#we didn’t fail enough

[filibusterphil]

My hot take from the dnd movie is that Edgin is not a bard (no magic) but instead is a mastermind rogue with the entertainer background.

#honor among thieves #dnd #dnd movie #edgin darvis #obviously the not hot take is there were not enough gay people to be representative of a true dnd campaign #and an insane number of wild shapes but it was cool so I’ll allow it #very fun movie #though I needed some more Nat ones/low rolls #we didn’t fail enough #still absolutely recommend #even though our not-a-bard didn’t even try and bone the hot paladin

[clownjacket]

Okay my crack theory for Lucy’s god situation:

What if instead of dying Lucy’s god became an archfey and fucked off, forsaking all of their followers. I could see that as justifiable for a minor god—maybe you don’t want your personality and existence to be dependent on a group of people small enough for a really big hurricane to wipe them out. Maybe you want to try your hand at self actualization, which you can’t really do as a god. Whatever.

But that would still mean Lucy’s grades would be screwed for the year, and the whole group would be switched to pass/fail.

Whatever god they’re trying to bring back seems like they want to stay a god, but would also only have a single living cleric so their nature would be heavily influenced by who that cleric is, and could still be controlled. Bringing back an established dead god with living followers probably reduces the risk of the god immediately dying or completely sucking ass/not being powerful like what happened with YES!(?), and we know the Ratgrinders LOVE minimizing risk. And choosing a dead god that represents something Lucy is actually passionate about preaching and proselytizing would make her work as a cleric much easier for her emotionally than, say, switching to Helio and just going through the motions, and bringing back a god would probably look good on college resumes.

Idk, that’s just an alternative theory to Lucy’s god dying based on what’s been established this season.

#fantasy high #the ratgrinders #ratgrinders #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 #this is an idea I came up with while basically writing fanfiction in my head about a possible route Ivy’s story could go #that would make the ragtringers not evil / kind of justified #basically my ‘what if’ plot line is that Ivy’s god forsakes her during the sophomore spring project and that leads to her loosing her power #and the ratgrinders having to choose a pacifistic quest to go on because they no longer have a healer but can’t tell anybody #hence why they didn’t kill anything during their sophomore quest but seemingly still passed with a letter grade #(we know Ivy’s death was only reported after grading was completed—which means they wouldn’t have been switched to pass/fail) #Now Ivy is thinking about what grade to switch to before the end of the year so she doesn’t fail #all while covering up her god forsook her to the school until she has her replacement figured out #but WHOOPS something happens and she dies anyway…but with no afterlife she’s stuck as a ghost. The ratgrinders will all fail if they report #her dead right then-and Ivy doesn’t want that for her friends-so instead the ratgrinders disguise self as her and fake her cleric powers #with their own in class just enough to keep her from failing the year…then after grading closes they report her as dead to Augfort and ask #for his help in reviving her like he did the bad kids. But he tells them that he brought the bad kids back by taking their place in #the afterlife; if Ivy’s stuck as a ghost and not in an afterlife than there’s nothing he can do right now but he’ll look into it oh wait #his DAUGHTER is back and they need to bond nevermind here are some resources during this endless night that you can read up on to try to #find a way to bring your dead friend back on your own have FUN high schoolers I believe in you but it’s Ayda time! #so the ratgrinders did a bunch of research on their own and they found that a god could bring her back to life and the only one willing to #do that would probably be a preestablished dead god they brought back to life (similar to Kristen with Cassandra). This red god is just #the safest bet they found in the books to complete their plan #I won’t call all THAT a theory because it’s based on nothing but that’s my idea for a direction her backstory could go #also pretend whenever I wrote ‘ivy’ in this little end section I actually wrote Lucy #I canNOT believe I made that mistake #Cassandra save me

[soullessjack]

idk i just think it’s a little weird that almost every character who gets the “innocent baby” / “little ray of sunshine” treatment usually ends up just having neurodivergent traits and actual negative traits in the show that nobody pays attention to. like idk man it just feels like diet infantilization to me and it’s a teeny weeny bit uncomfortable to see all the time

