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teledild0nix · 3 years

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Fic Writer Questions! (you can find me here on AO3 if you're interested!)

tagged by dear @theburialofstrawberries mwah!

1) How many works do you have on AO3?

112 yowza!

2) What’s your total AO3 word count?

750,421 kinda tempted to go delete one word so it can be 750420 which is a far more Pleasing number

3) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

12ish but some of them overlap: BBCS/Sherlock Holmes/ACD (these are all different bc my bbcs fics are not the same as my own modern fem Sherlock Holmes adaptation are not the same as my ACD Holmes fic; Good Omens; Harry Potter/The Werewolf Draco Malfoy Cinematic Universe; Captive Prince; The Hobbit; Fleabag (it was a crossover with BBCS but Fleabag is the perspective character so it still counts as a separate fandom imo); Doctor Who; The Office; Parks and Rec; Broad City (one a piece for those last 5 but I AM going to write a Parks and Rec polycule fic for @gaykagome)

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

They're all Good Omens fics from the 2019 Summer of Good Omens! Susceptible to Summer, Fragments Shored Against My Ruin, Something So Magic, Enter Serpent, and Anything We Like

All of those have over 2k except the last one, but average engagement for me is like 400 kudos or so

5) Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I try! It depends on what's going on with me. Sometimes I just don't have the energy, and I figure people would rather I spend my brain power on writing new fics than on writing replies to comments. Wish I had a fave button tho so I could let people know I read and reread comments, because I do!

6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Oh I wrote this ficlet series called A Chemical Defect about John and Sherlock's relationship in s3 of BBCS, and it's WILDLY unpopular. People don't read my fic to cry sad tears I guess! John and Sherlock are having an affair in the story, and it ends with the implication that their relationship is unsustainable and that Mary knows about it anyway. I intended to come back to it after s4 and write a more optimistic ending but LOL! Didn't have the heart.

7) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

I know this answer is kinda up my own ass, but like. I think stories that feel true to life sort of feel like they end on a beginning if you know what I mean? You don't really consider a chapter of your life closed until you look back on it from the next? SO that said, I think I'd have to say that it's my big BBCS serial The Only One in the World. I spent 2 years writing it, and it ends with John retiring from medicine to solve crimes and write books full time.

Could also be my WDMCU (werewolf Draco Malfoy cinematic universe) series Moonrise, which starts with Draco isolated in his abusive mother's house, trying to cope with lycanthropy essentially alone and ends with him in love and surrounded by found family in a cozy cottage in Hogsmeade, having gotten some lycanthrope rights legislation passed after working at it for years and talking to Harry about whether they want to have kids. Oh man I feel warm and fuzzy just thinking about it

8) Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

I have written one crossover. It's BBCS/Fleabag, because me and @loudest-subtext-in-tv were laughing about how John seems like one of the horrible guys Fleabag sleeps with basically out of self loathing, so I wrote this fic to make Nattie laugh, and you should read it bc it's so good and so underrated.

9) Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not really, but people don't seem to know that authors can read bookmark tags unless you private the bookmark, and someone once put in the bookmark tag on one of my fics 'writing was meh but it was okay.' Okay so why bookmark it then??

10) Do you write smut? If so what kind?

Fuck yes! I'm not sure what 'what kind?' means? People fucking? Sloppy, silly, and awkward, with lots of laughing. I also really like writing afterglow scenes which are even sillier and gigglier and often involve one character cooking for another. Food as love language is a very distinct pattern of mine tbh

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I'm aware of, but occasionally I'll write a post on here where I make some elaborate head canon, and I'll see people in the tags talking about how they want to write fic of it, and it makes me breathe fire out of my nose like a dragon like PLEASE DON'T. The WDMCU came out of a ficlet post I made on here like a year before I actually wrote the 60k series so like!!! Please don't do that!

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! To Russian and I believe Chinese. Not my entire oeuvre but a handful of BBCS and Good Omens fics

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No, but I wrote a fic inspired by an RP I did with my gf right around when we met (actually now that I think about it, it's two fics), and I waaaaaaanna do a WDMCU collab with my beloved Sally @clytemenestras at some point if he has time bc he inspired me to even write werewolf draco with his original lesbian werewolf story

14) What’s your all time favorite ship?

favorites are hard for me? I always think I'm currently doing my best writing lol so I'll say drarry

15) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

I don't post fics unless theyre finished, so I don't have any WIP up on AO3, but I did intend to continue with my fem Sherlock Holmes series, Your Many Tendencies. I just haven't been in a Holmes mood for a long time. Maybe I'll come back to it idk. This particular series is honestly very unpopular? People will just straight up say they don't read femslash, and it hurts a lot. This series feels really personal too, bc it's about a Black autistic nonbinary lesbian, so it does hurt my feelings that no one seems to care, yknow? I mean the people who read it are extremely kind and thoughtful in their engagement with it, but it has vastly less engagement than my m/m fic, and that's painful. It gets literally 1/10 the attention my fics usually get.

16) What are your writing strengths?

Almost all of my writing is romance, but I tend to write concurrently about recovery and found family, and I think I'm very good at doing that in a way that connects with my audience. I once had someone ask if they could use my words in their wedding vows, and I've had people tell me they started doing things with their spouse that my characters do with their partners in order to express love. I think about that all the time. My Impact. It makes me feel like I have a real duty to my audience yknow?

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

This question is hard for me like I've been writing so long and so much that I'm literally always happy with my final draft! It's always exactly to my taste, yknow? I suppose I could say that my fics tend not to be terribly plotty but so WHAT? That's beside the fuckn point for me. Plot who? I don't know Her. Also honestly like. Stories feel more True to me when they aren't ruthlessly devoted to plot bc like life isn't like that yknow?

18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

If you're not fluent in that language, get a beta who is!!!!! That said, I have written scraps of very simple dialogue in French using mostly Google Translate (sometimes I check w Sally bc he speaks French but I am usually too impatient), and I am perfectly well aware that I take my life in my hands each time!!! Also don't do that bullshit thing where it's in italics? That shit is weird and exoticizing. Just write it in quotation marks like normal dialogue.

19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?

BBCS babey back in 2012. Ended a 5 year dry spell for me after I got my writing degree.

20) What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Hmmmm I think it's probably gonna be the fic I'm working on now that I haven't posted yet, but I know it's called Names for a House, and here's a tiny bit of it

Thanks again Shreya for asking me to do this bc I really love talking about myself. I tag @the-moon-loves-the-sea, @clytemenestras, @tomiano, @gaykagome and @totallysilvergirl

No pressure <3

#sherlock stuff #ask games #apliddell #if y'all wanna send me asks about names for a house #or anything else i mentioned here #they would be welcome

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thesmokingguns · 3 years

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Wendy and The Lost Boys

Chapter 7

Sasha ran down the sorority stairs headed to the phone where she had been told there was a call for her. Usually it was just Tommy’s mother asking her to come home for the weekend or sometimes Len would call to go out. But it was the Thursday before she took her last final and she was trying to cram in as much study time as she could. Len knew this because he had come by earlier with takeout for her to have and a promise that he’d take her dancing tomorrow night. Which she had to say no to despite wanting to go out. It had to be Tommy’s mother, she decided as she slid on the couch. She probably wanted her help in the kitchen and to teach her how to cook some more.

“Hello?” She greeted the person, sliding into the chair next to the phone. Her head was swimming from the rereading of her notes. She had been in the sorority house since this morning. After she had finished her history exam she had locked herself up to try and get ready for the English exam in the morning. She was ready to be done with this semester and have the month off before going back in June. Sasha was planning on spending time at the Lee family house on her break and she was ready to hear about what she’d be cooking this upcoming week.

“Hey, Angel.” The sound of Nikki’s voice threw her off. He had never called her at school. She was always the one showing up at the apartment or shows. They would make plans when she was with him but hearing his voice on the phone was new. She had been so sure it was Tommy’s mother, “We’re all going out tonight and I wanted to see if you’d come along. I can come pick you up?” he offered.

“I have to take a final tomorrow that’s half my grade.” She explained feeling like an idiot. There were times like this where she felt like a kid. “But I’ll be at the show tomorrow night.” It was his birthday tomorrow and despite him not saying anything to anyone about it she had made sure she placed an order at the bakery for a cake and was going to head over to see him before she had to take her final at noon.

“Such a good girl staying in to study.” He teased her, making her roll her eyes, “How is studying going?” She looked at the receiver and wondered what was going on that made him want to talk to her. Nikki and her had rules to the thing that was going on between them. They did things like couples might do, like go out together to the movies or last week when they had gone shopping together. He had been so patient as she tried clothes on and it was like he liked having a say in her everyday life. She had been able to figure out a couple gifts for his birthday as well; Sasha was set on making this day special for him.

“I feel really stupid.” She admitted tucking her knees under her chin and lighting a cigarette, “I just don’t know if I’m smart enough to be here. I’ve been a mess taking tests all week. I never had trouble in school before so it’s weird trying so hard.” It was the first time she verbalized her fears and the way she took a breath after made her realize how much she needed to talk about it.

“Don’t worry. You’re the smartest person I know. I’m sure you’re going to do great, Angel.” She loved how Nikki always called her Angel. Since he wasn’t a sentimental person, the fact he had given her a nickname mattered. Usually Nikki just referred to girls as babes of babe. But when he saw Sasha and got to meet her it was different.

*Flashback January 20 1981*

Nikki was waiting for the drummer to meet him at the apartment but the kid was running late. He had to work tonight and scheduled an afternoon practice on purpose so he could get there on time. As if he knew that Nikki was getting mad, the drummer burst into the apartment with a blonde girl behind him wearing a school uniform. Nikki did a double take to the girl that was trailing behind Tommy. Her white shirt was tucked into a plaid skirt she had rolled shorter so it hit her thighs instead of her knees, knee high white socks and white Keds that looked like they were fresh out of the box. She was holding a sweater in her hand despite it being chilly out. Her blonde hair was down, ucked behind her ears, and she was laughing as she took a drag of a cigarette.

“Sorry, dude, had to make a quick pit stop to break this delinquent out of school.” She rolled her eyes at Tommy, turning to look at the skinny bassist who seemed pissed off at the pair of them. He glared at her as she threw her sweater on the couch before sitting on it like she didn’t want to catch whatever was on there.

“You shouldn’t show up to practice late with your girlfriend. That isn’t what I’m looking for in someone serious about the band.” He was in a bad mood and didn’t need an audience brought to the apartment that was supposed to be for the band they were forming. Sasha scrunched her nose as she looked up from where she had been digging in her bag..

“Ew, Dream On!” The way she used the slang made Nikki want to roll his eyes. Obviously, she was a teenager like the idiot drummer, “ Tommy’s not my boyfriend. That’s super gross.” She said watching Tommy laugh as he settled behind his drum kit. They were thick as thieves so whenever anyone thought they dated it was just a weird place for either of them to imagine being.

“She’s like my sister, dude. My mom would legit kill us both. Though she’s going to kill you for cutting class.” Tommy said pointing a drumstick at her. She shrugged toeing off her shoes and tucking her feet under her. It was just great that she was making herself completely at home, NIkki thought sarcastically.

“You have been talking up this band so let’s hear what you boys got.” Nikki didn’t like loud mouth girls and she seemed to be the type to always have an opinion. The way that her blue eyes were twinkling, amused at his frustration was just setting him off more. He nodded at Tommy and they started jamming. He didn’t know why he kept looking up at her to see how she was responding to the music. She was quiet watching them both as if she just wanted to take in what she was seeing. It was good that she didn’t interrupt them because Nikki was sure that he would yell at her. A half hour later the guys were high fiving. Nikki moved to the fridge grabbing beers and tossing one to the drummer. He looked at the girl smoking on the couch, she had gotten a book from somewhere and was reading it, no longer interested in what the guys were up to..

“Hey,” she didn’t look up at him, only took another drag of her cigarette, turning the page to her book. Her Catholic school girl skirt was bunched up around her legs showing a lot of skin and he wasn’t sure how he should feel about seeing all of that. She looked young, maybe 15-16 at the most and he felt weird looking at her, thinking about what was under that uniform. “Hey, Angel.” He said the name teasingly over the uniform she was wearing but when she looked up at him smirking she might as well have been an Angel. She almost knocked him on his ass flashing him such a smile.

“Yes, Lucifer?” He tossed her a beer, smiling that she could give it back to him when teased and because the way she looked with that toothy grin he couldn’t help himself. “Thanks.” He watched her tap the top before cracking it open. Nikki was getting ready to make fun of her but she tipped the can to her mouth gulping it down and licking her lips turning to look at him after chugging the beer in under a minute. Maybe she wasn’t as young as he originally thought she was, “Your beer is flat.” She said crushing the can and turning to look back at her book, “When can we leave?” She asked Tommy without looking at him. The drummer liked how she didn’t give any attention to Nikki. Usually girls were all over him but her indifference was pissing the bassist off and it was visual.

