I haven’t done a whole lot for others in a long time. :/
When you need a temporary escape, what do you do? I chill in bed and probably put my headphones and an ASMR video on.
What was the last lie that you believed in? Hmm.
How long did your last feelings of heartbreak last? In the romantic sense, a year.
Is there any sport that you would want to learn to play? No.
What band would you most like to meet? Linkin Park. I’m sad I never got to see or meet them with Chester. :( RIP. Also, the Jonas Brothers. Yeah, I said what I said. Don’t judge me.
Do you ever have difficulty opening pill-bottle caps? It’s happened, but no not usually. 
Do you gain weight around the holidays? No. I can’t seem to gain weight, but I need to.
Are you related to anyone famous, or to any historical figure? Possibly.
If it was an option, would you take a trip into outerspace? Nooooo. Everything about that sounds terrifying.
What was the last thing that you wrote down [with a pen/pencil]? Grocery list.
Has anyone told you that you have a nice smile? Yes.
Are you uncomfortable with being photographed? Very. If I’m going to have my picture taken, I need to take it myself. I know my angles and I can mess around with filters. I can also take several until I can settle on a decent one.
What’s the earliest you’ve woken up in the past week? 830AM.
How many people have you talked to today? Zero so far, it’s 3:34 in the morning and my family is asleep.
What was the last reason behind why you went to the hospital? For myself it was to have surgery. Besides that, I visited someone in the hospital a few years ago.
When journaling, are you honest when documenting your feelings? I’d say so. Ya’ll know how I am.
If you have a journal, do you ever worry others might find it? I don’t want anyone I know “in real life” to find this survey blog.
When you go camping, do you sleep in a tent or an RV? I don’t go camping. Noooo thanks.
What’s one ridiculous thing that you do? Be stubborn and not do certain things I should be doing and neglect myself.
Do you feel that you must wear make up to be attractive? I was still unattractive with makeup.
What was the last thing [other than the keyboard] that you touched? My phone.
Ever done anything dangerous while driving with someone else in the car? I don’t drive.
Name someone you wish you could be closer with? I’m close with my family and that’s all I need.
Have you ever played the license plate game on long car-trips? No. My cousins and I played slug bug; though, as kids.
Are you a secretive person, or are you open with your thoughts? I’m not nearly as open in person as I am on here. I keep a lot to myself.
What is the worst question that someone could ask you? ”Why aren’t you working?” “What do you want to do?” “What are you plans?”
Do you talk to your pets? Yes of course.
Do you have a least favorite day of the year? My birthday the older I get, ha.
What traits do you look for in a potential BF/GF? The usual good qualities, but I also need someone patient and understanding. That’s very important.
Right now, what’s in your bookbag/backpack? I don’t have a school bag anymore, I’m done with school. I do use a mini backpack; though, as my bag for whenever I go somewhere which contains my wallet, phone, hand sanitizer, and straws. I bring my medicine as well if I’m going to be gone awhile.
What’s unique about your city or town? Bleh.
If you could say something to the world, what would you say? Wash your hands often for at least 20 seconds. Use hand sanitizer if you’re out and about. Avoid large crowds as much as possible. Stay home if you’re sick if you can. Use the elbow greeting or even better just a wave or nod. You don’t need a mask unless you’re sick or caring for people who are sick. Be cautious and aware, but try not to panic. That adds to the craziness. No need to wipe the shelves clean of everything. Be considerate. Stay informed. Oh, and did I mention wash your hands?
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ol-razzle-dazazzle · 6 years
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All the gay asks bc you made me do all of them
OWO thank you I love you1. describe your idea of a perfect dateAll of them??? Kakhiwkdkalgr walking around the beach or going to a bookstore or maybe a forest to chill or an abandoned place for a spooky date??? Movie date??? Ocean date??? Marriage date??? All good!!! Crab catching would certainly be on the agenda though. The oceans the best2. whats your “type”My type? Uhh anyone that’s nice to me lmao. Someone i can joke with and I know that cares about me. Quiet on the outside but like, nurturing and fun when you get to know em. Someone that doesn’t let people treat em like garbage because i yearn to be like that. On a side note I’m not sure why but most people i used to tend to have crushes on were ISFJs (or ESFJs) probably because they fit the criteria above. I don’t really like people that are totally my personality, and I think it’s important to not surround yourself with yes people or people that vehemently disagree with you. And communication! V important In terms of looks though? The kinds of girls I’m attracted to vary a lot actually. Buff girls soft girls tall girls short girls thin girls medium girls big tiddy little tiddy it’s all good. I guess I tend to prefer girls that aren’t white (not in a fetishistic way of course it’s just most girls that I’ve had crushes on or knew that were gay that were white just had really bad personalities and that brand of White Feminism™️ sorry if I worded this poorly) brown or black hair I guess? Just someone that doesn’t look like me adjnrujbslltgbk. Also someone I can squish and hug nicely. Of course I think there’s a lotta bullshit with people limiting themselves to only a few criteria and the racism or body type discrimination is total bullshit. Fetishisation is just as bad. There’s just so many cute girls out there why be a shitlord to people y’know? 3. do you want kids?Later on in life, if my partner would then yeah sure why not. I hate babies though so I would...4. if you do, will you adopt or use some other form of child birth?Adopt definitely. I’d personally prefer to adopt a kid that’s older, because they have a less chance of being chosen and I want them to be raised in a loving environment. 