#what’s even weirder is that half of these precious sunshine baby characters will canonically have some kind of temper too 😭😭 #like sorry I don’t think Adrien is an innocent ray of sunshine he was literally destroying property out of spite 😭😭 #cal.txt #autism stuff #fandom ableism #infantilization #she ra spop #entrapta #spn #supernatural #jack kline #autistic jack kline #adrien agreste #Like of course he isn’t canonically ND but the whole angle of his social awkwardness and unawareness #miraculous ladybug #it’s still a common trait in ND people and it’s probably the most infantilized aspect of us #but come on man #and don’t even get me started on jack. we know how I feel #TLDR jack strangling the gas n sip employee in a rage so blind he had to be shot in the back to snap out of it #like am I alone in this am I detecting a pattern that nobody else is . #siigghhh #we will never be free 😭😭😭😭 #castiel #at some point in the fandom and probably still in a few corners #autistic representation #this goes for when a character is simply coded that way too #like I cannot stress enough how coding and representation work #I also cannot stress enough that ableism does not have to be intentional to be ableism holy BALLS dude #you can do it by accident!!! you can play into tropes that you didn’t realize were bad!!!! ITS NOT A MORAL FAILING ON YOUR PART #it’s just a product of society like everything else.

[cleric4vampire]

aune just healed astarion and said, “I’ll kiss it better later”… excuse me

sobbing but also jumping off the walls but also giggling and kicking my feet

#this has probably *BEEN* in the game but this bitch historically never says her lines so 💀 #im having a moment. #also the actual circumstances that lead up to the healing was the dumbest thing: #we went back to the putrid bog just so I could take screenshots in the swamp lmfao. shadowheart and astarion came along #I ofc did not give enough of a fuck to navigate around the traps in the water because it’s fine they won’t die #but for the first time ever aune and astarion did not make their saving throws from the bleed condition (shadowheart was fine of course 🙄) #'bleeding' turned into 'open wounds' (or maybe we started with open wounds idk) #I was like “oh shit never seen that before! should probably do something about it!” so aune healed astarion #I didn’t heal aune because I wanted to see what would happen #what happened was 'open wounds' turned into 'rotting' which turned into 'flesh rot' lmao 😩 #YEAH IDK WHY SHE KEPT FAILING HER SAVING THROWS??? GIRL????? #oc: durge!aune #astarion x durge!aune #bg3 #my posts

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

A Botanical Daughter

historical fantasy

a taxidermist and botanist who live in a greenhouse in a botanical garden, far away from the disapproval of Victorian London

when they receive a shipment of a strange sentient fungi, they cultivate it inside a corpse of a recently murdered girl - who was the best friend/lover of their new housekeeper

as she grows and expands her desires they have to deal with their feelings about the potential monster they’ve created

#A Botanical Daughter #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #man I really wanted to like this but I kinda had to force myself to finish it. #really not a fan of the writing style which is very emotionally distant and full of a lot of telling not showing #it could have gotten weird and atmospheric with the writing style! we could have gotten sentient fungi POV! but no. #The characters were flat. the conceptually weird/creepy/horror aspects were executed in the most boring way #the relationship between the men is something we’re told exists but…. I don’t feel it. I don’t like them as characters. #They’re not even interesting enough to hate - or like it could have gone in the direction of embracing the unhinged murder couple vibes #they flip flop between angry arguments and making up and I’m like what is the point of that?? Honestly I didn’t feel any emotional connecti #it kinda feels like it doesn’t know whether it’s whimsical quirky-cozy vibes or like properly gothic horror #it’s somewhere in between & fails at both. it maybe suffers from trying to play into the popularity of coziness #the closest to weird we get is plant lesbian sex scene but also I laughed out loud when I read the line ‘hungry for her loam’ #like…..these men essentially create this person then cut her off from the world and her biological desires; control her autonomy/ability #to speak and the conclusion is <3 what a weird little family <3 and not she should #escape and kill them and/or make them grapple with the fact they are at fault for this potential ecological disaster let loose on the world #there’s also weird colonialist lines scattered throughout that don’t feel super interrogated…

[siriusfelis]

Technically I graduate in 2 years but I want to go back for a second degree in biology. I’ve always been walking the line between my two passions… it’s made me feel so unfulfilled only going with art. Plus… art school has made me realize I really don’t like the art industry and wouldn’t thrive in the “storyboarding/visdev” realm. I want to be a scientific illustrator, or at the very least work in a scientific field. I always have.