“Have to get you back to the suburbs before your bedtime?” Nikki asked, glaring at the girl. His attitude was back now that she had made fun of the beer he had given to her, Sasha turned to look at him taking in his appearance for a second before nodding as if she was confirming something to herself. She tucked her book back into her bag

“You were the shitty bassist in London. When I lived off the Strip we’d all go watch you open for whatever good band was playing.” He didn’t believe in hitting women but at that point he wanted to slap her mouth but she wasn’t done yet , “God, I hope you don’t write the songs for whatever this is because no one wants to hear the whiny pop songs anymore.” He hated her. He gave Tommy a look and the drummer was making a face at her to stop. “Didn't you give the lead singer's girlfriend The Clap? You were the cause of the big outbreak in the strip last summer.” She stood up from the couch picking up her sweater and shrugging into it and looking at Tommy. “I’m going to wait in the van. Bye Sixx.” The fact she knew so much about him and he didn’t know a thing about her made him madder. He was going to tell Tommy never to bring this creature around him again. He didn't care who she was to him.

“You wait a second, Angel.” He was stalking across the living room the stupid nickname still rolling off his tongue because he hadn’t bothered to ask her name and Angel just fit this little devil. She turned looking at him, this amused bored look on her face as she stared up at him, “I’m not going to let some 14 year old bad mouth me in my own house.” He sneered at her. Tommy was jumping up to break them up but Sasha reached out, her hand caressing Nikki’s cheek. The bassist stiffened under her touch. She wasn’t pawing at him or rubbing against him trying to get something from him. It was this leath like touch on his cheek that was so different from the harsh words she had spoken.

“I’m 17. I’ll be 18 this summer.” She corrected him, her blue eyes locked into his. He felt like he was drowning making direct eye contact with her. She tucked a strand of hair behind his ear and took his cigarette placing it between her lips, “See you soon, Sixx.” She tugged his ear watching the way his eyes widened in confusion before lightening the cigarette and going to wait for Tommy in the van.

*End Flashback*

“I think I’m ready to have sex with you.” She blurted out. Her and Nikki had been fooling around for a few weeks but they hadn’t gone the whole way yet. Since it was his birthday tomorrow she felt like now was a good time. It had been over a year since she had sex so as much as she was worried about it there was a safety in doing it with Nikki.

“Should I come over to your dorm now?” He teased but his mind was racing with what she just told him. He had known that they were building up to it and she was going slower then he had ever done in the past but he was still surprised she was ready for that. Hooking up was one type of intimacy but the thought of being buried inside of her was something different.

“If I wasn’t afraid I’d fail out of school if I didn’t study I’d say yes.” She looked up to see someone walking by looking at the phone she was using, “Tomorrow night after the Whisky will probably be crazy but I can rent a hotel room for Saturday night to give us privacy?” She offered. Losing her virginity had been kind of a shitty experience so now she wanted the bells and whistles she hadn’t gotten. And she was willing to provide them all.

“We can go tomorrow after the show. I’d rather be with you anyway.” He didn’t say this because he just wanted to sleep with her and that made him instantly regret the words. If he let his emotions show too much she was going to get hurt. He liked Sasha but the truth of his life and what would happen always leaked in.

“Well I’ll see you tomorrow night and we can decide. I have to go, Sixx.” She bit her lip wishing she had another pack of smokes down her so she could smoke her anxiety away.

“Angel, if you don’t want to or-“

“I want to, Nikki. See you tomorrow.” She hung up headed to study for the rest of the night and planned what she was going to do the next morning.

Nikki was at the bar drinking with a few of his friends. It was fairly early into the morning at this point and he wanted the get home soon because she was in his head. He had made it very clear to her that he couldn’t date her but he didn’t expect to be the one who couldn’t get her out of his head. It was becoming a problem trying to think when she was the only one on his mind. He couldn’t believe he had called her earlier to come out. And how he was excited to just hear her talking about school and to be there for her. And how she had surprised him at the end. Jesus fucking Christ. Now all he could think about was having sex with her. He knew she hadn’t done anything outside of their hooking up since her ex. And that had been over a year ago now. He was going through all the things he wanted to show her tomorrow night when he felt a hand tap his shoulder. He turned looking at the pretty blonde, who seemed oddly familiar.

“I’m Lita.” She said with a confident smile flashing at him. Usually girls would be looking back for their friends to give them encouraging nods but she didn’t need any of that. He nodded his head.

“Rick.” He had no idea why the fuck he was lying about his name but knew that must mean he was about to get into trouble.

“I have half a Quaalude.” She held up the pill before reaching over and crushing it between her fingers over his drink. Nikki knew at this point he was going to fuck the blonde in front of him. His friends were all giving him these looks and he couldn’t let them down. He downed the drink and gave her an easy smile.

It was a cool LA morning and Sasha had her jeans on for once, tucked inside white high heels boots, a T-shirt she probably stole from one of the guys and this new white leather jacket that Len had given her as an early Christmas gift. She was really unsure of Len and what his angle was with things but the jacket was nice. He had mentioned meeting her after her last exam to talk about something so she agreed to a lunch. Since she had been hooking up with Nikki she wondered if he was going to officially stop seeing her. Even though they weren’t technically dating a lot of girls at the sorority considered them a pair.

She was holding the cake in one hand and juggling the presents she had gotten for Nikki in the other, a balancing act as she made it inside the apartment. When she got inside she rolled her eyes at the tree that someone had tried to paint black and was decorated with random clothing left behind from girls. She thought she spotted a condom tied in a branch but she wasn’t planning on investigating. Sasha set his presents down on the couch and grabbed the cake sticking some candles inside and moving towards his room.

Nikki had always talked about how shitty his life was growing up with his mom. He never really got to have a birthday cake or anything really to make him feel special. Sasha wanted him to know that someone cared, it was his birthday and that he was special. Even though they had agreed they weren’t anything serious Nikki was someone she was close to and she really did care about. She had this nervous energy building up inside of her. An image of him scruffy and hungover from the night before was in her mind, the lazy lovely smile he’d give her seeing the cake. The warmth of his kiss when he thanked her. It was all playing in her mind as she started towards his room.

“Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday dear-.” She smiled pushing the door and her heart sank. The image of his lips on hers turning to fire and ice all at once. “Nikki?” He shot a look over his shoulder, stunned seeing her holding a cake in the door frame, a blonde woman in bed bent over in front of him as he fucked her. The man was so caught off guard he felt his heart get stuck in his throat and wondered if he was hallucinating his actual worst nightmare.

“Didn’t you say your name was Rick?” The woman didn’t seem bothered as she looked over her shoulder and the realization of who she was hit Sasha. She turned from the woman to Nikki trying to get her composure so that no one saw her crying or throwing up.

“His name is Nikki Sixx.” She whispered out, swallowing hard to try and not cry. His eyes were on her and she saw he had the decency to throw a blanket over the woman well he reached for his pants in a pile on the ground. She didn’t want him coming near her right now. “I just brought you a cake and some presents that are on the couch because it’s your birthday and I wanted to make sure someone remembered it and for it to be special because I know how -“ Someone came behind her blowing out the candle on the cake and taking it from her hands before she dropped it. Also saving her from some of the embarrassment she was facing talking about nothing as she freaked out . The door was being shut, her eyes on Nikki’s as he looked back, not sure what to say to her but the presence of someone else stopping him from following her . Sasha was forced to see who had gotten her out of the room and saw Tommy standing there.

“Are you okay?” His hands were on her shoulders trying to keep her eye contact on him. She nodded her head weakly, the tears slipping out the sides. “Oh Jesus, Sasha.” Tommy was wrapping her in a hug in the living room looking towards the window. He knew Nikki would come out in a second to get and talk to her so he wanted to get her out of the situation. “I’ll take you to Denny’s and buy you a coffee.” He promised moving them closer to the window. He was thankful she nodded getting out of there.

Tommy was driving in the van with Sasha silent besides him. The tears were more under control now as she laid her head against the cool window. She had asked him to drive her straight to her exam. He knew better than to say anything to her or try to ask how she was doing. Mainly because she might start crying hysterically at any point. She licked her lips reaching out to take one of his cigarettes. She was tucking her legs up trying to be as small as she could.

“I think I’m going to sleep with Vince tonight.” Tommy choked at her words looking over at her to see if she was serious or not, “I think I need to just rip the bandaid off and sleep with someone to get it out of my system. Plus, Vince won’t say no and Nikki will be so fucking mad.” she nodded her head to herself, rolling the filter of the cigarette in her fingers as she tried to hatch her plan.

“Well, you’re friends with Beth so unless you’re going to ask her to sleep with her husband I don’t think your plan is going to work.” Tommy pointed out, which earned hm a look of annoyance from her, “Aren’t you going out with that guy from school? You know he sent mom and dad a gift basket for christmas?” she looked over at Tommy wondering how he knew that one.

“Len? He’s nice.” she shrugged her shoulders wanting to add that he wasn’t Nikki and she couldn’t even think of the man, “Tommy, I can’t compete with Lita Ford. Like out of all the fucking people he brings home that’s who I have to walk in on him with? I’m literally going to have fucking PTSD flashbacks listening to The Runaways now.”

“THATS WHERE SHE'S FROM!” it was like it had just dawned on him where he had seen her before. He apologized and she just shook her head at him, “Just take your exam. I’ll pick you up tomorrow from the dorms and we can go back home. Mom will cook for us and there will be no more sadness. She can cure hurt with food. You’ve experienced it.” she nodded her head wiping any stray tear from her face.

“Thanks for rescuing me in there.” she said as they pulled up to her school. “Sorry you’re always rescuing me.” she added.Tommy pushed her shoulder gently smiling at her.

“Listen, I had to wake up to terrible off key singing and then you went into a crazy rant. I was putting myself out of misery blowing out that candle.” he always made her feel better by teasing her like that Tommy gave her another hug and rubbed her head, “Also wash and return my shirt when you’re done with it. That’s a great Kiss shirt.” she smiled getting out of his van and waving. It was starting off to be a terrible day but at least she knew that Tommy would always make her laugh.

Nikki knew he was going to mess everything up. He had warned her that this all would be something that would get her hurt. He didn’t mean to have sex with Lita but they had gotten back to the apartment only about an hour before Sasha had showed up. They had been doing drugs and drinking so he didn’t have any common sense. He figured if he just fucked the woman she would leave the apartment and he could be on with his day. But now all he could think about was the shocked look on her face with those blue eyes staring at him, tears stinging as she saw him with someone else. He looked at the presents wrapped on the couch and just felt worse about everything. He had never had someone try to make his birthday matter like this and he had fucked it up spectacularly.

He picked up one of the packages wondering if he should bother opening them or if he had ruined everything now. He tugged open one of the presents smirking when he saw a new TRex shirt; she never had given him his short back and this was a sign she never would. There was another box with a silver cross in it which made him smile because he always talked to her about stage props and how he wanted this imagery with the band. She listened to him when he talked. The last box was a leather journal because he was always just writing lyrics or journaling. This was exactly why he didn’t want to hurt her. She did things that were kind and thoughtful and he had hurt her as he had promised that he would do.

He was a fuck up. He had fucked up what he had with Sasha and he knew that there was no coming back from this one. At least not without effort,

#nikki sixx fanfiction #nikki Sixx fan fic #nikki sixx imagine

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the-golden-ghost · 3 years

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50 bookish questions, multiples of 2?

I already answered all the ones that end in 0 (got a multiples of 5 ask earlier) so I will skip those. :)

2. What is the longest book you have ever read? How many pages?

At 1,267 pages, I believe it is my copy of The Complete Works of Shakespeare.

4. What is a book series that everyone else loves but you do not?

Discworld. It’s not that it’s bad, it’s just that I didn’t find it as brilliant and compelling as everyone else seemed to. People talk like Terry Pratchett is the single best writer in the history of the world and I guess I just found them... average? Which isn’t to say they’re bad, just that I was expecting WAY better after so much hype and was disappointed.

6. What is your favourite stand-alone book?

I WAS GONNA SAY 20,000 LEAGUES BUT THAT’S NOT A STANDALONE AND I ALWAYS FORGET THAT FACT

Catalyst by Laurie Halse Anderson was really pretty good. Yes it takes place in the same universe as Speak but shhhh

8. What is a book that you feel guilty for not not reading?

My dad has been trying to get me to read Dune since I was 14 and I just... never got into it. Someday I will, I’m sure, but not yet.

12. What book do you passionately hate?

Heart of Darkness. Worst book ever. Painfully dull and irritating and you’ll want to punch every character in the face.

14. What book gives you happy memories?

No Small Thing by Natale Ghent. NOT a happy book. However I read it during Christmas when I was around... 12? And it was one of those books I read in the car, so my memories are all about driving around during Christmastime doing kid things like going to parties and caroling and such.