5. describe the cutest date you’ve ever been onI’ve never been on an actual date ;v; but tbh any date I’d have with my gf would automatically top the list6. describe your experience having sex for the first time (were you nervous? or was it easy peasy?)I’ve never had sex so I got no gosh dang clue aside from fantasies, which I would be nervous as heck but ultimately want to be as adoring as possible and kisses everywhere7. are you a morning time gay or night time gay?Mornings when you don’t have to go to things are amazing and beautiful but otherwise afternoon or night time gay. Anything that isn’t midday is good though8. opinion on nap dates?I’d be down for it. Sleeping is great, but cuddling and sleeping? Even better! Doesn’t matter for how long but yes! Good shit!!! 9. opinion on brown eyes?Only the most beautiful thing ever??? Brown and black eyes being ugly is a government lie, they are gorgeous. Black eyes just have that deep obsidian stare and like an adoring cat with dialated pupils you just want to hug, and brown eyes??? When the light hits them or you’re staring into them? Beautiful galaxies my dude. 10. dog gay or cat gay?I love dogs but I would never own one unless my partner wanted one. They’re just not a companion I prefer to cats. Cats are very good and fluffy and compact in comparison to dogs. Dogs are amazing though and I need to pay every one I see. 11. would you ever date someone who owned rodents or reptiles?Dude we already planned to live in a pseudo-barn to have crabs, rats, bats, cats and lizards 12. whats a turn off you look for before you start officially dating someoneSomeone who’s very ‘my way or the high way’. (My mum’s a lot like this and it’s caused me to try to constantly be appeasing. But with my mental illness I’ve gotten a lot more irritated by it.) Or someone that is a bit too mean I’m joking about people to the point where you don’t know if they’re serious. (I have this problem a lot with ‘friends’ and it leads to a lot of doubts and depression.) Also highly argumentative people who want to seem better than you and debate everything you say. (Just...ew.)13. what is a misconception you had about lgbt people before you realized you were one?I live in a homophobic family, so I used to think gay was a swear word lmao. I was told that we were unnatural, burning in hell, hypersexual, all that shit. Issues on trans people were even worse, and back when I considered the possibility of me being a trans man (while I experience dysphoria In my body I don’t think I would ID as a man- at the time I didn’t know what agender identities were) I was made to feel like it was the worst thing ever or that it didn’t exist that everyone was just straight and ‘normal’ 14. what is a piece of advice you would give to your younger selfDon’t pretend you’re aroace to hide who you are, you’re autistic but that’s okay just don’t overwhelm yourself, try to do things to the best you can. Also toxic feminity/masculinity is bullshit don’t feel guilty about wearing anything. You’re gay it’s so much easier now and don’t let people dictate of make you defend yourself 15. (if attracted to more than one gender) do you have different “types” for different genders?Lmao nah. There is always that awkward moment when you think you see a hot butch but then he’s a twink. Bamboozled again. 16. who is an ex you regret?A few years ago I was forced into a relationship with some rude ass dude who ignored that I ID’d as aroace at the time. I guess at the time I had some comp het so I think that’s why I went along with it? It was kinda some toxic shit like nothing nsfw but he was just a huge dick that went off at the slightest disagreement and I’m glad I got rid of that trash lmao17. night club gay or cafe gay?Cafe gay by far!!! Well I’ve never been to a night club, but I’m someone who gets overwhelmed by loud noises and people, so it wouldn’t be the place for me. Cafes are relaxing18. who is one person you would “go straight” forNo one lmao, The only possibility of slightly me becoming straight is like a fictional character19. video game gay, book gay, or movie gay?Books and video game gay! There needs to be more gaymes, but books are good I just have less time to read them as opposed to gaymes which I can do whenever 20. favourite gay ship (canon or not)Probably RenMerry from Touhou! These two mean a lot to me, and got me into the series that helped me realise I was a lesbian! These two just work so well together that I strive to have a relationship like that- a slightly bickery old couple with the freshness of new adventure tied together with a love that will never fade away even as it transcends borders~21. favourite gay youtuberDon’t really have one. I’m not really into the British youtuber scene and the ones that I do sub don’t really talk about their sexuality or not (I think sailor j might be bi? But that’s about it) I usually watch comedy channels or vocaloid covers. Actually Oktavia’s Gay, yeah let’s go with her. Her voice is amazing and made me realise how much I love deep voices22. have you ever unknowingly asked out a straight person?Ahbkowejkboesh I’ve had crushes on straight people that I’ve wanted to hang out with but no of course not I’m too shy for that shit23. have you ever been in love?Yes! And I’m still doing so right now! 24. have you ever been heartbroken?While in a relationship? No. But like the whole ‘falling in love with a straight girl senpai and then everyone tells her that you have a crush on her which causes you to be distant to each other leading you to cry copiously at her graduation and never truly repairing your friendship which is all you ever wanted and never being able to talk to her again?’ ...y yeah 25. how do you determine if you want to be them or be with someoneHonestly I try to make a distinction between ‘people I have crushes on’ and ‘people I would date’ bc yeah someone might be cute but dating is another story. I’m someone who varies a lot in style (as someone who may possibly be gender fluid or agender but hasnthad the opportunity to explore that for family reasons) 26. favourite lgbt musician/bandUhhh Queen I guess? Idk I need more gay shit recommend me please. Queen is quality shit though 27. what is a piece of advice you have for young / baby gaysDon’t ever feel the need to apologise or defend you being gay. Be happy even if other people aren’t about you. If you’re autistic chances are you’ll question your identity, don’t worry about it and just love who you love. If you’re a lesbian especially don’t apologise or feel you have to be in a certain role to ‘be truly gay’ and also please ask people out otherwise you’ll never get anywhere- all lesbians are useless and I got lucky shjgowkgowlgr. But above all, don’t feel guilty and have fun exploring yourself and fleshing our who you are, even if you can’t always show that out loud. 28. are you out? if so how did you come outI’m not out to any family member (I say that I’m aroace but they believe I’m straight despite jokes on the contrary) but pretty much everyone that isn’t a complete stranger knows. I can’t help but talk adoringly over my girlfriend so it just happens. Otherwise I go on some spheal about homophobic bullshit dropping hints that I’m gay before saying I’m gay. It’s led to some shittalking and other various bullshit but I don’t give a fuck anymore 29. what is the most uncomfortable / strange coming out experience you have Believing I was aroace and my friends saying that i was in denial of being gay. I was like ‘lmao Domi’s just a friend I lowkey have a crush on her but she’s just being nice :^)’ then like a week later burst through the door like BITCH GUESS WHOS GAY FOR HER GIRLFRIEND 30. what is a piece of advice for people who may not be in a safe place to express their sexualityEvaluate the consequences of coming out. While I live in a homophobic family, Australia is somewhat accepting and there’s no conversion therapy to my knowledge at least (there are highly fundamentalist Christian groups but I’m not sure if they include forms of violence) Especially if you are in an anti-gay country or an area where you could be persecuted, I think it’s important to be out to at least one person you know who supports you. It could be online or a friend that you know you could trust (if you don’t know if you could try subtly bring it up and see their reaction, but better safe than sorry.) because it’s hard to go through this entirely alone. While it’s important to be unapologetic of who you are, it’s more important to protect yourself- this doesn’t make you wrong, but the people who make you feel wrong wrong.
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jaynaneeya · 6 years
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Happy Holidays, @roxymoron101! It’s your Secret Santa. Sorry I’m posting this so late in the day...I got kind of carried away and it turned out a bit longer than I intended. Hope you like this post-epilogue Wellenore fic!
Prompt:  Wellenore Fake dating! (Maybe someone told family about having a bf/gf and now the family wants to meet them for Xmas)
Christmas preparations were in full swing at Edgar Allan Poe’s house when science-fiction-writer-turned-time-traveling-ghost HG Wells arrived on December 23rd. HG suspected that it was the first time that this or any other holiday had been celebrated there. Edgar wasn’t really the celebrating type. But his ghost girlfriend, Annabel Lee, certainly was, and the way she lit up with joy at even the mention of lights and ornaments was enough to melt any Scrooge’s heart. She had recruited HG, in addition to all of their other ghost friends, to help turn Edgar’s bleak mansion into the most festive home in Baltimore.
As soon as HG Wells walked through the door, Annabel thrust a coil of lights into his arms. “Mr. Wells, will you please wrap these around the handrail of the main staircase?” she requested.
“Certainly,” he agreed, relieved that his first assignment was relatively simple, and he set to work. So engrossed was he in his task that he didn’t notice that he wasn’t alone.
“Hey, Costco Optical,” a voice behind him said so suddenly that HG jumped, lost his balance, and fell down the stairs. Ghosts were subject to far more laws of physics than he would have liked, but at least he couldn’t get hurt. Laying on his back on the floor, he looked up to the top of the staircase to see a horrified Lenore, who, unbeknownst to him, had just experienced an unpleasant flashback to the night of his demise.
“Sorry, HG, I didn’t mean to startle you.” She hurried down the stairs and helped him to his feet.
“That’s quite all right, Lenore. I’d hoped that as a ghost I’d be less clumsy, but alas…”
They looked at one another awkwardly for a few moments. Neither of them knew what to say. They’d seen quite a bit of each other since HG’s death, but rarely without at least three other ghosts present. Apparently, HG had been the first one to unlock the mystery of time travel, and he’d been showing others the secret. Lenore often tagged along, even after she’d learned to move through time without his assistance. They’d walked with dinosaurs and some strange futuristic creatures they had no name for, watched empires and nations form and crumble, and tried (unsuccessfully) to stop people they knew were about to become evil dictators, but through it all, they had spent no more than a few minutes alone together. HG always invited as many ghosts as he could because he knew Lenore thrived in large groups. Lenore knew HG was trying to take in as much of the past and future as he could, and she didn’t want to distract him from the only thing that made him happy to be dead, so she spent most of their trips talking to the others.
Finally, HG broke the silence. “What did you want to talk to me about?”
“Oh, right. I just wanted to know if you had any Christmas plans.”
“Well, Edgar and Annabel invited me to join them. As you know, my family…” He trailed off. Lenore knew. His family didn’t like ghosts and had tried to exorcise him when he visited them.
“I just thought you might want to spend Christmas with me. My parents wanted to bring me back, so they’re totes cool with ghosts.”
HG didn’t know what to say. Why did she want to spend Christmas with him? She never seemed to want to talk to him on their time traveling adventures.