If only student loans weren’t so overwhelming

#we did botanical illustration for one of our last painting projects and I LOVED it. I loved it #in class my instructor posed the question #‘what made you take the leap to pursue an art career? hold onto that.’ #and I just had to sit there like… I don’t know? I only did because I didn’t feel adequate enough to go into science #but #that’s only because I didn’t have any support or accommodations growing up #I stuck to what I knew I wouldn’t fail at #and now that I’m in school #I love learning art. it’s enjoyable and satisfying to improve #but something is missing. and that’s science work #it’s just. god I wish it was easier to exist #I’m only 20. how am I supposed to figure out my whole life #🌋 #🏕️ #< ​I guess

[roszabell]

i need to get my shit together fr, im j a freshman but i slid into quite a few important classes for my minor/career track that i need to get at least a B in to get into grad school, so that’s fun!!! i’m just falling behind and in my important psych class i keep underestimating it and making dumb mistakes. i have my commissions done now which was a lot of what was stealing my attention but i’ve only got a month to get these one or two C grades up and i’m nervyyyyyyyyyyy

#had to get this out here so someone else knows and it’s not just a goal in my head #thots n prayers #should i have waited to take so much important shit 😭😭 #i don’t wanna be retaking credits esp ones i didn’t FAIL but were just not enough #i’m chilling i’m not scared shitless rn but today is my scheduled turning point of the semester #so here we go

[pierog]

so i applied for a DREAM JOB and out of 6000 applicants!!! I ended up in the final 15 😟

…and I did SOOOOO soooooo well til the very last round 😔 i accidentally became privy to some scathing information from the judging panel. ouuuuuuuchhhh lol my insecurities.

proud of myself for being true to myself and getting far as i did, though.

#also i got covid so feeling a bit self pitying at the moment #i honestly have massive beef with their criticisms #i left this country when i was 5 and have ended up with a lot of cultural differences #sorry English ppl reading this but i feel like the UK is very caught up on appearances. for example: #it’s an outdoorsy job and the panel were unimpressed i didn’t come in my hiking boots + wet weather gear #umm…. yeah because we are SITTING INSIDE ON A SUMMER’S DAY??? #it felt like posing to me? i grew up in rural NZ so I’ve spent majority of my life in the bush #PS most of the hiking boots i did see were obviously pristine and never taken on an actual hike 🙄 #yes i own that stuff. no im not gonna wear it just to prove a point. i wore jeans and the same shoes ive been wearing while hiking across #europe these last 2 months. #also the NZ wilderness is so much more rugged like these hikes in UK/europe would barely count as a casual day walk to me #so our standards are very different #and we both left feeling quite unimpressed with each other I think #i’ll provide one more rant: one of the exercises involved wiring up a plug. i did it successfully but failed cos I didn’t plug it in after #well um. my mama is a scientist and taught me not to fuck with electricity unless i’m 100% sure #yes I did all the wiring right but it was still my first time so I’m being cautious. apparently that’s a bad thing 🤷‍♀️ #enough rants from me but basically yeah lots of little things like that which I disagree with

[lesbegays]

yesterday we found a recently eclosed monarch butterfly that had clearly been attacked by a predator. it was leaking green fluid from a missing eye, a tear in its wing, and a hole in its abdomen. i’ve euthanized several injured or deformed butterflies in the past, but for some reason this one just really got to me. i swear it clung to my finger more intensely than any ever has before. and i know i’m anthropomorphizing but i really felt like it was scared and in pain and i’ve cried every time i’ve thought about it since

#it’s still in my freezer. i know technically stomping is the most humane way to euthanize but i can’t bring myself to do it #also i know so many scientists think insects can’t feel pain but i just don’t believe that #they can very obviously feel distress and that’s enough for me to want to minimize their suffering #i’d rather assume they do feel pain and be too kind than assume they don’t and cause unnecessary suffering #a close second was the time we had a black swallowtail that was just weak for no obvious reason and died within an hour of eclosing #just watching it keep trying to climb and fly and repeatedly fail and slowly get weaker was extremely sad #technically didn’t euthanize that one just watched it die #to be clear we don’t actively raise butterflies in captivity just the occasional caterpillar or chrysalis from plants we’re shipping #the monarch was actually not in captivity at all we just saw it outside