16. What book made you laugh?

As dark as it is, ASOUE is still pretty funny.

18. Have you read a book with a male protagonist? What is it?

This question is so weird to me like have I read “a” book with a male protagonist? As if books with male protagonists don’t make up >50% of all books? At first I thought it was a typo and they meant female but even THAT doesn’t make sense, since it’s not like there’s no books in existence with female protags either. They make up probably less than 50% but not WILDLY so.

This is just so oddly phrased and I don’t understand it.

But anyway. Yes. I have read A Book With A Male Protagonist. It’s called In A Dark Wood Wandering.

22. What famous author have you not read any books by?

Jane Austen. No offense to her! I just don’t care much about Victorian Social Class.

24. How many bookshelves do you own?

26. What is your favourite non-fiction book?

The Professor and the Madman is pretty good.

28. What is your next book on your TBR?

I fully intend to reread Paradise Lost.

32. What was the most expensive book you bought?

Probably my Very Expensive Copy of 20,000 Leagues but it was worth it cause I cherish it.

34. What is the newest book you have bought?

Huh. I genuinely can’t remember. It’s been a while, I mostly do libraries these days.

36. What is a book you love that has a terrible trope? (Love triangle, etc)

Um... 20,000 Leagues has the whole “falling in love with Becoming Sympathetic Towards Your Captor” trope which is generally a trash one but in this case I will Allow it

38. What is a book you’ve read that is set in a time period before you were born?

The Chronicles of Ancient Darkness (set in 6,000 BC)

42. What is your favourite trilogy?

The Henry VI plays by Shakespeare. :D Which is cheating cause it’s technically a tetralogy but shhhhhhh

44. What is a book that you love, but has a terrible cover?

I recall I once owned a copy of Frankenstein that had this disgusting cover art of someone graphically peeling the skin and tissue off a corpse’s arm. It was like... way more detailed than necessary and was honestly just gross to look at. I actually don’t have that copy anymore since I got a better one with non-icky cover art.

46. Do you own any colouring books based off other books?

Nope!

48. What book made you angry?

Lots but I can’t think of a specific one right now ajdaahkshasaj

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spikeisawesome456 · 4 years

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1. Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? Uh… None, actually. I use YouTube and iTunes mostly. I have YouTube premium family (means that for $15, I get six accounts that can have YouTube Premium) so I don’t have to worry about ads and all that.

2. is your room messy or clean? Both? I only have a thin area of my room that can have movement, since it’s so small. The majority is taken up either of my bed or my dresser/end table/storage. So the room is full of stuff, but the main area is kept clean so I can move through it, ya know?

3. what color are your eyes? Green/blue, but mostly green. I also have brown in the center of my eyes. I guess you could call it hazel? I don’t really know what hazel eyes mean, honestly.

Here’s a close up I took a while ago. I’m looking at you!! Ha!

... I just realized I’ve not changed at all since I was a child. :-(

4. do you like your name? why? Yep! I like it. I have a long, more formal name (Katherine) but also a shorter, more informal nickname (Katie). I like this dynamic of my name. I also like how it sounds. Both of them. <3

5. what is your relationship status? Single, but okay with that. I’m starting to think I’m aro, as I don’t… ahh, like people? Much? It’ complicated.

6. describe your personality in 3 words or less Very, very, annoying.

7. what color hair do you have? I think you could call it golden?? I usually call it dirty strawberry blonde. It’s a coppery color, but also blonde. Not quite strawberry, not quite dirty. A mix?

This is a somewhat good example, but it is a bit more copper-toned than usual, due to the light next to my computer. The kids at work ask me sometimes if I dyed my hair, since it is almost completely orange on the badge my work printed for me, aha. But this shows the range of colors my hair goes through.

8. what kind of car do you drive? color? Ha! What, you think I’m a functioning adult? I don’t know how to drive.

9. where do you shop? Literally anywhere? I don’t care. I get my pants from Walmart, my shirts from wherever sells cute fandom shirts.

10. how would you describe your style? Ha!!! I answered this one in an ask, but I determined I have no style. I just prefer comfort to fashion.

11. favorite social media account Hm… I don’t tend to care much for social media accounts, personally at least. I just follow whatever is neat. I guess I like Game Grumps social media?? Eh.

12. what size bed do you have? Twin. It’s pressed up against the wall and I just sleep pressed into the corner like I’m trying to merge and become one with the wall. One day, sweet wall……..

13. any siblings? Sadly, yes. _._ An older brother. He’s actually fine, but still siblings...

14. if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? Probably…. Hm. I liked New Zealand when I visited, but I don’t know if it would be the best place for me to live, since it’s just so different to how I live now. Same with Ireland, though both would be amazing for me. I think… honestly, where I currently live, since it has good weather and is familiar to me.

15. favorite snapchat filter? Don’t use snapchat! :-D

16. favorite makeup brand(s) Hm… I used to only use Bare Minerals, but they don’t have great coverage, I’ve found. I’ve been using Clinique now, but I think they make me break out, which is bad. I don’t like makeup and I always feel it on my skin, or else it makes me break out after usage. I have very sensitive skin, ya feel me?

17. how many times a week do you shower? Never! I hate showers. I don’t like the feel of being blind when the water gets into my eyes.

I take a bath twice a day, though. Once in the morning and once at night, where I wash my hair. I know I’m not supposed to wash my hair so often, but it’s a habit at this point and it helps me sleep now.

18. favorite tv show? Buffy the Vampire Slayer, mostly since it was so important to me growing up. I still love it, though! I just don’t tend to have favorites, ya know? But Buffy will always mean the most to me.

19. shoe size? I don’t… I don’t really know? Heels I’m a size 8, I think? But I wear size 9.5 for sneakers, since I like my shoes a bit big. I think??? I don’t really know.

20. how tall are you? Ehhhhhhhh I say I’m 5’4, but who knows. I think I’m 5’3 and a half. I just round up. According to my doctor’s records I shrank and am 5’2, so who even knows anymore. Height is a made-up concept to control the short. ;-)

21. sandals or sneakers? Sneakers, god. I wore sandals once for a fancy event and I got sand and dirt on my feet immediately. It was sad. :-(

22. do you go to the gym? HA!

23. describe your dream date I don’t really know. As I said, possibly aro. Maybe…… Uh…. Somewhere quiet. Private. I’m not good in groups or crowds. OR! Maybe a theme park, the absolute opposite of what I said. OR a fair. I love fairs! Anything, really. I’m not picky.

24. how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? Oh! This one is a shock, because my dad just gave me a lot of money since I paid for dinner with my mom, since he was being an overly dramatic baby over me calling out his awful behavior and left us alone for dinner at Red Lobster, and he stubbornly paid me back. So I’ve got… let’s see… about $135, if you count the $30 I had in before.

25. what color socks are you wearing? Ha! Jokes on you! I’m not WEARING ANY SOCKS!!!! AHA!!!!!!!

26. how many pillows do you sleep with? One. Too many makes me feel weird.

27. do you have a job? what do you do? Well… I HAD job, because Covid. I was an after-school teacher, where I looked after kids, kind of daycare style, ya know? I loved it, and I love kids. Currently I’m “teaching” some of the kids I used to look after STEAM over Zoom. Apparently, the girls- sisters- missed doing my STEAM experiments each week and asked their mom to contact me to do the experiments with them over Zoom. I use “teaching” in quotes, since I mostly just do science activities with them, step by step, without much teaching involved. I used to explain why what we did was science, but I don’t want to make the kids do more work when they have so much with Covid going on. Also, I’m lazy, ha.

28. how many friends do you have? None! Seriously, but it’s okay. As I said earlier, I’m not the biggest fan of people so it’s kind of reliving to be on my own for the most part. I had been making a new friend before Covid, but we’ve not spoken much since. I did text her once and she seemed friendly still. Maybe we can meet up after this all is done with.

29. whats the worst thing you have ever done? Uh… I don’t really know? I used to get into fights online, mostly just fighting for what I believed in, but I never really attacked anyone, or I didn’t mean to. I’ve not done many bad things?? Not to make myself out to be a goodie-two shoes, but I don’t like hurting people or being “bad,” so I tend to avoid things like that. I’ve probably done things others consider “bad,” but that don’t register to me, so I don’t really know.

30. whats your favorite candle scent? Oh my god. I’m currently OBSESSED with this new candle from Bath and Body Works. It’s called Strawberry Pound Cake, but it smells like strawberry vanilla, and it’s AMAZING. I love it. I also have it in hand cream and hand sanitizer form and it’s THE BEST. It reminds me of those strawberry vanilla candy things from when I was a kid.

31. 3 favorite boy names Daniel, William, and… uh… I’m not sure. Alex, maybe? I know I like Daniel and William though.

32. 3 favorite girl names Emmaline, Clara, and… hmmm… Not sure, again.

33. favorite actor? Hm. Not sure. I don’t do favorites much. I guess Misha Collins? If this were about YouTube people, I’d say Dan Avidan in a heartbeat. Though… technically he is an actor… he did an actual YouTube show, with a plot and acting, so he’s technically an actor. So, then, him.

34. favorite actress? I’m even less sure about this one, honestly. I don’t pay attention to actors or actresses much, really. I know Misha since he does GISH, but otherwise I’m unsure about actors much.

35. who is your celebrity crush? Oh, Dan Avidan, clearly. He’s amazing. My profile pic on Tumblr has been the same for 4 years because I can’t get over the fact I met him. I used to change my profile pic every so often, with my artwork, but now I’m never changing my profile pic. Ever.

36. favorite movie? Uh…. Probably Phantom of the Opera, 2004. I love that film. Again, not super into favorite things, but if I had to pick one it would be PotO.

37. do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? Well, I DO read a lot. Mostly it’s fanfiction though, aha. And again, favorites aren’t really my thing. I used to say Island of the Blue Dolphins, but I reread that book a few years ago and didn’t like it as much. Still liked it but was more eh about it and never finished my read through. Maybe Stargirl, by Jerry Spinelli. I’ve not read it since I was a child, but I recall it being really good. My favorite book I’ve read recently would probably have to be Rebecca, by Daphne du Maurier. I had a lot of problems with it, but ultimately, I loved that book.

38. money or brains? Brains, obviously. They taste better. :-)

Though to be honest, I do say brains. Money is good, don’t get me wrong, but with brains the person can actually think about doing what is right or wrong. Money corrupts and without thought, there’s so way around it.

39. do you have a nickname? what is it? Yep! Technically I only go by my nickname, since I go by Katie, but my full name is Katherine.

40. how many times have you been to the hospital? Ooooh, personally? Once, when I broke my arm when I was 4, almost 5. Well, many times for that, but one time overall. I’ve been in the hospital often for my mom and dad, though. My mom is disabled and is a bit of a hypochondriac, so we sometimes have to take her to the hospital whenever she has pain, just to be safe. She did once have kidney stones, though, so it was needed. My dad had a panic attack once and thought it was a heart attack, so we were there for that. I also went to the hospital once when my grandma was dying, to say goodbye with my dad. It wasn’t sad, which says a lot about my and my dad’s relationship with my grandma.

41. top 10 favorite songs HA! Can’t. Seriously, can’t. I love too many songs equally for this one.

42. do you take any medications daily? Yeah. I used to take Seroquel nightly, but that just made me gain 40 pounds and didn’t help with mood much. It only helped me sleep and that was replaced by over the counter melatonin and Benadryl. So I gained 40 pounds for nothing and I’m struggling getting the weight off. Yay!!!!!!

43. what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) Both, I think?

44. what is your biggest fear? Death.

45. how many kids do you want? I don’t know, one or two? I don’t know if I want to get married though, so… Single mom for the win? I also might want to adopt older kids, or foster them at least, give them a place to live. When I’m on my own and have a stable, good paying job of course.

46. whats your go to hair style? Whatever my hair naturally does, honestly. I just brush it out and it does its own thing. I have thin, wavy hair, though, so it’s mostly fine. It parts in the middle, and I don’t have bangs. It refuses to grow passed my boob level, no matter how long it goes between haircuts, so it hangs there. It always grows back to boob level, but never passed. No idea why.

47. what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) Very presumptuous, question thing, to assume I live in a house. I live in an apartment, with my mom, dad, and older brother. It’s fairly big, with two bedrooms and a converted den for my bedroom, but it’s small for 4 of us. Less then 1500 square feet. I think 1200?

48. who is your role model? Hm. This is gonna sound conceited, but myself. Or, the person I want to be. I have an idea of what I’d like to be in life, and that is what guides me. It’s not based off anyone I’ve met, but based on my own personal desires, a mis-mesh of ideals. The only person you can be is yourself. Trying to be like someone else will only hurt you. Even wanting to be like someone else can be hurtful. Not that I’m putting down anyone who has role models! But it just… never worked for me. Putting people on pedestals hurt me, so I just look forward to being the best version of me that I can be.