Before HG had time to say anything, Lenore spoke again. “Also…I kind of might have told them that I have a boyfriend…”
HG had never seen her look so embarrassed. She wasn’t exactly blushing – he wasn’t sure if ghosts could blush – but she was staring at the floor when she normally had no trouble meeting anyone’s eyes. He didn’t understand. “You have a boyfriend? Is it John Proctor?”
“Ugh, no, I don’t have a boyfriend, that’s the problem! I mean, yes, John Proctor is totally hot, but he’s also totally not into me, so that was never going to work.”
HG was still confused. “So why did you tell your parents you had a boyfriend if you’re not dating John Proctor?”
“They kept bugging me about it. They were all like, ‘What did we even bring you back for? What are you doing with your afterlife? Why don’t you settle down instead of always time traveling and haunting the creepy raven enthusiast?’ I got so sick of it I told them I was seeing someone, and they asked to meet him, so…” She fought the urge to roll her eyes at his still blank face. He really could be remarkably clueless for the guy who discovered time travel. “So, will you come with me to my parents’ and pretend to be my boyfriend? Just for Christmas,” she added quickly. “My parents are totally used to my relationships only lasting a few days anyway. I wouldn’t have been surprised if one of them had died of shock on my wedding day instead of…anyway, I can tell them we broke up if they ask about you again. But hopefully if you come over for Christmas dinner, that will get them off my back for the time being. So will you do it?”
To HG’s immense surprise, his immediate reaction was disappointment that she wasn’t asking him on a real date. Then he mentally shook himself. He wasn’t sure how he felt about Lenore, he reminded himself. He enjoyed her company, certainly, and he cared about her, but he didn’t think he’d be able to handle dating her. Some of her slang made more sense now that he’d started time traveling, but he still had trouble figuring out when she was joking. And as she had said herself, her relationships usually only lasted a few days anyway. If they dated and broke up, it would ruin their friendship. So he should be relieved, he told himself, that she was only asking him to be her temporary pretend boyfriend. But he couldn’t quite convince himself. Lenore was waiting for his answer. For a moment, he considered responding with, “I’d rather go as your actual boyfriend,” but the words changed before they got to his mouth, and what he said instead was, “Why me?”
Lenore had watched him carefully as he was pondering her offer, but his expression was unreadable. She tried to respond in a way that would minimize his discomfort but maximize the possibility of a favorable outcome. “Um, because you’re one of my best friends and I thought you probably didn’t have any Christmas plans. Unless you’re, like, desperate to be around that all day.” She rolled her eyes and nodded her head toward something behind his shoulder. He whirled around to see Edgar and Annabel under a sprig of mistletoe. He hastily averted his eyes. “I mean, you don’t have to come with me if you don’t want to,” Lenore was saying, “I just thought it might be more fun than watching the continued blossoming of the love that’s more than love, or whatever.”
“Of course, Lenore. I’d be honored to be your fake boyfriend for Christmas,” he heard himself say.
The Lady Ghost looked happier than he could ever remember seeing her. “Great! Meet you at 4pm on Christmas Day in front of town hall? My parents live right near there.”
“It’s a date,” he replied automatically. “A pretend one,” he added hastily.
“There you are!” Lenore exclaimed. “I was afraid you’d decided to blow me off.
HG consulted his pocket watch. “It’s 4:01.”
“I know, but you’re usually so prompt.” She began leading the way toward her parents’ house. “I assumed your secret was that if you were ever running late, you just time traveled.”
He chuckled. “You know I don’t believe in using time travel for personal gain. I’ve always had a knack for arriving on time, even when I was alive. But today I was so focused on trying to finish your present, I lost track for a minute.”
“You didn’t have to give me anything,” she insisted.
“I doubt your parents would believe you were dating someone who wouldn’t even give you a Christmas present,” he pointed out.
“Good thing I got you something, too, or I’d be feeling really awkward right now.”
HG grinned. “So I did have to get you something.”
“No. If you hadn’t, I just wouldn’t have given you your present. Here.” She handed him the bright red and green gift bag she’d been trying to hide behind her back. “Merry Christmas, HG.”
“Thank you. Shall I open it now, or-”
“Now. Somehow I don’t think my family will fully appreciate it.”
He looked inside. “You must be joking!” he exclaimed, pulling out a pair of 23rd-century goggles and immediately slipping them over his eyes. Not only could he now see the world in sharper clarity than he’d ever seen it before, but everything was accompanied by a description. Every tree he looked at had its common and scientific name appear beside it. Each house had a list of all its residents from the time it was built to the time it would be demolished (or the year 2222, whichever was sooner). Of course, taking in the world this way while walking can be quite dangerous, and unsurprisingly HG soon tripped on the uneven pavement. Lenore caught his arm to prevent him from falling. The goggles labeled her Lenore: Lady Ghost, Ghost Lady. “Did you steal these from the future?” he asked, reluctantly removing them so he could concentrate on walking.
“Of course not; I bought them.”
“Where did you get 2222 currency?” he wondered.
“I didn’t. I also didn’t buy them in 2222.”
“But I remember these,” he insisted. “We saw them in 2222.”
“Well, yeah, that’s when they were made, but I got them in 2287 in an antique shop by trading with some other antiques I happened to have.”
“That you stole from Edgar’s house?”