[un-pearable]

see when a normal company decides to revamp their product, they plan it out and develop a concrete strategy and consider how it might be received by their customers. you’d think this would doubly apply in one of the largest companies in a notoriously struggling industry desperate for a sales boost.

and yet flashpoint and the ensuing cancellation of every book for the new52 was a surprise to even the person writing flashpoint

#dc how are you still alive #idk i’m mad today and definitely not knowledgeable enough to tag this and get fact checked. #but it’s absolutely bonkers (negative) even GEOFF JOHNS didn’t plan for his story to REBOOT THE ENTIRE COMPANY #IT JUST HAPPENED #that one part in the polygon article where the guy they hired to write convergence (and resolve the new52 bc it failed so badly) #said he developed a plot line and story board to plan like he did when writing major arcs for TV shows #and was told to throw it away ‘because that’s now how we do that here’ #DC. YEAH. IT FUCKIN SHOWS 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥 #yknow as fucked as archie sonic is overall. during the 2010-2015 period im genuinely convinced even it was managed better than DC #that’s INCLUDING the lawsuits

[labyrynth]

imma be honest this whole toothpaste flag nonsense feels a whole lot like mark hamill going “aww, everyone has a musical theme EXCEPT for luke…i want a theme too!!” and then everyone else going “mark. you have a theme. luke is the main character, mark. the MAIN THEME is your theme.”

*points at gilbert baker flag* it’s right there

#ranting in tags bc that’s just how we do things here #like the other flags exist bc the rainbow flag is the GAY flag #we were called the GAY COMMUNITY for a very very long time #it was called GAY RIGHTS #and since SOME of y’all are still harping about that ‘bbbut queer is a slur!!!! wehh!!’ bullshit #the cishets don’t feel comfortable calling us the queer community #so instead they just stumble over however many letters of the alphabet soup they can remember #like i’m not really a fan of the lesbiaj flag either for a few reasons #one of which is the amount of politicking around it & how frequently lesbians apparently have no issue throwing another group under the bus #every fucking year some well meaning creator does a pride lineup & without fail someone gets mad that they didn’t use the ‘right’ flag #saying lik​e ‘oh so you could include the AsExUaL flag but not lesbian flag iteration 4.02VersionB? just say you’re lesbophobic u lesbophobe #like ok bro so 1) why don’t you send them a picture of the flag you’re talking about #2) would you even buy it if they DID have it?? #3) are you willing to source materials?? the problem with both the sunset and toothpaste flags is that their palettes are near monochrome #and with certain things it can be difficult finding enough materials that are simultaneously different enough that they look distinct #while still looking similar enough that they actually MATCH #especially if you’re trying to do the 7 stripe versions #4) did they ACTUALLY not include that flag or did they just not include the version that YOU wanted #see: used lipstick or labrys flag instead of sunset #speaking of which i ALREADY saw some poor schmuck getting yelled at for not including th toothpaste flag (they used the regular rainbow one) #like can you fucking chill #one of the other reasons i dislike both flags is the fact that they’re both for same sex attraction. again that flag already exists. #‘same sex attraction (no girls allowed)’ is really not as progressive as some of y’all seem to think #bc the whole point of having to establish female dominated areas is BECAUSE every other space is INHERENTLY male dominated #but on the other hand some lesbians act like being lesbian means they’re not gay #idk maybe it’s just the radfems being weird about it #and then there seems to be a weird trend of automatically labeling every gay woman a Lesbian (as compared to little L lesbian) #and basically assigning them a new flag that is supposedly more ‘inclusive’ than the lipstick lesbian flag #except it’s just the lipstick lesbian flag recolored and the ‘butch’ elements have more in common with the BEAR flag than any butch flag #if u wanna represent ur subculture fine. ‘gay man’ & ‘gay woman’ alone are not subcultures tho. anyway i hit tag limit so i guess i’m done.