49. what was the last compliment you received? Hm… I get a lot of compliments on my Facebook page, people saying I’m doing a good job with that. So that, probably. 50. what was the last text you sent? It was too my dad, who, as previously mentioned, was being a bit of a butt and was mad at me for calling him on his rude behavior to me and my mom. I texted “alright,” to him telling me to not buy him a takeout dinner. I didn’t listen though, and he ate it when we got home after sulking a bit. He’s better now, but he’s yet to apologize. He never does. -.- 51. how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? Uh… Wait, Santa isn’t… real…?!?!?!

Aha. JK. I don’t know. Maybe 8?? I don’t remember. I just know I believed when I was 6-ish, when Polar Express came out, since I asked for Santa bells for Christmas. I think I also believed the next year, but I don’t remember much. I learned the difference between Judaism and Catholicism around then, and eventually decided to be Jewish when I was 12-ish, but who knows, man. Who knows?

52. what is your dream car? One that self-drives and doesn’t ever crash, so I don’t have to drive myself.

53. opinion on smoking?

Bad! Bad, bad, bad!!! No smoking!

Truthfully, honestly. My mom gets really sick around smokers, especially around pot and vape smokers. It makes her have an allergic reaction. 54. do you go to college? Yeah baby! I just finished and will be getting my (probably useless) degree in the mail soon! Summa Cum Laude, baby! (Highest honors, if you don’t know what that means). Now I just got to get into grad school so I can do something with my Psych BA! Aha. Haha. Ahahaha. Ha… 55. what is your dream job? School psychologist! I want to help children, but don’t have the temperament to be a teacher. I’m too lenient and would let them walk all over me. I kind of do as an after-school teacher. The kids respect me, though, and like me well enough. I don’t think I could be the only person responsible for them, though. I get frazzled, which I learned while doing my STEAM activities and the kids would NOT listen, sometimes. I could do it, though, if the whole school psych thing doesn’t pan out. Or school counselor, would be my second choice. Something to do with kids, though. 56. would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? Hm. I like city life, though I think I’d prefer suburbs. I live in a kind of suburb, though I live in a major city… We just don’t have skyscrapers near where I live, only downtown. We have over a million people in my city, and 3 million in the county. So, big. 57. do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? Uhm yeah??? Why wouldn’t you? They’re free souvenirs! I went to a kid-themed hotel once, near Disneyland, for my parent’s anniversary, which had this neat bubblegum shampoo from their kid spa. I loved it so much I asked my dad to buy me a whole bottle of it as a body wash. It was… expensive, but I still have some left over, which I’ve kept for some reason. 58. do you have freckles? Some, yeah. Not many on my face, just some around my arms, scattered. I have a big one on my left palm, at the base of the meat of my thumb, if that makes sense. Otherwise they’re just scattered all around. 59. do you smile for pictures? Yep! Well… my version of smiling. I don’t ever smile with my teeth, since they’re small and my lips are so long, so it looks awkward when I smile with teeth. Instead I just smile with my lips. 60. how many pictures do you have on your phone? HA! I had to get myself a 164 GB phone to deal with the fact that I take lots of photos. Over 2,000, now. 61. have you ever peed in the woods? Ew? No? I hate the woods. Or, going into the woods. I like the idea of woods and I like being in them, guided, but staying in them? No. Scary. 62. do you still watch cartoons? Yep! I’m currently watching She-Ra! I like it! 63. do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? Oh, no contest. Wendy’s. I do like McDonalds’ chicken nuggets, but Wendy’s are just *chef kiss* mwah! 64. Favorite dipping sauce? Ranch, but I especially like Wendy’s ranch. It’s creamy and nice. 65. what do you wear to bed? Pretty much what I wear during the day. I used to literally just go to bed in my day clothes, before I started taking a bath each night, about 6 years ago. Now I wear yoga pants (ones without pockets, since I finally found ones with pockets for day use!!) and an old faded T-shirt. 66. have you ever won a spelling bee? HA! HAHA! AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I can’t spell. I’ve liteally been spelling half my words wrong this entire time. Spell check is my best friend. Though! I did get to the finals of a class spelling bee once, since they gave me easy words (to me, at least) and my classmates harder ones. It was almost funny. 67. what are your hobbies? I like to draw, paint, write, do other crafty stuff… Things like that. I also read, fanfiction mostly. :-) 68. can you draw? Yep!!

Behold! My digital drawings!

This was my most recent traditional drawing, using charcoal for the first time. It was for GISH.

69. do you play an instrument? Nope! Ha, but I do wish I could, ya know? But I’m bad at doing different things with one hand vs. the other, which is why I can’t clap my hands and stomp my feet with alternating rhythm. I can only do one thing at once, ya know?

70. what was the last concert you saw? Ohh, hm. This is a good question… Hm… I think… It was at my county fair last year? A country dude with my parents. Trace Atkins, my dad said. I’ve not had the chance to see many concerts recently, sadly. :-(

71. tea or coffee? I like coffee better on the whole, but I’ve begun to like fruit teas, like raspberry or strawberry. I also like this nice orange/cinnamon tea.

72. Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? Dunkin Donuts, is this supposed to be hard? We don’t have many where I live, though. I like their iced coffee from stores, though.

73. do you want to get married? Ehhhh…… I’ve talked about this before. I’m not sure, really. If I find someone I like who likes me, maybe. But I have a hard enough time making friends, so I doubt it.

74. what is your crush’s first and last initial? N.O.

(Stands for no one. :-) )

75. are you going to change your last name when you get married? IF I get married, probably not. I like my last name. It’s unique.

76. what color looks best on you? Hm. I don’t really know. Maybe red? I don’t have style so I don’t know. I like blue and purples, but who knows.

77. do you miss anyone right now? Eh, not really.

78. do you sleep with your door open or closed? Closed, but my “door” is a curtain, since I sleep in a converted den which has two open windows into the living room that are covered by curtains, and no door, which I also cover with a curtain on a shower rod. It was good when I was a sleepless teen, but now that I’m an adult trying to fix my sleep habits, it’s not so good, ya know.

79. do you believe in ghosts? Not… really. Not much more to say about this.

80. what is your biggest pet peeve? People being rude. Like… stop it.

81. last person you called` Hm. Prolly my dad? Or my brother. I don’t like calling people. Phone anxiety, ya feel me?

82. favorite ice cream flavor? Rainbow sherbet! Fun fact, when I was younger at camp, maybe 16 or 17, our camp counselor asked us this question and I replied with rainbow sherbet, saying it properly (sher-bet, not sher-bert) and my camp counselor went OFF, saying “Thank you!” for saying it properly. He was… something else.

83. regular oreos or golden oreos? Oooh, I like those cinnamon bun Oreos. You know the kind? They’re the BEST. I can’t buy them often or else… well. I’ve already gained 40 pounds the last couple years. No need for more, aha.

84. chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? Rainbow. Pretty!!

85. what shirt are you wearing? My “Scare to Care” shirt that I bought for charity a few years ago. It’s a charity that raises money for Camp Kesem, which helps children who have a relative undergoing cancer treatment have a nice, normal camp experience for free, I think.

86. what is your phone background? My lock screen is the picture of me and Dan, the background is the drawing I did of the Guardians of the Galaxy years ago.

87. are you outgoing or shy? Both! Aha. I’m friendly when talking to people, seemingly outgoing, but I don’t go up and talk to people. I fear I’m annoying them, ya know? And I’m awful in groups. I never know when to talk and when I do talk, I fear I’m annoying people. Actually… I always feel I’m annoying people. Aha. Ha…

88. do you like it when people play with your hair? Yep! People don’t do it often, though. Kids will, but you have to be careful when they do that. Sticky hands are not the best to be in your hair….

89. do you like your neighbors? I guess? I’ve not spoken to my neighbors since my next-door neighbors of 5 years moved out 5 years ago. They had kids my age, but we never really spoke. They were… not the brightest, or kindest. They once took in a stray puppy and locked it in their hot garage. My older brother and I freed it and kept it in our hallway outside our apartment, since we have emergency doors that we could close to keep him in, while we played with him. I’m allergic to dogs, though, and we have guinea pigs, so we couldn’t bring him inside our apartment. Luckily their parents got home after an hour or so and brought the dog to the shelter. They also had a different dog who kept escaping and my brother and I had to keep an eye on it often. It once got into our apartment and it was, ah. Fun. She didn’t hurt our pigs, though, so it was a plus!

90. do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? YES. Both morning and night. It has not helped my acne.

91. have you ever been high? Nope! Not even when I got my wisdom teeth out. I was fine the minute I woke. I felt ripped off. I was a bit over tired, but no more than if I’d not slept the whole night. Maybe I’m just always in a perpetual “high” state???

92. have you ever been drunk? Nope! I have a high tolerance, so one or two drinks does absolutely nothing for me. And I’ve never tried more than a coupe drinks. I’m almost afraid to see myself drunk, ya know? I’m so energetic usually, but keep a lot of thoughts inside, so who knows what I’d be like. I don’t like being out of control and I honestly think I’d hate it.

93. last thing you ate? Shrimp Scampi. From Red Lobster. ^-^

94. favorite lyrics right now Uh… Again, no real idea. I’m not good with favorite things.

95. summer or winter? Hm. Summer, I guess? It’s not much different where I live, though we get more rain during winter. I prefer heat to cold generally, though. So summer in general. I also like summer aesthetics, you know?

96. day or night? Hm. Day, though I do love night time. I just usually am inside during the night.

97. dark, milk, or white chocolate? Milk! I hate all other kinds of chocolate.

98. favorite month? Do people have favorite months?? February, I guess? Since I was born in February! And it’s a rebel. Only 28 days compared to the usual 30 or 31. And sometimes it has 29. Take that, months!

99. what is your zodiac sign Aquarius. :-D

100. who was the last person you cried in front of? Hm… that’s a… good question… I don’t like crying in front of people. Probably my mom or dad. I tend to head off on my own when I cry, though. I don’t like people seeing me sad, ya know?

Yay!! I’m done!! This took waaaayyyy too long. I’ve been doing this for probably over 2 hours. Hope y’all learned something. Prolly that I’m uninteresting, aha. ^-^ If you made it this far without skipping, I love you. <3 If you skipped… YOU’RE DEAD TO ME!

Ha, just kidding. ^-^

OR AM I?!?!

:-)

#My post #Personal #I don't know I did this other than I'm bored and I'm self-absorbed enough to want to answer questions about myself #I don't need you to ask me questions #I AM MY OWN WOMAN!!

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littlecajunlady · 4 years

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Ask a writer

I wasn’t tagged but I was bored so.

1. How did you come up with your username and what does it mean?

This question gets asked so much. I’m short, cajun, a woman. I might be a “writer” but I’m not good at naming things.

2. Which fanfic of yours has the most feedback? (comments, visitor hits, kudos)

Comments: 262 for This Love (Teen Wolf)

Hits: 1548 for Come over here & make me (Teen Wolf)

Kudos: 113 for Reflections (FMAB)

3. What is your FFnNet/AO3 profile icon, and why did you choose it?

Jester from CR, just because I love her

4. Do you have any regular/favorite commenters?

@breakthestrutura is probably the only regular over multiple fics. This Love used to get regulars but I finished that fic in 2017, and I haven’t posted a fic in over 2 years so nothing is regular lately.

5. Is there a fanfic that you keep going back to read again and again?

I’ve beta’d for @breakthestrutura some and reread her stranger things fics and atla/fma fics she’s gifted me. I know I’ve read fics I’ve liked, but I rarely save them and rarely reread anything. I really don’t read fanfic much, not sure why, probably because I want to read very specific things, and they don’t exist so.

6. How many stories are you subscribed to? How many do you have bookmarked?

Subscribed: 3

Bookmarked: 18, but I mostly use it as a to-read list, but I never read them

7. Which AU do you find yourself writing the most?

Canon divergence. Not that into AUs tho.

8. How many people are subscribed and bookmarked to you in total? (you can view this on the stats page)

Subscribed: 24

Bookmarks: 109

9. Is there something you’d like to write about but are afraid of people judging you for it? (Feeling brave? If so, share it!)

idk, not really? Sometimes I don’t feel talented enough to do my ideas justice and it keeps me from getting started.

10. Is there anything you would like to be better at? Writing certain scenes or genres, replying to comments, updating better, etc.

Everything really. Mostly I wish I could get myself to write anything at all at this point.

11. Do you write rarepairs or popular ships more often?

Popular ships because like 95% of the time I ship canon or what I’m very sure will become canon. But I’ve done a few rarepairs.

12. How many stories have you posted on FFNet/AO3 to this day (finished and unfinished)?

32 fics. Only 1 of those is a chapter fic.

13. How many stories do you have saved in/with your writing program?

At least 20 (but probably more) unfinished ones. I never finish anything.