“Oh, please, that guy didn’t go in his attic once the entire time I was haunting him. He’ll never miss a few useless trinkets. That’s not important anyway. Do you like your present?”
“Do you even need to ask? I hope you like yours even half as much.” From inside his jacket he produced a manuscript. “Merry Christmas, Lenore,” he said, handing it to her.
“The Timeless Adventures of Eleanor the Ghost, a novel by H.G. Wells,” Lenore read aloud.
“It’s a working title,” HG explained apologetically. “And it’s only the 17th draft so it’s probably not very good yet, but I wanted you to be the first to read it. It’s the story of a time traveling ghost named Eleanor and her trusty sidekick, G.H. Waters.”
“You wrote a novel about us!” Lenore exclaimed, eagerly flipping through the manuscript.
“Well, sort of about us. That is, I, uh, used some of our experiences as inspiration. But the characters in the story time travel to solve and prevent crimes, which is something I’ve always desired but have never quite achieved.”
“Hey, you got super close to murdering Hitler,” Lenore reminded him. “We’ll have to go back and try again sometime,” she added absent-mindedly, still skimming the manuscript in awe. Sure, Edgar had written that poem with her name in it, but he’d mostly used it as an excuse to write about ravens. HG had written a whole book…
“Are we nearly at your parents’?” HG asked, abruptly breaking her reverie.
“Oh, yeah, it’s the next house.”
HG had been afraid of that. The house she indicated was bursting with people. The front door was open, and even the porch was crowded. As the ghosts crossed the front lawn, someone cried, “It’s Lenore!” and suddenly they were surrounded by people crying, “Merry Christmas!” and “So glad you made it!” and “It’s wonderful to see you!” and “Is this the new beau we’ve heard so little about?”
Lenore spoke louder than all of them. “Everyone, this is HG Wells, my boyfriend.”
“What’s HG stand for?” someone bellowed from inside the house.
“H-H-Herbert George,” he stammered.
There was a snort of derision from the bellower. “What a terrible name.”
“It’s not so bad once you get used to it,” Lenore replied defensively. “Now, will you guys let us in to the house?” She grabbed HG by the hand and they made their way inside.
“I wasn’t expecting quite this many people,” he murmured in her ear.
She looked rather sheepish. “Yeah, sorry, I was afraid if I told you how many relatives I had, you wouldn’t come. But I mean, I didn’t know they’d all be here today.”
“Are you kidding?” asked a young woman who looked a lot like Lenore. “A chance to see our favorite ghost relative and meet her ghost boyfriend? Of course we wouldn’t miss that!”
“Okay, well, here he is. HG, meet my cousin Mary…” And so it began. HG was introduced to at least 20 cousins, a dozen uncles and aunts, a brother who looked remarkably like a mustache-less Edgar, and finally, Lenore’s parents, who had both been busy in the kitchen when they’d first arrived.
“Dinner’s nearly ready,” her mother announced to the whole house before she spotted them. “Ah, Lenore, you made it! And this must be the famous HG Wells! Welcome!”
“Thank you, madam, it’s a pleasure to meet you. And you, sir,” he added, as Lenore’s father appeared beside his wife.
“Mr. Wells, I’ve heard so much about you,” he said, shaking the ghost’s hand. “Sounds like you and Lenore have spent a lot of time together – centuries in fact!” He laughed at his own joke.
“Millenia, technically,” HG added.
“So, HG, we’ve heard a bit about your recent adventures with Lenore, but where did you two meet?”
HG was surprised that Lenore hadn’t told her mother this. “At Edgar Allan Poe’s house.”
“Oh, were you haunting him, too?”
“Why, no, it was at the dinner party.”
“Dinner party?” her mother repeated blankly.
HG looked over at Lenore, perplexed. She was shaking her head at him imploringly. It dawned on him that she hadn’t told her parents about that night, and that she didn’t want them to know about it. It was time to start inventing again. “The dinner party…that Edgar hosts…periodically to reunite dead authors.”
“Interesting. Lenore always complained that he never interacted with people,” her father commented.
“Well, not very often, but sometimes we talk him into it.” HG didn’t think he was being very convincing, but he wasn’t sure what to do about it.
Thankfully, at that moment one of Lenore’s younger cousins whined, “Are we ever gonna get some food around here?” which prompted her parents to hurry back to the kitchen.
HG beckoned Lenore off to the side. “You haven’t told them about the dinner party?” he asked incredulously.
“No, I’m sorry, I should have warned you.”
“You know how terrible I am at thinking on my feet! But more importantly, why don’t you want them to know about it?”
Lenore looked at him like he’d sprouted horns. “Oh yeah, that would be a really great conversation. ‘Hey, Mom and Dad! Remember that guy I was going to marry right before I died, who killed himself before you could bring me back? So it turns out his brother had a desperate thirst for revenge, and he went on a murderous rampage in the house I was haunting to get back at me for causing his brother’s death. It’s all good, though, because most of his victims came back as ghosts, and everything’s fine now!’ Yeah, no, kind of desperate to avoid that chat.”
“Eddie didn’t only do that because of you,” HG pointed out.
“No, but I was a significant contributing factor. And I really don’t want them to think I got you all killed just so I’d have more ghost friends.”
“Who would think that?” he wondered.
“You don’t?”