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

i hate going “hey i might not be up to hanging out im just not doing well mentally” but also i know if im either constantly panicking or completely out of it while we’re hanging out then it won’t go well

#got into a fight with my mum because she was like ‘well why r u still scared when we’re not seeing massive waves and hospitals aren’t #overrun and this 80 year old family friend has had it three times and is fine every time #and do you look at what people who don’t have the same opinion of you are saying’ #my response to this was ‘no I do look at the scientific articles that come out though and most of the ones about covid are finding it does #damage to multiple parts of the body’ #like. i already have fibromyalgia. we’ve removed the cancerous tumor but i still have iodine radiation and have to hope the cancer cells #they found in my blood vessels didn’t go far enough to spread and if they did that the iodine destroys them #like. is a kid with fibromyalgia not enough. im not doing chemo so it’s fine right just get me sick #does she not fucking remember how it destroyed her husband. she watched it we all fucking watched for weeks as he withered away from this #fucking disease #and then everything we didn’t see we got in twice daily calls from the hospital as they told us how his kidneys failed and they were excited #when he could breathe on his side for two hours instead of just on his stomach and then it killed him #am i the only one in the household who remembers seeing my dad as a barely breathing corpse when we forced him to go to the hospital because #he couldn’t say three words or walk a few steps without panting like he’d just done a sprint #im tired of her making me feel crazy for not wanting this disease im not irrational or insane for this i promise i promise im not #im tired of her coming in 5 minutes after i leave an argument going ‘don’t be angry with me. it’s just that-‘ and then making my only safe #place in this house a part of the argument too #fuck it it’s fine I’m out in a few months anyway #vent tw #sittin g in a corner rn so that the only open space is in front of me and i can pull my legs up to my chest and my fan is on and my windows #are open and im tired of being called crazy and paranoid and irrational #covid tw

[cinewhore]

disassociating during my two and half hour exam like professor i know the main reasonings behind the emergence of Bangladesh i swear it but there’s a very interesting point on the carpet i want to stop looking at but i can’t and now I’ve exited the vehicle that is my body pls help

#i think i did pretty good! at least good enough to where if i didn’t i won’t fail lol #i liked that i actually learned something in this course #cause i usual just store stuff use it for an exam and then empty it #but now if people ask me very general questions about south east Asia #i can answer! #sort of! #tomorrow we tackle Spanish and then it’s sort of smooth sailing #now that’s what i call blogging

[spiritofjustice]

Love how anything less than expected is marked in red. Oh no we made 90,000 dollars more than last year but it wasn’t as much as we wanted to make :( we only made 95% of what was projected :( grow up lol

#psy's no punctuation posts #work tag #usually we exceed the expected amount but too bad lol #if we didn’t make enough IN DECEMBER that’s on us #also Fuck this store I want it to fail lol

[xoxavery]

the sad thing abt grill and fries is, like sandwiches, those r 2 positions you can only learn to do right by fucking it up for 2 or more days. But. After my big vacation I will commit myself to learning them so I can get promoted to shift supervisor for more $ and also so I can tell people what to do 👍

#u must fall in order to grow fail in order to grow lose in order 2 gain and life’s greatest lessons r learned thru pain 🔥🔥 #True life fact #like how I had those 2 horrible days when I didn’t tell grill to drop enough breakfast product #And we had to pull like 5 cars for biscuits #And then I dropped almost all the biscuits on the ground #but now we almost never run out of product unless we get some crazy ass orders #Sorry guys Wendy’s is my life rn I live and breathe Wendy’s I wake up I go to Wendy’s I go to sleep I go to wendys #It is both destroying and improving me

[flysafepapi]

im starting a support group for people that have read Verity by Colleen Hoover, because I just finished it (I read the entire thing in one sitting because I needed to know how it ended) and I genuinely have no idea how I feel now.

Colleen Hoover is going to get a bill for my therapy if she doesn’t tell us which version of the story was true because I cannot handle this.

#i have mixed feelings but I do admire verity’s commitment to the bit #could’ve done without all the sex but it was easy enough to scroll past #also we never got a concrete answer on whether or not the nurse knew?? #and the knife incident?? what was she doing with the knife? #I’m assuming the knife was there for defence if Jeremy figured out she was faking so?? #crew knows about the lie so why would she have the knife out around him #why didn’t she take the knife from him if they were alone #was she trying to cut his throat but failed???? #I NEED ANSWERS COLLEEN #verity by colleen hoover #colleen hoover