14. Do you write down story ideas, or just keep them in your head?

I write down a page length summary of the whole story most of the time, if I remember to, but sometimes they just live in my head. I’ve had an idea for like 3 years and for some reason I just keep forgetting to write down a summary. But I think about it so often that forgetting hasn’t been an issue so far.

15. Have you ever co-authored a story?

I haven’t.

16. How did you discover FFNet/AO3?

Don’t remember. I think I made friends with some authors and probably clicked a link to their stories and then thought hey I should try that too. I also know I was resistant to ao3 for the longest time, not sure why, and now I don’t ever go on FF unless it’s to look at my account.

17. Do you consider yourself to be a popular or famous author in your fandom(s) on FFNet/AO3?

No, you actually have to write things to get popular.

18. Do you plot out your stories, or do you just figure it out as you go?

Plot it out, probably too much. But most of the basics of my stories come to me right away and I can’t really help that. Not that I want to. I like knowing where my story is going.

19. Have you ever gotten a bad comment on a story? If so, what did you do?

Not many. And they were more annoying than outright mean. Most were for This Love - people who thought I was going to write Malia to be an asshole and/or not including her in the story enough, or worried I was going to put Stiles with the girl they didn’t like. Stuff like that. I wanted them to keep reading, so I tried to put some of their minds at ease so they would eventually realize their assumptions were wrong.

20. Is there a certain type of scene that you have a hard time writing? (action, smut, etc..)

Transitional scenes, where nothing that interesting is happening but just getting to the next big scene. And yeah, smut, I feel so awkward. I’m too ace for that.

21. What story(s) are you working on now?

At the beginning of this quarantine I actually got myself to write a bit, almost every night for like 2 weeks. It’s just a Matt Murdock/Jessica Jones thing that I’ll never finish. But it was nice while it lasted.

22. Do you plan your next project(s) before you finish your current ongoing story(s)?

Like I said, I never finish anything, so I’m always moving on to a new thing.

23. Do you have a daily writing goal set for yourself?

Of course not, or I would’ve posted something in the last 2 years.

24. Do you think you’ve improved as a writer since you first started?

Sometimes I feel like I’ve gotten worse, since I’m so out of practice. But I’ve been writing stories since I was a little kid so I’ve definitely improved since those days of course.

25. What is your favorite story(s) that you’ve written?

This Love since it’s my only chapter fic and somehow I managed to finish it, even when it seemed like I never would. I'm just proud I finished it tbh. I like a lot of my others but also this feels like a weird question - I don’t think of my stories as amazing or anything, they just have plots i’m interested in.

26. What is your least favorite story(s) that you’ve written?

Idk, some of my Teen Wolf drabbles, I guess. Like, they’re fine.

27. Where do you see yourself (as a writer) in 5 years?

I’d like to get myself to actually commit to trying to write a book (yeah, not even writing a book, but getting myself to even TRY). But I probably won’t. If not that then I hope I pick up writing fic again at least.

28. What is the easiest thing about writing?

Ideas and plotting. Yeah, sometimes I get stuck on the how or small details but like I said, stories come to me mostly fully formed.

29. What is the hardest thing about writing?

The getting myself to actually sit down and write part.

30. Why do you write?

I’ve always loved writing stories, from a pretty early age, and I don’t know where that comes from but it feels like it’s always been there. I also have things I want to read, so I have to write them to make them exist. That’s it really. If other people like them too then that’s just a bonus.

#writing #q&a #fic

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thesffcorner · 5 years

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March Reading Wrap-Up

March was not a great reading month for me. In addition to having a lot of things going on in my personal life, I also dove straight into a reading slump, courtesy of Miss Nora Sakavic and her All for the Game trilogy. Graphic novels were my savior for sure; I read 18 graphic novels, and 4 novels. In terms of genre, I read 3 contemporary books, and 1 fantasy, and overall, this was a pretty average month in terms of ratings as well.

So without further ado, let’s dive in, starting with:

Umbrella Academy Vol 2 by Gerard Way and Gabriel Ba (3 stars):

The first thing I read in the month was Dallas, the second volume of the Umbrella Academy series. I read up to issue 5 of Hotel Oblivion, but seeing as that volume is not yet out, I will only count the 2 volumes that are out, which are Apocalypse Suite and Dallas.

This series follows a group of 7 super-powered kids, all born during a simultaneous event, adopted by a crazy billionaire, and raised them to be superheroes. After he dies, the 6 surviving kids go back to the Umbrella Academy mansion, not knowing that their reunification will bring about the apocalypse.

Volume 2 follows the kids as they all go on their separate ways, involving lot’s or time travel and time travel paradoxes. I did like it more than volume 1, mostly because it focused more on Diego and Allison, my 2 favorite characters.

Archie Vol. 1- 6 by Mark Waid, and many illustrators (3, 2, 3, 2, 3, 4 stars):

I wanted to start the rebooted Archie for a while, and I was in the mood for some fluffy contemporaries so I decided to give it a go. I read all the 6 volumes that are out, and i have to say I was not impressed.

This series takes the classic Archie characters and plops them in modern day, and as an idea I think that was smart. The Archie characters and stories are timeless; they deal with all the things anyone deals with while at high school and growing up, like first loves, friendships, finances and generally entering the adult world. The series is meant to be a slice of life style exploration of Riverdale, but I feel like perhaps Waid didn’t know want to write it like that.

The first few issues were fine, if a bit underwhelming, but volume 4 was where the story really took an unnecessarily dark turn. Having finished the series, I’m still not sure why that was necessary or what was accomplished; I’m just left a bit confused as to who this was really for and what it set out to achieve. If there are more volumes in the future, I don’t think I’ll be reading them.

In the Vanisher’s Palace by Aliette de Bodard (3 stars):

This was the first book I read in March, and it’s a novella-retelling of Beauty and the Beast. There is a twist here, in that the romance is female-female, and it’s set in a fantastical land inspired by Vietnamese folklore and mythology, which was very cool.

It was a short read, which I feel was it’s biggest detriment, because the novella set up a pretty fascinating and rather complex world, which was barely touched on, in the 145 pages we got. The romance felt a bit rushed, though I actually enjoyed it a lot, especially with the examination of power dynamics and the focus on consent. De Bodard is an author I will definitely reading more of, and my next project will be her Xuya Universe series of novellas (who have some gorgeous covers).

Running with Lions by Julian Winters (4 stars):

The second book I read in March, was inspired by a disastrous Real Madrid game (also Chelseadollingreads’s channel), and it’s a book about football. We follow Sebastian, a senior in high school who is the goalie for his high school football team, and spends his last summer at football camp. However, his grand desire to have the best summer ever might becomes more complicated when his estranged childhood friend Emir comes back, and is now on the football team.

I really liked this book; it was very cute and fun, and it focuses on football. While the writing wasn’t the best ever, the characters Winters wrote were believable and very authentic, and it was refreshing to read about a male-male romance, actually written by a man. I recommend it, if you want a contemporary romance, and especially, if you, like me, love Bend It Like Beckham.

The Foxhole Court by Nora Sakavic (3 stars):

This is one of those OG YA books that when I joined Tumblr in the distant 2012, EVERYONE was talking about. It follows Neil Josten, a teenager on the run, who gets recruited into a D1 Exy team for Palmetto State, where all the demons that haunt him start catching up.

I have made a full, long review of this book, which I’ll link here. I go into a lot of detail there if you want to know my full thoughts; all I’ll say here, is that this is one of the most affecting books I’ve ever read, and I still think about it constantly, even though I did NOT love it.

The Raven King by Nora Sakavic (3 stars):

This book threw me into a reading slump. Like the first one, it’s intense as hell, but it has both some major improvements and some MAJOR drawbacks. I have a review of it as well, which is here, where I go over details, but all I’ll say is that I have never needed trigger warnings more for a book, than I did for this one.

The Wicked + The Divine Vol. 1- 4 by Kieron Gillen and Jamie McKelvie (4, 4, 4, 4 stars):

The Wicked + The Divine is a series I had read before, but I had never finished or really remembered much about. So now, as this series is coming to a close, I decided to give it another try and finish it; and I really, really liked it.

The series follows a group of teenagers who are part of the Pantheon; a group of Gods reborn in the bodies of teens in 2014, UK. All the teens are superstars, but they will all be dead 2 years from the moment they become Gods. Laura, a teen who is obsessed with the Pantheon, gets involved in an epic conspiracy full of drugs, sex and murder; and possibly Godhood.

This series is a blast; the story is original, very captivating and revolves a lot around music, the cult of the superstar, love, and fandom. If you haven’t read this series yet I urge you too, especially if you are a fan of music and rock stars; it has a plethora of interesting, diverse characters, and the art is amazing: all volumes have been 4 stars for me so far, which I don’t think has ever happened in a series.

Shades of Magic: The Steel Prince by V E Schwab and Andrea Olimpieri (4 stars):

This is the first volume in an ongoing series written by V E Schwab and set in her Shades of Magic Universe. It mostly follows King Maxim Maresh, when he was much younger, before he became known as the Steel Prince, as he first arrives to the Iron Coast. This first volume has him go up against a Pirate Queen with bone-magic, which was pretty cool.

I think I liked this volume a bit more than I should’ve. I really liked the story, but I found that 4 issues were just too short to really develop all the things that happen in this volume. A lot happens, but it all happens so quickly, that I think concepts that could have been explored better, were over too quickly. I still thought this volume was a lot of fun, and I will definitely continue in the series.

Isola Vol. 1 by Brandon Fletcher and Karl Kerschl (4 stars):

Last month I started Fletcher’s other series, Motor Crush, and this month I decided to start his fantasy series, Isola. This series follows two characters; a Princess named Olwyn and a soldier named Rook, who set out on a journey to find the fabled island of Isola where they could turn Olwyn back into a human, after she’s cursed to be a tiger. On their journey they have to contend with forest spirits, animal gods and hunters, as well as a conspiracy to plunge the Kingdom into war.

I liked this first volume a lot; I found the start a bit confusing, but once I got into the story, I ended up really enjoying it. The art is gorgeous, and the setting is unique and beautiful; if you can handle the first 2 issues, and you like Studio Ghibli films, you will probably like this series.

Paper Girls Vol. 1- 2 by Brian K. Vaughan and Cliff Chiang (3, 4 stars):

On my never ending quest to catch up with all the comic book series I have been reading, I started a reread of Paper Girls. This series follows 4 paper girls who get caught up in a conspiracy involving time travel, pterodactyls and possibly aliens while delivering papers the morning after Halloween.

This is a super fun series. I really liked the characters, the art is gorgeous, and I am interested to see where it will take the plot. Vaughan is great at creating characters that are complex, albeit not always likable, and that’s mostly what keeps me glued to his series.

Snotgirl Vol. 1- 2 by Brian Lee O’Malley and Leslie Hung (2, 3 stars):

I picked this up on a whim, as I was looking at my spreadsheet of comics I want to read/catch up on. It’s a strange little series; it follows Lottie, a fashion blogger, and her increasingly weird friendship with Caroline, another blogger who seems to attract death around her. It’s a series about pretty people being petty, awful and sometimes funny, and if you are not a fan of unlikable characters, and slice of life stories, I don’t think you will like this much.