“Of course not. Did you really think I blamed you for my death?” he asked, but at that moment dinner was served and the whole crowd started moving en masse to the dining room, giving Lenore an excuse not to answer.
The dinner smelled delicious. Two gigantic tables were piled with goose, turkey, ham, roasted vegetables, potatoes, pies of every flavor imaginable…HG piled it on his plate and took a bite. If he concentrated hard enough, he could very nearly almost taste it. He could tell it was scrumptious, but it wasn’t the same.
HG watched Lenore, who was sitting across from him. She looked as though she was thinking similar thoughts as she took her first bite. He began to ponder as he continued to gaze at her. She’d never told him how she felt about that night. Did she really blame herself for his death? It had never occurred to him that what happened was anyone’s fault other than Eddie, Charlotte, and Anne. He didn’t even think Guy’s death was her fault. Eddie had been utterly irrational to blame her for that. She didn’t purposely break his heart, any more than he, HG, had purposely inhaled that smoke…
Suddenly a loud clang interrupted his thoughts. He jumped; so did several other people. All the conversations had stopped, and everyone seemed to be staring at him. He looked down at his plate and realized what must have happened. He’d forgotten to concentrate on holding his fork, and it had fallen through his hand. Sometimes being a ghost was the worst. He wanted to hide under the table. But then there was another clang, and everyone turned to stare at Lenore, who had just dropped her fork as well.
“What?” Lenore asked, picking her fork up and continuing to eat as if nothing had happened. “Oh, sorry I forgot what time period I was in. In the future there’s this custom to always drop your fork after the first bite of a great meal. HG and I just came from there, so we haven’t readjusted yet.”
She winked at him, and for once he understood, though ordinarily he would have been confused by her reference to a tradition that didn’t actually exist. He smiled at her gratefully.
From then on, incredibly, miraculously, despite the surfeit of people, HG had a wonderful evening. Lenore’s relatives kept asking him questions, mostly about him and Lenore, but he found them surprisingly easy to answer. He could come up with dozens of things he liked about her, and several anecdotes about their adventures. But he never felt too much pressure to talk, and the family seemed to understand that he needed to just sit and listen some of the time. But then he found out that Lenore’s father was a bit of a history buff, and the two of them had a long conversation about various events that HG had witnessed in his travels.
Far and away the best parts of the evening for HG were those moments when he caught Lenore’s eye every time someone made an unintentional reference to one of their inside jokes. HG hadn’t realized how many they had. After about the tenth time they looked at each other and chuckled, Lenore’s father commented that he’d never seen her anywhere near as happy as she looked at that moment.
Before HG knew it, the party was breaking up. Lenore kissed her parents goodbye, then slipped her arm through his and together the two ghosts strolled down the street. When they were out of earshot from all of her relatives, she said, “Thanks HG. That was fun.”
“It was,” he agreed, chuckling nervously. “Certainly the best pretend date I’ve ever been on.”
“Yeah, me too.”
He took a deep breath and summoned all his courage. “Perhaps we should try a real date sometime.”
She stopped walking. He couldn’t look at her, terrified that he’d gone too far. But then she responded with the most beautiful four words he had ever heard: “Does tomorrow night work?”
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bioniiic · 7 years
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all the valentine questions ;))
im only doing this because its you
1: Do you have a crush at the moment?yes on my gf beeb 2: Have you ever been deeply in love?i am right now oops 3: Longest relationship you’ve ever been in?almost a year4: Have you ever changed for someone?i have bpd fuck u think 5: How is your relationship with your ex?its alright we dont talk much but she’s nice 6: Have you ever been cheated on?no7: Have you ever cheated?no !!! never will8: Would you date someone who’s well known for cheating?probably not im wayyyyy too paranoid for that 9: What’s the most important part of a relationship?its cliche but its true so trust n communication. n not fucking abusing each other oh my GOD10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?ive only been in one serious relationship n i plan on keeping it so. the first one 11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on “breaks”?maybe??? i probably wouldn’t be able to if i went on a beak w someone and they started like seeing other people and then wanted to come back like nar 12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?none ! 13: What’s one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?being too clingy 14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?i mean. technically when they’re ready. but like as long as they’re educated and safe and doing it w someone their age ig15: Do you believe in the phrase “age is just a number”? yea as in if ur old u dont have to let it hold u back from doing fun things like climbing a fuckin mountain but NOT WITH SEX AND RELATIONSHIPS fuck no date someone in yr own age range. at least if ur a fucking child. if ur an adult do what u want just don’t date children 16: Do you believe in “love at first sight”?i have no idea 17: Do you believe it’s possible to fall in love on the internet?i did ? so yes 18: What do you consider a deal breaker?if they’re. smelly n mean19: How do you know it’s time to end a relationship?when theyre not talking to you w the same spark as they used to and they’re always making you feel useless and clingy. when ur the only thing holding it together 20: Are you currently in a relationship?yes !!21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?maybe ? very much depends 22: Do you think people should date their friends?its honestly none of my business. like. i did. but if u break up it might be a lot harder because you are really close n have a bond23: How many relationships have you had?224: Do you think love can last forever?yes!! the lil cute old ppl who are still in love that’s who i wanna be25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?no but i wont get into that26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn’t approve of?no ??? thats rlly not their place 27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?breathe. take it easy n stop worrying all the time 28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?yes but they’re so so so hard :;:((29: What do you notice