#march wrap up #march reading #2019 reading #moni talks

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CoMC week 4 part 1

XXXI

o I love that the timeskip and pov changes are drastic enough that we now have absolutely no idea what Edmond’s planning anymore! General vengeance, sure, and we know the names of the people he’s going to be targeting, but with Morrel the reader could pretty much guess what the Mysterious Stranger’s angle was even if Dumas was playing coy about names. From here on we’re pretty much flying blind, and it’s super fun. How much of what goes down in this section is he actually orchestrating, and how much can we mark down to Romantic Coincidence? Was Franz’s role in all this part of the plan, or did he just stumble into it and Edmond made it work? How is any of this actually going to get back to Villefort/Ferdinand? Who knows! Not Franz or me, that’s for sure! Isn’t this exciting?

o Also, Edmond has apparently done so much stuff over the timeskip, and none of it is…what he said he was going to do. He hasn’t even tried to go after his enemies yet, apparently, but he’s completely transfigured himself so much that he’s unrecognizable even though we’re in the know about his ridiculous aliases. Why were his priorities Orientalism and spending money and smoking hash? I mean I guess he’s been building up his aliases and putting in place a network of money and influence that lets him do pretty much whatever he wants, but man, this is quite a shift. Even without the pov shift, it’s pretty easy to start viewing Edmond as something unknown and dangerous instead of Our Hero.

o (I’m still going to keep calling him Edmond though, because the more sinister he gets the funnier it is to me.)

o As a sidenote though, I am totally delighted by the “wow, I wonder who this Mystery Person could be! we’ll just have to use the obviously fake name they give us, because we definitely don’t know what their real name is! NO PROTAGONISTS HERE, MOVE ALONG” game that the narrator’s playing. I loved it in Les Mis, I love it here! Somehow it never gets any less entertaining!

o The thing where Edmond always somehow embodies the mannerisms/physical characteristics of whatever nationality he’s pretending to be kind of reminds me a lot of Fantomina, have any of you guys read that? It’s an 18th century British novel about a lady who sets out to get revenge on her cheating boyfriend but ends up just getting really wrapped up in the theatre of costume and the multiple identities and ends up just having a really good time messing with him while he never notices that all these different women are, in fact, Fantomina. I’d have to reread it for details and Fantomina does more playing with class than with nationality, but I feel like Edmond could kind of relate.

o I don’t really have much to say about the Romanticism Bingo chapter except, wow, that happened I guess. It is kind of worth mentioning that, for all that Edmond’s forced himself to become a different person, he still uses Monte Cristo as his home base and his name—it seems like both a tribute to Faria and a sign that there’s a part of him that still doesn’t want to let go of his beginnings, no I’m not crying it’s fine

o Albert is adorable, and his willingness to go along with Mystery Man’s Thousand and One Nights roleplaying is hilarious. Maybe he and Edmond could be lit nerd buddies if Edmond wasn’t so busy being CREEPY and HAVING NO FRIENDS EVER.

o I think somebody in the tag mentioned the possibility that Edmond bribed Franz’s captain to take him to Monte Cristo, and I think that’s definitely what happened—the whole way the sidetrip unfolds is so weird! “hey let’s stop by Monte Cristo for some quick hunting, it’s uninhabited it’s fine” “oh yeah also there might be smugglers, it’s still fine” “oh look, lots of smugglers and also bandits! we are also smugglers so it’s okay, we can talk to them! we’ll have to stay the night though, forget that this was supposed to be a quick visit” “uh their leader wants to hang out with you and also has a huge opulent mystery palace that we definitely knew about even though we said the island was uninhabited, THIS IS TOTALLY NORMAL HAVE SOME DRUGS” LIKE. THIS IS THE MOST SUSPICIOUS THING I HAVE EVER HEARD, HOW DID FRANZ GO ALONG WITH THIS. Except I still can’t figure out what Edmond’s angle there was? How does impressing Franz with his mysterious wealth and orientalism help with anything???

XXXII

o Albert! For a spoiled rich kid he is INCREDIBLY ENDEARING, and he and Franz are super cute together and oh my god it’s just so nice to have some characters who actually like each other! I AM STARVED FOR FRIENDSHIP OKAY, EDMOND WHY DO YOU INSIST ON NOT HAVING ANY FRIENDS. Franz’s knowledge of Albert’s quirks and general air of fond exasperation for his ridiculousness is just really sweet and made these chapters really enjoyable. And I still want cute road trip adventures fic of them.

o Signor Pastrini is the real hero of this book for putting up with all the rich people nonsense happening in his hotel, tbh

XXXIII

o YIKES YIKES YIKES CAN I SKIP THIS CHAPTER

o Okay no I do have a few notes—Luigi Vampa, the first mysterious sketchy stranger who isn’t secretly Edmond! I totally cracked up when ~the Count of Monte Cristo~ showed up in the story ANYWAYS, because apparently what Edmond’s been doing during the timeskip is integrating himself into every urban legend and scrap of local gossip there is.

o The Cucumetto story was AWFUL, OH GOD WHY, not to mention BASICALLY POINTLESS, but I guess the Luigi/Teresa story was kind of entertaining? Maybe the point of the Cucumetto bit was to give Luigi Vampa the Not As Bad As You Could’ve Been award? The fact that his idea for getting his girlfriend a nice dress was “BURN DOWN A WHOLE VILLA” was hilarious, anyways.

o Also I feel like the Florian reference is just straight up Dumas calling me out for not finishing the second half of Estelle et Nemorin, which I AM WORKING ON OKAY, WHAT IS IT WITH YOU ROMANTICS AND MAKING ME READ CRACKED OUT PASTORAL NOVELS LET ME REST

XXXIV

o All the fuss about taking Albert to see the colosseum in the most impressive amazing way possible still seems pretty romantic to me as well as Romantic, Franz knows how to plan a date I’m just saying

o Did Edmond also plan for Franz to overhear the whole rendezvous in the coliseum? It seems like that one might have been just Coincidence?? BUT WHO KNOWS WITH EDMOND

o Honestly I spent the whole opera section screaming internally about how NO ONE IS PAYING ATTENTION TO THE STAGE, AUGH

o Franz and the Countess took a moonlight walk in the coliseum and talked about THE DEAD! How very Romantic of you two, I can see why Byron likes this lady

o Byron/Lord Ruthwen references galore! I need to come back to this after I read the Vampyre, so I have no comments except that the Countess is dating Byron but also so freaked out by Edmond that she has to leave the theatre immediately? Seriously???

o I love how oblivious Albert is to the encroaching creepiness of the Plot! HE JUST WANTS TO FIND A CARRIAGE AND HAVE A DRAMATIC ADVENTURE WITH A HOT ITALIAN LADY, WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE’S STUCK IN A REVENGE NOVEL

XXXV

o Everything about the executions is pretty much horrifying, and I don’t have that much to say about it except to note how all deliberate Edmond has been about desensitizing himself to violence and death and how much he wants not only vengeance but to be a person who can be that casually cruel—his first victim was definitely himself, and he has to keep seeking out scenes of torture and revenge to keep himself from reverting to the kid he was in prison who just wanted someone to love.

o His whole speech about how a man’s mask comes off when he’s faced with death seems like it goes back to Morrel’s almost-suicide, too—if Edmond hadn’t liked what he saw when Morrel was on the point of killing himself, would he have gone through with his reward? That…doesn’t make me feel any better about how much he waited till the very last possible moment there, but it does make more sense. It’s also foreshadowing Albert’s kidnapping adventure with the bandits, where I think even Edmond has to respect how chill he is about being possibly executed in the morning.

more notes tomorrow probably! :D

#comc17 #book blogging #LOOK I ACTUALLY HAVE STUFF TO SAY THIS WEEK

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funkypanda · 6 years

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I'm not THAT evil but you SHOULD do every uneven number and every even number. c:

So what you’re saying is, you’re just as evil as I thought you were.

1: Full name

Alvin Wong. I don’t have a middle name.

2: Age

24. Turning 25 on September 29th

3: 3 Fears

Heights. Loneliness. Creepy crawlies.

4: 3 things I love

Video games. Music. Learning.

5: 4 turns on

Neck kisses. Making out. Intelligence. Cute butt.

6: 4 turns off

Ignorance. Bad breath? IDK there’s a few.

7: My best friend

Skylar Lu. Big ol Asian dude.

8: Sexual orientation

Straight.

9: My best first date

I don’t think I’ve had a good one.

10: How tall am I

6′ or 6′1″

11: What do I miss

Physical affection.

12: What time were I born

I think it was at like 9:30 PM

13: Favourite color

Purple!

14: Do I have a crush

HARDCORE HOLY SHIT

15: Favourite quote

“Knowledge is power. Guard it wisely.” or “An open mind is like a fortress, with its gates unbarred and unguarded.”

16: Favourite place

Taipei, Taiwan.

17: Favourite food

Vietnamese cuisine in general.

18: Do I use sarcasm

What do you think?

19: What am I listening to right now

Tired by Alan Walker

20: First thing I notice in new person

Their eyes. Always.

21: Shoe size

Men’s 12

22: Eye color

Dark brown

23: Hair color

Black/dark brown

24: Favourite style of clothing

My style of weird punk rock skater.

25: Ever done a prank call?

Yes a few times.

27: Meaning behind my URL

I was called panda back in high school a lot and I played the sax.

28: Favourite movie

Rogue One.

29: Favourite song

I’ve been obsessed with Down by Marian HIll lately.

30: Favourite band

A Day to Remember.

31: How I feel right now

Really satisfied.

32: Someone I love

My old LoL friends.

33: My current relationship status

Single but hopefully not soon?

34: My relationship with my parents

We’re not super close but we’re family still

35: Favourite holiday

Christmas when I have someone cute to spend it with.

36: Tattoos and piercing i have

None unfortunately.

37: Tattoos and piercing i want

SO MANY TATTOOS. Razer’s 3-headed snake. Colonel Mustang’s transmutation circle. Al’s blood seal. etc etc

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

I... I don’t remember.

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

I mean. I hate her guts.

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

Not really but I love them.

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

Not yet. But I’m planning on it.

42: When did I last hold hands?

Uhhhhh its been a few months I think.

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

Way too long.

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

Nah I love my hairy man legs.

45: Where am I right now?

In bed at home.

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

Probably Jamie. But she’s also gonna be drunk with me lmao

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

Loud. I’m a punk.

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

Yep. But its a necessity.

49: Am I excited for anything?

Most things. As long as I’m interested in it.

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

Yeah I do.

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

Almost every day.

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

Earlier tonight.

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

I mean more power to her.

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

Not that I know of.

55: What is something I disliked about today?

I didn’t really do anything.

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

Adam Savage from Mythbusters. He seems so genuine.

57: What do I think about most?

The unknown of the universe.

58: What’s my strangest talent?

Jumping to conclusions with little to no information.

59: Do I have any strange phobias?

Not strange.

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

As a photographer, behind.

61: What was the last lie I told?

I’m okay.

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

I guess on the phone. I don’t like my face.

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

No to ghosts. Yes to aliens.

64: Do I believe in magic?

Not really.

65: Do I believe in luck?

Absolutely.

66: What’s the weather like right now?

Its like 70 degrees and humid.

67: What was the last book I’ve read?

Actually I just reread The Martian.

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

Not especially? I’m indifferent.

69: Do I have any nicknames?

Not really.

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

Hip and lower back from sleeping on the floor.

71: Do I spend money or save it?

GOD I SPEND SO MUCH MONEY.

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?

Nope!

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?

Does kitty cat toe beans count?

74: Favourite animal?

Otters I think.

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

Talking to a cutie.

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

Natas

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

In Too Deep by Sum 41

78: How can you win my heart?

Be nerdy with me.

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

S C R E M

80: What is my favorite word?

Hullo?

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

@miidoriilol @mama-hellscream @pearlmaiden @crowfeather-queen @funkypanda

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

Can ya’ll just... Get along?

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?

Negative.

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

The power to control luck and probability.

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

Do you want to finish school?

86: What is my current desktop picture?

100 Thieves logo.

87: Had sex?

Oh yes.

88: Bought condoms?

Most definitely.

89: Gotten pregnant?

Negative.

90: Failed a class?

Yup.

91: Kissed a boy?

I have not.

92: Kissed a girl?

Multiple. At different times.

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

No but its a cliche I’d love to experience.

94: Had job?

A couple

95: Left the house without my wallet?

Multiple occasions.

96: Bullied someone on the internet?

No cuz bullies are shit.

97: Had sex in public?

Yep once.

98: Played on a sports team?

Nope not really.

99: Smoked weed?

Yep.

100: Did drugs?

Not really.

101: Smoked cigarettes?

I’ve tried it. I hate it.

102: Drank alcohol?

Oh yeah

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

Nope.

104: Been overweight?

All the time.

105: Been underweight?

Never.

106: Been to a wedding?

Two I think.

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

On multiple occasions.

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

LOTS OF TIMES.

109: Been outside my home country?

More times than I can count.

110: Gotten my heart broken?

Yup.

111: Been to a professional sports game?

A few. They’re always fun.

112: Broken a bone?

Never.

113: Cut myself?

Uhhh a few times.

114: Been to prom?

Yup and it sucked.

115: Been in airplane?

I love traveling.

116: Fly by helicopter?

Never but I’d love to.

117: What concerts have I been to?

ADTR, Blink-182, Sum 41, Green Day, and a few others.

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

Not really into it.

119: Learned another language?

Learned Mandarin as a young child.

120: Wore make up?

Nope but I’m not against it.

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

Nope I lost it at 20

122: Had oral sex?

Yes

123: Dyed my hair?

Never tried.

124: Voted in a presidential election?

Yup. I voted for Obama and Hillary.

125: Rode in an ambulance?

Yup

126: Had a surgery?

Never.

127: Met someone famous?

YEP BUT I DIDN’T KNOW AT THE TIME.

128: Stalked someone on a social network?

A little bit.

129: Peed outside?

Yeah a few times lol

130: Been fishing?

With my grandpa a bunch of times.

131: Helped with charity?

Yeah! And honestly it does feel great.

132: Been rejected by a crush?

Multiple times.

133: Broken a mirror?

Yeah its surprisingly satisfying.

134: What do I want for birthday?

THE FUCKING ADIDAS DRAGONBALL Z SNEAKER COLLAB COLLECTION.

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?

Probably none.

136: Was I named after anyone?

Nope.

137: Do I like my handwriting?

Not even a little

138: What was my favourite toy as a child?

I had a megazord that I loved to play with.

139: Favourite Tv Show?

Right now? My Hero Academia.

140: Where do I want to live when older?

Taipei, Taiwan

141: Play any musical instrument?

Yup! I played the sax.

142: One of my scars, how did I get it?

Self harm.

143: Favourite pizza topping?

Mushrooms.

144: Am I afraid of the dark?

Kind of? not really.

145: Am I afraid of heights?

Oh yeah.

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?

LMAO all the fucking time

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

Uhhhhh story of my life?

148: What I’m really bad at

Lots of things. Focusing.

149: What my greatest achievements are

Learning coding and ethical hacking.

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me

“I don’t love you anymore” “I’m glad your grandpa is dead so he wouldn’t have to see how disappointing you are.”

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery

Pay off all of my parent’s debt and save the rest.

152: What do I like about myself

I’m actually really sweet and cute.

153: My closest Tumblr friend

@pearlmaiden

154: Something I fantasize about

Being successful.

155: Any question you’d like?

@pearlmaiden you didn’t ask me a question

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Bookshelf Briefs 12/26/17

Absolute Duo, Vol. 2 | By Shinichirou Nariie, Takumi Hiragiboshi, and You Asaba | Seven Seas – I gave this one more volume, but last time I said that if you didn’t realize there was another released you’d barely care, and if anything I was understating it. Most of the volume consists of the class fighting against each other, showing off their various cool moves. Of course, it all ends up with the characters we’re familiar with facing each other, and the introverted busty girl turns out to have a sword as large as her chest. The trouble is that there are so many other series coming out with magical schools, including many with only one major male character, and this does not have anything that lets it stand out above the pack. The definition of ‘meh.’ – Sean Gaffney

Arpeggio of Blue Steel, Vol. 12 | By Ark Performance | Seven Seas – Most of this volume is dedicated to trying to take out Kongou, the arrogant blonde warship on the cover who sees herself as invincible and whose fate is therefore almost pre-determined. Again, we see the value in not only treating the mental models as real beings with values and feelings, but also trusting others—Iona wins as she trusts the humans on her crew to do things for her so that she can concentrate on this. Even the two chibis who were captured last time, whose names I still can’t really remember, are able to see this and compare it to their own side. That said, Iona does make them wear tracksuits as punishment, so it’s clear that the good guys torture too. An excellent mecha series. – Sean Gaffney

Flying Witch, Vol. 4 | By Chihiro Ishizuka | Vertical Comics – Um… cute! Fluffy! More cute! Seriously, some series I don’t have enough to say about for full reviews, but Flying Witch may be the first series that I genuinely enjoy but don’t even have enough to say for a Bookshelf Brief. Sometimes the focus is magical, as when Makoto meets up with her bike-riding senpai for a status report, or befriends a pokemon-like creature on the beach. And sometimes it’s pure high school slice-of-life, as when they all make lunch in home ec class… and forget to cook the rice. My favorite chapter may have been the apple-picking, which was filled with amusing sight gags and lots of cuteness. There is no plot and no character development, but Flying Witch remains light fun. Very light. – Sean Gaffney

Golden Kamuy, Vol. 3| By Satoru Noda | Viz Media – Everything I said about the second volume applies here. There’s quite a bit of nasty gore, including intestines being used in ways they probably shouldn’t be, much killing of animals, a whole lot of urine and feces, etc. There is also a large amount of what amounts to early 20th century Ainu recipes, as we learn the finer arts of how to kill and eat various animals in the wild. Fortunately, there is also some light relief this time around, coming from some very eccentric side characters, as well as our heroes getting drunk on sake, with all that that entails. I’m still not sure where Golden Kamuy is going with its treasure map, but as long as it has fun characters and delicious (if sometimes gross) food, I’ll keep reading. – Sean Gaffney

Magi: The Labyrinth of Magic, Vol. 27 | By Shinobu Ohtaka | Viz Media – So for about two-thirds of the volume, I wondered if Ohtaka was really going to pretend that she had killed off Alibaba after all, as well as sent Judar! Into! Spaaaaaaaace! But not quite, as we now have the separate adventures of Judar and a sort of… Alibaba toy… fighting aliens on another planet. Which is probably for the best, as it puts them away from the war that begins in this volume. The best part of the book is the growth, painful though it is, of Aladdin, who has to come to terms with the fact that Hakuryu is likely correct. “I may be unhappy… but I don’t want YOU to decide how I live.” The fact that it’s done sympathetically makes it even worse, and Aladdin has a lot to think about. Next time: war! – Sean Gaffney

Magi: The Labyrinth of Magic, Vol. 27 | By Shinobu Ohtaka | VIZ Media – Despite appearances from last volume’s cliffhanger, Hakuryu actually won his duel with Alibaba, as the latter has had his soul banished to another dimension by Hakuryu’s new djinn. That’s certainly dramatic enough, but Aladdin’s victory over Judar is even more chilling—he casts a permanent spell on him that causes him to continue moving in the same direction forever, “no matter what objects he strikes or what damage he takes.” Cool! Part of me sincerely wishes both of these deeds were allowed to stick, but oh well. I can’t say I am sad to see Alibaba’s spirit and Judar reunited on an alien world. Meanwhile, war is brewing and it’s looking mighty intense. I am already looking forward to one day undertaking a marathon reread of Magi. I suspect it’ll be even more potent when consumed without interruption. – Michelle Smith

Re:Monster, Vol. 3 | By Kogitsune Kanekiru and Haruyoshi Kobayakawa| Seven Seas – I suspect that the readers of Re: Monster fall into two categories: young teenage boys who want masturbation fodder, and older boys (at least at heart) who want to laugh out loud at the pure ridiculousness of this power fantasy. Everything in this volume is the same as the last two, only MORE. Mi becomes a hot dhampir (complete with spectacles, to make her even more of a Rider ripoff), Kichi and E hook up in the most muscley romance ever, the redheaded swordsman eats monster meat and thus also starts gaining weird abilities (and oral skills), and this remains the most hilariously NOT T-for-Teen series Seven Seas has ever released. Recommended if you’re shameless or a young teenage boy. – Sean Gaffney

Say “I Love You,” Vol. 18 | By Kanae Hazuki | Kodansha Comics – Sometimes shoujo series end by simply connecting all the dots, and that’s what happens in this final volume. The hooked up couples get married or have kids (or both), Megumi finally returns to Japan and gets decent work again (and a boyfriend, possibly, though that’s going to take a lot longer than just a pat ending can deliver), and everyone is happy and content. I’ll admit it, it seemed a bit too pat for me at times, but after eighteen volumes of a whole lot of angst, I am willing to see everyone here smiling and married off. This was one of the first Dessert series to be licensed, along with My Little Monster, and we now have a flood of titles from that magazine, so it was a trailbalazer. I’ll miss it. – Sean Gaffney

Yowamushi Pedal, Vol. 7 | By Wataru Watanabe | Yen Press – The end of day one of the Inter-High is in sight! With only two kilometers to go, Imaizumi must help propel Kinjou to the finish line, and struggles mightily to stay even with his counterpart from Hakone. But just as the two aces make their break, who should appear (in a very effective two-page spread) but super-creepy Midousuji, who has saved his energy for this moment! What ensues is a three-way battle for first place, in which you get sequential panels with dialogue like, “Haauuughh!!,” “Rarrrrgh!!,” and “Haaargh!!” All of the racing stuff is exciting, of course, but my favorite moments were Hakone’s Toudou being really complimentary to Onoda, Makishima worrying about his teammates, and Onoda’s insistence on day two that he is not going to leave a struggling Tadokoro behind. I’m sad I have to wait until April for more! – Michelle Smith

By: Michelle Smith

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You want a lot of questions?! Even numbers! All of them. Because I'm horrible ?

Right, well, first off, fuck you :)