first about another person?their voice?? their hands n their eyes30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?this is v binary but im pan !31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?not at all im literally a mess if they can deal with me i can deal w them 32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?no33: Do you want to get married one day?some day in a long time maybe. but im a child of DIVORCE ok im v cynical about marriage 34: What do you think about getting your partner’s name tattooed?don’t do it idc how long u think ur gonna be together stop it35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?im in a ldr. yes36: Are you still a virgin?yea37: What’s more important: Looks or personality?personality!! but im not gonna sit here n say looks aren’t important like u have seen my girlfriend a true 10 38: Do you enjoy love films?there are films i appreciate more but ill watch them39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?no40: Have you ever had a valentine?i mean. kinda 41: What’s your imagination of a “perfect date”?DOING NOTHING 42: Have you ever read “Romeo & Juliet”?no i watched the leonardo dicaprio one though43: What’s more important: Your partner or your friends?go away. BOTH44: Would you consider yourself “romantic”?im a Pisces i eat that shit up45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?no46: Have you ever been “friendzoned”?no also its not real 47: Which “famous couple” is your favorite?barack and michelle obama. idc. iconic. 48: What’s your favorite love song?the first song that came to mind was love at first sight by the brobecks HFJDJNC so i guess that 49: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?i hope not 50: If you’re single, why do you think you are?not51: Would you rather date someone who’s rich but a douchebag or someone who’s poor but a nice guy?poor but nice wtf ??? unless its my sugar daddy n he’s dying anyway id just. u know 52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?i hope i am,,,,,because i give a lot of it53: Are you jealous of couples when you’re single?when i was yes54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on Facebook)?not at all. but like if u want. but that’s not the actual way to make it official,,,, fuckin youths 55: Would you consider yourself “clingy”, “overly attached” or “jealous”?ALL OF THE ABOVE56: Have you ever “destroyed” a relationship?probably 57: Do you think it’s silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?no but dont do it though 58: Are you the “dominant” or the “submissive” part in a relationship?,,,,,dominant. in all the matters am i right ladies 59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner’s birthday or your anniversary?i dont think so 60: What’s your opinion on open relationships?do what u gotta do 61: Who’s more important: Your partner or your family?my family is literally A SHIT so right now id rather spend some time w my girl62: How do you define “cheating”?everything from talking romantically/sexually w someone else to fucking them. flirting counts boo63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?HFJDJFN OF COURSE NOT 64: Do you think Valentine’s Day is overrated?a little. but its cute 65: Would you consider yourself a “cuddler”?i cuddle everything n everyone i wish i was cuddling right now
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onlyaburrito · 7 years
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This is the longest dream of my life sorry
I got on a train idk where I was going but I was excited about it. I ended up making a friends with a couple other passengers bc there were only about 10 people on the train and they were all around my age. At one point I did something that upset one of them (I can’t remember what it was) and even though I apologized they were super mad. After a while of chilling with my new pals, one of their boyfriends comes up to me (his name was AXEL CAN U BELIEVE THAT) and he starts yelling at me and swinging fists. My friends were shocked and just stood around for a lil bit before intervening. Bc of that incident half of the passengers were in a different area from me and my friends, except for the gf of axel but I understood her reasoning. The train stopped right outside of a town, not at a station, and hysteria took over the minds of the passengers as they were convinced BY THAT DOUCHEBAG AXEL that there was a virus loose in the city that turns people into insects. My first reaction was to play along with it for a bit, but soon realized that it needs to stop before it gets out of control. But, Being someone that has ‘wronged two members of the group,’ no one believed me that it was bullshit. Everyone grabbed weapons, mostly old pipes and broomsticks, and created little hideout rooms on the train to sleep in. I just stayed in a seating area with a pipe below one of the seats in case one of the others tried to attack me. Axel and his lady, having shown testosterone filled angry dominance and control over the situation, took a full room and built a full size bed inside. They had little lights strung up the walls and it actually looked pretty cool. The other /less important/ passengers built their bunks similarly to mine except most had overhead protection made of wood, blankets, or some other material that shouldn’t be on a train but is anyway. Hours after building preparing ourselves for our new life on the train, I pull out a small camera to document whatever was about to go down. You know, for security and artistic purposes. Whatever. Later we we’re in a l conference area and axel was at the front going over plans of attack if someone infected boards the train, supply collection, and ground rules about entering his cabin. The kid couldn’t have been older than 22 years old and acted as if he had been in the army since birth. He was scary. I was terrified of him and he already didn’t like me, and I wasn’t even sure why. When it came time to go out and get supplies I was left in the train bc axel didn’t trust me to not run off and do something stupid. And also bc i have 0 upper body strength and if something went wrong I’d just end up being dead weight. He had a point there. So I was left on the train with about 5 other people, including his gf. I kept forgetting her name at the time but I’m p sure her name is asia. She was a smallish girl with blue hair and glasses. The looks of a girl that loves tumblr but the personality of someone that spends too much time outside. Among the others were nameless individuals with very different personalities and styles. Who could forget Terrified Ginger Kid, Smarty Pants Glasses Girl, Alternative Rock Punk Chick, and Axels Leftover Henchman With No Social Skills At All. A good bunch of kids. While the ground team was out robbing a Costco I decided there was no better time than now to do a lil bit of interviewing