second, this is going under a read more

third, I’m leaving out the ones I know you already know/I don’t want to answer

2: Do I have any nicknames? Ninzz3: Zodiac sign? Aquarius4: Video game I play to chill, not to win? Tomb Raider Legend. I got every achievement possible in it years ago so it’s like a comforting, familiar walk for me.5: Book/series I reread? The only one I constantly reread is Memoirs of A Geisha, which I’ve read over 25 times, but I have read 1984 and the Call of Cthulhu several times as well.6: Aliens or ghosts? If I had to pick one, aliens. Because my space parents are always dicks to me and the other ones figured out how to paralyse me7: Writer I trust enough to read whatever they write? I don’t have one of those because I’m not a huge reader in the conventional sense and most of my favourite authors are dead.10: The word that I use all the time to describe something great? Awesome or nice11: Favourite song? Right now it’s Darkwave Surfer or Innsmouth, both by Aural Vampire12: The question you ask new friends to get to know them better? What books and movies they like. It’s always a good yardstick 14: The last person who hurt me, did I forgive them? Yes. I could never stay angry at you for long15: Last song I listened to? Right now I’m listening to Burning For You - Blue Oyster Cult. Before that it was Jane - Jefferson Starship16: TV show I always recommend? It depends very much on what the other person is asking for, but in a more general sense? Buffy, AHS, Xena, Parks and Rec, Breaking Bad, Brooklyn 99. I’m not a huge TV watcher, I never saw any of those on TV when they were on, only on tape, DVD or streaming services. 18: Movie I watch when I'm feeling down? Girl Interrupted, Memoirs of A Geisha, Star Wars, Practical Magic, The Matrix. These always bring me out of a bad mood19: Song that I always start my shuffle with/wake-up song/always-on-a-loop song? My alarm is Gimme Shelter - Rolling Stones21: What am I most afraid of? Onryo34: Someone I always think about? You!35: Am I excited about anything? My moon phase tattoos, which I’m getting in just over a week37: Favourite TV shows as a child? Buffy has been a firm favourite for as long as I can remember. All my favourite kids shows were like... Mona the Vampire and Arthur, 38: Do I have someone of the opposite sex that I can tell everything to? No, not really. I’m weird about men39: Am I superstitious? Yes41: Do I have any strange phobias? I wouldn’t say any of mine are strange. Irrational, perhaps, but not strange.42: Do I prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? I love taking photographs of people, but I rarely get the chance. To be in front of the camera it would have to be a stranger paying me to do it, or someone I trust very much.44: Last book I read? Right now I’m reading Brave New World by Aldous Huxley. One of my best friend’s brother recommended it to me.45: Last film I watched? In Her Shoes50: How do I destress? If I’m really stressed out I’ll just pull a fanon hux and fuck myself until I pass out. I’m too boneless and sated to care about anything else51: Do I like confrontation? A sick little part of me does take pleasure in it when it’s someone I don’t really like54: Do I sleep with the lights on or off? On because I see things in the dark and it scares me55: Play any sports? No, but I enjoy swimming and gymnastics.59: Afraid of heights? As much as any sensible person is.61: What was the last concert I went to see? I’ve never been to one, not as such. I saw a live performance when I was a kid by some singer that committed suicide a few years after. 62: Am I vegetarian/vegan/pescatarian? No. But I could probably be vegetarian if I needed to be?63: What occupation did I want to do when I was younger? I wanted to be a vet.64: Have I ever had a friend turn enemy? Not as such, but I’ve had friendships turn so toxic that I’ve had to end them.70: Can I sing? I’ve been told I can so I guess, yes. I don’t feel I’m very good though.71: Something I wish I could do? fucking anything, lol73: Have I ever skipped school? Yes. Once I went out and smoked weed with a couple friends and went back into the school, where I then held onto a sink and had an existential crisis because it wasn’t weed, it was fucking skunk!!77: What is my current desktop picture? A picture of Rey on a speeder, half naked78: Early bird or night owl? Night owl for sure79: Sunsets or sunrise? sunset80: Can I drive? Yes81: Story behind my last kiss? I was leaving for my train home, it was a goodbye kiss.82: Earphones or headphones? Headphones84: Story behind one of my scars? I have a chickenpox scar in the middle of my forehead. And one on my left middle knuckle from trying to punch someone and hitting the wall because they moved.88: What makes me really angry? People who have lots of money asking me why I can’t just, like, buy the things I want??89: Kindle or real book? Real books, I detest kindles.90: Favourite sporty activity? If walking doesn’t count, swimming or climbing. I can’t do much of either these days because CFS92: What was my favourite subject at school? Geology. I’m a dirty rock lover94: What was the last thing I bought? A case for my new phone, because my other one got broken, oops96: Can I cook? If I follow a recipe exactly I’m great, but if I don’t... It’s pretty disastrous.97: Can I bake? Same rules as cooking.103: Sexual orientation? This is a question that perplexes me too! I have figured out that I’m gay mostly because I am unable to trust men enough to even form true friendships with them without doubting their motives. They always want sex from me, most have gone to ridiculous lengths to get it from me, and when I refuse? They force their attentions on me. 106: Last time I cried? Last week. I had a breakdown when the above finally occurred to me during therapy, among other similarly unpleasant revelations107: Guilty pleasure? ???113: Favourite accents? I dunno, I like lots of different ones.114: A place I have not been but wish to visit? Maine!117: Am I religious? Yes, I am. I consider myself pagan but I’m not sure what subset I fall into.119: Do I like the deep ocean? I suppose so, It’s interesting! There are lots of strange little creatures down there that could be my friends.121: Am I allergic to anything? No, not that I know of.122: Can I curl my tongue? Yes123: Can I wiggle my ears? No126: My current project? Your birthday gift. After that I plan to start a Star Wars tarot deck.128: Do I admit when I wrong? Yes, I try to. Sometimes I’m so stubborn that I don’t realise I’m in the wrong but the moment I do I try and apologise129: Forest or beach? I love both very much. I couldn’t choose one. 130: Favourite piece of advice? ‘Stay afraid but do it anyway’131: Am I a good liar? When it suits me. Acting like a bad liar makes it all the more convincing when you need to do it for real.133: Do I talk to myself? Literally all the time, I basically respond to my own thoughts by talking.135: Do I like gossip? I despise it136: Do I keep a journal/diary? I keep several: One for mind stuff/events/feelings, one for dreams, one for sexual fantasies, one for magical information, one for ideas, and one for general information. I also keep notes on my calendar. Whenever I go on a trip I keep a journal specifically for that and save all my ticket stubs and leaflets and photographs.137: Have I ever hopelessly failed a test? I must have at some point but I can’t say I remember.138: Do I believe in second chances? I’m a bad for giving people extra chances when I really shouldn’t.139: If I found a wallet full of cash on the ground, what would I do? Take the money and then put it in a lost and found.140: Do I believe people are capable of change? I suppose so. At their very core, perhaps not.141: Have I ever been underweight? Yes. Quite severely - about 90lbs146: Have I ever been overweight? Never. I’ve been more muscular but that doesn’t really count. I had an extra 20lbs of muscle a few years ago.147: Do I have any piercings? I have my ears, a labret, and the left side of my nose. I had my nipples pierced for about a year149: Do I have any tattoos? Three right now, soon to be four. runes on either wrist, and script that reads ‘destiny rules’ on my left shoulder150: What is the best decision I have made in life so far? To not go to college. I would certainly have killed myself by now if I had151: Do I believe in Karma? yes 152: Do I wear glasses or contacts? glasses, contacts in this house would be a very bad idea because of all the dust and fluff155: Who is the most intelligent person I know? The friend that recommended Brave New World. I’m quite intelligent but he makes me feel very, very stupid.158: Have I ever pulled an all-nighter? Yes, many times159: Which do I value more in others, brains or beauty? Brains, obviously. I’ve known some very beautiful people that are just horrible.160: What colour mostly dominates my wardrobe? No single colour, actually. I have a lot of white, blue, purple/burgundy, and black. Also earthy, light tan colours.161: Have I ever had a paranormal experience? I’ve had too many to list!162: What do I hate most about myself? That I’m so jealous. Especially of people with more money than me, I think about that almost every day and it makes me boil with rage.163: What do I love most about myself? That’s a very hard question to answer without seeming narcissistic. I guess I like that I’m a loyal friend, willing to deal with a whooooole lot.165: Do I believe in fate? Of course, or I wouldn’t have that destiny rules tattoo would I166: Favourite animal? Hard to say. I like snakes, spiders, dogs, cats and all sorts170: One of my favourite quotes? Just one? Awwww. ‘We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far.’ - H.P Lovecraft171: Do I hold grudges? No, I don’t. Or else I would become the very thing I fear.172: Do I trust easily? No, not at all! It takes a long time for me to trust a person, if I ever do174: Best gift I’ve ever received? Hard to say. In terms of sentimental value, these: your japor snippet, Noodle and Leia, the velvet dress, Agnetha, my tattoos, the Kylo bear... those are all I can think of right now. In terms of usefulness, these: my previous phone, drawing tablet, TV, leather coat and trousers, that sort of thing.175: Do I dream? Yes, often.176: Have I ever had a night terror? Many times thought it happened more when I was a child.177: Do I remember my dreams, and what is one that comes to mind? I remember them vividly when I do, and I remember one where I missed a train. The station was underground and all steel, grey and sterile. Someone told me to run through a tunnel that reminded me of the book tunnels in Apocrypha, in that it stretched out in front of me as I ran through and in the gaps was Holly, riding a unicorn. It was very odd.179: If I were immortal, what would I do? If it meant I didn’t have to eat anymore then great! I could do anything I wanted.180: Do I like shopping? I would, if I actually had money. 181: If I could get away with a crime, what would I choose to do? Murder182: What does “family” mean to me? People that love you unconditionally and are there for you when you need them185: If I could master one skill, what would I choose? Sex, because then I would be able to do what I love and be boss at it186: What is my greatest failure? Boy, let me count the ways187: What is my greatest achievement? I don’t actually know. I can’t say I’ve achieved anything of note. I’ve done some cool stuff, but are they achievements? Probably not.188: Love or money? Love of money is the root of all sin, but money cannot buy love189: Love or career? Love, I couldn’t give a shit about careers194: If I could choose my last words, what would they be? See you next time195: Would I ever want to encounter aliens? I have done. Some, I would never choose to meet but the others I don’t mind196: A movie that scared me as a child? The Ring, thanks to that shit I have a psychological complex about onryo197: Something I hated as a child that I like now? Being spanked201: A nightmare that has stayed with me? Always the onryo, I remember every nightmare I have about them very vividly203: Do I judge a book by its cover? everybody does to some extent, right? it has to catch your eye in the first place204: Have I ever had my heart broken? I’d say so, yes. I am recovering.205: Do I like my handwriting? I guess so. It changes a lot, I never think about it206: Sweet or savoury? savoury208: Do I collect anything? I collect lots of things; bottle caps, coins, vhs tapes, etc etc209: Item of clothing or jewellery you’ll never see me without? My japor snippet and my siberian blue quartz pendant. And my various piercings. I’ve had the same earrings in for about 3 years now. 211: How do I handle anger? badly212: Was I named after anyone? Inanna, the Sumerian goddess of love, fertility, sex, and war.213: Do I use sarcasm a lot? Yeah...214: What TV character am I most like? Probably a strange mix of Andy and April from Parks and Rec215: What is the weirdest talent I have? I don’t have one, now that I think about it. I have hyperextended elbows216: Favourite fictional character? Tough one, tough one. Right now it has to be Kylo. But the most enduring would have to be Padme. I have a sticker of her on my bedroom door that I put there in 2000.

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February 6th 2017

So it's been a while since I even thought about this blog, but that doesn't mean I haven't been thinking about you. In fact, I think about you pretty frequently! I've just reread all my previous posts and I'll admit I had a bit of a cry. A lot (and I mean a LOT) has changed since I last wrote. I'll try to sum up the big parts for you, since I know that if I try to write everything I'll never stop writing and also, you've been with me every step of the way! - I worked at that pottery place called The Painted Turtle for the whole summer between grades 11 and 12 for a paid co-op for SHSM, and they liked me so much they offered me a part time job for during the school year. I quit in April and worked over the next summer at the theatre, which was a really cool job. When I quit to go to college, they said they'd be happy to have me next summer. - Over the pottery summer I also did a weeklong work camp in the AMC trails with Mag. It was really hard work and we were really sore most of the time but, being the only girls AND the only Canadians we had to show them we were tough. We built bridges and a neat rock turnpike to redirect a stream. - Grade 12 was alright, nothing too special. I really liked my English teacher, and she really liked me too. Her name was Ms. Cox and come to think of it, I think of it, you guys would've gotten along really well. I also had a horrendous teacher who I am pretty sure you would've had a very intense argument with. I talked to an in school counsellor named Robyn a lot and she helped me out with a lot of self harm and depression stuff. - I graduated with a gold medal, which meant I had an average of above 85%. I think you would've been proud of that. I also got an award (which for the life of me I can't remember the name of) which basically meant "you had a really rough go of it, but you kept your grades up and stayed positive!" I wore a pair of your earrings as I walked across the stage. - I got into art college! I go to Sheridan college in Oakville, I'm in a program that's called Advanced Visual & Creative Arts. It's a 3 year program that basically will introduce me to all sorts of materials and methods so I can decide where I want to go at the end of it. Right now I'm torn between special effects makeup / props for movie and tattooing. - Over the summer between grade 12 and college, dad wasn't really around much. He was pretty busy with rotary and gateway and a bunch of other stuff, but that's alright because neither was Tim, Jeremy's dad. Therefore we spent a lot of time together over the summer, which was actually really good for us I think. I don't know if you really met Jeremy but he's my best friend & I love him a lot. I really wish you could know him now. He also goes to Sheridan for media, but he's going to Thunder Bay next year for teachers college. I'm really gonna miss him. - In early August of 2016 Biscuit passed away. Dad accidentally left him in the back of the Subaru on a hot day. It was awful to find him, dad tried to do CPR but he was already gone. It was absolutely horrible. Dad cried a lot and was really really sorry to me, I've only ever seen him cry that much when you passed away. He and I both knew that that could have easily driven a wedge between us because (his words) "he killed my dog" but I didn't want that to happen so although he knew I was upset and deeply hurting I also knew it was an accident and it was not on purpose. I think dad was very thankful that it was not nasty between us afterwards. I really miss him because now there is only Felix and dad here when I come home from college. He is buried next to Beck in the backyard with a stick, some dog food & treats, and a ball. - It feels really weird to not have a dog, I want to get one when I move to an apartment but I know it wouldn't be fair to the dog, so I have to wait for a bit. I get sad and happy at the same time when I see dogs now. - The psychiatrist I saw ended up putting me on some anti-depressants. We went through I think 2 or 3 meds before we ended up on Teva Quetiapine, which I'm still taking now and will probably take for a while. - I figured out that I've had depression since I was about 8 or 9. It got really bad in grade 11 and 12, and one time I almost jumped off a building but I was kind of starving myself at the time so I was too tired to make it up the stairs. Looking back now, I'm really really glad I didn't jump. I still have my ups and downs, but it's safe to say that I am the happiest I have ever been (or at least, remember being). I know this would make you sad to hear but I feel like I wasn't open with you in the past about mental health so I guess now is my chance to tell you everything. - I still self harm sometimes, although not nearly as often as I used to. I was a few months clean before last week's relapse, and even longer before that one. I talk to Jeremy when I get bad like that and he's always able to help me out, especially because we both live in residence so he's never more than a 5 minute walk away. - That girlfriend I had when you were sick actually turned out to be a really bad girlfriend. We dated for about 7 or 8 months before I broke up with her, and it was only after I broke up with her and talked to Wendy about her that I realized she was pretty shitty to me. She was emotionally manipulative and abusive, and cut me off from my friends and guilted me into doing stuff i didn't really want to do. (not sex, don't worry). she would threaten to kill herself if I left her and I was afraid to bring up issues in our relationship for fear she would hurt herself. partly because of her (and mostly because of me) I haven't been in any other relationships- I'm not very good with being touched by people I'm not comfortable with and I get panicky very easily when being romantically pursued, even if the other person means no harm. romantic / dating stuff freaks me out a lot, but sex is easier (not what you want to hear, I know, but it's the truth). I am working on it though, and have gone on one or two dates! - Donald Trump is the president of the states now. I cried when he was elected. So did one of my profs. Every day he seems to commit some atrocity that makes my heart hurt. The day after his inauguration there was a Women's March, which was the largest protest in US history. I think you would've liked that. - I don't like coming home anymore, I don't even call it home. Every bad thing that's happened to me has happened to some degree in the house, so whenever I come back I get sad and angry and it takes me a week of being back at school to be okay again. the feelings that I had when it all was happening just come back when I'm there- depression, self harm, my ex, you being sick and passing, dad's sickness and Biscuit dying... it's just too much to go back to when I am doing so well at Sheridan. I have talked about it with Dad, Jane and Nanny. I think I'm going to spend the summer with Jane and work in Guelph. - Because I'm 18 now I am legally in charge of some of the money I have inherited from you. In class the other day I was reading an economics book and a girl asked why I was reading that kind of book. I explained that I inherited money and now wanted to educate myself on how to handle it. She responded with "you inherited money? that's so cool!" which startled me a little. I would rather have you back in my life than your money and responsibilities. That stung a little bit. - Despite what I had hoped college doesn't seem to have a lot of people who are on the same level as me. Don't get me wrong, my friends are smart and fun but i still feel the same disconnect I felt through grade school, where I wanted to be friends with the profs more than the kids. on the plus side, everyone thinks I am very mature and a lot of my friends were surprised when I told them I was 18, not 23 like they thought. I love you and miss you.

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