with the passengers. You know, for my art project. I asked them how they were doing, if they were armed, and if they actually believe they’re in danger of being attacked by an undead insect person. They all seemed pretty scared and ill prepared for any fighting. I stated to think maybe I was the crazy one, and society had actually fallen and we were some of the lucky few to have been contained in travel at the time. Axel and his bad boys arrived back at the train with a bunch of useless college boy supplies. You got ur beer and chips and shit like that. Stuff that wouldn’t be that much of use if we were on the brink of death, as he says we are. — Days had passed and we were still on this train. Having no power sources we all had to turn off all our electronics to save them for an opportunity to make contact with someone for help. We sat in a dark conference room all day barely talking to each other. Axel walked out of his room carrying a golden pipe that he claimed was his staff. He walked over to me and hit me in the neck. I was just like “what the FUCK” and he said “stay away from Asia. I don’t want you messing around with her.” I responded “me messing around with ur girl should be the least of your problems right now, considering the situation were in.” He lunged at me one last time then backed off. I left the room and documented what had just happened. You know, to use against him in a Court Of Law bc he’s crazy and holding me and everyone else in a train against our will. Where was the conductor even at? Did they just disappear? Who cares at this point. Everyone in the group was afraid to talk to me now, except for Asia. God knows why she would still talk to me. Scared ginger boy was especially afraid, leaving the room each time I’d enter. Really broke my heart. I love scared ginger boys. —– The next day Smart Glasses Girl was missing. This was troubling bc she was one of the few people aboard the train that I saw as at least moderately sane. No one seemed to notice though, she was just a nameless background character in our story. I documented her disappearance and grabbed a few stashed electronics to try and contact her. After a few failed attempts contact was made and I finally found out for sure that the virus wasn’t real, and axel was essentially kidnapping us all to start some kind of post-apocalyptic-with-no-apocalypse- society. I had to get out. I assume the people that went with axel to gather supplies are either too stupid to realize nothing was happening, or were in on it from the start. That doesn’t explain the disappearance of the conductor, unless he’s in on it too. In that case this is some kind of conspiracy and someone in my half of the group is wanted by /someone/. But which one of us? And by who are they wanted? I couldn’t leave until I figured it out. My security art project depends on it. A story with no ending is useless. I asked Glasses Girl to do some research on every passenger for me and apologized for her not having a name. She said it was ok and started doing her research and said she should be ready with the information by the next morning. I deleted everything we had said to each other after documenting it, and turned off the phone I was using and put it back where I found it. —– Axel walked into the conference room holding his staff and said that a few people had gone missing. He only noticed because they were His people that followed him blindly. Having no other choice, he told Scared Ginger Boy to stay with Asia as the rest of us went out for supplies. He said he wanted someone a little more capable of defending themselves and others to protect his precious lady, but he wouldn’t Dare leave her alone with me. I have no idea why he was convinced something was going on between us, we were just pals and I have respect for relationships, even if I hate their partner. Having the revelation of how abusive he must be to her shocked me. I couldn’t believe I didn’t see it sooner. He treated her as a trophy instead of a human being. —– Once we got out of the train, Axel developed a bad Australian accent and told us to follow him closely. I of course, documented the excursion. Because if I died during all this I want some found footage movie to be made in my honor. And to show how crazy this dude is. We walked through what appeared to be an abandoned town and found a house with no one inside. I stayed outside to 'keep watch’ as the others went in and grabbed stuff. I felt ok with this bc I technically wasn’t robbing someone’s house, only standing outside and recording the crime through the windows. That made it ok. After a little while they all ran out of the house screaming. Apparently they spotted a roach on the floor and risked coming in contact with the virus. How did he convince these people of this? WHERE is the conductor? —– When we arrived back at our train commune, Ginger Boy was nowhere to be found. Asia said he had freaked out and ran outside. As some of the others looked for him, I got the phone I’d used the day before to contact Smarty Pants. She said she didn’t find anything of interest on anyone. As I was about to send her another message, axel walked in and grabbed the phone and smashed it with his pipe. What a dickhead. He told me to go back to the conference room or he’d smash my face in next. Nice! —– In the days that followed, more and more people went missing. It got down to just four people. Axel, Asia, me, and a kid with terrifying eyes. I think his name started with an S? Salamander? Idk but that’s good enough. Scary eyed Salamander boy had something off about him. Some kind of bad vibe. The type of kid to beat someone up for looking at him wrong. The type of kid to blindly follow orders. The perfect army recruit. Axel walked into the room, wielding his staff as usual, and sat down. Just then, we heard voices outside the train. He jumped up and told us all to hide and that he’d handle whatever it was. He opened the train door and someone yelled “hey!” He closed the door and ran back to where we all were hiding and told us to grab weapons. The voice could still be heard outside asking “What are you doing in there? How long has this train been sitting here? Do you need help?” The door opened and the guy walked in. Axel ran right at him and hit him in the head with his precious pipe and the dude fell to the floor unconscious. Nice! —– I decided that this had gone on long enough. Not only had this kid held us in here, but he also assaulted and essentially kidnapped this other dude too. He was tied up in a storage room. It was night time and the others were sleeping so I decided to go let him out and leave the train. I approached the door and prepared the makeshift knife to release him. Just then axel and lil salamander ran up to me and started beating me with pipes. Then I woke up the end
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